#i honestly doubt this person understands what real friendship means

[soomanymoths]

Hey remember how crink made a big stink over asking questions abt the world/characters? Yeah, he made it SOOOO clear he didnt enjoy it. Definitely never asked me specifically to ask him questions, not even once /s. Same thing applies to drawings, AU's, OC's, everything.

#crinkle - /please draw a character and ask questions I LOVE IT/ #crinkle later down the line - i hate that character/its a bad character/im uncomfortable with u touching this chara #THEN WHY ASK FOR DRAWINGS OF SAID CHARACTER? WHY OFFER FICS ABOUT THE CHARACTER? #HELLO???? #crinkle said this many times and prompted questions... offered fics left and right #like literally would tell me hes bored at work and to ask questions lmao #basically once u tell crinkle u have a problem with him he will weaponize anything and everything he can #go back on everything he previously maintained #gaslight and play the victim hoping ppl will back down while he throws a tantrum #a trustworthy and upfront individual /s #if u think you can be comfortable around this person - no you cant anything you ever do can and will be used against u when its convenient #crinkle the ultimate bullshitter #he talks shit behind ppls backs btw so if you consider yourself his buddy #lowkey feels bad for u #same goes @ his readers #one wrong comment and you become persona non grata/will be called names by both crinkle and krys behind closed doors #i honestly doubt this person understands what real friendship means

[a-student-out-of-time]

Regarding the people being suspicious of Eden thing, it brings to mind a quote from The Incredibles 2: "Politicians don't understand people who do good simply because it's right. It makes 'em nervous." Anon would argue a lot of people in fandoms today are the same: they can't stomach the idea that there are genuinely kind people in the world, because that "makes them feel bad" for not being the same. So, Eden can't GENUINELY be a nice person, because then "they look bad in comparison".

//All of this is actually very interesting because Teruko and Arei both have very similar logic in Chapter 2:

//They have a similar sort of view that kindness, friendship and optimism are naive at best and actively harmful at worst. They've bought into the lie that reality is unilaterally terrible and everyone is an asshole out to get to you, and the only way to survive is to be an asshole right back.

//And it's definitely not for nothing, especially when you look at who says these things:

//It's a perspective I've seen in a lot of people who've been beaten down and dealt with so much awful shit in their lives that kindness feels almost alien to them.

//I've seen a lot of real people make those same conclusions, and they often decide that someone being kind is either too stupid to realize what they think they know, or they have ulterior motives.

//And like I keep saying, Despair Time is telling us that this perspective is wrong.

//Teruko's trust issues have only isolated her more and more from the others, and left her with far less information to work with than she would've had if she cooperated. Ace's antagonism and constant fights lead to him nearly getting killed. Arei actually did patch things up with Eden, and how that turned out...well, we can't really say for sure yet.

//It perplexes me how people have mostly latched onto the darkness and misery, and assume that this is some nihilistic misanthropic edgefest simply because the protagonist is the one who has to learn how to trust others. Or that David exists.

//Eden, meanwhile, is the person in the cast who best represents kindness and optimism, and instead of it being a two-dimensional platitude, it's her personal decision to be kind even though she knows how dark the world can be.

//I say all this as someone who has dealt with depression and anxiety for well over a decade at this point: Eden is absolutely right. Bottling up your emotions, withdrawing from others, and only thinking about yourself is a recipe for extremely unhealthy behavior.

//And approaching this from a writing perspective, if this were the grimdark story so many seem to think it is, characters like Eden usually die in the beginning to firmly establish the tone. They don't get scenes like this.

//Now, obviously I have no idea where the story is going to go from here, but I highly doubt that putting so much emphasis on Eden here is meant to signify that this is somehow going to prove Teruko right. On the contrary, I'm still certain this chapter will prove Teruko's decision not to trust anyone is far more dangerous and unhealthy.

//Either people didn't actually pay attention to what was happening or being said in the game itself, or they think that, because a character is kind, that somehow means they're going to be evil.

//I honestly think Eden is the least likely to be the culprit in this chapter. You can quote me on that and throw it in my face if I turn out to be wrong, but I'm sticking to it from here on out.

#mod talks #a student out of time #drdt #danganronpa despair time #eden tobisa #teruko tawaki #arei nageishi #ace markey

[sofiasjornal]

House of Flame and Shadow 🌙 Review

Let me just say that I absolutely loved 90% of the book, it was perfect in many, ways. But that ending… it kinda spoiled the book for me…

Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ and a half

Let’s start with that! I felt the built-up to the battle with the Asteri was bigger and more interesting than the battle itself. It ended way too quickly and too easily. The Asteri really didn’t put up that much of a fight. Two books leading up to this moment and then it just that? I was disappointed, not gonna lie. The battle needed more momentum and more magnitude, it felt really small. 

I also saw some comments about the crossover, of people disappointed that it was just Nesta and Azriel, and didn’t get a chance to see Feyre or Nyx, or even Mor. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to see them too, but the crossover was not a big reunion of all the characters. The purpose of the crossover was to find the connection with the trove and the starlight bloodline, the connection between the blades, and for that, only Nesta and Azriel are necessary. Maybe a novella would be different, but I think the crossover was done right, even in the bonus chapters (also, Sarah can you please stop with the different versions of the books and different chapters spread god knows where?! Thank you!)

As you may know, Bryce lost some of my affection during this book, her insensitive remarks to Hunt pissed me off so much. And even to Lidia, saying her kids are baggage, honestly, I don’t know how Lidia didn’t freak out on her. I get that she’s young and has the world on her shoulders, but it doesn’t feel like enough of an excuse. And Hunt was never a personal favorite of mine (I still liked him enough, though) so if this is really the last book where they are the main couple I don’t really mind it! Lidia and Ruhn carried the book anyway 😍 and I feel like SJM explored Bryce and Hunt’s relationship enough. The next one would definitely benefit from a different and fresh perspective. 

Also, I was never a fan of the whole Danika thing. I understand her importance to Bryce and to the story but how it was built made me really dislike her for some reason. I know she was brave and cared for Bryce deeply, and was willing to sacrifice (and did in the end) a lot for the cause. But she never sat right with me. And that whole bonus chapter where she just gets Bryce drunk (I know, I know, Bryce didn’t need any help, I know) it just made things worse. It was obvious she had a plan since the beginning and Bryce just went along because she cared deeply for her friend. And while I don’t doubt Danika’s affection and friendship with Bryce, at some point you have to wonder how much was real when Danika was hiding so much vital information, and not only about her cause, but about herself.

The rest of the book I liked just fine. Celestina should have died, and this is the hill I’m dying on. She deserved it. And she had no redemption at all to earn the mercy Bryce got her. The autumn king's death was spectacular! And Morven’s too! How I laughed, I was never that happy with characters dying. AND SABINE! This book had many, many happy moments for me 😂 I only felt bad about the Prime, he deserved a more dignified death than what he got and the way Sabine killed him… she deserved all that she got. And Sigrid? That little bitch! I know she’s not in control, she’s a freshly made reaper, probably still adjusting, running on instinct, but I mean… siding with Sabine? SABINE?! Ithan will be one hell of a prime, I just know it!

There were a few surprises that got me screaming. I think Lidia’s kids connect her with the spring court because of the fertility rite (but we’ll get to that!) and Hypaxja as the head of Flame and Shadow! I think the true wonders of Hypaxia’s power are still to be shown and I’m all for it! 

Now, I’m assuming the next book will be House of Many Waters, if SJM is following the house names. Here I think Tharion could definitely play a bigger role! HOFAS spent a lot of time setting him up, but also Hypaxia (who became the head of flame and shadow! and is also Lidia’s sister!) and Ithan! If Tharion and Hypaxia's friendship were to grow into something deeper, and Tharion somehow became the head of Many Waters, imagine the power couple!

But I have so many questions about this book and its connection to the others and other series! So many that I think maybe it’s better to put them in another post and organize them there 😅 otherwise this will never end!

#books #sarah j maas #crescent city #acotar #book review #house of flame and shadow

[tibby]

like what you need to understand is that. she’s best friends with this girl blair waldorf who is basically everything i hate about the upper east side. normally i wouldn’t be this close to you without a tetanus shot. oh is that cedric. dan humphrey just who i hate to admit i was looking for you’re dirty. don’t worry virgin i’ll talk you through it. the only thing worse than dating dan humphrey is mourning dan humphrey. google revenge you get blairwaldorf dot com. the only person with less friends than you is dan humphrey and at least his lame nineties dad likes him. look who finally got a little interesting. you need to decide what’s most important to you keeping your pride and getting nothing or taking a risk and maybe maybe having everything. she’s not that bad. i want dan humphrey’s head on a platter. i miss blair waldorf and her daily ego demolitions. no headbands in college okay. look blair i don’t think you’re that bad of a person maybe not my type but you’re not terrible. i do think you deserve to be with someone who makes you happy. exactly humphrey glad to have you on board this time. say life is giving you signs and you’re ignoring them because you’re afraid of the thing they’re signalling you to do but then you think what if these signs are here for a reason and ignoring them just makes me a coward. just follow my lead humphrey you’re used to doing that. a friend of mine. it is pretty funny even you couldn’t kill that much comedy. i stupidly thought this fake friendship might be real. i blair waldorf need dan humphrey’s help. i have found my center that’s all. it was nice not being friends with you let’s not do it again sometime. just one kiss then we can know without a doubt. your prince is out there waiting for you. for someone who’s just friends you sure are good at choreographing reasons for us to kiss. i just never thought the person i’d want would be blair waldorf. take me there. you’ll still have me. i turned to you dan because i knew you were the only one who’d protect me from my own worst instincts. no no no no no no i’m not in love with blair. in spite of myself and honestly many turns in spite of her i mean i didn’t want to i kept trying to make it go away but how do you kill a feeling. it’s like he peered into my soul. i just need to know that you’ll be there for me. if you’re that guy with serena how could she not love you? i just want you to be happy tell me what would make you happy dan. dan loves me for me. no it’s not awful it’s you it couldn’t be awful. i told chuck he doesn’t have my heart anymore it belongs to somebody else. i thought you should get to feel like a princess one last time. our relationship is our world. that girl is fiercely strong independent outspoken beautiful capable and no man or magazine should be able to take that away from her. you trust me i trust you. dan is my best friend when we’re together it’s great i feel strong and safe.....

[blandbutfunny]

Ruminations 21/4/24

I think amongst an intense desire to be understood I keep trying to find communities that I give the benefit of the doubt that I will fit into and be a part of. Ultimately be it anxiety or autism or a general lack of personable articulation I find myself constantly feeling left out or uninformed on the matter of my character and how people view me. It's something that I can't control and honestly not something that should worry me either, yet I'm borderline obsessed with it.

I have tried to turn myself into an object of desire. Having felt the pangs of desiring machines and their insatiability I have sought revenge by placing myself at the core of other people's desiring machines. I don't want this without transactional benefit - I feel I offer in exchange a love and realisation of said desire with intensity that is borderline unachievable for the general population. Again though, I am leveraging my own dysfunctions and insatiable needs in an attempt to barter some temporary relief.

I write "open verse" poetry in an attempt to a. Get better at a craft I have genuine affection and appreciation for, and

B. Attempt to articulate details and intensities within myself that I think are needed for people to comprehend whatever I am in a socially normative manner.

There are police on the other platform. I assume someone has jumped into the tracks.

I keep getting older. I am coming to terms with distant friendships, and acknowledge that as time goes on, I do not have access to the emotional fulfillment that comes with reciprocated love and understanding. I do not believe that our sentience is retained when we die - whatever happens I will forget everyone I love and the work I have put into becoming the best version of myself I can be is of little consequence. As years go on and people far younger than me achieve my aspirations, I wonder if I am spending my time in vain.

I am at a loss in my life. I do not know what I want to do with myself. I don't know how to start putting myself on track for where I want to go, where I want to be. Ultimately, none of it will matter. That said, failing to do anything seems like such a waste, and my heart burns with an injustice that, for whatever irrationality life is, I could have helped someone like me not go through what I have.

I roll my eyes at my faux martyrdom. In turn, I scoff at how dismissive I am at making genuine attempts to define my values and ethics. Much like my social character, I have created meaning from scratch and whilst influenced, I abstained from indulging social normative in my brushstroke.

Prose plagues these very not empty platitudes. Some more talented than I would make this high art. Instead, it remains regular art, if by art we mean a reflection of human experience.

If capital consumes all, it's critiques becoming reinforcement, and every deviation from normativity reinforces what is considered normal, and if life is so extreme that satirical exaggeration seems banal, why can art not be a journal entry, a written passage, a stream of conscious? Why must we call it art? Why must it only hold value if it is art?

This is a journal entry for the unconscious mind. My daydreaming is leaking into the starry night. These intensities grasp physicality with a hand of whisps, but even at the precipice of the real world, they remain theoretical.

There is no clever word play. There is only words, and a multiplicity of combinations of such. Artistic integrity is assigned by convention, not merit.

Some day these words will die. The intensity will live on. I should not be so arrogant as to assume it dies with me.

I hope someone finds a better use for them.

#open verse #poetry #existential dread #free verse

[awellboiledicicle]

First person to try drilling down on what Fido's deal is would be Gale, between adventuring and actually sleeping. He's limited to whatever books they can scrounge initially [as Fido is hoarding them to learn about the world they're now stuck in], but by the time they get to Baldur's Gate he's going to have some very specific queries outside of the whole Crown research thing.

First person to go "Maybe this is a warlock thing" is, naturally, Wyll. Because Fido is going to eldritch blast something in a panic and he's going to go "now hold on". Also because I imagine Mizora would think it was hilarious another warlock is making noise about his deal. They make some barbed comment to her, the magic flaring a bit, and she tuts at Wyll for consorting with 'that mean old octopus' behind her back like this. Leaves before explaining anything.

Astarion 100% believes they're lying about not knowing they're bound up with some apparently tentacled monster when it comes out. like. just thematically it feels like a thing one should know about. He's just saying that if HE had made a deal to get MAGIC INVULNERABILITY POWERS, then HE would have remembered that. They throw a handful of grass at him and he rolls his eyes.

Lae'zel still occasionally thwacks them with a random sword to see if their protection is still working. This is, she insists, a function of their friendship that she would bother doing a check at all. Deep down she just really appreciates their willingness to listen and learn from her, as well as their absolute unwillingness to take any shit from her. Thus the checking.

Shadowheart still thinks they're a little crazy, for different reasons. Initially it was because they insisted they had no idea elves were real, followed by being from 'earth', followed by their panic response being to yell insults at the enemy to make their brain explode. The warlock thing feels like they might have been lying about it--a skill they seem unnervingly good at in spite of their general honest streak--but honestly? Given how they keep tripping into being good to others, she wouldn't doubt them having been just given the ring by some sorcerer or something.

Halsin feels conflicted about Fido expressly because they have a very... dim view of nature being allowed to take its course. With people. They get along largely after Fido gets fed up and goes "you're ungodly old so you can handle sitting down and leveling with me here. I need you to understand that, where i come from, if someone looks at someone like me and says 'nature should take its course' that means 'i want you to not exist'. It means 'you are unnatural'. We're not having the same conversation when we talk about nature, here. I like the birds doing bird things and fish swimming and whatever. But sometimes nature is cruel and I am living proof that sometimes nature would destroy people and things that should exist." Basically they get along on principal but have initial complications bc Fido spent a lot of time as a chronically in pain child being told survival of the fittest wouldn't allow for them. As a queer kid being told they were unnatural. So on. So they don't actually have beef with him so much as a kneejerk reaction for a little plus the initial GODDAMNIT response when he can't help. His take on the warlock thing is largely being curious as to how that happens without ones knowledge.

Karlach meanwhile is just pissed that she can't hi-five them without it still hurting. Like their skin doesn't melt but they can still feel the sensation of heat and pressure, so it isn't pleasant. She also wants to know how one ends up in a warlock pact without knowing it because that feels like a pitfall to avoid.

Not pictured is the GOO checking in occasionally like it's reading the sunday paper like "oh they had a conversation about the nature of gods with Gale. Cute. Aww they're having cognitive dissonance about the nature of sentience after using speak with animals. Popped a man's head like a cherry. Shame, they could have interrogated that one."

#Fido the Bard

[queer-and-dear-books]

Title: The Minus-One Club

Author: Kekla Magoon

Genre: Friendship | Romance | LGBTQ+

Content Warnings: Homophobia | Death | Suicide | Terminal Illness | Alcohol

Overall Rating: 8.0/10

Personal Opinion: Maybe not the most romantic story but it’s hard to be mushy when you’re still grieving the death of your sister. The person you always had in your corner. This book takes a serious look at how grief can affect a person and how important it is to have people around you that understand that grief. But my absolutely favorite thing about this story is the ending. The growth that Kermit and all his friends in the Minus-One club go through. It is satisfying and a breath of fresh air. I promise you won’t be disappointed.

Do I Own This Book? Nope.

Spoilers Below For My Likes & Dislikes:

Likes:

- I’m just going to be brutally honest, most of this score is because of the ending. Richie Corner got expelled, yeah fuck that bitch! How dare he be blessed with a nice ass and then be homophobic while also sexually harassing the only out gay kid. Anyway, I actually screamed out loud when he got expelled. It was just so satisfying. But I also love that the club went from being a “fight club support group” to an activism group. That is beautiful. They are taking their pain and transforming it into a weapon to enact real positive change in their community and I love that.

- Alex is a good friend. He got jealous that Matt was “stealing” his best friend and blew his top but the very next day, he went to apologize sincerely. And he also knew already that Kermit liked Matt and he supported him wholeheartedly. I respect the fuck out of him because of that. That’s a good friend. He even covered for Kermit when Kermit went to visit Matt in the hospital! 

- I really like the concept of the Minus-One club and I think all the members were really cool and honestly, such a good friend group. Patrick is so kind and observant with everyone’s habits. He noticed Matt wasn’t okay even when he acted like he was. Simon is fun, Celia is artsy, and Janna is cool. But all these people are still always there for each other no matter what. I respect that.

- I need to know the video game that Matt and Kermit had played. It sounds like a lot of fun. I mean, what gay kid didn’t imagine their beefy game characters making out? 

- Also, I think they had good chemistry. Part of it did feel like “Oh, we’re the only two gay boys around so let’s make out” which is always a peeve of mine but I like how much their bond grew as they continuously hung out one-on-one rather than as a group. 

- I love that Matt never pushed for Kermit to come out. As much as he wanted to go out on real dates, he understood why Kermit was hesitant. He understood that it isn’t always safe or better after you come out. Sad that it’s like that in their little Indiana town but at least they’re taking steps to make it better.

Dislikes:

- A lot of things are fucked up in this story. But the most fucked up are Kermit’s parents. At first I was giving them the benefit of the doubt. I thought they would love and accept their son if he came out. But then they called Matt “troubled.” AFTER his suicide attempt! Just the way they talked about him after finding out he’s gay was so disturbing. I felt bile.

- That being said, Kermit was still such a shit toward his parents. At the same time, his parents were being very unreasonable. There were no winners in that relationship. I hated them all. In the context of that relationship, I love Kermit in general.

- These teenagers and their repression man. Talk about your goddamn feelings! I’m glad that Kermit decided to get help through mental health resources but goddamn, it should not have taken his boyfriend’s suicide attempt to push him to it.

- My biggest peeve, as I’ve already mentioned, the “We’re the only two gay boys around so let’s make out” syndrome that gay love stories suffer from. Listen, I get it, sometimes there aren’t a lot of options. But it truly felt like, at times, Matt was just stringing Kermit along because he wanted a cuddle buddy and not because he genuinely liked Kermit.

- Also, what was the purpose of Kermit’s fart dream? It was just weird to be honest.

#Booksbooksbooks #Booklr #Book Rec #Book Review #Book Blog #The Minus-One Club #Kekla Magoon #LGBTQ #Queer Representation

[swordalt]

Hm hi so, regarding this wilbur situation I believe that the best thing to do is to distance yourself from the Internet a little during this period. People are unlikely to act with reason, and they hardly see content creators as real people, it's all a spectacle that they use to have fun, get followers and engagement. Many people use serious agendas and a false superior morality to get engagement, like "stop following this person or I will stop following you"

Regarding ccs, a lot of things on the Internet are fake, and most friendships are too. I remember a Brazilian creator called Ismeiow who says that she can count on one hand the people she met on the Internet that she can actually count, and that the rest are just colleagues and that is the reality of the Internet. Firstly, it's their job, they work with their image and they don't want to lose their source of income because they are friends with a person that everyone hates, or sometimes they will get closer to someone that everyone likes because that way they will have more engagement, and that's why friendships on the Internet are extremely fragile, and true friendships the public will rarely see

About Shelby, as I am a healthcare professional I don't doubt that what she said is really true, I understand where your frustration comes from, this is the third time this year that something like this has happened, this type of abuse is difficult to overcome and talk about it and if there is evidence, it is best to take it to court rather than show it on the Internet. I see ccs leaving Wilbur as maybe they never liked him because of certain attitudes but as he was famous and everyone liked him, no one was going to say bad things about him so as not to affect their own image

And I wish none of this had happened because honestly it's so tiring, the best I could do was distance myself from this medium of content creators. But well, take care of yourself in these moments!

See while I was originally agree that any evidence should be taken to the court the fact that is she already brought it to the internet, the Internet is his entire career he relies on it for income.(yes even Lovejoy relies on the internet since fans shared his music.)

if she was just to like bring it to court from the beginning then I could say yeah take the evidence to court but it's not a personal thing anymore it's a public thing.

Which I still don't understand why she even bought this to the public because it just makes things messy.

I don't doubt he bit her, he even admitted to it, the line between whether he was in fact abusing her is consent.

I'm just saying any amount of evidence would help her case, leave no space for doubt.

The same goes for Wilbur, but he's on the "I'm respecting her privacy" train. Like I don't know how you can say that when the entirety of Twitter is calling you a domestic abusers but I digresse

And yes this thing with friends, you find a lot of their online friends might just be work associates despite how parasoical we are about them.

they might not even like each other, so the whole; "young creators are talking out against him" means nothing to me.

In the terms of distancing myself, you don't worry too much about me, my ask will be turn off soon today and I'll go back to regularly schedule program.

I'm mostly just allowing myself and others the freedom to vent and discuss their thoughts.

#this #ask #wilbur situation #ace says stuff #alleged abuse

[petz5]

no one asked but real quick here r my opinions on ranma pairings that come to mind!! obv i’m not trying to say u Cant feel differently abt them, these r just my own thoughts

ranma/akane - if uve followed me for even half a day u already know this is my absolute fave one. yes it’s canon no that doesn’t make it boring, they understand each other on a level the other characters don’t even come close to

ranma/shampoo - die in a fire they r SO bad for each other (shampoo is significantly worse but ranma’s also not great to her)

ranma/ukyo - don’t love it but i suppose she’d be the next best choice after akane (at least as a pairing that could realistically happen in canon bc there’s no way something like ranryo would ever happen). i love ukyo but not with ranma, she doesn’t listen to his wants and honestly i think he’d hold her back, and i also don’t think she ever really was in love w him and just kinda felt obligated bc “oh shit if I cant kill him and I don’t marry him then I’ve wasted my life.” LOVE these two as besties tho

ranma/kodachi - literally dont feel like I need to say anything here, ive never seen anyone ship them

ranma/ryoga - not my cup of tea but I can see why ppl like it. genuinely it’s mostly bc i cant see ranma liking men lmao i mean he flirts w them for free food and whatever but he always gets grossed out when they try to respond. i personally see ranma as a lesbian

ranma/ryoga/akane - same as above except i understand it less. mmmmaybe if akane and ryoga both loved ranma but not each other?? ryoga and ranma had some actual chemistry, but akane and ryoga……… eeehh. speaking of!

akane/ryoga - don’t ship at all. ryoga is kinder to her than ranma if you’re judging on the surface, but he doesn’t fundamentally understand her the way ranma does and doubts her ability a lot more. (to the point ranma has to physically stop him in one episode to tell him “this is akane’s fight, she’s got this and will be mad if you meddle”) also the whole p-chan thing is creepy. i enjoy ryoga as character but i don’t think he fits w her at all

akane/shampoo - don’t like it. i mean i’ve read fics where shampoo admits to liking akane (or even just respecting her as a fellow female martial artist) but also like… that exists outside of canon shampoo to me lol. canon shampoo doesn’t care about other people, and she in particular is homophobic towards akane to her face

akane/ukyo - i like it to an extent! if it were in canon i wouldn’t want it to go beyond like akane blushing when ukyo saves her and maybe offhandedly saying something like “she’s so cool” and ukyo, after spending some time w akane, admitting to herself that she can understand why ranma likes her. i think it’s cute to think abt

akane/kodachi - i love this but only one-sidedly. in canon i’d want kodachi to be Like That with ranma purely to rile up akane bc she wants her attention. i mean literally already in canon kodachi seems to not know what to do once she actually gets ranma other than dangle him over her alligator and wait for akane to save his ass. it’d be a funny twist for her to be doing all this just bc she wants to see akane and doesn’t think to just talk to her like a normal person

shampoo/mousse - don’t like at all

shampoo/ukyo - no real thoughts but I don’t love it. maybe similar to how I feel abt ranryo but while my feelings for that as neutral/positive this is neutral/negative

ukyo/ryoga - i can see why ppl like it and I believe I did too back in 2011 or so when i first watched it, but i feel like most ppl who ship this have only watched the anime (valid! but their manga partners are both great characters imo). I didn’t rlly see it at all upon rewatch and reading the manga put the final nail in the coffin. they’d be fun as friends tho! i like that they have a silly friendship similar to akane and mousse’s friendship where they’re more Worsties than anything but will hang out with and help each other if they need to

ukyo/tsubasa - no. i have very mixed feelings abt tsubasa as is, but ukyo has no interest in him and sees him as an annoyance so i wouldn’t want her to be w someone she doesn’t like (side note: used he/him for tsubasa bc he’s very open abt being a crossdresser. i know that crossdresser is used as a transphobic insult in the series, but… eehhh… tsubasa isn’t really like ranma and konatsu who are both pretty blatantly not cis. he declares himself as a guy all the time, which yeah ranma does too, but ranma’s whole character development is how that breaks down for him)

ukyo/konatsu - yes, i think they’re sweet and konatsu is very supportive of ukyo’s goals. i think this pairing would need more development before i’d really want it declared Officially Canon. i mean it is, but obv ukyo still has some feelings to work out similarly to ryoga and his canon gf, and i think she’d need to more clearly let go of ranma before this could truly blossom in canon. i love konatsu and i love ukyo and i think they’d be good girlfriends after a little work

ryoga/akari - love it, it’s sweet and i LOVE akari. like I said i think ryoga needs to work thru some shit/let go of akane to truly appreciate akari, and it’s annoying he’s still attached to her when he has a gf but i understand it’s difficult to just Stop liking someone you’ve liked for prob a solid year or so just bc u got asked out by someone else

these are all the ones I can think of rn but ur more than welcome to ask if u want my thots on any other ones lol

#ill save u time if ur gonna ask abt a pairing tho- i don’t ship shampoo w anyone #in my fave ranma fanfic she gets w ukyo and konatsu and it works there! but it’s ooc for her and would never happen in canon

[tavs-kin-korner]

Heya man no pressure to do this anytime soon, but d’ya think I could get some advice? I’m a fickin of Bro Strider and I’m kinda lookin to talk about it in a server my friends and I are in. Problem is that we’ve both bashed the shit out of Bro Strider as a character and I’m a lil anxious about freakin them out or anythin (even tho I know theyd probs be chill with it). So like, advice on how to get over the nerves or whatever would be real ppreciated.

Big thanks, fella. -Bro Strider

hEY, bRO!! aW, mAN, tHIS SOUNDS LIKE A TOUGH SITUATION, i'M SO SORRY! i KNOW FROM EXPERIENCE MYSELF THAT IT'S QUITE DISCOMFORTING TO HEAR PEOPLE BASHING YOUR KINS/SOURCE ETC, D:{

i THINK THE BEST OPTION WOULD BE TO FIRST STOP AND REMIND YOURSELF ABOUT THE FACT THAT THEY'RE YOUR FRIEND, aND THAT THEY'RE THERE TO LOVE (/P) AND SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHAT! iF THEY DON'T, tHEN THEY'RE NOT A TRUE FRIEND, bUT i'M ASSUMING THEY ARE A GOOD FRIEND OF YOURS, sO THAT SHOULDN'T WORRY YOU! tHEY'VE BEEN WITH YOU THIS LONG, rIGHT? }:D

nEXT, iF THE THINGS THAT ARE BEING SAID MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE, pERHAPS YOU COULD TRY TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT? uNTIL YOU'RE READY TO TELL THEM, tHAT IS,, mAYBE YOU COULD EVEN SAY SOME POSITIVE THINGS ABOUT bRO AS A CHARACTER! yOU COULD ALSO DROP SOME HINTS THAT YOU ARE FICTKIN, aS WELL, iF YOU'D LIKE TO!

nOW, wHEN IT COMES TO ACTUALLY TELLING THEM, yOU COULD EVEN START OUT BY SAYING SOMETHING LIKE, "dON'T FREAK OUT OR ANYTHING, bUT,,," iF YOU WANT TO,, i'D ALSO BE SURE TO TELL THEM AT THE RIGHT TIME, lIKE WHEN YOU'RE BOTH IN GOOD MOODS, oR EVEN IF THEY SAY SOMETHING NEGATIVE ABOUT bRO, yOU COULD TELL THEM THEN AND KINDLY ASK TO LIGHTEN UP ON THE INSULTS? i'M SURE THEY'D UNDERSTAND!

i WOULD ALSO RECOMMEND TELLING THEM THAT JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE FICTIONKIN, dOES NOT MAKE YOU ANY DIFFERENT AND SHOULD NOT EFFECT YOUR FRIENDSHIP, yOU ARE YOURSELF, jUST AS YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN! tELLING THEM THIS SHOULDN'T CHANGE ANYTHING, eXCEPT MAYBE ALLOW YOU TO BE MORE OPEN ABOUT FICTIONKIN THINGS WITH THEM! bUT IF THEY START TREATING YOU LIKE YOU'RE A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON AND START BEING MEAN TO YOU BECAUSE OF IT, tHEN YOU SHOULD DROP THEM AS A FRIEND,, oNE REASON WHY i HAD TO END A RELATIONSHIP WAS BECAUSE OF THAT (i HONESTLY AM GLAD i DID THOUGH, tHEY TREATED ME POORLY IN OTHER WAYS, bUT HEARING THEM SAY THEY DIDN'T WANT TO BE WITH ME BECAUSE i WAS A "DIFFERENT PERSON" OFFENDED ME,,, sO IF ANYONE AT ALL EVER SAYS THIS TO YOU AND TREATS YOU POORLY, yOU SHOULD DEFINITELY LEAVE THEM, iT WILL BE WAY BETTER THIS WAY, tRUST ME, fROM EXPERIENCE!) i HIGHLY DOUBT THAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU THOUGH WITH THIS FRIEND, tHOUGH! iF IT DOES THOUGH,,, fEEL FREE TO COME BACK AND VENT AGAIN AND TELL ME ABOUT IT, i WILL VERY GLADLY SUPPORT YOU AND HELP YOU THROUGH THE TOUGH TIME AGAIN! oF COURSE, yOU CAN VENT ABOUT OTHER THINGS ANYTIME TOO!

i HOPE THIS HELPED, aND THAT EVERYTHING GOES WELL! rEMEMBER,,, rELAX! tHIS IS YOUR FRIEND AND THEY SHOULD ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE! aLWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE WONDERFUL, nO MATTER WHO YOU ARE A FICTIONKIN OF, yOU CAN LEARN FROM ANY MISTAKES YOU HAVE MADE IN YOUR MEMORIES/SOURCE AND BE A GOOD PERSON! (tHIS APPLIES TO EVERYONE WHO IS FICTKIN ETC, READING THIS!) }:D sENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND SUPPORT! <3 /P (sORRY FOR THE LONG RESPONSE, bY THE WAY, hAHA!)

#kin vent #kin advice #kin help #bro strider kin #homestuck kin #bro strider #homestuck #fictionkin

[itsfuckinganne]

a better update

it is December 28, 2022 n my year has been a big learning lesson. a lot of it, most of it, really hurt.  I chose myself a lot this year and completed my year’s resolution which is to set boundaries. I honestly dont understand why I took this long to act upon the things I want 4 myself but im not surprised. im a very stubborn person and all I do is deflect by creating a different scenario in my brain. das why ive been in this continuous cycle of getting played by the game and I jus..let it happen. I craved things that were not ready 4 me and it made me realize how I keep repeating it LMAOOO but this year I broke some serious habits and reenforced the comfortability of my space. therapy helped a lot (shout out Tina Merced, you are a very kind woman. u are one of the only people who has figured me out..) and having a positive feedback ab my decisions and how I think helps me understand myself. it felt (past tense/explain later) really good to just focus on what I plan 2 do next year. last year I just really wanted to show up 4 everyone more so I ended up acting upon emotion rather than balancing it out w/ what’s realistic. *I forgot what word 2 use in the last sentence so I went on my phone to change the song and then I remembered. I'm listening 2 defibrillator by smino* 

anyways, yeah this year I showed up for myself even if it hurt a lot to let go and I feel a lil lighter. im guilty of a lot, especially how present I am in my rlsps, and I am still for a bit more, but im doing better and those close 2 me see it. I said this all in past tense because Im a lil hurt right now, but it's just an owie. I allowed myself 2 give someone a benefit of the doubt and I feel as if they abused it a little. I know when I reread this in the future 2 reflect, I'll know exactly what im talking about. rather than feeling sad, im SO disappointed. i was feeling a lil better and I thought that would be okay, but I shouldn't disregard my accomplishments cus they're worthy of celebrating. allowing myself to forgive but just being proven right is horrible. it was a real wake up call to continue my self love journey cus I was getting some where and it was somewhere good. my best friend told me that “I know youre a good person and you do too so u dont have to give people multiple chances to prove that” and it struck hard (but 4 the better). I appreciate the transparency that I have w/ my friendships cus w/o it, I probably wouldn't b able to keep myself accountable, but I have been recently and thats why 2023 is going to be a good year. I wonder what karmic situations im going 2 be in. im not anticipating bad, but I can handle some lessons. im allowing myself 2 learn and thats my true end goal. at the end of the day, im just figuring it out. I dont think im doing that bad, but some reassurance would b amazing. I know I am worthy of everything I desire. to have, to feel, to experience. Im going 2 move forward so I can live better 4 myself. by doing that, taking this time, I can show up better. I want 2 do better, b better, all the things ive imagined myself to b. I cant believe I spent so much time settling 4 what I have cus Im constantly validated. the issues r real. I need 2 tell Tina ab this bcuz it makes so much sense. people pleasing cus nothing I ever did pleased my dad. that shit hurtsss, not gonna lie. but thats what I mean, im learning more and applying what I have 2 in my life and its working. by realizing that the pattern exists bcuz I dont rly speak or ever knew that was an issue. it hurts a bit 2 realize that someone who was a part of my life is now booted out of the next year. in pain bcuz I sat through conversations of him telling me how much he loves me, and how I cld b his polly pocket so he could take me everywhere, and how his family loves me, and all these other things and he STILL ran w/ what he wanted. honesty is the best policy and this lil set up pushed me to let go and let live. I wish I cld cry more, im purging the fuck outta this because I cannot let it repeat anymore. I also learned that some people only last so long in your life bcuz of how you coexist together. cutting ties w/ ppl you used to b family with takes a piece of you that dissipates like the rlsps thats gone. sounds dramatic, but that breakup was horrible. also, my dating life was quite the shit show. had my hinge phase, coworkers phase, toxic situation ship (two of those..at the same time but in my defense I was nvr asked 2 b a gf.), & my celibate phase. I nvr intended 2 dissect but it was rough 4 everyone I know and myself. im blessed enough 2 be surrounded by people who want whats best 4 me cus the goal is something we all agree on. 2022 you helped me show up 4 myself better. 2023 were going 2 show up better for ourselves and those around us. ive realized so much (1:11am , im sry in advance) & Ima share w/ some privacy of course. high school situationships r finally cut and I jus cant believe it but im happy 4 everyone whos living in love. realizing im the problem , speaks for itself. im officially tired. thats an update 4 ya

my fit 2day

goodnight

happy new year

[thetaekookcloset]

The thing with Jennie and Taehyung is that the latest pics may not be real but the Jeju Island ordeal seems to be likely.

- Even before that car pic was release, there were some people mentioning sightings of them together . Then the flight attendant episode. So, it’s possible there are two different things happening. Tae and Jennie may be dating and were together in Jeju Island.

- Someone decided to blow up the rumor by editing pics.

I agree that Taekook as love story is way more enticing and beautiful as all love stories that involve ‘forbidden’ and ‘us against the world’ kind of relationship. People feel good thinking they are supporting a star crossed love story and I think the appeal of Taekook has a lot to do with this.

On the other side, although Tae and Jennie are obviously cute and seems to fit the story that most people expect ‘Popular Prince meets Popular Princess’ , it is really the most predictable, cliche kind of romance that happens in this business. I don’t even understand how people talk about this rumor as ‘dating scandal’ as there is nothing scandalous about a hetero, single, equally rich and popular pair dating. If he was a bad boy, maybe it would be something more exciting but this is really the most ‘Ken and Barbie’ kind of matching that people could expect.

That being said, that is exactly what could be happening. I understand the disappointment and sense of loss people may have after believing they were supporting something for 9 years that turns out to be something else ( a very beautiful friendship). I think there is also some hurt pride, especially because other shippers will certainly use the opportunity to glee over Taekook proven wrong …. But a reminder that this would be all that it is… a wrong opinion of the kind of relationship they had.

Taehyung still will be happy, Jungkook still be happy. Maybe it would be even better to finally find out Taekook as romance doesn’t exist because it means then that there were never suffering the pain that involves a secret relationship. If Taekook was real, it means 9 years of pretending, hiding, watching other ships be pushed to hide, constant fear of being found out, maybe lies to family and friends …. If Taekook as romance was never a thing, there is some kind of relief that comes with it. Relief that they didn’t really had to go through all this.

I wish Taekook fandom prepare themselves for the real possibility that Tae and Jennie were a thing and maybe this perspective would help. Being in a gay relationship in SK for 9 years means a lot of pain for them. If Taekook romance was never there, then we must rejoice that it means that at least these obstacles also never existed for them as well.

Most important: even if not romance, Taehyung and Jungkook have one of the most beautiful and close bonds in BTS.

I do agree with a lot of what you’re saying and I think it’s a good perspective to share.  I also think the Jeju Island stuff was likely separate from the photo drama we’ve gotten recently, though to be honest I still don’t think it’s likely that Tae and Jennie were there together.

It didn’t sound like the timeline made sense for them to be there at the same time, why would they be flying on a budget airline, and I think the car photo was probably genuinely just different people who happened to look a bit like them, because honestly I don’t think either person in the car looks exactly like Tae or Jennie.

Plus, from what I understand, that photo came out because someone saw the two people in the car, took a couple photos, and then sent them to a big kpop fan account on Instagram, which shared the photo and then deleted it pretty quickly because people really thought it was Tae and Jennie but there was no proof.  I think someone just saw a couple people who they thought looked like Tae and Jennie and the photo got shared around a lot, but for me, I have doubts that it was actually them.

Beyond all of that though, I agree that there’s always the chance that Tae or JK could be dating anyone else, or no one.  Whether they’re in a romantic relationship with each other or not, they still have this same beautiful bond that we’ve all picked up on and enjoy.  If it turns out that we’re wrong about the nature of that bond, like you said, in the end it’s just an incorrect interpretation, a wrong opinion, and it’s not the end of the world.

Taehyung and Jungkook will still go on living whatever lives they have lived all along, and they’ll go on having the same beautiful relationship that we’ve seen.  I’ve actually been thinking about making a post about why I wouldn’t be bothered to find out that they’re “just” friends, to talk about a lot of these same things, because even if there’s no romance to their relationship, there’s still so much adoration and sweetness, which is lovely to see in a friendship.

Finally, while it’s true that I would never wish suffering or pain on anyone, especially because of who they fall in love with or feel attracted to, and I would be glad to know that Taehyung and Jungkook didn’t go through that sort of pain, I also can’t bring myself to say that it would be a relief to know that they were never together for that reason, because that would make me feel like I’m saying the pain of being queer isn’t worth the beauty of it, and that’s not something I can do.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this, anon!  I think you’ve got a good way of thinking about this and I’m glad to have your perspective here for people to read.

#ask #taekook #kookv

[mejomonster]

So this doesn’t have to be a feature of all danmei and bl (and in some cases it’s refreshing or adding something to the story to purposefully Not include it which i can appreciate for that), but i personally tend to appreciate when danmei does treat sexuality as somewhat significant. In the sense that like, a straight person is going to view the world a bit differently than a queer person. In terms of what is safe to share and with who, in terms of what norms in society they never questioned versus realize they don’t fit and perhaps its worth considering if some of those molds aren’t things they need to fit (or conversely things they’d like to make compatible to their life), in a lot of ways one’s sexuality somewhat affects how we navigate life.

Not Me the Series, the thai drama, I think is written from a viewpoint of these characters know they’re queer, and that means yeah they sign petitions for queer rights and marriage - and are aware life isn’t already Ideal for them and trans friends, and that intersects in other ways with how they view the law and activism and disability and other minority rights (they all have their own different viewpoints, but it does effect their lived experience and ways of relating and connecting to the wider world). Or pretty much any of my favorite bls honestly - 3 Will Be Free, a lead being bi, a lead being gay, and all 3 leads being polyamorous affect how the world they’re in views them. New show Never Let Me Go used Ben to highlight how just being out or not out effects one’s life and friendships, The Eclipse had the femme queer kids be the protestors for freedom of expression, Ayan’s character being brave about investigating is at least somewhat shaped by being out already and having already Had to be brave and love himself and believe in himself and his friends, in having role models that were queer like him he looked up to and became brave with the help of. To me, I appreciate when this kind of stuff is an influence on how the characters act because like. Me being demisexual sure doesn’t affect me much you’d think, but it effects how I understand or don’t conversations with others, media, how I view important relationships with friends in society and the lack of legal ways to help each other compared to spouses, etc. Even if in theory it should only come up when i’m dating, in reality it still shapes how i’m living in the world. so i like it being at least present in the background of characterizations. (Like? Even if they live in a perfect idealized world where there’s no homophobia, no lack of rights, like some bl, surely being different from the majority sexuality still effects them idk maybe wanting to be More Overt about their attraction so people get they’re being flirty? Something. Bad Buddy isn’t a perfect example, but it’s a servicable one I’d say, of a story that minimizes the real world effects of one’s sexuality’s in experiencing life but still shows some ways it changes how people relate to the world. Pran is secretive, not super open to admiting he’s dating someone, liking men is fine but societially its still more Daunting to admit - especially Pat given the specific ‘enemy families’ thing. Pat’s little sister Pah likes Ink but doesn’t even realize liking girls is an option until someone says it - which is true to life, plenty of people don’t realize they might be queer until they learn its even a Possible Thing. Pat has his past with Pran click into place when HE realizes he could like a guy, and probably no doubt a lot about being bi clicks into place when he realizes in retrospect. For me this is a nice middle ground when you want to play with “more idealized world” than say Moonlight Chicken’s reality, but you don’t want to make it so fantasy that it’s like the Sims games and sexuality has zero bearing on their interactions with the world. Like... not for everyone but for some people, finding out you’re gay might affect your politics and if you consider worrying about minority rights. It might affect how you consider discussing/admitting things to a doctor or boss, if you’re as open about your dating life to colleagues as they are. Sure people might have supportive circles and no issues, but somewhere down the line in the real world they might worry ‘if i cross into x place am i even safe to be me’. When the story gets SO fantastically ‘ideal’ that part of our real experience is gone. Which again - in some stories thats the point, its interesting to explore a world unlike ours. But for me its not my favorite story to sink into usually. 

(Also now that I’m thinking of it, Kabe Koji was one jdrama bl that was ‘realistic’ in a way I really liked. It handled jpop in a critical way, but gently. Mangaka industry in a critical way, but gently emotionally. The difference between out and proud mangaka and more reserved private ones like the lead, and the lead’s friend being both a bit critically overt depiction of a fujioshi but also with her heart in the right place. Akin to the kind of girl you maybe met in your teen years, or really might still meet at a yaoi doujin convention. The stalker paparazzi guy following the jpop guy, an acknowledgement that outing someone as gay can be cruel and horrifically just ‘part of the job’, again handling the issue critically but gently on one’s heart. Ending optimistically, reminding one that even in our real world with all these problems - where even the gay mangaka making yaoi for a living is dealing with them just as real for him, we can make our way and be happy and have a good life with friends, family, and loved ones.)

Priest is one of my favorite danmei writers for including that character’s sexualities do have life-wide effects in how they interact with the world (that I’ve read so far because surely there are A LOT of great writers who include this sort of thing as they’re most of the authors i’ve read so far, so there must be more). We’ve got Zhao Yunlan who’s got perfectly tolerant/accepting coworkers, is certainly confidently out when it comes to hitting on crushes or discussing his relationship life with friends (<3 same Zhao Yunlan same), but a dad who’d be disappointed in and hate him even if he Were straight, a mom who probably wanted grandkids and is realistically not perfectly-happy she might not get any but she loves her son and it doesn’t really matter. Silent Reading where... fuck every single main character’s sexuality REALLY shapes their life interactions. Tao Ran being straight is critical - so much literally just would NOT go the same if he were bi. Luo Wenzhou being gay in the police, his higher ups having ‘bad rumors’ about it as if it’s not a good thing, but his close higher ups also admiring his good work and talent and realizing they’re too fond of him to really care if he’s gay, how that does in fact affect his work life and how Good must he have been these years for potentially biased/homophobic fellow police to still promote him. Being the kind of man who even can have a best friend - and a best friend who’s very open to all of who he is without secrets. Him being less warm to women than say Zhao Yunlan, another ‘talented police chief’ who’s much more suave/smooth with all parties. Him viewing his singleness in a less guilty way then say someone who’s parents expect marriage and a family (like Tao Ran’s family does), and that affecting how he views him and Tao Ran’s similarities and thinking TR could’ve kept on like Captain Luo - but also realizing acceptingly when TR cant - he’s got a different life path and different concessions/choices he’s got to make. And Fei Du like? How he related to and understands both Tao Ran and Luo Wenzhou’s pov is affected by being bi and getting both of their povs a bit, he surrounds himself presumably by bi friends (Like Zhang Donglan) so he can be himself, he mainly flirts with women when he’s alone possibly because it’s more socially easy to do without anyone being surprised, he’s probably aware in some way he has yet another aspect of himself that’s not mainstream society and does that influence him feeling like an outsider (or that’s perhaps not what his dad envisioned of the perfect successor). It’s a trait he can relate to Luo Wenzhou over, and one of the Easiest traits he finds to relate over as he grows up (their rival crush on Tao Ran being the first easiest point they can see “eye to eye” on). In Tian Ya Ke, Wen Kexing being into men affects his personality, how Zhou Zishu is immediately sure and weary he’s being hit on, the way Wen Kexing is very overtly flirty and flamboyant and himself implies he doesn’t care or fear standing out or being unacceptable to someone in society, helps show his confidence, his propensity to enjoy things, if he wasn’t gay how different might his character be. He wouldn’t be the same. I haven’t read much of Can Ci Pin, but set in the future I can imagine sexuality (like say in Bad Buddy) has very little world-life restrictions. I have read enough to know one of the leads is bi and that’s stated at some point early, which to me implies it will still show in how it effects his interaction with the world. (Also just... as a bi person... I very much appreciate the plethora of bisexual lead characters in priest novels who are out about it. It makes me feel seen, and real, and when I was growing up biphobia was intense and everyone insisted bi people weren’t real, that I needed to ‘pick’ and I had nothing to really look to and go but i am real i’m like X. It wasn’t until i was older and found the queer community online I felt like i belonged and was seen. And it wasn’t until maybe the last 10 years I saw a lot more explicitly bisexual characters in media. So maybe someday someone grows up, like me, but never feels they don’t belong and aren’t supposed to exist. Maybe they always know bi and pan and queer people are around, just like them, and so it’s not so isolating when they figure out about themselves.)

#rant #honestly this is mostly a personal thing about me and sexuality as an aspect that #effects how we interact with world #it is very much not about too much ToT just a ramble

[tojikai]

Despite people not liking Y/N's action, her action is not shocking.

No matter how much healing a person gets, someone who is already shattered will forever be shattered. Trauma's run deep and are easily opened. Gojo showing up was already enough to break Y/N again. He is her biggest pain, so it is not shocking why Y/N is still soft for him. Why she let herself be lost again. It sucks and it is extremely maddening to read. But I feel for her. Even if Suguru is there, Shoko is there. The comfort she is trying to find is with Gojo and when Gojo finally reveals how much he still yearns for her. It softens her poor heart. Also her already not having a proper closure with Gojo, makes it way harder for her to move on.

There is no excuse with what they did, but honestly...Rie shouldve known it was coming. I don't think she is stupid, she knows she is easily replaceable and highly knows Y/N will forwver be the one for Gojo. Thw whple time, Rie has been nothing but insecure. Constant need for reassurance that they are fine and constantly worrying she will lose him. Ive seen people cheat and people who cheat but last are 100% usually not doubting if they are faithful to one another. Rie and Gojo was simply a tragic honeymoon phase that lasted for seconds.

As much people hate Gojo, I honestly think he will be the end game. Im sorry but...Suguru deserves so much better. Not even Y/N. He deservws someone who will only look at him, he deservea someone whose heart is purely his and his purely theirs. If he gets with Y/N, he will for sure be a rebound. A tragic one sided love. I feel like this has been going on for a while, knowing that Suguru has loved her since high school. Nonetheless, he deserves more than what Y/N can give because she is barely giving half while he is giving his whole self.

For the next chaps!!

Im excited to see what you will do with Rie and Y/N. I feel like people are thinking of bad things. But I do not see why a friendship will florish in some way. I mean both woman being hurt by a stupid guy is justt an interesting storyline. I think it'll be nice if the two will finally understand each other and undeestand that the real enemy is Gojo. That Gojo is the very reason why both of them are miserable instead of them fighring over Gojo.

Throughout this story, Gojo has been the main antagonist. Even if people shit on Rie, Gojo was the man in the relationship. If someome is truly faithful, not even a "first love" will sway them. Gojo made a mess on Rie's and Y/N's life, his actions caused bofh women to go through something horrible while he still thinks he has choices.

yeah, even if yn's determined to move on from satoru, that time, her longing for him took over every resolve that she has bc he was giving her what she looking for. she had her moment of weakness :(( and yeah, rie. all this time we've only been seeing her as a part of her rs with gojo but now that they had broken up, we're gonna see her as her own self !!

#🍭—kaitalks #f: permanent mark

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

U r a jikook shipper before right? I can understand why u stop shipping them bcz sometimes i feel too that jungkook distance himself from jimin suddenly and show a face that he didn't care. And i also sometimes feel that maknae lines making fool out of us bcz of this shipping specially jk. But u r behaving now like u never ship jikook...not even once. I want to know what happened or what ur reasons that u just fully denying them now and behaving like Tkkr? Or may be u just joking around about tkk but yes u denying jikook constantly now...can you tell ur logical reasons for this? Thankyou.

Hiii.. first of all, you sound like a really sweet person 🤩

Yes, I just joke a lot about taekook. It's mostly because they have a lot of moments, and also because jikookers think that if you don't believe jikook are a couple, it means you're automatically saying that taekook is real. Which is stupid.

I agree with you that they play with it a lot. I've said it in one post a few weeks ago, I also believe that Jimin JK V do not take this thing as seriously as we think it is. Especially Jungkook and Taehyung, they're just having fun with it and it's become really hard for me to take Jungkook seriously in anything he says and do. I've genuinely started to feel like he's just constantly trolling. This feeling that he's not serious about anything has also made me lose interest and tenderness for their friendship. Seeing them interact used to make me feel happy and excited and all that, because I thought it was meaningful and #real, but since around the middle of 2021, I don't feel anything like that anymore. I watch them and it's like... I don't feel anything. Together, they used to be so special to me and lately I don't see much, if anything, of what used to make them stand out among the other relationships in BTS. It's honestly not a bad feeling, but it's also not exactly a good feeling. It's literally no feelings at all.

I'm not denying jikook. I can't say if they're together and I also can't say that they're not together because nobody knows what's the truth. Even if tomorrow they like, come out and stuff, I would be like "okay, cool" and move on with my life. I just got tired of thinking too much about them as if they're actually a couple. I got tired of thinking "oh this means something!!!" and then something else happened that would make me doubt what I initially thought. I got tired of going back and forth like that and having to change my mind or accommodate my thoughts to new information constantly.

I hope this made sense to you; if not, I can always try to find a different way to say it. Wish you well!

[kyndaris]

The Reality of Friendship

Over the last two years, as the world slowed to a crawl, many people began to reach out. In my last post, I talked about meeting up with people from high school, either via luck or through a simple Facebook comment on a post.

But just reaching out isn’t enough. You have to maintain it if you want to keep alive your connection to other people. Which can be especially hard now that life has returned to a sense of normalcy and everything is opening up again. Once more, we’re all ‘too busy.’ The things that were placed on the backburner have returned with a vengeance. Trips that were delayed can now be experienced.

In many ways, that’s great!

And yet, as a person that is often overlooked, it’s tiring to be the one that is constantly reaching out to see where people are at and organising real life or virtual catch-ups. 

Perhaps it’s because that as we have grown up, our interests have diverged. Maybe people see me as clinging to the past with my love for video games and obsessive reading habits. Yes, it’s a trait that has dogged me for many years and I don’t doubt they’ll be with me until the day I die, but can you blame me when there’s so many mind-blowing narratives and rich worlds to consume?

Still, there’s also a budding resentment within me that has only festered. Why can’t these people ask me out for dinner? Why is it always me that’s trying so desperately to keep hold of old friendships? 

It is exhausting trying to carry these all on my back. And it’s worse when, during the pandemic, all I was trying to do was lift everyone’s spirits because we were in one of the longest and most terrible of lockdowns. Honestly, it’s hard when you feel like you’re the only one obeying the health mandates of keeping away when other people seem to be out on the streets spreading COVID-19 around like there’s no tomorrow (although on that note, could I possibly give a warm welcome to monkey pox?)

To be fair, though, I’m not trying to be clingy. I only ever reach out every few weeks or so. Perhaps once a month or with just an annual ‘Happy Birthday’ because my mind is a steel trap and I have everything memorised.

Still, maybe there’s a reason why people just gradually fall out of friendships. Possibly because of our busy lifestyles or that we want different things out of life. It’s no-one’s fault and yet the friendship is giving back as much as I put in when it comes to enjoyment. It doesn’t even matter if the two people involved might have supposedly similar personalities (they don’t really - the only common denominator seems to just being introverted but being introverted simply means that one’s social battery drains too fast). If one person becomes reluctant to engage, and wants to withdraw, maybe that’s a sign that a break is needed. Especially if conversations are stilted if the other party wants something more from me than I’m willing to give.

But maybe, too, there’s a power imbalance in the friendship. What does one do when someone has put another on a pedestal in their mind. Or what about those that cling to a specific image of an individual? Nostalgia can go a long way but friendships based on it cannot last without some sort of change to the dynamic.

I suppose some of this strange dissonance with other people might come from the fact that I have a very eclectic and wide-ranging number of things that I enjoy and consume. There are people out there, however, that don’t engage as much. Rather, they’re perfectly fine with not engaging in anything that’s popular or mainstream, instead reading plot synopses on Wikipedia instead of actually experiencing a given TV show, game or book. It makes talking about the latest episode of say, Umbrella Academy or The Good Place, all that harder because they don’t have the quotes or understand the nuanced references.

So, one friend I have, we bonded over our love for the Kingdom Hearts franchise. And yet, when I finished playing Kingdom Hearts 3 and wanted to discuss the ending and how Nomura attempted to redeem Master Xehanort, they hadn’t found a means to play or watch a playthrough. Rather, they were only able to hear my rants or read my spoiler-filled impression of the game.

And though there can be some level of engaging conversation, because they haven’t actually experienced the game fully, it’s harder to get their exact thoughts on Nomura’s twisted form of writing and the hidden hints for the sequel.

It also doesn’t help that with many of my high school friends, our interests are vastly different. I’ve dabbled with so many things. From Dragon Prince to She-Ra to Arcane on the animated side to a vast array of popular TV shows and movies. They have NONE of that context to build from. It’s one thing to just obsess about a TV show that I’ve watched but it’s another to share in that excitement with a fellow appreciator. Thank goodness that I have one friend that I can discuss the craziness of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend and appreciate the lyrical genius of Bo Burnham. 

Game-wise, they might know about the video games I play but they’d lack the appreciation I might have for the game - instead, experiencing it only semi-vicariously through my frenetic impressions on my blog. But honestly, most of my ‘friends’ don’t read my blog for the games. They read it for the personal anecdotes because games don’t interest them. Or the games that they play are simple mobile ones or just the same game that they’ve played for years and years.

And don’t even talk about books.

I don’t think most of the people I know have picked up a proper novel in years. They might sing my praises when it comes to the short stories they’ve read on my FictionPress but there’s little context for them with which to compare. How can they when they’ve not heard the likes of Tess Gerritsen, Robin Hobb, Brandon Sanderson or Thomas Harris? That’s not to mention the likes of Sarah J. Maas and her ilk of YA authors (some good and others...intriguing).

How can I properly rant about the connected Maasverse if there’s no context? I can’t decry the wing kinks, the slash of white and the way all the ‘males’ growl about their mates. 

I mean, yes, I could rant about it - after all, I just did - but without that shared experience, it falls flat.

Maybe this is all me catastrophising and I’ll reignite the spark of friendship that had us clasping our hands in solidarity. Or maybe it’s time for me to talk it out and put it out of its misery. Like a romantic relationship, it seems that people can fall in and out of friendships too. And after investing so much time and effort into it, if I’m not receiving anything back, maybe it’s time to just step away.

Or maybe just reduce our status back to acquaintances that might warrant a simple ‘hello’ if we see each other on the street.

It’s hard because there’s a lot of shared memories when it comes to people that I’ve known since high school or before. But when I have to hide parts of who I am simply to keep up the charade that I’m the same person from a decade ago, it is so draining.

But even though change was something I’m scared of, the truth of the matter is that I’m not the same Kyndaris. And I simply don’t derive as much fun or joy from the other person as I might have. The meaningful chats are one-sided and I don’t want them to be tethered to someone who can’t appreciate their insights into their personal psyche. You deserve someone that will actually listen and can respond in kind. That someone, unfortunately, is not me. 

Suffice it to say, that was a long and winding tangent. Still, at its core is the concept that friendship is a strange and fickle thing. Some people might remain friends for the rest of their lives. But other times, friendships too, must come to an end. Or, at the very least, be put on hold before they become a cloying toxic mess.

In summary: I’m sorry to the future people I might be cutting off. I wish I didn’t resent you for things that aren’t your fault. If I’ve hurt you by drawing away, I’m really and truly sorry. Maybe friendship just isn’t for us. Maybe my friends AREN’T my power. Or, my power has moved on to a new set of friends.

Still, perhaps we can be acquaintances? Or perhaps I simply need a break to collect my thoughts and think about what this relationship means to me and if I truly need it in my life.

#personal blog #friends #taking a break