#four and a half hours into making this

[tj-crochets]

Strawberry hearts quilt progress!!! I love most of it (let’s not talk about the bottom middle block lol)

I was going to add a border between the blocks, but I think I might sew it together as-is

#sewing #handmade #strawberry hearts quilt update #strawberry hearts quilt progress #quilting #four and a half hours into making this #but! for once!! I have the backing fabric!!! #my fabric choices were uhhhh questionable #but I only had fat eighths to work with #and I really like the heart shapes! I think they turned out well #proud of my math and planning lol

[readingwriter92]

I love when i have to fight off the Thoughts. Constantly.

#ugh why has this whole month just felt like it’s been ten thousand years #it’s been stressful and I stg the Feb bad has just continued into March and ugh #shut up sarah #sorry I just. Thursday was shit. Friday was stress. Saturday I had four hours of sleep and then Sunday and today I’ve just been dead not #wanting to do any work but knowing I have a bunch and literally nothing is wrong but #on the plus side I found a great corner in my home for crying in. very comfy good little corner surrounded by furniture so it’s great #fav new spot to sit and ponder my existence for my allocated shitty brain time for the day before I make myself half do the pressing shit

[swiftviolets]

four to one modern au coming soon?

#i spent half an hour just making them kiss #screenshots #four to one extras #an actual story would never happen i just like the idea #fto modern au

[sukimas]

example of touhous who would be decent moms if you managed to get them to recognize you as their child but who you could not leave your four year old with for half an hour: kazami yuuka

#she might ignore you most of the time #but she'll always make sure you have enough food and water #and that no one will ever hurt you. or else #conversely if you leave your four year old with her for half an hour that thing is going in the compost bin

[darubyprincx]

the imperfect project you finished is worth infinitely more than the perfect one you didn't because it wasn't good enough for you while you were making it. just btw.

#also FOR THE LOVE OF THE GODS GET A SECOND PAIR OF EYES ON THE THING YOU'RE MAKING #we have posted at least half of the ashes chapters that we actively disliked or at least found mediocre this way #'but-' shut up. 'but-' no. shut the fuck up. just do the fucking thing. Do it crying. Do it sniffling. Do it ugly. Make it and proofread it #Run your hands over the finished product and love the imperfections in the texture. Perfection is not an end goal it is a fucking impossibl #climb. #perfection is those tiktok influencers' featureless faces they spent four hours on that sucks every other bit of their life dry #perfection is those ai models' 'art' that is soulless and renders no actual thought given no love expressed #you want to create yes? then create. stumble full speed towards the finish line and fall flat on your face at the end. #allow yourself to make shitty stuff and you will learn that failure is not a dirty word. You will make something not shitty eventually. #you can breathe. creating is a messy messy thing. allow yourself and your process to be covered in paint.

[m0e-ru]

itsok guys fakest splatoon fan is here to serve 👍

#p4 #splatoon #marie persona #⛽️🌫 #moel gas station attendant #tohru adachi #souji seta #marie splatoon #callie splatoon #arttag #boot.tingting #komikku #persona 4 spoilers #izanami persona #// literally making this for the /looks at list/ four people who care. two of which who are also australian which is really funny to me #// ‘whys adachi got the dualies’ IDK?? i DIDNT EVEN DRAW IT RFIHT #// itsok guys idk how to play this game 🫡 at your service #// i will play hero mode for three hours straight and be infodumped about weapon meta thanks guys i love you #// sorry i was drawing that comic thing i think it's really funny whys there grown men on the turf war field. get their asses #// sorry for the half assed splatoonification im apologize i'll do better next time i hope #// dont ask about mims eye mask i think it'd be funny if they try race faking and obviously not. working. #// oh right that first one was like ages ago well um. here it is now i guess

[snowangeldotmp3]

in what ways do robin and nancy help each other???? like what do they give to each other, like new perspectives etc etc. im interested in hearing what u have to say abt it :)

ooo okay okay i have been thinking about this for a whole day and i have Thoughts. they may not be super coherent but pls bear with me.

ok so i think the scene in pennhurst is probably the best example of their relationship. robin's outburst + nancy's surprise at it. even just in a platonic way, not necessarily romantic, robin picks nancy's side. she doesn't crumble. she knows from the get go that nancy is right. and even if she doesn't fully believe it, robin knows what it's like to not be listened to just because they’re women. jonathan did not. (i am not going to get into the jancy argument of s3 becausee they were both right, just in different ways. i'm Not getting into that rn)

i think for nancy, not only does she have a friend again, but it's a friend she can have a genuine connection with? they both have shared trauma, so nancy doesn't have to hide anything from robin. and a friend that believes her. which i think is even more important. nancy is so, so used to not being believed, and here comes robin, who, even though she wasn't 100% sure about nancy's shot in the dark, still believed her enough to trust her hunch in the first place. to have even an ounce of trust in her theories, to not be mockingly called "Nancy Drew," to have someone believe her. i think having that person to say "no, actually, you were right, and you've been right. no, this asshole is not going to undermine you, screw. that." is so incredibly important to nancy. that "we ask forgiveness, not permission," attitude. (robin says that in the rebel robin podcast. it's canon to me.)

i think ultimately, robin is a step in the right direction for nancy healing over the loss of barb. she's letting herself become friends with someone again, she doesn't have to close herself off from friendships anymore. and no, robin can't shoot a gun, but we know she can take care of herself. she's not completely defenseless. but robin is that key, that first step in the right direction, to heal from barb.

and even in case of (hopeful) s5 predictions and whatnot, i think robin is a completely new perspective for nancy in general, and will continue to be. robin is someone who exists outside the boxes that most people fit into, the ones that nancy is actively trying to avoid. i do hope we get a robin coming out to nancy scene in s5, just as a bridge of trust between the two, ya know? (this is just wishful thinking for me, but i also personally would love to see robin come out to nancy and then force nancy to reflect on her own self, too, ya know?)

ultimately i think it's about robin and nancy being/bringing a balance to one another. they balance each other out in a way that neither of them have probably had for a while. AND i think that's what's made them so entertaining as a dynamic, they aren't one thing or the other, they're both way too complicated for that. instead, they bring a balance to each other that either one has likely not had for a long time.

#got mail! 📩 #anon asks #sorry anon this took me *checks clock* four and a half hours i kept getting distracted. #hope this makes sense #if it doesn't i hope you get the gist #one of these days i'll write a comprehensive ronance thesis. #not today tho #ronance #nancy wheeler #robin buckley #another round of: in depth character analysis #next time i'm gonna have sources. of the academic variety #stranger things #this isn't really that long but i'm gonna put it under a read more anyway <3

[pastafossa]

So I decided I was going to make STORM WONTONS since we have a snowstorm rolling over us this afternoon and I raced over to my local supermarket to get the last few things I needed. I'd never been to this particular store before but I figured it'd be a quick trip cause how hard could it be to find wonton wrappers right??? Haha.

WRONG.

I spent 20. FUCKING. MINUTES. Hunting for wonton wrappers that the internet CLAIMED this store had (but not where). TWENTY.

Was it in the asian foods section? No.

Refrigerated? Nay nay.

Pastry shells and shit? Noooope.

A pair of workers who'd presumably seen me wandering like a lost baby animal took pity on me. "Need help?"

Me, tiredly: "My quest for cheese wonton supplies has hit a snag. Do you guys have wonton wrappers?"

Guy #1: "I've only been here like 2 weeks."

Guy #2: "uuuh... OH! Produce section, under the juice."

Me: "The... why?"

Dude #1, who is also visibly confused: "Why is it with the juice?"

Dude #2 shrugging: "I dunno. Manager said put them there so we put them there."

Me: "Thank you, what about the squeezy onions? I couldn't find that or minced garlic in the jarred veggies or spices or condiments or baking aisles."

Dude #2: "Yeah those are also in the fresh produce section, with some other jarred vegetables that should probably be in the jarred vegetable aisle."

Me: ???

Dude #2: "I try not to think about it. It's how I survive."

#grocery stopping #I WAS IN THE STORE FOR A HALF HOUR AND I ONLY NEEDED FOUR THINGS #but at least i can make WONTONS TONIGHT #thank you dude number 2!

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT. #anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure. #and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone. #i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:(( #honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug. #im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

[bumblingbabooshka]

I just know in my heart that Tuvok made his kids walk on his back at the end of his workdays.

#st voyager #Tuvok #POV: You're one of Tuvok's kids and you hear him grumbling a little too much so you have to decide between the four of you who's gonna go #when he inevitably calls for someone to come into the living room #Tuvok as a kid: I hate having to walk on my father's back I will NEVER do this to MY child >/ #Tuvok as an adult once his first child's old enough: ......................................Sek. Come here for a moment. #<- Guy who's gonna make you walk on his back for half an hour while you're bored out of your mind

[homophobicwarios]

Love posting my Spotify receipts for the month bc you can always tell when I’ve had smth big to write for one of my classes bc the one Jash song (Dream (Outro from Calamity)) will make the receipt. I did not end up a Jashinator but I do like having a song I can rely on to make me write things.

#rian’s slay compilation #the first time I heard the song I was in a mood all da time so I really identified it w what splitting felt like #idk it doesn’t hit as much now bc I’ve undergone a different sort of mental illness lately (more tired than actively harmful to myself) #^it’s the way it picks up in intensity. that’s what it feels like when you try to communicate how smth feels but they don’t listen and then #go have fun at a concert and you feel so nauseous that you have to leave a shared group chat while you sob your eyes out for several hours. #y’know? anyway June/July was fun. I need four hours of build daily to keep me occupied (tired). it does actually do me wonders. #I’m so big and strong now. idk how big you are my lovely mutuals but I could lift the smaller ones I reckon. #right now I could pick up (not for long) anyone around or under 150 pounds. also preferably not super taller than me but I think it’d work. #it’s a start! I should start lifting. makes me feel big and strong. I wanna pick my friends up. #^sorry to derail this in the tags but I typed that up and was like ‘that’s such a King statement’. it’s bc someone liked a post where I #talked about feeling all overgrown and how King being half a foot shorter than me but still picking me up like a brides made me feel Not #Overgrown #I don’t worry about feeling overgrown so much anymore but I do kinda miss the bride lifting. it was nice every once in a while #it’s small things like that. #side note I think I could pick King up now bc they’re roughly my weight and as we established I can lift ppl about my weight very briefly #it’s the build. it makes me big and strong. it’s all the wood holding and platform throwing

[the-blaze-empress]

hi heres a bread recipe its really fucking good and really fucking easy also measure the garlic and rosemary with ur heart not a spoon and put garlic in the bread dough with the rosemary okay thank u byeeee

this is what they look like btw

#bread #recipe #garlic bread #bread recipe #i got the recipe from a tiktok i saw reposted on tumblr(? i cant actually remember its been like a year and a half) #also make a double batch a single batch will last u approximately four hours #ive only ever made a single batch once and that was the first time i made these #original thoughts in their natural habitat #i cant cook #really need to rename that tag

[lesbianslovebts]

I'm autistic, and my brain can't filter and process sensory input well, so everything is Loud, and sounds trigger my chronic migraines, which makes everything Louder, which triggers another migraine, which...

#wednesdays are much more crowded and noisy at the office #today i ate the first half of my lunch with my noise cancelling headphones on but my boss came and sat down next to me with his lunch #i could only make out every other word he said and the rest of the cafeteria noise sounded like a jet engine #i got a migraine and took meds #but i was still overstimulated so i stimmed with a compression ring and a wooden keychain #there's a sharp pointy tip on the wood and i poke my fingertips with it #anyway i made it home and managed to eat before lying down #i meant to sleep for an hour or two max but ended up passing out for four hours #my brain completely shut off #i woke up at my normal bedtime so now my routine and body schedule is fucked up which. you guess it. triggers a migraine. #autism #migraine #actually autistic #llbtspost

[moregraceful]

tagged by @lemondropbois and @kitnita and @lovethygoalie!! I love having so many writer mutuals from such diverse points of fandom. I wasn't gonna do this because I am under a severe writing deadline however I am also so deeply frustrated right now that a nice meme may cheer me up. or make me worse. unclear

wip title game rules: post the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have wips.

not posting everything in my wip folder bc most of my wips need to get moved to the superhell (abandoned) folder, i just haven't been able to bring myself to do it. also i have talked about some of these before so i may not share a snippet if i haven't added anything to it since the last time i did this. here's what i have read and pondered in the past 5 months:

bergy buster love

jamie tyler robbers and cowards

kaapo alexis k'andre

mario brent trade (<- boba au)

miro jrob everything

roope jani water and power plot

shak nikita

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big fan of descriptive google doc titles. I decided my birthday/new year's resolution is to not use any song lyrics as titles 😤

soft tagging whoever wants to do it!

#so much of the fic in my wip folder is like...this would be so good if i had finished it before the sharkuda's 2023 offseason #why am i so so so mad? well i spent close to four and a half hours alone in a car today going to and from OAKLAND #bc 880 is hell and 680 is hell and 580 is hell and 280 is also hell #also bc i saw two cybertrucks for real on the road and experienced a level of roadrage that i have never felt before #like i regularly experience roadrage bc i am a california driver. i learned to drive on caltrans highways. that's just life in california. #but seeing two cybertrucks enter the freeway one after another...it unlocked something powerfully ugly and deeply cruel in me #anyway. i'm going to bed. feel free to send asks i may or may not answer but will for sure feel bad about not answering #lesa and 💖 anon i have seen your lovely asks and i will respond when i stop making myself angry about cybertrucks #ily both #fresno oilers.txt #unfortunate birdcage fanfictions

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Okay I'm not saying that this semester's students suck ass bc I'm not there to teach them, but isn't it just such a coincidence that the vast majority are failing so miserably and they don't have someone who will tutor them outside of class and go over notes and skills with them, while the previous semesters did have that and the majority passed? Super interesting stuff. Too bad we'll never know if things could've been different if they had just fucking paid me :)

#can you tell I'm peeved lmao #i went to one of the classes today just so i can keep it on my resume #and holy fuck #weeks into the semester and they should have the basics down #they do not #absolutely floundering #granted I'm sure I'm not actually the reason lmao #like yeah i helped a shit ton of students outside class too #but they probably could've passed without me #these new ones tho are awful #no drive no nothing just looking for others to blame for their own failures #i didn't even stay the whole time like i was planning #bc i found out that they hired four other fucking people for the program #who all have less experience than me #and have been with the program for a way shorter time than i have #who don't do half the extra shit i do #and don't get me wrong this isn't a slight at them they're all fully qualified #but why the fuck not hire me #like i genuinely am so pissed #have to email my supervisor but I'm too upset to make it sound civil #like fucking fine if you don't wanna pay me you never get to see me again #I'm not working ten hour days plus extra outside of class for nothing anymore that's insane #I'll keeping being a private tutor for the students but I'm not doing a single thing for the program without pay #i mean holy shit hiring at least four other people and not saying shit to me?? #like fine that's fine fuck you you're getting an email ultimatum good luck finding someone else willing to do all that for free #i cried about it for like an hour and now I'm just mad lmao having a super normal one rn #anyway #not snz

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: December 19

"We're An American Band" by Grand Funk Railroad

#song of the day #though actually it might be the version by Poison I can't quite tell #I have again not done fuck all today but sleep so I'm farming the song of the day out again. to Nick this time! he's playing it downstairs #I do feel better than I did yesterday so I've high hopes that tomorrow I might be conscious for perhaps even multiple consecutive hours! #I've got so many recurring timers and alarms across the days. meds meals check my work email etc #every four hours there's one that says 'half a gatorade again you raisin' and I don't actually remember setting that one #if i'd been properly awake I'd have known to make it shorter. as it is until I unlock my screen the phone just says HALF A GATOR #which every time hits me so fucking funny but also I can't laugh for coughing #anyway I think the song of the day posts are doing wonders for my ability to tell time as I move through this intermittently-fevered limbo #it's dark outside more than half the day but also I haven't been keeping my plant lights to a schedule so my room's always lit anyway #and if it weren't for the daily DIARY SONG alarm I feel like I'd be having a lot more trouble marking off 24hr cycles #handy