#i am not unpacking this btw. not unpacking this

[boycannibal]

world if i had normal fantasies about my crushes 

#my mind Naturally goes to me being a vampire ambushing [redacted] at night like a wild cat or perhaps a bird of prey #i would not do that irl because its bad because its actual genuine violence #and its not ok without consent but a girl can daydream about being a thirsty vampire predator. right #okay goodnight i think im going a little crazy because im super tired/sleepy and also down bad.yeah #''my girl freaky man. last night she told me she wishes she had claws so she could stick them in my back and watch me writhe'' #i am not unpacking this btw. not unpacking this

[beanghostprincess]

Sanji and Usopp during The Sabaody Incident™ won't leave my mind.

Usopp standing in front of Sanji protectively because he is wounded and he can't fight, so Usopp will do it for him ("I'll do what you can't do").

There is just something about Sanji's expression when he realizes he might actually lose Usopp. This is my interpretation, at least. He is literally frightened.

Usopp helping Sanji stand up to run away. This is crucial for something I want to point out later: Sanji needs help to stand up. (Also, Brook disappears trying to protect them both and saying he will do anything to save them even if it costs him his life. I am feeling sick).

Sanji being self-sacrificing and blaming himself for not being able to protect them/act sooner is not new. But he does manage to gain the strength to fight when Usopp is the only one left with him and the possibility of losing him is even more real now.

The thing that I love the most about this is not Sanji sacrificing himself for Usopp, because he does that. He is like that. But Usopp not running away or moving in the slightest because he refuses to leave Sanji on his own.

Something I'd like to point out too is that Sanji actually touches Kuma before Usopp disappears. He tries to fight and protect him and Kuma could've easily sent Sanji to Momoiro Island right away, and yet Sanji was just sent flying far from the scene and forced to see Usopp disappear in front of him.

And I am not saying that "not being able to protect both Brook and Usopp (especially Usopp) is needed for Sanji to realize he has to become stronger and find more reasons to go back with the crew" but not being able to protect both Brook and Usopp (especially Usopp) is needed for Sanji to realize he has to become stronger and find more reasons to go back with the crew.

Not to mention that we can't deny (right after Water 7/Enies Lobby) that Usopp is one of Sanji's strongest bonds within the crew. This specific scene focusing on them both is more than enough to prove it.

Sanji seeing Usopp disappear in front of his eyes without being able to do anything to save him.

Remember what I said about Sanji needing help to stand up seconds ago? Well. This is him the moment Usopp disappears. What adrenaline and the power of love do to a mf.

They are so "I can lose everything, but not you. Oh God, not you" shaped.

#sorry for bringing up sabaody i am sure nobody wants to think about it #but they mean the world to me and there is SO MUCH to unpack #we don't talk enough about this i think ????? #sanji spending two whole years having nightmares about not being able to save usopp. about seeing usopp disappearing in front of him #he still has them btw #sanji having to sleep with usopp post-ts because he is afraid of waking up and seeing he is gone #also i am having thoughts about brook protecting them and #and brook saying he will do anything to save them #because sanji has only heard that from zeff so......... so just thinking. i have thoughts. i told you brook is one of sanji's father figure #back to sanuso- thinking about how this whole scene despite having brook too is mainly focused on both sanji and usopp #thinking abt how the others disappear mostly focusing only on luffy's reactions but this emphasizes a lot sanji's attempts to save usopp #why would you give them a whole scene i am throwing up #sorry still thinking abt sanji apologizing to usopp for not being able to protect him or #or having nightmares he definitely has nightmares about it #and usopp just. staying with him and making him see that he is alright now. and letting him cry. #early post-ts kills me #still angry we don't have almost post-ts sanuso #i might start crying thinking abt them so it'll be better if just shut up and post this #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #sabaody

[bbygirl-obi]

the prevalence of certain fandom attitudes towards the relationship between mace windu and anakin skywalker cannot be separated from the fact that mace windu is a darker skinned black man and anakin skywalker is a conventionally attractive white man with blue eyes and blond hair- *gunshots*

nor can it be separated from the fact that mace windu lives a lifestyle that is both asexual and aromantic (in violation of the framework of the the nuclear family) and is devoted to non-western forms of philosophy and community, while anakin skywalker embodies the archetype of the heterosexual, alloromantic, wife-and-two-kids ideal (achieving it is literally his only priority)- *additional gunshots*

#friendly reminder that we all have internalized racism yes even the best of us yes even poc #white supremacy is something we spend our entire LIVES unpacking if you ever think you've achieved wokeness you have in fact lost it #i am not claiming to be the buddha #nor am i claiming that this is 100% the issue #but i think there is a nonzero number of people in this fandom for whom it IS the issue in part when it should not be at ALL #i think samuel l jackson is hot btw but white supremacist beauty standards do not #mace windu #mace #anakin skywalker #anakin #star wars #sw

[bonefall]

So, since BB!Ivypool will use her newfound deputy status to force a confrontation with Dovewing- how would she react if Dovewing snaps and told her to her face that she never, EVER wanted to speak with her again after everything? Like, would it click for her that even if she deeply regrets the way she treated her sister, no matter how sorry she is its up to Dovewing if she's ever forgiven? Or does she blame Heartstar thinking she turned her sister against her?

Let's pop open the hood of BB!Ivypool and her fucked up little life, and every person she's been leading up to the end of BB!TBC.

All of this starts with her father, Lionblaze, raising her with this axiom; That you are given strength to serve your Clan.

While he used Dovepaw and her powers in service of ThunderClan (often fighting with her mentor, Birchfall), Lionblaze encouraged his daughter to involve herself in Dark Forest training. Ivypaw felt like this was how she "earned" affection from her Ba, with hard work.

Just as Lionblaze believed that his physical abuse at the paw of Ashfur made him stronger, Ivypool also came to believe that growing up thrown to the wolves made her stronger too.

So when Dovewing first started to... not even REJECT the idea, just display any resentment towards it at all, it's like a personal slight.

No one ever fucking listens to Dovewing. No one cares what she wants. Just what she can do for them.

And Ivypool was super part of that. Her mentor is Brightheart, who often overexerts herself as an expression of PTSD. She saw Hawkfrost "die" turning against Tigerstar for the greater good. She sees Bumblestripe "working so hard" to "help Dovewing adjust" while she's losing her hearing.

In her eyes, Dovewing was being selfish. Look at all these people who give EVERYTHING to their Clans-- how dare you try and make it about yourself?

Tigerheart, in and out of their life constantly, gets blamed because it's a lot easier to pin it all on the Evil Codebreaking Foreigner than admit that maybe Dovewing has a point. Ah HA! THERE is the villain responsible for making my sister act weird! I knew it all along!

(Plus Tigerheart and Ivypool got pitted against each other a LOT in DF training because Ivy was Hawkfrost's apprentice and Tigerheart was Tigerstar's, for some incredibly fucked up projection reasons you'd expect of Tunnelbunstar. Ivypool will nonsensically blame Tigerheart like she's a Dinkleberg.)

(Also tbf tigerheart would 100% let her believe it, 1. Because it's funny, and 2. Because it takes the heat off Dovewing)

And Ivypool was VICIOUS about this. AVoS is still getting shuffled but if anything vindictive she did towards Dove in that arc gets removed, I will replace it with something just as bad. She would actively sabotauge ShadowClan if it meant keeping Tigerheart away from Dovewing.

She can't handle the thought of losing Dovewing. At some point, it became about control. It's her insecurity towards herself, towards her family, towards all of her losses, and even towards service of her very Clan.

And then Dovewing booked it. Couldn't handle this shit and panicked and BAILED.

And THEN it's about getting Dovewing BACK. She's even dragged Fernsong into this and tried to leverage his friendship with Dovewing to this end. She'll even support Bumblestripe when he tries to argue for an invalidation of Queen’s Rights on technicality.

Ivypool: "Those kits are Bumblestripe's! He has a claim! They even have HIS MANE"

Heartstar: "Hmm. No, it is very clearly MY mane."

Ivypool: "You can't-- wait what?"

Heartstar: "Lightkit even has my beautiful smile <3 so fuck off, maybe?"

For a long time that's where Ivypool was. She was the awful, vindictive sister-in-law constantly trying to weasel in to make Dovewing feel bad. When she had kittens of her own, she was still in this mindset.

It didn't end well. In BB!TBC, Bristlefrost needed her. Ivypool stepped in to prevent her from being the impostor's pawn, but refused to do anything when she was caught and imprisoned for being in a HalfClan relationship. She needed to be punished as a codebreaker.

Brought to the next Gathering, the impostor reiterated the need to enforce the code, and desperate times calling for desperate measures. He called for SkyClan to punish their own warrior. They refused to make this a public spectacle.

So he sliced open her throat, right on the branch beside him.

Ivypool didn't imagine she would be KILLED. Suddenly her whole world shattered. The moon stayed clear and bright. Her daughter was dead before she hit the ground and she had HERSELF to blame.

Dovewing and Ivypool served in the rebellion together, and eventually Ivy went into the Dark Forest as a Light in the Mist. She watched Bristlefrost die, AGAIN, knocking Ashfur out of the sky and burning them both up in orbit, and how brave Shadowsight had been in pinning him in place.

Ivypool NEEDS Dovewing to know now that she's different. She's learned a lot. She understands so, so much more now...

But DOES she? She still hates Heartstar's guts. She still feels abandoned. How different ARE you now, Ivypool, with your renewed interest in finding some petty reason to skirt around Dovewing's direct wishes? When you're still here getting into blowout arguments with Heartstar?

So to answer the question, if Dovewing told her directly, "I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR DESPERATION. IM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR FEELINGS. PISS OFF"

Ivypool would not be able to accept that.

It just wouldn't stick, ever. It really is desperation. Dovewing NEEDS to know that Ivypool loves her and misses her, and that she understands, but also that Heartstar is delusional, and this is still kind of Dovewing's fault. And Ivypool will do anything to make her know this.

But I also DO want to say; this is a very unique weakness. It is Dovewing Derangement Syndrome. Ivypool is a competent deputy, and she is a devoted and respected warrior of ThunderClan. It will be no surprise she's being picked for deputy, especially considering (god willing) Squirrelstar is seeking war with ShadowClan.

She is a good friend, mate, and leader. But BB!Ivypool is so, so fucked in the head about Dovewing. This family can fit so much trauma in it

#BB!Ivypool #Better bones au #BB!OOTS #bb!TBC #BB!Dovewing #BB!Heartstar #Ivy is both a victim and a perpetrator. I do have sympathy for her #Which I think is what really makes this so juicy #But your pain doesn't mean you get to have whatever you want #Or even whatever you think you need #I think it's hard to explain it because it's not logical AT ALL #It's a boiling soup of strong and desperate emotions that Ivy has not unpacked #And how can you even? SO much has happened to Ivy #So many awful and DIFFERENT things #I want to study her #For the record btw I am on Dovewing's side in this conflict tho lmaoooooooo #Dovewing I'm so sorry. It's extremely fun watching Ivypool try to break into your house to rearrange your fridge magnets to say 'TALK TO ME #You deserve better. But I cant look away. #Dovewing is trying so hard to become a background character it's hysterical #Girl you are in the Main Character Family (for bb at least) you are not allowed to have a peaceful life with your beautiful wife

[paarthursass]

i think it’s funny that death is, technically speaking, the only other person “present” with lucheni as he tells the story.  everyone else is just a shadow, an illustration that lucheni is painting.  but death is there, too.  he shows up in the prologue.  but he’s silent, he doesn’t offer commentary (aside from his solo in the opening number) and just plays his role.  and i think that’s very funny of him.

luigi’s undoubtedly an unreliable narrator but death does NOT speak up to confirm or deny ANYTHING lucheni’s saying.  either death’s had to do this song and dance a few time before an is INCREDIBLY bored with it and doesn’t feel like putting in more effort than he has to, or he’s bored and playing along for the lolz and just nodding his head in agreement.  lucheni could say ‘and then elisabeth fought attila the hun’ and death would just be like ‘yep. that happened.  what do you mean he died 1400 years prior.  he was there i saw him.’

#sophie.txt #elisabeth das musical #biggest clown in elisabeth das musical is death bcs WHATEVER way u look at his character or motives #any option is incredibly funny #does he actually love elisabeth/rudolf? cosmic entity gets feelings for the first time. clown behavior #is he just messing around with them? cosmic entity ignores job to fuck with royals. clown behavior #was he actually not even there in that capacity and lucheni is just embellishing and death isn't even denying it? clown behavior #i say this affectionately btw #when i call him a clown i am giggling and patting his head like a kitten #also when actors playing death choose to glare at lucheni or shoot him a look when he says something. ugh so good #thinking about that moment in the 2004 revival when death clares at lucheni for making fun at elisabeth's expense in the opening #saying 'she loved heinrich heine' and then lucheni turning and FREEZING at the look death is giving him #SO GOOD UGH #SO MUCH to unpack there #rotating that moment in my head 24/7 #also sorry for spamming the elisabeth tag im just having completely normal thoughts about it as u can see

[arsonnaire]

hee hee

#feeding you all (coty and theo) #he's soooooo #sighs deeply #i am so excited to draw him when i get back home #just gotta unpack and find my sketchbook #or buy a new sketchbook #edit 1: thinking abt my rival!luke bot btw #fits this photo set so good

[tollsoftheclockwerkbelle]

can we get a movie about tigeress alone and unpack all of that please

#kung fu panda #tigeress #ive been watching the movies again and like #is anybody else bothered about the fact that whenever there are emotional moments with Tigeress there is like. SO MUCH to unpack there #and they just go yup. and don't go back to touch that ever again #um wait! go back! i think we should explore that a little maybe? #like when Tigeress talks about punching the ironwood trees for training and feeling nothing now. but she says it in a way that.... idk. #and Po is like 'WOW THAT IS HARDCORE' and she's just 'Oh. Yeah... I guess so?' like.. babe. Do you need therapy? (the answer is yes btw) #Like. can we please talk about the fact that Po and Tigeress lived the SAME story but Po gets his happy endings and closures and payoffs #and Tigeress has to just... keep existing #until she gets written out of the narrative ig :/ #I love Po so much #<3 #but let's get some more love for Tigeress here too oh my god I am begging you please

[maryunixx]

i keep dreaming about getting executed by customer service

#my package is like 3 months late so i wrote a mail to the supplier #the answer was really normal but i hate inconveniencing ppl #i am not unpacking any of that btw haha my dreams stay prophetic only #certified 0 notes

[katierosefun]

writing the same original characters for six or seven years now is so fascinating and exciting because i know them better now because we’ve grown up together and also it’s exciting to draw new relationships and flesh out new relationships and understand just how they’re all connected and i am actively standing in front of my doc like this

#caroline talks #me at all hours btw #when i move into my new place #i’m gonna buy a cork board and a white board #one for school #and the other specifically for writing #so i can stand in front of it like the insane person I truly am #i can't express how much i love my original characters #in that i realized that one of my original characters just has a weird energy for everyone #and i've also been unpacking some stuff in the original characters #and i'm just like 'oh wow! the reason why i didn't know u as well when i was 16 was because 16 year old me would NOT have been able #to deal with ALL OF THESE ISSUES!!!' #ie. every single one of my original characters has some. really questionable coping mechanisms #me tired: can you guys just behave yourselves #my original characters: :))) we're all so sad and so angry right now! we are going to actively make ourselves worse #me: of course you are.

[returnofahsoka]

the difference between these two images haunts me in ways i simply cannot put into words

look. at. this. look how tiny and insignificant and vulnerable that light is against the darkness and then look how they almost burn everything out in that other scene, blinding and white-hot and powerful, and tell me you don't want to chew on your phone screen

#ohooh i am looking. i am perceiving. i am beholding. #im going fucking feral there is SO MUCH to unpack here #star trek #st prodigy #prodigy spoilers #zero #both of these images break my heart btw but in like Very Different ways #i love them so much 😭 #also. i stand by my earlier assessment that they're actually beautiful no matter what kirk says in 'is there in truth no beauty' #jim i have eyes and i will not stand for this medusan slander #anyways ive gone off topic #do you ever look at them and want to fucking cry?? funky little eldritch horror being i love u so so so much #tiny ball of light i would die for u #my posts #feel free to ignore my rambles btw

[guinevereslancelot]

every day i make plans to chill and have fun when the tasks are complete and every day the tasks take all day

#i keep meaning to set up my spotting scope and wait for wildlife bc its so nice and warm but the sun still sets at 4 #anyway the tasks are self inflicted im anxious abt the phone call ive been waiting for 😞 #the good news is my room is becoming clean and organized and useable and kitty proof finally #anyway i am once again waking up like okay after im done organizing my room i will have fun #yes it is taking days i had to assemble bookshelves yesterday and i still have boxes to unpack #it looks nice now and is mostly usable but there's still boxes #the phone call will be good if it comes btw im just stressed #its abt the kitty im trying to adopt #i haven't heard anything in five days but yesterday was a holiday and i think they only started processing the applications the day before #so 🙏🤞

[ladyimaginarium]

me& facedesking & going fucking feral & begging singlets to care about systems even when their issues don't affect them:

#arcana.txt #i& swear to fuck y'all literally don't post or show your allyship w/ anything to do w/ us unless it's sb you care about it's clown behavior #i& am Begging y'all to unpack the internalized p.luralphobia & a.bleism & s.anism bc it's there. #LISTEN to us if/when we& tell you what you're saying/doing is p.luralphobic. yes. even if what we're saying h.urts your feelings. #We Are Not Made To Be Palatable To Singlets #yes. that means no fakeclaiming. yes. that means treating each of us& as different individuals. #yes. that means treating us& as equally important instead of only talking to me& & ignoring the other members of the s.ystem. #yes. that means standing up for us& & using your singlet privilege when other singlets try to come for us. bc they always do. lmao #@ /nbh here btw #** post; okay to reblog.

[gailynovelry]

You know you're in too deep with the worldbuilding when you realize that your setting actually has four or five recognized gender categories, and that one of those gender categories is basically "what if 'furry' was a gender."

#writeblr #worldbuilding #not joking about this (or making fun of furries for that matter) #as a potential(?) furry myself #it's just a little thing that makes me smile #anyway Rhimn's gender categories are male / female / ungendered / bestial / and a weird spot where bigender she/her-he/hims like me fall #the latter three categories are mostly associated with the fey but tbh Crislie and Mep sorta fall under the bestial category a little? #and Tincre is proudly straight-up just that gender #so is Daughi but that is A Can Of Worms regarding the fact that Daughi is self-aware enough to decide her gender in the first place #the ungendered category is interesting because it overlaps with Earth's nonbinary category #it's associated more with they/them pronouns #but it's not a perfect overlap #Gildhe falls under this category and so does Ainzel once Book 3 starts #bestial is more associated with it/its but like the ungendered category and they/them it's not an exclusive thing #most of the wyfwolves are bestial as well as female and most of them do the she/her thing #also i'm going to have to unpack the fact that Rhimn is primarily matriarchal at some point #Mep and Vae are both considered very GNC for their world btw? #it's funny to have to explain this because they both seem gender conforming by Earth standards but they get told off for it once or twice #look i am writing . . . in universe research papers okay #that's how dedicated i am to the sociology here i guess

[srvphm]

lmao I can’t believe some people still wanna argue that queer isn’t a slur because they like to reclaim it. thats like half of the appeal for me. I love being queer, I love being a queer, I love being outside the societal norms and I kinda love that it bothers people. I love being the queer that will stay on some asshole’s mind when they hear my chains rustle as I get off at my stop. I love being that queer that gets judging stares from adults and amazement from kids who haven’t been taught that it’s wrong to be like me yet. I love being queer in the same way I love being a faggot. love being a crossdresser a fairy a queen. I love being comfortable with my identity in a world that’s invented a hundred different words to insult it. I’ll wear every single one of them as a badge of honour, and don’t you fucking dare tell me queer isn’t one of those. don’t you fucking dare deny that queer was ever slurred at me and I’ve chosen to reclaim it. don’t you fucking dare tell me this isn’t my choice to make.

#listen you’re allowed to love that word with all your heart #there is absolutely nothing bad about ​being queer and identifying as queer #and I’m not here to deny all the positive experiences people have had with it #I ​love it. I love how it’s nonspecific but unambiguous. #but you will not deny the past and present use of that word agaisnt some of us as a slur. as verbal abuse. #you WILL NOT tell that identifying as queer isn’t My choice to make for Myself #and you will not say ‘it’s been reclaimed’ as if that’s a choice you can make for me or anyone else #if you’re uncomfortable that queer has and is used as a slur by people who truly do not care whether or not you reclaim it #that’s your problem to unpack. our history is not a happy thing and I get wanting to forget the horros I really do. #I’m sorry that the word you love so much has been wielded as a weapon against some of us. like I genuinely am. #but you issue is with homophobia and transphobia. not the reminder that it exists but the fact that it does #does that make sense #okay to reblog if you want to #I will not be taking arguments #I love when queer people call me queer btw I love that it’s our thing

[thisiswhymp3]

lmao the end of ragtime just made me sob so hard i had to do breathing exercises, so that’s fun!

#it’s usually not quite so brutal but having a visual sure changes things!!! #‘well when he is old enough- I will show him america!’ sung by the spirits of his parents unjustly murdered by america #from the song once full of promise and possibility now haunted forever BUT ALSO. SEE THEM RUNNING DOWN THE BEACH. CHILDREN RUN SO FAST #TOWARD THE FUTURE. FROM THE PAST. BTW. #i got two hours of sleep i am rambling there is more to unpack here than what i’ve stated so far

[a-model-of-propriety]

i'm not bigbrained enough for the essay i'm writing i have decided

#seph speaks #every once in a while something i type will make me go #'OHOHOHO. CONNECTIONS >:3' #and then when asked to explain what said connections are brain goes •_• #this topic has a LOT of material to work with but apparently i am not the one destined to unpack it /hj #will i write it anyway? yes #(it's an analysis essay btw. just based off a couple pages of a story i've read in class) #vent tw #<- ? kinda?