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dracudyke · 1 year

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ok so now that ive read ur page on bite club here are some for some other characters...

viidalia: 9, 38, B, D

minerva: 32, 40, G, H

midas: 13, 27

dominic: 11, 18, 19

marcos: 15

YEAAA thank u im having so much fun w/ these

Viidalia:

9: Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word? They don't swear much tbh! Only occasionally when very upset or sometimes when super excited. They do remember their first swear at least within the period they remember, they probably picked it up from a frustrated scientist in the facility :P

38: What memory do they revisit the most often? Vince was the first person to ever be kind to her and treat her like a person instead of an experiment. She really treasures that memory. She also has plenty of bad memories from her time in captivity that she has a really hard time moving past.

B: What inspired you to create them? I actually made her as a potential d&d character a long time ago! This is art from 2020, when I first came up w them. I thought it would be an interesting concept for a wild magic sorcerer. At one point I realized I could rework her into bite club bc I'd probably never play her, so I changed her a bit and gave her new life. I'm super glad I did! I love bite club Vii so much ^_^

D: Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look? I kinda just answered this one above :-)

Minerva

32: Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? I think she has a few jokes she loves to tell that she thinks are SO funny but no one that isnt at least 200 yrs old really gets them. She never stops telling them though

40: How sensitive are they to their own flaws? It depends! Most things roll off her pretty easily, but she's very touchy about things relating to people she failed to protect in the past. She also really doesn't like to be told that she's wrong about things. She considers herself to usually be the wisest person in the room simply based off how long she's lived, but she still makes mistakes.

G: What trait of theirs bothers you the most? How over-protective of Jamie they are. She sees it as protecting a mortal she cares about, but Jamie gets very frustrated and sees it as her viewing him as unable to protect himself bc of his disabilities. It bothers me bc like... I am also disabled and know how shitty that kind of thing feels. They talk it out though :-)

H: What trait do you admire most? She loves so fiercely and never lets it go. She is still so dedicated to someone who died hundreds of years ago and would do anything for them even after they've passed. Even though she can be a little misguided about this i still think its sweet :')

Midas:

13: What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color? Gold. 100% gold. Ze does look pretty good in it, but ze's also pretty tacky about it. Most of hir clothes are black and/or gold.

27: What causes them to feel dread? It takes a lot to really shake him. He thinks of himself as unstoppable and invincible. However, when the gang actually starts to get closed to fucking him up in s3, that illusion shatters and his whole outlook changes. He stops being suave and overly sure of himself and gets nervous and aggressive and full of dread and goes after the gang much harder than before.

Dominic:

11: How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)? She definitely pretends she understands then googles it later lmao.

18: What embarrasses them? Being wrong or making mistakes in front of others. He's Never embarrassed about sharing his writing or art though, regardless of the quality.

19: What is their favorite number? Hm. 16 or 32. this is off the cuff and has no significance skdjhfs

Marcos:

15: How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first? Usually a little manic, very rambly and goes into tangents often. They tend to think out loud a lot.

#shouts #marcos #dominic #midas #minerva #viidalia #bite club #TY AGAIN

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brokenheartsandtwistedminds757 · 4 years

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Please watch this if anyone crushed your dreams or never believed in you, if you ever felt lost and still do... Lord please help me find my purpose my calling my dreams , if you don't even know who you are bc you lost yourself or sense of self to someone or to an external source and in silence you can't sit with the your own self bc you are not connected with yourself within and so confused as to do next... I am ADHD . I was on second in about to skip it to distract myself with something else and for some reason I watched and laughed and I've been in a rut in writing and being in touch with my own soul with the inner child I suppressed and was repressed bc I was the black sheep, the misunderstood, the outcast, I too have a love for Albert Einstein, I too have a learning disability and recently lost my voice to domestic violence for 15 yrs and I made someone my everything and now left with nothing, and I see why I needed to broken hearted by a twisted mind bc now I free to explore and discover what my potential can be, and no wonder i was delusional bc I am truth seeker and I felt always uncomfortable, anxious and it's bc I was not allowed to be or able to express myself the authentic person I am.

" I used to wait for the newspaper, to wait for my dad to finish and so I can then cut out the funny comics like Garfield the cat and I used to laugh and then I ventured in to drawing " I drew Garfield and was so proud of it and my father said " you need to practice more it it's that good "

Little did he know: today this day he has no clue how that one sentence, killed and ahattwred my drive and imagination to dream; I believe of what Steve Harvey Said. Education isn't everything even though society tells us so, but obviously with what's been happening in the present time, I am glad I'm that black sheep of the family bc now I have the opportunity to change my ancestry, and tell my daughter with true ethusiam that her artwork is amazing and I encourage her to color outside the lines even though as we color together as an adult: me drawing inside the lines and my 4 year old just scribbling all over th page with colors out of random and triggered my OCD & in that moment I almost did something to her by words is killing her will to learn and have fun by almost " correcting " her to " color inside the lines and use the accurate colors " smh. In that moment as I had a flashback and I never drew again and even if I did doodle I would never show it to anyone in fear of it not being accepted but again Im thankful For being misunderstood bc after watching this video and diving deep of soul searching; I realized too, I am not supposed to fit in, it's the rebels without a cause that change the world but are labeled and judged as we are standing in line waiting for or prescription meds by a phyaiciatrist who has seen you since 18 and yet being now (--) of age still doesn't know your name. Maybe I was crazy for doing the same things expecting different results by changing myself externally to be accepted by people who I cared for and didn't aswell, now I know why age of 9. I want to die ? Nothing is more miserable than holding in your ability to express urself in any format bc I was made to believe anything I did or said was silly or stupid. I didnt know my root of all the circumstances and consequences of those I am suffering and surviving at the same time that I AM WORTHY, if it was one thing to note : ( I was the sperm tadpole to make it in the egg first ?) ;) I know this is all over the place but I usually would select-all-copy+paste to my UNSENT/UNSEEN MESSAGES / Or ADHS : verbal vomit. But fuck it. It is what it is. HAVING SUCH A MIND FULLY purging of thoughts and ideas that were repressed aswell as the insecurity and self conscious Ness that led to disablitating social anxiety which I proud I can even admit that on a social media sites bc most of mine is of Albert Einstein image and everything set to private bc thinking I would be a burden to " friends" / family/ strangers....I want to be an advocate for ADHD AND hopefully change the damn abrievation to EFDD. Just remember , I'm aware I'm not always be on the same page as the rest. (Ha! Or even the same chapter as someone for my age "/ who makes these unofficial societal rules that is bullshit to its finest ) if you made to this point well you are ADHD yourself and can relate or something resonated with you to intrigue your interest, my phone is so hot I think it's about to explore or possibly crash with my luck, but I just want to say, think or don't think outside the box, color within or outside the lones, it really just doesn't matter after all we have to side of the brain the the left and the right? No more hiding or fear of decideding! JUST BE U, Or else once by THE TIME U figure out what you want or who you want to be IN life or what ur dreams are; You already be six feet under. So disregard into the COVID-19 But with all respect and rip to all and their loved ones but get off your phone & go climb a tree. We are th wild ones, the free spirits and the light workers or the world to help / heal other of humanity's wounds, let's all disagree to agree that even though I will most likely continue to be on my phone after I post, I'm just going to to say at least I can feel free to speak my truth and can care less if this makes sense or has many grammertical errors or no commas lol. When I press that blue post button just know I for once was able to exhale.....

#Youtube

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rayonfrozenwings · 5 years

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Hey mutuals, followers and p0rn bots,

Its my blogs 3rd birthday!

I’ve been lurking, posting, ranting in the SJM fandom on tumblr for three years and that’s kinda Crazy to me.

So here are some fun Facts that kinda evolve into an appreciation post… and then an anecdotal history of this fandom I’ve been a part of. So thanks for hanging round and talking shit with me. :D

if ur tagged it’s just like a thanks or when I met you - lol you don’t have to read the whole thing...

and the rest is under the cut....

I only liked posts for the First month, I never reblogged. It was my first time on tumblr.

I’ve had the same URL since the start

The first post I reblogged and commented on was @miladyaelin ‘s post about a Volcano in the Frozen Wastes - such a wasted opportunity for World destruction that was not used to full potential at all in KoA hahaha - maybe a spin off series? joke.

The first person to reply to one of my asks was abookandacoffee or @bookofmirth 3 months after I joined tumblr and that’s kinda scary because that means we have been speaking longer than we realised.

@propshophannah thanks for letting me go nuts about theory with you!

The Big blogs in the SJM fandom change, and it's cool that being in the fandom for so long means that I get to talk with all these people and make some real friends.

I made read friends from reading books and talking about them - How Cool Is That!

I had fun making shit posts about Dorian’s couch, Rowan’s relationship status after EoS and seeing my friends come up with some pretty clever memes too.

The Art is amazing, and actually getting to talk to artists about their art is something I didn't think would happen ever. So I’m so grateful to tumblr for that.

I want to tag a lot of people but - having been here so long means that urls change and I lose touch - plus I think I would go over the “50 tag limit” easily.

The first kiwi blog who I talked to was @verifiefangirl and we bonded over the Old El Paso advert of “why not both”.

I want to thank those who encouraged me to write my theories, and I did that for the first year on here.

I want to say thank you to the people who told me “You know, you can write your theories as fic and people don't get as angry.” Because you were right! And so that started my writing of fan fic, and thank you to those people who wanted to be tagged and let me know what was up - sorry I haven’t written in a while.

Thank You to @faenet and my Faenet Fam. I joined to share theories, switched it up to write fic, and then evolved into Edits. I was able to learn how discord works and be a part of a team and learn new photo editing skills - I knew nothing before I joined and it's so cool to have become a part of that community.

Thanks to my BookClub brotp - It’s been the best getting to know you all over the last year, discuss books and life. And just have fun. I honestly wouldn't have connected with you guys if we just relied on tumblr because it often requires me to say something first, and i'm not good at that. @theyretheirthere sorry I had to tag you twinnie. :P

Some Fandom History for those who have been here a while ... (well for as long as I have been in the fandom, I know there was a time before this).

Phase One - POST EOS Theory and Beach Scene Debate, Elorcan exists now even tho People still HATE Lorcan (not me but lots of people did). ACOMAF love, nickname of Tam the tampon takes off.

Phase Two - PRE ACOWAR, Moreil Hype, Fandom super excited, Acomaf love, Rhysand love.

Phase Three - ACOWAR IS AWFUL - Dumpsters on Fire, lots of fandom people left. The ones who stayed had discourse about Moriel, Mor’s sexuality, Nessian, the ending and how it was rushed, Azriel is a smol cinnamon roll who deserved better - lots of Az fics and the birth of Elriel started here.

Phase Four - TOG FANDOM ARE MAD because Chaol’s novella turned into a Novel. Cyber bullying of Chaol lovers in fandom led to a lot of blogs leaving - just be kind to one another, you can talk about stuff without personal attacks.

Phase Five - WE ARE ALL GOING STIR CRAZY, Someone released a TOD mock cover and there was a lot of ableist stuff going on. Bad time in fandom.

Phase six - TOD Came out - Lots of people refused to read, other people felt vindicated about theories, other people were shocked about Maeve. Praise and Hate towards the book and for how SJM handled race and disability. Was she being sensitive or appropriating? Mixed Reviews, again fandom got a little smaller. Acotar Fandom was taking off in terms of fics.

Phase Seven - Acotar Fandom PRE ACOFAS Fan Fic Mania. Most of us re-read acotar, acomaf, acowar and Fix-it fics, Nessian Fics, Feysand Fics, Lots of Fics. Lots of Art. I noticed the ACOTAR fandom kinda took off while the TOG one floundered.

Phase Eight - A New Novella for ACOTAR, ACOFAS - lots of hype. Lots of mixed reviews - “it had no plot” or “I love it” or “I don't like how the first pov changed depending on the character” or “Yay christmas!!!” or “boo wall scene” or “yay Wall scene!!” Again - more fics and art came from it. Snowball fight was a highlight, art was gorgeous, Amren as a snowball was also good. Fandom was flourishing again, yes we lost some people but we also had a resurgence in creative content.

Weird non-phase - Catwoman: Soul Stealer, was released but wasn't a “must read” for many people.

Phase Nine - Pre KoA, Fandom was Hyped! We were all doing our re-reads, theories came out again, discussions about favourite quotes of things we had forgotten were shared. Again - Some good ToG fic came out because people had it fresh in their minds again - we were preparing. Edits were great, lots of Edits, Lots of Art.

Phase Ten - KoA Came out and destroyed us. Fandom was relatively quiet while people abandoned tumblr to read it. Anti’s came out in force, they had more to say about it that the fans did. Fans didn't see this immediately because they weren't on tumblr. About a month after release, We got Meta and discourse on KoA and what it means and what Aelin’s story has meant to us personally. Edits started taking off again. This Phase is still ongoing even a year later. Personally I am in Awe of that book and what it managed to achieve, I wanted to re-read it straight away but it still has so many parts that HURT to read.

New people slowly trickle into fandom, or pick up the books, its sweet, but as a veteran sometimes seeing the same arguments gets tiring and so I dont comment as much as I used to. I’m still here reading, but I don't really want to write another essay like the ones I've previously written to defend a point so i’m quiet.

Where I think it will go next?

Most of the people who remain in the fandom are good at looking at things with a critical eye but saying “I can still enjoy a book”, which I like.

We will get hyped as a fandom for Crescent City which was pushed back to March 2020, even if we are unsure it’s what we want, I don't think we can help ourselves.

ACOTAR 4 is in the works with no confirmed release date, just vague mention that it was being pushed back - twas supposed to be 2020 but I'm doubtful, especially if other titles are pushed back first like CC:HOEAB - it was by three months from Jan to March.

WOTOG was also pushed back, first from release with EoS, then from release with ToD and now from release with KoA (those are all goodreads dates as I was waiting for it and keeping an eye out, but we also had novels added and other books like acofas - goodreads also isn't the best at staying on top of release dates)…. we have had mention of it that it will include art and is co-authored by Lynette Noni, so It is still being made at least - I mean I don't have to cry about it being cancelled just yet. And So I have to stay around for those. I became invested in the World building of TOG to not wait for WOTOG.

So yeah, it’s been a wild 3 years. <3

#you dont need to read all this i just started writing and couldnt stop #obviously its my own experience as we all take highlights from things differently #renee rambles #renee rambles about her three years on tumblr #i might do another post for how im gonna celebrate but i need to organise it and i havent yet so something is kinda in the works #i only realised two days ago that i had been here so long #perks of not deleting my 52000 unread emails #so yea #i really want to tag everyone but wont #because if i miss someone ill be so sad #nice fandom is nice #sjm fandom #to scared to tag it with other fandom tags

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scbines · 5 years

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WORD okay what up i’m ally, i’m twenty1, i use she/her pronouns, my timezone is est & small disclaimer: i don’t know what the fuck i’m doing, okay!! just keep that in mind when you .. go to read this complete shit storm okay i’m Trying.. anywhen! i may or may not have uhhh copied & pasted the majority of this from the last time i played her but.. that’s neither her nor there, tbh! if u wanna plot, feel free to hmu on discord at [mournful bagpipe music]#2581 or yk use the lil chat thing on tumblr if u aint got discord bhvfjn. MOVING ON..

cw: alcohol, neglect, sex ( & i think that’s it, folks! )

sab’s pinterest: here!

( sofia carson, cisfemale ) did you hear how SABINE VALDEZ is applying to columbia university as a PHILOSOPHY major ?! the TWENTY-ONE year old is living in the WATT HALL. i heard that they got in because they are +MAGNETIC and +INTREPID, but honestly i think SHE can be -FLIGHTY and -VOLATILE. they’re a real CATACLYSM. oh well, only time will tell if the JUNIOR will make it til the end.

imma just dive right in cos idk how else to go about it bgvjn

sabine grew up w/ a single mom in Detroit & they were basically skating the line between lower class and poverty, meaning they had like a proper house, but they were definitely behind on mortgage always and living paycheck to paycheck :// like when they went grocery shopping & sab would put anything but the basics in the cart her mom would look at her like ‘that’s a joke, right?’ and never could afford like birthday/christmas presents or cake or anything rip ( honestly not that sab’s mom gave enough a shit to even notice smh ) ! so everything was always a little .. hectic ig ? her mom couldnt ever relax unless she was blackout drunk so uhh that’s p much that on that sighs

even worse?? when sab was about eleven her mom got injured at work ( dont ask me How cos i have? no idea hibgfnjd i’ll flesh it out at some point.. maybe .. probably not.. ) so she and sab lived on disability checks and whatever small money sab could make helping her neighbors with like yard work/babysitting/shit like that until she was old enough to get a real job smh meaning she’s been working as long as she can remember god im exhausted just typing it

this basically left sab to raise herself, which .. most likely left her better off than if her mom paid her more attention tbh? cos her mom is selfish and doesnt care about anything but the next drink & the next man she’ll be inviting home smh !! the whole thing w/ her mom is that she Never Wanted kids but it wasn’t an option to abort or give sab up for adoption so she was Stuck raising a kid she never wanted .. truly .. rip ..

that said, sab’s mom was .. promiscuous to say the least .. all thru sab’s childhood there were countless nameless men in and out of their lives ranging from a day to a few weeks at most SIGHS anyways this of course led to sab having a seriously warped idea of what a healthy relationship is HELLO hvicnjm it’s super flawed to the point where she thinks the height of healthy relationship goals is to be exclusive for more than a few weeks smfh its wild tbh .. romance? dont know her! love? WHOMST? to sabine, there’s no point in bothering to rely or care for someone else because you’ll just end up disappointed so she ? keeps her distance for the most part.. relying Solely on herself cos thats the only person who wont let her down ( while also suffering from deeply rooted self-hatred? wow .. legends only .. )

anyways !! she Hated detroit like nobody’s business and always wanted nothing more than to Get Away from the toxicity of her home life and the suffocation of being the caregiver for a woman who will hardly get out of her bed gtg !!! so this led to her putting all her focus into after school jobs and making sure she was the top of her class At All Times like .. shes always been super determined and goal oriented but to a fault if that makes sense. she will work her ass off when given reason to, but once she’s accomplished that goal, she feels absolutely aimless sighs

bitch had .. like 3 jobs in hs and applied to a dozen schools, all of them at least 100 miles from detroit like Word ! she applied to columbia on a whim not thinking she’d get in but when she got that acceptance letter you can bet ur ass the bitch was Outta There!!

getting here tho … she isnt sure what to do next ihbvfcnj she never thought as far as majors and actually choosing what to do with the rest of her life so she?????? is undetermined about p much everything hgvifncjd but philosophy seems like the cop out she’s been looking for lmao !!!

anyways she works at a shitty diner not too far from campus like almost every day after classes but on weekends she COUGHS strips across town hibvfncj HA didnt see that coming did ya smh hibfnjd but!! she does it across town cos she lk wants it to stay a secret like she doesnt need to kick a frat boy’s ass for making shitty comments now does she??? but i mean .. its not something she’s ashamed of, she’s just Not Interested in having people she hates talk shit and slut shame ygm??

being so busy all the time, she doesn’t really have time for any school activities but she’s down for a party at any time ( esp if its like themed hbifnjd she loves a costume ) and uhh dtf too lbr shes v in touch w/ her sexuality #freethenipple ( does she even own a single bra?? we just don’t know! )

THAT SAID !! she doesnt correlate sex with like .. emotions?? cos shes never seen them in a situation where they’re mutually exclusive rip :// this led to her thinking people only ever Wanted Something from her be it her body or like a chance to put her down to feel better abt themselves smh ! she isnt a generally violent person but if it’s the latter she’s more likely to throw a few choice words in ur direction hvifcnj

generally, sab’s p much just ur Stressed Out Scholarship Student just trying to graduate so her life isnt a fucking trainwreck like her mom’s! she’s desperate for both human affection and adventure, so offer her one, the other or both and her heart is yours tbh! as much as she’ll pretend its not lmao !!1!1!!!!

anywhomst i cannot for the life of me think of anything else to type her atm since im??? garbage???? but !! mssg me if u wanna plot smthn out fam since uhh sab having friends??? sounds like a pipe dream tbh and im desperate for it lol!

#☆ — ❛ ooc. ❜#columbiaintro #this is embarrassing i can do better #but here we are ..

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0ragingblueberry0 · 6 years

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Hello! Here, Internet, have a list of Good Content For When Ur Brain Is Filled With Goblins! (with CWs bc I been there, fam)

THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY

Podcasts:

My Brother, My Brother and Me: 3 brothers give bad advice. (CW: it’s a wild card, fam. Generally swearing/sexual humor. )

Wonderful! : One of the previous bros and his wife talk about things they like. 10/10 warm n fuzzy.

The Adventure Zone: The same bros and their dad. Listen. these bros. are just Real Good. Dungeons and Dragons Podcast. They ignore most of the rules. (CW: swearing, sexual humor, cartoon violence. Like it’s not a cartoon, but i can’t think of a better term than cartoon violence?)

No Such Thing As A Fish : British Fun Fact Podcast. Good for distractions and background noise.

YouTube Channels/Series:

Good Mythical Morning : Comedy morning show. In case you need some dads, here’s two. (CW: eating a lot of gross food. Otherwise v family-friendly)

Dances Moving by Brian David Gilbert : this is a series of 7 videos comprising a fake dance class that is hilarious and also strangely emotional. Please watch it. It is so good. (CW: maybe some swearing?)

Danandphilgames : Listen. I am trash. and I know this. but they have a very good gaming channel. and I can’t be the only one who is comforted by Dudes With Genuine Healthy Friendships. (CW: Dan swearing. Dan S C R E A M I N G. Dan.)

JunsKitchen: Japanese guy (married to an American woman) teaches you how to make Japanese food in the most satisfying way possible. Also he has the best cats. 11/10 soothing. Also his channel with his wife about living in Japan, Rachel and Jun, is very good.

TV/Movies

Star Trek: ya know, star trek. My mom grew up watching it with her dad, and I grew up watching it with her. It might not have the same ~deep personal meaning~ for you, but I’ve always found it very comforting. I think the franchise has a very optimistic vision of the future, which a lot of sci-fi doesn’t. I’d say the most approachable series is The Next Generation, if you’re a newbie. Reboot movies are v good, too. All the series are on Netflix, and the reboot movies are on Amazon with Prime. (CW: Space wars and aliens and stuff)

The Great British Bake-Off: y’all know about this. Just a bunch of British people baking stuff in a tent and being kind and supportive of one another. Incredible. On Netflix.

John Mulaney stand-up specials : y’all are tumblr, so I know you know about him too. Relatable, generally wholesome, non-problematic comedy. And there’s 3 of them on Netflix. (CW: cussing, sexual/drug humor)

I’m also gonna throw Queer Eye into the category of “Y’all been know”

The Good Place: A show about a mix-up in the afterlife. Very funny and the show is always 85 steps ahead of you. There’s no gore or anything. Death is more of a setting used to talk about philosophy and what makes a good person. Also they make so many deeply, deeply accurate jokes about Jacksonville, FL (CW: Death)

British Panel Shows: I always end up watching these when my brain isn’t up to exploring. They’re like game shows but all the contestants are British comedians. My favorites are QI, Would I Lie To You?, and The Big Fat Quiz Of Everything. In the U.S., I find the best way to watch them is on YouTube. Also good for background noise. (CW: swearing, sexual humor)

Psych: a comedy show where a dude pretends to be a psychic to help solve crimes. It’s good for people like me who love crime shows but also hate suspense. Based on personal experience, I wouldn’t have watched it on my worst days, but I enjoy it now as an alternative to shows that are supposed to be spooky. It’s available on Amazon Prime video. (CW: crime, violence, death, sometimes suicide)

Books:

The Long Way To A Small, Angry Planet by Becky Chambers: A very Queer space adventure. It’s similar to firefly in concept, but without all of the darkness and evil and sudden but inevitable betrayal. Also I just really need it to become a fandom so I can waste more time on this site.

Turtles All The Way Down by John Green : I’ll admit, I’m not the biggest John Green fan, and while this is not my favorite book of all time or anything, I really appreciated its portrayal of OCD and anxiety in a very real, but not over-dramatized way.

If At Birth You Don’t Succeed by Zach Anner : A very funny memoir about life with a disability that is very encouraging without being a self-help book.

I’m A Stranger Here Myself by Bill Bryson: observations on American life by a dude who has lived in England most of his life. I blame this book for my Dad humor.

Twitter Accounts:

Thoughts Of Dog : it is the thoughts of a dog. and his adventures with his human. and his stuffed fren sebastian. his feets. are a tippy-tappin.

Lin-Manuel Miranda: He wrote Hamilton. He also writes good morning and goodnight tweets that are very encouraging. They have also now been adapted into a book called GMorning, GNight!

Apps To Play While You Panic:

Gerrymander: a game where you literally just gerrymander voting districts. In a very satisfying, though morally reprehensible way.

Amazing Katamari Damacy: Basically an app version of Katamari Damacy, where ur a lil space dude who rolls stuff into a big ball so ur dad can turn it into a planet. Or something.

I Love Hue: a game where you sort jumbled-up colored squares to make a pleasing gradient. It also plays soothing music and gives you confusing, but very nice compliments when you win. This app literally got me through a panic attack on a train at night in a foreign country, which is about the highest marks I can give anything.

Go forth and fight ur brain goblins with a sword.

#podcasts #mbmbam #taz #danandphilgames #gmm #wonderful!#john mulaney #gbbo #lin manuel miranda #star trek #dogs #mental health #for when you are sad #for when you are anxious

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martyfromtheparty · 6 years

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god im shook!!!! long post/ramble

words cant really explain how i feel about that episode it was so much and now i have a headache

but im gonna try and organize my thoughts here

-Ham getting a life coach to plan moving to france

-on the topic of moving, buffY BABY NOOOO

this is such an important story line too. you can feel the stress of her hoping her mom stays as well as moving away. Sofia Wylie is such a great actor, why cant i be her

also, her and tj?? im hoping they can work this out and tj can fuckin chill

-as for cyrus, (it is his bar mitzvah!!!!!), a whole lot was going on and im proud of him. he looked so wholesome and happy i love my sweet baby boy

you could feel the love radiating off of him and i love it!!! the scene where he told andi he liked jonah too was just so 💕💕💕

like “shes not getting it,,,”

gOD I LOVE IT

i love seeing him being supported and him supporting his friends its so pure

-andi had a wild roller coastER RIDE TONIGHT BOIS

it’s definitely such a sign of middle school to have an infatuation with people and its nice that theyre showing how complicated it is i liked that. her and walker are so cute !! dont know if i ship them, i dont usually get into shipping but they have a nice little dynamic and hes super sweet. also darius is finE AS HELL (im still 15 dont get ur knickers in a bunch)

andi and bex both saying um? nice move terri

i dont think she should say yes to jonah just yet. She made it clear she’s moving on, plus i think he could stand a little time to think,

-speaking of bex, hOooOoOoOoo yESaFgdg

her and bowie are giving me slow burn vibes, im really glad theyre taking their time. Universe says: hell yeaH

although i do still think theyre throwing away bex and miranda’s chemistry, it was so good when they first met

that note bowie wrote had me crying in the club,,,

-TJ’s apology??? i dont know. TJ is making me feel weird because of all the Tyrus going around. Yall wasted no time on that one lmao

but he’s in denial about his disability. I really hope he’s able to work with buffy on this.

Also, I totally thought he was gonna give buffy shit for dropping the ball over her mom . he is human!!

-speaking of “omg hes human!!” moments JONAH FUCKING HERCULES BECK AM I RIGHT

you already know what the HECK IS UP BOIS

its not that im happy jonah had a panic attack, but its that im lying i am very happy because we finally see some depth!!!! As soon as I saw that camera technique i knew it was a panic attack and immediately related, but i didnt think they were actually going to start talking about it like it was a panic attack!!! This was so important for me, for other kids watching, and for character development. Props to Andi Mack for continuing to be a wonderful step forward in children’s television. It’s so important mentioning his anxiety, especially being left alone. When he begged him not to leave him alone? heart wrenching and relatable, oofed me up

we’re finally seeing him imperfect and i am ready for the love and support squad

also,, the back pat @ cyrus i could hear my boys heart screaming from here

-who is gabriel

-why isnt marty at the party :( come bacc

also just another service we provide,,,,,

not good that they left it open with buffy like that wheres the closure

Anyways. Sorry for the long post but that was a lot to process. I don’t think i can wrap my head around you guys’ theories on what happens next!! But I guess I have time, since we have to wait until June. God i love this show pls comment/rb/send an ask or message so i can see what you think too, im shook

#if anyone gave the time to read this shit lmao #i need sleep wtf!!!!#andi mack #bash mitzvah #long post #mine #jonah beck #jonah beck support team #buffy driscoll #tj kippen #im not tagging everyone #ALSO BOWIE IS FINE AS HELL TOO UMM #my stuff?

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However it happens, it starts with putting yourself out there and hitting the Enter key. Leading up, there are several little moments on the forum, and out of the sea of usernames, a few start to stick in your memory. Eventually, you begin to keep track of their posts.

It takes months, but you realize that you’re forming a picture of a few of the users. One usually shows up in the middle of the night, active for a few hours before disappearing again. You wonder if they have insomnia, or if they live out of the country. Curious one night, you search for other posts they’ve made, digging for clues, cultural references, anything that could give you an answer. It occurs to you that someone could be researching you at that very moment, and your fingers pause above the keys. Is this creepy? Are you crossing a line? You’re ten pages deep in their old posts, though, so any wisdom from this realization is too little, too late.

You start edging into the conversation around them. It’s a fine line that you’re completely anxious of: you want them to notice you, but you don’t want to be a bother. You play with the idea of a direct message, but without any sort of context or post to reference, it feels way too vulnerable. Better not. Besides, what if they turn out to be a completely obnoxious person, or a bigot, or they reveal that they love Ayn Rand, like, on a deep and cellular level? Can you deal with that? (Memories of reading The Fountainhead for a lit class in high school may scar you a little more than you want to admit. Your instructor clearly had some sort of expectation about that book when he assigned it, but whatever it was, you cannot imagine.)

(You post something about this lit class, and Ayn Rand, and spend a few hours commiserating with most of the replies. One Rand supporter sneaks in and questions if you really absorbed the piece, and you find yourself disabling comments because the ensuing brawl is cluttering up your inbox.)

A few weeks pass, and suddenly there’s a note in your inbox, and that familiar username is behind it:

One new message from snaplolcat01:

saw ur post on ayn rand.. the comments were a trip and i read every single one. really glad no one made ME read anything by her

There’s a little flutter of validation in your chest, and you eagerly type back a response:

Haha, yeah, the comments got way out of hand, I should have known what I was doing when I posted that. Yah, your lucky. There are a couple scenes I just CANNOT unread. If you want my advice, stay FAR AWAY from those books. *you’re (ugh, first impressions, and that happens)

A few minutes pass without a response, and you shrug it off and click away from your inbox. As you scroll and tap and read and respond, you have a little, vague smile on your face. Being noticed is always nice. Communication is slow but constant over the next few days, whenever you find yourself near your computer and with some free time. They never seem to be on at the same time you are, but usually, you find a new response from them. You tiptoe around each other, keeping the talk to whatever latest drama is happening in some section of the forums, but you carefully reveal small pieces of yourself, and the conversation branches to news and politics, movies, and one day, when your schedules seem suddenly to overlap, favorite childhood cereals.

It’s been months, you realize, since that first introduction, and your talks would fill several dozens of pages at this point. For the most part, they still respond while you’re asleep, and one day, you say, “You’re always up so late, you must be on a different timezone than me.”

You’re up late that night, working on an essay, when one of your open tabs chimes at you. You glance up and click through, and in your inbox find:

haha, well idk what ur schedule is but im only able to get on after school and work i usually read stuff here til i fall asleep

The essay can wait.

Oh, gotcha What are you studying

The picture in your head starts to flesh out just a bit more. You find out that you two have a mutual interest in biology, though you’re in a pre-med track and intending to go into law school, while they’re doubling with computer science and interested in how this all ties in with genetics. They’re balancing a few restaurant jobs as well as a position grading for one of the professors in their department. You can sympathize with the lack of available time; you’re supposed to be writing an essay right now, after all.

oh dude i dont wanna distract u!!!

No, you’re fine! I need a break anyway, my brain feels like cement

The process of sharing is natural, sometimes abundant and sometimes halts, but never feels forced. The person behind the pixels seems as flesh and blood as anyone you know “in real life”, though you’re forced to confront your growing disillusionment with that phrase. You’d scoffed at a friend in high school who had had an internet girlfriend, asking how the relationship could be real if you’d never seen them in person. The internet had been a barrier back then, and while intellectually it made sense that there was a human being on the other end of the Ethernet cord, it was like watching shadow theater play out behind a scrim. It had never made sense that someone could fall in love with what you only saw as black and white pixels on a screen.

More and more, however, you’re forced to accept that you know more about this person than you do about many of the people you see on a day to day basis.

****

This might be a bit weird but go with me on this

yeah?

SO I’ve never ever seen you in real life, but it’s so weird that I know more about you than the girl in my cell bio class that I’ve been crushing on and I see her for actual hours a day And I don’t know a damn thing about her We braethe the same air *breathe

it’s wild dude i know whatu mea n (sorry long day, typing sucks haha) one of my tas was talking bout th is at a party (she was hella stoned, fukin wild XD) going on about global societies an d how we as like a people could connect so mjuch faster to somenoe acoss the globe easier than th people we see evry day somthing about a keyboard makes it easier ^^^her exact words

Whoa

i know rt? maybs if bio girl gave u her fb u two wopuld talk fuck dude i gott slep i kno my typing sucks but this is embararasing *embasrasing FUCK

HAhahahaha, no worries I should get going too (though I wanna hear more about this TA) (I never run into any of my profs or anything at parties)

haha highly recomend, its an EXPIERENCE cya dude

This idea of global society sticks with you, and their TA’s comment about keyboards. A keyboard offers a backspace key, and a way to edit yourself. You’ve said plenty of dumb shit on the internet before without necessarily stopping to think through the consequences, but then it occurs to you that at the start of this whole friendship, you’d sometimes gone through ten variations of the same two-sentence message before finally deciding to send it. It was a series of self-edits and careful selection of which parts of yourself you’d wanted seen. Just like real life.

There was comfort in the distance, though. Without a person in front of you, and with the limitless communication offered by a message sitting in your inbox, you couldn’t see reactions -- or judgment. This correspondence held more personal information about yourself than some of your in-person friends knew.

****

So I got Maya’s facebook page We’ve been talking, and we’re going to get drinks this weekend, maybe see a movie if there’s anything good out

YAY! thats awesome1!!

Thanks! :) If we hadn’t talked about global societies and stuff a few nights ago I dunno if I would’ve gotten up the courage to talk to her. Your advice for talking via computer made it soooo much easier.

so ur saying im resopnsible for this new relationship? *responsible ur welcome ;)

Drinks go fantastically, and you and Maya decide to forgo the movie and head back to her place. When you finally make it back to your computer, there are a few frantic, nosy messages.

HOWZ THE DATE cmon dude im dying to kno

i can only assume ur havn massive amounts of sex rn and im v happy for u but i need to know

r u alive????

You can’t keep the smile from your face, and you start to type out a response. Maya hadn’t thought it strange at all that you had an internet friend who had pushed you to finally ask her out. She’d even teased you, “Make sure to brag about me to your buddy.” The memory of that, her lips grazing your skin and her breath tickling your ear, raises goosebumps, and you shiver just a little bit. Some things just can’t be replicated over the internet, you decide, but friendship doesn’t seem to lack.

#cryptids #internet cryptids #of-themysciraa

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