#follow up call tomorrow.

[applecherryraspberry]

my brain is pulverized after a 8am to 2pm meeting today 😫

#and we didn't even cover everything. #follow up call tomorrow. #good luck with that fuckos i will not be there on account of today already killed me

[dennisboobs]

my personal headcanon for why Dennis is wearing a watch throughout season 13 will always be that it's set to North Dakota time

#:) #ada speaks #like. i know most people just write him off as a deadbeat dad who Gave Up but #he said he wanted to try and give his kid a life he missed out on bc frank was never there #and even if he couldn't manage it for more than a year #i still think he makes an attempt even after he returns to philly #whether or not he's actually following through and keeping in contact with mandy and his son regularly #i think the watch is there for that reason. as a reminder. he never set it back to PA time #glancing at it thinking about their routine at that time of day #knowing junior's probably being put to bed and it's too late to call #but... tomorrow night. he'll remember then.

[palettepainter]

Sometimes selfcare is gathering incorrect quotes to use for your OC's

#Self doubt is so funny like wdym I'm afraid of sharing my work with the incredibly wholesome online community that is my followers? #I just finished up some art for a display and my commissions #And I can feel burnout crawling up my back #I also have a pretty important phone call tomorrow #Health related call right after work sooo ye #pretty scared for that #Ontop of trying to write stuff for Hired Sparky and being worried about all my hard work being for nothing #I love writing Muppet related stories and working on Hired Sparky but I feel like my stories get the least amount of engagement out of all #my stuff #Which is really disheartening #I want people to love my work and my characters and I want them to feel developed #But I just feel like I haven't really been doing a good job of that recently?? #Vent #Palette talks

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #the struggle continues #the clinic was worried enough to call and ask me follow up questions in advance of my appointment #but they decided it's 'not lifethreatening' which yeah. thanks. not technically. #so I gotta wait till tomorrow to get it sorted #I have not fallen asleep on the couch today #but I have also only been out of bed for like 10 or 11 hours and I'm already going back to bed #so it's less that I'm not as tired #and more that I've shifted gears back to being tired all the time. -n-

[haveyouheardthispodcast]

Propaganda below the cut:

My absolute favorite show. Trope aware portal fantasy that blows me away with every episode. and it’s been going for TEN YEARS.

#The Once and Future Nerd #The Once & Future Nerd #poll #fiction #fantasy #drama #comedy #From the summaries on Podchaser and Wikipedia it looks like it follows the Wolf 359 trajectory of comedy -> drama. #Off topic but this blog might be taking a brief hiatus. Or I'll slow down the queue again. #It is currently Friday night and I'm missing my best friend's hockey game because I have to work tomorrow and it is still past my bedtime #by an hour but I wanted to queue up one more poll because that will get me to Saturday afternoon when I might be able to queue more when #video calling with my other best friend. But my weekend is pretty full and next week I'm working 8 more hours and two more days than usual #so...... yeah. Earlier this week I came back from a two week trip to see the total eclipse which was excellent but I did not queue up #anything for this blog during it. —Mod Nic

[quinfamy]

*blows a kiss to you all* hey 😘

#probably going to be able to post a plotting call tomorrow!! #will catch up on new followers/messages tonight ❤️ #tbd.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that? #because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought #i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy #its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere #bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like #normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes #possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my #reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it #i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything #in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place #i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass #i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired #god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or #read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill #so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating #its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage #bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪 #i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn #unrelated

[la-galaxie-langblr]

screech

#tag rant incoming #the wait until results day is killing me #6 days 17 hours until I log onto ucas and see where I'm going in less than a month #time will not go faster no matter what i do I'm an anxious mess all the time and all I look forward to is going to bed so when i wake up #there's 1 less day to wait #I want to get into my first choice so so so badly and I'm not sure how I'll take it if I don't #my second choice is an equally good uni and course but it's just not the same to me #I'll go anyway if that's what ends up happening cus I know I'll enjoy it eventually but yeah #god has a plan everything happens for a reason etc etc but I'm Scared™ #ok positives #today i bought my new laptop that I've been saving for for months - there wasn't any in stock at currys so I'll have to wait for delivery #so now I can finally join discord calls and make silly PowerPoints again #the end of my job is in sight - I wasn't put on the schedule for my last week so now I just have 2 ish weeks to go #on Monday I'm going round to a friend's to play stardew valley #rwrb movie comes out tomorrow #no matter what happens on results day my friends and I are going to a gay bar in Belfast which I'm so excited for #followed by a sleepover with another friend #the future is happening very soon and it's very overwhelming but I will get through it #I am just the unfortunate combination of anxious and impatient #ellis exclaims

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: May 14

"Diamond on a Landmine” by Billy Talent

#song of the day #buckle up babes this one's a nice showcase of how my brain retains memories which is to say it's a long path to a close destination #in early 2011 when Leverage's season three had recently wrapped #one of my friends was writing a character study piece for Eliot with a partial focus on his toxic relationship with Damien Moreau #and they made a writing playlist for the fic that included this song #(and also 'Laughing with a Mouth of Blood' by St Vincent. absolutely killer song) #and I like the song but for whatever reason I never looked up anything else by Billy Talent #(I was at the time not spending so much time looking up new music but more just letting it come to me #in 2017 St Vincent came out with 'Los Ageless' and I was like oh I know her!! and I started paying attention to her albums #which is good because then in 2021 she released the Daddy's Home album which has 'Pay Your Way in Pain' /and/ 'The Melting of the Sun' #which are absolutely incredible tracks and my life would've been less without them) #and then today I saw a Call of Duty post with lyrics from Billy Talent's 'Afraid of Heights' #and I didn't recognize the lyrics so I went and pulled up the song as how I do #and as it played I was like. do I know this? no. I know something like this. what is it? #and at first I was convinced I'd just been listening to it but then why couldn't I place it? and then I realized I hadn't heard it recently #but I had been /thinking/ about something /related/ to it--which I had been. sort of. there's a Damien Moreau post queued for tomorrow-- #and then in Afraid of Heights the chorus was wrapping up #'you're the only one I'd follow til the end of time / if we fall we fall together baby don't think twice again' #and something clicked and I dragged 'Diamond on a Landmine' up out of the depths of my various-artists folder #it's a great song got an excellent build to it #'alone at last / I can't wait til we're alone at last / all I wanted was a second chance / a second chance / to hold you in my arms at last #and the visual of 'better watch your step / she's a diamond on a landmine' is fantastic #anyway! I made giant scotch eggs with my family's spicy sausage ball mix instead of the normal breading and they're amazing #a good day #two weeks into May already can you imagine

[sp00ky-scary]

casual jobs thinking they're entitled to like all your time is fucking bizarre, why'd my manager ask me why I've never answered the phone, just for me to check and he's been frequently calling me at like 8am even on days where I'm unavailable, like dude ?????

#oh no how dare my 18 year old casual employee not answer the phone at 8AM #like bro if I don't have class or work I'm asleep till midday #if you want me to work more fucking schedule me to work more shifts stop calling I'm mentally unable to work short notice #he followed it up by asking if I wanna work 5-10pm tomorrow despite knowing I take the bus #like sorry bro unleas you wanna pay for my taxi I ain't doing that

[pussymasterdooku]

normal sunday morning (reading up on malpractice laws because i think my wrist has indeed been mismanaged so flagrantly that suing would be appropriate)

#i’m gna call and change drs tomorrow so that’s step one toward solving things #but now that i have access to my mri analysis from last year we’ve been Reading The Literature #and the literature is quite clear actually that the treatment protocols for this specific injury are… #not the protocols she has followed. the literature specifically says those things Do Not Do Shit #and tomorrow marks one full year and it is. so bad. it is worse. and my right hand is fucked now too lol #i’m p sure i need surgery based on uhhhh the literature. and yet what is she up to? TRYING TO TELL ME I HAVE LUPUS?? #it’s not great kc. it’s not great. #wrist saga tag

[tytrack]

it actually makes me so angry that people are not there for you the way you need them but in a way that wants to make them feel good

#i'm pissed my friend just came to visit me at midnight on her way home bc she's leaving for california when i told her not to come #*she's leaving for california tomorrow #my uncle had to be taken to the hospital over the weekend and has been on the ventilator and she didn't call me at all to check in on how i #was doing and sent a text super late with a general how are you text because i've also been working on my qualifying exams #and i told her that was i was surprised she hadn't called me then and she said she was trying to give me my space (???????????) #meanwhile i've been dealing with stupid roommate drama and she knows that it wouldn't be ok for her to come and told her multiple times not #to and she thought i was being polite or something? when i said 'i literally do not want you to come' #there's actually been so much shit going on in my life and instead of coming when i needed you you're coming now that you have no other #time to come. i needed her this whole time and she's just been unavailable and socializing with other people and otherwise preoccupied #i do not need you to come at midnight to show me that you care it feels so disengenous #meanwhile while she was doing her phd apps i was literally glued to her side read her drafts was there for her emotionally was there #IN THE MOMENT as she was submitting them and even when she was finding out from programs and i was upset with her i was following up with #her and calling her every day. i really hate everything #i'm writing all this because i'm angry and i'm angry that i feel guilty for being upset with her when she just came over even though #i literally told her i didn't want her to come and suddenly it feels like it's my fault even though i know it's not #even today while she was on the phone she was just talking about shit going on in her life maybe to fill in the space that i wasn't filling #but like are you serious? #god i'm so upset i already can't concentrate on my work

[moonsmultimusings]

hiii hello, all! i am bad at starting to engage with people, BUT- i think that making a plotting call like this might be a good way to do it! interact with this post if you'd like me to come bother you in DMs to plot something out if we're mutuals and don't have an active thread together ^-^

#´ ･ . ✶ooc; interaction call #{ i need to get over my anxiety about interacting with people at SOME point- } #{ especially since everyone's been so nice to be on here so far! } #{ i am gently and nervously pspsps-ing at the crowd } #{ i have work tomorrow so it may be a bit before i have time to follow up but i'm interested to see! }

[imaginaryberries]

My therapist has had to take some time off for the last few weeks and she was a bit worried about leaving me without any sessions for a while, and I told her that I was actually feeling more stable and "ticking along not too badly" but alas that is no longer true and she is not back for a couple more weeks 🥲🥲

#i do have a session tomorrow with an org called thriving autistic #that is arranged as a follow up to diagnosis by the practice i went to #to talk about the impact of the diagnosis and discuss what i need help with going forward #so i at least get to talk to some kind of therapist lol #but its a one off session so i cant just ramble the whole time #bleugh

[seilon]

jesus christ I feel like shit

#thank god for testosterone making me unable to cry like a normal person because I sure would be otherwise #im as close as I can get to it pretty much #cant wait for my mom to get back today or tomorrow and ask me when I start the new job and I’ll just have to say oh yeah :) they never #called back actually :) haha #I know they made it sound close to certain but lol guess not! #kibumblabs #i fucking hate this I hate getting invested in anything and putting in time and effort into shit just to get fucking spat on #just emailed the general hotel email but I doubt that’ll do anything. anything good anyway #cause the restaraunt/club is managed seperately I’ll probably just get the runaround or a ‘I’ll let her know you contacted us’ which #literally never actually means anything #either that or I’ll just be rejected indirectly which won’t exactly make me feel. better #I also applied for the 8000th time to another place for a similar job but I’ve never had luck with this place so that’ll probably also #result in nothing #woohoo it’s fucking September and we’re still stuck at fucking square one! hahaahaahahahaah SO cool #for real it should actually be a fucking legal requirement to give your applicants/interviewees some form of follow-up. it’s just so #fucking degrading to try and follow-up and just being ghosted. like what’s the point of that #it feels simultaneously like rejection and being strung along at the same time. i talked to you in person the least you could do is give #me any kind of update. for the love of god

[fruitgoat]

Once again really annoyed at my brother. About the same dumb shit. Backstory: My Family is big enough that we do a Give-One-Get-One gift exchange for the holidays. (14 is a lot of legs, David.) I had Brother D in the gift exchange about 10 years ago. Justified was (still is) very important to me. I knew he'd absolutely love it but even with my recommendation, he'd never actually be able to sit down and watch it. (Happy 15th Birthday to the Twins! - it's still good here for another hour!) So I gifted him some really good whiskey and the first season of Justified on DVD that year. And a promise that he could borrow the rest from me at any time. We could even watch them together. Whatever.

He reminded me once again tonight that he's only vaguely aware of the show and that he's never seen any of it.

Bitch.

#i haven't watched the reboot yet but i have read the book #and i love spoilers #i'm just so mad at my brother #it WAS a used DVD set - but that was normal - so maybe it just couldn't play correctly? #but i followed up for YEARS #punk never watched a fucking second #gonna make some off hand remark tomorrow #given the way he treated me today it's MORE than called for #that's a whole other issue