#i actually almost got that one instead

[evilkitten3]

Went back to Japan Town to pick up the book I ordered last time, and I also got vol 61 of naruto and a sakura figurine

#personal #naruto #naruto shippuden #haruno sakura #also i got two pairs of chopsticks and holders for my mom's house #the sakura box has a pic of the hinata figurine (twin lion fists) on it #i actually almost got that one instead #i was struggling between tlf!hinata sakura and sasuke #but i didn't like how the sasuke figurine's hair looked #ultimately i decided on sakura but i think if i come back again i'll get the hinata #kishimoto might not let sakura kiss girls but i can #also the book i preordered was the 4th databook #but in japanese #it's way smaller than i was expecting tbh #....naruto is gonna end up being the reason i start wearing glasses again huh

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

rediscovered this vine and couldn't resist

#this was a lesson in why thumbnailing is important! #bc instead of an actual angle change i drew the exact same angle just slightly to the left #i literally almost thumbnailed this but i went 'nah this is simple i dont need to' .... mf you needed to #i normally have no interest in making little animatic type things but these guys are just to easy and fun to draw #might make more vine based ones #anyway posting this at 1 am bc im a coward <3 #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #scribble salad #i really hope im remembering correctly that frank is a little aware? not to wally's extent but hes got some awareness? #anyway this vine is what i imagine being on the show was like for him #wally kept just staring off and talking at an invisible point #frank must've thought he was completely bonkers huh

[fluffyfangirl]

hello light of my life could i please please ask for a drawing of will giving mike a kiss while mike has like a skewed birthday crown on his head <33 thank you x

Oh hi my dear! Of course! (somehow your ideas will just spark new ones in my head. You will get exactly your prompt, but I did more than I wanted and it'll take a while, and.. Anyways! Here's a sneak peak:

#Byler #Mike Wheeler #Will Byers #Byler Fanart #Stranger Things #Birthday boy Mike Wheeler #I HOPE I got the crown right. I almost gave him a sparkly one #Like the “New Years” crown they had in the original Nintendogs #but for “Happy Birthday” instead #If not #please tell me so I can change it. Because I am far from being done and this got way bigger than I expected #And now worries - Mike will get his kiss #Soso asks #FluffyFangirlArt #As always I talk more in the tags than the actual posts

[neptunym]

ms paint doodles for @post-it-notes7 's fic series, heart and soul. i highly recommend it to anyone that either likes the kirby anime or meta knight bc it's a delight to read :]

#kirby #meta knight #galacta knight #fanart #hoshi no kaabii #krbay #iyd spoilers #IYD #ms paint #ok most of them are doodles. the strawberry and blueberry drawings started as a ''haha its meta and galacta :)'' #but at one point it turned into rendering practice #idk what happened #kirby fanart #id included #i've been wanting to show off those stupid fruits for so long. i spent an entire morning on the strawberry alone #i was literally about to post this when my blog got put in jail #one second my icon was normal. i refresh the page and boom #he's gone #anyway. go read wishful thinking and in your dreams <3333333 #edit: it's almost midnight and i just realised i wrote heavily instead of highly..... this is why we don't make drafts at 3 am #uhm anyway. fun fact. i wanted to draw the thats paint asshole meme but i was tired #so i put the images og GK and MK there as placeholders #but in the end i got too lzy to like. actually draw it lol #gala doodles #gala draws

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#me when everybody is posting the maple leafs sad narratives and i am furiously generating this like HOLD ONNNN HOLD ONNNNNNN #honestly i could've been SOOOO MEAN about this because i saw this poem & alexandra got the preview on the poetry blog #where i just reblogged the first half of this poem point blank with the tags #kyle dubas #toronto maple leafs #& got yelled at aksdaksf & it literally only didn't go on this blog bc i usually write more & then it was percolating & i looked up the poe #& it was only the FIRST PART i'd reblogged i didn't know there was more & then brain immediately went brrrrr ok time for an edit. #this is a long one lol & i also have no idea if it makes sense to anybody but me but because y'all know me i will always overexplain so!! #my reasoning for the reasons obvi kyle. that's a given i hope he's doing well i hope he & his family r good but man is not coming in to wor #the second edit took me a stupid amount of time bc i am nitpicky but also i learned how to do the layers & transparency from the claude edi #that actually y'all don't know about lmao but i lost my mind when i saw how perfectly those pictures align i was scrolling getty & was like #ok december i'm gonna do a headline one (in my brain with the november/june quote about choosing to die again) w/ maple leafs playoff odds #how they say at winter break you know who's gonna be in the playoffs & who'll win & they thought they had a shot but it's mitchie overlaid #the 2003-04 team who'd last won a playoff round with the atlantic division stats from dec for 22-23 & how long it's been & dec headlines #i wanted breakup/recent/never loved to be a recent trade acquisition somebody who bounced around & somebody else so i almost had simmer #brodie & zar but then i wanted to make murray for breakup at any time &i forgot zar & him were on the pens together &it hit me like a truc #bc there's a photo of the two of them EXACTLY the same so close it's scary of this one but them as pens so they had to be it & i did always #know never loved again was mitchie. sorry. also mitchie in the penalty box the last game but i couldn't find footage of it & this one works #no i could not find a photo of tyler bertuzzi fighting a leaf for a dog looked at me yes i tried. #i almost made the bunting photo jt but instead it's 'bunting a rat etc' anyway the one i really feel unhinged about is dead pets bc at firs #i was gonna make it the handshake line & look to see if the leafs had drafted anybody on the panthers (dead pet former draft pick) #& they had & it was carter verhaeghe & i couldn't get a good pic of matthews & verhaeghe but it's fine bc i thought about the mo/luke schen #narrative (in which they are a perfect d pair long lost) & schenn was drafted by the leafs & that line fits jut trust me. also how i feel #about the kniesy luminous line that one possessed me it had to be kniesy idk why. i almost put gussy as girls are too pretty though ALSO #did u like my joke. daylight SAVINGS time on the goalie. thank u. also my photo magic on the jt (me very poorly editing in him as an isle) #OK ALSO HOLD ONNNNN there is a part two but i have to wait for the Content i want it will come out as soon as [redacted] or sooner #if i get bad at waiting &everyone will pretend like it is always the way it will be once i have the photos i want. speaking of did the leaf #simply not take a team photo this year?? it Does Not Exist for me i have tried very hard to look for it also i'm excited for part 2 #one of them is named oh you're so unhinged for this one & the finished product is you're unhinged in ways you didn't even know u were sorry #liv in the replies

[hrokkall]

ULTRATOBER DAY 13 /// STALKER

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#ID in Alt #Ultrakill #Ultratober #Ultratober 2023 #Ultrakill stalker #Body horror #???????? Maybe? #Anyway day 13 back to being slightly late let's go #These guys are actually super cool looking. I never got a chance to look at them close because I'm usually too busy making sure they don't #explode all over everything and ruin my day #I almost drew the guy with the sandcastle in 4-2 but then forgot and just did a standard one instead #Anyway here it is #Hrokkall sketch

[restinpeacesensei]

traditional style 💖

#akoya gero #gero akoya #cute high earth defense club love #binan koukou chikyuu bouei bu love! #boueibu #my art #my akoya wanted to join in the vintage dress-up party too!! \;;w;;/ #ognvuhgh i wanted to have this done earlier bc other people were doing art so fast for the new outfits but it got dragged out #it was Mostly done a few days ago and i made final edits and was going to post it just before i rushed out to work #i put it up then i was like '??? wait there's a color blob in the wrong place i thought i fixed that???' #i was down to my last minute and didn't have time to do it so i was like auuuughhgh and took the whole thing down #on the Next day i opened the file again to see what was wrong and the color blob was NOT THERE #so im like ??? why did it suddenly appear again in the png. so i looked and i made an error in naming my files #i accidentally named one of the versions 30 instead of 03 so it sorted into the last place instead of the actual most recent version (07) #so that is the reason i ended up being 1 minute late to work. and the lesson to me is i should not try to post at the absolute last minute #(i say this but if i don't get smth done i can't stop thinking about it. it bothers me constantly to have something almost finished but not #(and then it's difficult for me to focus on other tasks so this is why i feel like i have to just get it done before i switch tasks) #anyway i wasn't totally sure what era the traditional outfits are supposed to be from. im not knowledgeable about fashion actually T.T #i googled 'when were suspenders popular' and ended up just looking at old photos and clothing patterns from the 30s-40s #photos from back then were black-and-white can you believe it.. you have to actually look at drawings and paintings to find color #everyone who left me messages elsewhere: THANK YOU SO MUCH!! \>/////</ i will reply soon!! \;;W;;/

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨ #and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah. #thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help— #so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control… #b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato) #so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date… #at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration… #…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig. #oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far… #i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience. #help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m. #anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

[instinctsxbad]

*scratching at the walls thinking about how no one has adapted Peter’s college arcs in a consistent and satisfying way.*

#coffee bean gang #spider-man #I was almost asleep but now I’m thinking about how there isn’t one piece of media out there that checks all the boxes #of adapting Peter in college + the coffee bean gang + doesn’t downsize the group or combine characters #+ does everyone in a decent way even if it’s not strictly comic accurate #raimi trilogy is one of the only ones that heads pretty quickly into the college era and also involves more than just gwen or mj #and as much as I like the films it does not handle the three of them in a way that scratches the itch for me #I mean for one it’s only Peter Harry and MJ. I like those three arguably the most but man the dynamic isn’t the same #especially bc Tobey’s Peter is much more serious and quiet/awkward with negative charisma (affectionately but still.) #MJ is mixed w Gwen’s personality which was disappointing to me bc I like MJ’s weird and super vibrant personality #and Harry loses some of the ‘kind of a sweet guy but very VERY fucked up’ and relies too heavily on Harry becoming the goblin for revenge #I sound super critical of the Raimi versions qhwjrjwkr I DO like them I do but it feels like completely alternate interps of the characters #most focus on spider-man’s origin which I totally get but also. Peter’s most interesting arcs happen in college #that’s why everyone has to adapt them into the high school years #(which they can do bc Peter was largely friendless during that time and was still fighting some truly d-tier guys #in between the forming of the famous spidey rogue gallery) #I mean I wouldn’t even complain if they chose to do the high school years and actually DID those instead of pasting the college arcs on it #I haven’t watch the 90s show but I want to— does Harry exist in that one bc I know they took out Gwen #at the risk of sounding like That kind of tssm fan. the closest we got to that dream was that show #bc they WERE gonna follow it into Peter’s college years and you could see them setting the gang up #it still fell into the ‘everyone is a childhood friend’ thing so the characters could all be there but it’s one of the most bearable ones

[roomy-ghosted]

I think my run's bugged as Gale just hasn't asked for a single artifact at all. Which is great for me ngl, free extra gold when i need to sell stuff.

But god, the angst potential of him feeling the weave underneath his chest strain, fight and claw at him, desperate and hungry like the starved beast it is. Feeling himself on the edge of death constantly but not wanting to burden his companions with the matter. Not wanting to burden you with the matter. So he just continues on, prenteding that there isn't something eating away at him inside, that he isn't a ticking time bomb quite literally waiting to explode.

#i haven't had the cutscene where he says 'yeah bro i dont think magic items can sustain me anymore' #so he just #isn't hungry. at all. ever. #save-time im at 9h (reality of like- fucking 20 because i forgot to save and missed a romance flag; leaving no fun magic at teifling party. #instead i just got him lookin at mystra :penisve:. this was the cool and epic magic you wanted to show me? minor illusion? man.) #anyway actual tags now: #bg3 #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 gale #baldurs gate 3 #act 1 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 spoilers #i guess? its only act 1 though #but yeah no he's just. never asked for one #and im almost done cleaning up act 1. #so like- angst mode activate #yes im romancing him also btw. because. gale :) man sold himself HARD with the kittybird.

[roseworth]

the weirdest part about reading bop is that you read the chuck dixon run and it’s full of the normal early 00s sexism but then you get to the gail simone run and you think “thank god it’s written by a woman now maybe we can tone down the sexism” but then you read it and it’s even worse

#eli and cas got me thinkin about bop #i love the team but it’s almost impressive how they managed to fit so much sexism and racism into one book #maybe someday we’ll get a bop book thats actually good instead of just good in theory #dc

[pocketclowns]

realized i don’t really ramble to you guys like i used to so quick life update in the tags before i go to bed in the tags bc idk how to cut a post on mobile :)

#i’m actually doing really good lately #like probably the best i’ve been in years tbh #but i’m rly excited about the skincare routine i’ve started #it’s only been a few weeks but so far my skin is already showing a lot of improvement! #i also picked up a couple books the other day!! #i can’t remember the last time i read a book until recently tbh #i’m almost half way through the first one i got so i might go pick out another once i start the next one! #and on monday i’m getting a crown fitted for a tooth that’s been broken for 7 years #let me say that again SEVEN YEARS #like i’m so thankful i found a dentist that actually wants to help me #instead of tell me i’m being dramatic when i say it’s causing me pain :) #i love never being listened to lmao #but yeah i’ve been doing a lot to take care of myself and it’s been rly good!

[sieglinde-freud]

ohhh i j remember i pulled arcane ophelia when she dropped and just never fuckin used her… i ALMOST gave her tome to odin to fix him up, but…. hehewgahehe laurentttttt i have some shiny new toy for youuuuu come home baby girl come HOME!

#ann cries about feh #arcane devourer for inigo and arcane whatever for laurent my boys are SO IN IT #hopefully severas prf is good but. its severa. of course its good. #you know im kind of winning with most of the awakening kids #i’d say most of them are actually really fucking solid units with their refines #my owains kind of bad but thats probably my fault… i put all my investment into odin instead cuz he was easier to merge #but like kjelle yarne cynthia nah lucina m!morgan all got solid refines #kjelle especially shes one of my crutches for her #geromes was kind of mid but he makes up for it by being a walking ball of attack and def stats #and if i get lucina (WHICH I WILL. SHES COMING HOME. IM NOT MISSING ANOTHER LUCI) he can take her axe #also yeah im still missing legendary lucina and spring lucina #i have the worst legendary banner luck… i always get something but never what im looking for #and spring lucina… WHY IS SHE COLOR SHARING WITH FUCKING XANDER #SPRING FUCKING XANDER GET AWAY FROM MEEE #ugh. anyways. what was i talking about #oh my noire sucks. i pulled a -atk one and didnt build her cuz i was convinced she’d be on the eventual second gen banner #she’ll almost definitely be on the next awakening banner now but who knows when thatll be #time to give in and build her but i REALLY hate her summer alt… i really do #and its like. the art isnt BAD. it looks good. and it looks like noire. but its like. she looks so scared and uncomfortable #like not my girl why would u do this to my girl…. #ANYWAYS THO LAURENT IS WHO I WAS TALKING ABOUT YES NEW TOME FOR HIM WOOO

[steakout-05]

i had a dream last night that was pretty Star Trek related, it started with my dad finding this youtube documentary about Captain Picard and existensial fear, and at one point it started turning into something like an episode of TNG and it was really silly and stupid

so like, there was this alien guy on the ship who was like this tall humanoid-ish guy who was part goat, like he had the torso of a completely white slim human but the head of a smug-semi human goat with completely black eyes, and these stupid little silicone ears that you can tell are just makeup'd on cause you can see the seam of the hat they used for the goat ears. it was like, completely shirtless with visible muscle, had goat hooves for its hands and feet and these black tights it'd wear too. he was like a smug pale twink with a goat-like head. its power was that it could infiltrate your thoughts and give you seering pain through making you think of and believe in intrusive thoughts, causing pain and intense anxiety to the crewmates of the ship. and every time he'd do this, he'd cross his arms and just smile at the person with his stupid little shit eating smirk. this obviously annoyed Picard because it kept trying to screw up control of the ship by giving everyone these intrusive thoughts, so he decided to play some mind games with it to try to stop it, to counter the thoughts that it was sending to confuse it and stun it.

the way it was defeated was that Captain Picard started fucking chasing it in circles around the bridge like he was a child playing tag with it and was like trying to gaslight it into thinking he wasn't chasing it by just yelling "NO I'M NOT" every time the goat alien said he was, thus countering its thoughts for long enough to be able to stun and apprehend it, and the alien was so embarrassed by being defeated this way that when it was sent back to its master's planet, he refused to tell the rest of the aliens the true story of what happened on the ship for like a month out of pure shame. it was. extremely funny.

#star trek TNG #dreamposting #this could somewhat almost pass as an actual episode of TNG and that is the funniest part about this to me #but yeah it was so goofy. and Picard was COMPLETELY serious about it the entire time he was chasing the goat guy #like the ship's crew depended on him running around like a buffoon to save them so he was dead serious #why didn't he just do something like 'where no one has gone before' where they all collectively defeat the goat with thoughts #or something like that #instead of one grown man playing fucking gaslight tiggy with it #why did he do that and why did it work #i only got like 5 hours of sleep as well what is happening #fucking. goat twink. he's actually so stupid #goat twink is my favourite star trek character #im going insane why is picard running in circles like an idiot so funny #i must learn how to have thoughts this deranged when i'm conscious this is gold

[sonego]

gonna get personal in the tags sorryyyyy

shit i ran out of tags to use GKBKGKDKKDBJDMBMN ok rest under a read more 😭

so okay basically my doctor said sure i'll write you the prescription and also wait should i add it to your regularly taken meds page (so i can request it with a click when i run out)? and i was like yeah that'd be nice and i tried to explain that i thought i would only need for a short period of time but i still need it after many months so... but like he didn't care about the why lol

and anyway now that this has happened i'm like. gonna try to Stop doing what i was doing. there is no good reason to be in pain all the time and make my life harder when taking that dose of my med was working okay and making things considerably better. i don't need to punish myself. this is like so so so hard for me to internalize. being disabled is not a fault. even if it might be my "fault", even if i lowkey feel like i might have contributed to the condition i am in with like, bad choices or whatever, it's still not right to punish myself for it. i'm already unwell, i'm already suffering, what's making it worse gonna do to help? why do i need to feel worse just so i can think i got what i deserve for being in pain in the first place?

so yeah. going back to the higher dose. i hope that makes me feel less pain. i hope i can work without hating every second of it again. i do still hope one day i can get better and not need this med anymore, it's not like i've given up on that bc tbh a lot's still unclear and i will try and see if i can find answers. but in the meantime, no more punishing myself. i need to be okay. i want to be okay.

#called my doctor the other day #bc i needed the prescription for the muscle relaxant i take for my back pain #and i've been needing it for like a while but i kept putting off calling him to get it #there's a few reasons for that one of which is that i hate phone calls in general but especially w doctors #just makes me v v anxious #which is related to another reason which is that i was so scared he'd tell me no bc this was was supposed to be a temporary “fix” #like a little help while i actually got better #which clearly hasn't happened so i still need it but like. i am so used to doctors trying to like decide what i need #not based on my symptoms and needs and what i tell them but just what they think i SHOULD need #bc i SHOULDN'T feel pain i SHOULDN'T need to take that i should just idk excercise and lose weight and try not to be s*icidal and try to #control my moods and oh i shouldn't have headaches almost daily cause they found no medical reason for it #also have i tried sleeping more? have i tried not having insomnia? have i tried smaller doses of x med? #etc etc it's never what i AM experiencing it's what i SHOULD be experiencing. and let me tell you that sucks so bad #my previous gp ruined me so bad and i'm only now realizing it #like every time i need to tell or ask my current gp something i get so anxious bc i'm convinced he'll put up a fight and say no without #listening or he'll write me the wrong prescription or he won't even answer my calls ........... #instead this gp is the opposite #maybe even like. too easily says yes lmao 😭 like i try to talk things thru w him a bit to explain why i need x and he'll just be like #yeah sure here it is and sometimes i feel he's not even listening 🧍🏻 #but anyway like. i was kinda punishing myself i think? #i keep trying to lower my dose of muscle relaxant bc i think i shouldn't need it #and i don't want to need it i actually HATE that i need it. it makes me so mad w myself #so i keep trying even if every time i take less i am in so much pain #and these past couple of weeks? or something i did that even more bc i tried to lower it EVEN MORE #even if the 5th attempt to lower it a bit was unsuccessful and i was doing so badly #bc i was running out and i was killing two birds with one stone by trying to lower it so i would be a Better Stronger Nico #and was delaying having to call my doctor #end result: i wanna cry every time i stop (workiny #working* or studying or giffing or doing Whatever) #bc i'm forced to think of the fact i am in pain

[acaciapines]

every so often i get a horrible little thought in my head that says but what if you DID adapt all of toh season one into your daemon au.

and every time i beat that god damned thought back with a stick. but do know there IS a section in my notes document that is me REALLY wanting to adapt a few s1 episodes dkjgdfg.

bc like. i made the right choice. the stuff i was/am still most excited to write is all s2 + s3 stuff--but like. agony of a witch? young blood old souls? the intruder?!

it would be me writing like 250k more words of entirely setup but that doesnt mean i dont think about it!

#chatter #theres actually a nonzero chance i write the intruder lol i think i wanted it to be a side story at one point #but as of now it obvi wouldnt fit anywhere into the plot. it might end up more as a flashback? #i just think of ALL the s1 episodes that one would change the most #since the route i took with the owl beast is uh. way different lol. for one shes seen king as her kid since the start <3 #she and eda were just. very reluctant coparents at the start lol #actually back when this was just an idea and i hadnt started writing yet #i DID almost start off at agony of a witch instead of s2e1 #again i think i made the right choice (showed the Big Important Moment from the s1 final episodes in my s2p1) #but STILL. i THINK ABOUT IT #woes of writing a fic series that will likely end at over 1 million words </3 why am i like this #also i guess technically i wrote a daemon au version of the library episode #but that was uhhh forever ago and before s2 came out (or at least before i watched it? idk when i wrote that one actually lol) #and ive made some MAJOR changes since then lol. #i guess technically my massive au is a reboot of that. but. different. #tho of course mari and alma return <3 its actually really funny theyre the only kids w unique daemons/palismen #since like flapjack clover ghost etc didnt exist yet but by the time i started writing Big Boy Au #they did! and i just poached them! #still think i got the vibes pretty close tho. especially stringbean i freaking NAILED luz's arc i absolutely called it <3