#i just. damn dude. im tired

[jack-kellys]

west end question: i obviously love my brooklyn girls and would die for them all, but is it bad that it’s taken away the sprace dynamic for me? like i’m still 100% on board with a nowhere near canon ship and it shouldn’t affect me they’ve decided to have spot be a girl, but it lowkey has? and i feel kinda guilty about it? idk i love my proshot boys. but i am 100% here for all the uk newsies cast they are amazing and so talented and it’s definitely my favourite production by far!! idk if i’m making sense

ok part of me feels a litle baited actually because like. i feel like... im vocal abt mlm musical sprace not being a big vibe for me in the first place. so im a funny person to ask if you were looking for relief lmao. anyway here's my thesis below.

wait also if ur a white newsie fan a read-thru+rb of this would be much appreciated thank youuu (also yall have been eating up my character analyses anyway sooooo!)

TL;DR THESIS: if you're feeling genuinely let down that your ship did not see the light of day and a black girlsie spot conlon got to instead, then yes, you should reevaluate that.

followers, if you've been with me long enough, you know that i have quite strong opinions about how this show gets treated when it comes to interpretations and fandom/fanon. mostly, this is because i literally work in theater, and it's extremely backwards in my brain personally when shows get treated more like a movie or tv show than a performance piece.

im also one of the only ppl in this fandom that ever seems to dare speak on race (not the damn character smh). and anon, buddy, kiddo, this does have to do with race, gender, and sexuality.

firstly, what i think needs to be understood about newsies, is that it is theater, which means it is meant to be mutable. there is no one way. there should never be one way. it does not exist. secondly, theater does not exist in a fandom vacuum. its live every night, conceptually. theater is a live performance art.

interpretations change- it's the nature of theater. so i think asks like these really do illuminate the difference between fans of the show's content or fans of... i guess the show's culture's content.

this is a culture content ask.

one thing i really, truly, deeply need you all to understand: from an objective, script- and staging-based perspective, proshot sprace does not exist. they do not speak. they barely see each other. race does not even volunteer to go to brooklyn. the ship originates from the 1992 movie, where they do actually interact, which is why the ship has prevailed through the 90s to today. they're from the movie, not the musical.

of course, this doesn't bash the ship- it has history, and naturally fans want to create new history when they get a new source material (the musical). it's true for like every newsie ship lowkey (but also not lowkey because all the manhattan newsies do interact and sprace literally does not but thats a different post!!), which is something i do admire about the fandom- we do a lot of our own legwork here, we invent relationships and backgrounds from one-liners that could be given to tbh any frickin newsie. i respect the 30 years we have invented ships.

however.

when a huge, publicized, consistently sold out production comes along with spot conlon as not only a woman, but a woman of color (specifically black rn!) as the leader of the most feared group on stage, there becomes something much more important than a "sprace dynamic", which does not canonically exist in the musical anyway bro. you can't miss something that isn't there imo. often the story and casting within a story comes first, and goddamn if this isn't one of those times. lillie-pearl's spot brings bravado, swagger, confidence, and intimidation that is literally....fine maybe i'm being personal but it is slash gen incredible to see in technically a period piece! a black woman in leadership with that kind of assuredness! in such a popular musical! how is that not– automatically surpassing an often obsessed-over (yes i am. hinting at something here, straight girl fans) mlm ship?

and while i'm on the topic of the over-obsessiveness of mlm musical sprace, let me talk about uksies sprace. because what's also wack abt this ask is that sprace is not a hopeless case in this production- it literally has about as much 'evidence' as the proshot imo!!!!!

i got to hop over to 2nd row brooklyn seating for act 2 so i saw once and for all really close up, right. there's a moment when race is upstage letting the newsies in/down from the stairs. spot comes down and she does, in fact, share a look with him. race gives spot a nod and she keeps moving.

and like im gonna see the show again (every day i am counting my mf blessings fr), so if i'm wrong or they don't do it every time i'll correct myself, but that's what i saw with my own dang eyes on saturday. they do acknowledge each other in uksies.

and since they do, i really like. i have to ask. what is bothersome/unpopular abt uksies sprace, other than oh idk.... its not white/white mlm with a twink/manly bf trope? why can't race still love who spot is as a character, this strong and fearless ruler of brooklyn, in uksies? because tbh josh's racer...nahhhh because. this is such a side note now but they'd be so good together oh jesus am i gonna ship uk sprace. and it's not like they're 'taking away' from a queer ship because a) you can headcanon spot as a queer girl and race being trans is consistently popular and b) newsies has ten billion gayass ships bro we've been eatin for literal decades.

anon, i'm sure you didn't mean harm by this ask. i'm sure, honestly, that a lot of fans are feeling the same way as you and weren't quite sure how to put it in words. but, i'm also not surprised you sent an ask like this on anonymous specifically.

should you feel guilty about it? i don't think guilt is the right word. but i believe you should think more about how newsies is not.....static. it does not exist in one form, and it never will. if you're feeling genuinely let down that your ship did not see the light of day and a black girlsie spot conlon got to instead, then yes, you should reevaluate that. in theater, you should always question why something impacted you the way it did- a major point of theater is to discuss and think about it when you leave! i know this because ive spent three years literally studying it, to back up my thesis credentials.

thank you for reading this, newsies fandom. i do honestly say all this with love, and i hope it made u think !! ♥️

#i just. damn dude. im tired #sprace #race x spot #racetrack higgins #spot conlon #newsies #sprace newsies #newsies uk #uksies #newsies the musical #newsies live #livesies #west endsies #west end newsies #race higgins #race newsies #spot newsies #anyway josh's race would fall ridiculously in love with lillie-pearl's spot. like goddamn #i believe in them and you should too!! uk sprace!!!!

[wu-does-art]

If you’re doing requests maybe Jonathan reaction to Byler?? Supportive brother moment 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏 you’re awesome and your art rules btw :)

this dude never gets a break. i wish upon him prozac and some fucking rest like he is NOT OKaY

credits to the original text post i could not find it

#also no u!!!! you are so so cool and your art is fucking incredible like????? damn dude #byler #stranger things #mike wheeler #st mike wheeler #mike wheeler stranger things #st mike #will byers #st will #stranger things fanart #byler fanart #Jonathan byers #love that guy #tired ass brother who has to deal with homoerotic bullshit #this is probably not what you meant but #i always think of Jonathan in s4 just like. standing their awkwardly while mike is lowkey flirting with will #like u probably meant something more wholesome im sorry jdjdn

[murderous-wolf-daddy]

I love it when someone sneaks up on you because they think it'll be funny and act like you're a bitch for being startled and annoyed. Woah what a concept, some people react negatively to unpleasant, loud, and unexpected shit 🤯

#i was going back to my room after a 2 hour call in my office that i didn't even want to be on #and my dad turned on a loud ass LEAF BLOWER right behind me and naturally i was surprised because who the fuck does that #and he's like geez get out of your room for once #dude i have been for the past two hours... #i had two back to back work weeks that have been more hellish than usual pls just let me rot in peace #and stop acting like i have a bad attitude for wanting that #and for being irritated that 1. you're making incorrect assumptions about how i just spent my time and 2. judging me for that #and that you turned on a FUCKING LEAF BLOWER indoors right behind me like why the fuck would you do that??? #he's like damn chill - dude what??? if anyone needs to chill it's you. I'm just minding my own business. #i want to move out but ill be bled dry if i do and im just tired #vent

[stargarland]

shoutout the football coach who sided with me absolutely two hand pushing one of his slacker ass players today ur such a real one

#no bc … #i hate yelling fr but it’s track / running etiquette i guess to yell watch the track or ur lane number if someone is in ur lane #so they know to move and so u don’t crash into them but i usually just 🦗🦗 and go around #but two football dude bros were standing in my lane (which was the farthest lane from them) and wouldn’t move and then LAUGH AT ME #so i let this go on for FOUR TIMES before i just push them out of the way like u can hear me fuck off #and obvi they get all 😡😡😡 #and their coach is like if u two don’t start running until im tired ur done for the summer #and then the coach apologized to me 🤞🤞 #it’s the sheer disrespect that is so … bothersome bc ik damn well if i was a man it wouldn’t be this way ://///

[themilosquid]

Thank you cole for making me obsessed enough to daydream a full plot for half an hour without any kind of stimuli other than my own creative juices

#God I missed that #I really need to allow myself more daydream time #i love you cole ninjago #I was daydreaming with the idea of cole forgetting everything and accidentally helping the enemy and the team trying to make him remember #Like imagine #He would be just working away and the ninja see him and go “cole????” #And he's like “who tf are you wtf” #And theyre like “my dude #“We're the ninja... We're your friends #And him being like “im no ninja #I only have abnormal super strenght #What do you mean thats part of my earth powers #And then they go every day with gifts and stuff trying to make him remember #And cole its so tired of them #Until he screams their names without knowing and everyone cheers #Damn it would be such a bad story but I enjoyed my daydream so go me

[gophergal]

What do you think about the lack of importance Edenia have in the last (and probably in the upcoming too) games?

Seriously, it makes me really Sad. Edenia was so important in the first timeline. What the hell happened? Only a few characteres mention this realm in MKX

It sucks. Big time

If you'll note, basically none of the realms matter anymore, aside from Earthrealm and Outworld.

Sure, the Netherrealm exists, but that's pretty much it. Dreamrealm is of dubious canonicity (introduced to explain Freddy Krueger as a guest fighter, then used to explain Tremor's glow up. Given he isn't shown in the storyline and arcade endings aren't canon in that game, I don't feel comfortable saying "yeah. That's important to the story"), and means nothing to the plot.

Chaosrealm and Orderrealm also don't show up despite being neat concepts.

What I'm getting at is that it makes the MK universe feel small. Edenia is only part of the problem, but I think it's a good example. Mortal Kombat feels more focused on nostalgia bait, Realistic Graphics, and more grisly Kombat than being, y'know, Mortal Kombat. None of that is necessarily Bad, but it's making it feel a little generic to me.

Maybe it's my bias and nostalgia, but that's just wrong. I'm not saying they need to bloat the worldbuilding, that would suck too. I'm just saying that they have these fun concepts, could they PLEASE do something with them???

Not to be the "they changed it, and now it sucks" guy, but I really love the original timeline's absurd worldbuilding. That's a major draw for me. Not only is it absurd, but it was constantly rolling and acquiring new and interesting bullshit. To me, that gave it a personality.

The original timeline feels like you took Enter the Dragon, the Matrix, Magic the Gathering, and classic slasher films, mixed it all up, then used it to bread and batter the gameplay. Deepfry that sonuvabitch until golden brown and serve it hot. Its the fried fish and hush puppies of gaming. I wouldn't say that it's Good For Me, but it's fucking delicious.

Its also not widely palatable and, just as Long John Silver's isn't exactly a big name restaurant, MK was kinda in a slump for a while, profit wise.

I think what happened is they cut back the weirder shit in order to make the games more popular. Its a chicken tender now. Not bad, but it's more of a "I'll take it if there's nothing better/nothing else I feel comfy eating" dish. Still not Good For Me, but often dressed up to seem healthier. By which I mean "able to be taken seriously by more people." The worldbuilding is more Serious ™️, so is the Gameplay. Don't get me started on the State Of The art Graphics.

Its all done this way for profit reasons. I don't doubt that folks on the team are still passionate about the games, but you can't forget that NRS is owned by a bigger company than Midway was. There's more executive meddling, so we see less of the more niche worldbuilding elements like Edenia

#gopher rambles #mortal kombat #To be clear; of the NRS games I've only played MKX. I have 11 but a few things #(game design; character design changes; plot stuff I know about through the fandom) have put me off it. #So just be aware that I'm not working with full knowledge of the whole sitch #also im very tired and this is more of a brain dump answer than anything. sorry dude #if you want me to clarify any of my thoughts let me know. im sure some of this is word salad. #long post #oof. damn sory for the rant. i just. have a lot of feelings about this whole deal. asking me about how i feel about an aspect #of the original timeline is a surefire way to make me ramble about shit i miss. I MISS THE WEIRDNESS. WEIRD SHIT WHERE FID YOU DO I MISS YOU #BABY COME BACK. EDENIA. CHAOSREALM. KENSHIS STUPID BABOON ASS AND RED CROTCH COMBO. #YOU WERE ALL SO SILLY WHAT HAPPENED #*fukin sobs* where did the time go? #im so sleepy. voodnight

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

ok looking at artfight is literally giving me a headache i think i should be done for today

#went thru and updated. all of my characters #separated them by story/universe #updated a few of the descriptions (i HATE writing those though so. only some of them) #and drew new things for a handful of them #but . god damn i am so tired but i still have soooo much to do #gagaughhhhg #i always do this every year im like oog ive got plany off time and then its 3 days before the event and im SCRAMBLING #sigh #I JUST WANT THEM TO OPEN EARLY TEAM REGISTRATION ALREADY. GUH #sorry guys im gonna be sooooo annnooying about my ocs for the next month. get ready #ill go back to drawing trigun when artfight is over #danny devito voice hold on im shifting into oc mode #god. i also updated my global permissions and added links to all my pinterest boards and character tags on my sideblog... #AND playlists for those that have them... fuck dude #i think this year im gonna focus on like. jus doing headshots. #bc i get into this slump of like. the mindset that Everything i make for artfight has to be perfect and #make it a huge massive piece with a background and shading and everything #but that takes sooooo much energy out of me. im gonna focus on doing a lot of little things. #i wanna draw somthing for every character i have bookmarked i think. as long as theyre on the other team #i also think i wanna try drawign more anthro/furry characters. for practice. i like drawing animals its fun #which is. fitting. for the werewolf year lmao #so. hey. if u or a friend are on team werewolf this year and want me 2 draw one of ur little guys. #no guarantee bc my energy gets soooo spotty and i want to save it for the ones i rlly wanna do #but like. im always open 2 suggestions. especially for artfight #send me ur little guys if i think theyre cool i gotchu. #man. ive been looking at my computer all day i think i am going 2 go read my book. catkiss goodnight i love you #(<< i will still be on tumblr probably. but that felt fitting.) #blahblahblah

[candyredterezii]

i havent seen my therapist in like 2 months n considering i have no drive for shit anymore and constantly lethargic and feeling stuck once again in life with no fulfillment anymore

i should make an appointment but also idk if i should make an earlier appointment w my psych.. or both

but also am like

pushes fingers 2gother hi anna i know its been 2 months since i got back to u prommy u wont be mad-- 

#candyredtext #KSDJFGF #idk aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. #like it sucks dude like.. #i have no drive to like..do anything #none of my art. writing. playing games. socializing. #even hanging out w my bf im like #damn i kinda wanna be home rn #he talks/jokes all the time how all i ever wanna do #is take a nap when we hang out #n that im tired constantly. #like man.man. #idk if this is something i need to talk w my therapist bout #or talk to my psych about like #up my dosage or try new meds or what #cus idk if my adhd meds are even ;like. working anymore i dont feel any different anymore after taking them #i still am just. #sits staring at the wall-

[pebblezone]

who’s up making sound effects ☝️☝️☝️

#talkingcore #realizing that the little pshooo noise I make when moving an object from one place to another can in fact be heard and perceived by others #purely on the basis I don’t hear anyone else making sound effects… you’re telling me I’m supposed to just push elevator buttons in silence?? #like when you’re looking for things you don’t do like a lil choochoo chugging a long situation? okay… 👁️👁️💥💥💥💥 #hot girl walk backfired I am so sleepy fuck this group project I can’t do anything til other people put info in…. I want to sleep #they pushed it off an extra 50 minutes pls let’s just get it done so I can go to sleep peacefully at like idk 8:30 (this is unrealistic) #I can sense the stress and disappointment. so sad so sad #maybe I’ll wait to post so I can have as much of my woes in one place (I am so sleepy) #this is hell I forgot we had a floor meeting at 830. the dude whose work I’m waiting on is not done. I’m feeling like the Arthur dad #tip: I am so fucking mad though the mad is really just Tired it’s due at 9 am tomorrow I do not want to be thinking about this past 10pm #it’s 8:49 maybe it’ll be good soon Please I need Slumber though also there’s Clunking going around who’s clunking #919 literally no progress this is super hell. DUDE WHERE SRE YOU GOING WE ARE ALL WAITING ON YOU AHHHHHHHHHHHH #man…………….. this is twisted. and sick :(((( #THEY FINALLY FREED ME 9:37 GOD DAMN… AND THEYRE STILL NOT DONE IM JUST NOT TRAPPED ON ZOOM #this is my attack on London for Realsies we already had an extension it should’ve been due this morning. ass cheeks up for Real for real for

[overdramatics]

Quit my job lol

#that place is so insanely fucked up jesus christ #fucking hate that i had to quit and im going to try and get a job immediately #hoping that goes well this time and that i don't have to be unemployed for months. again. #i really dont want to have to work man like i really hope i can get a really close by job with like 4-5 hour shifts #because clearly i just physically and mentally cannot handle full time work anymore. or honestly ever have been able to but its certainly #worse now #i fucking hate capitalism dude its a fucking death trap! like i woke up so fucking sick this morning jesus christ and ive been so fucking #tired and depressed #how could ANYONE think that this shithole system could work in any way how have people gotten so brainwashed and numb #how can anyone physically or mentally put up with this shit or convince themselves to put up with it #like ik some people are just able to weather it better but how can anyone stand it at all #but at the same time im having a very hard time actualizing that i cannot stand working and that im not meant to work under capitalism #ik im not weak for it but damn thought i was stronger! #eugh just like fuck this. fuck all of this

[i-like-gay-books]

fully convinced at this point that if theres anything in my life im bad at/ have been bad at its solely due to lack of confidence

#theres so many things that ive tried again in college and was 'suddenly' good at because im not like #beating myself up over the fact that im a beginner? #or trying to make myself small or quiet #or even just thinking that maybe i can't do it #this even works for fucking executive functioning #over the summer i got a new skincare routine #and im historically prone to falling off routines pretty quickly especially skincare #but i just said you know my parents paid a lot of money for this stuff and i have an apartment now i can do this im going to do it #of course it helps that im in a generally good mental space this year compared to past years #and that i have access to a private bathroom thats a big one #but i couldve so easily just let it go #i almost have a couple times #but i just look myself in the mirror and ask myself if im really too tired to do hygiene or if im catastrophizing again #9 times out of 10 its the latter #and when it is i just say ok so you can do this then do it #and then i do it #i feel like a neurotypical dude is this what its like to not have to constantly fight your brain? #idk i mean ive known my entire life even before i had a word for it that my biggest problem is anxiety #its pretty much the root of all evil in my life #but damn i didnt realize how much of a superpower it was to have any confidence at all #cloudy rambles

[ashithemenance]

I'm probably gonna get reamed for this, but I really feel like if you're making a series where you can choose your gender and has a mechanic where you can experience 'extra' scenes with the capture targets/partners, then you shouldn't gender lock it. If you wanted to make it so that only the female choice gets 'extra' scenes with all of the capture targets but the male choice only gets the female capture targets, then what's the point? Just make it so that the main character is female and move on instead of trying to enforce 'oh! You can choose male or female and romance everyone!' but lie out of your ass because in reality you can only romance half and the other gives you a fistbump for falling in love with them and not treating your confession seriously.

Also! The same is true for the male adjacent choice being the supposed 'focus' and having a female choice but all the female capture targets/partners say 'oh we're not into men but you're special ;)' to the male choice and 'oh yeah we can totally grow you a dick to have sex with' if you choose the female character! What! Is! The! Point!

#ranting #im mainly talking about fgo but other visual novels have done this too #hell fe three houses literally gives you an older man for a capture target as male byleth and he hooks you up with a girl bc hes married #actually no im talking about fate in general #it just comes off as freaking WEIRD when a female character says shit like 'oh ill grow you a dick so we can have sex' #or the token lesbians saying they'll have sex with you bc youre special as a dude #like damn how is akiba trip 2 better than you by providing male stripping CGs and that game is literally stripping vampires of clothing #i wish more VNs would take into the count that some people want male/male romance or female/female romance without being made fun of for it #hell housamo is one of the few games that doesnt genderlock you if you play male/female/nb #man im tired if y'all can recommend me some vns or games that let you romance everyone regardless of gender

[sleepitawaydear]

like can we just go to an event without there being drama

#personal #even if i’m perfectly fine #he’s not #it’s always smth #and i find out last minute #or he doesn’t communicate it at all #like i’m fucking tired dude #im abt to just start doing shit by myself #like you clearly do not wanna do anything so like #idk why i’m forcing u along #didn’t wanna be at the concert u were overstimulated the whole time #don’t wanna go to pride cus u don’t wanna meet ***** #like jesus christ #just go with your fucking friends tomorrow i’ll go with mine #bc i’m tired of having to coddle you through every single fucking thing we do #learn some emotional regulation #god damn

[watchthekittycatcher]

he chooses to be such an ass sometimes

#im in a bit of a mood this week but that being said #i think its uncool to be Mean To Your Fans #granted when someone sent him handmade stuff he was chill and polite but eh #no i did not send him anything #i am just feeling bitchy #like damn dude maybe if you had read your shit on time you would have been able to prevent that many teenagers from sending you invitations #or maybe have said something about the high school project in a timely manner #i just think like. damn. they're kids. be nice #like. laughing at someone who said you made them feel less alone? bro bffr that's MEAN idgaf if they were oversharing #anyway fuck me im parasocial as hell rn and im tired

[angeliic]

vent post idc

#being a split in a system fuckign sucks man #especially when youre a fictive like im not even fucking real dude #imjust in this head bc the hosts brain couldnt deal with life #and now i gotta sit here and watch them and their partner get it on while i miss my boyfriend and cant even talk to him because guess what #he isnt fucking real #hes a damn comic character #now if you believe in the multiverse theory then yeah hes somewhere out there and this is just the universe we were put into #two fictives in a system or whatever idfk #im tired and i wish i had someone to cuddle #but alas im not into women #and our partner is a woman #how does anyone even cope with this #theres so many layers of fucking illnesses here its insane #wild #vent #and like we set hard boundaries because the host doesnt want to be poly and thats cool man i get it like #im not even fronting most of the time #but fuck man when i am i feel so fucking unwanted and alone it sucks so hard and i dont blame anyone here because i shouldnt even be here #in the first place #im gonna nap #also how does one cope with these feelings man when you know youre not real #like the body is and im taking care of it but im just from a comic man i dont even exist #how does one deal with this level of shit

[tripppystars]

im a puddle right now :(

#i wish i cpuld actually once have a bff or any friend in my life who actually wont go aroujd tossing random passive aggressive remarks and #like dude please. im so tired of being jsed over just #my lack of basic boundaries mean everyone just steps over me like a used rug. and it's so damn hard to overcome this #i hate hypocritical friebds #they make such a big deal EVERYTIME i start acting like them #:( #and then everytime i confront their first Instinct is to gaslight :/ #honestly at this point i TOTALLY abhorr and loathe every homo sapien NO EXCEPTIONS