#i feel alone in this cold world

[ukkipeach]

Am I the only one in this world that head cannons Deuce Spade as a rockero? 😔

#i feel alone in this cold world #jk #FR THO IMAGINE IT #he used to be a bad boy so i feel like he would have loved all the bad boy-ish songs #and then when he turns good boy its the one part of him he cant give up #he might not be a delinquent anymore but he still loves his music #(and his mom totally introduced him to it) #idk this has been my one crutch in life LMAO #twisted wonderland #deuce spade #twst deuce #my headcannons

[johnskleats]

okay zutara hades and persephone au but katara is hades

#i know that zuko has the “i destroy everything i touch” thing but i also feel like there could be something to tap into with controlling #parents and the fact that he is surrounded by a world that never vhanges where he has no control over anything not even his purpose #just a subset of the higher gods #with katara (hades) he has the chance to change something do something proactive #also katara trapped in a cold dark desolate landscape alone? 100% willing to kill a motherfucker but also very kind? hades #just sayingggg #zutara #zutara au

[spaceratprodigy]

Do You Forgive Me? — [ Faith/Max 📿 AU ]

I always told myself, on those hard nights – you, so close, sleeping next to the man you were supposed to be next to – if you showed up, if you asked me to, I would take off the collar and go with you. Anywhere in the world.

[Referencing this scene from Midnight Mass]

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#yes I keep this page of the script saved to my phone at all times leave me alone #I am cringe but I am free #you can pry my silly annoying self-indulgent lil AUs out of my cold dead hands idc #also happy anniversary to these two goobers btw :] #it's been exactly 2 years since the very first time I drew faith and max together!! #much love to everyone who has been so kind and supportive and adores seeing them as much as I do #truly the most special feeling in the world #<3 #my art #faith and max #the outer worlds #captain of the unreliable #vicar max #maximillian desoto

[silverskye13]

Listening to "Look My Way" on repeat while writing the next chapter is healthy and will not affect me (or the chapter) in any way I'm sure.

#spazzcat barks #the barking writer #unless its me? #and no matter what in this world i could give #its not enough? #to get through the walls youve conjured up to live #is this how youd feel? #abandoned all alone and left to fend for yourself? #for some semblence of happiness that doesnt have to end #i will try to make amends for making you means to an end #so look my way please look my way #and if theres something more that i dont know #ill save us both before we grow cold #if youll stay and just say 'look my way' #[loud off key singing fades into the distance]

[wifiwuxians]

'don't touch me.' 'i'm not. (:'

amazing commission i got from @sparklingpixies that i could not be happier with, seriously look at these boys!!!! i can't stop looking at it, it has so much charm and personality and it's exactly what i wanted...

these two and their endless list of possible shenanigans live rent free in my head

#song lan #xue yang #you know how sometimes you just want an incredible artist to draw what you draw #just so you don't feel so alone and also because you think their style would be absolutely perfect for it? that's what happened here #thank you so much i ADORE your art style AGH #world needs more sl art #and more art of these two just hanging out NSA #the hot-cold dynamic is just. my favorite thing and the backdrop is SO CUTE JUST AHH #they WILL be friends whether sl likes it or not

[bunnihearted]

hmm

#i just feel like i cant connect to anyone #i dont feel safe with anyone. ppl are so cold and callous #and in fact most ppl support and contribute to abuse & rape culture #and knowing that just makes me not feel safe or comfortable with them #thus i cant trust them w my experiences. i cant trust them at all tbh #+ i have a deeper connection w animals & nature and most ppl.. are so disconnected from those #i just dont feel.. ok with anyone #also the fact that i constantly have to mask. every interaction w ppl feels like a performance #everyone already has decided what they think others should be. and i dont fit into that. im none of it #so i feel sm like no one could understand me. and in turn i dont understand anyone either :/ #it's making me feel so so so so fucking lonely #my world views and experiences and everything are things i just cannot ignore #i simply cant shut it off and be w ppl regardless #and i know i cant expect to meet ppl EXACTLY like me. but i just want some that are kinda similar #sigh all of this is so hard to even put into words. it feels like im not explaining this properly #i just look around me sometimes and feel so extremely alone bc i cant connect w anyone. i just dont understand ppl at all. #and i just wanna feel safe and comfortable #maybe what im saying is that someone world views and morals etc are important to me #i cant connect with someone who denies a genocide for example #bc that is so fundamentally against who i am and what i believe in #but it is so fkn rare i cant even come up w an example of me coming across someone similar to mtyself #idk.. just dont wanna be alone

[alloutshirt]

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#fuck i can literally feel my heart breaking #ive been alone my whole life but i feel really alone in the world rn #he really came in when everything fell apart and now ive lost him too #im so sick of having no value to people when i was convinced i did #ive always refused to let bad experiences define me and become cold and closed off #but maybe that’s what you need to be #and i don’t know how to do that #how can you go from talking to someone all day everyday for months to saying hey i think we should completely stop #pls don’t reply to this i just need to get it out

[stinkrascal]

today sucks im gonna start killing people as my new hobby

#feeling very alone #my world is so small #i wish it wasnt so cold outside so i can take my depressed enby walk but alas i cant even have that can i 🧘

[sylkshe-gone]

tag dump 4

𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ all alone i feel her arms around me — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & rue / redemptioninterlude ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ i'll be there for you as the world falls down — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & cc / chmerical ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ he likes gucci & slutty chais — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & ling / sunxsin ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ a child of the wild just like you — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & eva / liightbringr ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ shadow in black you are grim from your reaping — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & barnabas / thcrmr ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ in the roaring dark i will be beside you — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & astarion / highvampire ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ hold me please just hold me — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & heid / cwascars ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ paint my body with the blood on your hands — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & patrick / americanedpsycho ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ o give me a hand to hold so that i may face the cold — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & syl / wrlckd ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ two sinking ships in the darkness much too close to break away — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & buggy / clownedpirate ! 𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ we'd stand & stare & speak of love & feel the stars ascending — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & aerith / onegil !

#𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ all alone i feel her arms around me — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & rue / redemptioninterlude ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ i'll be there for you as the world falls down — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & cc / chmerical ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ he likes gucci & slutty chais — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & ling / sunxsin ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ a child of the wild just like you — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & eva / liightbringr ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ shadow in black you are grim from your reaping — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & barnabas / thcrmr ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ in the roaring dark i will be beside you — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & astarion / highvampire ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ hold me please just hold me — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & heid / cwascars ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ paint my body with the blood on your hands — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & patrick / americanedpsycho ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ o give me a hand to hold so that i may face the cold — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & syl / wrlckd ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ two sinking ships in the darkness much too close to break away — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & buggy / clownedpirate ! #𓆩✧𓆪 › ❛ we'd stand & stare & speak of love & feel the stars ascending — 𝒅𝒚𝒏 : ani & aerith / onegil !

[rinrinlovee]

girls when they're five seconds away from doing something drastic (taking another nap)

#on one hand I would kill for an ounce of comfort #on the other hand comfort only makes it worse later on when I am back to my neutral state of bone chilling loneliness #For as long as I can remember I've always been alone #no cousins no siblings only really just recently made friends #it's always been me taking comfort and company among the natural world #you may be terribly lonely and cold and craving any sort of companionship at all #but at least there's a sea of stars above you and the moon is glowing and the wind is whispering through the oak trees #On the off chance someone befriends me they always gradually drift off after a month or two #or die #speaking of dying the grief is attempting to consume me piece by piece again #that's fun #I can barely even cry about it anymore #it just feels hollow and cold #god . first and only person to ever always be comforting and there and nice and then they LEAVE #PERMANENTLY #oh well #at least it's a pretty morning

[readymades2002]

briefly confided in my mother (mistake i never learn from) about how i am very sad that my ability to have a social life in the world is tied entirely to my sibling, who will be leaving here soon, and how i do not have any other way to get out of the house and how i do not feel i have anything besides work and despite everything that came after, including an apology for saying it, the first thing she said was “well i don’t have anything else either” which is exactly what prevented me from saying anything earlier because i knew that and i know that she is very good at going “it is what it is” about the most miserable of conditions and so would never admit to being unhappy about anything even though there is so much to be unhappy about including having to raise me to begin with, and that she also gets annoyed when others complain or are unhappy about anything because SHE does it and so why can’t everyone do it. and. well. i am pretty nervous about what this means for my life (nonexistent) going forward

#it is a cold thing to say but i feel like i have like. a month to befriend my sibling's friends that will be staying here #enough to want to spend time with me or else i am never going to get out of this fucking household #i dont have many coworkers my age and even fewer that i talk to because i dont like talking to people very much #which is also a massive problem because i want to but i am weird and shy and not always a fan of people and again very strange #but i can barely functionally navigate the world on my own to an upsetting degree. if i dont have someone with me i cant do it. #i am kind of freaked out about all of this. i have today off and work late tomorrow and i wanted to maybe go out tonight #but i. can't. because no one here wants to and im fucking scared to death of calling (and paying for) an uber #and then being out in the world on my own. so i just get to stay here. #not even mentioning i am fairly certain there is a new wave of That Virus going around so what would even happen if i did #which is also fuckinggggg miserable i am the ONLY PERSON who wears a mask to work besides the deli department #drops head in hands im never going to befriend anyone im never going to go anywhere again im never going to touch anyone #i do not want to say this because i am a very repressed person but i am never going to hook up with anyone which is disappointing frankly #i can BARELY text anyone and i am often in too much pain to even walk to the one thing i can do alone which is the library #like. oh my god! my life has no meaning. i trudge along thinking 'maybe it will get better' #and its not all been bad i DO have kind of an almost social life when my sibling takes me to do things with their friends #i got to play dee n dee yesterday and it was cool even though i panicked a few times under attention #ive been able to do things. i have some coworkers i like or at least talk to. im very competent and people like that though they know #nothing else about me besides that im good at my job. #but having those moments of like honest to god Hope makes it feel infinitely worse the rest of the time when im just #staring at the clouds and the clock and thinking oh my god it was all for this and it was not worth it #whatever. classic post of buzz. this doesnt matter and i dont know what the point in talking about it is but i dont have anything else #a job im good at and hate and a blog where i complain and a death wish and thats all. an unbearable early 20s myopia #this is stupid im going to do something else since ive upset myself. AGAIN

[deivorous]

thinking about grimm and religion this morning and honestly making myself a little sad.

#[ ooc || out of control ] #was chatting about it in disc wiht a friend and here's some of the copy pastes #he simultaneously needs somethign bigger than himself to believe in #and resents and loathes the idea that there is something bigger and everythign is still shit or everything is premediated. why should anyon #Its why hes so susceptible to aizens cult mentality #and when things get really bad he keeps turning back to it bc he has nothing else #theres no one else but him and whatever god hates him enough to do this to him #for a while he tries pinning his hope on other people. if he cant carry the torch himself then his fraccion can #or Aizen can #or ichigo can until he can do it himself again #he just cant be by himself. even metaphysically or whatever #needs. Something #he's just not enough for himself #if IS all by himself then the whole world(s) are on his shoulders and they will crush him flat . it is not good #the world is cruel and cold and he wants someone to have his back #literally anyone #i just think he spends a lot of time feeling small and alone and religion helps him cope #hes not like. particularly devout or anything. he's catholic leaning agnostic than anything else. maybe raised religious and jsut whatever #stuck #i do think about it a lot #[ hc || pry open the armour plating and get at the soft meat ]

[vaugarde]

girl help im thinking of a major oc rehaul again

#okay. pains me to consider this twice with the main group now. but im thinking of downsizing the mcs to just asha and valerie #NOT because im ignoring skylar thats actually why this is difficult to see if its a betterchoice bc i love their relationship w asha #and i do love them being taken in by atlas but like. im wondering if its necessary #and if itll serve asha's character better if she's aloof and cold bc they've been so isolated #and valerie is the one to bring her down from that. but then that feels weird when skylar is there #and skylar couldve had that effect on her yknow and its weird that they dont since theyre so close #like idk how to make that work without making asha come across as more unlikable than they should be #bc then the implication is ''skylar is really enthusiastic and always trying to get asha to try new things and she doesnt #but then val does that while showing her kindness so clearly skylar doesnt mean as much to asha'' #skylar does get an arc regarding their relationship with asha but it also feels too similar to quinn's arc w atlas #and i was trying to make it a parallel but it feels less like that and more like retreadingground since im telling both stories #or i want to anyways #and like. skylar wouldn't be kicked out of the story they'd still appear and be a character! #a main character in fact! theyre extremely important to the plot they're arguably the heart of it #(which is another reason im so conflicted) #they may appear later in the story and join later? but then they feel kinda similar to valerie augh #also im soooo attached to skylar and asha being adopted siblings :( thats been a thing since like my very very first draft #my first doodles of these characters were them hanging out and being siblings #maybe ill try and figure out a best of both worlds scenario where they can keep beingsiblings #but asha spends a lot of time with valerie alone at first #echoed voice

[bloodtized]

* tags !

#* && OOC #* && IC #* && CRACK #* && DASH COMM #* && MUN'S ART #* && OPEN STARTER #* && CLOSED STARTER #* && PROMO #* && SELF PROMO #* && SAVE #* && PSA #* && TBD #* && TBT #* && THAT’S NOT MY NAME! (CARRIE WHITE.) #* && AND EVE WAS WEAK. (MARGARET WHITE) #* && I SEE YOU SHINE. (SUE SNELL) #* && A DREAMER IN DISGUISE. (TOMMY ROSS) #* && THE WORLD ACCORDING TO CHRIS! (CHRIS HARGENSEN) #v01 * // jesus watches from the wall‚ his face is cold as stone‚ if he loves me as she tells me‚ why do i feel so all alone? (pre-fog) #v02 * // nothing would matter if she could turn over‚ turn over and see the stars‚ and look once and die. (game-canon) #v03 * // when you get smarter you don't stop pulling the wings off flies‚ you just think of better reasons for doing it. (post-fog) #v04 * // the low bird isn't picked tenderly out of the dust by it's fellows; rather‚ it's dispatched quickly‚ without mercy. (survivor au)

[mothslimes]

wish i had the fantasy prone psychosis and not the 'nothing is real and nothing matters' type

#mik talks #sorry mutuals #this is an understatement but i didnt know how else to phrase how i feel #its more like a ...complete disconnect but there is nothing to replace reality with #i used to be very attached to my dream world but now i am convinced even that is fake so really there is nohting left anymore #greening out last night honestly just confirmed it it was like i felt everything i already feel but more intensely. i just felt nothing #i tried to listen to music because i thought maybe id feel something maybe id get a deeper connection to music but it just #felt so airtifical it was just . noise. background noise. the songs didnt even sound different i just didnt care about them #they didnt make me feel anything. nothing made me feel anything. it was just cold and heavy and i was all alone and finally #for once the world made complete sense. i just understood that this is how it is in reality and every other time i am just clouded #by my own perception of things. but i saw reality and it was cold and artificial and bland and no amount of art could change that. awesome #every bitch who ever said food tastes better while high is a dirty liar it tasted like nothing i didnt taste anything #all i felt was sand between my teeth tht was all there was.

[bunnihearted]

i need summer so bad rn i cant cope with this anymore

#i actually prefer autumn n spring and cold rainy weather #however the dark & cold dont have a good effect on my mental state #and if im already anxious and scared it makes it worse #i cant deny that summer and the heat makes me feel less alone bc the world herself is warm and alive #and the sun and how light it is for so long #ineed it