#i cannot believe my hand did this

[squidkid15]

Did a few rounds of that tiktok challenge where you paint with a random palate in grayscale and then turn the color back on at the end and when i say my jaw dropped when I turned color back on for this one

#doodles #digital art #dragon #artists on tumblr #digital painting #i want my coloring to look like this all the time holy shit #this is stunning #i cannot believe my hand did this

[spicyvampire]

Today on the fast and furious omegaverse bl

PIT BABE (2023) EP. 6

#pit babe the series #pit babe #babecharlie #thaidrama #asiandramasource #dramasource #dailyasiandramas #asiandramanet #asiandramaedit #mjtag #userpharawee #uservix #user25shades #tansgifs #gifs:pb #I cannot believe what I just did with my own 2 hands #flashing

[northern-passage]

just found one of my favorite pieces of writing advice when it comes to interactive fiction, i think if you've read literally any of my work, it will be pretty obvious how much i use this in my own writing. i actually couldn't remember where i read this for the first time and on a whim i went through my twitter likes and found it in a thread. i'm going to transcribe it for ease of reading, but this is all coming from Alexander Freed (@/AlexanderMFreed on twitter)

he has a website here with other compiled writing advice about branching narratives and game design, though he never posted this there and hasn't really updated recently (but still check it out. there's some specific entries about writing romance, branching and linear & other game writing advice)

original twitter thread here

It's Tuesday night and I feel like teaching some of what I've learned in 15 years of branching narrative video game writing. Let's go in-depth about one incredibly specific subject: neutral / fallthrough / catchall response options!

Player ownership of the protagonist in choice-based branching narrative games (a la BioWare, Telltale, mobile narrative games, etc) is a vital aspect of the form.

The ability for the audience to shape a Player Character, to develop that character's inner life in their own mind, is unmatched in any other medium.

The Player determines the character's actions and THE MOTIVATIONS for those actions. The character's psychology can literally be as complex as the Player can imagine. However, this works best when there's enough space for the Player to develop those motivations. No game can offer enough options to support every interpretation imaginable; much of the character has to live in the Player's head, without necessarily appearing on the screen.

That's complicated. We're going to unpack it.

Generally, when presenting choices to a Player, we want those choices to be as interesting and compelling as possible.

But compelling, dramatic choices tend to be revealing of character. And no game can support hundreds of options at every choice point for every possible character motivation a Player might imagine.

This sort of narrative CANNOT maintain its integrity if the Player is forced to constantly "rewrite" their characterization of the Player Character on the fly. You want your Player to feel like they have more than enough viable options at any given moment.

At the simplest level of writing, this is where "fallthrough" responses come in.

In the examples above, each moment contains a response which furthers the story but doesn't imply a huge emotional choice for the Player. The Player is asked to choose A or B, agree or disagree, but can sidestep the issue altogether if desired.

These "neutral" responses are vital if both A and B don't appeal to the Player... or if, perhaps, the Player likes A but not the WAY A is being expressed. Milquetoast option C works for anyone; thus, the Player is never forced to break character because of a lack of options.

Questions work well for this sort of neutral option. Tacit agreement and dead silence also serve, in certain sorts of stories--as a Player, I know what's going on in my silent character's head and the game won't contradict it.

The important thing is that I'm never forced to take a path that's outright WRONG for my character. Even if other characters misinterpret the Player Character's motivation, my character's inner life remains internally consistent.

"Neutral" responses aren't the only ways to go, though. Some responses are appropriate for any character because they're tied to the base character concept.

Here, for example (from @/seankmckeever's X-Files), the Player is a marine on a mission. The Player can respond abrasively to her partner's fear or look into the issue (out of compassion or genuine belief), but our fallthrough is actually the TOP response.

There's no version of our marine who would absolutely break character by picking "Stay calm and on mission." It's not blandly neutral; rather, it reinforces aspects of the character we can be sure of and gives the Player an option if nothing else works.

Different sorts of narratives will use different sorts of fallthroughs. A comedy might treat the option to say something funny as a fallthrough, of sorts--it's entertaining and will never violate the characterization the Player has created.

In a quest-driven RPG, a fallthrough response can often boil down to "How do I move to the next step of this quest?"

That said, the strongest moments in a narrative will often have no "fallthrough" response at all. They'll work by creating multiple responses that, by overlapping, cover all reasonable Player Character actions while still leaving room for the Player to ascribe motivation.

#cataloguing this before twitter explodes LOL #only thing i changed was the 'Player' pronouns because :-) #this was so fucking frustrating to do the tumblr post editor fucking sucks ass and kept breaking with every picture i added #i did add img descriptions... i did my best #also i cannot believe this is the guy that wrote the rogue one novelization #one of the best star wars books hands down #umm anyways #writing #interactive fiction

[scraemoo]

Me: "hey so I'll make a QSMP hiatus"

QSMP: "nuh uh get back here"

#i cannot escape this fandom i suppose #i can't believe that the news of Richas having made a Cucurucho x Watcher fic brought me back and gave me a good boost #when i get your shell in my hands son of yaoi... /j #okay but unironically so proud of him and so grateful #i wanted to post some Cucurucho x Watcher shit or generally thirst art of them but never got the guts to do so. especially because of the #thought of “what if admins saw me”. it would've been funny ofc but at the same time i was really anxious about it #now knowing what Richas did. especially as the creator of the Watcher model. it gave me a huge confidence boost #kicking my ass to stop repressing myself and go full apeshit #qsmp

[savage-rhi]

.Magenta.

#in a nut shell... #my whole team betrayed me minus 2 #i was told and swore up and down that my absences related to disability were not an issue #come to find out that wasn't the case #there was resentment and everyone did a damn good job putting on an act and masking #i cannot begin to describe the kind of betrayal i am feeling #i believe in being transparent especially if you're part of a team of people who help others with mental health issues #i expressed many times that if my conditon caused inconvenience or problems then approach me and we can navigate around it together #i worked with these people for over 10 months and no one said a damn thing #i had no indication or inkling there was anything amiss even when i inquired before. #even my supervisor who was supportive and freely gave me and approved of time off lied to my face #and as a i handed in my belongings today everyone was ordered not to engage with me because on monday i utilized the chill space #aka the rage room after hours when the kids were gone because after getting interrogated by HR trauma from former work places came up #and with long covid stuff im still figuring out i needed a spot to vent #im not the only employee btw that used that room for personal raging everyone at some point has used it to either be contemplative #scream or toss punch and throw things so long as the kids are not on grounds we can do that #yet when i finally hit that point and want to decompress safely suddenly i am the dangerous monster #these people are supposed to be trauma informed #well trauma informed my ass #on a positive blessing i never have to work with these assholes ever again and i pray we never meet in public #its going to take a long time and a lot of healing before i think i will be able to trust people fully again #savage magenta #magenta is my vent word

[wallylinda]

i always forget how despondent the first issue of the flash 1987 is. the narration is curt and every page features a new setting. there is that long monologue as wally is running, reminiscing about the books he’s read in college, the heart that he’s delivering to the author, of how dissimilar he now feels to his uncle. it’s how he’s so separate from the rest of the world, be it through the people he interacts with or the lifestyle that he’s struggling to maintain. he’s constantly reminding people that he’s taken up the title of the flash. he comes home to see his birthday party celebrated without him. it’s just so melancholy and apathetic and lonely. genuinely one of my favorite issues ever.

#you know i must’ve first read this when i was fourteen or fifteen #and coming back to it now that im in college is so surreal. i emphasize with wally so much more and the grief feels so much more tangible #head in my hands. baron did such an amazing job with the tone i cannot believe he fumbled the ball so much with the plot... #i really would love to write an essay about this issue. even now im struggling to encapsulate its significance but it’s just so. god. #wally west #dc

[squisheebugdoodles]

i am going to wither and explode if i have to not be able to draw much longer i am losing my mind

#i cannot believe that after having the best most peaceful pain-less time for my hand in years that it immediately went back to square one #from when i first injured it years ago. #i am so. #it is no better right now than it was at the beginning of the month #i had like a couple of good days in a row so i did some super small warmup doodles and it went right back to constant pain again #i just want to create please please please i want to do things so fucking bad please please pleaaaaaaaaaaaase i'm gonna cry #also it's affecting my ability to make money which i need to do bc i have bills i'm raAGHGHH #BACK TO SQUARE ONE S O B S

[mattodore]

absolutely said that i'd work on the cas pics for the updated character pages *checks watch* over ten hours ago and i absolutely ended up doing nothing except watch jerma stream for six hours and then wound up fucking around on spotify and playing dress up in cas with eight sims at once for the rest of the time i've been gone

#river dipping #i haven't even went through simblr yet i'm just consumed by jerma ocs jerma ocs jerma ocs what has happened to me..... #you don't want to know how many times i watched that jerma dollhouse edit while he was away.... #embarrassing...... i cannot be getting attached to a man who streams online like this girl someone hand me a BOOK #let's get attached to READING #that one tweet about that teenage girl who had a pic of jerma in her phonecase like a kpop photocard. . . she's so real to me #i already had my video game men i watch online phase in my teenage years i can'ttttt believe i'm back here again #.......anyway <3 jerma aside <3 i did actually finish taking all of the cas pics i need #so now i'm gonna pick out which ones i want to use....... very funny to take 3000x3000 pics only to inevitably have to size them down #to like. 500 x 600 px for these character pages kjdngfbknhfs #''river how is your screenshots folder so many gbs?'' well first i open srwe and then i go crazy

[hella1975]

'hella new mitski album!!' 'hella thoughts on the new mitski album?' 'hella there's dog motif!' 'hella have you listened to im your man yet?' 'how do you feel about im your man hella?' YOU ALREADY KNOW IM UNWELL ABOUT IT. STOP ASKING

#WHAT THE FUCKKK WAS SHE THINKING WHAT THE FUCK DID SHE WRITE THIS FOR WHTA TTEHFUCK #DOG MOTIF. RELIGIOUS IMAGERY. YOU BELIEVE ME LIKE A DOG ILL BETRAY YOU LIKE A MAN #WHO LET HER RELEASE THIS. JAIL TIME. THOUSANDS UPON THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF JAIL TIME. PUT THE PEN DOWN #i cannot actually express how insane i am about this #it's like she dipped her hands into my brain and SQUISHED and all the juices are dripping to the floor and making a mess #one of the top mitski songs of all time im saying it. sorry but it's there #mitski

[kenobihater]

goddamnit. am i actually having a sexuality epiphany because i'm recognizing myself in a fictional cringefail vampire man. you gotta be kidding me

#in my defense being both on the ace spectrum AND hypersexual is a bit of a confusing thing to experience #maybe i'll feel different abt it later but for rn i think that explains a LOT #for real this explains why i don't care about sex 90% of the time but when i do it's like going 0 to 100 in .2 seconds #oh my god. oh my fucking god i used to think gray asexuality was silly bc 'everyone feels that way' oh my GOD i'm a fucking idiot #head in hands bro. cannot believe i was that fucking stupid as a teenager. i was THAT CLOSE to getting it 😮‍💨 #i should talk to my therapist abt this... i haven't talked to anyone abt my hypersexuality ever bc its such a stigmatized symptom but damn #i'm not gonna blame my bipolar for this or anything but damn did it make this possible answer SO much more obscured in my mind #like... damn. i feel so flabbergasted by this #i keep saying damn in the tags. dude this revelation has rendered me without the proper words to convey my emotions......... #i'm gonna be fine but rn i feel all kinds of off kilter from this realization. and i'm still doubting it even so! but it would make SO much #sense!!!!!! ugh i haven't questioned any aspect of my sexuality in earnest in years i genuinely forgot how much it sucks #like yeah there's relief maybe? but also just confusion and annoyance abt my past blindness #god. this is a huge tag ramble i think i'm gonna stop talking now #len speaks

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

[mihrsuri]

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#this is something i have never talked about and I’m still not giving many details #because it’s very very private #but also i think of the time i thought i was going to die (by my hand and another time) #and i just remember the feeling of and i cannot explain it #because it was at my lowest when i absolutely loathed every part of me #believed i was going to a hell i do not believe in for anyone else #and yet i felt so much peace and love whatever way i chose #and i think about that #am yisrael chai #and i do not know that i have ever had that certainty again #but i will always always remember it #and how it absolutely did not come from me #religion cn #(i saw the world to come or i felt it) #sorry for the overshare

[headgehug]

LOVE U SO MUCH ..... obsessed with you.... pattern

#i cannot believe my hands did this what da hell...... #crocheting #amigurimi #im such a sucker too im like okay that took forever... let me make creachers for everyone i care about now too ^_^ ok idiot #my projects

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#so i got a message from my sister telling me something rather tragic had happened in our family #on my mom's side. one of my aunties passed away&my little sister let me know. #she also let me know that my mother is taking it really hard&shed probably really like to hear from me. #&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me #into talking to my mother-- like i was not almost dead for a long LONG time&she was actively disowning me bc i wasnt sick the right way #after a lifetime of refusing to believe i was sick AT ALL which directly lead to developing cancer she screamed at me in public #that i was lying about before pretending to drive off a cliff&then refusing to pick up her phone until she called me an hour later #after i had been calling not just her but anyone in our family who could possibly check on her to tell me that i never loved her #&i wouldnt have cared if she died&it would have been my fault. #so like. i dont really give a fuck if shes taking a death in the family poorly? like i dont actually fucking care that this-- like literally #everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao. #&im really fucking pissed off that i now have to feel like shit bc i dont feel like i properly feel bad #about my family member dying bc IT BECAME ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER IMMEDIATELY. #i do not fucking UNDERSTAND. #i cannot even put into words how this all makes me feel lmao. why. literally fucking why. #the cherry on top? my aunty died of gastric issues. you know. the family curse that i def didnt get so i got to work thru it all #while being called a liar. you know the type of illness that almost killed ME. that might STILL kill me. #but yeah my mom is sad so i should call&make sure to hold her hand like i always fucking did lets just forget an entire lifetime #&esp the last five years thatll be totally cool. #a tragedy happened in the family so fuck all MY tragedies actually i guess.

[kinstein-art]

this is my biggest takeaway from rise

#IM SORRY HFKSJFK #but am i wrong tho #rottmnt #tmnt #rise leo #rise donnie #rise mikey #rise raph #save rottmnt #fanart #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles fanart #rottmnt fanart #tmnt fanart #man i cannot believe it has taken me THIS LONG to finally watch rise #like id seen some of it a while ago and loved it but never got around to actually watching all of it 😔 #but then the movie trailer dropped and reminded me it existed and i was so hyped for it #and then the movie itself dropped and it was SO FUCKING GOOD so now im obsessed #and ive binged all the show and rewatched the movie so many times and theyre both so amazing it has set me off on a full on tmnt marathon #i am watching and rewatching all tmnt media i can get my hands on and my god i missed these turtles so much #how did i forget about them for so long.....i abandoned my boys #anyways i love rise so much so of course i had to make a stupid meme for it so here #have this #this is why i hadnt posted for like a week till the other day btw #because ive been obsessing over ninja turtles

[ambreiiigns]

sorry i have to whine for a second bc i'm such a complete forgetful fucking idiot ig

#so. uni. am i right #on one hand. we're poor enough that uni will just give me Everything for free. i don't have to pay anything uni related. i don't have to #pay for lunch and dinner at the cafeteria or whatever it's called and most fuckin importantly i don't have to pay for housing they just #give it to you for free the first year right #so i was waiting for them to assign me the house. last friday a friend got hers #so i swear to god. i swear i was checking up to see if i got the house too #i swear i did #apparently i got a mail friday too? saying i had to upload a thing they sent me by saturday #but i didn't see it??? i don't fucking know how i missed it i swear to god #did i really check only one of the two places i need to check ? and missed the place that actually gave me the news ? #like did i really not check the uni mails the entire weekend. fucking. did i #i cannot believe i didn't check the mail. especially knowing that they were assigning #i checked the uni website tho and saw that my place on the housing ranking hadn't changed #STILL hasn't changed so i am so very fucking confused tbh #did i see the ranking didn't change so i didn't bother to check the mails? is that what happened #anyway. #does that mean that i'm done and i won't get another chance to get a house. that is so lame and bullshit if that's how it goes #first of all how can you just give me a day time. on the weekend too #secondly if i'm too poor to afford housing and i need uni's assistance. that is not gonna change if i miss the mail ya know . like #i'm gonna see if i can talk to anyone tomorrow and see if i get any other chance at housing #if i don't get another chance. fucking hell. i'm either dropping out. or #(<- not joking if i have to live w the stress and guilt of making my mom pay for anything i'm not doing this the main reason i #agreed to uni in the first place was that i knew mom didn't have to pay. and i 1. feel bad abt needing anything from her and 2. that would #put so much pressure on me to do good bc mom is wasting money if i don't do good that it would. kill me. like i would not be able to #accomplish Shit w that stress and pressure literally. so.) #or idk i'll. see if i find money any other way. pressure my dad to pay child support on time for once. look for a job even tho it's #nearly impossible to keep a job as a uni student unless ypu already had one before starting uni #like in a place where i have to be in class until 7pm most days of the week and don't have a car how am i gonna find a job that i can even #show up at AND like who's gonna hire me knowing all this. it would have to be some extremely part time bullshit and that wouldn't pay #enough either way