#im so fucking fat and thats not a bad thing its not its not i KNOW

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[jiraidanshi]

i need people who have never been anorexic or just straight up dont remember what its like for whatever reason to shut up about it forever because literally it changes the way your fucking brain works . when its really bad its literally the only thing you think about its wholly obsession literally the only thing you think about is your weight / measurements / how you look and how many calories your eating or burning and you literally cannot help but humblebrag about how your killing yourself and everyone is competition . and people act like youre just some bigot who hates fat people if you show symptoms or talk about it ever even if you were also a direct victim of fatphobia . i am not joking when i say they need to add looking at th*nspo or running an ed blog to the fucking dsm there is a reason its so widespread IT IS A SYMPTOM . and everyone acts like its just Disorder That Makes You Fatphobic and that its mental illness lite or mental illness only white cis women have when thats not even true and it is the mental illness with the highest mortality rate

#file type: .txt #chara♥ #i literally went from overweight to SEVERAL bmi points under underweight in two years and my resting heart rate was 40 bpm #it got to the point my heart was so weak i was physically incapable or excercising or even running #you cannot do something like that to yourself ' just because you hate fat people ' there is something wrong going on in your brain #i still have pictures of my body from that time and even though im ed brained rn its like so fucking scary looking at some of them #and the thing is even though i havent been anywhere close to that bad again in nearly 10 years theres still that little voice in my head #thats like ' you need to go back to that ' #and i am underweight rn and i still get that same high whenever someone comments on it even though i know its bad to think llike that #this is why its also so bad to be telling anorexics they need help / your worried about them you are literally adding fuel to the fire #trust me they know they need help the thing is it makes you not want it

[cowboy-robooty]

i dont got a gaurdian angel or devil on my shoulder but i do imagine grandad (robert freeman) from the boondocks reacting to everything around me

#been like this for like two months now or something #everytime im too exhausted to get up but am like 'i need to get up to eat dinner' i hear grandads voice like #'have sleep for dinner youre getting fat anyway' #that sounds bad it sounds like i have an eating disorder or some shit that is not true. i love to eat im monkey d luffy irl and its not a #joke. me and wiener are fucking beasts we will go 20 minutes without eating and go gawd... im so hungry rn... #but sometime my demon of a bed traps me like quicksand again and im like i need to eat food.. but god sleep feels so good.... #i love the have sleep for dinner youre getting fat anyway line okay it makes me laugh so fucking hard riley be starving af #pretty boy flizzy episode 😍😍😍 #i think about the allowance line too all the fuckin time #you want an allowance? i ALLOW you to eat my food. i ALLOW you to burn my electricity. i ALLOW you to sleep in my bed! #robert freeman is so deadass i love him especially when he thought riley was gay and heard tom say all the good things about gay people and #and went 'damn thats a lot of good shit... nah still gotta disown him' #LOL #grandad was not rockin wit that gangstalicious manbag

[mrfoox]

The fact I refuse to confront/inform the people who have basically ruined my mental state and my ability to function bc that would make them feel bad is honestly bonkers

#miranda talking shit #I cant say id be having a good and normal life if i wasnt abused as a young child but im 90% sure I'd not have this must trouble #Id still have my autistic and add problems but my anxiety and depression would definitely be a lot better #Its... Insane. That my older brothers probably have no idea how much they have actually ruined my life/mental state from such an earlh age #As 4 yrs old... Hell they might not even remember it or even think it was a 'big deal'. I know my second oldest brother probably falls into #The latter. I know now that they both most likely have undiagnosed adhd/autism and they used me as a way to act out/feel better #But being told youre stupid. Fat. Ugly. Useless from the age of 4 like... I cant stress how much it have ruined my self image #Ive tried to build confidence in myself and love myself since my teens and i can barely say im 'avarge' without doubting it #Like they also hit me but that's nothing compared to the mental torture i had to go through on an almost daily basis #Funniest thing is that bc it happened/started when i was so young i didnt think it was... Bad or weird or abnormal. #I started crying when my parents told me to go tell my brothers it was dinner time. I was terrified of knocking on their doors #I still to this day 20 years later am still incredibly uncomfortable and anxious talking with them and i havent been able to make much of #An relationship with them bc of it. Im scared to say anything to them even if its simple shit. And men/boys in general ive thus been #Terrified of since i was young. Once again i thought it was normal to mistrust and be scared of men until i was in my teens #I wish i could hate them i wish i could be angry i wish i had someone to blame #But no my brain is too nice and give excuses to them. Their actions are excused. They have ruined me mentally but thats not their fault #Fuck that might be true but they were still 6 and 11 years older than me. I didnt have a chance to protect myself in any way #I wish someone saw i wasnt okay. I wish someone understood that i wasnt well. I wish someone saw me. #Negative #Abuse

[coridallasmultipass]

I'm still internally laughing about that goth Dirk post, so I dug up the pics from the time I did a goth Dirk Strider to an NYCstuck meetup in like 2014/15ish... and this first pic is sending me lmao... it's so cringe and perfect.

My caption on the selfie:

#i didnt wanna jack their post and put my shitty pics on it but yeah this was a thing that happened #it was fucking cold that day but i had a blast #also sorry i dont mean any offense by cropping people out #... i just dont know if they want their old pictures shared again so thats that on that #throwback tuesday #hEY ITS TUESDAY YOU FAT NASTY TRASH omg i finally remembered that on a tuesday #me #dirk cosplay #goth dirk #the reason i am good at gothifying cosplay is because i was a metalhead for the longest time and had all this goth shit #ppl dont get theres a difference between metalhead goth emo scene punk etc unless u live it like lol theyre adjacent but not the same #Cori.exe #Post.exe #Image.exe #popped collar #man i should try to rock the popped collar look again it really is rad there #nothing is better than roasting your past self. i like my roast well done. #homestuck #sorry dont mean to put it in the hs tag im just tagging it in case someone has it blocked #i miss going to these meetups man.... ppl were so nice to me even tho i was a quiet nerd who is bad at socializing

[monsterbisexual]

i hate how i feel doing or not doing certain stuff for/because of the pain + fatigue since im a fat person :///

#p #id feel double standard-y shame (my favvvvv) abt it anyway #but its like. i took the elevator up to the break room just now n it always feels like everyones watching me do it #n judging or smth. like ya im also not in shape n thats like my fault etc n that would help these things be easier too #like especially on days ive worked i dont wanna go w ppl walkin the dog cuz im in a lotta pain #n w all of this i feel like a lazy piece of shittt which. like i said..id never think abt anyone else #even another person who isnt thin #or in shape etc #anyway. on lunch break now when theres lots to do (we have more ppl now at least tho) #n i feel like im such a loser cuz i rly needed to sit+rest n eat #also for my brain cuz i get overwhelmed n weird anyway but. -___- i gotta get over itttt fuck offfffff #i feel enough dumb bad stuff abt not doing 'Enough' but adding this makes it feel worse bleh #im big into shame idk ! #working (sorta. its not rly working akdhdj) on not feeling negative n bad abt the word fat #i wouldnt randomly call someone that irl or anything #but i know ppl on here are wanting it to be more normalized n that its not an inherently bad thing/word #but. :((( #not another good word for it so yknow w/e #ok im gonna try to stop pity partying thru a break #especially when ill have less than an hourrrrr after this yay

[bugbxyjunk]

hi i talk about s/h and and e/d in here stay safe and don't read the tags if you know you can't 🫶🦈

#oo cant keep living in this body #ive ruined it #ive had a bed and ana and oh my god im so fucked up #i can't control myself around food #im so fucking fat and thats not a bad thing its not its not i KNOW #but god i can't even look at myself in the mirror without wanting to cry #my body is ruined with scars #but the ones on my arm are barely visible #and i need them there #if they disappear then what was ot all for #how can i say im disordered and not have the proof #i don't want to look like me #i cant keep looking like this #i don't want this anymore #i don't want this #i can't #i cant i cant i cant i cant #ive already relapsed #i was doing so good #and the smallest thing set me off #no one can even tell with the mess already on my thighs #but god #i know #i just want to feel normal #i want to be normal #i don't want to be like this #i want help but i don't know how to ask for it #i don't want to bother anyone #but i need someone to look at me a know im not okay

[oatbugs]

eye pain is the WORST kind . worse than teeth even maybe

#esp when u cant rub ur eyes or itll maoe things worse #typing this w my eyes closed i hope it is comprehensible #anyway whwt the FUCK i am in so much pain from one eye only and its like . im aftaid #the flap they made during frmto lasik has moved or smthb. and itll wont end #bc whenever i open my eyes/blink iy is painful #resolved to do that very rarely . anyway eave me x . avcording to my doctor/surgeon i actually had #a scar that was imperceptible initially on each eye and thats why thos whole thing has been so #excruciatingly painful . like apparently ur notnsupposed to rly feel anythiny in femto lasik but it was #literally the worst pain i have ever felt in my whole life (i have a rly high pain tolerebce due to reasons); #anyway i have a feeling this may be due to the wounds/scars too idk... #also i had fat grafting to fill in my under eyes and like . it was suchba slight procedure and was done when i was under #anaesthesia for another procedure...that i forgot abt it. bc i dont rly touch my under eyes. anyway during lasik they #use this device which puts pressure around ur eye sockets which ahould have been fine #but it was putting a lot of pressure on a newly grafted area of my face and i was like . oh i see ! i want to scream !!!!! #but i couldnt say anything bc it was cutting a hole in my eyes and i was like yeah talking rn is a bad idea. but afterwards the nurse was #like . you look like you are literally going to pass out oh my god are you ok ?? and i told her abt the under eye thing and she was like. #YOUBSHOULD HAVE SAID THAT EARLIER like yeah ik im sorry 😭 #personal #anyway lol its fine i just want to rub my left eye sooooo bad it is so . annoying /painful UGH

[caruliaa]

feeling just so heartbroken thinking about smth my baby sister said earlier

#she asked me if she was fat and just. #ik she was asking bc she was worried she was and thought it would be a bad thing if she was #and just like. shes only seven years old ik that this shit is forced on kids from a young age but its so upsetting hearing it directly #this isnt even the first time shes been worried about/asked about this but its just esp upsetting to me today #i think bc she was talking about a rude girl in her class just before #i told her that it wouldnt matter if she was becuase it wouldnt change the fact that shes an amazing person #but idk if it got thru to her and i feel like i shld have said more. idk #also this bit makes me really mad she said she asked out mother about it #and her responce was to take her weight and height and show her that she was a 'healthy' weight #like just. shes fucking seven shes not asking bc shes concerned about her health shes asking bc she feels like it makes her lesser if she #is fat when all you tell her is that shes not fat your just reinforcing the idea that if she does gain weight thats a bad thing #also the idea of healthy weight is bs #idk like. its my mum im not surprised based on how shes treated me her actually fat child but its still so upsetting #like just. so fucking shitty this is why i have to fucking. get out of here !!!! #but also why i feel rly guilty abt the idea of leaving bc id be leaving behind my siblings #like they deserve better than this nd ik if im gone they wld loose a huge source of actual support which they dont get #from our parents #+ i wuld miss them. a lot #but at the same time like. i cant fucking stay here !!! idk #whatever. getting v sad+scared thinking abt the future. so ill stop #vent #flappy rambles #tw fatphobia #edit: also im too tired to find the studies rn on a vent post but i swear tht like. its proven talking to kids abt their wight at all #has a negative impact esp with taking their weight so like. wtf fuck my mum omfg

[nimomo-mo]

vent

#i was hungry today so i think my appetite is coming back despite the pills #and im not sure if thats a good thing #i still cant focus so i mean. lol. lmao even #at least i cant make myself start tasks and my executive dysfunction is as bad as ever #now i have the issue of if i keep getting hungry like before im gonna gain weight again and i dont wanna #look theres nothing wrong with being fat or chubby and god knows im not aiming to be a stick figure but oh my god i dont want to gain weigh #i should work out and get fit like a normal human and that means i should eat right. but i still have that nagging feeling #i love myself. i do. i have the dissociation thing where i cant recognize myself in the mirror tho. and its not good this time. #usually i dont really mind since its like. you know like its not me anyway so what does it matter if that girl is fat or not #but im really self conscious and feel gross and i dont know why it all started back up again #i want to measure it. want to weigh myself. want to count calories and check with measuring tape #but i really shouldnt and i know that if i do i will trigger such a bad episode i might end up in the fucking hospital #i need to hold out until this episode goes away. i need to stand it all until i get my head back together. #i dont wanna get malnutrition or lose weight so fast my skin gets flappy #but every little thing i eat ends up nagging at the back of my head about how if i eat more ill get fat and noone will like me then #its not true. i know its not true. and i know fat people are gorgeous and i am already chubby so what does it matter #but i feel horrible. i dont want to look like this or feel like this or be like this #i want to be the best i can be. i want to reach my full potential. but its not exactly working. i swear to god i wanna love myself #i want to be loved. i want to be adored. i want to be the one someone picks even if the room is full of gorgeous and competent women #i want to be the first choice and for the person to see me as the most beautiful person in the world #to be the first choice and to be everything someone wants and needs. to be the ideal. to be the perfect one even with my flaws #i want someone to look at all the ugly sides of me and look at my fat and my emotional fuckery and my ugly crying and still love me #i want someone to love me so wholeheartedly i wont ever feel like theyd like someone else. that theyd pick someone else. that im not no.1 #i want to be that person you do a double take of. to be the one that people get jealous of. to be the spotlight. to be the prettiest one. #its egoistical and selfish and childish and mean and dumb and naive and self absorbed i know. i know that it is #but its still there and its embarrassing . but im not gonna pretend like i dont have these thoughts and feelings. #im not smart or pretty enough to stand out. i dont know what could make me special. i dont know what i do that makes me unique. #what am i? who am i? how do i get better? i want to be better. i want to be better i want to be better i want to be better #i want to reach a new level i want to reach their level i want to be at the top i want to be special i want to be better i want to be proud #i want to be genuinely proud and special and outstanding enough to not feel insecure or inferior anymore

[hoshiyoshis]

ive never hated a doctor quicker than i have now.

#daisy.txt #im gonna rant in the tags and >> has to do w it so i'll just tag it with a tw so anyone doesnt get exposed to this kind of shit #fatphobia tw #mr bone doctor guy... can you please talk to my father abt the fractured bone and treatment for that #instead of going off on a VERY LONG speech abt how hes fat and needs to lose weight or he'll die #like. you can talk abt how he needs to lose weight without harping on it endlessly. #was it relevant? yes but not to the extent of 'i'm going to rant about this for several minutes before i even talk to you about the actual #injury that you're here to see me about. btw sugar is the devil and poison dont put it in ur body ever' #like. my guy. i know ppl with eating disorders. ive seen ppl say this kind of talk directly contributed to the way they felt abt food #like. say what u fucking mean. EXCESSIVE amounts is bad. not all sugar is automatically bad. #like. yes i know he has a point! my dad and i both agree he has a point! but i heavily disagree on how that message was put across #he has a fractured bone in his upper arm. this doesnt mean 'rant for several minutes abt how all sugar is poison.' and then be wishy-washy #as hell with the actual reality of shit. we went from 'yeah we'll need a CT scan ur gonna need surgery' #to him bringing a coworker in who said 'are you sure that (bone fracture he said) is what it is? it looks like (diferent thing) to me' #and him agreeing like oh yeah thats it #(nothing against getting a second opinion btw like im glad he did!!! but the man didnt say 'you might need surgery' he said 'you will') #(and i think he could have held back on the definite until he KNEW) #and then he went from 'its 50-50 surgery or let it heal let me talk to my colleagues in [city]' to #'ok theyre not gonna do surgery they think it can just heal naturally and i agree w them' #like. my guy! im glad u got a second opinion but can u literally not come in guns blazing with 'UR DEF GONNA NEED SURGERY' if ur not a hund #on whether or not he'll need surgery??? cite it as an option bc the moment he walked out of the room my dad and i looked at each other like #'well... fuck.' because we thought he'd have to have surgery!!! #these tags are getting long but holy fuck i do not like this guy. something abt all of it together just pissed me tf off

[steampunkedparm]

another case of "oh hey!! thats a really cute skirt! and it has built in shor- oh fuck of course they dont have anything under a 35 inch waist :|"

#i love being that inbetween size #like im still fat #but im at that end where sometimes!! i have real good luck!! #except that luck is only with shirts!! #this is all /neg except me being fat lol. thats not the bad thing #its!! not that hard to have plus sized shit homeslice!! #perks of gettin mens pants though is AT LEAST. THEY. FUCKEN. FIT. AND CAN ADJUST. #womans sizing is so fucked for no reason and i know why but i can still be pissed about it #< made to wear woman's clothing majority of their life

[evandorepart2]

oh also when i get to school i need to start like eating lunch...maybe not school lunch but bringing my own stuff. i never ate lunch from middle to highschool cause it was a hassle and also never had money. but that probably did not help cause i would also skip breakfast most times too since i had to get up so early eugh..

#i look back on my childhood and im like wow! thats really fucked up actually. but im choosing not to acknowledge it #the worst part about it is that mother literally worked as a nutritionist < but she was also obsessed with diets so i take her things with #grain of salt....like she is a fat woman. most of my family are and theyre all so obsessed about weight and pick it apart and are like damn #i need to lose weight !!! and its like. no. you need to stop drinking so much then youll be healthy. your weight has nothing to do with #anything you just have body issues so go talk with your therapist oh my god #< literally like the first month i came over and i started eating more consistently. so i put on some actual weight and i was super proud #cause right b4 i left my doctor told me i was very underweight and doing bad. and i called my mother and the first thing she told me was #that i looked fatter and was probably eating unhealthy GIRL?????? shes so fucking insane maybe i shouldnt consider asking for health advice #weight mention #ed tw #once again not really but like. yea.

[youraveragemushroom]

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#. #im understanding sisyphus a lot better now #or rather just greek irony a lot more #nobody was doing purgatory or hell the way they greeks were #sorry i was thinking of tantalus yeah thats whats happening to me #cause i like cooking i like food #i wanna say maybe to some im actually good at it or something maybe #but i also cant it more than one meal a day if that or else i go to really dark places mentally and feel like shit physically #like its bad and ik i should work on reversing the whole ED situation #but unintentionally or not ive invested too much into this sinking ship to not see it through #its not that bad i swear ik it could be worse and im not encouraging it to worsen #but like is it bad id rather it get worse than i recover? #no yeah thats bad its bad damn oh well its not like its not obvious im like transparent w this shit i bet nobodys said anything tho so its #it cant be that bad cause nobodys said anything #doesnt mean they havent noticed but hey theyre also the same ppl who are happy im marginally less fat and kinda on the right path #like if i hadnt fucked this week up then i wouldve hit 25 probably #i def did hit 25 one day but yeah atm its 20 and if i put in the effort which i hate how hopeful it sounds i know its bad but fuck i cant #care about morality and shit anymore nothing good has come of being moral or healthy or trying to get better #the only thing thats working rn is this so maybe if in a few months i hit that dream number maybe itll make it easier to not kill myself #like sure it wont change everything else wrong but even if im alone at least 40 pounds lighter i wont mind living w myself #like even if it makes no difference to anyone at least maybe i can look in the mirror for longer than a few seconds before starting to cry #i thought there would be more good days before things got bleak but now its like hard to tell myself its worth holding out for the next ones #i dont mean ​worth in a suicidal way #but like yeah no i cant find reasons to be happy and that should be scary except its been months and im just tired now #i cant believe ive gotten to this level of defeat i didnt think this was achievable outside like a literary context #goodnight and happy v day i guess cheers

[splatoonmaster69]

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#vent tw #on one hand finding anything i can 'relate' to is yummy. #on the other its like. im not that fucked up. like its enough to be noticable but its not enough to deserve to get fixed #broken cup is repaired but chipped cup is left chipped or whatever doesnt matter #+ like idk maybe ive desensitized myself or whatever but some of these things just do not seem like as big a deal as everyone makes them #like yeah the world would be better off if i were gone but everyone thinks that. like literally #i mean probably not everyone everyone but not wanting to die is something the normal kids with rich families that care get you know #that makes me sound worse than i am #not eanting to die is for those kids that play sports and have all A+ and 2 parents that love them and can buy tutors and other help #see that sounds much less bad. thats like the ideal dream scenario. and some people have the ideal dream scenario but most dont #and all the kids that dont have to think about how theyre a drain on resources or too dumb to be worth teaching or a burden on their family #and thats not the fualt of the kids but its jsut what happens you know. just how it works. #so idk why its always such a big deal in fiction when a character wants to die because everyone wants to die a little bit #as said not everyone everyone but you know. im normal here #like yeah its a big problem if someone tries to actually do it but its whatever if they dont. #like i tried but it was with pills and im not gonna say other ppl who use them are babies but i was doing it in a baby way #if i just jumped off thr bridge like i always thought then id think im worse than i am see #i took pills cuz i thought they wouldnt hurt so bad or when they did id be asleep #problem is if youve got that kinda coward mentality about how you die then ur never gonna really go thru with it #and i was only in the hospital for a few days so its like it wasnt even real. they couldnt even see thru the big fat lie i told so #but yeah so idk i dont get the big deal tbh. like yes people who wanna die should get help but everyone wants to so #this isnt saying other peoples feelings arent valid i get why its a big deal to people #i just dont think its a big deal for me u know. but thats probably because i dont have problems anyways so its just normal see? #like if it were a big deal 4 me my therapist would push it more and ppl would notice better and stuff #like i know im not loud about it but idk im not loud about it cuz its not a big deal. it literally doesnt matter to me #i wanna die but nobody expects me to do anything about it and i wont do anyrhing about it again unless i feel really bad again #its just like a little fantasy to keep in my head when i feel like and thats normal so its not a big deal #i checked out a couple books from the library that are supposed to be about suicide attempts and stuff #i was gonna read them just to see what mightve happened if id gone farther like i shouldve or if i hadnt lied or something #but then the guy in the first book was like. actually smart and stuff but also he just. walked to the hospital and checked himself in!

[xoxohoneymoongirl]

to the bitch at school who anonymously tiplined me to the school for having an ED

TW: ED, unhealthy eating, a bitch yapping, female rage

count your fucking days. i swear to fucking god when i found out who did it, its over. this bitch has ruined my life, i dont care if its a teacher, a student, A FUCKING FRIEND, i could not care less, i will fucking fight you. thats a promise. its not my fault you are bitter and sad that you have no self control, sabotaging me is not the way to go about helping those feelings. and the thing is like...im not even diagnosed like please just let me live my life and lose weight. smh. there are so many other people who could have been reported who are so much worse than me.

OH BTW, if it was a friend, just know i will never fucking trust or talk to you again because my life has been fucking ruined. summer is coming up and im going to be the fat ugly friend again this year because of you so, thank you for that! im having constant panic attacks because i have absolutely zero control right now.

OH, and get this, i cant even fucking weigh myself because my mom wont let me go on the scale, so not only is she forcing me to eat all my meals, she also wont let me have any form of control at all!! im so fucking angry, i feel like a fucking pig, i didnt even get to my desired weight before the bitch reported me.

MY GOAL ISNT EVEN THAT BAD JUST 110? I LITERALLY HAD 4 POUNDS LEFT YOU CUNT!!!

im so stressed out rn so if anyone has tips on how to secretly do it lmk

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