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jealousy, jealousy - m. mckinnon

❦ pairings: marlene mckinnon x fem!reader (romantic), remus lupin x fem!reader (platonic), marlene mckinnon x sirius black (not really in romantic relationship - they don't have feelings for each other.), remus lupin x sirius black (romantic)

❦ summary: the woman you love, marlene mckinnon, is in relationship with sirius black. a man who loves sirius black, remus lupin, is jealous as much as you are and you get an idea.

❦ warnings: nothint really tbh just jealous sirius, marlene, reader and remus.

❦ a/n: there is something inspired from atyd, but i'm not going to say what. if you read it, you know what it is. this is my first one shot, so please tell me, what do you think about it. also gif is not mine.

❦ word count: 4k

what is the point of loving someone if the feelings are one sided? cant there be a one person in the world for everyone?

those were your daily questions that you couldn't answer to.

your world was slowly falling apart since the gryffindor house announced to have a new couple; marlene mckinnon and sirius black.

you swear you could vomit by any second whenever you saw them having their tongues in each other's throats or even just holding hands.

it mentally pained you and that's how you realized, that your feelings for a very close friend of yours aren't platonic as you thought the whole time.

when you'd look back in time, you would realize that your feelings may have started in fifth year. marlene had this massive glow up and changed her style. she began to wear leather jacket, tops and leaky black jeans.

you were convinced that if you'd meet every person in the world (not just wizarding one), you would never found more attractive person than her. she was made by god himself.

but you always thought there was someone better for her. someone, who she was in relationship with.

sirius black.

you'd must be blind or have absolutely no taste in men if you'd think sirius orion black was not handsome.

he had almost the same clothing style like marlene. leather jacket, leaky jeans and long black hair, that he spent hours styling.

anyway, you knew that the two of them had absolutely zero romantic attraction towards each other. they never looked at each other as if they were the only one. it was all about sex and snogging.

you'd be lying if you said, that a sigh of relief didn't leave your lips once you figured out, that they weren't in love and their feelings for each other were purely platonic.

but what on the earth was wrong with you? you asked yourself that everyday. why weren't you happy for your friends? if they're happy, then you should be as well, right? but you could not help it. you were bloody jealous and you were sure of that.

and you slowly started to notice the odd behaviour of your other friend, remus lupin, around the gryffindor couple.

you came to a conclusion, that remus was either envying their relationship or he was in love with one of them. you personally thought that the second option was more likely, because he was not acting like this around other couples.

it was thirteenth of february when you searched for any sign of remus lupin's sandy brown hair in the library. you got an idea and you desperetaly wanted to ask the boy if he'd be okay with helping you.

„remus!" you hissed quite loudly when you spotted him, recieving a not so nice look from madame pince, but you ignored the glare.

remus looked up from his essay he was almost finished with and met your eyes, then he smiled.

you approached the the he was sitting on and sat opposite to him. remus quite confused, you looked so eager about something and he was not sure of what.

„what is on that devilious mind of yours?" he raised his eyebrow, looking directly into your eyes.

you grinned. „i need a favor, but first i need you to answer my question honestly."

remus gulped and nodded nervously. you could ask anything - even if he is or he is not a werewolf and he didn't want to lie to you. he expected a lot of questions from you to ask him, but definitely not this one.

„you like marlene, don't you?" you asked and watched a sigh of relief leaving his lips, but his eyes were slightly wide.

„marlene?" he let out a breathy laugh. „nope. not marlene."

you frowned in confusion. „if you don't like marlene, then who- oh!" you gaped in relazition and shock. „wow! damn, okay.."

„wow, damn, okay?" remus' eyebrow furrowed. „that's all you gotta say? wow, damn, okay?"

„well, what do you want me to say?"

he shrugged. „i don't know! perhaps how wrong is it being a man and liking one or that i have zero precent chance with him?"

„that's a nonsense," you acoffed. „i am sure black likes you too. besides, if i said that liking the same gender is bad, that would be pretty ironic."

„and why is that?" he asked.

„godric," you breathed out in surprise, „and i thought, that sirius is the oblivious one, not you, rem!"

„are you gonna explain or...?"

„remus, i am in love with a woman."

he froze in surprise and then chuckled. „thank, merlin, at least i'm not the only one now. so who is it?"

you gave him a look as if it was obvious.

„oh! marlene?" he asked and you slowly nodded.

„alright," remus said after few seconds. „what do you need me to do?"

you almost forgot why were you there in a first place. „oh right! so you are aware of the fact, that tommorow is a valentine?"

„eh- yeah?"

„so as you probably know, marlene is going with sirius to hogsmeade. wait, have you heard that a certain ginger gryffindor girl, who james had been pining over for years, finally agreed to go on a date with him?"

remus eyes widened. „you don't mean lily, do you?"

you blinked. „how many ginger gryffindor girl, who james had been pining over for years, do you know? of course it is lily!"

„wow," the boy breathed out. „i am surprised that he hadn't scream it from the top of his lungs yet."

you shrugged. „i think that now, when lily finally agreed to go on a date with him, he will try to become more responsible and perhaps he will finally step into this library. i think he will try as much as possible to impress her. it'll be weird without the old james, but who knows? maybe we will like the new james more."

„well, i know, who definitely will not like the new james," said remus and you knew, who he had in his mind. „anyway, back to the favor you came here for."

„right," you cleared your throat. „so as i was saying before we began to talk about jily, sirius and marlene will definitely go together to hogsmeade, because i overheard them talking about it," you paused. „so i was thinking we– me and you – could maybe go on a fake date to hogsmeade to make them jealous.."

remus nodded approvingly. „good idea, y/n, but-"

„oh," you cut him off. „well if you don't want to or you know you'll feel uncomfortable, i am very sorry. that definitely was not my intention. so-"

„no, you didn't make me feel uncomfortable at all," he chuckled. „it's just... how do you know, that they will feel jealous? what if they wouldn't care? or worse; what if they'll be happy for us?"

you froze as you didn't think about this. „w-well, we have to ask someone who knows everything."

• • •

„LILY POTTER!" you shouted loudly as soon as you closed the dorm door behind yourself after you came from the library.

„godric, y/n!" lily came from the bathroom into the room. „don't call me 'potter'. me and james are only going on a date, we're not getting married."

you raised your eyebrow. „and yet, you called him by his first name and you are totally wearing his quidditch sweater. who are you trying to convince?"

you watched as your best friend blushed deep red. „i am not wearing his quidditch sweater," she mumbled quietly, but loud enough for you to hear.

„yeah, right. wanna bet that the sweater hasn't got 'potter' and the number seven under it? it hurts my heart, that you think i am that dumb, potter!"

lily ignored you called her by james' surname again and sat on the bed. „so, um, what did you want to talk about?"

„as much as i want to tell you to not change the theme, i got to be quick," you said, sitting next to lily on her bed.

„what is it?"

„so i like someone-"

„marlene," lily nodded and noticed the shock written on your face. „ah, i'm sorry, i wasn't supposed to know?"

„uh, i didn't know that i was so obvious. i mean nobody ever pointed it out," you replied.

„because the others are oblivious pricks," laughed lily. „so you like marls and...?"

„so i and a person, who likes sirius-"

„remus."

you gaped at her in surprise.

„i asked him and he told me about it," lily said.

„okay. anyway, i got this idea, that me and remus could go on a fake date to make sirius and marlene jealous. remus thought it is a great idea, but then he pointed out what if they won't care and they will not feel jealous."

lily sighed. „you are now an oblivious prick as well, y/l/n."

„what do you mean, potter?" you frowned.

„i mean if you hadn't been so bloody blind, you would have noticed marlene fell in love with you since like september first, nineteen seventy one. since the day she layed her eyes on you! i swear to merlin you are as oblivious as potter!"

your eyes widened. „come again?"

lily probably now realized what she said too, because she began to stutter slightly. „i-i-i said that... ugh, can we change the theme!"

„what?" you exclaimed enthuasiastically. „no, we definitely cannot change the theme, when you basically confessed your feelings for james fucking potter. i knew that something was up when you finally agreed to go out with him, but that you fell in love? that thought would absolutely never cross my mind."

„i am not in love with james! that's absolutely ridiculous. you are absolutely ridiculous!" lily argued, but before you could say something, marlene walked in.

„hey," she greeted you two and then immediately lied down on her bed as she was exhausted from school and quidditch practice.

„hey," you nervously greeted back and turned to lily. „so, lils, do you think i should do that thing we talked about before?"

„absobloodylutely," she grinned.

marlene lifted herself, so elbows were now carrying her upper body. „do what?"

you smirked to yourself, which went unnoticed by the blonde girl, but not by lily. „i am about to ask remus on a date. tommorow is a valentine's day, meaning it would be very romantic. it's perfect, don't you think?"

an angsty emotion flashed trough marlene's eyes.

perhaps hurt? or jealousy?

good, you thought to yourself. this is exactly what i wanted.

marlene shrugged. „i suppose. just don't go to madam puddifoot's. it's too much pink, cheesy and there is too much snogging couples on valentine's days."

„perfect for me and remus then," you said without knowing, making lily's eyes go wide.

without another word, you quickly made your way out of your dorm to the gryffindor common room, where remus was supposed to be waiting for you, so you could give him an answer.

„what did evans say?" remus asked as soon as he spotted you.

„she said we shall do that," you replied. „but i think we have to go to madam puddifoot's..."

„what?!" remus hissed „why on the earth would we go to a place like that? it's too much pink, cheesy and there is-"

„too much snogging couples on valentine's days," you finished. „yes i know that. marlene said exactly the same sentence and without thinking i said something like 'perfect for me and remus'."

„merlin," he put his face into his hands and then looked back up at you. „there is absolutely zero chance i will go to madam puddifoot's on valentine's day. i mean, we don't have to go there, right? what is the chance that they will go there."

„zero," you answered hesitately. „but now when i think about it, it's sirius and marlene, who are we talking about. i honestly wouldn't be surprised if they'd go there just to catch us snogging or something."

remus raised his eyebrow. „but we aren't going to snog, right?"

„oh, bloody hell, no!" you denied. „no offence, rem, but you just aren't my....."

„type?"

„more like gender, but type works too."

• • •

the next day, february fourthteenth, you found yourself standing in front of a mirror in your and the girls' dorm. for your date, you chose to wear dark green sweater - to keep you warmer in the winter weather, black skirt, stockings and shoes.

you were sure you will not feel so warm outside, but at least you had a good outfit, right?

lily was preparing for her date with james potter next to you. she was wearing more of a dark academia outfit; beige turtleneck with dark brown pants, brown boots and coat. she left her ginger locks loose.

because she agreed to meet with sirius earlier, marlene was already sitting on her bed, ready to go. her body was wrapped in black long-sleeved t-shirt, dark red skirt, black leather jacket, stockings and boots. you couldn't deny it. she looked fucking gorgeous with her blonde wavy hair.

„you look amazing, y/n!" said lily, coming closer to you and then whispered; „marlene definitely wants to make out with you right now and right here! i'm getting uncomfortable in this sexual tension between you two!"

„oh hush!" you laughed. „you are going to make me blush, lily evans-soon-to-be-potter."

your ginger best friend rolled her eyes at that, but said nothing. you were starting to think she actually likes to be called 'potter' and you grinned widely at that.

after applying dark red lipstick on her lips, marlene got up from the bed, throwing her bag over her shoulder. „well, i'm gonna go now. lily, you look fucking beautiful. i'm sure james will be drooling over you. y/n, you look fucking beautiful as well. i would shag you if i could. anyway, bye!"

you blushed deeply red at marlene's flirty comment. thankfully, she didn't notice that, because she already walked out of the dorm.

lily turned to you, trying to hold back her laughter.

„oh what now?" you asked.

„ 'i would shag you if i could," the ginger girl repeated the blonde's one words. „yup. she's definitely into you."

„i'm sure it didn't mean anything. she said it just because we are best friends."

lily raised her eyebrow. „so that means i am not shagable best friend? i must say that's very offensive," she dramatically placed her hand on her chest.

„no! you know i didn't mean it like that! i-"

„i was joking, y/n," lily laughed and then looked at her watch. „we should go. our dates are probably waiting for us."

• • •

remus and you were walking to hogsmeade in cold february weather. yes, the sun was shining, but not enough to make some warm upon scotland.

you two were walking in silent. you weren't sure if it was an awkward or comfortable one, which made you slightly nervous. remus noticed that, so he spoke.

„do you reckon it's going to work?"

you shrugged, wrapping the dark green sweater closer to your shivering body. „i have absolutely no idea to be honest. but what are we gonna loose if we are going to try it, hm?"

„nothing, i guess," said remus. „i think only people will think, that there is something going on between us."

„yeah," you nodded. „the only thing, i am absolutely sure in, is marlene thinks, that i fancy you. but she didn't say it out loud, so i couldn't really say anything to deny it. i'm also sure, that she told sirius, so as soon as we'll meet them, they are going to bully the living souls out of us."

„i've already come to terms with that. you should have seen him, when he found out i slept with mary-"

„YOU SLEPT WITH MARY MCDONALD?" you exclaimed quite loudly. thankfully, there were no people near you.

„keep your voice down, will you?" remus hissed. „yes, i did. we were in sixth year."

„it was not such a problem to convince mary to not to tell anyone. she immediately agreed. on the other hand, sirius was harder to convince. i threatened him that if he tells something to anyone, i will never let him to copy my homework ever again. and, well, that shut him up."

„speaking of sirius," you said, „when did you realize you fancy him?"

remus didn't say anything for a moment. he seemed to search in his mind for an answer. „i think i always kinda fancied him. he quickly became one of my best friends. when he found out, that i'm a we- when he found out one of my secrets, he never told anyone. then, troughtout the years, he became so bloody arrogant, attractive and cocky, that the 'sirius black smirk', how i like to call it, made me want to slap him and snog him at the same time. i did that in fifth year."

you blanked. „you slapped him because of the 'sirius black smirk'?"

„n-no i-" he stuttered slightly. „i kissed him in our fifth year."

„what?!" your mouth wide opened.

„do you remember my birthday party when i turned sixteen in fifth year?" remus asked, recieving a nod from you. „so i came into our dorm for my fags. sirius was there, not in a mood for a party, because him and mary had an argument that morning. i told him that he should go downstairs to the common room and snog her to make it up. he agreed and then he asked me if i ever kissed someone. i lied. i said that i hadn't. i did, but he didn't know that back then. he told me, that it's not scary as i thought it was. and then, i couldn't bear it. i don't know what came over me, but i grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him into a kiss. he began to kiss me back and i thought my heart will jump out of my chest. it was terryfing, but an amazing feeling.

when he pulled away, he stared at me wide-eyed. i couldn't blame him. i would be in shock too if he'd be the one to kiss me first. sirius then stuttered something and went to the common room. after few moments staring into a place where he dissapeared, i realized i had to apologize to him before he'd tell james or anyone else. so i walked back downstairs and-"

„oh yes, i remember that!" you cut him of with enthuasiast in your voice. „sirius came to the party. everyone began to cheer. i didn't know why at first, but then i saw..." you pursed your lips as you realized and whispered; „he was snogging mary.." loud enough for remus to hear.

the boy nodded and didn't say anything. for the rest of your way, you two walked in silence.

the three broomsticks was unsurprisingly crowded, but you two managed to find an empty table in the corner of the pub.

„hello, rosmerta," remus greeted with a smile on his face the owner of the pub.

„hello, remus, i am glad to see you here on this day of the year," the woman replied and looked at you. „and who may be your gorgeous girlfriend be?"

„madame rosmerta, i am here very often! i normally sit with lily evans, marlene mckinnon and mary macdonald. i have a heartache, that you don't remember me," you said with a laugh to let her know, that you are only teasing. „oh and i'm y/n, not his girlfriend."

„really?" rosmerta gasped and both you and remus shook your heads. „i heard some rumours. i must say you two would make a lovely couple."

remus ignored the 'lovely couple' part. „what rumours and from who, rosmerta?"

„from sirius," the woman responded. „he told me you fancy each other."

„that git," the seventeen-years-old boy muttered under his breath.

„are they here?" you questioned.

„yes," said rosmerta and pointed at a table, which was more in the middle of the pub.

few seconds later, you saw the newest gryffindor couple, sipping their butterbeer and glaring at both of you – well, sirius was glaring at you and marlene at remus.

you asked rosmerta for two butterbeers. after she left, you turned to remus, who was already looking at you.

„we need to make a show," you both said at the same time.

the sandy haired boy grinned at you, glad you are on the same page.

suddenly, you and remus' faces were dangerously jaelous to each other; lips almost touching as you could feel each other's hot breaths.

from the corner of your eye, you could see marlene and sirius tense at your and remus' new position. the blonde girl was now practically gripping the glass of butterbeer so hard, that you were surprised it didn't break.

„we don't have to do this, you know?" whispered remus so only you could hear.

you smirked. „i'll do anything to make marls jealous."

before you knew it, remus smashed his soft lips against yours. you didn't know where to put your hands, so they found their way to his brown locks. your fingers played with them, making remus groan. you took advantage of that and slipped your toungue into his mouth.

you two were so busy making out, that you didn't notice two figures approaching you, before they cleared their throats.

you and remus pulled away awkwardly and glanced at the two figures.

„yes?" you questioned.

marlene took your hand, pulling it forwards, making you to get up from your seat. she lead you to the back entrance of the pub as confusion was written on your face.

suddenly, you were pinned against the wall of the pub with marlene's right hand next to your head as a smirk found its way to her beautiful lips.

„if you were so desperate for my attention," chuckled marlene, „all you had to do was to ask.'

you tried to ignore how fast was your heart beating. „i have no idea, what are you talking about."

the blonde girl looked directly into your eyes. „oh, don't play this game, y/n! you two knew me and sirius were looking at you. that's why you two kissed; to make us jealous!"

„well, did it work?" you raised your eyebrow.

marlene leaned closer to your ear. you could feel goosebumps on your skin and you were convinced it was not from the cold weather.

„very," she whispered and then faced you again. she moved closer to your face and brushed her lips against yours.

„kiss me, marlene," you begged.

she didn't hesitate.

as soon as your lips and hers began to move, you wrapped your hands around her neck, pulling closer – if it was even possible.

you couldn't believe this was happening. after so long fancying marlene mckinnon, thinking you had absolutely no chance with her, you find out you do.

this kiss wasn't like with remus. don't take yourself wrong, remus is a briliant kisser, but he couldn't make you feel thousands of butterflies in your belly.

few seconds later, she pulled away, grinning from ear to ear and then kissed your forehead, wrapping her arms around you, bringing you into a hug.

you sniffed her hair. strawberry shampoo. it was your strawberry shampoo.

you giggled. „have you been using my shampoo?"

„to my defense, it makes my hair look good and more shiny," she replied.

you rolled your e/c eyes. „that's nice and all, but i barely have any shampoo right now."

„don't worry, darling, i'll buy you one on our date," she pulled away from the embrace.

„who said i will go on a date with you, huh?" you teased playfully, biting your lower lip.

„love, look me into my eyes and tell me, that you don't want to go on a date with the and only marlene mckinnon."

before you could respond, the back door of the pub opened, revealing remus, who was carrying his and your bag, and sirius, who had his arm wrapped around his boyfriend's shoulder.

„y/n, i think the plan worked perfectly."

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