#they just didnt sit right lol

[vazaez]

that’s not very cis of you

BYE🛌

It's complicated alright 😭💀

#a lil personal story about this now that the topic came up: #some time ago i started questioning my gender identity but i didnt like the spanish they/them pronouns on myself #they just didnt sit right lol #so i tried using gender neutral language (ig yall know spanish is one of the many languages that is VERY gendered #even fcking objects have their own 'gender' lmao) so yea if it pas possible i phrased what i said abt myself in a pronounless way #but when it was not possible to do that id use male pronouns to try how i felt with them. the thing is that every fucking time i did that #some dude in a gc i was in said 'dO u hAvE a D¡cK????' and it made me really uncomfy as if i needed it to be able to use those pronouns 🧍 #LITERALLY EVERY TIME so eventually i gave up because i thought what's the point of finding my identity if it wont be respected anyways? #so yea im resigned to be seen as the same I was born with the same i've always been and the same everyone knows me #dont get me wrong i dont always hate being a girl but sometimes it makes me curious how would it be if i wasnt #and i dont mind what pronouns ppl use with me most of the time as long as it's not with a bad intention #I've wondered if maybe i'm a she/they? idk i just gave up thinking about it #at least for now. i have my whole ass life to find out what or who i am so i don't feel there's a need to rush tbh #woah this rant got rlly long sorry lol idk if anyone will read this far 🏃 #btw it's not only about that guy but he made me constantly remember that most people at least here in latam are very closed minded #just like him so if i ended up finding an identity i was happy with it wouldnt be respected by most people irl anyways #i'm not in that gc anymore tho #i hope i was able to like explain well what i mean? i don't wanna seem like i gave up that easily just because some dude was being a jerk #it's just that i'm kind of an overthinker

[apathyfairy]

last year i found a wii at goodwill for 25 dollars and it came with everything except a wiimote but it was in such good condition i was like hell yeah ill take it how hard can it be to find a wiimote. the answer is it's nearly impossible to find them at thrift stores now so i've spent like 8 months looking for ones in thrift stores but there wasn't a single one and then online but i just couldn't bring myself to spend 30 dollars on one single wiimote so i waited so. patiently. and then 2 weeks ago i finally found one at goodwill for 9 dollars but it was absolutely disgusting and the battery cover was missing and the compartment was all corroded so i put it back and regretted it the whole week but then this last weekend i went to savers and there was an absolutely perfect wiimote just sitting there with no corrosion and a jacket and the wrist strap and motion plus and the nunchuck was there too and i got it all for 10 dollars so the moral of the story is that sometimes things seem right for you in the moment but you have to recognize that they aren't and leave them behind so the things that are meant for you will in fact find you when the time is right. peace and love <3

#for real though im so happy i cant even lie like i regretted selling my wii soooooo much but anyway im back baby <3 #im disinfecting everything rn bc i have a germ problem but once it it's done.....i am SO back #when i first got it i didnt have the remote right so i couldnt plug it in and make sure that it worked but i did just plug it into an outle #to make sure it ran and it did and wii sports resort popped out of the drive so thats fun bc i didnt have that one #and anyway i might cry when i hear the menu sound ngl ngl. #but the city i live in is like an overgrown retirement home and so the goodwill is full of old people things and this wii had stickers #like explaining which cord was which so i just know it was a wii that they bought for like grandmas house and only played it when they were #over there so anyway cant wait to see what's on there and if the news channel and weather channel are still on the homepage even though #i dont think they work anymore lol #also shoutout to the type a kid who kept their wiimote in such perfect condition that i wanted to cry when i saw it sitting on the shelf #ty <3

[naturecalls111]

on liking girls

#comic #vent art #other fandoms #the fandom is my personal life LMAO #I had posted this on twitter and deleted it because it was vent art from back in like. Ohhh I forget. Must have been january #Like I had just had my birthday and I don't know what it was but something made me realise like #oh. I haven't come out to my parents #like it's Been a minute I probably should right #and my parents are like. the best in the world I say that with my whole chest #my sexuality is not something they would ever care about let alone judge me for #like they have so many gay friends OBJECTIVELY I KNOW THIS IS A NON ISSUE LOL #but I don't know. something about it DOES feel dangerous and I can barely come to terms with it #I hate the idea of making it a "thing'. does that make sense #i don't want it to be a “thing” #I don't want them to tell me they'll love me no matter what and that this doesn't change anything #I don't want to have to subject them to feel like I'm “opening up” and then Have to respond like that #I wish it felt like as natural of an integration as someone is being straight you know #i wish it was: i come home with the prettiest girl in the world (she is the prettiest because she is my girlfriend) and they're just like #“hi! so nice to meet you! lets sit for tea!” #and thats it no questions asked. my mom or dad wouldn't ask “why didnt you tell us?” does that make sense #This is why none of my highschool friends know either #i'll tell them if they ask but I don't want to make a performance of Telling Them #I don't. Owe them that #I don't owe anyone a heads up. I don't want to. I don't want to make it A Thing #It's a Me thing. I don't get why it has to be turned into a You thing. #also hi if you havent seen my face i look like That LOL

[undercookedcatgut]

I headcannon that Superman is weak to the color green. You know how in dcxdp fics sometimes ectoplasm and kryptonite are one in the same? Or even simply when ecto affects supes? And the reasoning to that connection is because theyre both GREEN. SO what if kryptonite is just rocks painted luminescent green and no has told superman. Like if someone painted a bullet with some cheap green paint that's practically flaking off the surface and just, shoots superman, it works? No ones tried it ofc because why would they. It's a closely guarded secret by the justice league. Superman is the only one not in the know. Even the other supers know. (It typically works better when the paint is either glow in the dark or luminescent) Superman is confused why they won't let him touch the glow in the dark sticky notes (that just so happen to be green) they look so cool! He wants one too :(

#Radioactive pickles #idk where that thought popped up from #Clark is prob brings out the puppy eyes when bats smacks his hand away from the stickys #he'll be wondering what he did wrong lol #like why r u punishing him *puppy eyes intensify #lois is just laughing the the background #because she was there when they shared the sticky notes #idk why i chose sticky notes #was originally gonna be stickers but that didnt sit right with me #Clark wonders why hes never paired with the green lanterns #dc x dp #dc universe #superfamily #dc x dp prompt #dc x dp crossover #superman #kryptonite #how to tag

[sketchy-tour]

A shame I wasn't able to find the motivation to finish my Halloween art in time for Halloween. Might still finish it and post it late for fun, especially since it's already lined.

Started it early and everything and I still couldn't make it. Oh well. That's what I get for getting distracted doodling silly stuff.

#text post #just rambling #Ive just been trying to keep my head on straight and doodling to distract myself these past couple weeks #that WIP has been sitting there...SO close to finished #I just had to color it... :( But coloring is a process I really gotta be in the headspace for #shoulda just slapped on some comfort show and powered through it so I wouldnt be late #but getting mad about what I didnt do isnt gonna make it magically happen lol #so late halloween art is my curse #sorry if I sound a little down for a bit its not the halloween lateness thats got me like this its more so just... #my brain. and my situation. I just gotta wait for the waters of my mind to calm back down #right now they waves are high. and Im just trying to keep my head above water the best I can #okay wow let me. just stop now yall dont wanna hear all that~! <3

[dreamboyf]

i have so many things i want to draw but i cant focus on doing anything fun rn im just in Pain

#my wisdom teeth grew in fine and everything was ok for a few years #but suddenly they started cracking and breaking apart left and right and its so painful #and the dentist i used to go to doesnt accept my insurance anymore #so ive also had to find a new dentist that accepts medicaid and one that i was . at least semi confidebt i wouldnt get transphobia from #(hard mode) #and ive finally found one . so im waiting on the actual visit now. just sitting here in massive pain 90% of the time. its fine ! #man i didnt even talk abt the things i wanna draw. nobody cares or is reading thid anyway LOL

[midchelle]

Chapter Seven: Little Richard, Tutti Frutti (Specialty, 1955) | Written by Little Richard and Dorothy LaBostrie

A-WOP-BOP-A-LOO-BOP-A-WOP-BAM-BOOM. Little Richard was speaking in tongues across the airwaves long before anybody knew what was happening. He took speaking in tongues right out of the sweaty canvas tent and put it on the mainstream radio, even screamed like a holy preacher-- which is what he was. Little Richard is the master of the double entendre. "Tutti Frutti" is a good example. A fruit, a male homosexual, and "tutti frutti" is "all fruit." It's also a sugary ice cream. A gal named Sue and a gal named Daisy and they're both transvestites. Did you ever see Elvis singing "Tutti Fruitt" on Ed Sullivan? Does he know what he's singing about? Do you think Ed Sullivan knows? Do you think they both know? Of all the people who sang "Tutti Frutti," Pat Boone was probably the only one who knew what he was singing about. And Pat knows about speaking in tongues as well.

There's a lot of people in Little Richard's songs. All the stereotypes. Uncle John, Long Tall Sally, Mary and Jenny, Daisy, Sue, and Melinda. They are all slipping by in the shady world of sex and dreams and giving you a run for your money.

Little Richard was anything but little. He's saying that something is happening. The world's gonna fall apart. He's a preacher. "Tutti Frutti" is sounding the alarm.

Bob Dylan, The Philosophy of Modern Song (2022)

#was going to just post the transcript but it's quite nicely laid out #bob dylan #little richard #tutti frutti #the philosophy of modern song #midposts #i'm sorry for the second scan being a bit wonky i was sitting right in front of the girl at the book shop and #didnt want to be too obvious with what i was doing lol

[stump-salsa]

Thinking back to 2021 when I had to sit in school fists clenched eyes watering teeth grinding as I listened to everyone quote invader zim right in front of me and I couldn’t say anything because they only knew the quotes from tiktok.

#the most pain I have ever been forced to endure #I STILL LOVE THE WHEN YOU VIDEO I QUOTE IT ALL THE TIME #BUT PEOPLE ARE PROBABLY LIKE ‘dead audio LOL #ITS NOT BECAUSE OF TIKTOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ITS BECAUSE I LIKE INVADER ZIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THE PAIN #I had to sit listening to all the people in my class who teased me and made fun of me by pretending to be nice #I had to listen to all the people who thought I was the weird quiet kid #quote my special interest RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. #AND I COULDNT SAY A WORD #THEY DIDNT KNOW #THEY DIDNT KNOW LIKE I DID #I WAS GOING INSANE IN MY HEAD ON THE OUTSIDE I WAS JUST SQUINTING AND TWITCHING #and drawing zim in my books #blue moments

[needylittlegirl]

ahh i feel yucky

#just mad about life again <3 #mad that my doctors told me not to go to college yet #and now that i probably could if this medicine works #i dont see the point anymore #what i wanted to do wouldnt get me anywhere #i just found that out without even trying it for myself #like i guess its good cause i dont have loans lol! #but i wish i wouldve had one shot to try it out #like. im a kid im supposed to find stuff out the hard way right?? #yeah i got the easy way out financially and time wise but. i didnt even get to try i didnt even get to see what it couldve been like #and im mad i spent all of my youth with my shitty stupid ex that just had to rape and abuse me like it didnt even matter #im mad that he gets to ruin any future relationship i have even though he isnt around anymore #it isnt fair none of its fair #im gonna be 21 next month and all i know is not even getting the chance to fail and not even knowing what love is supposed to look like #what do i have to show for any of it? #i look at people i grew up around and theyre all finding their ways and doing things we talked about when we were kids #ive always felt like im just watching everyone grow up like a tv. im just sitting infront of it and theyre all going #and i thought maybe that wouldve changed by now i thought maybe id catch up #maybe i was naive or stupid to think it would change because it hasnt #im scared that im just gonna be one of those people that just doesnt really ever do anything #and it wasnt even up to me! i had such big dreams and then i had to have some stupid pains #and some stupid doctor had to tell me to hold off for a year #and its like the drain was pulled in a bathtub and everything just started to go down #whatever #im done ill be fine #tbd

[animalinvestigator]

dark spore kids

#my art #noriko kawada #ken ichijouji #punimon #Im not gonna tag the other dark spore kids and their digimon because the seocnd one isj ust goofy. #ive had these sitting around for a while. i haev more other digimon 02 drawings ill post later i didnt want to put them in the same one with #this becuase the poses came out really similar without me thinkingabout it LOL. #ive just bee ndrawing a bunch of shit like this trying to get through a rough couple weeks. hopefully i can draw more soon!! #a little embarrassing to have only digimon art to show for myself right now but im having fun and making the things i want to see and i gues #thats whats important to me so. o7. bear with me until my heart eventually settles into a calm about it and i can draw other things again #i may have talked about it before but the dark spore really is a very compelling story element to me. so naturally i really wished that the #kids who got it implanted got to be characters more than they did. one of my favorite lines in the entire show come sfrom noriko . soim very #sad that theres not much art of her. thats why i drew her #i also just thought the idea of ken running a dbt skills group therapy session was really funny. hes canonically a psych student as of #02 the beginning im told. tough crowd to be testing your knowledge on.... #anyway enjoy!! im outta here until i draw something else i guess

[marcmorrigan]

bad news dude i just talked to the doctor and your babyface is incurable. yeah youre stuck like that. yeah its probably for forever sorry

OC, he/him for angelo, thnx!

#my art #basic color #my ocs #still waters #angelo #wow another autistic trans protag who wears red shoes and cant sit right. florals. for spring. groundbreaking. etc #had sooo much fun playing around w the style for this... rlly enjoying the chunky lines in combination w my usual sketch style #angelos red chucks w the laces tied around the ankles r so vital 2 me... i lov giving my OCs my own traits/habits/etc lol #speaking of habits. back at it again w the bi flag overlay lololol. i dont even think angelo is bi. im pretty sure hes just gay #he might be bi idk. he has partners who are Not Men #or at least Not Always Men #ANYWAY. i was listening 2 mazzy star while i worked on this can u tell #also he is SOOO baby in the face to me... this man is nearing 30 and looks like an INFANT. at least hes tallish #not that u can tell since hes always curled up and sitting and folded and crouching etc #u unfold him and theres like 7 extra inches of man that u didnt expect #which is also what happens when you f--

[adriles]

I’m curious which war crimes you do and don’t approve of

i enjoy any war crime induced by rage, racking up a ton of kills, maiming every enemy combatant in sight. only shitheads kill in attempt to live up to the heroism of others

#thinking about malouf’s ransom specifically here lol #when he writes achilles’ having a vision of priam’s death at the hands of neoptolemus #with the attempt of avenging his father. but their is nothing to avenge. same with polyxena #in hecuba they have it be tbat achilles’ spirit comes before neoptolemus and tells him to kill her to return #but i could just be a euripides hater with the exception of his helen play but. that doesnt sit right with me #it is to appease the wind in the same way iphigenia was to appease the gods #it was bound to happen anyways. but it is upon achilles’ grave as neoptolemus again sees himself as avenging his father #it is an unsatisfying act. all that killing for the sake of achilles #sure u can be like. polyxena led him to the gates #but she didnt kill him that is paris and apollo #but paris is already dead so who is left for neoptolemus to target as his father’s avenger #it is a role without any use. it is pointless. #and when we see achilles in the odyssey he barely cares about the news of his own son beyond odysseus saying yeah he is chilling #it is more to lament his own suffering #i dont think achilles cares in the end about neoptolemus. he is just a boy like his father bred for war and desperate #for purpose and attachment #beyond that tho. i dont think achilles would approve of killing priam like that is the main thing #he is not above violence to the man. he threatens him in book 24. but in the end there is a respect there. for the grief and loss they share #malouf writes about the shame that follows neoptolemus after everything #and i think that is a far more poignant thing than disappointment from the father you barely know #to carry the weight of your actions knowing that your father would so differently #again achilles is a piece of shit and would do the same if not worse in his son’s place #but in his place toward priam he wouldnt. and neoptolemus reaps that destruction anyways #this is long winded the point is the shame rather than the actual disapproval of war crimes lol #i will say i dont think achilles’ rage and revenge is to the same level. he laments after patroclus died that it hurts more than he thought #because he would think losing a father or son to be more heartbreaking #but no it is the loss of the equal and confidant that hurts the most #but neoptolemus never knew his father. this isnt for his father’s personal sake it is for his legacy + where neoptolemus will end up with it #and therein lies the difference. they have that familial bond but no real connection #ask

[wildtornado-o]

Something about how out of all of the portraits on the wall in Neos house, the one with Roman is the biggest and in the center. Something about how that shows just how important that moment in her life, where he stood by her and made her feel more loved than her parents ever had, is to her. Something about how out of all of them, thats the one she put her current self's image into, wishing to persist there forever, with him in that moment.

#the portraits themselves are seriously sooo interesting thooo #like obviously theres the main one thats on the cover of Roman Holiday #but then theres the one that shows how her parents were distant and just bought her things she didnt really want to keep her satisfied #then how the one with Neo and Roman sitting above her parents bodies is right after that. a highlight and the high point of her life #only for her to be alone and finding cinder next back to being small and used. #rwby v9 spoilers #*feeling small not being small #Brb gonna listen to one thing again and cry #Ugh i would still love for a softer version of one thing or smthng but i doubt its going to happen lol #birds-chirps #sorry if this post is incoherant im sleepy djsjs #*incoherent

[babeygirlbuckley]

kinda tired of all these parent redemption arcs tbh. give chimney a gun

#911 spoilers #hey dont mind me im just casually popping in 👋🏼 #but yeah anyway #eddie and ramon last season felt natural/organic but buck and chim in this one felt kinda forced #like im sorry but didnt the buckleys stop going to therapy with him? #youre gonna tell me that 30 years of emotional neglect has been resolved?? like. no lol #the ending was sweet but also. idk. contrived? that might not be the right word #and CHIMNEY #i have NEVER seen mr. han smile. not once. he was cold/distant with albert too but now all of a sudden theres a baby named after his dead #dead first wife and hes sitting on the floor playing?? making faces?? pop pop is funny??? #it just doesnt seem realistic to me. like at all #plus everyone else putting the pressure on chim to reach out and fix things is bullshit #hen was so against him meeting with tatiana again. i feel like she was way too nice about it last ep #yeah its fine to encourage a talk for chim to get everything off his chest but like if it was me? if this was my friend? #idk maybe im a bad person but i wouldve used harsher language than that lol #'maybe its about what you need to say' turns into 'call him out! confront him! let him see what hes done to you! make him take responsibili #*responsibility!' #also didnt like that he wound up having the talk with his stepmom instead of the party actually involved #and maybe im remembering wrong but didnt his first marriage end bc his wife died?? he considers that a personal failure? #ANYWAY #all this to say: it is not the children's responsibility to reach out and reconcile with their parents. stop trying to make chim feel bad f #for being kinda aloof with the guy who literally abandoned him in a foreign country #god my thumbs hurt. im not used to this #chimney my beloved 💖 #i think thats the tag. its been a while

[tamagotchikgs]

i try my best not to think of it and i havent in years but the fact the only people who were ever supposed to be my friends irl would always dump their love on me and then to leave me & say they dont like me over and over and over again only so they could watch my reaction n make fun of me together maybe did affect me huh

#i am normal i am not affected ii do not see ◡_◡ #[distant sounds of me crying & screaming && gasping for air &&& ripping myself to shreds like a bear] #i was always an autistic lil freak who didnt speak so i guess i shouldnt be surprised #but like. i always just wanted them to like me #i always just wanted the chance to like them back and let be allowed. always just wanted someone to be pals with. someone i could trust to #have my back for once vs everything else #i remember such a specific moment right #and we were going on a roadtrip w her and one i already had #and they ended up talking before we left #the worst part is i had to keep seeing them. i had to just keep reliving the humiliation over n over again n it got so deep in me #& the og one had a plan that we would sit together in the back n n we had like. tons of stuff brought we could do n snacks n all this #n then at the very last second literally as i had just sat down she was like . actually. i dont want you back here. i want her she's way be #better #and i remember so specifically she was like. LOL look at ur face.......... #and so i had to sit up front alone w nothing to do the entire ride but listen to them make fun of me for it #i feel like it would be better if they had left it at that but then they always came back n treated me so sweetly so i was like . ok i have #a chance #maybe they do like me #like the same girl went on to share cookies she had bought w me and we sat on the lawn for hours hanging out n eating them #and then she did it again #and again #but i was so alone in the world otherwise that i stayed #for years n years #my therapist always talks about how because of how long ive had anxiety means itll take either equally as long or longer to recover #and all i can think ab is how i lived with everything horrible at home #always just wanting to escape #to living through bad things outside of it too #just piling on top #from 6-16 #and i kept going back

[bangcakes]

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#personal #lmao around this time last year i decided to give up on him n LMAO girl if only you knew #i should have just talked to him but djdjjdjdjd idk it felt weird. but he even like. complained one time that we didnt talk all summer #like LMAO..... bro its two ways. u could have messaged me too xjdjjdjdjdj #tho to be fair i think he did show up to a dinner but i wasnt there bc i had just had wisdom tooth surgery n was 1. blown up like a balloon #and 2. so high on pain meds i couldnt function JFJDJJDJDJDJDJ #n e way whatever jdjdjdjd im just laughing at myself bc how did this man become my closest friend from college Zhfnnddnnd #our relationship is so weird. not in a bad way but in an unexpected way #we sat beside each other an entire semester n never talked til the last day like thats so FUNNY IDK #i even said to him that time. bc we were talkin in the hallway n went to sit for the exam n sat in our regular spots of being one seat awa #y and i was like... you know its so funny that we sat beside each other all semester and only talked today #and he was like.... hahha yeah #i was gonna introduce myself but it felt so stupid JDJJDJDJD #i didnt even know his name LMAO #i had him narrowed down to 2 names. bc he was one of like 2 guys that Always showed up in another class' zoom #and LOL i was right. he WAS one of those 2 shjdjsjsj #n e way. then the next sem came n i didnt know whether to say hi to him or not bc we talked ONCE #and i was still wearing my mask at this point and so id try to smile at him with my eyes but never got a response HDNJDJD and so i got soooo #annoyed with him. and even more so bc i kept making friends with ppl and they KNEW HIM??? and i was like WHO IS THIS???? #then one time he came up to me n my friends before class n we just talked and i was like o lmao this annoyance im having??? its a big ole #crush BDNNDNDND #and in community college its hard to like. know ppls ages and that day i found out he was 2 years younger so i was like o ok 26 n 28 isnt #bad at all #but thinking back.... first things we exchanged that time was age and i think he was also trying to fish for whether i was single bc he was #talkin about this other guy havin a baby n a wife n i was like o wow !! i didnt know!! #jdjxjdjdjdk god when he found out my age he was like... oh i never would have guessed you were older. you look young ZFHJDJDJDJDJD #oh so you were Looking is that right HJXJXJXJZJZJ GOD LMAO #i look back on so many moments n im like oh duh... he must be interested #but for me its like. i will literally more easily believe literally any other theory so i thought he just liked one of my friends Zhjxjx #ya i dont think so anymorem but i thought that up until like mid january HDHXJJXJDDJJDJ