#even when he denied it I knew it

[myokk]

“She’s tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me”😤😤😤

(Regency AU with Eloise and Sebastian inspired by my slow trek through Bridgerton these days & @bassicallymaestra ‘s AMAZING regency inspired art😮‍💨😇🙏)

#I just have a love of big regency dresses what can I say😔🙏 #if you haven’t seen them yet this is a study of the GORGEOUS P&P illustrations from the 1890s by Charles Brock #they are all just so spectacular & I stare at them alllllllllll the time wishing I had an ounce of his talent🙏🙏🙏 #so I do these studies to pretend even though I change some things😅😅 bc these studies is the best way to improve imo🙏 #but I remembered halfway through why I rage quit trying to draw with my fountain pen a year ago😂😂😂 #that thing is amazing for writing and I love it like a child #but drawing?! tbh I should have used my drawing ink pen but whatever #I woke up with a hankering to do some crosshatching (which I hate) in an attempt to get over myself #also!!!!!! when Mr Darcy says something like that it’s no wonder Elizabeth jumps at the bit to believe every awful thing she hears about him #it’s like Mr wickham’s dumb stories that nobody else in their right mind would believe #are speaking right to her soul. like OF COURSE that asshole from the assembly would do all of those things😤😤 #he called me ugly so OF COURSE he would deny mr wickham his living😤😤 #(I don’t blame her I would do the same🤝🤝) #ALSO why tf did he even say that when he’s clearly smitten from the beginning #I’m sure if he knew that she heard him he would simply perish from mortification #well thst is my p&p - inking horror - inspiration rant of the day🙏🙏 #(I read p&p at least once a year & it is the only fanfic I really read😅😅😅) #hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #hphl #sebastian sallow #hogwarts legacy mc #hogwarts legacy oc #eloise

[shitpostingfromthebarricade]

Why do you hate Alexander Hamilton so much? The guy lived and died before you were even born dude. He isn’t going to come alive and bite you XD

No, his actions just persist in the policies that my home nation was founded upon.

#guy was a warmongerer and also wanted Washington to basically play king #his politics were conservative and he offered to buy enslaved persons for his wife if she wanted #so he's not the abolitionist hero some like to paint him as #and Burr only challenged Alexander to a duel after MANY YEARS of Alex undermining his political ambitions #and trying to undermine voting results (intentionally party-splitting to get the other to win) so obviously once that George III knew #this is without getting into the adultery #look the musical fucked I can't deny that even after LMM's personal issues and the fandom that was born of it #and bi rights or whatever #(I am bi) #but as a person he objectively sucked #and I am allowed to have opinions on people fictional and dead even if they are no longer capable of actively directly influencing Now #PARTICULARLY when it's someone whose actions Have Indeed influenced modern history #his face is on the $10 ffs THAT'S how influential he was #not just with the formation of the modern banks but in general #tbh replace Alexander Hamilton instead of Andrew Jackson with Harriet Tubman #bc Jackson HATED the banks and Hamilton would HATE having his legacy diminished #if we're replacing Jackson we should replace him with Crazy Horse or another historically significant indigenous person #answers and shitposts #personal

[batz]

realizing its almost been 6 months since top surgery:)

#frank.txt #despite all the complications i had w healing im rlly happy w how my chest looks:) #ALTHOUGH. ONE BIG COMPLAINT #i used to use my bras as an extra pocket for my phone or lighter or whatever. but now i dont wear bras and therefore have no extra pocket #:( u win some u lose some :( #anyway all shirts look awesome on me now AND i can wear t shirts w funny text or image ans ppl wont feel awkward reading it:) #also the scars r fading rlly well! they almost blend in w my skin completely! (keyword almost. theyr still visible atp) #the way the scars r shaped is interesting bc theyre like a U shape. but bc of that when i inevitably build my pectoral muscles #the scars should blend into the shadow caused by thr muscle. i also dont have a Completrly flat chest bc im fat:0 #tbh my surgeon did rlly well . i have a lot of problems with him bc hes kind of a dick but from like. idk an artistic standpoint hes good #but the doctor standpoint hes Uhm. well i lost a nipple and had severe infection due to denied antibiotics and lack of aftercare #BUT. the lost nipple isnt visible and it looks normal now somehow AND. i didn't die from the infection so. I mean #i just had to spend christmas with a fever of 103 LMAO #HONESTLY THO i would do it again EVEN if i knew i would go thru hell bc this surgery fuckn saved my life holy shit #i didnt realize just how much i dissociated from my own body bc of dysphoria. now i feel more in touch with it and happy!:) #also now i can Eventually get that chest tattoo i wanted for like 7 years lmao #erm yippee:)

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

GOD I FUCKING HATE RISHI SUNAK

#I WANT TO PUNCH HIM IN HIS STUPUD TORY FACE #IF I HAD MONEY AND KNEW HOW TO HIRE A HITMAN I FUCKING WOULD #HES THE UK PRIME MINISTER BTW IF YOU DONT KNOW #THE PM WE DIDNT EVEN VOTE FOR!!!!!! #AS IN NO ONE VOTED FOR HIM THE PREVIOUS PM STEPPED DOWN AND HE JUST TOOK OVER #AND NOW HES BEING A LITTLE TRANSPHOBIC BELLEND AND I WANT TO FUCKING CASTRATE HIM #HIS WORDS ARE SO FUCKING HARMFUL AND STRAIGHT UP WRONG AND I JSUT WANNA AGSYYSHSYSYSUDIDKDLE 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪 #WHEN I CATCH YOU RISHI #on a serious note im fucking terrified and THE APPLAUSE IN THAT ROOM WHILE HE WAS SPEAKING WAS SOME DYSTOPIAN SHIT #i just 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ #hes fear mongering because hes desperately trying to grab as many votes as possible because everyone fucking hates the tory party rn #because they fucking suck at everything they do and are incapable of actually focusing on real problems #if anyone votes conservative in the next election i already did not believe you had human compassion #but i will no longer believe you are capable of empathy in any form #because WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK #HE JUST FLAT OUT DENIED TRANS PEOPLES EXISTENCE?????? SOMETHING THAT IS SCIENTIFICALLY HISTORICALLY AND SOCIALLY PROVEN????? #WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM #im so angry and so scared #this rhetoric is so fucking dangerous #hes killing people and he doesnt even care #im so so angry #being trans is already hard enough WHAT IS HIS PROBLEM #rishi sunak #i hope you die miserably and alone in a hotel like your best buddy margaret thatcher

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

Skimblegus Family Time--Tumble takes after Asparagus more and more the older he gets, but Teazer takes after Skimble a lot more than people give her credit for. They're both these very bright, clever, and relentlessly cheerful cats who try to put a brave face on things and hide when they're not at their best. But when they crash, they crash hard; it became a bittersweet source of reconnection after she was free of Macavity, especially since Teazer didn't realize her dad ever had bad days. She can basically only stand to be around her dads, Tumble, and Mungojerrie on particularly awful days, and Skimble's learned more from Asparagus about how not to just pack those emotions away to worry about later. Plus, you know she's feeling better when she and Tumble can start picking at each other again.

I love it so much, and I love this little family <3

#Rumpleteazer #Skimbleshanks #Asparagus #Tumblebrutus #other headcanons #jellicles ask because jellicles dare #theimpossiblescheme #and of course because you and i share the braincell i had a very similar vein of thought #that teazer got told all the time how much like her father she was and she would scoff and do everything in her power to deny that #and she'd especially hate it when mungojerrie would say it because he usually did when he was annoyed with her and they were arguing #which became more frequent when they were with macavity #and skimble was so good at pretending everything was alright he turned it into an olympic sport #he broke down very rarely and when he *did* it was a sight #i also think he and teazer are a lot alike in that they will say things before thinking them through #particularly during high stress moments - and they can be downright nasty and say things they don't really mean #before their brains catch up to their mouths because they operate so *quickly* and so on the line with their immediate feelings #skimble has learned to tone it down over the years - teazer is still young and sometimes her mouth is too big #and of course when even tumble was hesitantly pushing his rope toy towards her and asking if maybe she wanted to play #even though they were way too old at the time after teazer came back you *knew* she was in a bad way #and he feels uneasy and stays relatively in her company (and his dads can sense that he feels bad but doesn't know what to do) #basically begging her to call him names or stick bugs in his ears or a worm in his bed or *something* because whoever this queen is #she isn't his step-sister and he doesn't like it #anyway many thoughts head scrambled - i love them so much thank you <3

[4lph4kidz]

I think really the only canon case of Jake being ‘manipulative’ would be his convo w Jane, and while yes that one thing might’ve been manipulative, that doesn’t make Jake HIMSELF inherently manipulative. Does that make sense? And like, he’s not going into things like ‘I am a chessmaster, a puppeteer, all of you will dance to my tune’ he’s going ‘hmmm how do I avoid this awkward conversation’

pretty much. ymmv with how manipulative it is i guess, and as another anon said, saying jake is manipulative is just another way of saying he tries to be indirect to avoid confrontation... anyway, this is up for interpretation since i think it depends on whether or not you read the line 'i really was not prepared for this answer' as facetious or not. but my impression was of genuine surprise and like idk how manipulative someone can be if they aren't certain abt their understanding of people. that said now that i'm looking at it it does kinda seem like some faker shit. damn we'll have to see how i feel about it in the context of my next reread i guess

and obviously he does prevent her from backpedaling after he gets that answer, but that doesn't seem like a conciously manipulative move either, to me it reads as him jumping to believing the thing that's more convenient for him and ignoring contradictory details. hope style.

so yeah he's kinda shitty but not really conciously so. roxy put it best i think

#shrug #not sure how much i wanna keep talking about this though i'm open to alternate interpretations #there is something to purposefully disguising his true intent / ability / whatever with wilful ignorance and incompetence #but i don't think he's actually confident enough in his understanding of other people to try and make those kinds of manoevres #he reads very heavily as autistic to me and seems to second guess himself a lot even when he's proven to be more insightful than he appears #to be fair it's a matter of interpretation #and reading between the lines means you might just be filling in the gaps with what you what to see #who knows maybe he was playing 5D chess and knew the whole time that she would definitely deny her feelings for him #but i think it's equally likely that he would have agreed to date her instead if she'd managed to get her feelings out #. so yeah idk if he went in with any kind of manipulative intent other than to try and resolve an awkward situation as hastily as possible. #idk about reading this comedy of errors ass scene as anything but obviously farcical lol

[keeps-ache]

mm i Neeed to go the beach

#just me hi #wauhuhh ! #something about just drifting around in water that i am slightly scared of that really makes my brain whir happily lol :> #i am slightly scared of it for two major reasons: 1) fish. lord the fish why are they so scary 2) sometimes i think i'll drown and they jus #won't find the body. which is less rational than the fish so that's why fish is my number 1 fear at all times lmao #/i think out of all the animals on the planet i am the most scared of ordinary fish. not even the deep sea stuff hfbshv #cuz look they're so far down there you Have to assume they look funked. and also they prolly don't like human meat. so it's cool #but regular fish?? some of them eat birds. they eat birds dude. what would they do to me if they knew how to use harpoons?? #also they for SURE eat corpses so we loop back to fear no. 2 really just being fear no. 1 hbfhs #/see i'm not even that scared of the animals my parents are determined on exploding. like man if i get eaten that was prolly bound #to happen anyway. i Know how that goes. i know what mauling is lol #i am the only person in this house who will walk around outside on a moonless light w/ no flashlight because if i was sposed to be dead i #can guaranteE there are much better opportunities. funnier ones‚ too #/just looked it up bobcats are SHY little guys. they are just shy babies. except for when they have rabies :) #shy rabies babies <3 #/anyway back to the fish. i don't like how there are some that specifically like to eat human skin. mmm no i have never liked that ever not #one little bit. makes my skin crawl hghfsh #i don't care what it does or can do that is NOT cool lil dude ;w; #/hang on i'm googling 'weirdest things fish eat' because i want to scare myself i guess hbfhvbsf :'3 #they're only showing me weird fish!!! no !! tell me about a fish that's living exclusively off of plastics!! or car tires !! come on !!! #these guys are just funky looking. and just Kinda funky looking. though this humphead guy is funny lol :) #he looks scary but with a charm that i can't deny #his forehead. and mouf. this guy is awesome #and of course he's endangered because the world is exploding. but it's so cool he exists :D #//anyway fish are scary. and miss humphead is Huge so goofiness aside he's also scary hhfbvs #also why do some of those motherfunkers swim close to shore and bite at you. those guys suck so bad #that's only happened to me so many times but enough for me to have a fear that has lasted for over half a decade lmao #//and anywho i'm running out of tag space lol :) #we're going ot the park!! i'm going to skate :DD !! #i wanna get good at my old stuff again hfsh - so bye! bye !! toodles !!!

[navree]

"cleopatra movie starring zendaya as cleopatra and timothee chalamet as octavian" i was having a good day and now i have an anger headache

#personal #i like zendaya and chalamet as actors and they have good chemistry #and i'm honestly fine with anything that focuses on the relationship cleopatra and octavian had with each other specifically #i think it's underdiscussed and a great source of drama and narrative storytelling #but not like this #for one i will say it until i'm blue in the face: cleopatra was white as bread. palest woman to have ever lived in egypt. #you know what with the THREE CENTURIES OF ONE GREEK FAMILY INBREEDING OVER AND OVER THAT LED TO HER CONCEPTION #for two: why are octavian and cleopatra gonna be the same age she was a decade older than him #that's important! #she was an adult in a relationship with his great-uncle when they first met in rome and HE was a teenager barely a year into adulthood #(by roman standards) #like she can't be his age and have a relationship with caesar #and even more importantly him being younger is probably a key part in why she might have underestimated him #along with listening to antony but that man was just stupid #it's a recurring theme in octavian's early career: the people around him were older and because he was young he wasn't taken seriously #until he was at their doorstep burning down their house and killing everyone they knew and by then it was too late #i cannot believe hollywood is apparently finding it hard to cast a white woman who can play midtwenties to early forties!!! #denis i know you like these two but pls just executive produce and give the project over to me and let me overhaul it #(where i then scrap the cleopatra focus and make it either a three way show focusing on cleopatra octavian and herod) #(or i just get to make the octavian biopic show i've had in my head for like two years)

[pussymasterdooku]

💃🔪👨🏻

👨🏻🔨👩🏻‍🔧

🏃‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️🏢

#this is an illustration of me enthusiastically committing patricide and then running away #because that is the mood of the day #my mom got her report from her adhd testing and she shared it with me because i am an experienced reader of psych reports #and a longtime adhd haver and knower abouter #and she didn’t want to share it with him because she KNEW he’d be mean and leverage it against her #and she called me because she was sad it’s taken her so long to get diagnosed when she has it actually quite bad #and i was like well it speaks to your strengths that you’ve been successful even as this flew under the radar #and i pointed out her strong score on initiation as something that probably helped disguise other symptoms #since she can start things better than anyone else i’ve ever known with adhd #and he cruises in to say THATS NOT A STRONG SCORE ITS JUST BETTER THAN OTHERS. ITS JUST AVERAGE #and i’m. livid actually #and the way this brings up soooo much of what i hated myself for way back when #and how the ways he does not respect her so closely parallel the ways i thought about myself for years. because i’m SO much like her #and he denies that as a compliment to me and i’m like no i like being like her???? asshole lol #he also had shit to say re her lowish score on emotional regulation and she’s like…if you think living with me is hard imagine BEING me???? #anyway we’re going down there in a week we’ll see if he survives or if i have to break out his oversize hammer collection #alhpd #ok actually i updated the pictures. eva’s knifing him i’m beating him w tools and then we run away together. marriage!

[maddy-ferguson]

im tired of ppl using headcanon stuff as proofs on the show. ''mike never stopped calling will.'' yeah no, that is not canon at all, lmao. you guys just took dustin's words and used it as some sort of a canon thing to prove that mike called. c'mon guys... canonically it doesnt make much sense anyways bc it doesnt fit. because mike learned abt joyce's job at the beginning of the season after el sent her letter. unless the duffers just made a mistake and screwed the time, it doesn't make any sense for mike to have called will constantly or 'complaining' due to joyce's job when he just learned abt joyce's job at the beginning of the season after reading el's letters. for all we know mike didnt send any letters to will, and they just only talked for a couple of times. like. that's the canon. we cannot just take something and treat it as canon and come up with criticism based on that. same as the 'lettergate' situation, for all we know mike just didnt bother writing and he didnt have a present. also u cannot really blame will either. for all he knew, the situation was just a repeat of S3. and we know what happened in S3. just a casual 'what if u wanna join another party' doesn't fix the issue at hand, and it literally didnt either. so.

okay, yes, this is what i was saying in the tags of this and what this post i reblogged earlier is about!!! you can't just say "mike 100% called and we don't even know if will called so will is equally to blame for the fact that they didn't keep in touch/for their rink o mania fight". i mean you can but i'll disagree every time because there's this little thing that happened between them that never got resolved that totally explains why will would be hesitant to reach out...who out of the two of them was rebuffed the last time he tried to show that this friendship was important to him? who was crying in the rain and calling himself stupid over it? as a very wise woman once said, i would've wanted mike to make a little bit of an effort too after that tf

and the thing is, if it turns out mike didn't call/doesn't have any unsent letters i'm not gonna be mad at him? they both have reasons for not reaching out. people being more forgiving of will probably has to do with the fact that his reasons are you know. not speculation

as for the technicalities surrounding the theory, the job part of it just doesn't add up to me like i...have spent a very long time thinking about it, it's april and i still don't get it. and as people have pointed out el can't use the phone and there's a walkie talkie in her room and all that but yk. idk. and i like lettergate and i like mikeactuallycalledgate but at the end of the day they're just theories you know

#either way i don't get the job thing because dustin says mike won't stop whining about it like he's been whining for some time which #means that el's letter is old (which i guess it could be) or that like...mike already knew about joyce's job before reading the letter? #like if he just learned about the job in ep 1 why won't he stop whining about it. is it a hyperbole. idk i don't get it. #my second paragraph isn't me doubting byler or like denying the fact that mike is OBVIOUSLY going through something too like i said they #both have reasons to not reach out. it's just that you can't exactly blame people for being biased when one's reasons are...out there #and the other's are: not. i know we're on byler tumblr and a lot of things are known to everyone but like do you see what i'm getting at? #one thing i'll give you is that trying to force your friends to play with you when they obviously couldn't give less of a fuck is...not #a very good strategy and also it was hurtful too when my friends didn't care about my crush of the week in middle school. i personally #never told them to grow up and accidentally called them gay over it though lol! #and i've also been will with the getting your friends to do something they don't care about i've told this story before when i was 12 my #friends literally WROTE ME A LETTER (they wouldn't even say it to my face!!!! they gave it to me and i was like what is this and they were #like uhjustwaitforustoleavewellseeyouonmondaybye and left before i could read) telling me to stop talking about one direction. and i didn't #even talk about them that much because i knew they only liked them a little while i was a Directioner. i never talked about them again #after that lolll #see how i did something for the will is always 100% in the right allegations #ask

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

i think adam's like, level of how much he fights back would fluctuate a lot based on his mood

like, if he's had something nice happen to him, he's going to fight his fucking hardest, but, if he's in a depressive/apathetic slump, he won't care enough to fight back other than a few half-hearted swats

though, he will always fight back immensely if he's with another person, whether he's in a bad mood or good mood

Yeah, absolutely. I think he’d still fight if he knows someone is in danger. His basic response is to fight back, though like you said if he’s extremely depressed or apathetic and no one’s around, he may just. Let it happen

#asks are neat #Mandela prophet #I imagine that when he first caught on to the parasite he tried. hiding it #like making sure no one even knew there was anything wrong with him. denying everything #hell. maybe he told Sarah Jonah died in a wreck or something. not wanting to tell her or admit that he killed him #Prophet Adam (tmc)

[orcelito]

so yea i finished watching tristamp. absolutely bewitched by the animation. but also wanting MORE... and so . i am planning on watching the original anime. at some point soon.

sometimes joining the bandwagon of what's currently popular is fun if it coincides with my preexisting interests lol

#speculation nation #me ABSOLUTELY refusing to get into any popular live action shows bc that's not what i'm about #(minus The Untamed. that's like the only exception lmao) #you can rave about it all you want. i'm not watching it. #but an anime? Oh Yea bro now we're talking #ok really though i'm just fascinated by the concept of Whatever vash is #inhuman. the bridge between humanity and plants. and in a way an Angel #that's not what he is in a literal sense but with the framing of it all in a religious sense and him and knives being the Core of that all #and just. the Way They Are... they are like Angels. for all the power and immortality that grants them #and yet. we have absolute babygirl Vash who's the sweetest nerd and PAINFULLY caring #the dichotomy between him and knives is just................... aghhhhh #and in the FINAL EP when knives was chasing him across the city and they both had wings #but only one each. mirroring one another. they are each others' mirrors. #it's all just so. it's Captivating. genuinely. i adore this concept and i want to see it in action more. #and of course i'm a wolfwood girlie(gender neutral) i cant deny my nature #ive already been reading fic for trigun sdlkfjsldkjf #tbh i was reading it even before ever watching. bc it just. got to me ok #i knew i was probs gonna watch it and after the last ep came out it became a certainty. and i'm so glad i did watch it #i'm probs gonna rewatch that last ep bc i'm a little buzzed and i wanna absorb it all with a clear head #bc the animation is SOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD helppppppppppppppppp #but yea sorry if u dont like trigun lol this is gonna become in part a trigun blog now

[mugirmu]

ive heard of lots of people having frequent crash issues when playing dragon age origins on pc, but ive been lucky... 3rd crash ever was just now in the battle of denerim 😭😭😭 its no big deal because im a frequent saver, not even at the archdemon yet either, but RIP my immersion HSKDBSBDKS

#AAAGH THIS GAME IS SO GOOD I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT #all today ive finished the landsmeet and every other thing i wanted to do or check up on and this past hour or so? battle of denerim babyyy #when i played as a wee lad i never got past the assemble your armies part of the game #ive done so so much more than i ever had and im about to finish it!!! i really am!!!! #i LOVED the landsmeet and EVERYTHING SINCE THEN its so EPIC and da:o is a GREAT FUCKING GAAAANE #FOR FERELDEN!!! FOR THE GREY WARDENS!!!!!!!!!!!! GO KING ALISTAIR GOOOOO #anyway time to load in and do this one battle again i was almost finished with it >:((( #oh also HOLY SHIT RIP RIORDAN like i knew he had to die because the sacrifice is up to me but NOOO I WAS SCREAMING #also i had planned earlier to do morrigan's ritual (male warden) but when actually making the decision.... it was hard #i was thinking of what my warden would do. that he was totally ready to make the Sacrifice if he had to. and protect alistair the soon-king #but in the end i decided that zevran was more important to him than following honor in this situation #in death; sacrifice. but not today #also speaking of pre-made choices i almost backed out on: i also planned to have alistair rule alone #and he is! thats what ended up happening and im happy with it. but i sat there for like 15 minutes debating with myself #on if i should marry him to anora and have them rule jointly or not #but no :) maybe another playthrough #i LOVED the cutscene of alistair executing loghain. who can deny his ascension when he beat the snake in an honorable duel #ugh i know im ranting but ive never played or even seen videos of the landsmeet and the battle of denerim before and im SO EXCITED #YOU!! YES YOU!! LISTEN HERE!! IF YOU LIKE FANTASY YOU SHOULD REALLY PLAY DRAGON AGE ORIGINS #i know ive already spoiled it some but uwu forget

[thedeadthree]

agonizing over if ademarta should choose the mythic path of lich or aeon this fine evening! ah! 🥀😵‍💫

#oc: ademarta cel tradat #leg plays pathfinder wrath of the righteous #mutuals my dears i would forever be indebted by y’all’s thoughts ✨🥺 #I KNEW THIS WAS COMING THAT I WAS GONNA BE INDECISIVE AND AHH..! a crisis! #or demon? that one too? ALL OF THEM MAKE SENSE FROM HER LORE PERSPECTIVE ITS JUST DECIDING WHICH ONE MORESO FITS? #like okay her patron deity (she’s a possessed oracle!!) is urgathoa bc when her mom passed she sought out a way to see her mother again #and to understand the nature of her abilities as an oracle of the ancestors and bones? #so lich would make sense? BUT ALSO her father is the blood emperor lord ruithvein? who has a plane in hell/the abyss? #+ she would love nothing more than to overthrow him for denying her of her birthright when he cast her out after her moms passing bc grief? #so demon would make sense there? #but also as the story unfolded for her she saw that she could have more dominion and power over fate and destiny by become an aeon? #she could quite literally wipe her father from existance if she wished to jshxhxh and i think that’s alluring to her? #so aeon could be interesting for her? #and of course bc i am nothing more than a clown and so is she that if i chose lich then the downside from what i read? #is that likely she wouldn’t be able to be with him romantically anymore? SO THATS WHERE IM STUCK? #that she wouldn’t be with daeran anymore as he would either die to be in her phylactery or that the whole party would be replaced by the -> #undead even if he were to survive? so im like GAHH over it sijxhxj #leg.txt

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[tofixtheshadows]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.

Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.

Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.

Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.

I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.

He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).

First, we get this:

Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.

They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.

It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.

We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.

What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?

He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.

In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.

Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!

...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.

Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.

And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.

I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.

And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.

Meals are the privilege of the living.

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious in Dungeon #Kabru #Kabru of Utaya #Laios Touden #Dungeon Meshi meta #you can have him in the tags too. as a treat. #Dungeon Meshi spoilers #this was directly inspired by livelaughlaios's post about Kabru self harming but I decided it got too long to make it a direct reply #this is a theory I've been working on for weeks because I kept noticing this while skimming for screencaps #I'm hesitant to trigger tag this because of the way certain subcultures on tumblr operate #but if anyone needs me to add a content warning please let me know #also I included image descriptions! I did my best #I think they even help illustrate my points but my god were they sad to write. Kabru is so fucking sad you guys #musings with Dea