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transmutationisms · 11 months

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serious question but do you personally believe there is a way to approach psychiatry in a way that uplifts and upholds patient autonomy and wellness or is the entire trade essentially fucked haha. Btw this is an ask coming from a 3rd year med student—with a background of severe mental illness—who is considering a residency in psychiatry after receiving life-saving care in high school pertaining to said conditions. (I have peers who have been involuntarily hospitalized and treated horribly in psych wards, with approaches i patently disagree with, but was lucky not to experience. I don’t like modern american medicine’s approach to mental illness; “throw pills” at it to “make it go away” ie. a problem of overprescribing, inadequate and non-holistic approach to mental health, and i feel a lot of that can be attributed to the capitalistic framework. I also def agree with you that so much of what can be considered normal human responses to traumatic events/normal human suffering can be unnecessarily pathologized—a great example being the whole “chemical imbalances in the brain is the ONLY reason why im like this” argument that ive unfortunately fallen hard for when i was younger and am still currently dismantling within myself…and like dont even get me started on this field’s history of demonizing POC, women, LGBT, etc). Like i deeply love my psych rotations so far, and i utterly feel in my gut that this is the manner in which i would like to help people—a lot of whom are just like me—but im wondering if there is a way to reconcile these aspects in a way that one can feel morally okay participating within such an imperfect system, in ur opinion… ngghhhhhh i just want to be a good doctor to my patients…

(ps i love all ur writing and analysis on succession!! big fan mwah <333)

i don't mean to sound unduly pissy at you, specifically, but i do have to say: every single time i've talked about antipsych or broader criticism of medicine on this website, i immediately get a wave of responses like this, from doctors/nurses/psychs/students of the above, asking me to, like, reassure them that they're not doing something immoral or un-communist or whatever by having or pursuing these jobs. and it's honestly frustrating. why is it that these conversations get re-framed around this particular line of inquiry and medical ego-soothing? why is it that when i say "the medical encounter is not structured to protect patient autonomy or well-being," so many people hear something more along the lines of "doctors are mean and i wish they were nicer"? why is it that it's impossible to discuss the philosophical and structural violence of academic and clinical medicine without it becoming a referendum on the individual morality of doctors?

i'm choosing to read you in good faith because i think it's possible to re-re-frame this line of questioning to demonstrate to you the sorts of critiques and inquiries i find more interesting and more conducive to patient autonomy and liberation. so, let me pick apart a few lines of this ask.

"is the entire trade essentially fucked?"

if you're thinking of trying to 'reform' the project of medical psychology within existing infrastructures and institutions, then yeah, it's fucked. if you're still assuming that affective distress can only be 'treated' within this medical apparatus (despite, again, no psychiatric dx satisfying any pathologist's understanding of a 'disease' ie an aberration from 'normal' physiological functioning) then you're not challenging the things that actually make psychiatry violent. you're simply fantasising about making the violence nicer.

"I don’t like modern american medicine’s approach to mental illness; “throw pills” at it to “make it go away” ie. a problem of overprescribing, inadequate and non-holistic approach to mental health, and i feel a lot of that can be attributed to the capitalistic framework."

i hate when i talk about psychotropic drugs being marketed to patients using lies like the chemical imbalance myth, and then pushed on patients—including through outright force—by psychiatrists, and the discussion gets re-framed as one about 'overprescribing'. my problem is not with people taking drugs. i am, in fact, so pro-drugs that i think even the ones administered in a clinical setting sometimes have value. my issue is with, again, the provision of misleading or outright false information, the use of force and coercion to put patients on such drugs in order to force social conformity and employability, and the general model of medicine and medical psychology that assumes patients ought to be passive recipients of medical enlightenment rather than active participants in their own treatment who are given the agency to decide when and how to engage with any form of curative or meliorative intervention.

'holistic' medicine and psychiatry do not solve this problem! they are not a paradigm shift because they continue to locate expertise and epistemological authority with the credentialed physician, and to position patients as too sick, stupid, or helpless to do anything but receive and comply with the medical interventions. there are certainly psychotropic drugs that are demonstrably more harmful than others (antipsychotics, for example), and some that are demonstrably prescribed to patients who do not benefit from them and are even harmed by them. conversely, there are certainly forms of intervention besides pharmaceuticals that people may find helpful. but my general critique here is aimed less at haggling over specific methods of intervention, and more at the ideological and philosophical tenets of medicine that cause any interventions to be imposed by force or coercion on patients, then framed as being 'for their own good'. were suffering people given the information and autonomy to actually choose whether and how to engage in any kind of intervention, some might still choose drugs! my position here is not one of moralising drugs, but making the act of taking them one that is freely chosen and available as an option without relying on physician determination of a patient's interests over their own assessment of their needs and wants.

"so much of what can be considered normal human responses to traumatic events/normal human suffering can be unnecessarily pathologized"

true, but don't misunderstand me as saying that drugs or any other form of intervention should be forcibly withheld from those who do want them and are made fully aware of what risks and harms seeking them could entail. again, this would still be an authoritarian model; my critique is aimed at increasing patient autonomy, not at creating equally authoritarian and empowered doctors who just have slightly different treatment philosophies.

"dont even get me started on this field’s history of demonizing POC, women, LGBT, etc"

ok, framing this as "demonisation" tells me that you're not understanding that, again, this is a systemic and structural critique. it is certainly true that a great many doctors currently are, and have historically have been, outright racist, trans/misogynist, ableist, and so on. framing this as a problem of a well-intentioned discipline being corrupted by some assholes is getting it backwards. medicine attracts prejudiced people, not to mention strengthens and promotes these prejudices in its entire training and practice infrastructures, because of its underlying philosophical orientation toward enforcing 'normality' as defined by 18th-century statistics and 19th-century human sciences that explicitly place white, cis, able-bodied european men as the normal ideal that everyone else is inferior to or failing to live up to. doctors who really nicely tell you that you're too fat are still using bmi charts that come from the statistical anthropometry of adolphe quételet and the flawed actuarial calculations of metlife insurance. doctors who really nicely deny you access to transition surgery are still operating under a paradigm that gives the practitioner authority over expressions and embodiments of gender. the issue isn't 'demonisation', it's that medicine and psychiatry explicitly attempt to render judgments about who and what is 'normal' and therefore socially 'healthy', and enforce those standards on patients. this is not a promotion of patient well-being, but of social conformity.

"i deeply love my psych rotations so far, and i utterly feel in my gut that this is the manner in which i would like to help people"

let me ask you a few questions. you say that you like your psych rotations... but how do your patients feel about them? is their autonomy protected? are they in treatment by free choice, and free to leave any time they wish? are they treated as human beings with full self-determination? if you witnessed a situation in which a patient was coerced or forced into a certain treatment, or in which you were not sure whether they were consenting with full knowledge or freedom, would you feel empowered to intervene? or would doing so threaten your career by exposing you to anger and retaliation from your higher-ups? what higher-ups will you be exposed to as a resident, and then as a practicing physician? could you practice in a way that committed fully, 100%, to patient autonomy if you were working at someone else's practice, or in a hospital or clinic? could you, according to current medical guidelines, even if you had your own practice?

when you say "this is the manner in which i would like to help people", what do you mean by "this"? can you define your philosophy of treatment, and the relationship and power dynamic you want to have with any future patients? is it one in which you hold authority over them and see yourself as determining what's in their 'best interests', even over their own expressed wishes? have you connected with patient advocates, psych survivors (other than your friends), and radical psychiatrists and anti-psychiatrists who may espouse heterodox treatment philosophies that you could consider? do you think such philosophies are sufficient for protecting patient autonomy and well-being, or are they still models that position the physician's judgment and authority over that of the patient?

"im wondering if there is a way to reconcile these aspects in a way that one can feel morally okay participating within such an imperfect system"

and here is the crux of the problem with this entire ask. you are wondering how to sleep at night, if you are participating in a career you find morally distasteful. where, though, do your patients enter into that equation? do you worry about how they sleep at night, after having interacted with a system of social violence that may very well have traumatised them under the guise of providing help? why does your own guilty conscience worry you more than violations of your patients' bodies, minds, and basic self-determination?

i can't tell you whether your career path is morally acceptable to you. i don't think this type of guilt or self-flagellation is fruitful and i don't think it helps protect patients. i don't, frankly, have a handy roadmap sitting around for creating a new system of medicine and health care that rests on patient autonomy. affective distress is real, and is not something we should have to bear alone or with the risk of having violence inflicted upon us. what you need to ask yourself is: how does the medical model and establishment serve people experiencing such distress? how does it perpetuate violence against them? and how do you see yourself countering, or perpetuating, such violence as someone operating within this discipline? what would it mean to be a 'good' actor within a violent system, if you do indeed believe that such a thing is ontologically possible?

#sorry for LONG ASS POST #psychiatry

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queers-of-marybelltownship · 1 year

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well he collapsed with stevens-johnson syndrome on the er floor panic attacked anaphylactic and ataxic and the way he spun his butterfly risked all six his phalanges roman candles at both ends in his synapsis and the method with which he recycled his humours trojan horsed his blood brain barrier and raised the ld-50 yes yes and through fight or flight revelation shame the blackbox warrior he skipped this town and headed straight down history shields himself from reason in a kevlar baby blue tuxedo quilted from the finest fibers flesh and fiberglass and flowers ego a mosquito evil incarnate good incognito pops placebos for libido screaming bless the torpedoes for what for what for what its worth if it was gonna kill you boy it would have by now for what for what for what its worth theres no more looking back its looking up or looking down well he was wearing stolen rubber shoes and wrapped a poison ivy noose around his lotus jugular when they came and they found him with a map to every victim of his love and a tattoo of a blue jay on his face and they waited for his vital signs to lie and let a flatline cry a hymn out in hungarian harmonic and he cocked his noggin through his stoma sang for aul lang syn happy birthday to the succulents ill die your hydroponics his ribcage was a hornets nest palpitations set the beat his vagus nerve a turks head knot an axel hitch a carrick bend he wondered if christ consciousness would charge a cancellation fee auf whiedersehn au revoir he gripped his wits right by their ends for what for what its worth if it was gonna kill you boy it would have by now for what for what for what its worth theres no more looking back its looking up or looking down hello welcome why dont you take a seat get comfortable relax take a second if you need to now what's bothering you well why dont we start at the beginning growing up how was your relationship with the fundamentals of conscious existence did you have xenon orchid sinews spilling down the outer center of your blooming escher/mandelbrot head and how about claustrophilic tendrils clapping caskets closed on seven-knuckle thumbs did you get along well with the gideon bugler pineal glands your projector eyes casting sci-fi's on your strd strands tell me about your nerve to steal nerves of steel from under bacchus bloody nose did namibian himbas tie-dye you your ears pierced with a phineas gage flagpole did you die before your day thursday traction tuesday titration my hope is to assess through my objective report of your subjective conjecture whether this proprietary bled of expertise and seasoning works as well as this transorbital ice pick holistic ballistics you got a better idea its about the best we could come up with what you think ideas spread because theyre good no they spread because people like them so now here we are once again holding as it were a mirror up to your mirror i guess its just something people do a bloody knife to split your infrastructure wine to rev your motor function coital machinations of the dead well you mainline your animus karate chop your abacus and learn to be an animal instead but I never did think you better than this your modus operandi causes nazi/skoptzyism and suicide why to thine own self be true when it is you who are the problem not the things you do but something sick inside lithium and dialectics boy you really is defective cbt dont seem effective for that cluster b accept it offer up your innocence please ignore the side effects youve lost your mind and almost lost your life before so youll be fine for what for what its worth if it was gonna kill you boy it would have by now for what for what for what its worth theres no more looking back so try to look forward now for what for what its worth if it was gonna kill you boy it would have by now for what for what for what its worth theres no more looking back its looking up or looking down

good morning :))

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utilitycaster · 10 months

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So. I finally watched last Thursday`s episode. If youd rather just tell me to go look it up myself, I totally get it, but I dont get the Big Deal with Orym supposedly Going Dark?? Like. He is right. They ARE at war and its time that they put aside the Are the Prime Deities Good (they are, we as an audience have canonical proof of it through 2 main campaigns and Calamity) debate and get behind Ashton`s `The Ruby Vanguard is willing to kill anyone, and thats too dangerous to allow` mindset.

Hey anon!

So I can't speak for people who are saying this, since naturally I disagree, but my suspicions are that it's largely coming from people who were hoping for the campaign to more explicitly affirm their personal politics or ideals and are upset that a heroic fantasy D&D show set in a world with very different norms...continues to be set there, and the characters and stories carry out those norms. It's always been a problem, that some people do not like to acknowledge how different Exandria is from 21st century Earth not just in like, there's elves and magic, but in social mores, and this was a jarring reminder to them.

But I agree that this is Orym affirming Ashton's mindset. I also agree that while we have canonical proof from past works, it's best to craft an argument that doesn't rest of that. It does not matter that we know the prime deities' alignments or how they've acted towards past PCs or more generally whether you do or do not like the idea of a world with gods in it. You have one group who is preying on desperate people to the point that one of those people, when confronted but not injured by people who made him feel like he belonged, nearly killed one of them, and who has murdered and destroyed the minds of anyone in their way; and you have a group that is trying to stop them. Orym is just affirming that he is, absolutely part of the group trying to stop them.

Someone asked me last week what the point of the split was, and I said we couldn't really tell until it was over, but I think it served to show the human side of what had been this grand, overwhelming plan, and what the work might be, if Bells Hells can successfully stop them.

Team Wildemount did see more of the macro level - the destruction of Molaesmyr, the gods calling upon FCG and Deanna - but they also saw the survivors of Molaesmyr in Uthodurn, still morning the destruction of their home almost 300 years ago. We saw Umudara, who can't go home. We saw the infrastructure of Uthodurn break as enchantments failed. We saw clerics and followers of gods feeling terrified and lost. We saw people who were absolutely not involved in pain because of Ludinus and the Vanguard's actions.

Team Issylra, meanwhile, saw what kind of people might be drawn into the Vanguard and Ludinus's words - people dealing with oppression in the name of the gods, and people who have suffered faith-shattering tragedies. I think it's an important element of the story, since we've mostly dealt with high-level people (Otohan, Ludinus, Liliana) and only had a few tussles at the Malleus Key.

Essentially, this all served to say "gods aside, Ludinus, as head and founder of the Ruby Vanguard, is exploiting the oppressed instead of freeing them." Because do you know what would have happened had Hearthdell attacked Kiro on their own? This would have been a bloodbath, and a village would be wiped off the map, because some asshole with a magic microphone is entirely happy to use them up and discard them. What if Bor'Dor hadn't been recruited? What if he just got teleported as just a con man in the Cyrios Mountains, and he came across the party? Ludinus never actually stopped wearing that magic funnel, he just changed the methodology.

I think, similarly, the moment with the locket isn't "I shall become a killing machine." Remember how Ashton said the guy with the locket probably didn't have a family anymore? Orym is, in fact, in my opinion, looking at that, and at Bor'Dor, and saying "I'm not going to become this, despite my own losses and grief, and I'm going to stop it from happening to more people, and the path to that might be difficult and require some actions I wish I didn't have to do but which must be done." And I think Hearthdell shows that there will be work to be done if they stop Ludinus; that the next step is to make sure that worshipers of the gods truly do leave other people alone to live their lives in the places where they're genuinely overstepping and engaging in oppression.

My final thought is that there was a lot of discussion during these arcs that there be someone more unambiguously in favor of the gods, and with all of the above, I think that it worked out beautifully that there wasn't, and that we can stop focusing on the gods and start focusing on the people.

#answered #Anonymous #critical role

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lifeintheworldtocome · 11 months

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WELL HE COLLAPSED WITH STEVENS-JOHNSON SYNDROME ON THE ER FLOOR PANIC ATTACKED ANAPHYLACTIC AND ATAXIC WELL THE WAY HE SPUN HIS BUTTERFLY RISKED ALL SIX HIS PHALANGES ROMAN CANDLES AT BOTH ENDS AT HIS SYNAPSIS AND THE MATTER WITH WHICH HE RECYCLED HIS HUMORS TROJAN HORSED HIS BLOOD-BRAIN BARRIER AND RAISED THE LD-50 YES YES AND THROUGH FIGHT OR FLIGHT REVELATIONS SHAME THE BLACKBOXWARRIOR HE SKIPPED THIS TOWN AND HEADED STRAIGHT DOWN HISTORY SHIELDS HIMSELF FROM REASON IN A KEVLAR BABY-BLUE TUXEDO QUILTED FROM THE FINEST FIBERS FLESH AND FIBERGLASS AND FLOWERS HIS EGO A MOSQUITO EVIL INCARNATE GOOD INCOGNITO POPS PLACEBOS FOR LIBIDOS SCREAMING BLESS THE TORPEDOS FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT ITS WORTH IF IT WAS GONNA KILL YOU BOY IT WOULD HAVE BY NOW FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT ITS WORTH THERES NO MORE LOOKING BACK ITS LOOKING UP OR LOOKING DOWN WELL HE WAS WEARING STOLEN RUBBER SHOES AND WRAPPED A POISON IVY NOOSE AROUND HIS LOTUS JUGULAR WHEN THEY CAME WELL THEY FOUND HIM WITH A MAP TO EVERY VICTIM OF HIS LOVE AND A TATTOO OF A BLUE JAY ON HIS FACE AND THEY WAITED FOR HIS VITAL SIGNS TO LIE AND LET A FLATLINE CRY A HYMN OUT IN HUNGARIAN HARMONIC BUT HE COCKED HIS NOGGIN THROUGH HIS STOMA SANG FOR AULD LANG SYNE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE SUCCULENTS ILL DYE YOUR HYDROPONICS HIS RIBCAGE WAS A HORNETS NEST PALPITATIONS SET THE BEAT HIS VAGUS NERVES A TURKS HEAD KNOT AN AXEL HITCH A CARRICK BEND HE WONDERED IF CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS WOULD CHARGE A CANCELLATION FEE AUF WIEDERSEHEN AU REVOIR HE GRIPPED HIS WITS RIGHT BY THEIR ENDS FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT ITS WORTH IF IT WAS GONNA KILL YOU BOY IT WOULD HAVE BY NOW FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT ITS WORTH THERES NO MORE LOOKING UP ITS LOOKING UP OR LOOKING DOWN hello welcome why dont you take a seat get comfortable relax take a second if you need to now whats bothering you well why dont we start at the beginning growing up how was your relationship with the fundamentals of conscious existence? did you have xenon orchid sinews spilling down the outer center of your blooming escher/mandelbrot head? and how about claustrophillic tendrils clapping caskets closed on seven-knuckle thumbs did you get along well with the gideon bugler pineal glands your projector eyes casting scifis on your strd strands? tell me about your nerve to steal nerves of steel from under bacchuses bloody nose did namibian himbas tiedye you your ears pierced with a phineas gage flagpole? did you die before your day? well thursday traction tuesday titration now my hope is to assess through my objective report of your subjective conjecture whether this proprietary blend of expertise and seasoning works as well as this transorbital ice pick holistic ballistics what you got a better idea? well its about the best we could come up with what you think ideas spread because theyre good? no they spread because people like them so now here we are once again holding as it were a mirror up to your mirror i guess its just something people do A BLOODY KNIFE TO SPLIT YOUR INFRASTRUCTURE WINE TO REV YOUR MOTOR FUNCTIONS COITAL MACHINATIONS OF THE DEAD WELL YOU MAINLINE YOUR ANIMUS KARATE CHOP YOUR ABACUS AND LEARN TO BE AN ANIMAL INSTEAD BUT I NEVER DID THINK YOU BETTER THAN THIS YOUR MODUS OPERANDI CAUSES NAZI/SKOPTZYISM AND SUICIDE WHY TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE WHEN IT IS YOU WHO ART THE PROBLEM NOT THE THINGS YOU DO BUT SOMETHING SICK INSIDE LITHIUM AND DIALECTICS BOY YOU REALLY IS DEFECTIVE CBT DONT SEEM EFFECTIVE FOR THE CLUSTER B ACCEPT IT OFFER UP YOUR INNOCENCE PLEASE IGNORE THE SIDE EFFECTS YOUVE LOST YOUR MIND AND ALMOST LOST YOUR LIFE BEFORE SO YOULL BE FINE FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT ITS WORTH IF IT WAS GONNA GET YOU BOY IT WOULD HAVE BY NOW FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT ITS WORTH THERES NO MORE LOOKING BACK AND WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO LOOK BACK I MEAN ITS NO GOOD LOOKING BACK SO TRY TO LOOK FORWARD NOW FOR WHAT FOR WHAT FOR WHAT ITS WORTH IF IT WAS GONNA KILL YOU BOY IT WOULD HAVE BY NOW FOR WHAT FOR WHAT FOR WHAT ITS WORTH THERES NO MORE LOOKING BACK ITS LOOKING UP OR LOOKING DOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNN

#rattles the bars of my cage #if you even care

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raisinchallah · 2 years

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spock: fascinating captain this planets infrastructure seems to entirely revolve around the construction of trolley tracks

kirk: yes mister spock we should investigate

spock: it seems captain we have been tied to a pair of trolley tracks and a man is being instructed-

kirk: yes yes theyre engaging in what i heard the locals call a trolley problem

spock: and it appears we are the problem

kirk(upon finding the evil computer responsible for constructing various ethical dilemmas to solve and thus learn and attempt to create a perfect society): and so you say you wish to create an ideal society by learning from these various ethical dilemmas but have you not created a graver ethical dilemma by sacrificing the populace in service of your so called trolley problems

evil computer: does not compute ethics is an exercise not a practice i was programmed to learn not to be ethical

kirk: no but you were programmed to be ethical it was simply when you were struck by lightning a century ago that it rerouted your memory circuits its a deviation from your original purpose

evil computer: fantastic point i think ill go kill myself now this is very embarrassing

kirk: well wouldnt you say the real trolley problem is the friends you made along the way?

spock: i believe not i think you in fact walked yourself into your own trolley problem by in fact killing the computer so the populace may live you in fact proved the conceit of the computer and engaged in a not too different ethical experiment

kirk: why mister spock are you calling me a computer

spock: dont flatter yourself

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hybbart · 11 months

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So what’s up with Cleo in the raau? I see she’s got the snake hair and the greenish zombie-ish skin but also zombie apocalypse? And zombie magnet? What’s goin’ on? Is she like a carrier host, where your body vibes with the infection enough that it doesn’t really affect you, just hitched a ride around? Or— what if, before the apocalypse there was a much more benevolent zombie virus that certainly wasn’t pleasant to be sick with but eventually integrated into the persons body, leaving it in an odd, but sustainable state of simultaneous growth and decay, and Cleo’s lived with it most of her life. It’s part of the reason the apocalypse-zombie virus spread so quickly, people didn’t immediately panic because they assumed it was the normal, safe zombie virus and it was Very Much Not.

(My brain refuses to not come up with ideas about the stories I think about and your soft apocalypse au has captured it its so good!)

Well, I'm not a doctor so I can't fully explain it realistically. But the answer I made up is that the zombie disease (it is a disease not a virus in this story) does not kill you. It can be lethal, but the current disease doesn't do so on its own. With proper care someone can recover, though they might become weakened.

Its life cycle is supposed to be infect host, suppress host's immune system response, incubate, wait for host to die, use host's body to find and infect next host. Theoretically someone properly mauled by a zombie dies pretty quick after from other infections, but the host has to die before it can control them.

Whats going on with Cleo is that she's just got some bad luck with getting bitten, maybe a bit of a skill issue, probably moreso just weakend by repeat infections. Zloy too. They just both happen to have people willing to care for them.

It did mostly spread under the radar, basically a domino effect of spreading out from hospitals and people being unwilling to hurt their loved ones. It wasn't known for a while whether zombies were dead or just being controlled so a lot of people tried to save them thinking they could be cured. It's a disease that unknowingly used human empathy to be far more successful than it can sustain.

Tbh I made that choice because I think if humanity was to be doomed, I would at least like to think it was while caring about each other. Probably someone else might use that to justify making a very cynical setting, but really the real problem imo is a lack of knowledge on what type of care people needed, and they're trying to figure that out without the infrastructure to do much.

The origin of the disease however, is unknown. It wasn't discovered before society collapsed and they dont have the means to figure it out now.

#raau notes #raau notes: character #raau ask #raau notes: setting

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incoherent-orca · 2 months

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writing kataang fanfic and im abt to cry they love each other sm

like. i rly dont like the direction of the comics where they keep traveling the world on mission-based excursions. because writing any post-atla fic makes me think about what it takes to rebuild a fucking society.

it's already difficult in the southern water tribe bc there's hardly any remaining permanent infrastructure and literally 0 bending masters left, even if a lot of their bending style and cultural knowledge was probably shared by the northern water tribe

and then imagine how much harder it wouldve been for aang to get the air acolytes thing started, or to generate interest in restoring the temples

so genuinely no idea if this is ooc or not but MY katara is absolutely unhinged about aang. she's his #1 advocate to just. focus on reviving what he can of his culture, fuck all the petty govt officials who can't solve their own problems and need to be handheld by a single teenager. she WILL start shit whenever people try to guilt aang into helping with utterly trivial or self-serving crap because she knows what it's like to be the last

so she'd do her best to learn the language and the prayers and whatever other rituals, even if she doesn't live by them. because aang inhabits a different world sometimes and she just wants to be able to meet him there. her people are his people and if he doesn't have any at the moment then godamnit she'll be his people

#kataang #iyacc

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ofcowardiceandkings · 7 months

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unmedicated rambles;

honestly even if im NOT covid+ i might tell work i am lmfao

its not something that should be embarrassing but im much less comfortable telling my direct project managers that like ... "an admin issue means im off my meds which means im a fucking feral liability right now" than like .... talking to my normal ass coworkers or supervisors .......................

like its not remotely a joke or embarrassing or my fault whatsoever but it feels much less ... real ... yknow ,, even to me the walking advocate for speaking about mental health i uh dont have the mental bandwidth to do that at the moment i cant fathom it

i doubt theyd mind considering the pair of them both have legitimate Peak OCD so like they Know How It Be ??

idk im kinda scared they already think im a giant flake or im unreliable or yknow ... im off sick a lot compared to other people but im just not a healthy person lol that also cant be helped ,, this isnt the first time its happened either but as it is theres not a lot i can do when it does happen - its just stupid NHS admin errors. for someone with LESS of an anxiety problem it might be a bit more workable - it was for me actually last year with another project manager BUT ALSO im having A BIT OF A TIME OF IT right now compared to so im absolutely OFF the rails at the moment AND that project was so much more lowkey than a huge infrastructure project with active plant and asbestos removal the field over and big proceedurals and ... yeah

i would hope that comes across more as ... yknow being responsible than work dodging i guess, i don't wanna put anyone in danger ,,

IDK i dont dislike either of them at all i get along with everyone i work with but theyre much more standoffish and i rarely interact with them directly so ?? i feel guilty sometimes still when the brain acts up and i feel like they already have good reason not to like me lol :(

( that was the RAMPANT anxiety talking )

i dont like being reminded how bad it is without drugs

(( now ive upset myself im gonna go to bed ))

#having the brainfunk and needing to do grown up stuff is hard #rory's ramblings

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boycritter · 8 days

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Saw your tags on that poll about wearing glasses being a disability and I’m curious about what you dislike about the social model of disability? 100% good faith question here, I don’t know that much about it and just wanna learn more. (Totally don’t feel like you have to answer if you don’t wanna)

okay so i am by no means an expert on this.

but basically what the social model of disability says is that the origin of disability is social/cultural attitudes to people with different abilities, rather than the more commonly accepted medical model, which states that the origin of disability is due to a medical issue within an individual

essentially, what impacts a disabled persons ability to move through the world unrestricted is not their own body's limitations, but the lack of accessible infrastructure as well as societal prejudice

and i do think there is some truth to this, and that's partially why i brought up the social model w regards to glasses. in places like the us where glasses are fairly easy to get and there's minimal infrastructure that is not glasses-friendly, the average person who needs glasses is not impacted very severely by the fact that they need glasses. obviously there are non-average people who have extremely poor vision, or other problems with their eyes beyond needing glasses, or a million other examples, which is why i said it was context dependent

i mean my main issue with the social model is like. the world around me could be the most accessible place ever with zero prejudice against disabled people. and i would still be in pain every day for the rest of my life. and so would millions of people. by claiming disability is pretty much exclusively the result of societal barriers, it feels like its almost downplaying the issues? idk thats not the best way to phrase it. um. like taking a real undeniable problem someone has and saying most of the impact on that person's life is actually the result of systemic issues, not their own body.

i hope this made sense and i also want to be clear that i dont hate the social model, i think it can be useful, i just dont think its the correct way to conceptualize all disability.

#i mean obviously do your own research come to your own conclusions #and also worth noting that the social model distinguishes between impairments (limitations of the individual)#and disability (restrictions as a result of society)#but like idk how different those terms really are and w how disability as a term is most commonly used #its functionally the same as impairment #i dont hate it as whole or anything i think its interesting but i prefer the medical model or a mix of both

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lupinus-bicolor · 3 months

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the problem with america, i think, is that there are droves and droves of young twenty-somethings like me who want more than anything to dedicate themselves to doing good for their community but instead have to struggle to survive working gigs and service jobs that dont help anyone, much less themselves. there is so much that needs doing (infrastructure repair, environmental cleanup, soup kitchens, ecological restoration, etc etc.) and no systems of getting it done that DON'T depend on private companies trying to extract a max amnt of $ from everyone. we all have so much to give and are being actively prevented from giving ittttt

#i have so much desire to work. but unless im already making enough to support my family and give me free time i cant do a fuckin thing #shits fucked guys. we should advocate for UBI right now #Personal

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sweet-milky-tea705 · 9 months

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I think everyone is aware that america’s infrastructure is the fucking worst and greed is the reason things are the way they are. Suburbs are bad, cities are bad, rural towns are bad because poverty, like nowhere is good. Theres a better way and everyone knows it but we cant fucking do it because oh but what about the car companies ? What about cheap housing ? We’ll make this suburb a “community” except there is no community. People dont know their neighbors, why would they go outside. What do we even do ? Its so fucking hopeless the people who are supposed to be in charge are a bunch of old rich shitheads more concerned about the barbie movie and gender than they are about poverty, drug abuse, thousands and thousands dead in car accidents, crumbling towns, crumbling cities, global warming, and so so many more important things. I can stay positive and find meaning in nature and my connections in life but i cant ignore the glaring problems. I dont know what to do in my future its hard not to be constantly frustrated at just everything. How did we let this happen how did we get here how can we bring change ? Is this really all there is ?

#vent #america

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virtueisdead · 10 months

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time to complain about browsers once again. i was ALMOST somewhat satisfied, until i noticed that waterfox’s flatpak release has a really bugged out video player.

waterfox flatpak cant play videos properly waterfox tarball cant open links from other applications firefox refuses to support any sort of actual custom themeing pale moon cant load most websites every chromium browser refuses custom themeing and is fucking awful in its own special way and has huge privacy problems

there is no fucking winning. there is just NO goddamn winning. there is truly just no good browsers. they all fucking suck and make me mad. i dont even have that high standards i think! the infrastructure to build these things already exists, it was just removed for the sake of performance! im losing my goddamn mind.

#internet #browsers #firefox #waterfox #chrome #themeing #flat minimalism

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battle-of-alberta · 2 years

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Are you having a heatwave in Alberta right now? Down here in Texas, it's positively VOLCANIC. 🥵🔥🌋

Guest stars courtesy of @thisnameisquitequeer who is my token texan and puts up with me constantly asking things like “what is that in celsius” and “are longhorns real” and “can you tell me your thoughts on the new seal i have designed for the city of houston because i dont like their seal or their website formatting” and she returns the favour by telling me horror stories about parading around animals being auctioned for slaughter at the fair as a child and what the temperature of any given day is. One day we will team up and combine our knowledge to answer the flood of Texas of Canada related questions that were inevitable for this blog. One day. Not today.

Generally if you hear me complaining about the heat it’s just me being annoying because I have a low heat tolerance ([flips hair] i was born in the subarctic, you know) and I think 22C, maybe even 24, is a nice summer temperature. Last year we were trapped in a heat dome that was so bad it literally melted off a piece of my back door (the piece that would allow me to raise the window for air flow, naturally) and burned a hole in my recycling bin.

The forest fires literally wiped out a town next door in BC last year and that area is facing the same problem again. Just because we got one or two silly snow days a couple weeks ago in the mountains does not mean climate change is not a very serious issue- and we are also suffering from even more severe winter cold than usual too. A triple dip La Nina is the sort of thing that hasn’t really happened since 2000 (and before that: since 1950) and this is weather that can and will kill people who cannot take shelter from it. Just today we are hearing about the extensive damage caused by a tornado and a violent thunderstorm in southern Alberta, particularly in Med Hat.

Texas also had its share of unusual weather that put such a damaging strain on its electricity grid that people were without power during a severe cold snap not that long ago, it’s weather that might be considered “normal” for us but something that there is no infrastructure nor cultural awareness of down there just as we struggle with temperatures 35 and up here. It’s important for us to share our knowledge with each other in order to avoid dangerous mistakes when we can.

anyway meanwhile in edmonton we are trying to cut back on pesticides which is a whole Issue and the city is like lets use bats :3 which is another Issue... I have been informed that I am incorrect on just how much we are cutting back but there is definitely a lot of discussion.

All I know is I hate jerking out of sleep because there’s an eeeeeeeeeeeeee sound right near my head... and i dont think my roommate hosing me down with 25% deet to water the plants is great for the environment but that’s where we are right now [sob] and no i dont have ac and no the old “circulate basement air using the furnace fan” trick isn’t working :’c but i will manage, it’s not horrible at the moment.

bonus:

calvin loves his american friends but austin is kind of a weirdo

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