#i cant i cant i cant i cant

[mmemirrorball]

pov you’re listening to so long london

#its so good #I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT #so long London #ttpd release #ttpd #the tortured poets department

[obscureshipsandchips]

“No one ever thinks to look up” SOBBING OH MY FUCKING GOD I DIDNT KNOW WHY TI WAS SAD. FUCK SIRIUS IS HAVINT TO SEE REGULUS SOB ON SCREEN. FUCK ME. UGHHHHGGG

#I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT #crimson rivers

[lars-art]

90's robo dog fursuit consumes my thoughts.

#i have 2 whole other fursuits to finish...buuuut #i cant i cant i cant i cant

[axellis-archv-2]

#📗 my post #🥨 butter pretzel #i cant i cant i cant i cant

[lexa-griffins]

Just Photographer!Clarke and model!Lexa. I have nothing else to say

Amateur photographer!Clarke gets the opportunity of a lifetime when she's asked to photograph up and coming model!Lexa in a very casual shot. Lexa is known for these very rigid posture in modeling and Clarke is, full disclosure, a little intimidated by spending an entire day with her trying to coax her into actually looking casual. This shot is a big deal for Clarke and could really get her career started and while she doesn't mind doing weddings and engagement pictures, she's dying to work with bigger fish. It can also open a lot of doors for Lexa if she manages to show brands she can do more than just stand there and look mean, she's done with the same cookie cutter work she's been doing and wants to step it up, but she can't do it if her expression does nothing but scare you.

They're supposed to meet at Lexa's house, somewhere where she's more relaxed and at home, and still the first few pictures make it look like this is a set and Lexa is just another prop instead of someone who lives there everyday. They've barely shared more than a couples words and they are both clearly frustrated with the results so far, and the more frustrated Lexa gets, the harder it is for her to relax.

So, Clarke decides to put the camera down and talk to Lexa - the girl looks like she never had a casual conversation in her life. She starts small, silly questions like "what's your food?", "Favorite type of weather?", "Top three colors?". Lexa answers them, first flat out, then with a little more thought. Soon they're sharing stories about their first gigs, first times, first kisses. They enjoy it, its easy to talk with each other. Clarke learns she loves to make Lexa laugh, she looks so different from the uptight pictures she's seen of her, more carefree and young.

Clarke's sharing how her love for photography let to her and a couple friends skipping school to do a photo shoot and how they nearly got away with it if she hadn't been so damn proud of the pictures and went to show her mom when she manages this picture of Lexa laughing at her:

After that, Lexa becomes Clarke's muse and while they won't work exclusively with each other, there is a tendency to book them as a duo because there is something so authentic about the way Clarke photographs Lexa that just can't be replicated by any other photographer <3

#letter opened #clexa #okay but this would be such a cute one-shot..... #i cant i cant i cant i cant #but Clarke mellowing Lexa down and getting all giddy when she makes her smile #which just makes Lexa smile brighter because Clarke is being adorable with her little dance when Lexa finally laughs #ah! #the only photoshoots Clarke doesn't do is mainly any lingerie shoot #she just cannot focus #and Lexa can't stop laughing and smiling at her blushing #au: model!lexa

[bugbxyjunk]

hi i talk about s/h and and e/d in here stay safe and don't read the tags if you know you can't 🫶🦈

#oo cant keep living in this body #ive ruined it #ive had a bed and ana and oh my god im so fucked up #i can't control myself around food #im so fucking fat and thats not a bad thing its not its not i KNOW #but god i can't even look at myself in the mirror without wanting to cry #my body is ruined with scars #but the ones on my arm are barely visible #and i need them there #if they disappear then what was ot all for #how can i say im disordered and not have the proof #i don't want to look like me #i cant keep looking like this #i don't want this anymore #i don't want this #i can't #i cant i cant i cant i cant #ive already relapsed #i was doing so good #and the smallest thing set me off #no one can even tell with the mess already on my thighs #but god #i know #i just want to feel normal #i want to be normal #i don't want to be like this #i want help but i don't know how to ask for it #i don't want to bother anyone #but i need someone to look at me a know im not okay

[xannerz]

#i cant i cant i cant i cant #xangoeswah

[euphor1a]

THE AMOUNT OF DISRESPECT.... IS MY MENTAL HEALTH A JOKE TO HIM?!?!??!?

#gyugyu 🐶 #i just opened ig to check hobi’s story before going to bed... and this mf was on the tOP of my feed #IM— #FUCK SLEEPING I GUESS??? #it’s literally 5 am rn and this made me go through 257478 stages of grief #TF DUDE #this mingyu will remain as my sleep paralysis demon for some time i can already see it #i cant i cant i cant i cant #what’s up with those eyes and this fit on him and his pose WHAT’S UP WITH HIM

[childeapologist]

My mom will be like "You need to do laundry. I'm sick of looking at those piles" as if I'm not sick of looking at the piles, too. Like. Does she think I enjoy living like this? Does she think I ENJOY having to choose between doing chores and taking care of myself and my creative projects because it seems like I never have the energy to keep up with both.I always rotate back and forth between an era where I am taking good care of myself but not getting much done creatively, or an era where I am very productive creatively but fall behind in chores and self care routines. I can never seem to manage both. I wish i could. Why does she act like I enjoy being a mentally ill mess all the time 

I haven’t even been able to be active on here, the platform I feel the most at home on and enjoy posting to the most. Because I’m pushed into such a financial corner right now I can’t spend huge amounts of time on a platform I don’t intend to monetize and I’ve had to put aside the content I enjoy making the most to focus on what will make money. As if that wasn’t already depressing enough.

#i can't change the fact that capitalism sucks so bad that no job out there that i could acquire easily will suit me #it isnt my fault that i have chronic migraines and nausea but workplaces offer jack shit for sick days #it isnt my fault that Im in that weird space of not disabled enough for accomodations but too disabled to fit into general work environments #she yells and screams at me for so many things i have no control over #im sick of it #i cant do it anymore #i cant i cant i cant i cant #its exhausting me to the point of just giving up on life

[seastarryclouds]

ok bark headcanon abt Marcus and his wife…

- headcanon that Marcus' wife was a veterinarian and she loved animals very much. she often picked up stray animals from the street and every time Marcus swore because their house was already turning into a zoo. but every time his wife and Ren made such pleading eyes and faces that Marcus could not resist and allowed him to leave the one more dog, swearing that it was the last one. but of course it wasn't the last one... they had a lot of dogs, cats, canaries, etc, which Marcus' wife often picked up from the streets sick and treated. little Ren loved to fall asleep surrounded by fluffy friends. but when Marcus' wife died, these animals reminded him of her and it brought pain. therefore, in a fit of desperation, he gave them all away. and little Ren cried at night and asked where her mom was? where are her fluffy friends? And Marcus didn't know what to answer…

that’s it bark. hope you don’t wanna kill me. bark :(

I would but I’m prone on the floor crying

#sobbing #crying #screaming even #I CAN #I CAN SEE HIM GIVING THEM AWAY #AND REN #OOOOOOOOOOOO #WHY MAKE ME THINK IF HER CRYING I CANT #I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT #ask the cloud #the cloud speaks #marcus arcane

[just-spacetrash]

the 'what if you played it a little risky' post literally Changed my life but i cant fujkign find it in my blog because its. a tiktok screenshot

#like literally every time ive hesitated sending a text or complimenting someone or stuff ive thought of it #like youre right. what if i played it a little risky what do i have to lose in doing a nice thing!!!!!! ur so right!!!!!!!! #but its forever lost cos i cant search it with any words cause its an image #misery and pain. you know how it is #my post

[qrowpilled]

hate when you find a character whose so infuriatingly Your Type that its embarrassing like yeahg no one is gonna be surprised when i announce this is my new Guy Of The Month

#shush jesse #this post abt astarion #hes just so painfully on brand for me #i know so little about him though is the thing but i still feel insane #but i cant play the game and i dont want to watch anyone play it and i dont want spoilers #so like.....secondhand blorbo right now

[cadaverkeys]

You guys rlly don't realise how much knowledge is still not committed to the internet. I find books all the time with stuff that is impossible to find through a search engine- most people do not put their magnum opus research online for free and the more niche a skill is the less likely you are to have people who will leak those books online. (Nevermind all the books written prior to the internet that have knowledge that is not considered "relevant" enough to digitise).

Whenever people say that we r growing up with all the world's knowledge at our fingertips...it's not necessarily true. Is the amount of knowledge online potentially infinite? Yes. Is it all knowledge? No. You will be surprised at the niche things you can discover at a local archive or library.

#rambles #if you are a person who is into delicate skills #like lacemaking or printing or sewing #you will know fair well just how non expansive the knowledge online is in comparison to written guides from like the 50s #there was a time where at least one person in the household had to know a constructive skill #but in the modern day there is just less ans less demands for comprehensive guides #library propaganda #im stuck doing an essay rn but bc i have covid i cant go to the library and its totally fucked me #i want to source a lot of the stuff i read irl but i just cant go and get it and theres no online ver

[hycinthrt]

people are calling what happened today in gaza “the flour massacre”

the flour massacre

these people just wanted to get food for their families, something as basic as flour, one of the things that the very core of humanity is built on, and israel used it as a trap to murder them in cold blood

evil is not enough of a word. there is not a word to describe what they are doing to palestine. they are bleeding her out, they are torturing her and crushing her and hoping that nothing is left to remember her by when they are done. how can anyone stand and watch what is being done with indifference? how can you watch this level of human suffering, this crime against life and feel nothing, do nothing

#i cant stop crying #the entire world is watching as they die #palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #war on gaza #ceasefire now #israel #from the river to the sea palestine will be free

[etherealspacejelly]

me when the disability disables me: oh what the fuck? this sucks. what the hell man!

#autism #actually autistic #adhd #audhd #disability #currently lying in bed thinking about all the Tasks i gotta do today and i cant motivate myself to do Any of them #:(

[whaledocboi]

ai generated images make me increasingly sad and tired the more i see them in more and more casual contexts. i dont know how to explain, but it just fills the world with a bunch of nothing. no matter how visually stunning the pictures might be, there's nothing behind it for me. no dedication, no emotions, no feelings, no hard work or creativity, nothing i can truly think about, admire or enjoy. i dont think thats how art is supposed to be

#not to mention ripping off and plagirazing real artists hard work of course #which is a whole other conversation #i cant feel the same love and adoration for whatever the slop machine produces #it will never be the same #im just really tired #anti ai #anti ai art