#hope its worthy :')

[yourlocaldragondealer]

idk where this comes from and im definitely not the first person to point it out but one thing i love about good omens is that its just so. Loving. Towards humanity?

like, aziraphale and crowley have been around for six thousand years. Theyve witnessed so much about humanity and a lot of it was bad, but a lot of it was good, too. They still want it to keep living, despite having an endless life, they still enjoy the changes and everything humans have to offer and all the inventions they make. Having human inventions, human music, human cars, windscreen wipers, books, all that around is better than even heaven. Theres bad stuff too, and its said outright that humans are better at fucking things up than even demons, but at the end if the day, the protagonists are literally defying heaven and hell for humanity, despite AND because. It takes this default mode that a lot of shows or books have started with, of "everythings dark and bad and fucked and technically everybody is somehow the bad guy" and instead acknowledges the greyscales of "people being fundamentally people" and decides that thats something worth fighting for.

its a very obvious message but i still wanted to gush about it because i think its beautiful

#i feel like this doesnt bring my point across entirely correctly but i cant figure out how to explain it a better way #it gives me hope that they love humanity i guess #with so much doomsday stuff its like having a parent pet your head and going #“yes you made mistakes but youre still worthy of love” #and i love it so much for that #good omens #good omens 2 #aziraphale #anthony j crowley #ineffable husbands #good omens universe #good omens fandom #neil gaiman

[satans-knitwear]

Spent valentines day at the local in my lingerie with baby belle and her valentine (my bestie. I was their third wheel)

#Its been MONTHS since ive had a pub lunch!!! A wonderful way to celebrate my OF launch #And its truly a miracle that the bestie joined me in leaving the house. We are so powerful. Im really proud of us for doing something #Baby belle got so much food and attention as well. She has had a fabulous day!! She is already snoozing on my lap rn #Satans knitwear #Alt pinup #I hope you had a day full of love. Wherever it came from. Love from within is worthy as well #Smooching you all on request #Ootd

[rare-prism-s]

happy lb6 release ^__^ good luck to everybody rolling 

#rareprism art #fgo #fate grand order #baobhan sith #sketchbook painting that i cleaned up digitally u_u like how she turned out #ah....only np1 baobhan... #its oki tho #worthy exchange for np2 morgan u_u #just hope i can get more copies of her later <3 #also grailed her to 90 immediately lol #and morgan to 100 #u_u #will start reading later

[uncanny-tranny]

I think abandoning diet culture and favouring the function of my body versus the ~aesthetic~ of my body has really opened my eyes and given me a new chance to be one with myself.

It is hard to get through this, but I honestly think it's worth the investment it takes to unlearn the idea that your body must serve others and must be out of the way, and must only take up so much space to be valued and for you to be loved.

#anti diet culture #celebrating what my body can do in the here and now has only taught me good things about myself #it's taught me how strong my body is and how i can push it further on my own time #like it can be really hard because the double whammy of dysphoria and body shaming of men but. fuck it i ball. i will continue to ball #haters mad i can ball and cry at the same time (joking) #also like... it will be a personal journey for everybody and there isn't the ~final stage~ where you'll pnly be happy with yourself... #...i don't think that's reasonable or fair to expect that from yourself... #...the important part of unlearning diet culture is that no matter what your body can/can't do and no matter how it appears... #...no matter all of that you're still worthy of love and respect and nourishment and happiness #you don't have to adore your body to recognize its worth *and* your worth #you could hate your body and still recognize that you deserve all those things #and lord knows sometimes we do hate our bodies and that is morally neutral at *worst* #i just hope that you all are able to internalize your inherent worth <3 #and i wanted to post about this because i think this conversation is important and unlearning these expectations is also important

[soldier-poet-king]

Le Guin was right when in tlhod she wrote 'praise then creation unfinished!' it's about the state of becoming, the terror of it, the joy of it. What a burden. What a privilege.

#anyway was talking w rae last week about tlhod and it seemed relevant to this morning's thoughts #as i say...its all connected #of course it is #if i had any degree of focus. or any talent with words. i would write #but i have no clear direction. i just. write my silly little rambles. mostly for myself. #but i hope people can grasp something from it too. idk what. but something worthy. #worthy of my words? of my existence? to justify my own life? idk. but worthy. it must be worthy

[good-beanswrites]

Hello!! If you're still taking requests for that drabble game, might I request either Strength with Kotoko + Mikoto or Weak with Amane + Futa? It's fine if you aren't doing it anymore, of course

I've been in this fanbase since trial one and out of all the things I've read, your writing is probably amongst my favorite! (Even if I haven't finished going through it all yet...) I hope you have a splendid day! <3

!!!!! You are so kind waaahh this completely made my day, thank you ;---; I'm so glad you're enjoying omg ✨And thanks for these, they were really cool and fitting combos!! I tried to do a dual-perspective of Kotoko and Mikoto's pre-T2 fight, and I posted the one for Weak below.

Strength can manifest in a variety of ways, not just physically. Kotoko had a strong determination, for example. Mikoto had a powerful way with people. She showed solid self control and willpower. He held to strict deadlines and routines. She maintained a sharp intelligence. He upheld an unshakeable resolve.

Also, they were both ridiculously physically strong.

The pair came to this realization around the same time. They’d gotten a taste of the others’ power when clashing in the interrogation room, but it had begun suddenly and ended just as quickly. This time was different. They stood in the center of the panopticon, with the echoing space to themselves. As Kotoko swung a punch toward Mikoto, and he caught her against his forearms, they had a moment to gauge the other’s muscle. 

Kotoko stared into his eyes, which had a different sort of awareness to them now. He’s more coordinated, she thought, he must not be the same one I faced before. He’s leaning on the strength in his arms -- he’s not using his legs to their fullest potential. It doesn’t matter, given the raw force of his blows. Has he trained for fights, or just built his muscles in general? 

Mikoto stared into her eyes, returning her fiery gaze. Fuck, this lady’s strong.

She wound up again. He retaliated quickly. She shoved his back into the guard’s tower. He sidestepped her next attack. 

He didn’t really care why his fellow prisoner had come charging at him swinging, but she made sure he knew.

“The warden may not be able to administer punishments,” she said in between timed breaths, “so they entrusted me with that responsibility. This is justice, for the lives you’ve taken. You won’t be able to hurt anyone else.”

He broke into harsh laughter. “You’re one crazy motherfucker! You’re the only person hurting anyone.” He tried to grab her, but she slipped from his arms. His eyes narrowed, laughter dying away with unsettling speed. “But there’s no way in hell I’m letting you hurt me.”

Kotoko was struck by the way he said it. Her voice had shaken with the very same determination when putting herself between an innocent citizen and some creep. It was how she felt now, trying to keep his violent hands away from the other prisoners. There were children here, weak and scared. Es themself was just a child, and had already suffered his violence. She refused to let this villain cause any more pain. “I’m doing what needs to be done. You’re nothing but a murderous monster.” She swung her fist.

Mikoto caught her by the wrist, forcing her to look at the blood caked in her hand. He didn’t know whose it was, but it wasn't either of theirs. “You’re the fucking monster!” He shoved her backwards. “And I’m gonna kill you for it…!”

He didn’t know how she could think she was the hero in this whole situation. He was the one protecting someone else. 

Neither held back. Mikoto wheezed as her boots connected. Kotoko cringed as Mikoto landed a solid hit on her face. There was some shouting from the hallway. Their resolves hardened. Mikoto wasn’t going to let anyone else threaten him. Kotoko wasn’t going to let him threaten anyone else. They were strong, they reminded themselves. They had to end this now.

The two charged at one another. A moment before they were set to collide, they both cried out in pain. Blinding white light flooded the dark panopticon. They clutched their eyes, stumbling away from one another. A figure shoved through, planting himself between them.

“Stop this, both of you!” It was Kazui.

“Get outta my way,” Mikoto growled.

“This is not your concern,” Kotoko said, blinking in the light. 

The spotlight in the guard’s tower had been switched on, pointed directly at them. Kazui remained in place. “That’s enough. Look at yourselves, for god’s sake!”

Under the harsh light, they now saw the sort of state they were in. Mikoto’s uniform had torn in new places, blood seeping through. He could taste some in his mouth, too. Kotoko’s face was cut. Her leg ached. They stood covered in bruises, panting. 

“Go back to your cells,” Kazui commanded. “We’ll sort this out in the morning.”

Kotoko squared her shoulders. “There’s nothing to sort out. He’s a murderer. I won’t lose to him.”

“This bitch tried to kill me. I’m not letting her get away with it.”

“I don’t care.” Kazui said simply. “Call it a draw. You’ll both tear yourselves apart if you keep going.”

They continued staring at one another as if their gaze alone could take them to the ground, but neither moved to fight. 

Mikoto felt a pang of guilt. Lost in adrenaline, he didn’t realize how banged up he was. He thought of how much pain he’d experience in the upcoming days. The whole point was to save himself from harm. 

Kotoko cursed Kazui for interrupting her. As one of the forgiven, he was supposed to be on her side. Even if he wasn’t honorable enough to see her as an ally, she’d have to be the bigger person. She wouldn’t threaten him. 

Neither was happy about conceding, but couldn't think of a better option given their end goals.

Kazui remained between them as they stalked off to their respective cells.

“A temporary draw,” Kotoko muttered to Mikoto. She flashed a grin that felt more like an animal baring its teeth.

He returned the smile. “You won't be so lucky next time.”

#milgram #kotoko yuzuhira #mikoto kayano #kazui is there too #uhhh sorry if you meant bonding between them -- this just ended up flowing really well 😭 #honestly though in my mind they both are secretly impressed with the others strength #like they werent expecting them to be so powerful but their glad at least their opponent is a worthy one #i suppose its leaning into the trikoto theory but kotoko specifically comments on mikoto being a bad fighter in his interrogation #so itd make sense if it were a third alter that could actually give her a challenge #im not much of an action writer but i always wondered how their fight ended in a draw #neither are the type to just back down and call it a tie #and logically kotoko would have knocked mikoto out so hed switch back -- but i would count that as her win ya know? #so i had to think about how each of their own goals might stop them #it was yuno in the guards tower btw -- though idk why it was just left unlocked asdfdsfd #AHH thank you so much :'))) that made me so happy waaahh #ive been having a blast with these and its so fun to know others are liking them too! #i hope you enjoyed :D #and hmm maybe once ive done mug's requests in a day or two ill try my hand at a gentler one between them... #drabbles

[todayisafridaynight]

do u think mines feelings are reciprocated? idk from how they handled mine and daigos relationship in y3 it felt as if they were hinting that they had some under the radar relationship going on or smtging

im not sure really. i do think daigo loved mine though, at the very least cherished him immensely.

#snap chats #hang on im rambling about rggo for the ninety millionth time #cause i was gonna initially say 'i dont think his feelings were as intense as mine's but he did love him' #but then i remember daigo shilled out a billion and got shot Day Five into knowing the dude #that could just be daigo's character and he's just. Ride Or Die like that for ANYONE close to him #he was happy to give shinada all the money he lost even though the two were mostly just schoolmates #which is. The Funniest thing to me still but anyway #but isn't mine like that too? the circumstances are different of course though .. #theres the angle that its as exactly daigo says: the tojo are his family and he wants to protect them #but then that bar fuckery ...... everything homosexual happens at that bar i stg #im crying now cause first theres the obvious You Single line #but then the bartender fuckin snitchin on daigo to mine bein all #'oh yeah no daigo talks about you a lot and says youre one of the most reliable guys in the tojo #and he's afraid you're not being yourself around him and he hopes your relationship with money is ok' LKE YOU SNITCH #i still think of daigo calling mine 'stupid' at the end of that story though. lke girl .... girl i know why yu sayin that ... #my sons pissed mine threw himself away thinkin he wasnt worthy to daigo when it was the exact opposite .. #im gonnna thrw up now bye

[fox-guardian]

almost a year ago now, i got one of your prints at supercon and i cherish that thing so much. I didn’t expect to find any TMA prints at the con and seeing that made my day. I remember looking at the artstyle and thinking ‘huh, looks familiar?’ and then i realized it was you and i was so pissed I never got to tell you how cool your art was and how much I admired it in person! so here it is now. a year late but yknow :’)

I appreciate the compliment I truly do, and I'm glad that you like my art but I am far more caught up on the fact that I have never sold prints at a con or told anyone they could do that. like thank you again, im not upset with you and you don't need to get rid of it or anything but what do you mean someone was selling my art what the fuck

#fg's answers #asks #on the one hand im like Oh Nice Thank You Glad You Like My Art and on the other hand im like I Hope This Ask Was Meant For Someone Else #yknow who actually Wanted Their Prints Sold At This Con #if this is real and not sent to the wrong person or like. a prank then dear asker once again you can still keep it its fine #but why the fuck was someone selling my art what the hell #cursing #what even was the print i dont draw much stuff I'd even feel print-worthy #who is selling my shit

[gingerbreadmonsters]

6k in and my head is about to explode. STILL not allowed to say what i want :(

#this fic is going to get negative notes i can already tell lmao #the scope of appeal is so stupidly narrow #but That Does Not Matter #i have to believe that #its for ME #its what i want to see and its what makes me happy #i will never put this in a real post because i would be immediately dragged into the square and burned for hypocrisy #but i think its worth saying #this is rasmr specific i dont know about any other fandoms so dont take this as a universal rule #if you go into your favourite tag variant (e.g. 'redacted [x character name]' or 'redacted [genre]') #and sort by 'top' rather than 'latest' #i would like you to scroll down until you find fic #by which i specifically mean PROSE - not bulletpoints or hcs or matchups or those sorts of things #(this is not to say that those things aren't good or worthy of respect - they ARE - but that's not what i'm talking about here) #i would like you to just think about how long it takes you to find a fic in there #because surprise! it's almost certainly longer than you would hope or indeed expect #now........ i wonder why that is? #i don't mean to sound egotistical or selfish or self-aggrandising through all this #but.... you know. fic writers - during their one life on this earth - put in an AWFUL lot of their real time and energy and love into this #into writing things for other people who they will never know or meet to enjoy for FREE on the internet #i don't think you can be surprised that it's a bit disheartening to do all that and then be met with basically silence #it's like cooking for people yk? #some fics are more complex/longer/time-intensive than others - in the way that making a five-course meal is more work than making a sandwic #but if someone made that food for you - whether it was a cookie or an entire christmas dinner - you'd still say thank you...... right? #you wouldn't just take it from them and leave the room - then eat it in total silence where they can't see - and then not say anything...? #if you liked it - or even if you didn't! - wouldn't you still say thank you? wouldn't you tell them that it was nice and you enjoyed it? #that you liked the ingredients they chose or the way they cooked it or the toppings they chose to put on it? #for the sake of everyone whose ever cooked you a meal i hope you would #because i'll tell you something for free - you will be scrolling on that tag for an uncomfortably long time. why is that? #because reblogs/comments/kudos/likes are to fic writers what 'thank you' is to a cook

[theloveinc]

i really can't apologize enough for the slowness of my writing and just generally, the lack of. But in all honestly, the improvement i've noticed in it's quality, both privately and in what i've shared, has really stunned me into an amazement i have yet to come to terms with and master.

it feels like i'm wielding a weapon that's way too heavy for me, but ... slowly by surely i am trying to build up the muscle to use it

#idk if its noticeable and i dont want to get seem or be c*cky about it #but the way i can expand my stories now in ways i never could before.... #im scared........... (in a good way). daunted and cautious but .. not deterred #its a little complex to. verbalize #and im in a weird low confidence period . hence my lack of presence here . i don't feel worthy enough to explain myself #but i hope you all know how much i love u and keep you on my mind and am trying to get better for u #to create a space that I can lead independent of my surroundings and any tough outside factors #idk #might be preemptive and weird and unnecessary to say. and i don't know whos listening #but i just thought i should say this alongside the wip content #that im in a weird transition. am having growing pains. #but i'm trying to see it through #caitie blabs

[marchleader]

Have some plant-based treats, Amane kitty!

….

(…thank you)

(4 asks left)

#(dear wise one) #(am i worthy?) #(even i have hope) #ooc: not to be sad but I actually looked up plant based cat diets ages ago for amane #i cant remember it exactly since it was a few months ago but im Pretty Sure its still not good for their nutrition even #but the jist is you Really cannot put a cat on a plant base diet since their obligate carneviors and biologically will not get enough #nutrition from it #so yeah

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#so the hospital group that diagnosed my stroke as an anxiety attack&let me sit in their er for roughly five hours is in the news #bc body cam footage came out showing them having called the police on a patient who was 'refusing to leave' #despite the fact that he 'had no medical reason for being there'. #he had ODd&they had given in narcan. he was also homeless. so all the actual rules about watching a patient post resus #went out the window in favor of calling police&being incredibly cruel about it. #the man died at the police station. where they took him bc they looked him up&he had bench warrants. #they couldn't process him bc he was totally unresponsive. they tried tho. best believe they tried. #&when they had to explain why they were didnt try to get him medical help they released the body cam footage. #prob the only time they didnt throw tantrums over it too seeing as it successfully shifted the blame. #the hospital has had to apologize publically for the 'failure' on their part. #i cant even put my feelings into words. #ive said it once ill say it every fucking time learning medicine was not&is not hard. its not worthy of special note. #its something you do bc you care. &if thats not the case i hope you die of the medical neglect you would force onto those #who come to you for fucking help. #pathetic. absolutely fucking pathetic. #i might not ever be able to work in traditional medicine but w stories like these why the fuck would i ever want to? #why would i ever want to be associated w willful fucking murderers? bc thats what medical neglect from a medical pro at their work is. #fucking murder.

[bastardcherub]

man. I genuinely wish all of You nothing but happiness. doesn’t even have to be joy, just peace and contentment

just. so much kindness. You all deserve so much better.

#(lots of personal stuff in the tags) #its been I think nearly 8 years now since I was in a psychiatry for the first time #and like. I don’t remember much from that time #but I do remember how hopeless everything felt #it felt like such a fucking waste of time. like my doom was inevitable #and here I am now #my life is nothing like I thought it would be #it sure as fuck isn’t perfect. I struggle daily #but I can genuinely say I am at a point in life where I have found peace with how things are #and can find joy in small things every day #and that’s closer to paradise than I ever thought I could get #and I know it’ll only get better from here #to add to this: it was NOT a straight line of recovery #I was in a clinic again over new years #but I am here. I have hope. I am genuinely #like #good? #not in the GOOD!!! way but. again. in a sorta. hey this is how it is and I am still worthy and will still find happiness #sorta way #I’m happier than I’ve ever been. GENUINE happiness. #and joy. genuine joy. #and yes my thoughts still try to disagree #but I don’t listen to them anymore. I tell them it’s okay to be scared of the unknown but that we can do it together #anyways this is. way more personal than I ever expected something on this blog to be #just. know there is hope. please. #angel rambles

[girl-bateman]

I say this with no malice btw but reading old ask from this blog always makes me wonder if all those people who called me autistic were right

#ok there arent THAT many ppl who have called me autistic. excluding my parents its not even 5 #but reading the things i myself have said makes me think like... yeah ok credit where credit is due #you got me there #im not autistic btw but i sure do sound like that in like every one of those ask games 😒 #'i need someone who means what they say': girl after being pissed off that their gf didnt want them to LITERALLY come over right this second #just bc she sent a 'i wish u were here :( i miss u' text #ok to be fair i still think it was cunty of her to not see the romantic gesture of me coming over #so actually fuck her. im not autistic and i react normally to things #relationships are hard at 17 what can i say :'( #i only hope to find someone again whom i may stupidly misread their sappy text. get on a bus for. only to ultimately turn back. embarrassed #i wish for a love worthy of my embarrassment! godbless #!