#i am just very exasperated

[doggogills-but-worse]

okay listen. i love jrwi, i really do. i love riptide and prime defenders, and the community has been pretty good, i have a lot of mutuals that are super cool. but the attitude and ferocity in which people defend the lgbt rep in the show? mh. not it.

podcasts as a medium have been incredibly full of queer creators making wonderful stories, including ttrpgs. especially ttrpgs!!! most of jrwi’s lgbt rep has been behind a paywall (and that was a joke for 90% of the series), or a joke (i’m looking at you fnc canon kiss), and the rest is vaguely implied. correct me if i’m wrong on this, i’m not caught up. i don’t really care about what the folks say off mic about characters, to be quite honest. there has been little indication of the actual queerness of characters in any form beside an npc who wasn’t even fully created by the showrunners. and that is my point. the lgbt stuff that people latch onto are things that have either been questions answered off mic, or things that the fan community has expanded upon that were only hinted at in canon, or just headcanoned.

im not saying that this is wrong, or the series is bad because of it, but the attitude that the fandom has towards it is... a lot for what is actually there on screen in earnest. it’s not the most lgbt podcast with fantastic rep that you say it is. there are so many podcasts with the kind of representation and characters that you are looking for. again, it’s not a bad podcast because of this, but we’ve gotta stop acting like it’s queer as hell.

so here are some podcasts with fully fleshed out, explicitly queer characters (with their corresponding vibe):

Dungeons & Daddies (s1: riptide, s2: pd)

The Broadswords (apotheosis)

All My Hexes (admittedly unfinished but still good)

A Horror Borealis (bitb)

Bombarded (riptide)

Fantasy High (of course) (pd)

Wildbranch High (pd)

Kollok 1991 (pd, bitb)

Monster Hour (s1: pd, kinda apotheosis)

$2 Creature Feature (pd)

Dice Crisis (riptide)

Hope’s Hearth (i haven’t started this one yet, but it’s on my list)

The Storyteller Squad (pd)

Dangerous Times at Chillhaven High (soooo much pd vibes)

Shrimp and Crits (bitb)

Pest Control (s1: riptide but modern, s2: early pd)

The Unexplored Places (they have many seasons, i can rant about them for hours tbh)

The Monster’s Playbook (pd, kinda bitb)

and that’s just the actual plays

again, i love jrwi, but we have got to stop hailing it as an exemplar of lgbt actual play podcasts because it just isn’t.

#rambles #jrwi #jrwi pd #jrwi rant #jrwi riptide #jrwi apotheosis #jrwi fandom #i'm just so tired #i am just very exasperated #with the whole thing #dnddads #fantasy high #wildbranch high #kollok 1991 #monster hour #the storyteller squad #with podcasts being my big hyperfixation right now #dangerous times at chillhaven high #shrimp and crits #pest control podcast #pest control pod #the unexplored places #the monster's playbook #podcasts #actual play podcast #raise your standards folks #that's all i'm saying #its so frustrating when there is so much out there to explore #terrified of how this will be received but i had to say it #jrwiblr

[swallowtail-ageha]

The "Doll is just a toothless version of Maria" disocurse doesnt apply to me because MY Maria was already very toothless she was just better at hiding it ❤️❤️

#send post #gets officially excluded from the list of maria fans #i just think that the doll had like. marias problems with compliance regarding people she loves just exasperated to the extreme #again i dont mind the maria girlboss out there theyre very cool. i am just into characters that would be a perfect protagonist #for the average late 19th early 20th cenury italian novel but if they were girls

[elainemorisi]

still thinking about how I and the cishet dad from my kid's school established that we were Of The Same (deeply skeptical) Opinions about said school by first establishing that we were on the same side of the incredibly unclassy lesbian drama that literally everyone knows about, and how this was a 100% accurate litmus test

#it's so unclassy #I am quite morally neutral on adultery #but I am not remotely 'that reflects very poorly on your taste tact decency and judgement' neutral on adultery #and given that this place is apparently run on Weaponized Therapy FeeFees instead of y'know normal professional standards #the fact that the two Exploders Of Marriages are central to the weird incestuous social circle that runs the place #despite both being literally just parents not employees not board members #their mind bogglingly bad behavior is regrettably not directly but not un- related to the Whole Deal #anyway gossip is useful and good number 37346 :P #he's exactly as exasperated and unconvinced by the bullshit

[thegreenleavesofspring]

Hurrrrrrk

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I need to just... start collaging all the Tumblr posts and Bible verses I see and read that COULD NOT POSSIBLY BE ANY PLAINER an answer to whatever my prayer/grouse/grumble/rebellion du jour is.

He is not subtle. -_-

#Christian toddler temper tantrum #It's been going on for... months now #It exasperates me no end when I try to give my children a treat and they regard it with suspicion and distaste #And yet for... months. Three months? Four months? I have been shrieking at God #“I DON'T WANT IT!!!” about a blessing He has very blatantly wanted to give me #And He is being SO PATIENT #But I still DON'T WANT IT #I don't CARE if it's for my good and would make me so much happier! I don't want it!!! #I don't want to put in the effort it would require to ready ME for such a blessing #I would rather sit as a squalid little pot in my squalid little corner than undergo the necessary cleansing and crucibling... #(I don't care if I just made that word up) (It's accurate) #I'm TIRED #And I already know what cleansing and crucibling will take #And I dread it #I'd much rather sulk and whine than accept the Good Thing #Sulking and whining is easy and Character Development is not #I am lazy. And tired. #Some years ago I read a book called Hinds Feet On High Places and it was an excellent sequel to Pilgrim's Progress #Just wonderful and I loved reading it #But I find I don't like living it #*Whinge* *whine* Waah waah waah etc... #...anyway He's basically dropping a brick a day on my head now so I think He's maybe about done indulging me and my tantrums so #my options are get my hiney in gear and get ready to accept cleansing and crucibling or I'm just gonna get unceremoniously precipitated #into it (As has been His method throughout my life until recently)

[monterraverde]

✎ What do you wish the author would reveal/had revealed about your muse?

✘ Any unpopular opinions about your muse?

✎ What do you wish the author would reveal/had revealed about your muse? (Also asked by @orreasshole and @skillswapping )

//Honestly just how she became a member of the E4. I'm more curious about that because of how Paldeas champion certification works- that and its just far different from every other regions!

Are they hand picked? Do they have to do another certification? How are they determined?? TELL ME

✘ Any unpopular opinions about your muse? (Also asked by @vanillahub )

//This is incredibly fanon based and I know I've talked about this before, but the assumption that she's trans. Headcanons are all well and fine, if that's how you want to portray her- Go for it! But I wish people would stop assuming that mine is trans!! This has happened like 3 times!! Mine is Cis female!! I have never given any indication that she isn't!!

Same goes for her sexuality: You wanna portray her as a butch lesbian?? Go for it, more power to ya, love that you're having fun- But mine is Bi.

I've gotten like 5-6 anons in my entire time having this blog asking why she's dating men, or that they thought she was a lesbian and it just floors me how inept people can be.

My portrayal is all my own, please stop assuming your headcanons are true on this blog- Likely they are not.

#rikas inbox: lets chat! #ooc: shiros talking #Im not attacking anyone in particular I am just very exasperated

[swashbucklery]

Me: oh no I think I like Critical Role now, I’m all caught up and I have a lot of fan theories! I should find some people who also like Critical Role to talk to!

Also Me: I AM GOING TO FIGHT MATTHEW MERCER IN THE TIM HORTONS PARKING LOT FOR BEING WRONG ABOUT DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS

#IT'S COMPLICATED #but if it helps it's becoming more like #i'm going to fight matthew mercer (affectionately exasperated) instead of i'm going to fight matthew mercer (hostile) #he runs a game that i really respect and sometimes it is quite good #and other times it's - a really well run game but just not to my taste #and it's weird coming to this fandom with several years of 5e experience before genuine campaign exposure #because one of the core tenets of the fandom experience seems to be like #accepting the idea of canon and creator/player defined canon as hard fact #which i know in some ways it is #but in other ways like #idk i have a very different playstyle and dming style and sometimes the choices are maddening #and that's actually not a wrong way to engage with 5e or cr #but i am struggling to find that niche in fan spaces #and this is the one show where 'just watch it it'll be fun' does not work #i don't want any of my friends to spend this many hours of their life on this save yourselves #anyway happy calamity 2 day enjoy yourselves #calamity 2: electric boogaloo #the matthew mercer dungeons and dragons twitch cinematic universe

[thebirdandhersong]

sorry marvel grumbling below

not to be like.... gross..... but GROSS. Why is it that objectifying, ridiculing, and (to use an overused word) oppressing men is fine in real life and storytelling nowadays (source of comedy, even), and why is it okay for a female character to openly speculate about someone else's (a STRANGER'S) intimate life?? Why is Steve's virginity such a source of Interest and Obsession, like that's a pitiable or pathetic thing?? and WHY is the Fleabag-Captain Marvel-Netflix Anne Elliot model the template for most female characters now???

#this is about she hulk please ignore i am simply Beyond Exasperated #i just think this is a very low view of womanhood and a very narrow scope of what makes a good and complex character #and marvel's constant jabs at Steve are really.... something....... like that whole bit in civil war about him not liking foul language #and now This #hollywood...... you DO know that the obsession/degradation/lack of sacredness/shallowness you put on sex IS the problem right.... right..?? #or at least ADDS to the problem anyhow. i don't really understand why it has to be steve in particular (a Christian character who is all #about virtue and defending the weak and doing the right thing) who keeps getting rained down on #but i suppose that's been extended to other male characters too. such as thor #in the same manner i've decided to disregard all the marvel mini series non-canonical i am also Not Seeing what they added in she hulk #as far as i'm concerned steve is a Christian character who observes and honours the seventh commandment #and should NOT be ridiculed or criticised for his morals beliefs and life choices #(screenwriters.... you know.... it isn't a 'waste' for someone to not have sex in their lives ever.... life is not about sex..........)

[cyberdragoninfinity]

I really love your GX College AU. I especially like Freshman 15 Jaden as opposed to everyone having muscles (supporting body diversity). Keep up the good work!

thanks! i appreciate the kind words--drawing ygo characters with different body types is one of my favorite things <3

(though, quick sidebar: i wouldnt. really call my jaden "freshman 15 jaden"... he's just fat! he was a fat kid and now he's a fat adult. that's just how he is! aint nothing wrong with that!! it isn't really fair to look at a fat character design and automatically assume "oh well they got like that because they ate a lot and gained weight" lol. idk. sometimes, that's just.. their body type!)

#anyway apologies i am very exasperated from last night's bizarro fatphobia moment just. wanted to take this chance and make a comment #about my jaden who i like very much (and im glad other folks do too!) #please dont make assumptions about the nonskinny body types i draw characters with! thank you #asks #thecolorfulpolicechild

[khaotunq]

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#i am always going on about how feedback is lovely but doesn't particularly motivate me #buuuuuuuut #i got a bunch of reblogs tonight on the ayan's instagram edit i made #and i am now back working on kan's #i have his and akk's almost ready to go i just ran out of ideas for posts #i have a few ideas for wat's #i am going to s t r u g g l e with thua's lmao #i may end up doing a second aye one #i'm trying to incorporate their personalities into every element and some are relatively easy #aye am i being a play on words on his name #umakktually being both a sarcastic interjection and a play on um being a common way of transcribing 'yes' #watadirector is pretty self explanatory at the same time as him Doin A Funny #ka555n is just fun to say honestly. but he's the joker of the group so. obviously. #i VERY NEARLY went with etthuabrute for thua but i'd get eaten by thua stans lmao but i think i'm funny #findingnamo was a last minute stroke of exasperation. kid's a cartoon fish or something #i wanna wait for our skyy to incorporate potential uni stuff but i'm #1. not that patient and #2. have absolutely zero impulse control #anyway my period's nearly here and i'm emotional about everything rn so #thanks guys u rly made this old boy's day #about jay #mine: eclipse socials #so it is decreed #but i am putting an absurd amount of thought into other things #kan has more followers than anyone. he also posts constantly. about everything. #akk has the least followers because he barely actually uses the thing and is mainly a lurker on his friends' profiles #like an overbearing parent #wat gets photo credit on half of everybody's posts #which is fun because wat's ig is probably going to be full of photos of everyone else #alksjdfas anyway more coming i promise

[slipper007]

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#im sorry for how much I've been venting on here but things are shitty and hate burdening people with it #to delete #im applying for grad school now and I asked my parents very carefully if they'd be helping me with application fees or if i was on my own #and I made sure that I didn't imply that I expected it. i made sure i worded it so that it was fine if they didn't want to or couldn't. #and I made sure I brought it up when everything was calm and there were no stressors or anything. #and I just got an exasperated sigh and even before they said anything it was over. literally just say you don't want to pay. it's fine. #don't sit there and tell me my grades are great but you don't want to waste your money. that feels so much worse than just being told no. #it feels like they don't believe I'll get in and it's not worth the effort to find out. #and honestly they're probably right. I'm a wreck lately. finishing my applications feels insurmountable. #finding the money to go even if I get accepted is impossible. and that feels awful because I know so many people getting free rides already #it's just like high school all over again. everyone's practically getting paid to go to one of their top schools and then there's me. #stressed about application fees #stressed about what on earth I'll do if they say no #stressed about how I cannot afford this without loans and being in debt. #i just. i hate this. i hate myself. my applications look like shit. the recommendation I've gotten back is literally shit. #i already know I'm not gonna do well in the quote unquote adult world and honestly this is just proving it to me #i literally haven't felt like me since junior year of high school and i don't know what to do and there's just no time to rest #and no time to put my all into anything #im doing school and 10 hours of work per week with free weekends and i can't rest already #how the fuck am I going to do school and 30+ hours a week of work and make rent and commute and agh #i feel so behind and so inferior and so fucking shitty all the time and there's nothing to fucking do about it #hhhhhhh #and nobody gets it. least of all me.

[madameinquisitor]

i fucked up at work and couldnt keep up production and got fired from my job and now I want to die

#i self-sabatoged #and also was suffering from lack of adhd meds and depression which exasperated it #but mainly i self-sabatoged and i hate myself and i want to die #im trying to just crochet things #so I dont drive off into a ravine #which i am very very very tempted to do

[marinehero-a]

Listen I’m Not saying Garp ever had a Thing for roger     but

#{ ooc } ✗ 「 WENP reporter 」 #tbd. #[ rpc asleep time to think ab the inherent homoeroticism of the rivalry between to legends #[ something something the mutual respect and admiration born from decades of fighting one another (and memorable besides each other once) #[ despite both being loyal to a fault to the causes they choose to follow #[ neither hold back from their duty but still manage to enjoy their clashes and laugh throughout it #[ holds garp in particular #[ constantly chasing the literal embodiment of Freedom as a man who's always sought freedom himself #[ both envious and exasperated of roger #[ looks at strong world 'well its roger after all. garp just cant let that one go' #[ idk if id call it anything bc. -gestures at this clown- but garp did hold roger /Very/ highly and that is all i can really say #[ slams fist on floor do NOT look at me (/lh) i am going insane

[134340am]

i’ve started talking to a boy (ノへ￣、)

#insert exasperated miyazaki meme #he's soooooo cute tho very polite and a little nerdy #i've been interested in him since we took a class together two years ago (holy shit) but i've always been busy or emotionally unavailable #but eh i thought i'd just shoot my shot #it's been a while #and i have finally recovered from my past trauma(s) 👍 #anyways wish me luck because i am very very very very shy and i don't know what i'm doing ahhghghjjahjah #i think i'll try to ask him out for a meal #maybe this week or next week #i'm a little bz tho T^T i have midterms and all that fun stuff #ack...... #ok ok don't panic #we'll just see how it goes #we've talked a few times but i've always been too scared to ask him out sobbles bobbles #this is so hard #am i overthinking it..... i probably am........... #ok enough #goob night frens take care and do your best today!!!!!!! i kno it's hard and stinky but i m proud of u n whatever u accomplish today #however big or small #see y'all in a bit : ) #tmi tuna

[curiosityshop]

My favorite thing about Campion is how he’s at once the smartest person alive and the dumbest person alive, often at the same time. He is completely unhinged while also being a certified baby who constantly needs minding by a convicted felon built like a brick shithouse. I think that’s very iconic of him. 

#ooc. #albert campion [muse.] #i'm sure none of you on the dash know who he is but i highly HIGHLY encourage you to check out the books and the show #because this is essentially it #the books just go Complete chaos with him and while p.e.ter d.av.is.on is fantastic in the part he's almost like... too serious sometimes?? #book!campion is a whole other ball game #he is Silly he is Ridiculous he is also a Genius #he is frequently described in the books as an idiot (affectionate) #and lugg is just consistently exasperated dad-shaped about him and it's fantastic #truly one of The characters of all time #this does not even begin to touch on my undying love for amanda either my absolute beloved… #i am seriously thinking of adding her #anyways i am very tired but i adore him and i will definitely be trying him out later

[thefunniestguy]

I thought I confined my love for Betty to the internet but my sister has informed me that I am Wrong

#no really though am i going crazy or does she thinking talking about her maybe 3 times is obsessed ... ? #she doesnt ask who im drawing often but maybe she just talks to me only when i draw betty ?? which is often so imean?? #our conversation was along the lines of . her asking who i was drawing and i said. 'you wont know her but im trying to think of a pose' #and she asks . 'betty?' and i ask how she knows ?? and she very exasperated says #'youre OBSESSED with her' like ok you should be too :((( /lh /j #then again we're both dramatic enough so this is no surprise #i just try and keep my AT rambles to a minimum bc she doesnt really care . which is chill /gen #so im honestly proud that she remembered bettys name . who wojldnt tho shes so great #savvi shouts

[allexiaah]

Day improves 100% when I get a nice ask or dm, or a question or curiosity about something I like or an ask about one of those ask games, so pls never be afraid to send them!! I always love them

#allex rambles #asks have been a bad thing and now theyre a good thing again #i very much enjoy getting to interact with people!! please never feel afraid to #or feel annoying about it i promise i dont bite #only irl friends get my (albeit very joking/lighthearted) exasperation #...for spamming me with fucking peppa pig asks LOL its a different thing trust me #i always love sharing ideas and chatting!! i just suck at being social and starting conversations #and even when i do wanna talk to mutuals im scared ill look dumb in front of ppl who i look up to and think are very cool lol #so know i try my best and am never against having a good conversation!! i just am kind of bad at holding them but i do rly enjoy em #and i try my very best #been talking w one mutual a lil bit and iit has been so nice #wish i had the confidence and guts to do it more ;')