#i just havent been happy on tumblr :(

[hazelpuff]

#ts2 #i'm just chilling #i got a new computer and i'm just testing sims 2 #maybe something will come out of it or maybe not we will see #i'm remaking my hood againn because i had too many hopes for my previous computer #now the hood is smaller #no pink flashing as of now where i had a lot of it before i decorated what i have here now #i havent been around a lot when the tumblr channged recently #im getting lost #i posted this before on my side blong without noticing at 1st #the lots i used aren't mine #my decorating is still all around the place(it doesnt make sense) and kinda meh #but since its put together enough to snap some pretty pictures then i'm happy #i want to stick to one hood but my old computer always forced me to give up xD #where have i been? baldurs gate :>

[kentopedia]

after some thinking, i’m going to put a pause on all my jjk wips & work on some other things <3

#thanks for all ur kindness btw #& i’m sorry if you just follow me for jjk :( #i think this is the best thing for me to do regarding my feelings around the fandom & the only way i can truly put some distance between it #which this doesn’t mean i’ll stop writing for it forever <33 just for at least a couple weeks !! #i’m sorry this probably seems really silly and dramatic but #i just havent been happy on tumblr :( #& i won’t change my url or theme or anything !!! just loving kento from a distance lol #love u all so very much !!!! #and i just wanted to let you know in case you think i’m dropping kento forever (im not) or you’re waiting on something #but also feel free to unfollow if you don’t want to see my other work lol #i’ll also probably not consume much content of it either very sorry to my jjk mooties :(((

[8bit-mau5]

Mix n match talksprites done for @trollme-bro ! This is of a pretty old adopt design I had made and It was so nice to get to revisit this cute again ; o ; <33 I'm so proud of the results after a long bit of trial and error trying to get the right texture and shading feel that I had wanted 😭🙏

Commission info and slots can be found [HERE]! If you enjoy my art, feel free to support your local trans artist by tipping me on kofi 💙

#artists on tumblr #fantrolls #homestuck #hiveswap #Gabriel's arts #commission #i redid that jacket and painted that shirt over SO MANY TIMES but im finally happy with EVERYTHING #MY LAPTOP ALLOWED ME TO GET BACK TO THESE. RAUCOUS CHEERING AND APPLAUSE #ANYWAY.. LOOK AT HIM AND LOVE HIM #i havent finished sprites in so long because of god knows how many issues and id greatly appreciate the love on this #literally ive just been working on smaller comms cos my laptop would combust and DIE when trying to work with files w/so many layers 😭 #im $384 away from affording a new laptop tho.. snff #up next is bonnie... i dont have too many linearts to finish for her at least and i did her fishnets AHEAD OF TIME during the sketch phase

[princessaurayt]

CelePino buttons finally came in... I'm gonna cry

#lies of P #lies of p oc #sorry i havent been on much #with stuff going regarding my irl life and getting some weird messages on my tumblr ive just been away #but this made me so so so happy to see i had to share #CelePino #celeste (oc)

[deedis]

having a shit memory is actually so stupid why am i regularly learning facts about myself!!!!!!

#d.txt #going thru my ovw tag……. i used to main zenyatta apparently…… didnt know that.... i thought i was neutral on a character at the start...... #turns out i was wrong about that..... mercy fan since launch.... going thru my archive….. used to have a mob psychp 100 url for like a year #dont remmeber jack abt the anime.... im so happy i have this tumblr as an archive of sorts becuas e how kuch of my life would just be #lost to the void.... i havent been able to recall stuff from middle or elementary except for like a handful of memories for a while but im #also starting to forget stuff from hs too 😭 4 years ago..... memory loss is so scary amd frustrating to no fweaking end fuck you ptsd me #and my homies hate ptsd

[diaryofellen]

#for now im tired. running a tumblr poll tournament takes an unexpected emotional toll #thank you so much again to everyone who voted in the first round!!!!!!! i really love rpg maker games #and its nice to see people getting excited about them in a way i havents seen for a while. #its a bit stressful to an extent (again please do not bring up creator controversy too much.. #and dont defend creators just cuz you like their characters...that was a bizzarely stressful thing to see in the tags) #(and also im really sorry to anyone who has post notifications on and just #gets me talking about dumb stuff and being slightly annoying. -__-; i know i should probably ramble on this blog less.) #the witchs diary #people have been very nice to me and im glad. im very sorry if my talking ruins the blog a bit but im happy people are enjoying the polls

[dayurno]

obsessed w your vibes. you’re just so nice and easy to talk to

AIYA truly it is just very easy to be nice to the people who reach out to me i am always very happy to talk about kevin day with fellow enthusiasts....... i am just as well kicking my feet and giggling answering asks about him as some may do while sending them

#dayurno dot tumblr dot com is just a 'yes and' improv assignment :=) #butthank you that was so sweet ....... smiled sincerely #im very happy that there is a corner of the fandom where we can talk about these things and have fun #as the community dwelves into chaos #everytime i listen to some of my friends' horror stories about what they have to put up with im very #sincerely grateful that i havent been exposed to these things #so in the end it is i who must thank everyone for their civility and tact #asks #fav

[merverelli]

sleepy in bed phone doodle of tumblrs #1 sexyman Cecil Gershwin Palmer himself 🍾🍾🍾

#cecil sweep #wtnv #welcome to night vale #welcome to nightvale #Cecil Gershwin Palmer #cecil palmer #wtnv cecil #just like art #it is 3:30 am #i dod this while listening to the podcast again from the beginning: i am now on ep 8 lmfao #160 mins to do this #2.5 ish hours #not bad considering its on the phone and im in bed and the sleepyhead disease is taking over #medibang on android is good too!!! i prefer it over autodesk tbh #(but again i havent used it much lmfao #anywY good night i love you reader #and i love you sans sweep nation you were a great team #wouldve been very happy to lose to you #goodbight forever snork mimimi #unless this doesnt go into tags idk if tumblr fixed that but

[motherfuckingbrad]

thinking about high school troy today.

thinking about the little boy who loved football because it brought him closer to his favorite uncle. thinking about how when he realized he was good at it, that it made him popular, he loved it even more. thinking about how that love changed as he got older though, and it became less about the game and more about the chore of winning. thinking about how troy felt the weight of winning all on his shoulders, how it slowly took over his life until all he could think about was how if he lost too many times, he would be worthless and everyone would abandon him. thinking about how by senior year troy didn’t even feel like himself anymore, because he knew no one liked him for him, no one even really knew the real him, they just liked him when he would win games and keep his mouth shut. thinking about how when his uncle died, football didn’t even seem to have a point anymore, it didn’t make him happy, and it hadnt for a long time. thinking about how the pressure built until he couldn’t take it, and troy knew he couldn’t do this for another four years in college, but he still couldn’t tell anyone how he really felt in fear that they would hate him for throwing everything away, his family and friends and school and everyone. thinking about how he chose to hurt himself badly enough to be hospitalized rather than ever tell anyone how he really felt. and thinking about how even after it was all over, and the pressure of football was alleviated, troy still couldn’t be himself because people were already disappointed about the football thing, he didn’t need to make it worse. thinking about how he probably woke up every day hating himself, hating who he’d let himself become, until one day, after throwing a paper ball at some nerd in a frozen yogurt place and hating the way it made his friends laugh, he had enough. thinking about how he finally made that decision to change, and how that flyer for greendale community college seemed to be screaming at him now, as a place where no one would know him, and he could finally be himself, could finally be free.

basically im just thinking about how greendale community college saved troy barnes’ life. :,)

#i need to stop doing deep analysis of troy oh god #idk why hes the one that breaks me #his arc is just better than anyone else’s in my opinion #even jeff’s #my boy #i havent posted something original on here in so long lmao ive been on semi tumblr hiatus #but ofc the first thing i come back w is sad :) #its sad happy though #i initially had a much longer version but i didn’t want to make it toooooo long #even though this one is super long #so lmk if yall wanna see that one too but eh idk if i’ll post it because its basically the same thing in more detail #like i said he makes me very emo #anyway #troy barnes #community

[8bit-mau5]

My very first ArtFight attack ever!! The name of this piece is “Bardic Inspiration” and I had TONS of fun with this experimental piece! I put plenty new textured and halftone brushes to use with this one finally

FUN FACT: the music notes to the top left are the first 4 notes of Megalovania 

Quinro - @constellation-trolls

#artists on tumblr #fantrolls #homestuck #hiveswap #artfight #Gabriel's arts #Quinro Abenet #I FINISHED THIS ON THE 18TH BUT I KEPT FORGETTING TO SUBMIT HIM HERE AAAUGH #a lot has happened this month and i havent been able to draw as much as i wanted #but if i could do just one this month im still happy tbh #im incredibly proud of this piece as as per usual i would GREATLY PPRECIATE RBs on this one #i put a lot of love into this one. i love wallys ocs so much augh #this is viserys' beloved silly billy. her sweet cheese. her rotten soldier #her husband< #* <3

[velend]

‘oh hey-’

#pkmn fanart #pkmn mew #pkmn celebi #literally havent drawn anything particular for months now #only reason this spawned was because i played pkmn mystery dungeon blue and was happy to recruit both celebi and mew lul #and figured why not try my hand at colors again #edit: i mentioned a game ive been into in the tags and didnt realize tumblr actually categorize this post into the game's tag category??? #wtf tumblr #its not even a specific tag i typed it out as its own thing #it just...detected the words and decided to place my post in an unrelated category because of it #i was gone for a year or two and looks like tumblr didnt really change for the best :v #velendart

[mageofcolors]

personal rant incoming

#ive been thinking. #i used to always have a dream of being a singer or an artist of some sort #i always wanted to create and perform and imagine and make cool things #now i havent streamed in a year #i havent made music in like. 2 years? #ive written some lyrics a couple months ago i guess that counts #i dont draw very often #idk. im not as creative anymore #but ive been. mostly? happy i think? #it's like. i dont dream so much about being big and i dont have the energy to work towards anything #which kinda sucks but. is it really so bad to just chill? #to just hang out in the moment and do what i want in the moment? #do i have to strive towards a bigger goal? #is it so bad to just exist and not produce anything? #i want to clarify i do want to create. i just havent been able to much #and i hope i can get back into it but #idk. im just thinking i guess #bc at this moment my hobbies are just what. video games? #i spend most of my time scrolling through tumblr or working #and i wanna change that #but also i gotta figure out how manage my energy #winter is coming and idk. #stronger with every fall/never fear the fall and all that #but it takes. a lot. to get through winter for me #i just #hm. #idk man im just here i guess lmao #donk post #donk text #im not sure where im going with this so ima stop talking for now

[kurtkunkle96]

WHO WAS GONNA FUCKING TELL ME CHLOE MORIONDO HAD ONE OF HER SONGS IN HEARTSTOPPER????!?!?!

#chloe moriondo #BRO WHAT IVE BEEN LISTENING TO HER FOR YEARS #I JUST HAVENT WATCHED HEART STOPPER AND THEN BAM I FIND OUT THROUGH FUCKING TUMBLR?????? #IM SO HAPPY FOR HER OMGOMGOMGOGMG #trinket’s trinket

[aurieeeeeenyx]

18,23,30?

(:

i actually have no idea what ask game this is for but based on recency i'm gonna guess the soft asks one askjdhgiaehr

18. do you still love stuffed animals?

i actually never really had stuffed animals as a kid? or like, i had them, but they just kinda sat forgotten in the corner of my room, so i feel like that doesn't really count. honestly i think i've developed more of an appreciation for stuffed animals now that i'm older. especially plushies i love plushies oh my god my friend got me this sushi cat plushie for my birthday that looks like a calico shrimp and i love it so very much

23. favorite piece of clothing?

i recently bought this jacket that was labelled as a bomber jacket but feels way too thin and slightly flowy (100% polyester) to be one. it's a little oversized and it's black with floral patterns and it has thick cuffs and a floppy collar and the pockets aren't that deep but i still love it

the cuffs are actually sewn tighter (like there's a little bit of it bunched up on the inside) and the extra material is a bit annoying sometimes so i'm trying to figure out how to get rid of it without loosening the cuffs

anyways this is the recency bias talking but i think it's one of the best things i've ever bought

30. what reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)?

ohhh boy. uhh laughing with friends, afternoon sunlight, the smell in libraries and basements with wood flooring, a little bit of noise in the background (like a youtube video or something playing three rooms away), lots of pillows, dried pork shreds, storing things in containers that are not the original container's contents, staying up late at night on my computer, red bean jelly ice pops, watching jack edwards or mina le videos or just blasting random songs while i clean, honeydew ice pops, milk tea / brown sugar boba ice pops, having the windows open in the evening

lowkey that was a struggle haha i guess i don't have many things i really associate with the concept of home? i feel like i don't really notice unless i'm in the moment, or maybe i just tend to describe these kinds of things differently

thanks for the ask!!

send me an ask!

#asks #yes i know theres a lot of ice pops on that list #i just really like ice pops ok my freezers always full of them #also im so sorry i havent been on tumblr in like forever and the few times i did come check i was too scared to open my askbox LMAO #so uhhh yeah merry christmas happy birthday the answer is here #thanks again!!

[super-done-dead]

love seeing users who are friends interact on posts. would like to interact with a user whos a friend one day, on a post

#i think what makes tumblr feel so raw to me is that its fairly anonymous #theres gonna be like 3 ppl total on here who know me irl #but a lot of their accs havent been updated in AGES #aside from one #you know who you are. dont know if you know who i am #like i have a boyfriend of almost 5 years #i wouldnt tell him a lot of what goes on on here #i cant share anything abt shipping bc he thinks thats cring #if i was to share hed be supportive but i dont need him to think lesser of me #who else will i tell that my suicide attempt was not just an attempt #but effectively a gender wake up call as i shouted at the top of my lungs: #I want to be a boy! I want to be a boy! #i think about it sometimes and it geniunely tears at my soul #in different circumstances #with more supportive people around me #id be a trans man. #how harrowing is that #to stifle part of your identity just to make sure i am loved #life is already hard #i dont really want to make it too much harder #that and id look even more like my dad and that makes me somewhat suicidal again #btw my suicide attempt was in 2019! #thats how long ive been fighting myself!! #gotta wonder if i did attempt to transition #would i even be happy? #or do i just think i would be happy