Hiii! :D I LOVE your writing!! Every day I come home from work I go to your blog to read if there is a new story🌟 I don't know if you're taking request; i would like to make a request about Frank Benson (Eye in the sky) x reader I haven't read anything about him 🥲 and I would like if you could do something fluffly❤️🩹 with smut💥 maybe like something about him being married to the reader and coming home after a bad day at work and he just needs to be in control and some release🔥and then the reader being comforting💖🫶
I don't know if that makes sense🙈
Title: In control
Summary: He wanted to be in control and you gave him control.
Pairing: Frank Benson × Fem! Reader
Warnings: Smut, foul language and fluffy.
Author's Notes: Hey there! Thanks a ton for the love and support! Your dedication to checking out my blog every day seriously warms my heart! 🌟 As for your request about Frank Benson from "Eye in the Sky," I'm all ears! 😎 Your idea sounds like a rollercoaster of emotions, from fluffy to smutty to comforting—it's a wild ride! 🎢 And don't worry, even if it sounds a bit wild, it totally makes sense! 🙃 I've whipped up something I hope you'll enjoy! As for Alan Rickman in that military uniform, oh boy, does he look like a sin! 😏🔥
As Frank stepped through the threshold of his home, his shoulders slumped with the weight of the day's burdens. The familiar scent of home greeted him, a comforting reminder of the sanctuary that awaited him within these walls. Yet, even as he longed for the solace of his haven, the remnants of his stressful day clung to him like a suffocating shroud.
His brow furrowed in frustration as he struggled with the keys, his fingers fumbling with the metal implements in a futile attempt to unlock the door. With a muttered curse, he finally managed to coax the stubborn lock into submission, the satisfying click of the mechanism echoing in the stillness of the evening.
"Darling, I'm home," Frank called out, his voice a weary rasp as he pushed open the door and stepped inside.
As you heard Frank's weary voice calling out from the hallway, you quickly turned off the stove and removed the pan from the fire, setting it aside. With practiced ease, you slipped off your apron and made your way to where Frank stood, struggling with his uniform.
Seeing him wrestle with the buttons of his military coat, you couldn't help but feel a pang of sympathy for the man you loved. His gray hair was slightly disheveled, and the furrow in his brow spoke volumes about the weight of the burdens he carried.
"Hey there, soldier," you said softly, stepping closer to him and placing a gentle hand on his arm. "Rough day?"
Frank let out a frustrated groan, his shoulders sagging even further under the weight of his troubles. "Everything's gone to hell today," he muttered, his voice tinged with exhaustion. "I can't seem to catch a break."
You listened patiently as he vented his frustrations, offering him a sympathetic ear as he unburdened himself of the events that had unfolded throughout the day. His words painted a picture of chaos and uncertainty, a world where everything seemed to be spiraling out of control.
With a heavy sigh, Frank finally paused, his eyes meeting yours with a mixture of weariness and longing. "I just... I need to feel like I'm in control," he admitted, his voice a low rumble that sent shivers down your spine.
In that moment, you knew exactly what he needed—to let go of the burdens of the day and be comforted by you. With a gentle glint in your eyes, you reached for the buttons of his uniform coat, your fingers deftly working to release them one by one.
As his coat fell to the floor, revealing the holsters of his gun beneath, Frank pulled you close, his hands roaming over your body with a hunger that left you breathless. You stumbled against him, the heat of his touch searing through you like wildfire as he pressed his lips to yours in a fierce, desperate kiss.
As the passionate kiss finally broke, you took your husband's hand, leading him to the bedroom with a sense of purpose. Frank followed, his steps heavy with the weight of the day's burdens.
Entering the bedroom, Frank began the familiar ritual of putting away his weapons, his movements precise and practiced. The holsters of his gun were set aside with care, each motion a testament to his disciplined nature.
But as he turned to undo his tie and the buttons on his shirt, you sat on the bed, watching him with a mixture of admiration and longing. Frank noticed your gaze and paused, his brow furrowing with concern.
"What is it, darling?" he asked, his voice tinged with worry.
You shook your head, a playful smile playing on your lips. "Nothing, love," you reassured him. "Just enjoying the view."
Frank's expression softened, a hint of amusement flickering in his brown eyes. "Flatterer," he teased, his voice a low rumble that sent shivers down your spine.
As Frank continued to undress, you couldn't help but notice the frustration still lingering in his demeanor. His movements were stiff and mechanical, a stark contrast to the controlled precision he usually exhibited. It was clear that the events of the day had taken a toll on him, weighing heavily on his shoulders like an oppressive burden.
You watched him silently, your heart aching with the desire to ease his troubles and bring him the comfort he so desperately needed. But as he paused halfway through undoing his wristwatch, his gaze meeting yours with a hint of uncertainty, you realized that perhaps what he needed most was not your comfort, but your submission.
You stood up, approaching him with purpose in your stride. With a gentle touch, you reached out to caress his cheek, your fingers trailing lightly along his stubbled jawline. "Let me take care of you, Frank," you whispered, your voice a soothing melody that washed over him like a warm embrace.
Frank's brown eyes softened at your words, a flicker of vulnerability shining through the steely mask he wore. He nodded wordlessly, a silent acknowledgment of the trust you placed in him as he stepped back, allowing you to take the lead.
With a sense of purpose, you reached for the buttons of your own blouse, your movements deliberate and unhurried. Frank watched you intently, his gaze filled with a mixture of desire and anticipation as you revealed the curves of your body inch by inch.
As the fabric fell away, pooling at your feet in a heap of discarded clothing, you stood naked before him, your skin flushed with anticipation. Frank's eyes roamed hungrily over your exposed form, his breath coming in ragged gasps as he took in the sight of you.
With a seductive smile, you dropped to your knees before him, your hands trailing lightly along his thighs as you looked up at him with adoration. "I'm yours to command, Frank," you murmured, your voice a husky whisper that sent shivers down his spine.
Frank's chest swelled with pride at your submissive gesture, his arousal evident in the bulge that strained against the fabric of his trousers. With a confident smirk, he reached down to undo his belt, the sound of leather sliding through metal sending a thrill of anticipation coursing through you.
As his pants and underwear fell to the floor in a heap, Frank stepped out of them with practiced ease, his arousal standing proudly at attention. He approached you slowly, his eyes never leaving yours as he reached out to pinch one of your breasts, making you moan softly in response.
With a hungry glint in his eyes, Frank caressed himself lightly, the sight of your kneeling form before him sending a surge of desire coursing through his veins. "You look so beautiful like this, my love," he murmured, his voice a low growl that made your heart race.
But even as desire threatened to consume him, Frank remained in control, his gaze unwavering as he issued his command. "Open your mouth for me, darling," he ordered, his voice tinged with authority. "I want to fuck that pretty mouth of yours today."
Eager to please your authoritarian husband, you obeyed without hesitation, parting your lips to accommodate him. Frank's arousal throbbed with anticipation as he positioned himself before you, his hands gripping your hair firmly as he guided himself to your waiting mouth.
With a sense of reverence, you took him in, your lips wrapping around his length as you began to suckle gently. Frank groaned in pleasure, his hips rocking forward as he buried himself deeper in your mouth, the heat of your tongue sending bolts of ecstasy coursing through him.
Lost in the rhythm of your movements, Frank's control began to slip, his breath coming in ragged gasps as he surrendered to the pleasure you offered. But even as his arousal threatened to overwhelm him, he remained mindful of your boundaries, his touch gentle and considerate as he guided you with a firm hand.
"Tell me if you want me to stop, darling," Frank murmured between ragged breaths, his voice thick with desire. "Just give my thigh a little tap, and I'll pull back, okay?"
You nodded in understanding, the sound muffled by the thickness of him in your mouth. With each passing moment, you felt yourself growing more intoxicated by the taste of him, the heady scent of his arousal filling your senses until you were lost in a haze of desire.
As Frank's arousal reached its peak, he couldn't hold back any longer. The controlled, disciplined soldier he once was faded away, replaced by a primal, insatiable hunger that consumed him from within. With a low growl of desire, he began to thrust into your mouth with increasing urgency, his movements rough and relentless.
Each thrust sent waves of pleasure coursing through you, the heady mix of pain and ecstasy driving you to new heights of arousal. Frank's grip on your hair tightened, his fingers digging into your scalp as he used you for his pleasure, his baritone voice a symphony of sinful promises that sent shivers down your spine.
"Such a good little cocksucker, aren't you?" Frank purred, his voice thick with lust as he rocked his hips against your mouth. "Taking me like the obedient little slut you are."
His words sent a surge of heat pooling between your thighs, your own arousal building with each passing moment. You moaned around him, the vibrations sending Frank over the edge as he let out a guttural groan of pleasure.
But just as he felt himself on the verge of climax, Frank forced himself to pull back, his hand gently urging you to release him from your mouth. He groaned in frustration as he watched you obey, a thin sheen of sweat glistening on his brow as he struggled to regain his composure.
"Fuck, my little slut," he gasped, his voice thick with desire. "You're incredible at that. But I'm craving something more. Turn around and grip the edge of the bed for me; I need to be inside you now."
You nodded obediently, eager to please your dominant husband as you reached out to grasp the edge of the bedframe. As Frank fell to his knees behind you, you couldn't help but protest about his knees, but before you could voice your concern, he silenced you with a sharp slap to your ass.
The sudden sting made you gasp in surprise, a mixture of pain and pleasure coursing through you as Frank's calloused hand connected with your flesh. He caressed the spot he hit, his touch both soothing and electrifying as he leaned in close to whisper in your ear.
"Don't worry about me, darling," Frank said, his voice dripping with authority. "I'm in control here, and I know exactly what I want."
With a sense of anticipation, you held onto the edge of the bed, your heart pounding in your chest as Frank's hands roamed over your body. His touch was electric, igniting a fire within you that burned hotter with each passing moment.
As Frank positioned himself behind you, you braced yourself for what was to come, your body trembling with excitement. But before you could prepare yourself, Frank slapped your ass again, making you cry out in surprise at the sudden blow.
"None of that, love," Frank chided, his voice firm but tinged with amusement. "You know better than to speak out of turn."
You bit your lip to stifle a whimper, your arousal building with each slap of Frank's hand against your flesh. Despite the sting of pain, you found yourself craving more, eager to surrender yourself completely to his dominant touch.
With a mischievous glint in his eyes, Frank playfully tugged your hair and brought his mouth close to your ear. "You enjoy that, don't you, my dear?" he whispered huskily, his voice carrying a commanding tone.
You whimpered in response, your body trembling with desire as Frank's words sent shivers down your spine. "Yes, sir," you gasped, your voice thick with need. "I love it when you take control."
A satisfied smirk spread across Frank's lips as he leaned in close, his breath hot against your ear. "Good," he whispered, his voice a husky rasp that made your pulse quicken. "Because tonight, I'm going to make you scream my name until you can't think of anything else."
With that, Frank's hand trailed down your spine, sending sparks of electricity dancing along your skin. You arched your back in anticipation, offering yourself up to him completely as he teased you with his touch.
As his fingers dipped lower, trailing along the curve of your ass, you couldn't help but moan in pleasure. Frank's touch was electric, igniting a fire within you that threatened to consume you whole.
With a sense of purpose, Frank reached between your legs, his fingers finding your slick heat with ease. You gasped in pleasure as he teased your folds, his touch sending waves of ecstasy crashing over you.
"Look at you, so wet and ready for me," Frank murmured, his voice thick with desire. "You're going to take everything I give you, aren't you, my little whore?"
You nodded eagerly, your breath coming in ragged gasps as Frank's fingers delved deeper, exploring every inch of your trembling body. You were his to command, his to please, and you relished in the knowledge that he would take you to heights of pleasure you had never imagined possible.
As Frank's fingers teased your slick heat, you let out a low moan of pleasure, your body arching instinctively into his touch. The sensation was electric, sending waves of ecstasy coursing through you as he explored every inch of your trembling body.
"God, Frank," you gasped, your voice thick with desire. "Please, I need you."
Frank's brown eyes darkened with desire as he leaned in close, his breath hot against your ear. "You're going to get everything you want, my little slut," he whispered, his voice a low growl that sent shivers down your spine. "But you have to beg for it."
Without hesitation, you nodded eagerly, your arousal reaching a fever pitch as you pleaded with him. "Please, Frank," you whimpered, your voice desperate and needy. "I need you inside me, now."
A satisfied smirk spread across Frank's lips as he positioned himself behind you, his arousal pressing against your slick folds. "That's it, darling," he murmured, his voice thick with desire. "Beg for my cock like the filthy whore you are."
With a sense of urgency, you pushed back against him, your body trembling with anticipation as you felt the tip of him teasing your entrance. "Please, Frank," you begged, your voice a desperate plea. "I need you to fuck me, now."
Without warning, Frank thrust into you with one swift motion, filling you completely as he buried himself deep inside your throbbing heat. You cried out in pleasure, your body trembling with ecstasy as he began to move, his thrusts slow and deliberate.
"That's it, my dear" Frank growled, his voice thick with desire. "Take my cock like the filthy whore you are."
With each thrust, Frank's control slipped further, his movements growing faster and more desperate as he surrendered to the pleasure of being inside you. You met him thrust for thrust, your bodies moving in perfect harmony as you chased your release together.
"Fuck, Frank!" you moaned, your voice thick with desire. "I'm coming, I'm coming!"
The sound of your voice sent a jolt of arousal coursing through Frank's veins, his arousal peaking as he felt your walls clench around him in a tight embrace. With a primal growl, he thrust into you one final time, sending you both hurtling over the edge into a sea of ecstasy.
As the waves of pleasure washed over you, you cried out Frank's name like a prayer, your voice echoing in the stillness of the room. Frank's release followed soon after, his body trembling with the force of his climax as he emptied himself inside you with a guttural groan of satisfaction.
For a moment, the world fell away, leaving only the two of you entwined in a blissful embrace. With each ragged breath, you felt the weight of the day's burdens melt away, replaced by a sense of contentment and fulfillment that only Frank could provide.
After reaching the pinnacle of pleasure together, Frank withdrew from you, his body trembling with the remnants of his climax. Slowly, he stood up, feeling the ache in his knees that he chose to ignore for the moment. With a gentle tug, he pulled you to bed, wrapping you in his strong embrace.
As he held you close, Frank's chest swelled with a sense of gratitude and affection. "Thank you, my love," he murmured, his voice a low rumble that sent shivers down your spine. "For giving me control today."
You smiled softly, running your fingers through his gray hair as you leaned in to press a tender kiss against his lips. "Anything for you, Frank," you whispered, your voice filled with love and devotion. "You know I'll always give you whatever you want."
Frank's brown eyes twinkled with amusement as he pulled back to gaze at you, a playful glint dancing in his eyes. "Well, my dear, in that case, get ready for the next round," he teased, a smirk playing on his lips.
You chuckled, a mischievous twinkle in your eyes as you playfully pushed him. "Oh, I'm always ready," you replied, your voice laced with anticipation. "But are you up for it, old man?"
Frank feigned exasperation, shaking his head with mock indignation. "Ah, the audacity of a woman," he exclaimed, his baritone voice filled with amusement. "Give me a minute, or perhaps ten. The refractory period is shit at my age."
You grinned, leaning in to kiss him once more. "I know, darling," you said softly, stroking his chin affectionately. "But I miss the times when we were young and had sex all night."
Frank's smile softened, a hint of nostalgia flickering in his brown eyes as he pulled you closer to him. "Those were the days, weren't they?" he murmured, his voice tinged with longing. "But even now, with age catching up to us, I wouldn't trade this moment for anything in the world."
You snuggled against him, feeling the warmth of his embrace enveloping you like a cocoon. "Me neither, Frank," you whispered, pressing a tender kiss against his cheek. "As long as I have you by my side, I have everything I need."
Your words trailed off as Frank's stomach let out a loud growl, prompting a blush to spread across his cheeks. He chuckled softly, a hint of embarrassment coloring his expression as he realized his hunger. "I guess I've worked up an appetite," he said sheepishly, his deep voice tinged with amusement.
You smiled warmly at him, the affection in your gaze evident as you got out of bed and wrapped yourself in a cozy robe. "Don't worry, darling," you reassured him, your voice gentle and soothing. "I'll have dinner ready for you in no time."
Frank nodded gratefully, feeling a sense of comfort wash over him as you took charge of the situation. With a contented sigh, he settled back into bed, the soft sheets enveloping him like a warm embrace.
As you left the bedroom to prepare dinner, Frank couldn't help but admire the way you effortlessly took care of him. Your love and devotion were evident in every gesture, and he felt a surge of gratitude for having you by his side.
With a sense of purpose, Frank made his way to the bathroom, his steps heavy with exhaustion. The warm water of the shower beckoned to him, offering a brief respite from the stresses of the day.
As he stepped into the shower, the hot water cascading over his weary body, Frank felt the tension begin to melt away. He closed his eyes, allowing himself to bask in the warmth and comfort of the moment, relishing the sensation of being cleansed both physically and mentally.
With practiced efficiency, Frank washed away the grime of the day, the steam of the shower enveloping him like a soothing blanket. The rhythmic sound of the water against the tiles echoed in the small space, a steady cadence that matched the beat of his heart.
As he lathered soap over his body, Frank couldn't help but reflect on the events of the day. It had been a challenging one, filled with difficult decisions and unexpected obstacles. But in the midst of it all, he found solace in the knowledge that he had you waiting for him at home, ready to offer him the love and support he so desperately needed.
With a sense of determination, Frank resolved to leave the worries of the day behind him, focusing instead on the simple pleasure of being present in the moment. The warm water of the shower was a soothing balm to his weary soul, washing away the remnants of stress and tension until all that remained was a sense of peace and contentment.
After thoroughly enjoying the rejuvenating shower, Frank emerged from the bathroom feeling refreshed and revitalized. He quickly dried himself off and dressed in fresh clothes, the weight of the day's burdens lifting from his shoulders with each passing moment.
As he made his way to the kitchen, the tantalizing aroma of dinner wafted through the air, filling him with anticipation. He found you standing by the stove, a look of concentration on your face as you put the finishing touches on the meal.
"Smells amazing," Frank commented, his voice filled with appreciation as he wrapped his arms around you from behind, pressing a tender kiss to your cheek.
You chuckled softly, leaning into his embrace as you stirred the pot on the stove. "I'm glad you think so, darling," you replied, your voice warm and affectionate. "I made your favorite."
Frank's eyes sparkled with delight as he caught sight of the meal you had prepared. "You spoil me," he teased, a hint of mischief in his voice as he took a seat at the table.
You smiled fondly at him, the love in your gaze shining brightly as you served him a generous portion of the delicious meal. "You deserve it," you said softly, your voice filled with sincerity. "After the day you've had, you deserve a little pampering."
Frank's heart swelled with gratitude as he took a bite of the food, savoring the familiar flavors that reminded him of home. With each mouthful, he felt a sense of warmth and comfort wash over him, filling him with a sense of contentment that he hadn't felt in days.
As you watched him eat, a sense of satisfaction filled you, knowing that you had brought him the comfort and nourishment he so desperately needed. In that moment, there was no greater joy than seeing him happy and at ease, his troubles forgotten in the simple pleasure of a home-cooked meal and the warmth of your love.
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Slaggie & Sick Kids & Sylke (pt.1)
Sylvie: Went in that group chat for the first time today
Maggie: How was it?
Sylvie: 😬😑🙃
Sylvie: Like, they were trying to normalise it so much it made me feel even weirder?
Maggie: That’s not the move, do I know what the move is, nah, but I know it ain’t theirs they were pulling 👀
Sylvie: I know, I can’t turn around and tell them to hate their lives and be depressed as I am but
Sylvie: it was just awkward, before I even get to the real Dublin of it all
Maggie: Paint it black, lads, soz tryhards never win 🖤🥀💀 everyone’s got their shite, what’s pretending it ain’t sometimes sad to do?
Sylvie: They weren’t all ☀️ & 🌈 but it was sanitised, like some doctor or therapist would log in any second and tell us off
Maggie: Point on the doll where your invisible disability is
Sylvie: Fair though, speaking of trauma
Sylvie: Guess who’s ex was in there?
Maggie: [just throwing out wild possibilities of peeps they know]
Sylvie: You’ll literally never get it
Sylvie: think 😢🥀📹💔
Maggie: Not my niece!
Maggie: Jesus, Mary and Joseph, heard it all now
Sylvie: Not Bobby, as that would actually make sense
Sylvie: Guess he was mining misery for his songs, or whatever
Maggie: Jacob, Jacob, Jacob
Maggie: well I never
Sylvie: Small 🌍
Maggie: It’s confidential, yeah? You can’t tell us why he’s in
Sylvie: Sounds like prison
Sylvie: but no, probably shouldn’t, unless I find out he’s let slip about me, game over then, obvs
Maggie: 🧦🎱🧼🧱 prison rules for snitches and what they get
Sylvie: Much as you’d LOVE to flex your auntie status
Sylvie: he wasn’t as entirely obnoxious as he usually is
Maggie: Tiny Tim effect, don’t fall for it
Sylvie: You’re never saying that poor crippled wee 🐸 was a menace
Maggie: I’ll saying Jacob there’ll play you like a wee fiddle as if he’s all 🥺💔🤕🦽 he’s a lad, is he, no?
Maggie: remember when [a boy] fell down the mountain for my attention
Sylvie: What for? He has the loyalest 🐶 he can get, he’s not chancing that
Maggie: He’d have himself a pack if he could get away with it, we all of us know that to be true
Sylvie: It was a steep hill at best, let’s not get carried away
Maggie: To be sure it took the piss is the point
Sylvie: We’re all of us knowing that the playing was mutual, whatever love square they had going on there, can only put 1/4th of the blame on his shoulders
Maggie: Careful how you go back in, that’s all
Maggie: Are you?
Sylvie: I don’t know
Sylvie: I mean, I wasn’t expecting a cure but did it help talking to any of them?
Maggie: 1 strike and you’re out’s not the game though
Maggie: you’ve to give it best of 3, at least, come on now
Sylvie: I am 🖤🥀💀 and 🥺💔🤕🦽 if you recall
Sylvie: Couldn’t we just give you some vaguely life-threatening illness and call it a day instead
Maggie: I could go undercover to hold your hand, like, but it feels villain era to fake being on death’s door even for the good
Sylvie: The shame if you got caught 😶
Maggie: Well, I’d not, away with yous for suggesting such a thing! But still, bigger picture, I don’t think you really need my help
Maggie: Whos are they anyway? It’s nothing you can’t hack
Sylvie: You are REALLY subtle, famously so
Sylvie: They just made us feel like I was in my villain era, how nice and positive they all were
Maggie: I know they did, and I’m raging
Maggie: Do you want to 🥚🥚🥚 [the most overly positive person they know IRL whether that’s a teacher or a doctor or what]’s house about it?
Sylvie: Maybe
Sylvie: Definitely
Maggie: We’ve 🥚🥚🥚 in abundance and as it’s more eco than 🧻🧻 I’m calling the thing mammy sanctioned
Sylvie: I have no doubt she would
Sylvie: even if I wasn’t very ✌️ & 💚 with ‘em
Maggie: Ah patience of a saint compared to me, you and her both
Maggie: I’ve my daddy to thank for my none
Sylvie: It’s pretty overrated, even as virtues go
Sylvie: when do you reckon Bobby and Libi will get together then?
Maggie: Can’t be rushed or I would’ve
Sylvie: 🙄 that’s not patience that’s penance
Maggie: Tell me about it
Maggie: I’ll be how many men down and babies out before she’s her act together?
Sylvie: You terrify me
Sylvie: and if you start as early as your mammy, I’ll have to kill you, sorry
Maggie: Up to 🙏⛪️
Sylvie: I’m serious, I’ll make you come to the convent with me
Maggie: It’s yeah to a girl’s trip whenever and wherever but you don’t have the need to be taking yourself off to no 🐧🏠
Sylvie: Your daddy would sanction that one
Maggie: My daddy knows a 🎣 when he sees one and you still are
Maggie: so unless this is you saying you want to go in to come out 🏳️🌈🥳 it’s a nah from me
Sylvie: FINE 😣😖😤
Sylvie: I’ll keep myself pure on the outside
Maggie: On God, thanks for that one, sir, cos I love all my queers but it’s lonely being one of the onlys on the het heap
Sylvie: Straight rights
Maggie: I can’t be the only holy show in the village, sometimes my back hurts from carrying all these mistakes aka boys about the place
Sylvie: I only wish I could help you in your crusade
Maggie: You could, who’s stopping you? Cos a doctor’s overstepping the mark and being dead inappropriate if they are, like 😬
Sylvie: Verging into nazi territory
Sylvie: you know why though, shh
Maggie: I have the knowing that you’re beautiful just like your ma
Maggie: and [someone]’s after going out with you, as he should be
Sylvie: Absolutely not 🙅♀️
Maggie: You’re making this into a thing ™️ when it’s no need to be
Maggie: you’re scared, I know, but fears are to be faced or they fuck yous up 🐯🥊🦁🥊
Sylvie: I don’t need to be facing it now, I can’t, when there’s all this… shit
Maggie: I’ll be there with you, it won’t be the group chat
Maggie: and by 💋🐸 you’ll get out your head thinking you’ve been cursed
Sylvie: Just not Tiny Tim, is it 🚫💋🐸 FINE
Sylvie: and NOT [this person, whoever you may be lmao] for real
Sylvie: We can go [to whatever cool kid event Jake asked if she was going to]
Maggie: And not tonight, you’ve had a day of it already
Maggie: but I can do [this event]
Sylvie: Who are we going to see when we’re 🥚🥚🥚 [this poor person’s] gaff, absolutely no rides, is who
Maggie: A challenge you’re giving us, is it?
Sylvie: No, good looking lads are too arrogant
Maggie: @ Jacob Cohen who you want to 💋🐸 all the same
Sylvie: Oh please
Sylvie: That girl kills her personality to get a fraction of his attention, it’s so sad
Maggie: I’d kill you if you did that, make no mistake
Sylvie: Good thing it’s never going to happen 😘
Sylvie: I couldn’t if I tried
Maggie: She said, personality TOO big, and she’s not wrong
Sylvie: It’s genetic
Maggie: But maybe I’m to rescue his girlfriend, it’s what mammy would do
Sylvie: I don’t see how?
Sylvie: trying to steal her man has already been attempted and that was an utter fail
Maggie: The power of real mates who don’t ditch her on his say so?
Sylvie: Okay little miss ☀️ & 🌈
Sylvie: giving my little pony
Sylvie: IDK, maybe she’s happier being boring and on his arm
Maggie: I’ll report back 🦄✨
Sylvie: You’re going to meddle, aren’t you
Maggie: I need to know if the girl’s been happy a day of her life
Sylvie: Apparently, deliriously so
Maggie: He would say that
Sylvie: You’d have to hope you don’t turn yourself into white bread for less, yeah? 🤷♀️
Maggie: Ooh, you seriously don’t like her
Sylvie: I just think she’s stupid for doing it, she isn’t the only girl to, so no, I don’t have strong feelings either way
Maggie: Okay
Sylvie: I just have opinions, you know this
Maggie: Why you’re my favourite cousin
Sylvie: We’ll pretend it’s not a long list and easy to forget ones off it 😺😺😺😺😺😺😺
Maggie: I’d give you my bowel if I could
Sylvie: When they start taking bits away, we’ll zombie some of yours in, shall we
Sylvie: 💛💛💛
Maggie: IF they start
Sylvie: Right, if
Maggie: It could be alright, we don’t know yet ☀️🌈
Sylvie: I’ll get over my emo phase either way
Sylvie: without ruining my hair, remains to be seen
Maggie: I’m not hating your emo phase
Maggie: or that you’re sick in a way that means I don’t have to ruin my hair in solidarity, what worked for Sinead ain’t necessarily working for me
Sylvie: It depends, do you want to look like 👽/your mammy as a baby?
Sylvie: I see it very clearly in my head
Maggie: Us as a baby too, only just grew into my eyes feels like
Sylvie: with your 👀s and my 👄s
Sylvie: giving zombie DIY realness
Maggie: Will we go in fancy dress for the [cool kid event]?
Sylvie: Do you have an idea/want an excuse to shop?
Maggie: Always
Sylvie: It would take my mind off things
Sylvie: plus I’m encouraged to eat like shit now so we can get [a mcdonalds esque moment when you’re in town, you know the vibes]
Maggie: Super recognisable to a certain JC who ain’t my man Jesus or in disguise depending, I’ve idea(s)
Sylvie: Wow, his mammy really said she was gonna remind us Jesus was a Jew, eh
Sylvie: I don’t know if I like where this 💭 is going though…
Maggie: His mam said justice for white Jesus
Maggie: but that boy’s ego don’t need no more encouragement off the comparison, I’ll not be making it again
Sylvie: This isn’t part of your SOS plan, is it?
Maggie: This is all for you, no plan except outfits
Sylvie: And we’ll still look great
Maggie: I’ve missed you what with all the shite happening
Sylvie: Don’t get soppy, okay
Maggie: I’m not my daddy
Sylvie: 😅
Maggie: Bit out of order you’re not saying yous miss me when there’s only us here but ah well
Sylvie: I’m neither my mammy nor my daddy for that, the personality is a throwback obviously
Maggie: You’re nan, emo phase and all
Sylvie: Oh, fabulous
Sylvie: really working overtime to cheer me up, you
Maggie: 🤡🤹♀️🐘🥜🎪
Sylvie: I’m just so glad there’s worse drama right now in the family circus to distract from me being centre of attention
Sylvie: thanks, Janis
Maggie: She did do you that favour
Maggie: and when it blows over I’ll be ready with a new distraction, sure enough
Sylvie: Well she’s free to use it as a reason, my IOU
Sylvie: do you reckon I should tell the teachers, see if it gets me any favours of my own?
Maggie: About time they did something what weren’t 👿
Sylvie: Can they be trusted, is the question
Sylvie: you know what they’re like, Bobby only just got a interpreter
Maggie: We can’t put the blame on ‘em for Libs going above and beyond in the name of obsession
Sylvie: See aforementioned girls, yeah
Maggie: You’ll be the talk of the staff room, but I doubt the goss however juicy’s leaving there
Sylvie: only when it concerns [a juicy scandal like student-teacher relations vibe, even if this is fake news]
Sylvie: 💩 is not that level
Maggie: Right, you’ll be grand
Sylvie: I think [this goody-goodys house] is nearer mine, you best be getting a shift on
Maggie: 🚲🚀
Members List:
gotspoons [Mod] (Rosie, 17, Chronic Fatigue)
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously [Mod] (Rich, 18, Multiple Sclerosis)
brainpain (Lauren, 19, TBI)
tigerbalm (Robyn, 15, Arthritis)
sonmychest (Kara, 13, Cystic Fibrosis)
princemyshkin [New Member!] (Jake, 14, Epilepsy)
ihatemyguts [New Member!] (Sylvie, 14, Ulcerative Colitis)
injectme [New Member!] (‘Denis’,‘14’ = Margot, 12, ‘Diabetes Type 1’)
ihatemyguts: 🚪🙋♀️ Me again… I guess most of you are still at school/uni/work rn but is anyone about?
brainpain: 👀
brainpain: 👃
brainpain: 👅
ihatemyguts: Suitably creepy, well done
ihatemyguts: what are you up to today?
brainpain: 🎮🎧💰
brainpain: welcome back newbie
brainpain: weren’t sure we’d see you again
ihatemyguts: Nice
ihatemyguts: Me either but had the kind of day that only people like us would get so, worth a shot, right?
brainpain: kept me coming back
gotspoons: Me too 😊 then I couldn’t keep away! Hi again, Sylvie 💛
ihatemyguts: It is a good place to hide… that’s how it feels anyway
brainpain: 🥃🍸 who you hiding from? feds or civilians?
ihatemyguts: 🐄🚲😈s, to avoid swearing about them
brainpain: tell your big sis what happened
ihatemyguts: Turns out my ‘rents had to tell the school about my hospital appointments anyway, and some ditzy secretary or someone let slip about my diagnosis
ihatemyguts: this one girl in particular, doing the whole pretending she’s asking lots of questions because she cares and not because she wants to humiliate me bit
ihatemyguts: I’ve walked home, f that
brainpain: fukc that 1 girl in particular
brainpain: what a
brainpain: c u next tues
ihatemyguts: Shouldn’t be surprised, she has form for it
ihatemyguts: the fact that anyone else could be sat there smirking along, or just not doing or saying anything… more disappointing
brainpain: 💩 I had when the news broke about my near death experience
brainpain: this town’s vulture central man
ihatemyguts: Can only imagine, at least my bull💩 isn’t taking up column space
ihatemyguts: I probably should have fronted it out but I don’t have the 🎱⚽️s to do that yet
brainpain: f it
brainpain: yous can front it out the rest of the week
brainpain: take a breather 1st
sonmychest: hey
sonmychest: jk but I was lurking whilst in my own snoozefest of a lesson and I wanna say that girl sounds like the biggest loser, it might hurt but at least you’re cool
brainpain: ^^^ nobodys patting that 🐄🚲😈 on the back
brainpain: shot herself in the face to anyone with half a 🧠
brainpain: showing herself up & whoever the h raised her
sonmychest: ^ It’s NOT cute 😷
ihatemyguts: You’re both right, obviously
ihatemyguts: sound very woe is me to say it’s never been directed at me like that before but it hasn’t and it was a feeling I’m not looking forward to feeling again
brainpain: been there
brainpain: not saying I was the princess of dubo or whatever pre getting my head caved in but like
brainpain: I was doing 👌 no trolls
gotspoons: I’m so sorry, first of all, but the others are right, I’m sure there were people who will take her to task for her nastiness, even if you didn’t witness it in the moment
gotspoons: people viewing you different post illness/injury/etc is rough, I think even more so if you yourself don’t feel any different, or the only difference IS this one small facet of you that’s not their business
ihatemyguts: 🎯👏 Not that I think I’m super hard or something but like, who does she think I am now just because I’m sick
ihatemyguts: should’ve slapped her, you live and you learn, eh?
brainpain: also rough if you’re down on yourself & that comment irl or online validates all the s you were already thinking
brainpain: 👟 her 💀 in she can join us here & we’ll all school her
sonmychest: OMG YES
sonmychest: to the first part… not me enthusiastically endorsing violence 🤪
sonmychest: ‘Skinny’ is not a compliment to me when I can’t gain weight, ugh
brainpain: you know you wanna get involved in the brawl Kara
ihatemyguts: No one’ll see it coming, too bad the name is already taken (not sure if I’M personally allowed to say it but you know the one) 💙👊
gotspoons: I cannot condone this, neither can the group as a whole, just so we’re all clear 😬🤭
brainpain: yeah yeah
brainpain: it’s just my personal advice to leave her disabled
ihatemyguts: It is a teaching moment
ihatemyguts: in fairness, I wouldn’t be surprised if my cousin hasn’t heard and found her by now, I did forget to call her off on my way out the door 💁♀️
brainpain: everybodys got that cousin
brainpain: in my fam it’s me
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: I heard there was incitement happening that needed breaking up?
brainpain: quiet my love
brainpain: you’re on my side
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: Naturally
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: Any energy wasted on this girl would be just that, it seems to me, though I’m all for advocating for yourself and your right to basic human decency
brainpain: when he’s so wise & sensible 😍🥰😘
brainpain: the chalk to my manic 🧀
sonmychest: Manic Cheese is an excellent band name 😍
ihatemyguts: 10/10 would play [the venue you usually see bands]
brainpain: you can have that for free girls
brainpain: start a band
sonmychest: rock out on my clarinet 🪈
ihatemyguts: Lung workout, 2 bird 1 stone, cool
brainpain: wheres Robyn @ ?
brainpain: there’s a baby who needs to rock out
ihatemyguts: I bet she knows ALL the K-pop girly dances
brainpain: nobody tell her rents 🤫
sonmychest: 🤐
brainpain: none of that talk’ll cheer up the newbie
ihatemyguts: Ah, say no more
ihatemyguts: I can see how this kind of stuff could turn any parent crazy
brainpain: anon rat out that girl to hers
ihatemyguts: 📢 your daughter is a piece of shyyyyyt
brainpain: 50/50 they’re not too?
brainpain: I need my boy here for the maths
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: Am I being arrogant by assuming the new boy is not some kind of mathematical prodigy? Potentially
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: I would say it’s debatable, the odds on the parents of an unsavoury individual also being so… so 50/50 works perfectly, flip of a coin, as it were
brainpain: arrogance works perfectly on me
sonmychest: A room must be found for you two
brainpain: sharing my address is a kick outable offence
gotspoons: I’m so proud, Lauren
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: Likewise
brainpain: hits different when he says it
brainpain: but thanks guys 💕
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: I know it will be supremely unpopular as well as uncool to suggest this
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: but if this girl, or anyone, carries on with this behaviour, you can and should tell an adult, don’t suffer in silence
tigerbalm: I agree with Rich
tigerbalm: sorry, I this min caught up
gotspoons: Robyn! 💛
tooexhaustedtolivevicariously: Appreciate the backup
tigerbalm: Unrelated but btw I DO know the dances 😸
ihatemyguts: Omg, teach me
ihatemyguts: (and I appreciate it, guys, I promise I can handle her better than I did today, a blip)
tigerbalm: Are we allowed to send links? I pinky promise it’s not a virus (which makes it sound like a virus, I know, but it ISN’T)
sonmychest: 🦠 keep it 6-feet from me
gotspoons: 🤭 I think we can trust you not to send anything inappropriate
tigerbalm: [send some tutorials on how to do these dances kinda vibe because you can’t show her irl]
ihatemyguts: Catch me at [cool kid venue] killing it
tigerbalm: OMG as if you’re going to [this venue] + it’s almost like I’m coming with!
ihatemyguts: You should come sometime
tigerbalm: 😿 when I’m nearly 18 instead of 16 I’ll MAYBE be allowed
ihatemyguts: Between us all we have to be able to come up with good enough cover stories
ihatemyguts: Bible study, volunteering at a homeless shelter…
tigerbalm: 😸😹 you’re hilarious, Sylvie
brainpain: onto something’s what she is
brainpain: nicely done new girl
ihatemyguts: Gotta be done, your K-pop moves cannot be confined to your bedroom forever, Robyn
tigerbalm: ilysm everyone 😻 you’re bad influences but good friends
sonmychest: we ly too 💞 vibes only today
✉️ private @ihatemyguts
princemyshkin: I heard what Sam did
ihatemyguts: Unsurprised
ihatemyguts: so much for keeping it on the dl, I forgot quite how many appointments I’d had
princemyshkin: I don’t know what makes her think she can act like that
ihatemyguts: I don’t know, she’s just a bitch, I won’t psychoanalyze her about it
ihatemyguts: she doesn’t deserve it
princemyshkin: Yeah
princemyshkin: Did you go home?
ihatemyguts: I know, kinda lame
ihatemyguts: I just, panicked? It felt like panic, though I don’t know why in hindsight
princemyshkin: It’s not that, I looked for you in [whatever lesson she should’ve had, bonus points if it’s one he’s not in but he went to try and peep anyway]
ihatemyguts: Oh
ihatemyguts: well thanks, for checking in
princemyshkin: [the teacher] stopped me before I could get a real look, I couldn’t tell if you were there or you’d already left
ihatemyguts: [this teacher] thinks they’re a prison warden or something, seen them legit chase someone down the hallway before
ihatemyguts: you’re lucky, must’ve been in a tolerable mood
princemyshkin: I said it was important
ihatemyguts: I was hoping I’d get to speak to you
ihatemyguts: though everyone here has been pretty chill this time
princemyshkin: I had to wait until [a lesson you can get away with this in/lunch break/school to be over whichever the vibe is]
ihatemyguts: That’s cool, I wasn’t expecting it or anything but I did assume you’d hear it through the grapevine eventually
princemyshkin: [a friend] told me during [a lesson some time after this happened which we’re implying was too slow cos wanted to know sooner cos we care]
ihatemyguts: You came with receipts
ihatemyguts: swear I wasn’t going to call you out for being a fake sick kid if you didn’t come through
princemyshkin: What are you going to do?
ihatemyguts: Kicking her head in OR telling her mammy have both been suggested but
ihatemyguts: probably nothing, it’ll die down, don’t you think?
princemyshkin: I’m a pacifist
princemyshkin: and I’ve met her mother, she’d find a way to justify Sam’s behaviour again, it’s a pattern
ihatemyguts: I didn’t know you guys were that close, used to be
princemyshkin: I thought we were but she thought we should be closer
ihatemyguts: I get it
ihatemyguts: I think every girl has had a friend like that
princemyshkin: Have you?
ihatemyguts: I wasn’t always defective, tah very much
princemyshkin: This friend of yours probably isn’t thinking of you as defective, unless they’ve really changed, or you have really bad taste
ihatemyguts: It’s nothing to do with my taste, I don’t like him back, that’s the point
ihatemyguts: it’s awkward, I’m sorry Sam did that to you
princemyshkin: I’m sorry she hasn’t learned anything, doing that to you sucks
ihatemyguts: She probably thought it’d get stronger laughs than it did
ihatemyguts: at least I don’t have to go that low for attention, right?
princemyshkin: She’s always been tone deaf, in and out of the music block
ihatemyguts: 😅 okay, you’ve cheered me up
princemyshkin: Everyone’s agreed to boycott [whatever band she’s trying to front now whether that’s still his old one or another she’s had to move onto cos she’s shit], their gigs and uploads
ihatemyguts: Ah, I’m not sure about that though
ihatemyguts: won’t that make everyone else in that band hate me
princemyshkin: If they remain in a band with her, they’re part of the problem
ihatemyguts: Okay, I don’t want to be the poster girl for this
princemyshkin: It’s bigger than just you
ihatemyguts: She was insulting me, no one else
princemyshkin: She’s hurt loads of people
ihatemyguts: Then they can say something to her about their own beef
princemyshkin: They have, they are
ihatemyguts: Okay, as long as this extra shit isn’t being done on my behalf
ihatemyguts: I’m not a cause
princemyshkin: It’s not a revolution, people are just fed up of her continuing to treat everyone badly
ihatemyguts: She’s a mess but
ihatemyguts: is your girlfriend gonna let her get shunned the way she was
princemyshkin: I thought you’d be happy
ihatemyguts: What do you mean?
princemyshkin: It doesn’t matter, I’ll call it off
ihatemyguts: Well, is it a revolution or not, Jake
ihatemyguts: why would you go ahead and set anything up
princemyshkin: Why are you angry at me?
ihatemyguts: Because this makes me some freak to feel sorry for and meanwhile you get to be the good guy whilst hiding your own sickness
princemyshkin: No it doesn’t, she did that, tried to do it
princemyshkin: I talked about maybe denying her the attention she desperately craves to the point of hurting whoever to get it
ihatemyguts: And what’s in it for you?
princemyshkin: Sam finally realising enough is enough, that’s the only reward
ihatemyguts: The points you’ll score can’t hurt
princemyshkin: I told you I don’t care about scoring points
princemyshkin: and that I won’t go ahead with it now
ihatemyguts: Do you think I’m being unreasonable about this?
princemyshkin: You’re entitled to your point of view
ihatemyguts: A yes then
princemyshkin: I talked to her when I found out what happened, it didn’t do any good
ihatemyguts: You did?
ihatemyguts: What did she say?
princemyshkin: She called me overly sensitive, basically, those are my words not hers she used
ihatemyguts: She’s going for edgy, clearly
ihatemyguts: Sorry, I didn’t mean to chew your head off that just made me feel weird
princemyshkin: It’s cool, you’re right, I was getting caught up in the wrong things
ihatemyguts: You have a right to call her out too, you’ve got history
ihatemyguts: and I appreciate that you aren’t just pretending to give a shit for kudos
princemyshkin: I wouldn’t, you’re not a cause
ihatemyguts: You could boycott, it isn’t just about me, you’re right
ihatemyguts: this thing is making me so in my head
princemyshkin: I don’t know, if I go after her, that makes me as bad as her, doesn’t it?
ihatemyguts: You are the pacifist
ihatemyguts: if it doesn’t feel right, don’t
ihatemyguts: I’m not gonna kick her head in, that’s not me
princemyshkin: Nothing feels right
princemyshkin: my mother’s adamant we have to tell the school, tomorrow or the next day or whenever, I’m in the boat next to you
ihatemyguts: So you get it
ihatemyguts: I don’t want to be seen as THAT girl, like we felt about the people here
ihatemyguts: like, it’s my whole personality and everyone has to love me or something, just ‘cos
princemyshkin: It’s messed up, school’s already hard without any of this
ihatemyguts: Yeah
ihatemyguts: if you ever wanna hide too
princemyshkin: I do
ihatemyguts: We could keep each other company
ihatemyguts: if you don’t wanna mess with China’s schooling about it
princemyshkin: She wants to be the first person in her family to go to uni, I can’t ruin that for her
ihatemyguts: No, bit of a dick move, for sure
ihatemyguts: what does your ma do for work?
princemyshkin: She’s a nurse
ihatemyguts: Oh, yikes
ihatemyguts: now I know why she’s been so hardcore about this
princemyshkin: What does yours do?
ihatemyguts: She writes, kids books, mainly
ihatemyguts: she does a lot of working from home, so yours is a better spot, when your ma is on shift
princemyshkin: Cool, I live in [like the suburb or neighbourhood not his full address, so she knows roughly where it is in relation to her house/school etc, we all know it’s a shithole because his poor mum is a single parent]
ihatemyguts: Cool
ihatemyguts: you can tell me when you want to disappear for a while, I’ll come through
princemyshkin: [where he lives] is no Paris
ihatemyguts: Not yet
ihatemyguts: better than school right now though
princemyshkin: I regret not leaving when you left
ihatemyguts: You should
ihatemyguts: stress isn’t good for you, not even a lie
princemyshkin: An empty house isn’t if I have a fit
ihatemyguts: how long would it take for you to get a service dog?
princemyshkin: I’d have to google it
ihatemyguts: If there’s a long ass waiting list, like everything, I could ask how hard it might be to train a dog to alert if you have a fit, I know someone who might know
princemyshkin: I assume there is too
ihatemyguts: I bet they’re easier to train than guide dogs, it’s the one thing but
ihatemyguts: I could be way off
princemyshkin: Who are you asking?
ihatemyguts: My cousin, she’s trained lots of dogs in the general sense, but she might have some idea
princemyshkin: My sister would be happy, she’s wanted a dog since she was, like, 8
ihatemyguts: She might consider talking to you again
ihatemyguts: [send him a pic of your dogs because we’ve always vibed before that they have a lil dog and a big one and I feel like that’s real]
princemyshkin: Where did you rescue them from?
ihatemyguts: [tell him because I’m sure you did, you’re those types too]
princemyshkin: We should go there
ihatemyguts: Alright, yeah
princemyshkin: Tomorrow
ihatemyguts: Tomorrow
ihatemyguts: I’ll send my cousin a message now
princemyshkin: Do I lie and pretend we’re not all vegan?
ihatemyguts: As long as you’re prepared to accept the dog as a carnivore, I think it’s okay
princemyshkin: I accept everyone’s right to choose
ihatemyguts: I’m sure you can find the most cruelty-free pet food going
princemyshkin: More googling
ihatemyguts: Busy boy
ihatemyguts: who needs homework
princemyshkin: But do you want your homework from [the classes she has missed, even ones he is not in because he would sort it]?
ihatemyguts: I suppose it can’t be all puppies and Paris
ihatemyguts: you don’t mind?
princemyshkin: I wouldn’t offer if I minded, how passive-aggressive
ihatemyguts: It feels wrong to thank you for homework though
princemyshkin: I haven’t thanked you for tomorrow
ihatemyguts: Let it get here before you do
ihatemyguts: it might be intolerable
princemyshkin: I don’t think so
ihatemyguts: We’ve not spent any time together in a group smaller than… a dozen or more people, probably
princemyshkin: I know, you don’t like me
ihatemyguts: And I don’t know you
princemyshkin: Don’t you?
ihatemyguts: You said it, or words to that effect
princemyshkin: We’ve been getting to know each other
ihatemyguts: Yeah, a little
princemyshkin: Has it been intolerable so far?
ihatemyguts: I might not use the word intolerable
princemyshkin: Well then, no reason to jump to the conclusion about tomorrow
ihatemyguts: Your ego, my god 😏
princemyshkin: You know I’m a realist, it’s how stuff is
ihatemyguts: As long as you know how determined it makes me not to like you
princemyshkin: Your determination makes me like you more
ihatemyguts: Admit you want to win
princemyshkin: Win you over? I did admit that
ihatemyguts: That counts
princemyshkin: Stress isn’t good for me, you know
ihatemyguts: Shameless tactic, the guilt trip
princemyshkin: Be friends with me for my health
ihatemyguts: You are such a dick, it’s unbelievable, actually
princemyshkin: I’ll never make it to Paris, you have to
ihatemyguts: Is there nothing you won’t do?
princemyshkin: The only line I won’t cross is through the middle of that city
ihatemyguts: I’ll put you on probation
princemyshkin: For how long?
ihatemyguts: However long it takes you to pass or fail
princemyshkin: Graded on a curve or not?
ihatemyguts: Do you expect to be that much better than the friends I have to compare you to?
princemyshkin: Yeah
ihatemyguts: By all means, go ahead and impress me then
princemyshkin: I’ll start by dropping off your homework, if you’re not impressed your parents will be
ihatemyguts: Oh, you are SUCH a parent pleaser
princemyshkin: Tell that to China’s mother, she can’t stand me
ihatemyguts: That’s hilarious
princemyshkin: No it’s not, it’s the first time ever
princemyshkin: she’s ruined my streak
ihatemyguts: Precisely
ihatemyguts: adults are meant to not be so upfront about it
ihatemyguts: Why do you think she hates you?
princemyshkin: She kinda said it to my face
ihatemyguts: 😂 go on, tell me what she said
princemyshkin: I don’t want to, you agree with her
ihatemyguts: Your streak 🥺
princemyshkin: And it’s not funny, actually
ihatemyguts: Why do you need her to like you?
princemyshkin: I love her daughter
ihatemyguts: You’re 14, she’s not your MiL
princemyshkin: She could be
ihatemyguts: It still doesn’t matter, my mammy’s mammy hates my father, it’s irrelevant
princemyshkin: We’re family orientated
ihatemyguts: So’s my family
ihatemyguts: You can’t force China or her mother to be
princemyshkin: I’m not forcing anything
ihatemyguts: Okay
princemyshkin: And wanting her to like me isn’t a crime
ihatemyguts: It’s your life
princemyshkin: Where do you live?
ihatemyguts: [tell him, gotta if he’s to drop off this homework]
ihatemyguts: Hope that doesn’t set the sirens off
princemyshkin: [tell her how long you’ll be, your extra ass coming straight from school, we see you]
ihatemyguts: You don’t have to stay or anything, by the way
princemyshkin: I’ll just talk over [something they did in a class he was in of hers and has taken notes for, like it’s so complicated she needs him to mansplain it so she will understand the homework] with you, but then, yeah, I’ll head home if you’d like me to
ihatemyguts: I’m sure you’re busy
princemyshkin: Not really
ihatemyguts: Yeah, me either
princemyshkin: We could do it together, our homework
ihatemyguts: You could do it for me, seems like you know so much about [whatever he just mansplained like lol]
princemyshkin: I’ll help you, totally
ihatemyguts: Do you want to go to Uni?
princemyshkin: I don’t see what they’d teach me about music
ihatemyguts: True
ihatemyguts: You’re not giving up then
princemyshkin: On my passion? No
ihatemyguts: You didn’t know, if you could keep being on stage, I mean
princemyshkin: I still don’t, but I’m not willing to give up, I know that
ihatemyguts: Good, you shouldn’t
ihatemyguts: however depressive I might feel one moment to the next, that’s always true
princemyshkin: What about uni for you?
ihatemyguts: Probably?
ihatemyguts: I’m not sold either way yet, truthfully
princemyshkin: You don’t need to be before you’re closer to my sister’s age
ihatemyguts: Said like you are but exactly
ihatemyguts: why rush?
princemyshkin: She wants to go to [a uni far away like in another country] but she’ll end up at [one in ireland that’s the equivalent level of however smart you are girl/the vibe of what you wanna study]
ihatemyguts: Wishful thinking from you or how homesick she’d honestly be 🤔
princemyshkin: You said it yourself, she’s full on
ihatemyguts: So are you, like
princemyshkin: In comparison, I’m not
ihatemyguts: I’ll believe you
ihatemyguts: my sister is way more emo than me, promise
princemyshkin: I’ll believe you back
ihatemyguts: Doesn’t mean we’re friends, Cohen, FYI
princemyshkin: We can start on friendship tomorrow
ihatemyguts: It’s all about [the subject of this homework] today, yeah??
princemyshkin: Yeah, you probably wanna go to uni
ihatemyguts: And you think you can win me over before we finish
princemyshkin: [a subject or a teacher] did give you loads of homework
ihatemyguts: And you’re my own personal punishment from the universe, then
princemyshkin: Personal tutor, if anything
ihatemyguts: This isn’t a service you offer everyone?
princemyshkin: To any of my friends who need it, but they don’t take up the offer much
ihatemyguts: Not your tutoring not living up to your bold claims 😮
ihatemyguts: I was hoping I’d be able to reach out for some testimonials
princemyshkin: It’s them not realising my potential, no reflection on my skills
ihatemyguts: I thought it might be
princemyshkin: Most of them think what I’m good at begins and ends with a microphone and a [whatever guitar he plays idk about that]
ihatemyguts: You find that frustrating
princemyshkin: It isn’t my entire personality any more than the seizures would be if people found out
ihatemyguts: Right
ihatemyguts: I think people assume when it’s positives, that you don’t mind being seen so narrowly
princemyshkin: I didn’t used to, I guess you’re rubbing off on me
ihatemyguts: Calling you out the other day rubbed you the wrong way
princemyshkin: It doesn’t happen
ihatemyguts: You’re surrounded by people who are more than a little invested in how amazing you are, not likely to happen
princemyshkin: I’ve sorta been living in an echo chamber for a long time without noticing
ihatemyguts: I was pretty sure you knew
ihatemyguts: that conviction isn’t so strong now
princemyshkin: Sometimes maybe
ihatemyguts: Everyone likes to be liked, it isn’t a crime, really
princemyshkin: I know, you just like to treat it as one
ihatemyguts: I don’t like inauthenticity, that’s all
princemyshkin: We’re not going to be our authentic selves until we’re older, and even then, it’s not guaranteed for everyone
ihatemyguts: Life’s too short, I’m not waiting
princemyshkin: This is when we get to try things out, explore different selves
ihatemyguts: You think I’m anti that?
princemyshkin: I don’t think you can say you’re really you before you’ve lived more life and met at least a handful of people who’ve changed you
ihatemyguts: You think I’m naive
princemyshkin: You’re 14, you’re meant to be naive
ihatemyguts: I don’t want to waste time, in the wrong places with the wrong people
princemyshkin: You’ll only waste time if you’re determined to, the wrong places and the wrong people or things can be as worthwhile as the right ones
ihatemyguts: I don’t think so
princemyshkin: You think you already know everything, that’s why
ihatemyguts: No I don’t
princemyshkin: Unless life gets cut short, it’s long
ihatemyguts: And I know that people waste time in situations and with people that aren’t meant for them
ihatemyguts: there’s nothing poetic or romantic about it
princemyshkin: But it’ll teach them something, if they’re open to learning lessons like that
ihatemyguts: I don’t want to learn lessons, I want to be happy
princemyshkin: You can’t be happy unless you know what you want and that’s trial and error for loads of people
ihatemyguts: That’s such a male way to think
ihatemyguts: get what you want, cast it aside to try out everything else just to make sure
princemyshkin: The alternative is, not being sure or happy
ihatemyguts: I have instincts, I trust mine
princemyshkin: Feminine intuition, if you wanna gender everything
ihatemyguts: Male ego to assume that the thing you want will wait for you to explore your options, yeah
princemyshkin: Either it’s meant for me and it’ll find a way back to me or it isn’t
ihatemyguts: Oh God, why are you talking like a hippie
princemyshkin: There’s validity to it
ihatemyguts: So you do what you like then and fuck everyone around you?
princemyshkin: Where did I mention I condone hurting anybody?
ihatemyguts: Our choices and behaviour have consequences for ourselves and other people, that’s just reality
princemyshkin: The reality is, everyone wants to be happy and for the people they care about to be
ihatemyguts: Yeah and that isn’t hard
ihatemyguts: You don’t need to search the globe and meet every person to make it happen, people overcomplicate everything
princemyshkin: It can be hard
ihatemyguts: You’re happy, are you not?
princemyshkin: Not today, that’d be pretty insensitive
ihatemyguts: I don’t expect you to care
princemyshkin: I care
ihatemyguts: I don’t understand why
princemyshkin: You didn’t deserve the day you had
ihatemyguts: I’m fine
ihatemyguts: doesn’t need to be your problem
princemyshkin: Am I a problem to you?
ihatemyguts: I don’t know what you are
princemyshkin: I don’t know that you’re fine
ihatemyguts: who is
princemyshkin: [the person who spilled that tea about her being a sick kid, like lord knows she’s probably completely unphased]
ihatemyguts: Good one, you’re probably right there
princemyshkin: I’d have said Sam but she’s obviously not
ihatemyguts: I don’t want to be like her
princemyshkin: Why would you?
ihatemyguts: I mean I can’t be, that pathetic
princemyshkin: I mean, why would you even have the thought, you’re nothing like her
ihatemyguts: Far as you know
princemyshkin: I’m no stranger to Sam or you
ihatemyguts: At least my hair isn’t yellow, I’ll always have that going for me
princemyshkin: You have loads going for you
ihatemyguts: This is going to start feeling like a pep talk, we don’t need to do that
princemyshkin: I’m not doing that
ihatemyguts: I could feel it coming
princemyshkin: Your instincts told you, yeah?
ihatemyguts: Or you’re predictable?
princemyshkin: In the sense that I’m [however far away he is rn but the point being getting closer as something she could predict because it’s inevitable]
ihatemyguts: Is there anything you’d like me to prepare for your imminent arrival?
princemyshkin: It’s cool, don’t put yourself out
ihatemyguts: Yep, unbearably chill
princemyshkin: You don’t want me to stay
ihatemyguts: I never said that
princemyshkin: You did
ihatemyguts: When?
princemyshkin: I have instincts too
ihatemyguts: If you trust them
princemyshkin: Are you saying I shouldn’t?
ihatemyguts: No, I don’t know
princemyshkin: Do you know what you want?
ihatemyguts: Don’t I know everything?
princemyshkin: What then?
ihatemyguts: I’m not telling you
princemyshkin: Why?
ihatemyguts: You know why
princemyshkin: You win if I’m no closer to an answer the closer I get to your house?
ihatemyguts: How could I refuse?
princemyshkin: But I don’t understand what you’re winning, you could just tell me if I’m invited in or not
ihatemyguts: It really is that simple, isn’t it…
ihatemyguts: alright, come in
princemyshkin: You like authenticity, be real about it
ihatemyguts: It’s been a strange day, a strange however long it’s been since all this started
princemyshkin: You don’t have to be fine
ihatemyguts: There are some things I can’t be though
princemyshkin: There aren’t wrong answers, how you feel isn’t part of the homework
ihatemyguts: You’re not grading me on a curve back?
princemyshkin: No, I’m not
ihatemyguts: I’m not a hot mess, that’s not something I can let myself be
princemyshkin: It isn’t messy to express your feelings, it’s healthy
princemyshkin: bottling them up’s not something I can let you do
ihatemyguts: I can’t decide if we’ll regret it more if you leave or if you stay, okay
princemyshkin: I’d regret leaving you, I know that
ihatemyguts: And if I’ve got this horrifically wrong?
princemyshkin: You don’t trust me but you do your instincts, how wrong can you go?
ihatemyguts: That’s what I’m spiralling about
princemyshkin: Stop spiralling, it’s okay
ihatemyguts: I want you to make this decision
ihatemyguts: will you?
princemyshkin: Yeah
ihatemyguts: Okay
princemyshkin: It is, I meant that
ihatemyguts: I don’t know what’s wrong with me today
princemyshkin: Your control was taken away, you didn’t get to handle any of it how you wanted
ihatemyguts: Yeah
ihatemyguts: and now my heart won’t slow down
princemyshkin: But I’ll come in and it’ll only be us and however you feel I’ll stay
ihatemyguts: I don’t want to do anything that makes you leave, because right now, I need you
princemyshkin: I won’t
ihatemyguts: I’m sorry, for being so intense
princemyshkin: I get it, I’d be worse if roles were reversed
ihatemyguts: I’m not sure I believe you this time but
ihatemyguts: I’m doubting things I thought I knew about myself
princemyshkin: When it’s my turn, you’ll see
ihatemyguts: I do hope it doesn’t happen to you, I’m not that petty
princemyshkin: It’s a matter of time before it does
ihatemyguts: Probably
ihatemyguts: I’m no optimist
princemyshkin: I’ll need you too
ihatemyguts: Okay, it’s a deal
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