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#give her some fucking therapy!!!
gambeque · 11 months
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therapy sesh
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milk-ducts · 6 months
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///spoilers
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me thinks they want eachother carnally ..
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runawaymun · 10 days
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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags#cw personal#once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says#THEY don't#they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government??????????????#so there's still some kind of payment???#anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated#like will she take my insurance or not who's right here#anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now#why the hell is this so hard man#the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain#once again no one knows what they're talking about#like can y'all not communicate and figure this out?#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds#and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover#*contracted#not retyping all of that#and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim#and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart#and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that>#UGH#like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles#the bureaucracy is INSANE#i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second#and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on'#uGH#literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times#like not on the phone after I hung up obvs
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lesbianfakir · 1 month
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Funniest iconic movie/tv shots I could redraw with princess tutu characters?
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dreamlogic · 6 months
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#chronic blogging#shit chat#well at this point both of my parents (who i inherited my Just Tough It Out streak from) have#upon hearing how bad my post-hysterectomy pain has been#told me 'umm no you need to go see someone.' and 'please just go to urgent care i will pay for it if your insurance won't.' respectively#haunted by the ghost of my right ovary (sharp stabbing pains & debilitating muscle spasms around the incision site)#it's been 1.5 years since surgery and it's getting worse not better#at my 1mo post op i was like 'hey right side hurts a lot worse & the incision seems really wonky & off-center. thoughts?'#they said it was nothing to worry about give it time i might still be feeling pain up to 6mo post op#sooo 8mo post op contact surgeon again 'hey remember that thing i mentioned? yeah still hurts bad enough i struggle to walk sometimes'#she says eeehhh maybe you developed pelvic floor dysfunction or always had it and surgery made it worse. read this book & do some stretches#book stretches & muscle relaxers helped for a bit so i just carried on but it was not improving in fact becoming more persistent#lil over a year post op contact surgeon like 'HEY do not ignore me i am in an amount of pain that is NOT NORMAL and you WILL see me'#drive 1+ hrs for her to poke at me for ~10 minutes ignore most of what i was saying and determine it's just muscle spasms do more stretches#said physical therapy MIGHT help if i did it 2x monthly for at least 6mo. which would've involved commuting over an hour during the workweek#no THANK you i'll just keep doing my stupid stretches. and the thing is.#the stretches ARE helping. i feel my overall balance/flexibility/stamina improving#but that by contrast is making the STABBING PAINS WHERE MY RIGHT OVARY USED TO BE all the more obvious#'oh it's just muscle spasms' well why the FUCK are my muscles spasming around THIS SPOT EXCLUSIVELY for SEVENTEEN MONTHS STRAIGHT#i have essentially no pain on my left side at all. i feel overall just fine & dandy but i am convinced there is something#like. very seriously wrong on the right side causing this#and yeah if my surgeon won't listen to me maybe i will check myself into urgent care and demand an ultrasound#(which btw i asked for during my last visit & she told me it was unnecessary & to fuck off)#but now the two people who instilled me with a very deep mistrust for the medical industry#and from who i learned from via a lifetime of observation how to dissociate from chronic pain in order to function#are telling me 'yeah no this is bad you need a DOCTOR.' umm. i probably need a doctor.#was talking w/ E last night about degrees of pain & like. avg day is like 4-6 on a 0-10 scale. good days 2-3.#i don't consider calling out from work unless it's like an 8 or higher cause i'm just so used to it.#i'm sick of it. so fucking bored with being in constant pain. i want my life & energy back. i want a personality beyond Oh Just Tired back.#i wanna be able to enjoy touch again with immediately hitting overstimulation threshold due to pain.
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aro-ortega · 3 months
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i think it would be funny if in the future daniel + julia try to convince sasja to give polyamory/them as a throuple a shot
#like a reversal of step talking them into a being a triad in retri#been a while since ive played and definitely since ive played a chargeflystep run so. not confident in my memory#i just thknk it would be neat ! funny !#sasja still hates julia but. she knows now. and he knows that she knows. and thats not the reason she didnt save him#he still hates her for that hates her for leaving him. but. he also knows now that hes done much worse so. shrug#and in some runs he does accidentally drug-addledly confess to still being in love w her#and ! hes going to therapy and he does take it serious ! he can be difficult and lash out but. he does listen to what finch has to say#(and is willing to Work on things and like. have therapy Homework post retri)#and he wants. he doesnt want to be this (terror) anymore. he went to far he can see that now daniel made him see that. he wants to be.#something. better ? less murderous. less violent ig. i think he just doesnt want to hurt daniel again but. theres lots that could hurt him#anyway ! all that to also say - daniel is (supposedly) very perceptive and even tho hes not in the room when sasja confesses to julia#i dont think it would be hard for him to figure out that sasja misses julia (he still hangs out with her. even tho hes told her to fuck off#fuck off a thousand times) and ? maybe he would see or feel that theres still something there between them and#and idk. maybe daniel and ortega talk. maybe sasja and his romantic past w julia comes up. maybe ortega is like. it is what it is hes#hes clearly in love with you anyway so... but ? maybe......#idk ! im tired ! forgot where im going w this. idk how they get there but. maybe the float the idea by sasja. see if he would be willing to#to give julia another shot#(this came about bc i was thinking about how its funny that he + milo (+ vanya) are polyamorous but while milo#milo is dating as many people as she can sasja is just dating one person rn. i just think the contrast is funny)#sasja x daniel x julia#sasja jespersen#op#fh#sasja x julia#sasja x daniel
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opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months
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#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎#the lady i saw was nice. 1st appointments r always a lotta blah blah blah so much to cover#and im always like bleh whatever im not that bad but when u put it all down on paper it is sorta a lot lol#i got the comment. hm u seem to kno a lot abt the dsm. and like listen. i have been meticulously categorizing my problems for the last 4#years. and i like to learn so ya kno. also said yea it sounds like u r having hypomanic episodes.#and asked if bipolar was a possibility and like if i was bipolar that would absolutely blow my god damn mind. im pretty sure its just pmdd#but whatever. im open to the possibility. mostly i wanna hear someone else perspective on this#i feel like im collaborating on a project. like gimmie ur notes i wanna see if were on the same track. bc im insane like that#i always feel bad when they apologize for asking invasive questions. like neh its fine. i got nothin to hide and i dont give a fuck#also i told a class of my peers that my distraction from research is drawing narut0 fan art. again bc i do not#give a single fuck. Professors response: hopefully we get to see it some day. bro. if u ask me i will show u. i do not care#i mean. probably nothing too weird but i feel like most of my stuff is safe to share. i just come off looking like a weeb i guess#but yea back in therapy bc my mum reminded me bc the ppl around me irl r also worried for my well-being based on my behavior lol#i mean its just bc i complain that im in like psychological pain a lot. so lots and lots of bitching abt my brain ^^#the lady i saw did fall a lil bit into my trap. like what woulf ur life look like if u had everything under control? bc it seems like ur#here and ur starting a phd what more do u want? and im like mwahaha but u see i can do school#i can do school so good. i am the best at school and thats it. i am otherwise barely functional#so i can be successful on paper and dysfunctional when it comes to having a life :-]#but whatever. well see what she wants to follow up on next week bc i threw a lot at her#also went to my office for the 1st time. it is really nice to sit in a working lab and watch ppl interact. but also i do feel like im#dying if i try to sit in that room with 2 other ppl lol. so well see how it goes. i may find somewhere else to hide#unrelated
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softle0 · 5 months
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I’m the most miserable girl in the world frr 😂😂😂 why this is happening to me…. So I have an ex bf, we haven’t been together for like two years now… we broke up side we had the shores relation ever, he was cheating on me, I cheated on him, we didn’t trust each other, we’d fight everyday, among other things I don’t like to remember for my own sanity…. (And btw we ended up really bad because he became a fucking psycho, he didn’t wanted to break up with me, he harassed me for the longest time, insulted me, he wished my own death, etc) His ass was so broke and he refused to work that we would always stay at my home and when we went out was because I was paying for everything LMAO (I don’t like to remember all of this because it’s so embarrassing ngl)
I don’t fuck with this man anymore, like I don’t hate him or anything, I don’t care about his life at all. He keeps reaching me and trying to be friends but I don’t want lol not after all the shit he did to me at the end. I still answer his texts sometimes but anything crazy. But as I said he’s not my friend, I don’t fuck with him.
He’s been dealing with depression and shit since I’ve know him (so am I, but ofc he’s not part of my life anymore, I don’t tell him anything about how I feel or anything) but he keeps reaching me out to tell me how he’s depressed and how he’s gonna end up his life (he’s been saying that since we broke 2 years ago) lol and he keeps coming to me for advice and shit and I treat him like I don’t care about what he’s struggling because he needs to find ppl in his life that supports him. Not me.
TODAAAYYY HE ASKED ME TO PAY HIS THERAPY SESSIONS LMAOO WTF DUDEEE I’m so fucking mad right know, likeee, he never did anything good for me, hi never paid anything for me, not even a meal. But he always had money for his games, but never for his relationship. He treated me like shit, threatened me, insulted me, cheated on me, gave me the most traumatic relationship I’ve ever had and nowww his deadass came to ask me for some money for his therapy? What the fuck is wrong with this dude, bfrrr 💀💀💀💀💀 I feel so stupid right know because it’s like, I’m such a good person that someone like him thinks that can come and ask me for something like this?? I don’t know what to think anymore…
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ohbutwheresyourheart · 3 months
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ykw I will give mads mikkelsen props, he definitely delivers a more layered hannibal than anthony hopkins, I really am sold on the concept he thinks and believes multiple things at once and he feels far less of a human being and more of a monster in a person suit
however
while I will stan clarice/hannibal running off into the sunset together until the end of my days, the more I watch of nbc hannibal the more I want bedelia to take a very large hammer and just fucking beat that man's head into jam
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bestworstcase · 2 years
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have seen a fair amount of meta in the last little while that interprets the isolated maidens of the present day as corruptions of the original “team of four” maidens and. lord.
They spent several more months in one another’s company, but the wizard knew that their time together was running out. The days grew shorter and cooler, until one day, the maidens announced that it was time for them to continue their journeys.
“Journeys? Are you not traveling together?” the wizard asked. He didn’t dare voice the hope he had hidden in his heart: that they would decide to stay with him, or invite him to join them as they ventured out into the world.
“Our paths lead us in different directions,” Winter said. “To the four corners of Remnant. But we are grateful to you for providing us with a much-needed break and hospitality.”
…the original four maidens, in the traditional telling of the tale, were sisters but not a team. they traveled alone, separately from each other, happened to cross paths and stay a while with the wizard, and then separated again. they didn’t even leave together! they leave one by one, and when the last of them is gone, the wizard, too, leaves to pursue his solitary journey.
this is an important distinction for making sense of the narrative role the maidens serve. they were never a team—they traveled alone, and like the wizard, found temporary rest and comfort in companionship that they LEFT BEHIND when they resumed their travels; and through that temporary companionship, the wizard found his spirits lifted just enough to “resume [his] journey and work as well.”
stepping out of the dimension of fairytale and into actual history, at some point after the ozlem kingdom fell, ozma fell into despair and retreated into the wilderness to live as a hermit, then met four young women who resuscitated his hope enough for him to return to the task imposed on him by the gods—and because of that he divided his own magic and gave some of it to each of them, initiating the cycle of the maidens. whether these young women then parted ways or not is secondary to the fact that in ozpin’s telling of the story they do, as does the wizard. “the story of the seasons” fundamentally isn’t about teamwork so much as it is ozma receiving company as a palliative that allowed him to crawl out of an emotional pit and limp back onto the bitter, painful, lonely road the god of light instructed him to follow… and dooming the four friends who helped him get to his feet, and every single one of their successors, to the same fate.
(now ask yourself this: would the real ozma have torn up his soul and distributed his power in this way if he felt there was even the slightest chance that the recipients would misuse it? no. thus “the story of the seasons” is suggestive of the approach ozpin takes with his inner circle being a habit millennia in the making. he entrusts close friends with crumbs of knowledge, grants them guardianship over slivers of his power—the power he no longer trusts himself to wield—and then molds them into the model of the lone hero, the solitary protector, just like him.
of further interest to me here is this: ozma’s lone hero schtick has been enabled and exacerbated by the god of light, but it was baked into his psyche long before he even met salem in the first place. he was a knight errant, and jinn heavily implies that the self-sacrificial streak eating him alive now was harming him even then: “ozma had been ready to give his life for justice countless times, but now he saw a woman worth saving it for.” <- if falling in love makes you go hm actually maybe i do care about staying alive THEN. YOU ARE NOT! OKAY!
but, anyway, the prologue of lost fable quietly establishes this dichotomy between ozma’s natural inclination towards a kind of heroism bordering on passive suicidal tendencies, risking his life because he values his life only insofar as he can sacrifice it in service of a noble cause—and the diametrically opposing force of his love for salem, and hers for him, which leads him to value his life and happiness for his own sake, so much so that when his god asks him to save the world his first answer is to say sorry but no, he wants to be with his wife. likewise, upon his return to the living world and reunion with salem he finds happiness until that happiness is corroded and ultimately obliterated by ozma’s refusal to let go of his task. and while ozma has certainly found moments of solace here and there, his journey since that night has nonetheless been one of inescapable despair as the overwhelming burden of his heroic inclinations crushes him slowly.
his fatal flaw is his willingness to sacrifice himself, his inability to prioritize taking care of himself, and the cruelest thing the god of light did to him was orchestrating the mandate in a manner that ensured ozma’s bitterest enemy would be the person who once inspired him to value his own life.)
all tangents aside—the maidens are in a literal sense extensions of ozma himself, in that the magic that defines them is HIS magic, given to reward and empower four young women who rekindled his shambling towards the impossible goal laid out by his gods; and everything we know about them and everything we’ve seen in how ozpin’s circle treats them in the present day suggests to me that ozpin never quite let go of thinking of it as his power. he gave it to the original four with the intention of making more heroes to carry his burden with him; qrow suggests that the maidens were dragged into secrecy specifically in response to the magic being inherited by the kind of people ozpin didn’t want to have it (which, in fairness given that the people in question were murderers, isn’t wholly unreasonable) rather than out of genuine concern for the safety of the maidens themselves, and the circle by and large treats the maidens as nameless interchangeable meat vessels for their keys to the magic vault. the only time amber gets referred to by name is when they’re coaxing pyrrha into letting them use her as a soul jar!
and while that represents an obvious escalating downward spiral from ozma bequeathing most of his magic to four new heroines and then seeing them off into the world one by one, there’s no real textual basis for thinking that he ever intended for them to act as an autonomous team as opposed to individual agents who took their cues from him. ozpin’s telling of the fairytale ends with three beats that are very suggestive of the latter interpretation, in fact: 1. the wizard gives them his magic, and they all depart separately; 2. the wizard, too, leaves to resume his long-neglected work, and 3. each of the sisters, upon leaving, promises to return regularly to visit the wizard.
draw your own conclusions about what the nature of those regular visits with a freshly rededicated ozma might have been.
a final thought: “the warrior in the woods” and “the hunter’s children” are both likely fictional tales not founded in real historical events of any note, and the unspoken moral embedded in them—that it is dangerous to stand alone, and vital to stand together—is flouted by the ozma-characters in “the infinite man” and “the story of the seasons.” (ozpin’s perfunctory commentary on “warrior” also rather conspicuously steps around the point that the silver-eyed woman’s violent end came as a result of her isolation; something something, until the end, “but through a simple soul we lie complacent,” file under things ozpin really does not want to confront). this, i think, lends a patina of willful blindness and self-sabotage to ozma’s and particularly ozpin’s modus operandi; it beggars belief to think that the man who describes a story like “the hunter’s children” as his favorite fairytale and agonizes about his own failings in the commentary of “the infinite man” doesn’t grasp that secrecy and solitary heroism are counterproductive at best and self-destructive at worst. he persists in being secretive and solitary out of habit, out of fear, and because he loathes himself too much to extricate himself from the mindset of endless sacrifice (originally only of himself; the foremost sign of his corruption is how readily he sacrifices other people too, now). and of course that only reinforces the self-hatred, which reinforces the behavior, and so the cycle continues.
#ozma go to therapy challenge#anyway this is why it’s noteworthy that cinder is choice & has the magic bc she wants it & is SALEM’s maiden#none of ozpin’s maidens wanted this power#so they suffer in it#and they’re entangled in and harmed by the system he built around them#but cinder? to cinder this power is liberation and she CRAVES it#and all power struggles with salem notwithstanding#cinder revels in having magic#in using it in accordance with her own desires#so while the team oz maidens have to reckon with what having this magic means to them#how they shoulder the burdens it comes with#cinder’s struggle for autonomy has a distinctly different flavor in which the magic is largely irrelevant#like on paper salem is using her as a magical skeleton key but#what that looks like in practice 99% of the time is salem telling her no. not yet.#she promised to give cinder this power to secure her loyalty but its clear that salem has#some steep reservations about following through. bc she recognizes the danger of cinders power hunger#so cinders efforts to buck salems control have mostly looked like cinder testing boundaries with salem#leading up to the overt FUCK YOU of disobeying direct orders. which wrested an actual admission of wrongdoing out of salem!#it’s less about the magic than it is about cinder i think#wanting some kind of emotional validation from salem that she doesn’t know how to articulate or even recognize probably#and getting frustrated when salem doesn’t or can’t give that to her. magic is just a proxy#and while cinder DOES need to let go of the power hunger i think that#a lot of people really overestimate how much her arc is going to hinge on like. cinder relinquishing magic#whether emotionally or literally. the magic is a distraction and it’s gonna slide out of focus as soon as cinder figures out how to#name the emotional void she’s trying to get salem to fill
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just-miru · 2 years
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asdkdkskskks-
kinda funny how thanks to this hellsite (affectionate) i am finally starting to make some changes in my life
#i have always had the mentally of 'you can push through this and u can rest after' and it fucked me up so much u sillies have no idea#it's come to a point when even if i wanna study i just can't bring myself to#i am way too exhausted all the time and even when i relax /do things i enjoy i am eaten by guilt#'why are you doing that instead of studying?'#and that doesn't make things any better ya know? i just end up more exhausted#if it weren't for this silly site and all the posts i have seen and stuff#i would have probably kept on trying to push myself despite not being able to do so#like-#most advice i see on other sites is to 'push through it' or 'to force myself to study regardless' - and that's just not it#i can't do that. i just can't#tumblr helped me see there's another way - taking things slow it's ok#thanks to this hellsite i made some good decisions actually!#i decided not to apply to university this year since right now i am not in the best mental state to focus on so many exams#(the ones at the end of my final year of high school as well as the university admission exams (? - i think that's how they're called))#decision my parents see as 'giving up' for some reason but i can't give a single fuck about what they think right now#my biology teacher was way more supportive of my decision actually! she understood me and my reasoning and i just-#i can't thank her enough for all the support she has offered me :D#not only that but i will make sure i start therapy this year as well#no matter what#i really really need it#it's gonna be with the school therapist since it's the only available option i have#because my parents have a 'normal and healthy child' if ya know what i mean :/#but it sure is better than nothing!#idk sillies#i am just really happy and i hope things will work out for me in the end
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zhuhongs · 10 months
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i need to start going to therapy to learn how to talk to people about things and the develop better support systems for myself bc i only talk to like 2.7 ppl bc idk how to talk to anyone and this is ridiculous
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finnm · 2 years
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Me: I know that PB is a war criminal and not a great person but she's a good character and I love her for that
PB in the Tower: now you can forget your problems so you can keep doing your job 😊
Me: BITING. KILLING.
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Frank frankly (welcome home) looks so damn much like the dude form fenomena who had this terrible life partner and kept loosing hair and got possessed.
They look so similar smh-
Anyways I'm gonna go ahead and ramble in the tags now.
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