#help me quit the day job!

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[tittyinfinity]

it's crazy finding out you're autistic as an adult bc then you start to notice the ways it affects you and has affected you throughout life

and then it becomes a hyperfixation bc you're like "omg this makes so much sense now" and you start feeling a bit better about yourself knowing that there's an explanation to everything

#.bdo #autism #''panic attack disorder'' they have all been full-on meltdowns #which is just as much of a reason that I stopped working as my chronic pain #bc the last job i had i quit in the middle of a phone call #bc the lights and sounds on top of the problem solving on top of my ADHD were Too Much #i was also incorrectly diagnosed with both bipolar type 1 and BPD #it was the PTSD mixed with everything else like my post-partum depression and psychosis #found out that the ''bipolar'' was just me being happier when i have my pain meds #and getting everything done in those couple of weeks where i felt better (''mania'') #and of course more depressed when i'm in more pain bc i can't not notice it #and then also my period really fucks me up too and i get extremely angry for 3-7 days straight #but anyway #i noticed how i stim and how the way i think specifically in patterns and numbers #i've always had really bad texture issues w both food and fabric #i have misophonia and can also feel certain noises (ESPECIALLY mouth noises)(ESPECIALLY if it's repetitive) #it makes me feel like i need to make the noise too #and half the people in my family have vocal stims #ik they can't help it but it sends me into panic attacks & meltdowns #i can hear electricity on top of my tinnitus #i get socially overwhelmed easily bc of all the masking #i talk to myself and make my own noises when im alone #i have repetitive thoughts that will cycle for weeks sometimes months at a time #so i think the ocd is comorbid #bc ever since i was like 5 i've had this pattern that i HAVE to tap on things every now and then or it drives me insane #i get intense hyperfixations for months or years #there's just a lot i notice about myself now

[hylianane]

I really didnt love OPLA’s Marine storyline and the particular way it wanted me to sympathize with marines like Garp. With this in mind though. God I hope Live Action Tashigi gets her own expanded depth for the love of god I wanna know. I wanna feel her connection to the blades she wants to save and see her connection to Zoro from her eyes, I wanna see her and Smoker get a taste of rebellion as they lie to Garp’s face about the whereabouts of the pirate crew who saved Alabasta.

#me and my extreme delusion that Smoker and Tashigi’s storyline is just a very slow burn build up to the day they finally quit the Marines #they have to differentiate themselves from “Good Cops” Koby and Garp somehow! Quit! Your! Jobs! #Sometimes the best way to help people is to quit listening to the institution that claims to always know which people deserve help #captain smoker #captain tashigi #opla #one piece #one piece live action #vice admiral smoker #my post

[blueblurseptember]

and if i say luo binghe and shen qingqiu / shen yuan are very miles morales and gwen stacey coded, then what?

#svsss #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #bingqiu #bingyuan #brain dump #anyone who thought i'm over bingyuan just bc ive gotten a bit fixated on spiderverse and was into star rail for a while is severely mistaken #they were at the back of my mind the entire time especially when i rewatched into the spiderverse #'gwen is from another universe... shen yuan is from another universe... what if-' #'miles's spider-man suit is black and red... know who else is black and red? LUO BINGHE-' #also yes been playing honkai star rail these past few months and i loved it but had to quit recently bc i need to start working out again #work's just been making me feel too miserable these days and moving around helps #but god what i would give for a new job im so miserable

[boxwinebaddie]

would your stans be the type to solve disagreements with a just dance battle since theyre pacifists

yes...i support this.

***my stans both claim they wont stop putting up peace signs in pictures until theres world peace lmaooo

i am not sure, however...that they would win many.

cue me combining the complicated answer to your simple question with some ncu dance headcannons, but i do hope they thrill you!

but alright, so i said that because...

...i am not convinced whatsoever that pep!stan has rhythm.

which musically, of course, he is very gifted. he can sing and play guitar really well, could probably pick up other instruments if he tried.

one of my favorite headstannons actually ( and i think its present across both stans ) is that he has perfect pitch...and when kyle and him are arguing and kyle is lecturing him stan gets suuuuper annoying and starts being like "a, b, e flat, wow f sharp" KYLE GETS SOOOOO MAD ITS SO DKHSDLHDS hes so annoying help

however, being musically gifted does not mean...you can dance.

and in the baggy ass, gigantic ass skater boy jeans, the gigantic slouchy metal hoodies, the big beanie, his greasy ass blonde bangs all up in his ( cute little ) face and his vans untied...its a no from me.

like dead sober he's just hella stiff, has no interest in dancing, every single prom or dance he's been to with wendy was actually hell omg

BUUUUUUUT....drunk stan ;)

he will get SOOO WEIRD!!! hes down like oh my god, like dead sober stan is like ready to die if there is dancing, drunk stan is pulling you on the dance floor, sloppy as hell, spinnin you around, kissin ur hand!

like is it good dancing? no absolutely not? is it lit? absolutely.

okay like specifically, him and kenny? TOGETHER? it goes so hard like stan learned dance moves for one reason and one reason only and was to turn up to parties and absolutely fuck! it! up!

WAIT OK THE FOOTBALL ONE WHEN STAN SHOWS UP TO THE FUNCTION LATE AS HELL STILL IN HIS FOOTBALL JERSEY??? I JUST KNOW KYLE IS SWEATING WHEN HE SMIRKS AT HIM

also i just remembered that i canonically after winning shot roulette, had extremely drunk stan get up on the kitchen counter and drop it low to im sexy and i know it and collect dollar bills like a stripper and..

u know what!!!! it was definitely a low budget strip tease at best, very messy, the man has litrally no ass, but he is FINE so u know what, he looked good, he put on a s-h-o-w and no one was complaining!!!! especially not kyle when stans shirt flew off and hit him in the face.

whEW!

....a lot of dreams abt that one, huh kyle?

( i do think that all night kyle is trying to be Responsible and is like

[ throwback pep chapter 2 to kyles stmwtp contact photo ]

i should take stan home he should not be drunk and doing hand(stan)ds breaking the keg stand record....but then stans shirt falls down, he gets football boy ab-ed and winked at so hes like...nevermind thats so crazy...he can have five more minutes this is my favorite show <3 salhds )

hooooowever! moving right along:

conversely, i do think ravenstan...can definitely Dance.

but. BUT!!!!!!!

i will say...he had to be TAUGHT!!!!!! PAINSTAKINGLY!!!!! HOW TO DANCE!!!!!! it was a Miserable process. it was so painful, oh my god. hes so awkward, god bless him. he was SOOO BAD. he was like guys i cannot do this???? i give up!!!!!! and kenny and the cd boys were like u can do this rae!!! this is ur Dream and he was like...sigh...SIGH.

and did...eventually get...honestly? kind of good? hello? excuse me???

RAVENSTAN???? HELLLLOOOOOO

okay also i do think he had a small boost like i do think that rm!sharon definitely had rhythm af and used to spin shelley and stan around the kitchen making dinner with the mexican radio station blaring. <333

( so hes got a lil bit of That going on...lets go half mexican ravenstan )

but also...if u want to be Absolutely Miserable...pre!raven!stan who was 11 was learning how to formally dance around that time because of the sadie hawkins dance, but more specifically...because of shelley's birthday...specifically...

her quinceanara.

which she never got to have...

...because she died three days before her birthday. :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

fun!

stan still knows those moves by the way! he is haunted! Hi, PTSD!

aka Phantom There's Shelley Disorder!

but yes, raven learned how to dance because he had to learn how to dance, but that does not mean he likes doing it or that he is sober.

he also gets to coast mostly on sex appeal and being hot and looking into ur eyes, so like if he fucks up its kinda just like damn thats crazy i didnt see anything but ur very pretty eyes raven whatever u want, hansome!!!!! its a lot of powersliding and hip stuff...whew! lis...ten.

Aaaaaaaanyways!

tldr; just dance in front of every1? i think he would eat tbh its his job

BUT PRIVATELY? uhhhh...i think he would be nervous as fuck and on top of that i think jersey kyle would look at him once and he would fall in his ass and fall into something and break his arm its that unserious

so basically neither of my stans can dance, but both of them can dance way better drunk bc they are relaxed and raven was just forced at gunpoint to learn how to Move so he can...

and 2 well tbh. ;)

sahdkshdls

ALRIGHT I ADDED MY KYLE HEADCANNONS JUST FOR FUNSIES!

ok i went back and forth on this for a while.

i was like do i give kyle no rhytmn? can he dance?

my answer is that when both my kyles are dead sober theyre like so far infused into the wall that they are literally the structural integrity of the house party, like so far from the dance floor, judging literally everyone, sneering at everyone, disapproving glares...

and naturally this makes u thirsty because its hard work, u know, being a full time fucking HATER

gotta drink the haterade which, ofc, is a hard cider/seltzer for pep!kyle and is probably cheap grocery store wine for jersey

BUT WHEN HE HAS LIKE TWO OR THREE OF THOSE

ohhhhhh my god

drunk!kyle ;)))))))))))))))

DRUNK KYLE IS SO FUN!!!! HES FOR THE STREETS!!!!!!!

they gave him way too much ass and for no goddamn reason like hello???? HELLO???? like i think he does his little white mom dance moves his little taylor swift awkward bird boy sways HES VIBING!!! tbh i think hes kind of good??? like??? okay kyle???? lets go bitch!!!

ALSO IF MEGAN THEE MOTHERFUCKING STALLION COMES ON HE IS RAPPING AND THROWING SERIOUS ASSSSSSSSSSSSSS

like do not think i forgot that marjorine taught kyle how to twerk and that jerseys entire running playlist is just like Fuck Being Good Im A Bad Bitch!!!! like just iconic loud female rap for like 30 minutes skhdksskdhks IT GETS DIRTY FREAKY NAAAASTY IN THERE!!!

like stan and kyle in any ncuniverse dancing at the function is INSAAAAAAAAANE like it is an event!!! stan is like okayokayokaaay!

go white boy gooooooooo!!!!

hes really just in shock and awe, every time kyle gets loose enough to hit the dance floor its the best night of his lifeeeee i mean that omg

Heart Eyes Emoji! he is SIMPING!

( honestly i think if u specifically put raven and jersey on the dance floor turnt the fuck up it would go viral like sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh ohmygod...is it hot in here??? ravesey stan twitter Blowing Up! )

tbh my fav style at parties hc specifically like pepstyle when they start dating is that whereas stan would usually be like the last person to leave a party, when him and kyle start dating, they truly just get schwifty, makeout against the fridge and irish goodbye everyone like out of the blue, kyle is like i want to go home ;) and stan is like yEAH BYE EVERYONE SEE YOU LMAOOO KSHDLSD literally sprints out the door holding kyles hand!!! unserious!!! boys!!! down horrendous!

also to be fair jersey kyle is just such a tangle of long limbs but he took really strict and rigorous ballet courses so professionally and in refined settings he dances very beautifully...but at parties...when hes Blasted...its a mess, its so unhinged but hes REEEEALLY CUUUTE

one day i will put drunk!jersey and raven in a room and when that day comes u will all simply not be ready but im warning u anyways. <3

i did not answer your question very well, but i hope this was fun.

-uncle nina, who is...not even sure what i was trying to say?

p.s. wait i know he doesnt count technically but toolshed stan can do crazy acrobatics and shit so he can dance for Surely and would actually probably DESTROY! just dance but probably pretends to be really bad for his secret identity...human kite!kyle i want to say is an awkward alien king like learning english and strange earth customs was hard enough dancing is so weird he is not good at it...Inchresting

me in denial abt the grimy fucked up weirdly political dystopian in terms of mutants and public judgements and propaganda tfbw stan-kyle-kite-shed love square au rip oh my god dont let me do it guys

#help #i hope that made sense but im not totally sure #pep stan cannot dance he just stops giving a fuck when he drinks and gets sloppy but charismatic #raven can dance but he Had to learn & it was painful but now he can sexc lead singer boy dance rly well BUT ITS HIS JOB even if he hates it #both my kyles are stiff and awkward when not drunk and will not dance and will heckle you probably #kyles on like 2 or more drinks? they are taylor swift lanky white boy white mom dancing #throwing crazy obscene amounts of ass #its a show its quite a time to be alive i cant say if its graceful but its definetly filthy dirty nasty i luv u kyle #also fucked up! jersey kyle specifically gets really cute and red and giggly and really forward and touchy so...whew! #when that day comes...wow...what a day...praying 4 u ravenstan...good luck solider #i love pepstyle showing up to the function poaching the drinks and leaving to hook up #they are my heroes oh my god they are messy and i love them #to b fair i do think dating!ravesey would do the same shit smh #like if they are at an influencer event and jerseykyle is like im leaving or gives him The Look...its so over omg #someone asked me abt my style hcs im so excited #edit: also no1 let me do the weird intense scifi tfbw au im not supposed to omg #but like if i split them into heroes and villians due to public perception of physical mutations? #and beauty standards and xenophobia against specifically aliens in that universe and more exhausted college students #if u see that in the tags one day...its not me...shhhhh

[annnise]

I dont wanna go to work todayyyyyyyyyy i havent gotten decent sleep in a few days and ive been working a weekend of hell (doubles) again and my boss at the greater-of-the-two-evils jobs is about to fire me and im the only one scheduled as server today and i wanna fucking aufhdhhdhwhfhshdhwhhwhdhshwhsududhhsh

#mmy post #everything hurts so much!! my head kills!!!! #someone should give me all the rest of the money i need to move out so that i can just skip town and not stress about it #but also No this is important job experience and im learning skills i need in the industry and im also hopefully gonna learn how to #stand up for myself one day and #augh im just so tired #AND MY PAY IS SHIT!! (: #anyway i will catch you guys (speaking to an empty room) later. if not earlier. if i dont quit on the spot #i hope he fires me actually #maybe not fires me but like. just leaves me off the schedule until i put in my two weeks #that would be so slay and cool #also im seriously contemplating taking in a water bottle with a bit of white rum #i dont know if it would help but. maybw #maybe just maybe #okay BYE

[toastsnaffler]

heard it was butch appreciation day 2day so im posting arm pics on here + no one can stop me >:-)

#no face bc im shy sorry... #i havent been working out for like a month + a half bc of moving/family stuff so only just getting back into it now #thankfully i still have some arm left.... im hyped tho im gonna start a new cg series + hit the boulder gym a ton more #had to order more protein powder bc im almost out and damn that shit expensive. my main motivation to get a job fr.. #and ive finally quit vegetarianism so hopefully thatll help me put on more weight too.. can't wait to be built like a tank. someday #anyway im still figuring out how my gender relates to my dykery but butch is one of the things i feel closest to rn #v grateful for the community + how seen it makes me feel. butch mutuals ily i hope youre having a kickass day <3 #.diaries

[theforesteldritch]

turns out nothings wrong with my heart probably other than being a bit fast, still no closer to understanding why intense cardio makes me almost vomit and pass out (no it’s not a conditioning thing, it started when I was playing hockey 2x a week and soccer also 2x a week). My moms solution is of course just exercise more with more of said intense cardio but that’s just so helpful when I go too hard a lot of the time I have to literally sit down so I don’t fall over and control my breathing so I don’t puke

Like not to self diagnose here but I think Something is Wrong and especially since it started at the most active point in my life I don’t think it’s that I’m not active enough. And also not to self diagnose but I have just the slightest suspicion that needing to stop and recover for 15-30 minutes so I don’t pass out and or puke when going to hard may be interfering with said exercise.

#moth rambles #If it’s not my heart okay cool but somethings going on it’s not normal to go from sports 4 days a week to having issues that mean #You often need to sit and take a minute to not pass out or puke during those sports #And it’s not like I’m not still relatively active now #I just don’t swim much anymore since a) quit my job and lost staff membership to the pool #And b) longer swims made me think I was going to pass out and or puke in the shower after #I’ve been trying to just push through for four fucking years could people at least try to help me #Figure out what the fuck is wrong because I know something is wrong

[gideonisms]

I think the first time you burn out & take a little break from living in a society After you know what's wrong with you should be like a celebration. When you feel it coming on and then plan for it and burn out right on schedule it's a coming of age thing. welcome to living in this world if you've just crashed & burned and now you know why! you should have your beverage of choice and sit in the bath about it

#takes bong hit. when you feel like situations were overwhelming sometimes it's because they were #i was reading through this old journal i kept where i wrote down things that made me happy bc research showed that helps with mental health #and one of the entries was like so i scrubbed the mold off my wall it keeps coming back but at least it looks nice now! #girl. #facepalm #call into work to send the email about that you can't just let that happen. both jobs. call in #living in the worst conditions with 2 jobs and full time class still barely making rent like why am i sad & overwhelmed? #girl i. #it wasn't even that bad this last time i was living with family in a place with no mold working and only taking like 1 or 2 classes #it wasn't quite as concerning tho i'm sure at some point we will unpack the way customers acted during the early days of covid bc wow.

[chvoswxtch]

how tf do you write so fast

tell me your secrets

i'm averaging like one word a day at this point

baby love,

I am very lucky in that I work from home and have a LOT of down time. I also don't sleep at night so i'm usually up writing bc I constantly have a million ideas flying around in my head.

i'm also just insane and have a weird brain that does the most

I literally wake up in the middle of the night and have to save an idea in my notes or i'll lose it in the morning

#I will tell you everything #you can borrow my brain if you want #it's quite messy and a lil broken but it gets the job done #one word a day is progress !!! #be proud of that one word !!! #also come to me anytime you feel stuck pls I will help in any way I can <3 #court answers #court rambles

[beyblaiddyd]

Every day I type a suicidal post and then backspace and make this post instead (worse)

#cocoa talks too much #suicide m / #every single day i cannot go a day without having a conversation #that makes me want to cave my own skull in #and ive had 2 of them today #my brother coming home from work to complain that hes going to quit #the job he just got after being unemployed for 2 weeks #and already being mad at the assumption that my mother will refuse to help him pay for anything #when she is piss poor and ive been paying all the household bills #and groceries and her part of the rent #for the last two months

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#theres a special kind of agony in tryinf to find an apartment in an college town with a housing shortage #everythings expensive as fuck and im sure its frustrating for everyone but i feel like its especially frustrating for me #bc it takes me so much fucking time to understand the information right in front of me and then i doubt myself so i have to check and check #and double check and triple check that im on the right website. that im inputting the right info #and its like. what if theres a better place i could b looking? like i found a management place to apply to thats expensive but less #expensive than another place but the building looks like its kinda on the edge of town like 15min drive from school #which i hate bc im an anxious freak and its gonna b worse than driving here bc itll get icey as fuck there #like proper inches of snow all winter. negative negative cold. so its like. do i take a nice apartment thats kinda far away #or a slightly more expensive apartment thats like 10min from school and more in town #and then theres the application stuff. and i cant fill anything out without having a full on like sobbing breakdown #but im that way abt everything. i do that all the time when i have to buy plane tickets #its exhausting. and i cant plan my exit until i know when i can move into a place. whatever. it doesnt help that my hormones r fucked rn #or i hope its the hormones. ive been so tired. so so tired. like sleeping 9hrs and still tired when usually im wired after only 7hrs sleep #i hate it. and super brain foggy. and this week i have to finish taking measurements for the last time #so i gotta decide if im gonna go in tomorrow or Monday to start it. its gonna suck so bad bc im gonna try to do it in 6 days. which will b #agony. but after that ill never have to do it ever again. ugh. im just so tired and i dont wanna limp my way into a new project feeling #like damaged goods. which is exactly what it feels like now. ive just done a very good job of making my job difficult #cant go into the lab without feeling physically ill. drained away all my joy. now theres only a sad distant recognition of how far ive #allowed myself to fall. i kno ill feel better once i have a place to stay and i can quit my job just getting there is taking an eternity #unrelated

[dreamlogic]

god i am having such a conundrum right now i'm quitting my shitty job and trying to decide how best to do it. do i

1) last day this friday. i have an interview thurs and am pretty confident in a 2nd interview next week, so quitting now would free up time to prep for interview and hopefully recoup some sanity before starting a new job. con is that i have one fewer paycheck before may rent is due so i'll have to start using my savings sooner if i end up being unemployed for more than a month

2) last day on the 21st. i have to fuck around with trying to get time off for interviews and probably get written up for attendance, shitty job remains a massive psychic and physical drain that prevents me from job hunting and i would risk having to jump straight into new job without a breather. overall worse for charlie, but i would have a fat paycheck to pay may rent with which would buy me a few more weeks of financial security if it takes longer than anticipated to find a new job.

3) some secret third thing.

#ctxt #every day i get emails #i thought about quitting next friday so i'd get a half paycheck end of the month but that seems like the worst of both worlds #cause i still have to fuck around with the headache of scheduling interviews and getting written up for like. $450 bucks more. #which i could make stretch for a while if i was careful but my god at what cost #i have a lil over 2k in savings plus overdraft so i can survive unemployed for like 2 months as is if necessary #and i'm pretty confident in my ability to get another hopefully better job in that time #i also have a pretty solid social safety net i could get various types of support from if necessary #E volunteered to help with groceries. dad might be able to float me some money for bills and is gonna cover my car insurance for a few mo #housemate is a gig worker who usually gets more client requests than she has time for and offered to share some of her clients with me #just for odd jobs to make quick cash if i'm desperate #so i will be fine either way it's just scawwy #money talk cw

[florida3exclamationpoints]

I don't like thinking about work unless I'm at work but I have to talk through smth ignore me or whatever

#i want to quit soon but i dont know when the best time is #im working the next 2 mon/tues and then im off until the 14th #and the schedule for august isn't out yet so the last day im scheduled for now is the 25th #usually the schedule comes last minute #im considering..... telling my boss that my last day will be the 25th tomorrow #but if im going to do it i have to do it tomorrow #mayyyyybe Tuesday ig but i would wanna do it next week #but i cant see who im working with before i go in anymore. which is so terrible for so many reasons #i need to prepare before i go in and part of that is knowing who im gonna see but whatever #not only that but i wont know if my boss will be there for me to be able to quit until im there tomorrow #im also super anxious about quitting anyway i don't wanna have that conversation #and then i have to start looking for a new job #and im trying to move in the spring i need money #i did think... i could possibly bring the letter of resignation tomorrow.. hope he wont be there & leave it on his desk #and text him that it's there. but then theres not much of a conversation to be had #idek exactly how youre 'supposed to quit' but to me those rules are for employers you respect 💀 #i dont respect these people ✌️ #the only thing i feel bad about is that there'll only be one baker left in the company (6 almost 7 stores) #but its also not my fault that they haven't hired anyone and cant keep employees #i would've LOVED some help over the last few months as ive been the only baker in this district of 3 stores!!! they never hired anyone!!!! #i just have really not appreciated the way they've been treating me recently with all of the anxiety stuff #i also dont appreciated how my rights of privacy were violated 😀 #and its literally coming to the point where im going to have to have uncomfortable conversations that i dont want to have #and/or literally take or at least threaten some legal action #or just quit!! and its not like im gonna be here much longer anyway even if i dont leave right now #i almost feel like... do i have a responsibility to hold them accountable for what they've done so it hopefully doesn't happen again #but idk i mean i didn't make them do this #tbh the more i think about it the more i want to quit tomorrow. im just nervous. and scared of not having a paycheck #idk its just scary!!! life is scary!!!!!

[fuckmeyer]

(Jacobsbadwig) with all due respect, when the fuck did you get back! I missed you!

never left, only reincarnated :)

#i missed you too!!!!!! how's the fanfic going???? well i hope :) #it has been a Time #my burnout & mental illness got the better of me. i intended on divorcing myself from fandom & deleting my blog #i wanted to make myself as small as possible so i could spend whatever energy i had on work and drugs #i was afraid my presence was negatively affecting the fandom at best & contributing nothing at worst #it didn't feel like there was any place for me anymore - not because of anything anyone said or did but bc #many posts i made i no longer agreed w/ & bc i was too burnt out to write new theories i figured no one would notice or care i was gone #so i got super drunk and deleted everything #people contacted me about my blog but i was too anxious to reply #bc i didn't want to admit i had made a mistake #i kept the handle in case i ever wanted to post #but for a long time i had nothing to say about twilight outside of what my fanfiction had to say about it #i lurked for a while & at the end of the day i missed the community that came with participating in fandom #really tho - what helped was quitting my crushing job and taking several months to travel around the pacific northwest #(burnout is REAL!!!!!!) #and the admin of the twilight Discord server recognizing my handle & taking the time to talk to me - which was very sweet of them #plus - i am rereading Eclipse for the fanfic rewrite and began to have Thoughts #tbh i've been finding it amazing that anyone ever noticed i left or remembered my handle! im kinda blown away #anyway here's all the information you never asked for LMAO #i am happy to be back in the circle :) #cheers to you #<3

[kingtankgirl]

i know i say rhis constantly but wow i am so at my breaking point

#my grandma is about 2 die so my moms mental health is gonna tank so hard. which is already is #and i cant help her cuz i dont live there anymore but god this holiday season is going to fucking suck #my chronic pain is getting worse. ive been barely eating for the last month cuz i just have no interest in food basically at all #broke down sobbing yesterday because it hurt so bad just trying to put my laundry away cuz my job is tearing my body apart #idk. i thought i wld be able to quit in a month or two but now i cant. #i dont have a light at the end of the tunnel at this point. nothing makes me happy im always hungry and in pain and fucking sad <3 #so i guess ill just sit here and cry and then go work for 8 hrs and think abt kms the whole time like i do most days