#even if it wasn't for those intentions

[neonhog]

the fnv brotherhood of steel being such an intense parallel to being stuck with an abusive conservative family explored largely through a lesbian character whose constantly making excuses for them gighhrggurughh

#censoring so stuff doesnt appear in tags to specify #but the elders have a very specific type of control over the rest of the bunker thats very reminiscent of #the amount of power parents have over their children or fathers have over their general families #where they could be harming you and the people around you terribly #but despite #you have to remain neutral and calm and kind towards them to not risk being #the person who yelled at your beloved parent #and how elijah was able to #take on the role of veronicas father #simply because he chose too and then was able to isolate veronica from her lover likely using the bunkers homophobia #is actually a very terrifying thought #because he held the power to do this because he simply claimed ownership over a young girl as her father #and how veronica is often spoken about with exasperation #which is probably warranted in a way because all of these people are stuck with each-other and see each-other at the worse #they have very little privacy and if you look at the bunkers they all sleep in you can see that they likely have no opportunity to privatel #explore their sexuality in any way #which is especially terrible in an environment where homophobia can be weaponized on a whim #and the casual mentions of inc-st being necessary to keep the bunker running and how their x-nophobia is leading to this inc-st-ous abuse #is especially disturbing when you consider how easy veronica was isolated by an older man in the brotherhood #even if it wasn't for those intentions #it always could be with someone else #veronica santangelo

[gen-is-gone]

my for some reason unpopular opinion is that it's boring when Fitz remains unhinged levels of self-deluded and closeted actually. Why does he have to be doctor who's answer to dean winchester, huh? why would this man in his mid-thirties who has spent at least a decade traveling in time and space still have weird insane hangups about being attracted to dudes? why does that need to be the thing about the text that we all collectively think is worth taking at face value? it's boring and fucking depressing and honestly doesn't make sense when the future of humanity in doctor who is that bisexuality is the cultural default and completely unremarkable.

#like geez I don't think that making it to thirty+ years old and still being afraid and filled with self-hatred is funny actually #eighth doctor adventures #eighth doctor #fitz kreiner #megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace #it's also weird because this definitely wasn't the attitude in fandom ten years ago #my suspicion is that Steve Cole's confirmation that Fitz was always meant to be bi made people start taking the text literally #in a way folks didn't before when slash shipping culture was just used to reading against a text as a default #like I vaguely recall a post going around shortly after that was confirmed in 2019 #that brought up how Fitz being canonically bi meant that all his weird hangups couldn't be handwaved away now #because if fandom made him bi against canon then you could just ignore his weirder no homo moments #but if he was intentionally written as bi then he was also intentionally written as deeply closeted #and like. that's true. but also you can just do whatever the fuck you want with canon no matter what #and also like #sure many of the writers were writing him as queer intentionally #but like the writing in the EDAs is so inconsistent of course some people are going to write weird no homo crap #because those writers weren't comfortable with queerness even if Cole's intent was that Fitz was bi #like The Gallifrey Chronicles's whole thing with Fitz and Trix is one long lance parkin no homo moment #does that really matter more than textual evidence that he is attracted to men and knows this about himself? #like I just don't know how you reconcile 'Fitz will bend over backwards to pretend he's straight' with #'a consideration of his chances of [...] getting laid by the Doctor' #or for that matter 'with the Doctor it's the real thing' #or the really really heavy implication that he and Sasha had a one night stand in History 101 #or that he and George went on a date in Camera Obscura which led to Fitz being invited on the Siberia expedition in the first place #and again and I can't emphasize this enough: why is this the thing about 'canon' that is so worth keeping? #why is Fitz being depressing levels of in denial more fun than him being openly bi? #destielification of Eight/Fitz smh

[roboticutie]

It's a side-mission that I don't think many end up doing, at least from the lack of talking about it I see, but still. The figurines. If you succeed a check in the pawn shop, you can take a figurine of a headless soldier on a horse. If you've done that, when you inspect the stained glass Dolores Dei you can get the task to give her any and all figurines you can find. Perhaps you can one day. Even when you get this task, though, it feels odd- it confuses your Logic because Dei has long since passed, but... Maybe you can give her these gifts somehow? You can find another figurine in the unplayable Wirral expansion pack (I only found it bc I didn't know you couldn't play Wirral w Kim). There are only these 2, according to the wiki, and I have not found more.

This task is another moment where the writers really manage to emulate that feeling of not only loss, but lost-ness that you get a few times in the game. When I did this task I thought it would be something extraordinary, maybe vaguely supernatural as there are a few things confirmed to be unexplainable happening with and around Harry, y'know? I had hope and intrigue and didn't even realize how strange and rare it must be to get this task on accident bc after typing it out I realized the starting parameters were VERY specific and easy to miss, actually. And I was so excited to find who to give it to, maybe a lost shrine, or someone reaching through a spot of pale and time, maybe when I found 3 or 5 I could lay them at her shattered feet and look behind the glass, something odd and unexplainable.

Then I met her in the dream. And just before it ended I was reminded that I'm supposed to give Dei the figurines. And that's when it dawned on me what Harry had forgotten, and I knew what he'd done to his memory of Dora by combining the two, and... It was so sobering and desolate. It felt the same way the end of a party feels, when you're the last to leave. The balloons are still up, but there's streamers on the floor, crumbs on the plates, bowls of snacks emptied, walls that held and echoed laughter are silent. The after image of something amazing, left only with the memory and the knowledge that that moment will never, ever happen the same way again.

You fulfill this task by giving all found figurines to Dora in the final dream.

And it does nothing. It doesn't work. Nothing will work. She would have liked them once, but like Dei, that Dora is dead. She died years ago and the Dora that remains is far, far away now.

Just like when I had no idea the carriage was Harry's until Kim spelled it out for us 2 hours later after chatting and whistling and relaxing; the figurines made what Harry was feeling and going through dawn on me so personally. I can't explain it in words well enough. I was so disappointed the figurines weren't some greater purpose, I was sad this was all we were holding onto them for, I was disappointed in Harry for trying to use trinkets to win her back, I was upset that they didn't do anything good, she didn't even want them; and I knew that's what Harry felt in that moment, too.

It's a level of "Show, don't tell," that not many writers set themselves up to be able to achieve. Even in this game there are only a handful of moments that are able to put you into Harry's headspace so precisely, and all of them are very specific and rely heavily on context given or lost on the player. It's impressive. I think about those figurines a lot.

#disco elysium #long post #de spoilers #i didn't get the hints that my husband did irt Harry's MC bc my perception wasn't high enough to check the fence at first #so when it did light up i forgot i never checked it and just ignored it #and that's a pretty huge clue #i can't remember if i found the tyre tracks either. i think i did but i assumed they were Kim's bc he is a Speedfreak and #i believe i saw them after he took the body away #so it didn't even occur to me to ask how the hell Harry got to martinaise in the first place #i assumed he'd been dropped off or it was one of those things writers frequently don't explain bc it often is not explained! #it's just bam youre here! y'know? #so i was totally blindsided by the fact that that was MY mc and I/Harry had forgotten so completely what had happen to Tequila Sunset #and the dora figurines task was a more complex and saddening realization akin to experiencing that complete amnesia Harry is going thru #it is Really well done even if it is a hollow and sad feeling it creates. that's its intention and i appreciate and respect that a lot

[thelostgirl21]

I'm late to the party like you wouldn't believe, but I've got to say something, because I'm so upset!

Okay, unpopular opinion, I actually loved Jaskier's Season 3 hair!

Was it always perfectly styled? No. There were a few scenes where I personally thought it could have used a bit more volume, or a bit more volume in some places while a bit less in others; but, most or the time, I was more than fine with it, and thought it suited Jaskier well!

At times, I literally adored it!

Ex:

To me, those are moments where I thought Jaskier looked his best in the series! Loved the hair!

Then again, personally, I tend to prefer Joey's looks with his forehead cleared and his hair longer.

Like, this is I think one of the most gorgeous non-feral hairstyles I've ever seen on him:

(X)

This is an absolutely gorgeous man, and I personally prefer his hair styled like this than short.

(Note: I'm not saying he's not beautiful with short hair, too, simply stating personal preferences. Certain aesthetic choices are based on comfort, too, and he can 100% afford to sacrifice the "long haired look" for something that makes him feel more comfortable. He can rock plenty of different looks!)

Then, of course, there's the feral look that is just in its own category...

So why am I upset?

I've just found out that he didn't wear a wig in Season 3!

That Jaskier's Season 3 hair were simply Joey's own hair that he had decided to grow out.

And look, I'm fine with everyone having preferences!

That's not my issue. Having your own tastes and not being a fan of Joey's Season 3 hairstyle is not the issue at all!

There were posts simply mentioning that they hated that it looked so flat, when we could have been graced with something a bit more like this:

And I do get preferences when it comes to styling.

It's just that I recall how - since people assumed it was "an ugly wig" that had been forced on his head by the wig department, rather than what they considered "a bad hairstyle" - the comments on "Jaskier's hair" were at times downright nasty!

And I just gotta get out of my system that those of you that have been literally making fun of his "sudden 4-inches receeding hairline" (first I'll have you know I find receeding hairline pretty hot!), when it's kinda remained the same for 3 seasons (it's called BANGS people. Joey tends to wear those with his shorter haircuts! Look it up!), for example, really suck!

His hairline has always gone pretty far up on each side, even in some of his earlier work... Ex: Gopher in "Mount Pleasant" (2016):

Like he's got very thick hair that form a "V" shape at the top (my mom had that, but I didn't inherit it... And we've got tons of hair... Like, a lot! * ) and a pretty large forehead.

*

(That's me at 18, and then at 28 - before I brought them back to a lower back length - but my mom is the same in terms of thickness, she just has that V in the front I lack, and it never receeded any further in her life.)

And there would be no shame in having thin hair, or any form of baldness anyway!

So yeah! I remember sort of heavily ignoring all those "ugly wig" comments because I, too, had assumed it was a wig (turns out Joey's hair seem to be a bit like mine, and grow pretty fast), and at some point you choose your battles.

Did I think a bunch of you were immature assholes for needing to hate on that "ugly wig" so much? Yes. But you find those in any fandom!

Personally, I thought "the wig" was awesome!

But now, I kinda regret not having taken the time to be more supportive of Jaskier's Season's 3 hair given I actually like it...

Because that's just a (very sweet) human being's hair, that was styled in a way that a number of people didn't like.

Again, zero problem for those that thought it was badly styled, and that the look didn't suit Jaskier!

Critiquing what you find a "bad hairstyle" is no cause for shame!

But, for those of you that took it to the next level with all those "ugly wig" comments, you fucking suck, I sure hope you've since found out that you'd been openly ridiculing a fellow human being's real hair, that it makes you feel like complete pieces of shit, and that feeling like complete pieces of shit is going to help you learn from your mistakes, before you start attacking other people's personal physical features in the future!

"Well, I didn't know!"

Here's today's lesson:

When you don't know, please kindly shut up and assume the hair you see is the real thing!

Or critique the wig like you would a real hairstyle, asking yourself "Hmm... Is describing someone's real hair the way I do going to make me sound like a bully?"

Like I said, I'm aware I'm pretty late to the party, but the the kid in me that got heavily bullied in school over her own hair really needed to get it out of her system!

#Joey Batey #Jaskier #'s hair in Season 3 #I remember Joey mentioning in an interview that people just kept “asking about the hair” this season #And most of the time it wasn't really a question... #No wonder he went “People ask me all the time: Wow! Joey! You're so good at baking!” I his video #If people tend to ask him questions that are non questions... #But yeah I'm kinda sad about it... #Hope the fact that the “hair comments” left him confused was because he didn't read the online ones... #Just had interviewers go “Season 3 hair...” implying there was something odd about it and somehow waiting for Joey to elaborate. #I actually saw one of those interviews where the interviewer was kind of implying there was something wrong with it #without explaining what was wrong with it... #Like everyone assumes Joey didn't like his Season 3 hairstyle and gets why they are all getting stuck on the hair... #So anyway he just explained the intent behind the look. #But yeah it kinda sucks the way there was like this massive negative reaction to his hairstyle when I literally can't find anything wrong #with it... #It's not even that far from his usual look (just a bit more ironed)... #The fuck happened with the hair... #My Post #My Thoughts

[dummerjan]

i just came across ai covers on youtube and people are requesting songs in the comments instead of getting enraged and i am further losing hope in humanity and turning to misanthropy

#meins #for a minute i got really excited about henning may singing take me to church :( #i hate people #have you no appreciation for or understanding of art? clearly not. #why would you want to listen to an ai generated song? even if it sounds like your favourite singer it's not them #it has no feelings to meaning to intention. it is empty and soulless #reading the booklet for sinéad o'connor's album of traditional irish and folk songs gave me so much appreciation for her #she wrote a little bit about each song. why she chose it or what it means to her. #it has added so much to my enjoyment of those songs and i think of it whenver i listen to it #they were chosen with intention with love with a deep appreciation for the music and lyrics and there is a story behind it all #it is art and love and human #i see aboslutely no appeal in ai generated 'music' or 'art' #and i hate that i fell for it for a minute #i was sceptical because i had never heard of henning may covering hozier and since it wasn't just 20-60 sec i am certain #i would have heard about it by now #and something was just a little bit... unsatisfying? something was missing which does apply to a lot of cover songs #(i could go on hour long rants about why people fuck up danny boy (and sinéad o'connor does it best (because she actually takes her time) #or trash madonna's version of don't cry for me argentina (again a song ruined for by everybody else but sinéad - once she has sung somethin #i have a hard time enjoying it by anybody else. the parting glass is an exception. hozier's version is phenomenal)) #but! henning may not giving it his all for a cover? unlikely. very unlikely. #anyway this concludes my tuesday night rant. rather here in the tags than some poor person's inbox. #or i would have kept fuming by myself for another hour or two

[sysig]

Red Eyes and Evil Time, practically the same thing right (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #Sona double feature! #Red Eyes and Evil Time /are/ different for the record lol #There's overlap and they're both eye details but they're different #Mmm Red Eyes feels so niiiice <3 And I've been pacing myself so it's Just Red Eyes! #No red shines :) Which can happen even on Red Eyes #In fact it's probably more common - the red shines on Blue Eyes was something of an oddity #No one knows the lore except me I'll explain someday lol #For now it's just fun to be in Red Eyes! :D And the occasional Evil Time as well lol - all the overlaps! #I somehow accidentally made a like?? Cotton Candied Popcorn themed outfit for Eli for the first one lol that wasn't my intention #I mean it's cute I'm not about to fight it lol I'd love for my sonas to have other clothes inspired by each other haha #Eli's eyes are still quite fun to draw as well haha those bright pops of colour - Red Purple or Blue they're all so stark and shaped #Back to their classic feminine outfit good for them uwu #Silly lad #They're also still a scientist first and foremost - it's all chemicals there's gotta be a way to recreate it externally! #Local vampire scientist creates mood stabilizers more at 7 lol #I'm quite pleased with the three-red two-purple one-blue gradient as well hehe - the decay! :D I like it as a visual #Charm tiiime <3 <3 Happy Charm time in Evil Time! Usually better than bad mood Evil Time lol - at least for those around her #Still chaotic to be in it haha - but happy chaos is happy! Lol #Again more fun with eyes the light bounce in the one where she's holding the melt is so cute and looks so nice on my paper too <3 #I had a silly comic idea for her for the next time I get into Red Eyes as well - if I remember lol #Big Love is hearts! It just makes sense #Also I am Really proud of the cleaning job I did on that last one lol - from original to this? Night and day ngl #Guess that goes to show how little cleaning I do on-page lol #For some I do! Others... #Still thinking up outfits - you can probably just make out ''Hero Charm'' in her hair lol trying to think around different themes #Something that could become something else! Add or subtract an element and it changes the ''meaning'' of the outfit #Kinda like her initial caped design that Kaiein rejected hmmm

[yuwuta]

is this a safe space...

#i like this blog bc i can just say things i cant on my other one 😭 or at least delete it before people see it #but so many of those dating [x] character moodboards and aesthetic posts or whatever r just so.... white 😭😭 #half the time it's some white dude w dyed hair or white dude cosplaying or just some racially ambiguous but pale as fuck man as the chrctr. #and then the dating aesthetic pics r always the palest and thinnest pinterest aesthetic couple pics.... #like... its getting tew close to polypore-wattpad days for me... #even the ones that are like insert character's hands or body irl like........ #i GET the point of those it's nice to have a visual for reference and im not saying everyone doing it w/ malicious intent #but the fact that its so common and doesn't cross peoples minds is also equally telling #and when there is a moldboard or 'inclusive' dating post its always (a) by request which means it wasn't the first thought of the op... #and (b) again is like .... the most sterilized racially ambiguous 'poc' 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #the way people cant even use words in fics to describe readers or NOT make reader white and now we've been reduced to pictures #that just make it more blatant end it all i beg 😭😭😭

[afniel]

I have no self control. Like, at all. I told myself to give me at least a week off and I would not hear shit about it.

To be fair the entire contents are currently "Words go here" but still. That's three. Solid start.

Can you blame me though, the Vegas-Indy flight is so boring and I can get so much done during it.

#also I keep stressing that I'm starting with not much plan but then I started the last one with even less plan #and that went so well I'm sitting back kinda analyzing it going 'well THAT wasn't intentional but it's pretty cool' #so like. who needs a plan. I have a *direction* and that's different and enough to go on #planning is for people who are organized and have self-control and babey I have more ADHD than you've ever seen #the thing medication does is not organization #the thing it does is make me able to take actions in the first place #what those actions are going to be is still unorganized and entirely lacking self-control #but hey at least it'll get done which is a huge improvement! usually. usually. sometimes I could stand to Not tho. #but that won't happen. even I can't stop me so what makes you think anything else in the world can #also yeah the original file was titled 'fanned fiction' and still is in my head #writing

[zestyderg]

Megora thought killing Aster would be easy (it was not easy)

#my doodles #zesty's ocs #Megora Aptora #Aster Dromeon #cw blood #cw death #So yea this is what basically happened during the fire #Megora attacked Aster and Aster fought back #killing Megora wasn't intentional though it just kind of happened #Aster handles the fact that they killed even in self defense very uh Normally (lie) #it's actually what the Aster animatic I want to make is about #I already made character refs/concepts so I'll post those later

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also was revisiting a little bmc bway interview ft. william last night & him saying his favorite part of the show was probably doing the agtikbi reprise scene on the couch at the party & mentioning the Nonverbal aspect of jeremy & christine's interacting / communicating there & a way of exploring/depicting Love & Affection in a way you don't always see everywhere and like aaaarghhhhh so true good lord that specific scene. and Again the bway obcr version Existing and being like that, it's just like. winded exhale yeah obsessed 5ever thank you all

#sooo true so true.... #bmc #love putting it right in like the eye of the storm #both of them basically just having had these breakups & with jeremy that means mitb scene And [all of that A Time he had prior] #also now reflecting on how you know obviously he was Not ready to hear it w/michael & ofc he was affected by what all Just happened #but it's also like probably the worst time to be very pushy even with the best intentions & thinking it's Urgent & right abt all that lmao #but jeremy's Just had like whoops autonomy revoked ten ways to sunday from two different squip figures like #even [being correct! having jeremy's wellbeing in mind!] behind trying to yank him into some outcome; he's gonna be like Not Again #& ofc the sunk cost re: his squip & he has not had time to catch his breath like literally; not in a place to Confront Shit #if even his missed bestie is; from his perspective here; not at all comforting & not giving him what he feels is a real option.... #& anyways ofc we can sympathize / understand them both b/c that's what the show is giving at all moments re all characters #all this to say like jeremy & christine like having such a time being very at sea very uncomfortable but then having This moment #and the refreshment & relief finally of having this successful genuine connection & relative security being with this person rn #love & affection for sure....just say what's on your mind....lord first of all that they improvise those Noises every night. i'm gonna cry #second of all imagining not knowing how that scene goes & the pause & jeremy like [augh] & then christine just Yes Anding. aaaugh #head in hands haven't even relistened for a moment despite all this reflection. the downtempo quiet reprise waaah #it's Pretty killer to sit & chat with you....it's pretty killer for me too....sooo true Not getting this everywhere always & Waaugh ;;m;; #and wasn't even thinking of it as a joke like [and talking about devote specific focus on the Nonverbal aspect of such a scene: im putting #my hands on the shoulders of that & keep drawing a deep breath to start talking abt it but instead going Whew & making Expressions] #i.e. the significance of my nonverbal response as per conveying emotions & thoughts lmao. and just....You Know

[musical-chick-13]

So the problem is. That I don't want to call Ten-cubed "fourteen." I think Ncuti should be. Fourteen. He IS fourteen.

But if I want to talk about Ncuti's specific incarnation of this character. And make it clear that I am talking about him. I will have to call him "Fifteen." But doing that means that everyone involved in this ridiculous naming decision wins.

#maybe we call him 'gatwa!doctor' ?? #kind of like we do with the masters #(and we've done this with other doctors too like war and ruth so it's not like there's no precedent) #(then again this will change ALL the numbers going forward. like whoever's after gatwa will '''officially''' be sixteen & so on & so forth) #WHY DOES THE SAME ACTOR GET TWO NUMBERS. ONE OF THOSE WASN'T EVEN A FULL RUN. WTF RUSSELL #like I'm willing to say that maybe. MAYBE. there wasn't active malicious intent. but holy shit the optics are SO bad. #genuinely I am still mad about this and I will be forever #I promise I am not trying to make this one (1) writer man into my parasocial enemy there are plenty of other people I could do that with #who deserve it more. I just get...tired. #like really it's the fact that everyone interpreted the past 2 eras in the WORST faith possible and STRAIGHT-OUT MADE UP THINGS TO COMPLAIN #ABOUT THAT WERE NOT CANON. but there's SO little impulse to criticize ANYTHING regarding russel or dt's 70000 incarnations #which. that discrepancy/hypocrisy isn't COMPLETELY the show's fault. but that. unfortunately. doesn't make it any less annoying. #there was something else I was going to say but I deleted it for being a bit TOO salty #mel screams about The Weird Little Space Show again

[laurenkmyers]

maybe now people will learn not to vilify someone, especially before they have all the facts.

but i doubt it.

#build jakapan #it was always obvious to me that something wasn't right about the situation #and while i never openly defended *anyone* #i was still sent messages of abuse for daring to question it #she openly admitted to posting those pictures with cruel intentions #and in the process ruined a man's life and his career #these accusations should always be taken seriously #but when you have women like her who abuse their power #and more importantly #take advantage of the sympathies of women who have been abused #it makes me sick to my stomach #because this will have lasting affects #women need to be taken seriously when they come forward #but she has made a mockery of those women before they even have the chance #*deep sigh*

[iftitah]

accidentally opened lj's whatsapp chat from april 2023 and almost kmsed reading 2 texts couldn't even scroll above

#its so.. #he's came to my practical batch in second year i see his face daily more than i used to before #we don't even speak a word we talk to everyone else except each other #im glad a different set of events happened between those days quickly because can't imagine what would've happened if it wasn't the scene #i hate the fact that im probably the girl who momentary plays a guy for funsies let me accept that #they weren't my intentions but the whole sequence feels like it definitely #i didn't comprehend that not everyone gets utterly serious when they have a crush on someone and him acting silly and cringe was like.. #entertainment to me #because the bad guy to everyone is loosing my mind over me was such a concept to me #i think im exaggerating it a bit too much but i was actually leading him when i shouldn't have #i was in train and he called like 4 times at 3 am trying to ask if he could pick me next day but i was sleeping #why am i even thinking about this its been so long everything has changed #he's thriving with his gf who spends the world on him he's progressed academically to the extent you only see it in movies #but ive to see his face daily with the weight of those things #its just not him #another guy #these things just keep happening in college right?

[journey-to-the-attic]

me, intending to give zhao a vermillion bird costume: .....ehh let’s just give him a modified fire/feather-themed hanfu and call it a day

#ik's like two here but she looks about the same as she does in the i kid you not doodles (where she's about five) #this is because i wasn't sure how to make her look even younger #also let's be honest zhao did not dress himself this way #left to his own devices he would've shown up in one of those novelty amazon bird costumes #so of course asmo stepped in #art #dad in the devildom #jtta ik #jtta zhaoxi #obey me #in hindsight maybe i shouldn't have let zhao's outfit be so pretty because it's interfering with his Just Some Guy vibes #or actually no he deserves to dress up pretty sometimes #just know that this is absolutely not the norm #for those who didn't see the ask about it - zhao is the vermillion bird (zhuque/suzaku) and ik is the black tortoise (xuanwu/genbu) #since the four symbols of the chinese constellations are considered yokai in japan #(according to the anon and they also show up on yokai.com so i assume that's correct) #(i haven't actually read past chapter 2 of the yokai event but that's why i drew this) #i rushed through the shading because i wanted to finish this in time for father's day #missed it by just a little bit (it was yesterday for me) but for all intents and purposes it still counts #also good news!! i've got a fortnight left on my schedule so after that chapter updates should go back to normal #as for next chapter i probably won't finish it in time for this sunday so it ought to be out next week if i portion out my time right

[wispon]

if i had a nickel for every time there was a cosmere storyline concerning a scholar with self-esteem issues working tirelessly with a woman who would never collaborate with them under different circumstances, who brings a different but complimentary perspective and specialty to the table, to solve something that neither can crack on their own, bridging the seemingly insurmountable division between themselves, their ideals, and the forces they align themselves with, recording their work simultaneously in the same book where their contributions can be picked out by glancing at the handwriting, a process that excites the scholar, shoring up their faith in themself as they make new breakthroughs and find themself falling traitorously in love with this beautiful, intelligent, competent woman, only to lose her, cradling her corpse in their arms, knowing they'll have nothing to remember her by but the pattern of her handwriting, having been changed so fundamentally in their understanding of themself and their world by having known, loved, and lost her that they're able to take the steps necessary to accept incredible magic power and protect the people who they never formally ruled but have been involved in the stewardship of (a duty they were separated from when being made to work on their science project), i'd have one nickel because apparently it wasn't meant to be romantic the second time but dude holy fuck the parallels

#the cosmere is a lot of things but one of those things is that it's a story about stories #and even if it wasn't intentional i think there's a lot of meaning in the symmetry of sazed and navani's arcs #Intent is an important force in the cosmere but hemalurgy and hoid both hint that Destiny or Fate is a spiritual element as well #we know that the future isn't written in stone but there's nothing more Fateful than the structure of the narrative #i'm sure a lot of the parallels and repeated story beats between cosmere stories is just bc one man can only make up so many plot pts #but it's fun as a reader to experience that symmetry as part of the overarching tapestry of the thing #this is a joke and not an airtight analysis but what im trying to say is: Navaniel Real. #my posts #cosmere #actually i wonder if wax and steris fit this pattern now that i think about it. they also do research as bonding #although it's a harder parellel to draw bc the stakes and tone of era 2 is so different than era 1/stormlight #and it's a subversion bc steris didn't get to dramatically hold wax's corpse. and wax isn't a woman also #spoilers #cosmere spoilers #do i also tag uhhhh #mistborn spoilers #stormlight archive spoilers #long post

[nicos-robin]

i continue to be confused by the insistence that gold roger was a bad dad

#like. he wasn't a good dad or a bad dad he was barely even a dad #and a lot of the reasons why he is cited as being a bad dad are things that were outside of his control #i do think that giving ace to garp was not the BEST decision making ever but that was honestly just oda trying to come up w/ a good reason #as to how ace and luffy grew up together and you can headcanon rogers intentions however you want #but idk #i see that take so frequently and im always curious like... if you remove the reasons that were outside of his control why do you think hes #a bad dad? or is it just for the reasons that were -- again-- outside of his control? #idk its just one of those takes that when it isn't presented as a joke it rubs me the wrong way #cause yeah i think in all honestly roger would have been about as good a parent as garp but he wasn't even given that opportunity !!! #jfdijgidjfgiog im rambling for way too long #ange rambles