#i can't taste it in my mouth

[gingerlyj]

"I was lazy, I wasnt trying to be malicious"

My problem with the whole Somerton apology, is that his actions were arguably malicious! If you take several steps to hide what you've done, if you start vague-tweeting at people who later have to hide their presence online because of harassment, if you dismiss lgbtq+ creator's concerns by just deleting the bits of the videos where you stole from them, you're not being "lazy", you're actually putting in a lot of work so that your version of events remains the only narrative!

#usually I don't care about internet drama but this left a bad taste my mouth #I don't doubt that he's feeling true anguish #and I do feel sorry for him I can't begin to imagine the experience of being the internet's villain of the week #but I feel he doesn't truly understand the extent of his actions #and I do find it irresponsible for him to state he wants to continue making videos saying everything will be different because he'll quote #James somerton

[astaraels]

why do people think Yevgeny wasn't Mickey's son? in 3x06 there was clearly no condom used (not that Terry probably would have let Svetlana stop to get one), but there's no reason to think she wasn't using condoms with her regular clients. it's not Svetlana's fault that she was a tool used to rape Mickey—the sole blame for everything that happens in that entire situation belongs to Terry Milkovich and him alone—so why does it feel like it's just another way for people to shit on Svetlana for something that wasn't in her control? it's not as though she'd asked to get pregnant in the first place...

#stop giving svetlana shit just because terry was one of her clients—between him and sasha do you really think she had a chance to say no? #her attitude towards mickey is s4 is very easy to understand when you think about the fact that a) she's his age or maybe a year older #b) she is a person who knows she has to take what life gives her and make the best of bad situations #c) her entire future rests (so she thinks) on her and mickey making their marriage work and he was absorbed in ian (which the audience gets #but svet has no context for) and thus her feeling threatened is very understandable because mickey also won't stand up to his father #so yeah of course svet is gonna see terry as the one person who will put things the way they're supposed to be #but! it's after mickey comes out and he and ian fight everyone in the bar that she realizes mickey could be an ally to her #and she extends a hand in friendship because they're both stuck in this situation and yeah of course she wants him to stop being stupid #about yev—as she puts it “baby did not choose this either” which leads me to think she understands mickey's situation a little better now #but yev looks so much like mickey and has those big blue eyes of his (also evidence for baby mickey being blond) #I get that the whole child from rape thing isn't fun for mickey to have to deal with but women have to go through it all the time—like Svet #okay rant over I'm sorry I'm just...it puts a bad taste in my mouth whenever I see it in fic or meta that yev can't *possibly* be mickey's #mickey milkovich #svetlana yevgenivna #yevgeny milkovich #shameless

[katierosefun]

hm maybe i’m going to get flack for this, but i genuinely don’t understand how some self-claimed fic lovers can be the same people who a) pressure and harass writers into producing more and more stories, regardless of their current health or personal lives, b) pressure writers when they aren’t updating fast enough, again, regardless of their current health or personal lives, and c) now, apparently, feed their supposedly beloved writers’ stories into ai bots. it’s becoming incredibly disheartening and clear that some folks don’t care so much about writers and really care exclusively about feeding whatever greedy need they have to just consume.

#caroline talks #don't mind me. maybe i'm just in a particularly horrendous mood because of the weather or whatever #but like. listen. as someone who has had a largely positive experience fic writing + fandom in general #i have still had several instances which still leave a sour taste in my mouth #you can't say 'oh my god i love your stories i would love to read more' in one second #and then go 'why aren't you writing anything how come you're taking so long this one isn't as good as your others' in the next #which like. thank god i haven't had too many of those messages but sometimes. when they DO come in they make me pause #listen to me: a reader's impatience will never be worth as nearly as much as a writer's well-being. okay?

[ghostofbambifanfiction]

Can't get to sleep so I tried to write. She said no.

#Cola the cat #I woke up with my mouth full of blood this morning #I swear I can still taste it and it's gross #can confirm that I wouldn't be a good vampire #so it's less 'can't sleep' more 'won't sleep' #blood thinner problems

[sir-fluffbutts]

Have you ever thought abt this?... You and ur sponsors and ur patrons can make a movie or a series abt ur characters!! Since ur oc's stories r like related to each other and there's a lot of cool stuff happening (Fb be like wtf bro is this cool seriously) it will totally work out what do u say lol

saw some similar asks (me doing a series) in there so

HONESTLY??? I WISH, I REALLY DO 😭

theres currently 3 main storys going on in my head which is the

• axolotls story (chiffon/latte and ect)

• fish market story (pepper,achii,kenny ect)

• anger cafe story (blossom,valentine and backbite)

and i think the angel cafe one would be the most sutible for a series as its the least serious one, BUT THE THING IS, IDK if i can pull it off

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animation takes FOREVER if its a one person project, i literaly have to dissapear for +2 months for a 3 minute video and 1/3 of it isn't even animated. youtube didn't really like it when you upload nothing for a long periods of time :(

it also takes money to do that, not just for my living fees but also for voice actors and music artists at LEAST

so lets say i'll be making a 8 minute pilot with 14 aninators, 5 conposers, 3 music/sound designers and 4 voice actors, even just that that'll be more then 10000$ to pay 26 people+my own living costs, and then it can absolutly flop cause i was busy with this for +4 months and youtube hates that 😭

tldr: i really would love to but i need money for it which i don't have and even if i do, theres a 1/2 chance it'll flop

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plus angel cafe characters and my hell concept in general has been CONSTENTLY been compaired with hazbin hotel/helluva boss series ever since i intoduced the characters and its really just 🫠

#ask #this is actually the reason why i diske helluvaboss/hasbin hotel #i think the show is aright #i just CAN'T STAND IT when i upload one of my hell related characters just to hear “helluva oc?” 5 times in a row #left a bad taste in my mouth :(

[gilgil-machine]

I wish some people never had access to internet at all...

TW assault, TW r*pe

#this is one of the main reasons why I don't get into the fandom that much and just stay in my own personal bubble #I already have a bad relationship with gilturia and I just can't see those two together without having a bad taste in my mouth #despite the fact there's a lot good art with those two #and I know that not all gilturia shippers are like that #and I understand that most of them ship those two because they just look aesthetically pleasing and look good together but still... #I can't just look calmly at those two especially knowing their background and how Gilgamesh actually treats her #and honestly because of such moments sometimes I feel disgust towards Gil (obviously) but I also feel disgust towards myself #for liking such terrible character #and honestly I fear that someday because of such moments I would stop liking him or even start to hate him #but I don't want that because despite his negative traits he still is well written and very deep character that has a lot of layers to him #plus he helped me to get thought a lot of hardships especially after these past two years throughout which I got attached to him even more #and his quote that he said to Hakuno ''No matter what adversity you face there's no other way for you but forward'' #cheered me up a lot of times #sorry for the rant #I just had this things building up in my chest and these tweets just made me kinda snap #my ramblings #personal

[capricious-bastard13]

I've watched Jack's (Jacksepticeye's) playthrough of MyHouse.Wad, and at first, because I only heard of Doom and never played it, I let it play in the background. Until Jack's voice starts reading the attached letter to the game.

My thought immediately went, "This is something, and I feel like I'll like this something." I rewind it and watched it from the very start to the end. But I felt it wasn't all that it was, I bounced from his to the comments, explaining the game and all being recommended to play it for yourself. I don't have the resources to do so, so when I saw a comment about a video explaining it, I looked it up. The video lays out the house and the different ways you can go from point a to point b. I've seen Power Pak's after watching Jack's playthrough. And just now, I've watched Pyrocynical's video and theory on it.

There's two that stood out to me, near the end; he lays out the theories and practically dismisses the queer interpretations of it. Until now, I've always been in the camp of "Thomas and Steve were a couple, but due to the time period, or their families, they kept it hidden." When watching Pyro's video, I started realising, why were there pills on the bathroom floor, why the crib, the ring? And I felt like Pyro was nearly there, he was so close to putting it together.

But he dismisses Thomas perhaps being trans or that Steve and Thomas are gay--calls a "fat stretch" and "Level difficulty: Medium" respectively.

I've prefaced all this, because as someone who's transmasc, it felt invalidating. For months I've seen this game--although I never played it and only watched it--as a queer story of grief and loss, of processing that loss, of going through stages of denial, of reliving memories, of just wanting to reach an end where you feel at peace, of looking back on that journey and thinking to yourself that you've made it--past the hardships to a place where you can feel at peace again.

MyHouse.wad being as ambiguous as it is but leaving all these little tidbits is as when it comes to art, hard to piece together. But hearing about how there's also a trans interpretation of made me perk up, thinking, "oh, it's going to be talked about in detail," only to be disappointed.

So, despite being that MyHouse.wad has probably had this interpretation ("tHeOrY") put up already, I still felt compelled to write my own view on it using the pieces that I know of--but, there might be details that I describe vaguely because I don't remember them all that much.

We get tiny little small glimpses of Thomas through Steve's entries, of introduction we get along with the link to download it. And even just from the descriptions of the items in the game like the ring, the die, and whatnot. And the first thought is, "oh, they're gay, but they're not out," which is a sad thought, yes. But I held that interpretation close to me. It's a journey of Steve trying to get through his grief, of plunging in to his thoughts, dismantled and breaking apart as they are. The rawness of everything, of how for him, it probably felt so fresh still and this game, of going through their mod map is his way of processing--never mind how it consumed him, as he said.

And what I consider to be the best ending; the real beach, with a heart on the sand, initials--"S and A, forever". Who's 'A'? Isn't it supposed to be 'T' for Thomas?

I've seen how 'A' could be for "Allord", Thomas' last name, and at the time, yeah, maybe it is A for Allord. But what if it isn't? What if 'A' is the deadname--using that initial, despite it being a deadname, was probably used to protect them, protect him-Thomas. To be seen a heteronormative couple to get away from the hate, the stares, the animosity.

What about the excerpt of their death? Thomas' photo clearly being of a man? Well, that's just it. It's an indication of how the family has accepted Thomas for who he is and to honor him properly, used what a photo of what he looks like now, of who he really is. Proudly too, showing him as Thomas Allord, age 35, in the newspapers. This is their son, brother, and husband.

This is certainly something that will be labeled as a "fat stretch". The crib, then? The pills? And the bloodied bathroom? Perhaps, Thomas had gotten pregnant, experienced a miscarriage in the airport bathroom and had to be rushed to the hospital. As Steve puts in the description of the baby bottle; "It wasn't meant to be." And as he writes in his journal entry, he had a dream, a baby crying in the attic, in the crib, a still born baby.

Perhaps, Thomas was ready to carry the baby--their baby and due to complications, what happened, happened. They'd already bought the crib, but put it away, and we see, maybe both of them had hope that they still had a chance, clinging on.

"If Steve and Thomas are together as you say, then why does Steve refer to Thomas as "my friend" or "my childhood friend"?" Living through life closeted brings habits, unfortunately.

I've grown up without realising that I'm trans, and it was only the past few years where I've realised that the gender I was given and raised to be, isn't who I am. Despite my family knowing, they still call me with feminine pronouns, I get referred to as "sister", or "she/her" a lot of the times. And it's become the biggest norm for me that they just fly by my head without even noticing it, without getting the chance to say "that's not my pronouns".

Is this a "weak" point of the "theory"? No, because I see it as valid. People who aren't out or don't have the chance to express who they are live day to day with being misgendered, seen as someone they're not. I don't want to say, "everybody experiences this" or that there are people who don't go through intense dysphoria that it becomes crippling; I'm just saying, that for me, this is how my day to day is today, what it's like--a sort of cynical indifference to it that boils beneath the surface of my skin.

Or, this is Steve's way to be ambiguous; Thomas was Steve's friend first before they reunited, gotten married, lived together, after all.

Maybe, he wanted to detach himself in his grief and longing. A way to protect himself from the immense loss he's going through and this is his way of doing that. By saying that Thomas was just a childhood friend, it probably eased the pain just a bit.

Or, Power Pak states in his video, isn't it strange how explicit names are never--if ever, rarely-- given. Thomas' name doesn't show up until February of 2023. Steve's name is never used. Maybe, Steve wasn't the one who wrote the journal; a third party who saw the effects of loss on Steve, instead?

In the newspaper clipping of Thomas' life, it's stated how he reconnected with his high school crush, got married and moved in with his partner. The ambiguity could mean that the family simply didn't want bigots to be bigots toward their loved one.

In Steve's clipping detailing his life, he also reconnected with his high school crush. "Soulmate", this person is described as. And like with Thomas', "partner" is used, rather something explicit like, "husband" or "wife."

Although, "wife" can't be correct either since Steve doesn't have a partner listed who outlived him, simply his family.

With MyHouse.wad being as up for interpretation as it is, there's ways of reading into things, one can take it however way they want to, where they want to.

And I, personally, like to think that Steve and Thomas are happy together, with their cat, cuddled up together in their home.

You picked up Die. "Roll for intercourse?"

I feel so helpless, like I can't do anything to bring him back. I feel so sad and it feels like my heart is heavy. I can't help but think about all of the fun times we had together growing up. All of our adventures, our secrets, and even our arguments. I miss him so much and I can't believe he's gone.

You picked up Ring. "I do."

I attended the funeral of my childhood friend, and I was overwhelmed with grief. As I looked around at everyone else in the room, I could feel the sadness in the air... I never imagined that I would be saying goodbye to my friend so soon.

You picked up Wine Bottle. "Drunk Buddy." You picked up a Bauble. "Christmas makes me happy."

Happy Valentines day to the only person I ever loved. For a short time, you brought a little happiness to this painful existence called life. I hope we can be together again one day.

You picked up Baby Bottle. "It wasn't meant to be." You picked up Pill Bottle. "Refill needed." You picked up Full Pill Bottle. "Feelin' fine."

You picked up Game Controller. "It's my turn."

Somewhere, in another dream, the version of myself that winked back is sitting on the real beach, happy and content, knowing life is finite, there is no afterlife, and happiness is found in the small things around us that we can control. Happiness has to be fought for.

#MyHouse.wad #My Writing #-ish? #If someone reads this please be nice I know I probably got somethings wrong #Or that this interpretation has already been talked about #I just wanted to make a sort of timeline ish interpretation thing so I can get my own thoughts in order #I also know nothing about the Doom community and I only know stuff about MyHouse.wad #Pyrocynical practically dismissing the queer reading and then finding MyHouse's developer's previous partner as if to say #“See guys?” feels quite dirty #in a sense where it just leaves a bad taste in the mouth #Of course MyHouse.wad's story is fiction #but intentionally going out of your way to show the developer's family like it's a Gotcha Moment #Pyro was so close to putting the pieces of a puzzle together but it's as if he's trying to cram in two already interconnected pieces #Into the wrong holes and going “It just won't fit!” #Thomas and Steve left things ambiguous because there are things that are probably just too private and simply only for them #I can't believe honestly how he went about Thomas being trans or how Steve and Thomas can't be gay #Only to talk about their matching obituaries for the next theory #Then adding in the whole "the developer based this mod on his relationship with his partner is just #Do you not know how to separate fact from fiction? Because of course MyHouse is going to be fiction? #If Steve really is dead then Veddge's introduction to the game and saying how his “childhood friend” has passed and implying that #Veddge /is/ Steve? Do you not see how strange that would be? Or does he think that someone from Steve's life is just going around #With his account acting as if they are Steve? #My head's starting to hurt from all this Pyro honestly the fuck lmao

[mugiwara-lucy]

When Luffy hears the news after Egghead, he’s gonna be a proud momma 🥲

#one piece #opspoilers #one piece manga #one piece 1084 #don sai #leo #saint charloss #i hope when this gets adapted into the anime they use the eustass kid ost for this scene!! #i can't think of a more FITTING OST!!! #oh and can this fucktwit just die already? #he LITERALLY makes a bad taste come in my mouth!!

[kyouka-supremacy]

Still searching for the fic where Akutagawa's mouth is described as tasting of blood

#It was literally my first sskk post on here. #And I know it's a dumb thing to fixate on but it's also not? #It's a good way to express the tragedy of Akutagawa's character– #how even something as sweet and immaculate as a kiss gets corrupted by the metallic taste of blood. #And it's not because of fight‚ but because of his illness– that's another apparently indifferent detail I'm really set on #because to have blood in his mouth because of a fight is something changing and transitory; #his illness on the other hand is something that is perpetually with him‚ a tragic constant reminder of death that fits Akutagawa oh so much #Not to mention he can chose to stop fighting (and he did. well. Kind of)‚ but he can't do anything to stop his illness. #It's just another fitting metaphor of his tragic and doomed fate #Anyways. How are you doing peoples ❤️ #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #bsd #bungou stray dogs #mine #q. #05/10/22

[koifsssh]

Heya friend! Just wondering if our good old pal Rainy has ever tried the super safe fun cool drink called the grimace shake? 😁😁😁

oh, he has!!! you can find the post here!

i think he enjoyed it (?) bwahaha!

it does have his approval!

#its funny really #he can't eat. or at least he doesn't know how #so things just kind of fall out of his mouth #he can taste it! he knows its good! just cant consume... #i suppose. on a technical level. he physically can't. because puppet... #super fun and safe shake yes #i do sincerely wish to try it though... maybe one day... in my dreams... #rainy dewdrop #welcome home oc #happy birthdayyyy grimaceeee #myart #chit chat

[afro-elf]

i am so brave and so strong. everyday i see people who ship namor and shuri of black panther fame attempt to justify it by saying "but people shipped edward and bella and no one had a problem with that!" and i say nothing to them. i just laugh at them in private, i'm so brave and strong because that's literal revisionist history as if there wasn't a '118 year old vampire in high school' joke on the internet for a decade. like we didn't all find out stephanie meyers was mormon Because people were trying to figure out why the fuck she wrote their abusive relationship and age gap like that for teenagers hdygfjgfhgg

#me #'white people get jane and thor!' jane was in her late twenties early thirties and thor would never kill her mom #can't believe im saying this but we dont have to make this about race #'it's hades and persephone' is also not a good argument because that relationship begins with rape #it is a metaphor for death stealing life in the winter #and as much as i liked that myth as a little goth the revisionist retellings leave a sour taste in my mouth now #also like let namor be hot without imagining him as like an obsessive kidnapper maybe??? #its giving latin lover trope... its giving savage lover trope even

[mermaidsirennikita]

writers I so support content warnings but for the love of God don't put consensual acts under CWs because I can tell you right now a) that does contribute, however unintentionally, to some really negative attitudes our society doesn't need to big up any more than we already are right now b) this is going to be used to get your book flagged in some system(s) somewhere at some point

#romance novel blogging #same reason why we can't have a rating system for books #but also idk as a reader i know it's well-intended but i get a bad taste in my mouth when i see those CWs #doesn't give me a great vibe

[sapphirepatch]

Am I the only one who thinks the fandom got like 10 times worse since s2 of the reboot released?

#tdi 2023 #total drama fandom #tdi #idk if its because im following the total drama takes blog or that i found out bowlia exists (GO TO HELL ALL OF YOU) but sometimes #i want to bash my head into a wall #love ripaxel but it's leaving a weird taste in my mouth or its im trying so hard to like it but just can't get into it #idk I'm just not having a fun time anymore #it's bad take after bad take weird gross art #also this season is just not good #mkulia is its only saving grace #if you see me only posting trolls and metalocalypse you know why #that or i just stop interacting w the fandom #total drama #total drama season 2

[clorofolle]

I'm seeing so much oceangate stuff on my dash. I can understand why the media got obsessed with this story, but not why everyone on tumblr did. I'm seeing a lot of posts about the 19 yrs old for example - and yeah, of course I'm sorry for the kid. It sucks. And I get the compassion fatigue. I get not being able to be empathetic and grieve and be mad all day for every single disaster that happens. But I feel like the kind of things you choose to pay more attention to, and why you choose them, should be examined more carefully.

Yes, that kid was 19 and scared shitless of the trip, and it sucks he had to die. But... this was one person, who took a bad decision. You remember the boat full of migrants that capsized off the coats of Greece? There were... hundreds of people there, many of them children. And they were also really scared, and died an horrific death. That's without even taking into account the kind of life they had to endure before, if they thought this was a chance worth taking for something better.

Please, do reflect on what kind of tragedies you see talked about more often. And ask yourself why that happens. I tried giving myself answers - I'm still not sure what's the right one. Is it because tumblr is quite americanocentric, and usually uninterested with events happening in other parts of the word? Is it simply because those were rich people who died, and thus they got more coverage, and people tend to only comment whatever headlines they see that are bigger? Or is it some kind of almost on-purpose turning away from actual, preventable tragedies, ones that are symptomatic of bigger than life societal issues - and instead choosing to focus on what amounts to "rich people drama"? Because, let's be honest: 750 migrants left to die on a boat is just heart wrenching, and makes us feel hopeless and powerless. But four millionares dead for their own stupidity? That stops being a simple tragedy, and starts being entertainment.

If you read this post - if nothing else, I hope it could've helped you reflect on why you engage with the sort of news that you do, and if there's any news that you tend to ignore on purpose instead. I know I do. I'm trying to change.

#oceangate #I won't interact with any more news of it and tbh I rarely ever add on to the choir #like if I think something should just not get coverage I prefer to just... not talk about it #but this left such a weird taste in my mouth. i dunno #feels like... royal family gossip. I can't explain it. #but I swear there's a lot of places you can direct your energy and attention towards!!

[spacenintendogs]

man.

#paranoia abt ppl not liking me is the worst i think #it's what rlly keeps me down #the anxiety of it all #online and offline #rose rants #it's not debilitating rn but it crosses my mind & i think abt it #the way i hyperfocus on minute changes in how ppl interact with me #esp online #even tho ppl not liking me is inevitable #not everyone in the world can or will like me #bc human beings #and it's so easy to be like 'yea ignore those ppl' or say they don't matter in your life #and they don't! or i get why they shouldn't! #but like. even if i don't like them i can't stand the thought that i made someone upset or angry or see me & think #yea she sucks #& leave them with a bad taste in their mouth #which i suppose goes with my constant ppl pleasing #& putting others emotions & wants before mine

[rutadales]

so with the gem au. how did dream get out of the box? how'd he meet foolish? do u have a gem for sam yet, or ideas about any other characters or what they're doing? :3c

AHH TY MOSS I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS...

so techno (rhodonite) hears that Sam (idk what his gem is gonna be yet 🤔) made dream into a box (dream did some nebulous crime idk what yet) and teams up with Phil (tree agate) to go unbox dream. Happens pretty similar to the canon prison break from the dsmp!

Sam was using dream to essentially power this entire gem settlement and techno is pretty horrified bc hey, that's his buddy! and also a person! you cant do that to a person, let alone a person who's his buddy!

These are pretty rough designs so idk if I'll stick to them but I do like phils. Sam also goes full freak mode over dreams escape and is like "oh next time I'll just convince him to fuse with me and that way I can keep him from escaping" and there's a non zero chance dream goes along with it.

(dream used to be in essential a perma-fusion with Sapnap and George until the ill defined conflict happens and they split. Dream desperately longs for that closeness with anyone but also fundamentally rejects it with people he thinks kindly of.)

Dream now freshly freed from his amazon packaging goes back to his home to just protect it from people who want to colonize it. Think crystal gems but a whole lot more violent.

Enter foolish! Foolish, who had been bubbled for thousands of years and has only been running around for like the last 50 or so, is struggling to find his place in this diamond free universe. He ends building a bunch of stuff on the same world that dream's from, which was overrun with conflict in the about 100 years dreams been boxed. Dream meets him post box, they end up having similar interests so they work together. They mess around with the idea of fusing, and also maybe kiss. Yippee!!

Techno and Phil have a farm together paradot and lapis style. Q is somewhere causing problems, and I can only imagine the source for most of the problems stems from wilbur.

(Also foolish is from era 1 gems, everyone else except Phil and techno are from like era 6 basically. The diamond authority has been over for a very long time)

#root talks #gem au #c!DROOLISH #c!dream #c!foolish #c!rivals #dream has pivoted to being super pragmatic about fusing so he introducing the concept to Foolish's as only a fighting technique #but unfortunately he also has a deep respect for fusion so he can't help but also explain to foolish what fusion can theoretically mean #not that it means that to dream anymore of course not he would never ever fuse for comfort or closeness ever again #he DEFINITELY doesn't want that no siree #oh shit wait #c!awesamdream #just to cover my bases here #Sam is a real freak over dream and dream having bodily autonomy in this #Which I could talk at lengths about #foolish doesn't like the idea of using fusion only has something for a fight bc he also doesn't like the idea of fighting #he was literally made basically as a wmd so it puts a sour taste in his mouth #but he also doesnt want to pressure dream into anything at all #So they're kinda both awkwardly stepping around each other bc dream does desperately crave that closeness #but he can't admit he wants that with someone he 1 just met #And 2 that he doesn't hate #bc being like ''oh I want to be fused with sam'' is a much safer want bc he can justify it as #I want to be in control of this person who hurt and imprisoned me #And not ''i desperately want to never be alone again'' #but even then that want us still something he is very disgusted in himself #especially when he lets himself remember how kind and gentle fusion can be #which is partially why he only wants to think of fusion AS an act of violence #Me when fusion is the perfect metaphor for relationships #I will say I hate when people try and say fusion is a metaphor for sex #when it's literally about any type of relationship that's all it's ever been