#i do not handle it well lmao

[hopeworth]

protective mishanks is ooc to me sorry guys. shanks loses an arm and mihawk is only angry that he can’t fight him at his best ever again. mihawk tells shanks zoro is going to kill him one day and shanks only toasts to the new era. neither of them are going out of their way to bail each other out of trouble not because they don’t care about each other but because they have so much faith in the other’s abilities as two of the most powerful people in the world.

#i adore mishanks but they ain’t like that 2 me nuh uh #well actually the ‘bailing each other out of trouble’ i can be flexible with but i just think they’re not that attached to each other #sorry this is my aromantic mishanks speaking. if they were REALLY in trouble they’d help each other out but anything other than utter doom #gets met with a ‘he can handle it himself’ #EDIT: HEADCANON. i just realised i worded it like it happened it didn’t lmao. headcanon. just to be safe. #mishanks #mihawk #shanks #one piece #op.txt #obligatory: you can do whatever you want forever btw. don’t listen to me if you want overprotective husbands mishanks or something.

[sparring-spirals]

i wanted to wait until i actually caught up and watched it to make this post because i dont know if it actually applies but. since idk When That Will Be. im putting a note here for future me to SOMEDAY. take the time to chew over the ashton shard choice juxtaposed against beau in the hag hut. sacrifices where you think its fine if you make the call (but you forget the scarifice isnt just yours, but the people who care about you). Its not a 1-1, not at all, but. I feel like theres something there and also i will Die on my Ashton And Beau Reflect Each Other Surprisingly Often hill. anyway. someday. that will happen. okay back to radio silence. i hope Bell's Hells have some fucking crunchy conversations.

#idk if i should tag this. this is for me and bc i miss writing meta but also am not getting caught up anytime soon probably :'( #ashton #beauregard #c3e77 #? #spar speaks #for me #if i remember that tag lmao #anyway hope everyone is doing well!!! ive been glancing at meta but i think i need to actually watch the scene to get a good handle on #anything bc this situation is. lmao #divisive. to say the least #but i love crunchy choices so #are we at the point in the campaign where the BH doing their polite 'take it in stride work around each other w/o communicating' conflict #resolution has finally come to its stress point. sexy. spicy. love that. #c2e93

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

whyyyyy are dog people so obsessed with their pet taking a shit...

#im. Confused. bc seriously why! what is it! #we have had this dog for One Full Day and the amount of times #that my stepdad has felt the need to regale me with her using the bathroom on a walk #is. well frankly its Insufferable and i Want It To Stop #like respectfully! affectionately! I Do Not Care! Hush! Cease! Good For Her! None Of My Business! #i am learning so quickly that im solidly a cat person #i do not enjoy having a Wet Beast! dogs are fine when they're not in my house! #me and my cats are like... living in my room now #i almost said Our room. well. that wouldnt be wrong at this point #absolutely unprompted #i can live with snakes i can live with lizards i can live with birds #but dogs? theyre just so much... too much... #sensory nightmares! big and loud and smelly and slobbery and their fur feels weird and theyre so Pushy- #i could handle it if it was a uh... a Sensible dog! #but this is a golden retriever mixed with a samoyed i believe! #that is not a sensible dog thats a 'i will force myself into your personal space' dog #sorry. sorry. im just not very happy with this development lmao #but its not my house not my decision and my stepdad needed an affectionate furry friend #he's happy! good! i can keep my mouth shut about my deep displeasure! #cats are so neat and clean and just sweet little packages of delight... i need to be in a room full of kittens STAT

[shikai-the-storyteller]

There are SO many cool interactions and lore things we can look forward to now that Rubius says he'll come back to QSMP (not only as an angel / demon, but potentially as a human too!), but that little detail reminded me of something:

Even though q!Vegetta and q!Rubius were mutually interested in each other wayyyy back in the beginning of the series, as an Angel / Demon, Rubius said he can't have relationships with humans because it's against the rules.

But a bit ago on stream, Rubius said that he's thinking about having a "human" side so he can build and do more things on the server as a regular player. I'm excited because this means he can have more casual interactions with people and we can see him interacting with his friends more (and he can experience The Horrors), but also...

I think we're in for some very interesting drama in the next few weeks.*

* ( Assuming Rubius doesn't get harassed off the server by toxic shippers and weird fans of the Eggs again. Please be nice to Rubius and welcome him back kindly, he's a very cool guy and his character is SO interesting )

#Full disclosure: shipping stuff always comes second (or dead last) to fun random interactions and dumb bits between friends #I'm more excited about Rubius coming back PERIOD #but u know. the potential for some Rubegetta crumbs or full-course meals is a fun little bonus for yours truly #i talk #qsmp talk #Anyways like I said #god forbid I see anyone being freaks about Rubius again because it'll be ON SIGHT #''But FooIi//getta is-'' I Simply Do Not Care #I don't care about fictional ships I want Rubius to interact with his friends on the server without fans being freaks about it #(I'd like to reiterate I have nothing against that ship I'm just very tired of seeing people being weird to Rubius because of it) #(because they think he ''gets in the way'' or whatever) #I will say that's one massive advantage Karmaland had over QSMP #characters could flirt or make out or bang or whatever and fans would just laugh it off because It Wasn't That Deep (usually) #I think a lot of the younger fans (...and many English fans...) need to adopt this mindset #I'm looking forward to seeing how Vegetta handles it though because knowing him... it'll be very interesting... #<-- I say this knowing full well they're just going to be their normal idiot selves and I'm so glad about it #I miss seeing Vegetta and Rubius interacting they're so funny together and they have a beautiful friendship #I do have my head in my hands listening to them talk sometimes though LMAO

[0809sysblings]

how i imagine what the inside of mikoto's head looks like half the time

#Mikoto #John #Midokoto #my art #midokoto has to take john by the scruff to stop him from fucking shit up. he is so tired. let him rest #he should get john one of those like toddler backpack leashes. #anyway. inspired by my therapy appt earlier today. #sigh. th erapy is so fucking. *aggressively gestures* #50% of the time i get suicidal afterwards. 49% of the time i get extremely angry. 1% of the time i feel good. #not because of or @ my therapist or anything.. i just cant handle vulnerability and having to acknowledge emotions and The Past lmao #why do that when you could kill either yourself or someone else?? 🤔. checkmate LCSWs #oh well. laugh the pain away xoxo

[redstonedust]

kind of endeared by the sheriff in shelbys video. like he saw a wanted poster for friend and seems excited to have an actual crime to deal with (that he didnt make up himself) but he's also being rlly friendly about it. he just wants to talk y'know? he's the LAW but he's trying to talk her down peacefully. 10/10 sheriffing skills sorry u got murdered.

#empires smp #empires spoilers #i feel like this is the first time ive seen jimmy doing LAW stuff that isn't a personal vendetta in disguise LMAO #and he handles it pretty well all things considered

[youruinedmylifebynotbeingreal]

I didn’t think I’d be so upset about The Ghost and Molly McGee airing its finale tonight but like. They never even promoted it as a series finale so I was not PREPARED to deal with this grief. I can’t even bring myself to watch the actual episodes because I am NOT OKAY WITH THIS.

#I’ve already seen spoilers on accident bc I didn’t think to block the tags on social #I’ve never seen spoilers before but of course now I would lmao #but please NO MORE SPOILERS #anyway I just. didn’t expect to have so many big emotions about this. #I didn’t have time to emotionally prepare for the fact that it’s the SERIES FINALE #I NEED TIME TO COPE PEOPLE #i havent even finished Hilda s3 and I knew before I even started watching that show that s3 would be the final season #I DO NOT HANDLE CHANGE WELL #personal #the ghost and molly mcgee #tgamm

[creatrixanimi]

dont cancel me but i finally watched hazbin hotel out of curiosity and i really really liked it lol

#my favorite music artist is will wood so this should not have come at a surprise in hindsight lmao #its was actually really good for an adult cartoon. or any cartoon for that matter #yeah the pacing is a lil funky but what can u do w a 8 episode season #it actually did remarkably well with the time it got #also its just so indulgent in the exact way i love #also the return of the tumblr sexyman classic is so refreshing #it really doesnt deserve the hate. really a 'we need more messy queer media!!1!' 'you cant even handle hazbin hotel' kinda situation ngl #me

[nolongerexistingsadcatface]

Ok yes America hating the cold is funny (eh) BUT. have you considered that I like the imagery of an America sitting alone in the forest in the bleak mid-winter landscape of an east coast woods, all alone in both body and mind, agonizing over her seeming doom to be stuck in the throes of loneliness for all eternity?

#aph nyo america #aph america #i want engagement <3 #secret confession i actually hate that canonically america doesnt do well in the cold #it gives too much ammo to the west coasters (villains) who can’t let my poor baby alfred be the east coast girl he truly is #also in a broader sense i feel like it creates a weird divide in both the portrayal of america and the connection he has with his country #as its representation #america is one of the most climate diverse countries in the entire world and i feel like making the REPRESENTATION OF AMERICA not be able t #handle a large majority of his country’s climate is an Odd choice and creates an unfortunate barrier between american culture #and the way it’s portrayed in hetalia #imo one of the most amazing parts of the geography of the us is its ability to be a metaphor for the american people #so insanely diverse and fundamentally different and completely irreconcilable—but it works anyways. #the land works together anyways //we// work together anyways we become one anyways despite what any and all logic dictates #what any and all logic DEMANDS #so for america to not be able to represent that cohesion + community—and in fact represent an intense and almost INNATE complete inability #to even try being accepting of and embracing our differences—is just.. not something I like + insinuates a very odd view of American cultur #my eyes are shutting as i type this im so tired #sorry if this is horribly written rip #i see this a lot in the hetalia fandom (IK I JUST DID IT IN THIS POST LMAO BUT I SWEAR I DO IT AS A JOKE; I REALLY DO APPRECIATE THE WEST #COAST AND AM FULLY AWARE OF ITS ROLE IN THE US CULTURE AND FUNCTION) where people write alfred as being almost hostilely exclusionary??? #towards certain areas of america—city al who doesn’t like the country; country al who doesn’t like the newfangled cities; northerner al #who hates the southerners (because theyre poor + dont fit the author’s view of respectable people BUT THATS FOR A DIFFERENT POST);southerne #al who hates the northerners—and it’s all very gross to me. america is not—at its core—a country/culture founded on separation!! our ideals #are based on being—at our most basic—separate multi-faceted individuals who COME TOGETHER!! as one because of common ideals and love #E PLURIBUS UNUM!!!!!! #ok im done gn

[good-beanswrites]

hello beans!! hope you're doing well 💜 ^w^ I know you've probably gotten a lot of requests - but I'm gonna add to that pile anyway because it's fun and also your writing is wonderful and always cheers me up to read!! I'm so inspired by your drabbles and you really bring these characters and this little world to life ;w;

From drabble list #1:

14. "Please tell me, this is not why you woke me up."

Character(s): honestly anyone, but my gut was saying Es as soon as I saw that sentence so... up to you!

Woo thank you pal, same to you!! Thanks for your kind words ah ;--; This is the perfect line for Es omg, I've been cracking up over it for so long 😂 I was tempted to write them waking up for T2, taking one look around and going "uh-uh," but decided on some T1 comedy...

Es rarely dreamed. Usually it was vague images and thoughts. Sometimes it was just them thinking about breakfast the following morning. Occasionally they were plagued by a nightmare of being forced to sing karaoke with the prisoners. Most of the time, though, it was just silence that welcomed them at the end of the day. Wonderful, peaceful, silence.

BANG-BANG-BANG!

Someone slammed their fist on the door. Es just about fell out of bed.

Mikoto’s voice came from outside. “Oi, get up! There’s been… uh… an incident!”

That was the last thing a prison guard wanted to hear at -- Es checked the clock -- 2am. Damn. 

They muttered to themself as they threw on their uniform. Why the prison’s cells didn’t lock was beyond them. Some of the prisoners were more troublesome than others, but the first trial had been going smoothly thus far. Why now? 

Their mind flashed with various possibilities, each one worse than the last, all urging them forward. By the time they were running down the hallway, their shirt buttons were a row off, and they had to switch their shoes to the opposite foot. They adjusted the cap clumsily on their head.

Fear gripped their chest as they heard Jackalope’s voice crying out for help from the panopticon. Jackalope never called for help. 

Es burst into the room. The prisoners froze, looking up guiltily. 

They sat in a huddle on the floor. Yuno and Muu held the little furry warden over a tub of sudsy water. Bottles of soap and shampoo sat nearby. An assortment of brushes and combs sat to the side. Splashes of water spread across the prisoners and ground, speaking to several failed attempts at getting Jackalope into the bath.

Nearby, Mahiru was holding up the tiny guard’s uniform, her sewing kit spread out on her lap. Es spotted bandages on Yuno’s and Kazui’s fingers. Shidou was currently dabbing blood off Fuuta’s nose as he fumed. Jackalope leaned over to nip at the hands holding him, but Yuno and Muu held him fast.

“Es!” came his frantic voice as he thrashed around. “You gotta help me! Make them stop, dammit!” 

From the group of prisoners who had been watching from a distance, Haruka turned to them. “Oh! Es! Th-they thought that he needed a -- uh, a bath! His uniform had a h-hole, and Mahiru can s-sew! And they thought, they thought we could do it all t-together… Muu called it a -- a spa night…” 

“At two in the morning?” Was all that came to mind.

“We tried to get him to do it earlier today,” Muu said, “but we didn’t get a chance until now.”

“They didn’t get a chance to kidnap me, she means!” He squirmed around some more, swinging his antlers wildly. “They hid around the corner and nabbed me like the filthy criminals they are!!”

Yuno said, “hold still,” as she brought him closer to the water. He kicked his feet wildly, screaming at Es to show a little authority and do something. 

“Hold on a second,” they stopped her.

They closed their eyes, pinching the bridge of their nose. They took a measured breath. They were here to contemplate sin and crime, guilt and forgiveness. Their job should have consisted of questions about morality and life and death; they never anticipated looking around their prison and asking, “is human shampoo even safe for his fur?”

Kotoko spoke up from the other side of the room. “That’s what I thought, but is he really a rabbit? He eats human food and everything, we didn’t think a bit of soap was that different.”

Jackalope disagreed (“that stuff is as bad as poison -- poison I tell you!”) but the others chimed in with their agreement. From around the room came promises that they were being gentle with him, and that they’d keep quiet, and that they’d dry and brush his fur really well when they’d finished, and that they’d feed him treats, and that his uniform was already good as new, and so on. A few complaints at getting bit mingled with Jackalope’s own insults. 

“-- Alright.” Es held up a hand to silence them all. They knew a warden shouldn’t be making compromises with their prisoners. At the same time, they didn’t have the energy to argue about bunny baths at this time of night. “You can continue, but wash him outside of the tub. And go easy on the shampoo. Any mess you make must be cleaned by morning.” 

They were met with excitement and thanks. Jackalope grumbled that they were too soft, but he sounded relieved as he was whisked away from the dreaded bathwater. 

Es sighed. There may have been a few bites and bumps, but that was all. No emergency, no fight, no danger plagued Milgram tonight. Their relief quickly turned to annoyance. They leveled their gaze at Mikoto as he entered from the hallway behind.

“Please tell me this isn’t why you woke me up.”

“Huh? Oh, this? No, no -- we have everything under control. Aw, Mappi, that looks great!”

He pointed at her sewing job, revealing bandages on his hands as well. It looked like no one was safe from the rabbit’s little teeth… Then Mikoto jabbed a thumb casually over his shoulder. “Nah, the faucet in the men’s room broke when we tried filling the basin. The whole room’s flooded now. I think it’s gonna start spilling into the hallway soon.”

“WHAT?”

#milgram #es #jackalope #mikoto kayano #and some others #rip es... they are eternally dealing with So Much Bullshit.... 😂😂😂 #half the fun was actually writing it and the half of it was sitting around brainstorming all the options of trouble the prisoners could #be getting into at odd hours of the night LMAO #i cycled through so many dares/challenges (the fucked up high school variety) - competitions - show offs - crazy games #and thats Before i considered the genuine trouble they could get into #the line was so versatile asdfsdfsd #anyway uhh dont try this at home and all that -- apparently bathing bunnies IS bad for their fur and very distressing 💀 #but im sure our little cryptid prison warden can handle it... #amane and haruka arent involved directly but they are chilling okay #its getting more and more difficult to write milgram humor as they reveal more and more character trauma but im trying!! 😭 #thank you so much for the request! these have been such a blast -- i really appreciate it! you are so kind :') #i hope youre doing well and taking good care of yourself pal!!👍✨ #i hope you enjoy :D #drabbles

[psalmsofpsychosis]

so i talked about Din being so ungodly unpredictable, and after digging a bit deeper beneath the surface of The Mandalorian season1 and 2, i think now i know why.

To the surprise of absolutely noone, Din Djarin is a rogue!! He's a rogue character, that's the foundation of his personality, at any point of his characterization he's designed to stray from structure and to undermine it.

But he's also a knight! and this introduces a very intriguing and fascinating conflict at the heart of his character: the duality of honor, and how he orients himself towards that specific value. He's a knight and a knight is bound by honor and servitude; but in order to save his honor he has to choose what and whom he serves at different points of the narrative, and he has to disobey in order to obide by his honor. A rogue character by definition is the least honoring person, a knight is most honorable. So the heart and the lungs of Din Djarin's characterization is his struggle with servitude and where his values lie, and it's never "this" or "that"; he's constantly switching between rogue and knight in the bat of eyelash, just when you think he's bound to code he abandons mission and when he's supposed to stray he stays and binds himself to a child.

I think introducing him in the position of a king is the most outrageous and hilarious plot twist, because narrative wise, all three archetypes of the Rogue, the Knight and the King have in common the conflict of honor, while the King is most bound to obedience and the Rogue is least concerned with it. So i'm actually quite curious now to know where they'll take season 3 Din Djarin, simply because this is such hefty faceted dynamic and it's quite frankly very ambitious to tackle, we haven't had an archetypal story this intricate in star wars since, well, the original trilogy.

#listen i'm not giving any credit to Favreau or Filoni none whatsoever lmao #i also do not think that they'll tackle Din's internal conflict well #i think they'll write him into a nice clean tidy #''obedience of status quo is the highest honor and the definition of goodness'' propegenda corner #the way hollywood bluckbusters often do #which would be an honest to god shame because HE'S SUCH A MARVELLOUS CHARACTER SO EXCITING #but like. ya know. at this point i'm merely sitting in this corner like #''you absolute madmen; you did it #by accident or not your cooked a fucking hilarious and exciting dynamic; and i'm just curious to know how you'll handle it.'' #Din's dynamic also has m a s s i v e parallels with Luke Skywalker's because Luke also has a huge internal crisis around honor #and has more or less inherited a dead-and-gone legacy #but they made Luke do a 180 and become eyes-and-ears-closed obedient of precuderes in the most out of character way #so like. you know #i hope against hope that they do better with #Din ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #Din Djarin #The Mandalorian #The Mandalorian season 3 #star wars #star wars meta

[give-soup-please]

"is it depression, or am i between hyperfixations?"

-the title of give-soup-please's latest autobiography

#god help me if it's both lmao #this is not bad depression with ideation and the like #but it's manifesting as an extreme malaise #don't care about anything. don't want to do anything. just want to sit on couch. #i don't generally do well when i'm in between the hyperfixations #i need media to think about to keep me afloat #hmmmmm #so- neurodivergence comes in many forms #for me- i take great comfort in soothing myself with repetitive media #which means it's hard to branch out into new things #which leaves me in a position of 'i need to try something new to find something to latch on to' #and the other part of my brain starts screaming #i tend to get overly attached and ride the up and down waves to the extreme when it comes to experiencing new media for the first time #i generally spoiler myself for all new media so i can watch it and be mentally prepared to deal with it #but of course this causes my brain to stagnate and desire surprises while rejecting them outright #so i find myself in a complex position of- #'this old media isn't cutting it.' #'but i can't bear to try anything new right now' #'if i try something new i gotta vet it and look up all spoilers before heading in' #'because i'm feeling too fragile to handle catharsis that is too large right now' #(insert spongebob card here) #'my god it's been more than ten months since i've tried any new tv show or video game' #'i'm stagnating. can't move forward and i can't move back.' #'FUCK' #just wanna love the stuff i remember loving- you know? #yeah... #(melts into soup puddle on the floor)/neg

[twistedapple]

@dmagedgoods the Reddit post promoting your petition is up!

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 raphael #i was about to say “well now everybody will know my reddit username” but it's my handle/username on Discord and even here as well lmao #yes my main blog is Twisted Apple but my actual pseudo is UnrulyCrow (shortened as Crow) #anyway THE PROMOTION OF THE PETITION CONTINUES #it's Reddit though so i am not sure how well it'll do #i've tried to push the annoying redditors away by adressing the usual bullshit directly #my inbox may or may not be quite funky tomorrow when I wake up lmao

[feytouched]

screenshots from a darker lyra timeline (i reloaded both times)

#i did seriously consider following through with both of these choices For The Drama but really #her wis 20 ass would NOT do that at this point in the game. mayb up until like mid act 2 #she's past making this sort of shady deals when she knows damn well she and her pals have things (sorta) handled #besides she keeps telling everyone else not to do the rash powerhungry thing lmao #next playthrough i want a tav who would absolutely make the fucked up choices though #bg3 spoilers #birdko plays bg3 #oc: lyra

[ntaras]

we could talk about how hanzo’s rage is a metaphor for his grief and trauma and his title of scorpion represents his difficulty to let go of his anger how he can never stop mourning his past because he refuses to stop mourning and how kuai liang’s taking of the mantle is representative of the ability to move forward rather than be stuck in constant mourning of the brother he lost. we could also talk about how hanzo’s protection over kuai liang was out of guilt of how hanzo could not stop himself from allowing emotion to control him and killing bi-han, and his ability to allow kuai liang to live instead of exacting more blindness vengeance allowed kuai liang to prosper and grow and end the years of rivalry between their clans.

#they both handle their trauma so differently yet they are both connected because of trauma that ties them to each other #it’s also why scorpion and kuai liang work so well as allies and not just scorpion and bihan/scorpion and sub-zero #i really miss hanzo lmao. the way he grieves is so satisfying because even if he can’t escape it the story also shows he doesn’t want to #escape it. and you know i think that’s how a lot of people grieve #or at least i do #but the inability to let go of grief because it’s so difficult to let go in fear of forgetting who or what you’re grieving #and then it just eats you up your whole life #and then in mk11 older hanzo is able to have a hold on his emotions even if he’s still in mourning and him having to die in his younger #self’s arms because there was no other way to tell him that he HAS to mourn in another way that does not destroy himself #not like *verbally* tell him but that’s what that scene felt like to me #but also he did tell him to accept the new (the reborn shirai ryu) instead of living forever in anguish of the past taken away from him #idk. i just think hanzo’s really neat #and his role as scorpion parallel to kuai liang is what made them *them* #they complement each other #scorpion #kuai liang #talking;

[biblionerd07]

I write an awful lot of men crying for someone who would run away as fast as humanly possible from a crying man

#not just men anyone tbh #I do not handle tears well #from adults I can handle kids crying lol #vulnerability is not my forte #but I sure do write it into every male character in every fandom lmao