#i am not capable of dealing with this

[perfectly-uncapable]

i love you it'll pass i love you it'll pass i love you it'll pass

#heb mn hart verloren in de discotheek #i do not want to do this competition i do not want it #but it will break my heart a little if she dates him #i did not want to act on it i wanted to keep it very puppy love #but now everything is compared to her actually being capable of seducing people lmao #jealousy sucks #i do get it i cant demand anything from her!!! #but fuck #i do not want to compare myself to her in relation to a guy i like #needing male validation already SUCKS but having to compare yourself to a friend in the process? #i am not capable of dealing with this #best option is to just get over the crush and quick but aaarghhh #WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO #CAN I HAVE ONE PRINCE CHARMING IN MY LIFE???? #one perfect golden boy who likes ME #and yes this all happened in the span of two days so its still fresh lmao i HOPE i dont feel like this next week #but he makes my heart beat fast #it IS my fairytale story #it IS the most romantic thing that has happened to me the last few years #SO PLEASE just let me have this one??? you have PLENTY of options like that #you dont even really want him? #yes i ALSO barely know him but im DIFFERENT #hshsgssgdgsgsjsjsjdlsleje #hes my little raccoon :)) #its funny to me yk but its also the furthest thing away from funny #its not serious but im dead serious about it #i want him SO BAD #he is SO OUT OF MY LEAGUE #but i am amazing i am way out of his league!!! #but no but yes but no

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

It is truly fascinating how the common tumblr narrative around John and Paul somehow makes the guy who literally got violent multiple times over people insinuating he was queer appear more "on board with the whole gay thing" than the guy who said some awkward/dated stuff in interviews a couple of times.

#im not trying to defend paul here btw. or tear down john #i just find the reading of john as like the Self-Accepting King between them.... myopic #i mean. it touches on the whole Was It Reciprocated Thing really #the idea being: If We Assume Paul Reciprocated He Is MORE Repressed Than John Because John Hinted More Heavily That He Wasn't Straight #but like.. #that's Exactly why some of us think.... maybe Paul IS straight 😭😭 or at least it's not nearly as big of a deal to him than it was to John #(perhaps because he's bi but treats it more casually than John ever felt capable of) #any reading of John and sexuality that concludes something LESS fraught than Paul's mostly benign slight weirdness/curiosity #seems to me.... like McLennon tunnel vision #like because John never gay panic attacked PAUL all that ugly stuff he did can be set aside. #also. look at the way people think about India #and the Get Back convo about it. it's all like JOHN'S NOT IN DENIAL. HE WAS CLEAR. HE WANTED IT. HE WAS ALL IN. #Was He? #anyways. i am becoming chatty these days. #as always people are welcome to discuss this with me even if we disagree #fiona.docx #jp speculation #discourse

[stewyhosseini-bf]

Also thinking about the ‚I am the eldest boy‘ line. Not the eldest son, the eldest boy - probably because those were the exact words Logan used when he sat him down in the candy kitchen to tell him he was going to take over one day. That interaction has lived in his mind for so long and he has literally built his whole being, his whole life, on that declaration (you are the eldest boy) and the subsequent promise (so you are The Heir)

#'he promised it to me. promised' also is soooo . biting and chewing at the wall #like kendall asked him to promise it and he did. and that was it it was a done deal and he devoted his life to those words #not yet knowing . who logan was. the things he was capable of lying about #oh this is so messed up why am i thinking about this today !!!!!!!!!!! #kendall roy #succession

[bibiana112]

One of my favorite character traits that Junpei has is how as much as he's protective and caring to his favorite people and impulsively jumps into danger to help others if he has an opportunity to without wanting anything in return and highly values the promises he makes he just seems to also always be more curious than he is sensible or empathetic, he gets so caught up on the horrors he sees but he has such a hard time looking away, he's right to analyze and be intrigued by the ninth man's remains but he stands around staring at it until he pukes, in the showers you can interact with the wall behind which lies "Snake's" corpse and he will pick up more details about it each time you click on it until he has to mentally rip himself away because it's not that he can't keep looking at it it's that he better look away and focus on getting out, and the way he talks to Clover about the body with every minutiae she wouldn't want to hear is like his brain connects faster to his mouth than it can connect to his sense of morality sometimes which I guess turned out to be a good thing in this one case or just good common sense in general like there's other minor things he blurts out at times, he's stated to not have tact be his strongest suit, he's insensitive on accident trying to fumble through interactions even if he's entirely confident on what he's saying he's soo sharp when he has a goal in mind but he's soo dense if he's trying to just exist my man is so traumatized and his brain always seems to default to taking the most of any given situation in as possible to desensitize himself instead of any other response and sometimes it pushes his mind to be so single mindedly entranced on not ending up that way too that he'll describe a mangled body in excruciating detail to a grieving relative even if that's his friend and even if he feels guilty about it immediately as soon as he catches up with what just left his mouth instead of staying in his thoughts

#I did it I made a post about Junpei without talking about the Kurashikis!! #I am... still doing that here in the tags because that's how this train of thought started but... akdhsk #like I just started thinking how even in the everything is fine and junepei still has the capacity to be a healthy couple AU in my head #he would still have moments™ like this #how he would make invasive little questions about uncomfortable things to reminisce about #not realize he's overstepping right away not deal in the best way with Akane's meltdowns if she's doing bad enough to have them #kind of like in door 3 as in still being touchy and stuff but nothing bad on purpose #nothing like pushing her around like I still can't believe he canonically does in zero tiem dilemma #but yeah basically that's it that's the post I like Junpei a lot despite not being as present in my every waking thought as other character #and I love this about him love that he isn't just completely heroic that he has to struggle a bit #he's a protagonist that feels so generic for the first few minutes but he's anything but the more you play #I love how No One in ze is a good flawless person the way stories usually portray #they have quirks and hang ups that they are capable of doubling down on or turning for the worse under circumstances that push them to #again not. really including zerotiemdillema on that one but you get what I mean #zero escape #zero escape spoilers #999 spoilers #junpei 999 #junpei tenmyouji #every character in this series who ultimately wants to do good has to struggle so much with the horrors around them and in themselves for i #and then there still aren't right simple answers and they still try for the slim possibility that things can be okay this time and I love i #escape room convention but it's a time loop

[anarchotolkienist]

I must say that the main thing that has caused me to despair of the Left is that I have come to see the question of Fascism and of anti-Semitism increasingly seriously as time goes on, and to view them as some of the defining questions of history and of modernity. If you do that it becomes very clear how woefully inadequately these things are understood, and just how unimportant the broad Left views them as.

#I have absolutely no answer to the question of anti-Semitism by the way #bo clue what can be done #maybe the Messiah will come and it'll be fine? maybe we'll experience the Kingdom on Earth? #short of that I have no idea #the one I am loyal to is some sort of committed socialist internationalism and solidarity that would guarantee a broad defense #of the Jewish people from anti-Semitism and the podsible maintenance of Jewish culture and the religion it is rooted in #but I completely despair of the Left beong at all capable of dealing with this when we can't even cast out the worst anti-Semites from us

[distant-screaming]

'dee this is the fifth post in the last minute about how they look at each other' I KNOW!!! I KNOOOW!!!!! JUST. LOOK AT THEM

#I cannot deal PLEASE #they give me heartbreaking angst and then this as if I am capable of being normal about either #dee watches pit babe #pit babe the series #pit babe

[ninjaaa-go]

why am I getting so emotional about a little plastic ghost??? morro seriously has such a grip on me it’s insane

#I have too many thoughts that I can’t properly articulate here #but I’ve been watching dragons rising and just saw episode 5 so no spoilers beyond that please #but oh boy and I feeling some things about Morro #I think part of it is just supremely unfortunate timing because literally right before I watched the episode #I finished writing a chapter of my Morro centric fic and the stuff I was writing today was about his identity and how #his connection to the wind plays into it #so I was kind of emotionally primed to just have a lot of feelings about a new master of wind #I have a lot of feelings about dragons rising in general both good and bad but that’s a whole separate deal #idk if I had a point and I’m just rambling now but Morro has just really carved out a soft spot in my heart #and I’m probably too attached to him but what can you do #he and Jay are my specialest little guys and I am not capable of being normal about them #ninjago #lego ninjago #dragons rising #ninjago dragons rising #Ninjago dragons rising spoilers #dragons rising spoilers #they’re just in the tags but I figure better to be safe #ninjago morro

[swiftfootedachilles]

The people youre talking about were friends way before you showed up why are you making this such a big thing

i didn't even name anyone y'all don't even know what users i was referring to 💀 "before i showed up" some of the users didn't even join the fandom until long after i did so what are you talking about.... not that you would know that since i was purposefully vague and never named them ☠️☠️☠️

#if y'all hate me why do you keep sending me asks #actual fan behavior #one thing about me is once i block someone i leave them tf alone and don't interact #asks #anonymous #'such a big thing' i literally cant rejoin the servers bc the mods/owners actively dislike me and id be putting myself in a bad position #i cant interact with many fandom events because the people who organize them have me blocked so i can't even see the posts 💀 #and have yall missed the one billion posts ive made in reference to having rejection sensitive dysphoria and literal psychosis like #my brain is only capable of making a big deal out of every little thing i am openly mentally ill 😜

[manasurge]

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#sometimes I wish drawing wasn't such a lonely activity #am in a bit of a social mood but can't find anything to socialize about #i also wish I didn't need to spend ALL DAY trying to prep my brain to try to draw; despite it being something I wanna do and enjoy #why must i have executive dysfunction over my hobbies #this is why it takes me one million years to something I can actually get done in a few days at most #i'm so incredibly frustrated and it's super depressing and bumming me out #it's just so frustrating and i'm so irritated at myself #i know it's shark week so maybe it's why i'm a bit of a mess; but usually it doesn't affect me during the time so idk #also i love how every night I get to deal with the crippling dread and lowkey anxiety attacks bc everything i'm avoiding/afraid of and it- #- keeps festering in my mind and makes me avoid sleep for as long as possible and i'm stuck in an eternal negative feedback loop #i can't even do the thing i enjoy bc my brain is making it hard for me #not to mention that I constantly get those thoughts about how i'm never getting anywhere in life and i am in fact; ALONE #no irl friends or family and it still scares me to think about how worse things will get in the future for me. #not to mention not having a career or being capable of doing any kind of secondary schooling makes the dread even worse #but again frustrated and i can't even apply positive activities like how I'd usually do; not to mention i'm just always mad at myself about #-everything lmao #stupid brain just let me enjoy me hobby bc i wanna do it and you're not letting me and it's making me feel worse #delete later probably idk lmao

[genderfluidgothwitch]

Damn I should have gotten this guys phone number today

#he's a coworker and a really cool guy #he definitely has a crush on me and ngl I'm kinda into him too #I AM POLYAMOROUS I AM NOT CHEATING ON MY HUSBAND #he was actually the first one I told about it #anyways I should see him tomorrow too so I can just get it then when I'm not dealing with the tags #they're sending three boxes this week and I'm fuckin annoyed about it #normally we only have one #it's a huge sale changeover week tho so I get it #it's just also my first week as the department head so... yeah I got a lot riding on this #they're not gonna demote me cuz they know I'm capable #it's just me wondering if I'm capable (and I am)

[darcyolsson]

i am very much a Deal With My Own Problems kind of person which often puts me in scenarios where someone accidentally witnesses me going Through It leaving them very concerned and i have to be like oh thats very sweet but this is normal actually!! which is then followed by more concern

#i think in the end my tendency to hide my health problems causes that concern #bc i am capable of dealing with it myself so i hide it so ppl will let me do that #but as a result ppl dont really ever see me dealing with it leading them to think that i cant #bc to them my exhaustion seems like a rare one-off thing instead of like. the thing that controls half of my life at all times #its different w my close friends though im a little less vigilant around them. and that's completely ok. so crazy do other ppl know ab this? #personal

[rescue-ram]

AU where we got TrapHawkCharles Swamp Rats and TrapCharles just immediately descend into the most vicious Boston Class Warfare imaginable, and the first Real Sustained TrapHawk fight happens in like. Month Five of the TrapCharles feud. When Hawkeye asks if Charles is really that bad. And Trapper is just like 🤬🤬🤬🤬 YES

#i am exaggerating for comedic effect #because trapper was capable of civility even with frank #but ALSO i think he would have the funniest most specific objections to charles' Whole Deal

[arvoze]

the power i will receive in a matter of days will be astounding. watch out

#i am making this post to ramble. idk if it will actually change anything but i am trying 2 be hopeful . #ive been very. Rough all month thus far both physically and mentally and occasionally both at the same time #i am just hoping tht wat i am getting soon will help me do things bc ive rly had no energy to do anything at alllllll #and i rly dont want to like. Explode i would like to get things done #i have things i owe to people!!! i just dont have the spoons to do it Ever and it piles iup and up in my head #it fucking blows dude i have been stuck in a horrendous loop for like almost 6 months #i just want 2 be normal u know . i am hoping something will change soon #if it does not change in the nesxt few days when my shit arrives i think im like. Done For in general #like if im unable to get anything done in the next few days then i am going to very seriously have to reconsider #literally everything i do online i think. its a bit fucked up #ik it sounds like an exaggeration bu there is noooo way in hell i am Surviving like tihs !!!!!!! slash srs #i wish twitter circles did not die so i cold blow up in there bu back to ye olde norm of tumblr tags will have to do #also it feels less invasive so like. win for me ig. i do miss rambling nonstop in tags #i miss tumblr!! i miss a lot of old stuff. reminiscing for reasons both good and bad. the tumblr stuff is the good side tho #anyways i have been slowly chipping away at writing thigns this month and ik its like. not a lot at all. #but its a lot to *me* and when youre someone whos only capable of doing so mch its like. a big deal #(im writing pmdnd stuff finally getting back into gear nd stuff i have been trying to slowly draw the npcs #that ive made whilst trying to recover in other areas bu rghghrghgrgr i dont ewant to draw #i havent wanted to draw in a long long time blows up) #i shuld. stop typing actually i am rambling too much i jsujt have nowhere to mindlessly ramble anymore technicaly #i dont want to bug my friends w me being unwell all the time DFJKGHDFKGFG #mayne i will try to ccontinue with the npcs. we will see based on if i post again in the next 30 minutes

[fullmoonfireball]

smash bros tierlist but it's solely about how much the characters can/do punch in their home games

#i am not making this #Rambles Into The Void #tiers include: core gameplay is punching-based #gameplay is not punching-based but character can punch in every entry #capable of punching in most entries #(or well. every entry they're in at least) #occasionally capable of punching #never has punched in their life #there's probably some weird grey areas like 'has punched but not in actual gameplay' but im not doing this so i dont have to deal with it

[lanshappycorner]

im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal

(ramble in the tags)

#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate #she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk #she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3 #i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her #so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation #i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not- #-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded #(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things #when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs #but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her 💀💀 #anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine #ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am #there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well #i miss her actually :((( #my second roommate tho. she scares me

[doctorwhoisadhd]

im actually going to kill.

#aggravating type of professor to deal with: Nice But Hugely Ineffective At Teaching And Does Things In Extremely Dumb Ways And Seemingly You #Are The Only One Capable Of Seeing Through Their Bullshit #GOD i am starting to hate this guy #ari opinion hour