#i am cold and also tired

[alpacacare-archive]

inside you there are two wolfs

#repostober #day 19 #undertale #alphys #gaster #wd gaster #ive given you old man gaster & alphys father daughter friendship dynamic #now its time for same age group queer nerd coworker besties #this was inspired by a con i went to #when i was there i couldnt help but notice two prominent kinds of people #cosplayers/anime fans dressed in cutesy merch and clothes(/positive) #and gamer nerds who were also dressed in merch and pins of games they liked (/positive) #and i also couldnt help but notice that its them #they are in fact discussing an anime they watched and with them both being academics i can only assume that every argument is extremely #detailed well thought out and informed. id like to believe that they sometimes site sources. aloud. #details i love in this are alphys painting her tail to look like mewmews for her cosplay i just think its cute hdfks #you can pry aroace gaster out of my cold dead hands that man made his children in tubes i just know it #also i shouldve drawn him wearing portal merch i almost wanna redraw this just for that #actually i really wanna redraw this i think. i wont rn (i am so. tired) but i feel enough anger at gaster not wearing #an aperture science t shirt that it might make me draw again

[vacantgodling]

✨preferences should not be standards for writing advice✨

#whenever i see writing advice i just get annoyed #honestly one of my biggest gripes about writing communities in general is this #constant need to regurgitate certain pieces of writing advice like they’re ambrosia of the gods #my biggest writing advice is to just stop fucking listening to all writing advice that has to do with #prose and style #just stop doing it #read books and find things you like and craft your own style of things #i know this is not simple for everyone but i’m tired of constantly seeing #i think flowery prose bogs things down too much #and i think that direct prose isn’t good enough at putting people in the world #like mate—everyone has preferences and preferences do not make good advice #so like #i wish people would stop acting like their opinion is the next best piece of writing advice #it doesn’t help anyone it just causes fucking insecurities #i am also having sensory overload so perhaps ren doth bitch too much #but you can pry flowery prose and run on sentences and incomprehensible blocks of text from my cold dead hands #bc it makes me happy to write like this and fuck off #ren hot cakes #i’ll delete this later im just cold and annoyed #and unfortunately you can thank my mother bc im extremely passive aggressive

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[nolongerexistingsadcatface]

Ok yes America hating the cold is funny (eh) BUT. have you considered that I like the imagery of an America sitting alone in the forest in the bleak mid-winter landscape of an east coast woods, all alone in both body and mind, agonizing over her seeming doom to be stuck in the throes of loneliness for all eternity?

#aph nyo america #aph america #i want engagement <3 #secret confession i actually hate that canonically america doesnt do well in the cold #it gives too much ammo to the west coasters (villains) who can’t let my poor baby alfred be the east coast girl he truly is #also in a broader sense i feel like it creates a weird divide in both the portrayal of america and the connection he has with his country #as its representation #america is one of the most climate diverse countries in the entire world and i feel like making the REPRESENTATION OF AMERICA not be able t #handle a large majority of his country’s climate is an Odd choice and creates an unfortunate barrier between american culture #and the way it’s portrayed in hetalia #imo one of the most amazing parts of the geography of the us is its ability to be a metaphor for the american people #so insanely diverse and fundamentally different and completely irreconcilable—but it works anyways. #the land works together anyways //we// work together anyways we become one anyways despite what any and all logic dictates #what any and all logic DEMANDS #so for america to not be able to represent that cohesion + community—and in fact represent an intense and almost INNATE complete inability #to even try being accepting of and embracing our differences—is just.. not something I like + insinuates a very odd view of American cultur #my eyes are shutting as i type this im so tired #sorry if this is horribly written rip #i see this a lot in the hetalia fandom (IK I JUST DID IT IN THIS POST LMAO BUT I SWEAR I DO IT AS A JOKE; I REALLY DO APPRECIATE THE WEST #COAST AND AM FULLY AWARE OF ITS ROLE IN THE US CULTURE AND FUNCTION) where people write alfred as being almost hostilely exclusionary??? #towards certain areas of america—city al who doesn’t like the country; country al who doesn’t like the newfangled cities; northerner al #who hates the southerners (because theyre poor + dont fit the author’s view of respectable people BUT THATS FOR A DIFFERENT POST);southerne #al who hates the northerners—and it’s all very gross to me. america is not—at its core—a country/culture founded on separation!! our ideals #are based on being—at our most basic—separate multi-faceted individuals who COME TOGETHER!! as one because of common ideals and love #E PLURIBUS UNUM!!!!!! #ok im done gn

[absolutebl]

Look I was gonna get caught up on BL and do the weekly today but I am so travel fatigued rn I spent 2 hours writing a thing about early queer BL stuff that I don't really like, instead.

Because that is my brain on jet lag.

#not an excuse just and explanation #I finished IFYLITA too #and boy do I have FEELS #brain too full of cotton wool #it's possible I am also sick #but i'm too tired to tell the difference #i wonder if the hotel has cold meds at the front desk? #can one Grab cold meds for delivery? asking for a friend

[edns]

15 Lines Of Dialogue

Rules: Share 15 or fewer lines of dialogue from an OC, ideally lines that capture their character/personality/vibe. Bonus points for just using the dialogue without other details about the scene, but you’re free to include those as well.

I was tagged two times in this thing already but I kept putting it off. Time to do it! Thank you @recurringwriter and @cherrypikkins for tagging me ^_^ These are pulled from various extremely disorganized scrivener files, some of the fics are posted, some are not. I will do my best to reference those that are posted, so you can read them!

“Say what you will, but I think I’m making the right choice. No matter what, I will choose to follow you, Your Highness. Every time.” - Cold Proximity

“I have been chasing a dead man for so long, now… I cannot tell who is dead and who is alive anymore." - Cold Proximity

“A monster…” As Cyrus sighed, a cloud of fog left his mouth, and he shivered a little. “Perhaps you are. Perhaps we both are. I see no problem in that; we live in a monstrous world, Dimitri.” - Cold Proximity (Sorry, this one has a Lot of good lines. I think you should just go and read it)

“Goddess… Do not let him die… Not again…” - Unposted WIP

“The only thing I cannot forgive you for is… trusting anyone but me.” - Aeternalis

“I’m not leaving scum like you alive. Not after what your kind has done to me. To Dimitri.” Cyrus’s eyes were burning with rage, even though his voice was quiet and eerily calm. “You’ve served your purpose here. Begone. May your soul never know peace.” - Aeternalis (You also should read it if you are into more messed up fics teehee)

“Remember… I love you no matter what, Dima." - Aeternalis

“I count myself as a Fraldarius. Even if Felix doesn’t, Father does.” Cyan looked away, staring off into the window. “Or even if other nobles don’t…” - His Path (Note: Cyan is Cyrus's name pre timeskip)

“He keeps saying these strange things about you,” Cyan said with a serious note in his voice. “Sometimes I wonder what he truly means.” - His Path (Note: This is in reference to Felix saying his usual things about Dimitri)

And that's all I've got for now! I have a lot of writing just. Laying around, unposted, but most of it is just not good.

I don't tag anyone right now, but if anyone wants to steal this from me, you are more than welcome to <3 Thank you for tagging me!

#fe3h oc #oc cyan gertrude fraldarius #oc cyrus bartholomew lenz #Gonna make this rbable just for funsies. I wanted to add an img too but Idk which one to add or how to edit it and I am also tired #Anyway it was pretty fun to go over my writing from before... I don't think I have this power right now ;_; #Like wtf was I on when I wrote Cold Proximity that shit is genuinely not bad. Anyway. THANKS for tagging me love ya

[whumpasaurus101]

What if you just grabbed a skrunkly gave him head pats and tucked him in

#i am #SO #TIRED #can the skrunkly be me #i #am cold #and tired #the up in my meds are fucking me up a bit JJDJDKDKDKDKDKMD #ALSO MISSING MY GIRLFRIEND RN

[theflyingfeeling]

tomorrow-me: I'd really appreciate it if you could drag your arse to the grocery store so that I won't have to get up early tomorrow morning to do it you know?

now-me, wrapped in a blanket with tears in my eyes: but I'm just a baby?? 😭

#listen i am so so so so so so so so tired ���� #my landlord's coming for a visit at 11 tomorrow and i have nothing to offer him #but i'm too tired to think about what to buy for the weekend (for myself) #grocery shopping was a burden as it was but then they shut down my nearest store (200 m from my apartment) #and now the nearest one is just far enough so that i don't wanna go there just for a pack of coffee and biscuits #i'm so tired i just had to check how to fucking spell 'biscuits' 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #feeling slightly better now that i rested my eyes a little and drank a glass of water and ate a clementine #but i don't wanna goooooooo it's cold and dark and i don't know what i want to eat during the weekend 😭😭😭😭😭 #it's times like these i hate living alone / being single because i can't just ask someone to go to the grocery store for me #i should also clean up my kitchen and bathroom a bit #i know i'm so brave for doing shit like this all by myself but sometimes i really hope i wouldn't have to #sorry for whining about my little life on main lol pls ignore #i need no advice (but sympathy would be nice. an encouraging headpat even)

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

have decided that I will not be reducing people to their current life phase, relationship status, religious affiliation, age, or any other exterior trapping. you are a person. I care about you. that's basically it. this is how I'm going to see the world from now on.

#making this post for myself #bc i'm fighting the uni trend to label and categorize people based on their chosen major or dorm building or what have you #you're not those things! you're a person! interesting and complex! just like me! and everyone else! #and I am working really hard to go out of my way to talk to people that don't fit the 'mold' of 'who I'm supposed to hang out with' #even though it's very tiring because it means that I'm having to learn a lot about how to communicate with very many different types of peo #people #and also work very hard to Not be concerned about what they think of me #if I come off uncertain or awkward or cold at first #gurt says stuff

[songbirdstew]

Power went out Thursday, for the entire area. No one knows why. Weather was perfect.

Power went out early this morning, about 10 hours. Probably because of the wind storm.

Please, I'm exhausted. Stop using fossil fuels. I'm so fucking tired.

#at least it hasn't been inhumanly cold this time #wait I just realized the clocks all jumped forward #that is probably also why I am so tired #but mostly climate disaster

[nektaarr]

The heater in our office shut down and it‘s been only around 13 degrees inside the whole morning ;;

#my hand are freezing and my feet too #i‘m wearing 3 layers plus my winter jacket #uff #the heater‘s been randomly going on and off over the past few weeks #but yousually it would always go back on after 2-3 hours #but i feel like this time its different #😭 #its the worst when you‘re only sitting in front of the computer and not get to move around at all #also i lack a lot of energy bc i slept so bad last night and #i dont habe anything proper to eat for lunch #so staying warm isnt very the easiest task for my body today #what a way to start the week #;; #but alhamdulillah! #it always could be worse i guess #;-;b #yxc #(wow the amount of typos i made just shows how cold and tired i am loll) #wouldnt be too surprised if i got sick

[milflewis]

i am so cold someone could steal my feet and i would not even notice

#cold and hungry and a little queasy bc i had red wine on no food last night but ! i came second in a pop quiz #learned eminem is not his actual name . who knew #also so tired . i am being so brave about it all btw #bought myself cheerios to have as a treat #tw food mention #tw alchohol mention #diary posting

[oifaaa]

YouTube is really trying to recommend me a video titled Damian Wayne: the worst Robin several times today like damn cant you just let me watch my bluey compilations in peace

#Im cold and tired #Please let me rest YouTube #Also I've already called bullshit on the worst best Robin thing #It's stupid #Did I mention how tired and cold I am #Extra grumpy today

[iguessitsjustme]

hello friends i am back. just had a mental reset in a weird way but i feel much better now so i'm back to being silly goofy on tumblr

#rae irl #i had a very strange time away not gonna lie #i'm not counting the few hours i was here on saturday as being back really #but now i'm back to annoy you all #well sort of. i'll probably be on less next week for work reasons but i'll still be here #anyway accidentally formed a cult while i was gone #also had an entire mental breakdown and drank on a school night #realized i'm the only staff member at my job in my 30s and the next oldest is 5 years younger than me #send immediate assistance my desk mate quit so i am all alone and no one snarks with me #started watching anime again and also finished a book series i've been trying to read for years #there's more but i'm too tired and cold to keep typing #time to go reblog some things

[soldier-poet-king]

In the euphoria of it being Friday and getting to leave work early and go home and play bg3, I had forgotten the absolute most horrifying thing my father said to me this morning

"you're starting to sound a lot like your mother" and given my parents marriage this has the added implication of (derogatory)

I'm just ???? HELL IM IN HELL?? I am 27 how tf is my voice apparently changing, is this puberty part 2??? Like? Is it not enough that all my mother's relatives think I'm her spitting image and CONSTANTLY remind me of that fact (but ofc still retain a few distinctive features of my father like forehead/eyebrows/mouth so I can't even escape either of them in the mirror)

But no now I also apparently have to SOUND like her??? Y'know the voice in my head that fuels so much of my self loathing? As if I already didn't hate my voice because I spent my childhood being told to be quiet because I was annoying, being told my voice was grating in its pitch and intensity, etc etc etc + PLUS hating it for Gender Reasons???

Can we give a bitch a break. For once.

#franposting #im just whining ill be fine. but also like #fuck this #literally playing pf with rose and co and voice chatting with rae #i was like. oh. hey. maybe my voice isnt the most fuckin annoying worst thing in the world #its maybe grating and annoying but its me yknow?? #WELL PROGRESS RUINED. I CAN NEVER SPEAK AGAIN. #ik i talked about this before but the impulse towards severely disfiguring self mutilation #so i dont have to look in the mirror and see THEM anymore #IM SO TIRED GUYS. GUYS. IM SO TIRED #clothes i like dont fit my shape. my voice is annoying. i hate my face. nothing is MINE and untouched by them #which fine. its not like im a real person so ofc everything is marked by them #but im justm fuckin fuck fuck this is NOT helping me think like an autonomous creature and human being #i am going. to go pout on the bus home #and genuinely actually gargle a shot of grappa when i get home #im getting the cold my brother has and cant afford it bc tattoo soon and doc appt next week #and sometimes my nonnas old wives cures actually work

[nonuggetshere]

Oh yeah, that Au idea with tiny dragon Radiance didn't get abandoned btw, here's a Hollow concept for that :]

They're fluffy!

#spooky arts #very quick doodle bc its 3 am and im tired #wanted to show the right side of their face so their bands are semi transparent lmao #their right ear is also partly cut off but i. accidentally erased that #they look a bit young but oh well. original idea was a rugged warrior but i landed on a bean instead #i could combine the ideas tbh #a guy who looks both young and like theyve lived through more than they should have #also wanted to play with the idea of PK being an arctic wyrm and maybe even WL being the kind of plant that can survive in cold regions. so #PV is fluffy and comfortable in the cold. and a part of the story is gonna take place in some icy kingdom. Radiance hates it but theyre #having fun in the snow :]