#even my reslly close friends like | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

starsandhughes · 4 months

Text

Penalty Box Series— Quinn Hughes Edition (Fifteen)

Hughes Palooza Edition

SEASON MASTERLIST

previous: fourteen

hi i’m back! i had to take a much needed break <3 trying to post every game when i was so behind got to me and it wasn't fun to watch anymore. because of this, i’ll only be posting special games (like when the guys play each other), record breaking games, and reslly any game i have the motivation to (like if it's chaotic and quinn/trev get penalties). i’m not pushing myself anymore i hope y'all understand🤍

and because there was a lot of tense feelings after this game for devils fans, i decided to make this post *mostly* about the millers

JANUARY 6, 2023

yourusername

liked by _quinnhughes, jackhughes, and 18,439 others

yourusername welcome back to my postgame penalty box update show: hughes palooza MILLER EXTRAVAGANZA EDITION!

THE colin miller, number 24 on the devils, number 6 in my heart (his number on the stars iydk), scored not only his first goal of the season, 🚨BUT HIS SECOND GOAL, TOO🚨 pop OFF step dad!!! congrats on being third star of the game!

and OUR miller, mr. jt, ceo of shaking his head at my nonsense (he loves me), scored two goals 1 minute and 4 seconds apart!

WE GOT A MILLER DICK TRICK EVERYBODY! two from jt, and two from colin! 2 + 2 = 4!!

✨now for the accomplishments✨

my best friend, my lifeline, loser of the postgame mario kart competition, quintin jerome hughes, has best the canucks franchise record for most multi point games by a defenseman last night with his 69th (😏) game! I'M SO UNBELIEVABLY PROUD OF YOU, HUGGY BEAR! this is the second record (that isn't his own) he's broken this season, and we're not even halfway through! he also has the most points from all defenseman in the league currently! (10th overall!)

and demmer had his 100th career win tonight! we love a milestone!

and luke played, too! he was definitely there!

i’m so proud of the valiant effort and fight everyone on the ice put into the game tonight! especially colin! i love colin! go colin! i’ll be mailing jack your first goal trophy!

happy miller extravaganza everyone! xoxo, sissy🤍

edit: luke is the rookie defenseman points leader and he threw a fit so i’m adding this so he'll stop being annoying. proud of you, lukey poo!

edit: petey also scored twice and was first star of the game! and he also whined so i had to include this! yay petey!

tagged _quinnhughes, lhughes_06, colinmiller1029, and j.tmiller9

view all 406 comments

lhughes_06 i feel personally victimized by this post

yourusername personally, i think i victimized other people more

_eliaspettersson @/j.tmiller9 she's talking about you

yourusername @_eliaspettersson i’m going to victimize you.

_eliaspettersson @/yourusername you did by not including me

lhughes_06 @/yourusername we deserve justice

yourusername @/lhughes_06 @_eliaspetterson fine you cry babies! happy?

lhughes_06 good enough

_eliaspettersson i’ll take it

yourusername you two are lucky i love you🙄

lhughes_06 aww i love you, too, sissy

_eliaspettersson love you!

user17 MILLER DICK TRICK HA

_quinnhughes my pictures are way better than i thought they'd be

yourusername you beat another record so i decided to be nice <3 i love you!

_quinnhughes i love you, too

lhughes_06 @_quinnhughes she was mean to me

_quinnhughes @/lhughes_06 that sounds like a you problem

lhughes_06 @_quinnhughes @/yourusername get out of my apartment

yourusername @/lhughes_06 "i'm not letting you go back to california. you're moving in and we're getting bunk beds"

lhughes_06 @/yourusername rat

yourusername @/lhughes_06 mwah!

jackhughes we would've won if i was there

yourusername oh look another cry baby

jackhughes we would've!

yourusername your team came close without you! and you can't prove shit! be happy for your brother! i'm literally taking care of you! i will leave you alone to die!

jackhughes @_quinnhughes good job

yourusername good boy

_quinnhughes @/jackhughes thanks

user8 okay but they would've won with jack...

yourusername hi! the devils put in an insane amount of effort and came back from a three goal deficit at the beginning of the third. the canucks basically doubled their amount of offensive zone time and yet the devils still pushed through all their adversity and was so close in the end. you're dismissing all of the other players great work and play by claiming that just jack alone would've changed that. yeah, he probably would've made an impact, but the canucks have been in the top ten of the league all season and nico daws still held his own pretty well and stopped a good portion of their shots against a team that was top of the league for a hot second and was 5th coming into the game. every devils player played to the best of their abilities and there were some unlikely heroes, another thing you're dismissing. jack is my brother and i love him, but he is not the only player on the devils. it's a team. a team that came so close in the end with almost half of the amount of sog. don't dismiss the rest of the team. be proud of them all.

user81 preach!!

j.tmiller9 i thought you loved me

yourusername i do! why would you think otherwise?!

j.tmiller9 i got the worst photos out of everyone!

yourusername well i couldn't do it to colin! and quinn beat a record so i had to be mostly nice! and they barely showed luke proof of life! somebody had to be the one to give good content! congratulations! it was you! i love you🩵

j.tmiller9 you could've been nice to everyone! you're such a sweet girl!

_quinnhughes @/j.tmiller9 she's deranged and this is how she shows her love

j.tmiller9 @_quinnhughes do i need to show her how to love in other ways?

_quinnhughes @/j.tmiller9 you can try but it probably won't work

jackhughes @/j.tmiller9 it's best to accept it

lhughes_06 @/j.tmiller9 this just means she loves you so much and trusts that you won't leave her for doing this

j.tmiller9 @/yourusername i love you, too! i'm here for you!

jackhughes @/j.tmiller9 she's emotional and under my shirt but she says "i love him so much he's one of the best people i’ve ever met and i'm buying him a present for being so nice"

user96 quinn hughes beat a record to make up for being the only hughes that didn't score last game

colinmiller1029 thank you! but i’m a little confused

yourusername COLIN! STEP DAD!

colinmiller1029 step dad?

jackhughes @/yourusername sissy, you're supposed to ask before you give people father figure titles

jackhughes @/colinmiller1029 she's a little obsessed with you i'm so sorry

yourusername @/colinmiller1029 hi i know we've only met twice but will you be my step dad? i already have a dad (troy terry) and then a real dad so your duties aren't that bad!

colinmiller1029 duties?

jackhughes @/colinmiller1029 dealing with her nonsense is the only thing. it'll be pretty easy for you since you were a dallas star. she started a gang with wyatt, ty, and thomas

colinmiller1029 @/yourusername sure! but as your step dad, i should probably tell you that you shouldn't start gangs

yourusername @/colinmiller1029 it's a little too late for that, sorry! it was delly's idea!

colinmiller1029 that sounds about right

jackhughes @/colinmiller1029 and that is what your duties are! see? easy enough

user56 LUKE LOOKED SO GOOD DURING THE ANTHEM FUCK

trevorzegras come home the kids miss you

jamie.drysdale @/yourusername mason and i are the kids

yourusername @/trevorzegras @/jamie.drysdale soon! i promise! i’m getting some much needed brother time! (send help jack's whiney)

trevorzegras have fun! i love you, forever!

yourusername you're the worst! i love you, always!

jamie.drysdale mwah!

#penalty box series #penalty box series: quinn hughes edition #quinn hughes #quinn hughes imagine #luke hughes #luke hughes imagine #jack hughes #jack hughes imagine #nj devils imagine #canucks imagine #nhl imagine #hockey imagine #trevor zegras x reader #elias petterson #quinn hughes x sister! reader #hughes sister #quinn hughes fic #quinn hughes fanfic #quinn hughes au

229 notes · View notes

angelicalbones · 2 months

Text

the fucking paranoia that still grips my soul when my mother tells me to run something by my dad

just asked if I could borrow their cabin next weekend for me and couple friends bc i reslly dont wanna bother him during work and it just happened to come up in convo w said friend and she just texts back "run it by dad"

and now im like trembling thinking they are mad st me or im going to get my ass torn apart for something which is why she wont say anything.

i hav done literally nothing wrong except lst night i was on the phon w my brother while i was painting on speaker and he was bitching about our sibling being an asshole and exhibiting alot of behaviors like our mom but theres like next to no way she heard it bc the entire time we were having that convo i was in my room door closed and she was on a different floor of the house but im still sitting here like

whst if she heard and now they are furious w me and going to fucking obliterate me this evening for being disrespectful? what if I said or did something yesterday that severely upset them both and i didnt realize like i did constantly as a kid?

THIS IS SUCH A DUMB PANOC SPIRAL TO FALL DOWN OVER 1 TEXT AND SKING MY DAD A SUPER LOWKEY QUESTION WHEN HES OFFERED TO LET ME TAKE PEOPLE UP THERE BEFORE

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#fully convinced im about to get turbo punished in a few hours #like im practically frozen w fucking panic #my parents are the supreme rulers over passive agressive bullshit #getting extremely upset w you and then not saying a god damn thing about it #until it boils over and explodes bc you didnt know you did something wrong #for two ND people they are so fucking NT in the way they handle shit i swear to god its wild

2 notes · View notes

cherrysnax · 5 years

Text

why cant i worry about people like,, normally

#why do i have to panic everytime im worried about my friends #my mind instanly goes to the Wprst and its reslly scary and i cant stop crying and i just wish. i vould have the short list of people i care #about in like a basket or something so i just. always know when theyre safe or not #im sure everyone is fine i just #worry #plus i havent heard from mara and i know dhes like out on the road andbthats dangerous #n i want and need her to be safe becuase i would never wver kow if anything happened to her or not #i cant live like this; panicking when people are away from me #its unhealthy and its only gonna make me scared to live life #and i dont wanna be suffocating and overbearing #the pnly like. close friend of mine tht i know is 99% fine is peej and thts because they popped up in my notifications a while ago #i really have no idea the next time i could lose someone #im trying hard to distract myseld but i cant stop crying #i wanna pass out but even though im tired my body wont let me #if i can just get a text or somethn ill be fine #i cant stop shaking i hate this i hate my mind #everytime i close my eyes i see a new Worse outcome and i hate it #idc abt money or how we‘re gonna live or my issues i judt want xiomara safe and with me so i know #im afraid of waiting 4 a text thatll never come #andd hhh crisis adverted #for mara at least #i hope blake and zeph are okay too #i.. worry a lot #not fandom

6 notes · View notes

peachenemy · 3 years

Note

hAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUICHI!!!

(am i spamming this????? my tumblr is NOT working well)

c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-c-can i request Kokichi, K1b0 and Miu (separately) with a s/o who has social phobia and cries when ppl comment about how shy they are?😰

i need some angst to fluff, maybe if the character ends up making the s/o feel bad and just comforts them in the end?

thank you<3.

Yes of course

This is my first time writing for Miu too

Also, im sorry if this is offensive. Ive never had anxiety 🤷🏻‍♀️ so if its offensive just tell me and ill fix it

Miu Iruma who's s/o has social phobia

Ok, Miu is a dislikeable person.

No, i love her and i would befriend her, but her classmates doesn't say the same. So i think you don't either since she insults you in any possible way.

(Also since they are japanese and she is eveything but a polite person)

Let's say you made a mistake, she insults you, and you start to cry for two reasons:

You are scared.

You are crying in front of everyone and the embarrasment makes you cry even more wich also makes you cry.

Miu felt bad for it (and got a scared attitude since she got insulted by the rest of the group).

She apologize, but does it on private.

This is not a selfish action...

She knows you are anxious. She knew it, even when she say those awfull things to you, but didn't really thought it was that bad.

So yes, she is sorry.

But you don't forgive her 🤨.

So she decides to do you a favor. She may let you touch her body🤑 build something for you. For free!

Doesn't know what, so she let you decide.

I don't know what you asked her to do, but as long as you spend time with her, your anxiety goes down... A little bit.

You see yourself hanging with her more often and feeling more calm.

She defends you from any aggression... Before shrinking.

Of course, your relationship is more complicated than that since Miu is Miu and you are you.

But the time makes it healthier.

Anyways, since you feel more in comfort with Miu, you can also defend her a little bit sometimes (before running away with her holding you hand).

But that might never happen. The worst aggression you two will have are Kokichi's. Those are not that bad.

So, with this weirdo, or she either protects your anxious ass, or you either take her away.

She really will try to make you less anxious by creating more therapeutic machines.

Miu is a smart woman. I'm sure she can help.

Kokichi Ouma who's s/o has social phobia

Yes, Kokichi loved to tease you at first.

Seeing you all shy and with a red face was hillarious.

Until you started to get scared...

And cry...

Ngl you scared him.

"H... Hey, i get it, nice joke. Now stop it 😰".

He is way more nice since then.

Yes, he does jokes around, but that's just his personality.

He realized this wasn't normal after a while.

So he tries to help you with it.

And after a while, you seemed to calm down only around him.

Your anxiety IS a mental illness (according to Google), so it's not that easy.

So please forgive him is something goes wrong and he makes you cry 😅.

Finds it cute when you depend on him, but after a while...

He really thinks you should go and see a doctor. Until then, he is there for emotional support!

Kokichi loves you and wants you to be happy and comfortable.

He won't try to do the opposite, but sometimes he can mess up.

He is not a therapist. Don't ask too much from him.

Just imagine you him introducing you to Gonta, the nicest character 😍.

And now imagine Gonta showing you his bugs 💀

Shuichi Saihara who's s/o has social phobia

You don't even need to tell him.

He doesn't know you have a phobia, but he does know you are a scared person.

So when you started crying at him he was... Also scared.

"S... S/o?! W... What happened?! Are you ok?!"

Now he knows how bad it is.

He is so sorry. Really.

Even when you forgive him, he still feels sorry.

So he decides to treat you nicer? Like, more patient and kind.

You can trust him. You know you can but, uh, how to explain it? You can't.

With the time, he gets more involved on it. He tries harder.

Not in a bad way! He is not trying to be cringe or scared you, but he can't just leave things like that.

No no. Dont judge him. i know you are doing it

And everytime, you two became more and more close.

And so you started to feel more in comfort around him.

You two became friends, and with the time, you started to date.

But it took a while.

Shuichi protects you from any aggression. He always takes you on count and tries to make you feel comfortable.

Introduces you to his friends, his training, and a lot of more things you feel capable of doing.

It is pretty nice.

He doesn't cure you. Again, you need to see a therapist.

But he does his best and you are reslly happy with that.

Your relationship goes slow, but it goes.

46 notes · View notes

shinylitwick94 · 3 years

Text

Why You Hate Hostels: a memo from present me to future me

I hope the cut works, I'm on mobile. If not, apologies for crowding your dashes with this rant, friends, but I needed to get this out of my system.

You know why you like hostels. They're cheap. That's it. There's reslly no other reason. And sometimes that's enough. But sometimes it isn't. This post is a reminder of why that is, so that you will actually think before saying you're fine with a whole week at a hostel again.

So, once again here's the list of Why You Hate Hostels:

1. Physical discomfort

Shitty mattresses. Triple bunks. ANY bunks, when you're stuck on the top one. Stairs that dig into your footsoles. Bathrooms whose floor is basically a swimming pool. Cold water. No water. Non-working plugs. Working plugs but blow-driers not allowed for mystical reasons. Bathrooms that are super far from your room. Rooms that are too cold or too hot. Scratchy sheets. Street noise. Hostel noise. The ordeal of packing, unpacking every single night while trying not to wake everyone.

2. Safety

Dorm doors that won't lock. Dormmates who don't lock the doors. No lockers. Locker doors that won't lock. Padlock lockers. Getting home at night to your invariably weirdly located hostel.

3. People (part 1, "friends")

You know that thing where they say hostels are great because you get to meet new people and make so many wonderful friends?

You don't like that. No, stop lying, you know full well you've never once made a friend at a hostel and you most likely never will.

You already know exactly what you want to in whatever place you are in, otherwise you wouldn't be there in the first place. You made an over-detailed list 3 months in advance. You have zero intentions of lingering around the hostel to meet people, and even fewer intentions of joining in on their plans. Which 80% of the time are just drinks anyway. A thing you can do at home, for cheaper, and with people you care about. So unless you made a mistake and you are sitting bored at a hostel, you won't spontaneously join the plans of others, and the less is said about others joining your plans the better.

You may meet some nice people you could hypothetically be friends with. They will inevitably be gone the next day. Meanwhile that person you can't stand will be around for the whole week.

4. People (part 2, "privacy")

You're better at dealing with people now than you were ten years ago, but you still feel uncomfortable around strangers. Which makes this whole hostel thing really awkward and unpleasant.

Arrivals. You want to be polite and say hello! And you're fine with chatting a bit, really. But that doesn't mean you want to deal with a 30min conversation every single time. Or that you want to share all the details of your life with a stranger you judt met who asks way too many questions.

Fact: you're uncomfortable changing clothes around strangers. So either you try very hard to pretend it doesn't bother you and change there anyway, or you bundle your clothes and run off to the bathroom. Both options suck.

You're a light sleeper. People coming in in the middle of the night WILL wake you up. People moving around in the middle of the night will wake you up. People snoring will wake you up only sometimes (we've made progress on this front, go us!). You, in turn, will be terrified of waking up other people.

You will feel observed and judged for everything you do and feel extremely self-conscious at all times. You will never be able to be alone. You will never be able to relax. You won't be able to ever close the door and just BE.

As a consequence, you will not rest and will almost certainly be running around with less than 7 hours of sleep almost every day.

You're just stressed out the whole time.

You would say you are getting too old for this.

But let's face it - if anything you hated it MORE ten years ago.

#personal #rant

3 notes · View notes

liliplayschoices · 4 years

Note

Do you have any headcanons for your ILITW MC?

My giiiiiiiirl 😍

I have a ton of headcanons for her ^^ most of them also include Andy though I gotta be honest so he might pop up a lot here 😂 also this is absolutely ramble-y because I just dumped all my thoughts here so... sorry about that lmao (also im on mobile so I can't use a read more, sorry xD)

Okay so I know in the events of the book, we don't see her interacting with other people at school but I think these weeks aren't representative of what her life looks like normally. I see her as an introvert, she won't enjoy big parties often or anything but she still has a really amiable nature so people tend to be friends with her easily.

I think Devon is a pretty artistic girl. She loves to read fantasy and sci fi, she loves to cosplay, maybe she's a theater kid, too. I think she draws too, but I don't know what kind of art she prefers (as in, digital, street art, painting,.... I don't know haha)

When the story starts she's had a crush on Andy for a little while now. Nothing major, mind you, but yeah, teenage crush, blushing when she sees him, that kinda stuff, you know ^^ so when they start hanging out again it comes naturally between them pretty fast.

When Andy is in the hospital after the events of the book (and after that when he's stuck at home until he gets better), she comes to hang out with him a lot. More often than not, Tom is there too, so the two of them become pretty close, they realize they have a lot in common so they hang out at school too and become close friends (yes I am ignoring the ILB canon that Tom doesn't know her well. I don't care.)

Anyway so the three of them play a toooon of video games during that time which leads to a tradition of game night for the three of them and it gets pretty intense, cause Andy gets super competitive 😂 ( @the-unconquered-queen and I talked about game night a few times and now I can't let go of this HC ^^)

And of course there are also a lot of times when Tom isn't there, so they basically have little date nights together, watching movies and shows. Devon brings junk food to him when he's in the hospital (the nurses know but they let it happen lmao) and she curls up on his bed and they watch movies on her laptop (cause the hospital tv never has anything interesting) and it's soooo cute cause they didnt really... get official at that point you know, but then they just start dating and falling in love and all 😍

Anywayyyyy back to Devon. So I think she never truly heals from what happened. She always felt like Jane's death was her fault, and even if rationally she knows that what Noah did isn't her fault, she can't help but feel guilty over it. So that's why she starts going into the woods again.

I think she never really held Noah responsible for what happened, because of her own guilt. Like, objectively she knows what he did was wrong but she also feels like it's her fault if Jane is dead so that's why she forgives him for his actions pretty quickly

She starts doing a lot of research into how she could help him, and the Power in general. She doesn't go to college after high school, but she starts working at the local library pretty soon and gets a little obsessed. After a while, she does starts college (to study graphic design), but she doesn't seem to be able to move on from Noah and wanting to free him. She doesn't focus much on studies because she can't get rid of her guilt and obsession to make things right.

She ultimately tells the rest of the group and it does not go well. Especially with Andy. They've been dating for years at this point but this is the biggest fight they ever have. I think Andy is the kind of guy who holds a grudge so he would still be pissed at Noah, and there's the added layer of him feeling like Devon didnt trust him and put herself in danger needlessly and he's scared that he might have lost her without knowing it. They do work it out after a while because ultimately they love each other enough to work through it but yeah, that happens and it's a pretty big fight.

I feel like most of the rest of the group are mad but they come around to helping her at some point. Ava is immediately jumping at the chance to help Devon with all the supernatural research and stuff.

Dan has another approach. He can see that what Devon does is pretty unhealthy because of how she's clinging to the past, so he tries to help her work through her guilt and her trauma. It does help, and she becomes less obsessed after a while (she's still hell-bent on freeing Noah's spirit but she also starts moving on in other aspects of her life, paying attention in class, thinking about the future,...)

Oh total change of subject lmao but you know how Andy is in college on a basketball scholarship? Yeah so I think Andy would be a total frat bro 😂 like, he'd go to frat parties and do keg stands and stupid harmless dares and stuff. You know the type of guy. So Devon goes to frat parties because she knows he loves it despite it not reslly being her scene ^^ but she stills ends up having fun and does make friends with Andy's friends too

Also she gets into the habit of stealing and wearing his basketball jacket ( I got @kingkangs on board with this one and i will get the whole fandom to accept Devon wearing Andy's basketball jacket) and he says he minds, but... you know... He really doesn't ;)

To be honest, I feel like Devon would never truly be able to move on while Noah was still trapped, she would still feel obligated to help him. So I imagine that after a long time, they do manage to free his spirit (I don't know how okay I'm not writing IL3 😂 let's just say they do!)

So after that, she starts truly thinking of the future. She starts looking for a long-term job, Andy and her move in together after college.

They still have game nights with Tom on the regular (Harper, my ILB MC, joins them cause her and Tom are dating ^^) and Andy is still super competitive cause that hasn't changed 😂

Devon still loves cosplay so she convinces Andy to go to conventions with her and he's like "....fine I'll do it" begrudgingly but once he's there he's having a blast 😂

Anyway I think that's pretty much it for now! I rambled a lot, sorry... But you did ask! That was super fun so thank youu for your ask!!!

#playchoices #it lives in the woods #andy kang x mc #devon ilitw #feel free to send me other asks about anything really!!#these are obviously open to change if i have other ideas at some point ^^#also i didn't play the extra scene at the end of ilb #specifically cause i didnt want to get excited for a book 3 we wont get #so that might not be on par with thst part of canon

25 notes · View notes

marveloussupernerd · 4 years

Note

Could I pretty please request Zen and MC ~platonically~ getting hammered together and just getting into shenanigans? I’m a ✨lesbian✨ and still reslly would love to have these characters as best friends, especially zen because he seems like such a ride or die. If I could have one wish it would be getting plastered with Zen and him making sure I don’t die. Thank you in advance and feel free to reject this one lol

Yes !!! Ofc I can do that :) also I have literally never rejected a request LMAO I’m here for your enjoyment. I’m rlly excited to write this bc everyone is SLEEPING on zen and also ?? The Zen friendship content in Jumin’s route? I’ll never shut up about how much I love it. Also I threw Yoosung in here too pls don’t hate me

Clubbing - Platonic! Zen

Warnings: alcohol (duh lmao)

Summary: you’ve had a rough day at work. Zen’s been meaning to show you around to some of his favorite bars. Zen’s responsible but also wouldn’t hesitate to punch a bitch if need be. Yoosung has to clean up after your messes

Oh! Also. PSA, I’m 19. So have I ever gone out and gotten drunk... no LMAO. I do drink (it’s legal where I’m at as long as you’re with your parents, still wouldn’t be able to drink in a bar though) but only enough to get buzzed usually. Anyway if this is inaccurate that’s why I am so sorry LMAO

You honestly had had the worst day today. It was a pretty bad week, truth be told, and you were so grateful it was the weekend. You texted Zen a lot throughout this week; the two of you had become close friends since the RFA party and hung out almost every weekend. Hearing all about your bad days, he suggested taking you to a bar to let off some steam and give you something to look forward to. You’d never turn down a drink.

You took an Uber to the bar, as did Zen. You expressed your desire to get plastered and Zen agreed wholeheartedly. You had never been to this bar before, but Zen swore by it, so you trusted him.

“Hey!” Zen exclaimed as he saw you get out of the car. He was leaning against the wall of the bar coolly, dressed in the leather jacket he must have pulled out of his closet from the time he was in a motorcycle gang.

“This better be worth the commute,” you teased, not letting him live down the fact that it took almost an hour to get here (primarily due to traffic honestly).

“Oh it will,” he had a giant grin on his face. “I’ve been so busy I haven’t been here in a while, but i doubt it’s changed.” He pushed himself off the wall and made his way inside alongside you. “It’s right outside of a college so you get all the fun college students here.”

“Sounds messy,” you commented, glancing at some girls in skimpy crop tops and high-waisted shorts getting drunk already.

“Much better than bars for real adults. You’ve always got some guy moping over a glass of whiskey in those. Here, it’s all singing and dancing and getting drunk. Of course, I only come when I want to get completely hammered, but it’s always fun. The kids are nice too.”

It was at this point that you reminded yourself that Zen was only 23. He seemed so much older because he’s been on his own for so long, but nope, he was 23. The same age as a lot of the grad students here. So partying with them was not weird or creepy in any sort of way. In fact, the students probably were over the moon to party with someone so famous and, if they weren’t aware of who he was, handsome.

“So what do you typically start with here?” You asked, wanting to get the full experience.

“Shots. Classic move, especially for the med school students. You’ll see them soon enough. They start off with fireball but then make their way down to the cheapest vodka they have as they get more drunk and can’t actually taste it.”

“Let’s follow their influence,” you suggested. Zen went up to the bar and ordered some shots, bringing four glasses back with him. “Do they normally do two at once?” You asked.

“Nah, they’re way too broke for that. But I thought it’d be fun.” He handed you your shot glass and clinked his against it. You gulped down the shot, feeling the familiar fire burn in your throat. (I love fireball LMAO) You shook your head vigorously to counteract the burn, as though that would help, then looked back at Zen. “Good?” He asked.

“Perfect. Round 2?”

“Already?”

You laughed. “Well, it’s here isn’t it? The faster we can get drunk the better.”

You got drunk pretty fast. Zen was constantly handing you drinks, which of course you didn’t turn down. Maybe it was because the two of you hadn’t gotten drunk in a while, but this one hit you hard.

“Will you sing karaoke with me?” Zen chuckled, his cheeks flushed from all the alcohol in his system.

You laughed out loud. “Sure. I’ll even let you pick the song.”

You did not expect him to pick “Before He Cheats” but honestly? A banger of a song. Who doesn’t know all the words to this song?? “Hey, I’m Zen, and this is my best friend,” he slurred out, introducing you before the song started.

You sang in unison, the first instrumental break coming out. “This is for my asshole ex!” You cheered. The college students cheered with you.

“And all my old managers who told me I’d never make it!” Zen added. Everyone cheered again. You walked over to him, tripping on the microphone cord. He caught you a few inches off the ground.

“That would’ve hurt like a bitch,” you commented, bursting into laughter again. He helped you up and held your hand as you crossed over the wires this time, ensuring you wouldn’t get caught again.

Was your performance good? Probably not. Even Zen, who usually sang pretty well, was some sort of hot mess since he was so drunk. But the drunk students seemed to enjoy it, so you padded off the ‘stage’, proud of yourself.

Some dude called your name. Ew. Maybe Zen shouldn’t have introduced you.

Zen whipped around to face him. “If you so much as look at her right now I swear to God I’ll knock you into- Yoosung?”

“Hi!” You turned around to see the origin of the voice; it was indeed Yoosung. “You guys are kinda drunk.”

The two of you simply laughed, brushing him off. “What are you doing here?” Zen asked.

“Oh, well I live right down the street.”

“Oh my goodness you are a college student!” You observed keenly. You were connecting so many dots.

“Yup. Uh, I had an LOLOL event tonight but was super tired, so I thought I’d come and take a shot and it’d help wake me up. Never expected to see you two belting out Carrie Underwood.” He scratched the back of his neck awkwardly.

“Oh! I have a great idea,” Zen exclaimed, focusing his attention on you.

“I’d love to hear it.”

“Why don’t we just crash at Yoosung’s place tonight? We won’t have to pay for an Uber at high time and get stuck in traffic!”

Yoosung’s eyes widened. “But-“

“That’s pretty smart,” you agreed, nodding. “What do you think Yoosung?”

“I-“ he sighed. “I guess it’s okay. As long as I can play LOLOL.”

“Yay!” You cheered. “We can go now. Lead the way.”

Yoosung hesitantly led you out to the street, walking ahead of the two of you, glancing back every few seconds to ensure you hadn’t died. Zen wrapped an arm around you and you one around him, and you stumbled down the street together, only slightly more stable than you would have been if it were just you on your own.

Luckily Yoosung lived on the first floor. You weren’t sure you’d be able to do steps right now. He unlocked the door to his apartment. “I only have like... a bed and a couch,” he muttered awkwardly. “But we can figure something out.”

You stepped into his apartment, looking around. “Wow Yoosung! This is cute as hell.”

“Uh, thanks, I think.”

You made your way to his couch and collapsed down on it. Zen did so on the other end of the couch at the same time, your legs bumping into each other. You both shifted so that your legs were on top of his so that it was more comfortable.

“Is that really comfortable? You can take my bed,” Yoosung offered.

“Nah, this is great. Will you get us a blankie though?” You asked. Yoosung left to go find something. Zen shrugged off his leather jacket. You were very happy you wore something comfy enough to crash in.

Yoosung draped a blanket over the two of you, his face bright red. “Is this okay?”

“Perfect! Thanks Dad,” Zen joked. Yoosung’s face got even more red, his ears heating up now too.

“Night Yoosungie. Don’t stay up all night,” you commented, shutting your eyes.

You heard something set down on the coffee table. Cups of water and Advil. He was too sweet. “I have class in the morning, so feel free to see yourself out whenever you’re up and ready tomorrow,” Yoosung said. “Goodnight you two.” He chuckled to himself. You and Zen probably looked like absolute idiots, but not that you cared. You had a great night out. Good thing Dad Yoosung was there too.

#mystic messenger #mysme #zen

23 notes · View notes

depressedkakashihatake · 4 years

Note

Gai

How I feel about this character

He's the definition of sunshine. Sweetest character you'll ever meet (other than Rock Lee). He just has such a big heart full of happiness and love and wants only the best for those that are close to him.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Kakashi Hatake.

That's petty much it tbh XD him and Kakashi just have so much history and their friendship is the deepest in the entire manga/show. Gai was there for Kakashi when no one else was, watching out for him, keeping him grounded, reminding him that he's worthy of love and affection.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Tenzou, Kurenai, Asuma, Genma, Ebisu

There's so many tbh because Gai really just has room to love everyone. He cares deeply about all of his friends and anyone he becomes friends with over the years. Plus all the dynamics he has/could have with them is amazing.

I wanna see Gai and Ebisu actually interact as adults and make fun of each other. It would be fantastic.

My unpopular opinion about this character

Ummm is there an unpopular opinion about perfection?

I guess maybe that he reslly had no right to get on Kakashi's case about teaching Sauske Chidori after he had taught Lee the 8 gates. They're both dumb and they deserve each other.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

I wish we could have seen Gai talk about his dad. Remind people that rank does not make the shinobi and so much emphasis on getting promoted should not be the worry. Sure, getting promoted is nice and all, but just because someone isn't fit to be Jonin or Chunin doesn't make them less of a shinobi or a person and everyone deserves respect.

Naruto and Sauske are both top tier shinobi now but i'm pretty sure even though Kakashi tried to promote Naruto it never actually went through cuz as talented and strong as Naruto is, he's not really jonin capable. He's not the tacticle leader that you need to be to be a jonin. He takes the battle on himself and kicks ass, where as people like shimamaru, neji and Kakashi are leaders in a tacticle sense.

Dai may not have been capable of being a leader, but he was a kind dedicated man who never gave up and that itself is worth admiring. That attitude is what helped make Gai and Lee who they are now.

3 notes · View notes

fishnetxgrimreaper · 4 years

Text

I wish I could be happy. A year ago I knew what happiness was or I at least some idea. February 22nd marks 1 year after my brother passed away of natural causes at 27.

I hate the fucking holidays and living. I hate that I can never be happy because a piece of me is missing. I hate that my family acts like my brother never existed.

I hate that I was raped by a close friend of mine 6 months after the death of my brother. Where I lost all friends bc they didn’t believe me. I hate that I took my rape case to trial and they found it inconclusive only making me feel even less valid.

I hate that I can’t starve myself to look the way I want to and feel good about myself for once in my life. I’m so unhappy and depressed and nobody notices or cares. Or maybe I’ve just gotten reslly good at hiding it.

2019 has thrown me every fucking curve ball I never knew could get thrown at me. I missed every throw. I got hit every time. Each bruise I’ve gotten was pushed on harder.

I find it hard to believe life will get any better. I find it hard to believe I have a purpose here. I do believe I should’ve been the one who died not my brother. I do believe that people don’t care about my well being.

I wish none of this ever happened.

2020, please don’t kill me, and if you do make it painless bc I can’t take much more.

1 note · View note

mikmikisnotcrack · 6 years

Text

Music Box || Im Jaebum

Fantasy AU: Ghost! Jaebum

▪▪▪

• Your grandmother was a lil weird

• When you were a kid, she always told you weird stuff. A lot of them revolved around one thing though, and that was witchery

• You thought it was really cool that your grandmother told you this witchery stuff, but eventually your parents told you that it was all just fictional.

• It ruined your childhood, but hey, you still thought your grandmother was cool

• But when you grew up, she became weaker and eventually passed away.

• You were absolutely devastated. I mean, who wouldn't? You had a cool grandma who always told you witchy stories and who was by your side whenever you had problems in your life.

• Before she passed though, she had given you a carousel music box that you were told has been around for ages.

• You kept it on your bedside drawer so that you wouldn't feel alone.

• Whenever you stressed about exams, deadlines, your best friend Jackson or work, you always turned to the music box for comfort.

• Though, when you thought it made you feel like you weren't alone

• You didn't think it would actually make you feel less lonely

• Because you sWeAr tO gOd you feel a presence around you ever since you brought the music box into your apartment.

• It could just be you being paranoid because it was your first time being away from your family home

• But legit it felt like someone else was in the room

• You wanted to consider putting it back in your old room back at home, but it has stuck with you for too damn long to NOT be by your side. Besides, it was from your witchy grandma, why would you keep it away from you?

• One night, you were incredibly stressed. Finals were coming up in multiple subjects of yours and it was really hard to balance that with your part time job as a barista.

• On top of that, some professors were so helpful in lessening your stress by giving some paper works due! How fun.

• The night was full of your constant groans of frustration and the sound of paper crumpling.

• It was 2:30 am you wanted to drop the fuck out right there and then as you slammed your head down on the multiple papers scattered on your desk.

• The frustration from the past few days that you bottled up was finally bursting, and now here you were, crying on the bond papers that have been on your desk.

• Until you heard it

• Your music box was fucking playing

• Your head snapped over to your desk where you saw the music box playing. The little gold horses were spinning.

• This shit was something straight out of a horror movie.

• The moment your head left the papers, they all went flying off your desk. You didn't even know how to react because all the windows were closed and your fan wasnt open. You're haunted fOR S U R E

• "You know, you should really take it easy on yourself"

• You whipped your head around but nobody was there.

• Nope nope nope nope

• You pushed away all the papers that remained on your desk, shut your laptop, shut your textbooks, and went straight to your bed, covering yourself with the duvet.

• The music box will not stop playing!!

• You inhaled sharply before you were met face to face with a boy with dark hair and eyes to match.

• You wanted to scream, but you didn't know where your voice fucking went

• "You know, it's really bad to pent up your frustration like that. You should relax"

• "P-Pardon???"

• "You heard me"

• Your eyes were wide as dinner plates. This guy was definately not here when you entered the aprtment

• And this guy was definately not a normal human being!!!

• "Ohhh shit I forgot that humans aren't used to this thing... sorry"

• No shit humans arent used to that thing!! It's not everyday your dead grandma's music box plays in the middle of three am and a ghost throws off your damn paperwork!!!

• "You know what, my stress levels are sky rocketting right now! I'm seeing things!! I should really go to bed!!"

• And with that, you turned to face the opposite way from ghost boy and put the duvet up to your nose.

• Before you completely fell asleep, you heard your papers being fixed and the lamp on your desk turning off.

• "Good night (Y/n)"

• The next morning you woke up a little more refreshed than normal.

• It was a friday, which meant that your classes started a little later than usual.

• You brushed your hair and went to the bathroom to take a quick shower.

• After doing your morning routine and picking out your clothes, you went to the kitchen to make breakfast.

• Except, it was already made for you.

• There in the kitchen, was ghost boy placing the sunny side up egg on the freshly cooked bibimbap

• "Oh, you're awake"

• Proceeds to pour you a cup of coffee in a shameless "stressed, depressed, kpop obsessed" mug

• "Uhhh, y e a h"

• "You should eat up, your finals will be coming up today and you need nutrients to keep your head functioning"

• Places the mug on the bar counter.

• "Well? What are you waiting for? Eat up"

• You reluctantly take a seat on your favorite bar stool and dig into the bibimbap. It was surprisingly reslly good! It tasted exactly...

• "The way your grandma used to make it?"

• "Excuse me???"

• "Oh! Im not a mind reader or anything, it's just that a huge wave of nostalgia just appeared on your face and I just thought that you thought... Yeah, I'm just gonna stop right there"

• You took a sip on the coffee he had made and realised it was exactly how you make it! With a huge amount of creamer and sugar.

• You watched as he leaned on the bar counter and eyed you down.

• "How are you doing that?" You ask

• "Doing what?"

• "You're definately not human, because I know for a fact that I do not have a roommate and you appeared out of no where... Yet here you are, you just cooked breakfast for me AND scared the shit out of me last night"

• "Oohhhh fuck um... Sorry about that. I'm Jaebum by the way"

• You squinted at him as you proceeded to drink your hella good coffee.

• He pulled at the collar of his black hoodie nervously as you eyed him down

• "ANYWAYS! Ghosts that have been around for some time become more powerful, and we learn how to lift objects and do normal mundane shit. Though, not exactly as mundane because we're still technically spirits with no bodies"

• "Interesting..."

• Once you finished your food, he took it from the counter and placed it in the sink while you made your way back to the room.

• You were about to pack your notebooks, but you realised that Jaebum had done it for you.

• Wow, a very helpful ghost!

• "I guess I'll talk to you later???" You say before exiting your apartment.

• "Lmao as if you have a choice on not talking to me"

• Son of a--

• And with that, you leave!

• After another eventful day, you come back home to find Jaebum on the couch eating the honey butter chips that you stored away in your shelf while he watched Strong Woman Do Bong Soon on netflix.

• "Yah, those are my chips!"

• "Woops"

• It was a weekend tomorrow, so you didn't have to worry about any of your shit. Free time for you, yay!

• You dressed up in your favorite t-shirt, a huge hoodie and a pair of shorts and mads your way back to the living room and watched SWDBS with your ghost friend.

• "Soooo Jaebum, why the hell are you here??"

• He pauses the drama before turning to you.

• "Weeellll I may or may not be binded to your music box and I can't go anywhere else"

• "W h y???"

• "Strap in, I'm telling you a longass story"

• So! From what you have found out, Jaebum's mom really liked the music box that she was gifted with during her and her husband's first wedding anniversary. However, that marriage slowly spiralled down into chaos once Jaebum was born.

• When Jaebum grew older, they eventually divorced yet his mother never let go of the love she felt for her husband. Eventually she died, still holding the music box

• Jaebum was surprised that she wasnt the one that haunted the music box

• He swore to himself that he would protect the thing his mother cherished the most and the person who cherished the carousel music box.

• So his mom's best friend's daughter ended up getting the music box after the both of them had died... And that daughter ended up to be one of the ancestors who passed down the music box, until it was handed to you.

• "Soooo you dont have any plans on going, idk, to heaven?? Or hell"

• "yAh I am a good ghostie with good intentions!! Why would I go to hell?!"

• "I dont know!! Just saying!!"

• "I dont know, maybe when you die I'll consider going back to heaven"

• And that is how you got stuck with your ghost friend Jaebum!

35 notes · View notes

kaiofmotunui · 5 years

Text

Hold Onto the Memories | Tikai

Who: @tiaisms & @kaiofmotunui

When: Monday, December 31st

Where: The Charming Dance Hall

What: Tia and Kai meet on the dance floor at the New Year’s party close to midnight.

Kai stood in the crowd, tossing back a glass of champagne that Lui had scored him a few moments before. He didn't know why he'd showed up to this New Year's party in the first place. Maybe he would have had major FOMO if he'd stayed home and saw everyone posting about it on their stories, or maybe he just went to be around his friends. One of those friends, of course, being Tia. Now that they were actually on good terms as exes...Maybe to some a little too good of terms, he felt it okay to hang around her in social situations like this. It was almost midnight, maybe he could ring in the new year with her...and Huntley...but mostly her. Speak of the hairy devil, he was nowhere to be found as Kai sauntered up to her, hands in the pockets of his smoking jacket. "Hey! Happy almost-New Year," he smirked to her. "Where's Huntley?"

Tia was enjoying the party for the most part, hanging out with various friends and blissfully ignoring the fact that her boyfriend was in a corner somewhere being a giant nerd. And even though she and Huntley were definitely there together, she couldn't help but take advantage of his absense and casually keep her eyes out for Kai in the crowd, all the while assuring herself that despite how late into the night it was getting, it was totally normal to want to ring in the new year with a good pal. It wasn't like she was planning on making him her New Years Kiss, that was Huntley's job obvi! When Kai ended up being the one to find her, Tia happily flung her arms around his neck in greeting. "Happy almost New Year back!" She replied, lingering a teeensy bit too long in the release. Even though she was absolutely mostly committed to her relationship, Kai still smelled reslly comforting and warm and she couldn't be faulted for just liking it a lot. "He's um somewhere in a corner doing um cool things. Like dancing!" Tia lied, pretty unconvincingly as her cheeks warmed in mild embarrassment of the fact that Huntley had fully brought board games to a NYE party.

Kai felt his brows raise when Tia embraced him, but didn't hesitate to embrace back, lingering just as long as she had before letting go. "Oh? Dancing?" Kai nodded, taking Tia by the hand and spinning her around herself. "Well that's just a waste if he's dancing and it's not with you," he commented, smirking. He had never been one for dancing while they were together -- in fact, Kai remembered making a big to-do about being forced to dance with her at proms. But he'd matured and stopped caring what people thought about him, and would give anything to dance with Tia now.

Tia giggled as Kai spun her around and stood a little closer to him than she would've normally since their break up. "Yep, that's what he's doing." Tia casually swung the hand she hadn't yet let go of. "Some people can't handle my talent I guess." She joked, playfully shrugging her shoulders as a new song started up. "But you've been able to handle me before pretty well, so will you dance with me now?"

Kai ran his tongue over his bottom lip, gazing down at her with a sigh as she swung their arms. "I was? I mean, yeah! I was," He chuckled, unable to keep his eyes off her while simultaneously trying to disguise his blushing cheeks as Tia granted his silent wish. "And of course. Always," Kai's gaze lingered, as he tugged her toward the dance floor. He moved to the beat, letting the music guide his steps. "So...Got any New Year's resolutions?" he asked, attempting to take his mind off of the fact that here they were, dancing together like they should have at the prom that he screwed everything up at. It kind of felt like a second chance, in a way.

Tia tried and failed to stop her gaze from drifting down to Kai's lips as he licked them and in her distraction barely even got the joke he made, so she just laughed along with him to cover her tracks. Tia tried very hard to keep her thoughts extra platonic as she and Kai began to dance. She scrunched her eyebrows for a moment in thought, for some reason she hadn't even thought of making any for the next year. Most of her end of the year plans, were about where to go and which relatives she was even speaking to and who of those few would get any cards or presents. So in a slightly skewed way, Tia hadn't been thinking of herself at all that season. "Not really. I kind of have everything as perfect as I can make it right now and that's okay with me." She sighed, ignoring her feud with Charlie, the post-thanksgiving awkwardness with Annie and the way that she was lowkey icing out her both of her parents. But she was friends with both Kai and Freddie now despite the odds and asking for anything more would probably be asking for a little too much. "What about you? Do you have any resolutions for the New year?"

Kai cocked a brow at her claim that everything was perfect. She had a new dog, was the Best Woman for her sister's wedding, and was apparently going on some ski trip with Huntley where they would be hot tubbing and who knows what else in their room. She did seem to have everything perfect, and it was all without him. Kai nodded, putting on a grin. "Perfect, huh? Well, I shouldn't have expected anything less," he commented, twirling her once more. "Me? Well...I guess I want to get back on my channel." He'd taken a hiatus after the WaltFest fiasco. "Try new things...Dance more...Make the best of my time here in Walt. Stop running away from things..." he shrugged, hoping she got what he was implying. But even if she didn't, it was kind of important that he voiced it out loud to himself, to really validate his own feelings. "That got deep, sorry -- also I want to work out more and get a sick bod, I guess," Kai winked.

Tia smiled back at Kai just before letting him twirl her again and listened to him come up with his list. She absolutely understood what he'd been implying with his last "deep" resolution, but that wasn't exactly the most platonic thing to comment on, so she instead picked something she figured would be. "Those are nice. But a sick bod? What's so umm...healthy? About the one you have now? You tryna turn into Kai "the rock" Waialiki on us all of a sudden?" Tia asked, eyeing Kai's body with an obviously less than friendly gaze.

Kai chuckled, shrugging. "Nah, I don't want to go that crazy. Just...I dunno, I want to make a change. Stop locking myself in my room editing tracks and videos for twelve hours a day. If I can't work my arms out manning the sails, then I need to do it some other way." He took a glance at his watch, noticing the time was dwindling down -- it was almost midnight. They had maybe one or two songs to dance to before the countdown. "It's getting pretty late, should we go find Huntley? Or...your friends?" he suggested, though his body didn't stop dancing.

Tia decided to try twirling Kai for a change, tilting a little closer on the toes of her heels to get the turn done right. "Well have you ever considered trying a sport? Huntley plays volleyball and gets a pretty good work out from it, I think. Plus you can make more friends and check off the trying new things part of your list!" Tia glanced down at Kai's watch too and frowned slightly, he had a point but she really didn't want to stop dancing with only Kai just yet. "Nah! He's pretty great at finding me in a crowd if he has to since he's so tall and I don't know, with Sage being Sage and L'ogan being L'ogan, I feel like hunting either couple down so close to the new year is asking to see something totally innecessary for a public place. But do you have someone you need to go find before midnight?"

Kai laughed when she spun him, before wrinkling his nose at the idea of a team sport. Especially volleyball. Especially volleyball with Huntley. “I dunno, I’ve never been much of a team player. I fly solo, but you know that,” he smirked. “Maybe I could give the rowing team a chance or something....Or get Lui to teach me golf,” he chuckled at the idea of sauntering around on a golf course in a polo shirt. Kai felt a flood of relief fall over him when Tia rejected his idea of finding other people to ring in the New Year with, and cocked a brow when she asked if he had anyone to find. “Nope!” Kai declared almost too quickly. “I mean, what you said about Sage and L’ogan — same about Lui. And I guess I wouldn’t mind keeping you company til Huntley — being so tall — finds you. Since you seem so positive that he will.”

Tia shrugged, not really surprised that Kai was rejecting her team sport advice, it was worth a shot at least. "The rowing team actually would probably be the most perfect thing for you now that you're staying here. But i'm pretty sure golfers wear those super high plaid sock things. What if your ankles think you suddenly don't love them anymore?" She joked, not being able to resist yet another dig at his thing for not wearing socks. Stifling a grin when Kai told her that he wasn't really interested in finding other people to ring in the year with either, Tia moved in a little closer to Kai. Just to hear each other better since it would be getting louder soon thanks to the countdown and stuff. "Good. I like having you around as company,...pal. it probably won't be that long until he looks up from his ga-dancing to come and find me."

Kai rolled his eyes with a smile, sticking his tongue out at her teasing. “Hey, I’m wearing socks right now!” He lifted the leg of his pant, hopping up and down on one foot to show her. “My ankles know I love them cause I’m keeping them nice ‘n toasty,” he chuckled. When Tia leaned in closer to him, his cheeks grew warmer, but he couldn’t move away. Rather, he reflexively placed a hand on the small of her back to hear her better, as well. “I mean, if I were in his shoes, I wouldn’t chance it. Ringing in the new year with Tia La Bouff is a gift.”

Tia giggled and stuck her tongue right back out at Kai. "Congratulations! I'm so proud of you for wearing weather appropriate clothes. And look your pants aren't even khaki, what a miracle!" She started to sarcastically applaud him, but instead she shivered slightly as his hand touched the small of her back. "Well, um if he misses out, I guess that'll just be his loss then, huh." She laughed again, struggling slightly to be heard because of how breathy her voice was suddenly coming out.

Kai nodded with a gulp. “Yep! His loss,” Kai agreed as the energy of the crowd started to buzz louder, with people rushing to find friends and loved ones as the countdown was apparently getting closer. Kai glanced up at the big projection of the countdown that displayed on the farthest wall of the dance hall. Ten seconds. “Well if he misses out, who’s getting your New Year’s kiss?” Kai asked, his heart pounding. He knew this was overstepping — but when it was him and Tia, nothing ever felt wrong. When they were together, no matter what it was, it was right.

Tia was only vaguely aware of the rush around them as time ticked closer to the New Year and Huntley was still nowhere to be seen. All she could focus on was how close Kai was next to her, the feeling of his fingers and how the responsible thing would be to back the hell up and just not kiss anyone at midnight like so many other girls in the room probably would be doing. But instead of actually backing up, Tia surged forward, flinging her arms around Kai's neck and moving in to kiss him, stopping about half a centimeter away to answer his question. "I guess it's just going to have to be you." She stated matter of factly, before closing the basically nonexistent distance and pressing their lips together just as the count ticked down to midnight.

Kai knew what would come of this when he opened the can of worms. Okay, well, it could've gone one of two ways -- either Tia would've rejected him for the second time, less publicly this time but ultimately just as soul-crushing, or she'd give into their month-long flirtations and catch onto his hint. Luckily, it was the second option and the fireworks that erupted in his chest when their lips met mirrored the ones that lit up the night sky. He clutched onto Tia's back, fingers curling into the fabric of her dress as the melody of Auld Lang Syne blared through the speakers. The start of a whole new, fresh year and he was not only kissing his ex, but kissing his ex that currently had a boyfriend. Rather than let that fact scare him away from this situation, Kai continued to kiss her til it seemed like all the buzz around them had died. Then, finally, he loosened his grip on her back and let his lips part from hers. "Happy New Year," he breathed, his heart nearly pounding out of his chest.

Tia didn't feel anything she expected to feel when Kai finally let her go. After the initial high of kissing him wore off, like half a second in, all Tia could remember were the massive lows that came from every other time they did this whole break up and then big dramatic make up song and dance. It wasn't even all that long ago that Tia hadn't even been able to wash her own hair because of one of their fights. And as great as Kai was and as much as she loved him, she just couldn't do it anymore. She had Huntley now, she'd chosen him over Kai last time and he hadn't once given her a reason to regret it. And once Huntley fully entered her mind in what was so wrong with kissing Kai again, Tia suddenly couldn't breathe. Nothing about any of her interactions with Kai all night or even for the past month if she was really and truly being honest with herself were what Huntley deserved. He tried so hard to be exactly what she could ever want in a guy and this was how she was repaying him? Tia felt faint but also like her heart was about to jump right out of her throat as she staggered backwards away from Kai. "Oh my god. I'm so sorry. This was a big mistake. I can't do this. Not with you." She exclaimed, practically hyperventilating as the reality of how badly she'd just fucked up seemed to crash into her head over and over again.

Kai furrowed his brow, finally down from the high of kissing Tia to understand what she was saying. He watched as she stumbled over her words, feeling his chest tighten as she called their kiss a 'mistake'. "Wh- what?" Kai started, shaking his head. He blinked his eyes rapidly, trying to blink away the scene that was playing out in front of him. No, no, no. This was not how this was supposed to end. "No, Twinkle, wait --" he reached out as she backed away, trying to catch her before she was out of sight, but the bustling crowd filled the gap between them and suddenly he couldn't see her anymore. "Twinkle, wait!" Kai exclaimed again, desperate to fix this. Even if they weren't back together, being friends was exponentially better than not talking for months at a time. He shoved his way through the crowd, craning his neck to find her, but having no such luck. Then, as if taunting him, the DJ called for all the couples to find each other on the dance floor for the final dance of the night. And to rub salt in the freshly-reopened wound, the opening melody of his and Tia's song started to play. The song they danced to at the Valentine's ball when he first came back. The song he sang to ask her to prom. Kai removed his celebratory 2019 tophat and crushed the cheap plastic in his hands. He'd lost her.

#( interaction: tia )#( feat: tia )#✦event: new years 2k19

1 note · View note

knucklehe4d · 6 years

Note

Hello love!! I’m here for you!! Sometimes when I am sad I like to talk about things that make me happy instead, to distract myself?? But other times you just gotta let the sadness run its course, let yourself feel all of it and work your own way through it to come out on the other side feeling lighter and happier.. so whichever you need right now I’m here for you!! If you want to rant about the sad things some more I’ll listen and if you want to talk about something else we can do that too! 💖

maybe i could do a little lf both? ill startsad things reslly suck i dont get to see my boyfriend much and its not really my fault or his but it’s straining things a tiny bit and im stuck at home all day its so boring it’s detrimental to my mental health and it makes things worse every day and sometimes i take things out on people close to me on accident and i know it’s wrong so i immediately apologize but i still feel awful for doing it. my family is pretty mean and neglectful to me they always have been but the older i get the worse it gets? im a neet and im ashamed of it. i want to hang out with friends but no one has time or doesnt feel like it and i dont hold that against snybody but it still makes me really sad. i crave attention affection and human interaction like oxygen. my cat had to be put down today and i expected it but it couldve been avoided if my mother took care of him yet im still absolutely devastated. im off my sleeping pills and its making things even more worse long story short got allergic to new meds that were supposed to help with sleep and paranoidnthoughts so now im stuck without till next appointment. im bad at everything i do. im too scared to play fallout even though i really really want to. im having a lot of panic attacks now too and imdisgusted with myself a lot anymore. my sisters are in school now so im alone during the day and im so fucking lonely. im so lonely. im probably malnourished but thats the least of my problems. im also terrified im getting fat so i starve myself then binge in a relapse! im so tired all the time. i could go on but i feel like this is long enough. what makes me happy? being with my boyfriend is number 1 hes one of the best things to ever happen to me i adore him to bits and pieces i love him bunches banana bunches im bananas over him and his cat is such a baby i love him too and his kid is a sweetheart i love him and the whole package its the best thing in my life. i love my cat but i dont spend enough time with him snymore we usually are together every waking second but the basement has the ps4 and he used to not be able to come down here cause of my cat that just passed but now he can and it makes me so sad but glad at the same time. i love my babies and this might sound bad but my cat is MY cat the one who just passed is more of a family cat but i still love them the same does that make sense? i hate being alone im glad hes gonna be here with me. i love being with my friends whenever i can which is so rare anymore but when i am with them i have so much fun. i love listening to my shitty music from 2012. i love making new friends and growing close with people thats definitely a top 5 anime miracles. games are a lot of fun even though im awful like i said. the office has been there for me besides my cat the most lately jfjdisjfjjf umm guitar hero is fun i might play it once i finish this the old one on the wii. maybe even wii sports!!!! also i wanna be friends with this one person but were both alike and its hard to initiate convo and keep it going so im 💀 also i really like clay slime. and buying things. and drinking :) which i do in a good amount! im only drinking rn on a sunday cause ive had such a rough day. it be like that sometimes. i love getting anons they make me so happy i looooove anons and asks. i cant rly think of anything else but this is long enough ithink sorry its so long! i got into it thank you so much for giving me the opportunity though i love you

1 note · View note

datmysticmessenger · 7 years

Note

Can you guys do any scenarios or hc or somethin where Saeran gets a happy ending in Vs route? I havent personally started but ive heard that poor Saeran doesnt reslly get a great ending either way :c

***THIS ASK IS EXTREMELY SPOILERY FOR V’S ROUTE DO NOT CONTINUE IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE SPOILED***

Yoooo this ask spoke TO MY SOUL. I was in literal tears several times during V’s route because I literally just wanted Saeran to be happy. Like he fucking deserves it but he gets fucked over in almost every single route I’ve ever seen. If we don’t get a Saeran route where we can get him treatment and he becomes stable I’m suing Cheritz.

So here’s my idea of a Saeran route:

MC realizes that Saeran is being used by Rika and decides:

Hey. I’m going to take this boy with me!!!!

Instead of leaving him behind, MC takes Saeran with them

They speak to Saeran in a soft voice, telling him that he needs treatment

And that they’ll visit him every single day while he’s there

The entire RFA supports this idea, realizing that Saeran did shitty things under the influence of literal drugs that Rika gave him and severe mental illness

(Mental illness does not excuse bad behavior, but combined with drugs and a manipulative person, it can be understood a little bit more)

V comes clean about everything regarding Saeran to Seven

Things are very chilly between Seven and V for a while, but V understands why

With support from MC, who is one of the only people Saeran trusts, he goes to treatment

It is very scary at first for him, especially when the drugs start to wear off and he’s going through withdrawls

But after the drugs leave his system and they begin to wean him off them, he begins an intensive treatment combined with therapy and medication

As MC promised, they are ALWAYS there for him, visiting as often as they and sneaking him in ice cream

Bringing him flowers for his hospital room

Introducing him to video games on an old Nintendo DS (courtesy of Yoosung)

Eventually, Saeran asks if Seven can come visit

MC brings Seven along with them one day and it’s very awkward and hesitant at first

But Seven gives Saeran a calendar with kittens on it, saying that he doesn’t want Saeran to lose track of the days and oddly enough, it’s comforting for Saeran

He even writes down the days MC and Seven will visit, getting excited as the days come closer

After trial and error, his medication starts working, and he becomes more stable in his mental health

He apologizes to all of the RFA and actually breaks down crying (MC holds him close during this, letting him cry onto their shoulder while Seven grips Saeran’s shoulder, tears in his own eyes)

The entire time Saeran is in treatment, MC is a rock for him

Someone to rely on; someone that he knows won’t leave him

They assure him time and time again that they aren’t going to leave, that they’ll be there for him, and they will never use or abuse him

And Saeran...believes them

After months of treatment, Saeran is cleared to leave, but it’s so daunting

He doesn’t know how he can go into society when before, he was part of a fucked up cult

He doesn’t know what to do, and the panic almost overwhelms him

But then MC is there, giving him a smile and he realizes that he can do it

He went through treatment and he’s getting better every day

He can do it. He can do anything if MC is with him.

Two years later, Saeran is happy and recovering. There are bad days, as there always are in recovery, but they are much fewer than they used to be. For the most part, he is stable and happy and he is surrounded by his friends and family.

~Admin MP

#haha i got a little carried away;;#i love saeran okay?#he deserves so much better than this shit #i legit cried during v's route #saeran choi #mysme unknown #mysme ray #mysme imagines #mystic messenger imagines #spoilers #v's route #admin MP #Anonymous

359 notes · View notes

itsashithead · 5 years

Text

Night of Tues. 29 October 2019

Dream:

Appparently i was adopted by The Fosters [yes....the show]. Stef and lena adopted me, but my parents still came over for dinner, probably to see how i was doing idek. Thats one part of it. Apparently, i was cutting (same timeline as real life). It was time to go to school and i was late as usual. Went back upstairs for my blades. Lena came up to my room to tell me that we gotta leave NOW and she almost saw the blades. Anywho.

Middle of the day, i had music class. Specifically, piano, and mariana was also in my class. It was my first time playing piano though, and i didnt know shit. Other students were playing beautifully and i was there PRAYING that theyre drowning out my new ass. The teacher was walking around, listened to me for a bit. I think he pointed to a key and asked me to name it. Which i ofc didnt know. He didnt make fun of me though. He was happy that he had a new student. And i was happy too..... until...

Until he assigned a student to help me. A student who was writing on the board. A very attractive student.

Demi Lovato. BOY the way my eyes just bulged out of my sockets, when she turned around. She looked eay younger than now but god damn SO BEAUTIFUL. The teacher called her and introduced her to me and uh.... i, standing there with a body full of self harm.... i probably looked horrified because the teacher asked why i seemed to be so scared of demi, lol. And then i ran outta the class.

Mariana saw me and started shouting at me to come back. Then she started running after me. And then her friends did. Boy oh boy. Not the first, second, third or fourth [and not the fifth] time ive dreamt running away like that.

Anyway, im running around the school, and they almost keep catching me until i took some turns and decided to head down to the guys toilets. They won't come in there. [No context in the dream indicated whether i was male or female, but i was really close to Mariana, so i mighthv been female]

By now in the dream, the i started to think that mariana probably knows abt my self harm. She seemed like she has been monitoring or always looking at me lately.

Anyway, somehow im running to the guys bathroom and it becomes....the guys bathroom from my primary school.

In every dream ive had running and hiding from someone, i always end up in the bathrooms in my primary school. Anyway, i hid in the last stall, which weirdly had a good amt of space open by the floor. [The bathroom is like 6 ft off the ground and theres stairs to access it). So i peaked through, and i saw Mariana, her friends AND DEMI looking for me.

Mariana was out of breath and just speeding words outta her mouth to demi (who held her and looked in her eyes akskdjsks) abt how shes worried because ive been so distant and quiet lately, and how im cutting and all that, and she hopes im not ending it rn

And im like... fuck. Now demi knows.

Im gonna rot in here.

And then i woke up.

From earlier on in the dream though, i realised that the boys (namely brandon) never looked me in the eye? And stef and lena treated me like if something happened. Like they knew i was fragile or sensitive or emotional or sumn. They were extra soft and careful with me... but tried not to make it obvious lol.

So maybe something DID happen, but only mariana knows i self harm.

This is all so weird. Callie and Jude isnt in the dream. Jesus barely.

I think i dreamt a bit where Stef and Lena are sorta suspecting that im depressed or self harming or sumn. Idk

Its crazy dreaming Stef and Lena adopting me. Because i truly wished they did. Or someone like them did. Not a lesbian couple specifically, but i really wished my parents grew me up the way Stef and Lena handled their kids. They LOVED them. I truly wished my parents could be like that.

Valere wasnt in the dream. This entire dream seemed american. Except the part with my primary school.

Even then, it was like an american version of my primary school's bathroom.

My dreams lately are really showing some heavy stuff that most of them i try to forget. That i cant put myself to type here.

The same way how i feel abt treatment irl is the way i feel abt treatment in the dream. So like, im not attention seeking, but i reslly do want someone to see that im hurt so much that im cutting, because i have no courage to ask for help. I know what i want to do to help, but i cant tell anyone. The people who i CAN tell, they cant help me. Ugh.

#dream #tues oct 29 2019

0 notes