#i just. want to cry and sleep for a week

[soldier-poet-king]

Just had to rescue a baby bird hatchling (not a fledgling!) that my Nonna's neighbour DELIBERATELY MOVED THE NEST OF??? and like if this bird dies it's MY FAULT for not knowing what to do and I'm going to CRY and everything is SO MUCH all the TIME I want to go HOME

#franposting #its literally nor a big deal but also my hip hurts and im tired and my uncle is being shitty #and im too sober for this and just. constant upset #and my goddam HIP #like this neighbor is old and tbh getting a little senile and should have a care person #so i dont think she did it on PURPOSE #but this tiny lil guy fell so far and idk what to DOOO #i am a city rat i love nature but im USELESS and STUPID #i put it and the nest back #but also like??? it was VERY small and fragile #idk if anything was broken it could barelt hold its head up #and no adult bird in sight #LITTLE SPRING PERCHING BIRDS ARE MY FAVE ANIMALS #i just. want to cry and sleep for a week

[miutonium]

The weird nerd in a labcoat that you talk to every week at the diner appears in front of your door with a rose in his hand wwyd?

#naurrr he's not a creep they already went out before and send chloe to her door before its just this time he wanted to make a cute gesture #like he just knocks on her door asking if she's up for another date lol #i feel a bit anxious about posting my art here all of sudden ngl skdjekaoa staphhhh #like partially idc what ppl thinks but also i care if ppl like me enough skdjskal stop 5 am brainnn #anyway omg i swear its only been 3 weeks since I last opened my csp and im crying i missed drawing waghsgsjqk 😭😭😭 #i have a few more days to endure im so excited about resting and continuing my overdue commission wagjhsksakhq #but i do need a warm up though since i feel like im slowing down zzzzz #okay me sleep now snork mimimimimimimi #asukart #selfship #selfshipping #selfship art #selfshipping community #selfship community #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #oc x canon #si x canon #professor utonium #ppg professor

[blubujollyrancher]

furina and focalors are both so tragic, focalors for having power and furina for having none. focalors for wanting to be furina and furina for wanting to be focalors. focalors wanted to be human but was chosen to fill the role of a god, while furina was forced to live and suffer endlessly for 500 years with no power to stop it. i want to cup them gentlee in my hands

#4.2 spoilers #genshin impact #focalors #furina #crying #ifk if this is coherent i took 100mg of benadryl #thats not even a joke #i want to sleep #anyway #love em #dies #oh yrah i didnt even mention my thoughts on neuvi amd furina #they also make me insane #imagine the one constant for ur 500 year long life being just a complete lie #and on the other side also imagine ur 500 year long constant essentially betraying u in front of ur entire nation #although obviously i understand why he did it #they are just so tragic my gods #i like to think neuvi definitely visits furina like near daily LMAO #he's like “miss furina after being informed you have only been eating #macaroni for three weeks straight i have thoughtfully prepared you a three-course meal with ingrediants #selectfully chosen to deliver proper nutrition you have been missing since leaving.“ #“monsiuer it is three am.” #“... apologies” #or somethin HELP

[wulfhalls]

.

#over two weeks since my baby boy passed #i miss him more everyday. and its only getting worse #and i feel so responsible so fucking guilty its tearing me up inside #he was only 8 my tiny angel was only 8 #i still cant believe hes gone #i miss him everywhere he isnt anymore which is. well everywhere #i havent wanted to die this badly since like my early twenties maybe not even then #spiralling bad ngl #when i bursh my teeth and he isnt at the faucet just hanging out. when i find some of his fur somewhere. walking by his favourite boxies #his sleeping places. my desk where he helped me study #just one breakdown after the other. all day #i miss him so fucking much every second of every day. he was with me ALWAYS all the time he was just there. #im still waiting for him to just. u know come back to me where he belongs #had one day where i was so dead inside i didnt even weep wail cry weep wail again for a whole day. 👍 #but its convulsing on the floor o'clock yet again. oh well #u know the spiel. ignore me ignore this i just. needed to type this out #bb baby #txt.me

[slutdge]

Not to get deep here or anything but i really think i dont want to have a relationship with my sister anymore and ive been reflecting on that a lot. like sure she didnt abuse me or really do anything to directly traumatize me, but she voted against me having human rights because im queer, as well as voting for a party that wants to harm first nations people despite both of us being first nations i just.... i dont think i can forgive her for that. weve had laughs and good times together but i find myself unable to forgive her for her politics. i wouldn't tolerate bigotry from anyone else, i shouldnt tolerate it from someone just cause theyre family.

#can anyone provide me guidance on this? ill bring it up with my therapist but i dont see her for another week #anyways im making myself cry late at night whats new lol ive been processing a lot this week #ok eta: and theyll always make you feel bad for this!!!!! #theyll be like ''ok so everyone has to bend to your commie regime to have a relationship with you 🙄'' #like yeah actually you do #if you really loved me like you claim to you wouldnt be FUCKING VOTING FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO TAKE MY RIGHTS AWAY #yes you do have to respect my rights if you want to have a relationship with me that is completely reasonable #whats ACTUALLY unreasonable is you asking me to ''just get over'' the fact that yall support people who think i shouldnt have human rights #right wingers will try to gaslight you into believing basic human decency is an unattainable and torturous request #then when you get upset theyll be like ''god the left is so emotional 🙄'' #like yeah. i am. and you should be emotional too about human rights violations. the fact that youre not is pure evil. #anyways ill go cry myself to sleep like a faggot now #it just breaks my heart that i dont have any immediate family members who dont blatantly hate me for being queer/first nations

[osoreruna]

here it is, the post nobody's been waiting for:

+ the MHA WATCHPARTY INFO !!

for this first session, we'll be watching the first of three movies: My Hero Academia: TWO HEROES ! dates for the other two will be determined at a later date, but will most likely take place the same time as this one, as determined by poll last week. here's the important bits !!

date: SUNDAY, 2/11

time: 6:00 pm, EST

to keep things accessible, we'll be watching the english dub with english subtitles.

the movie will be hosted on WATCHPARTY. the link to the room will be posted the day of. you do not need an account to use watchparty, but perhaps changing your chat name to your url or screen name would be helpful in identifying you.

everyone's invited ! feel free to reblog this if you're into that i guess — and invite your friends !!

that being said, i have no idea how many people will actually join in. it very well may be just me lmao but i know big watchparties can get out of hand sometimes. let's keep things safe and enjoyable for everyone, yeah ? blatant disregard of this statement will earn you a swift kick and potential ban from future watchparties hosted by me.

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #𝗠𝗛𝗔 𝗪𝗔𝗧𝗖𝗛𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗧𝗬 + [ AD ] #⬅ tag to blacklist if you want nothing to do with this — #don't come at me about the dub thing — #my dyslexia will kick your fuckin ass. #i hid a little time zone converter thing in the post for you guys that are just as bad at math and / or just as lazy as me. #but yeah anyway #i know i've been like #NOT HERE but i've been lurkin #when i'm not sleepin'. i get it where i can. #sleep is still exhausting atm tho. cardio appt on the 9th. heart's been doing an excited little dancy dance i think but i wish it would STO #dancing — i mean...i ran out of characters. #not actually stop. #but !! it also took me so long to type this ! #because i decided to DESTROY my shoulder carrying an 85" tv up three flights of stairs today and it HURTS. #so i'm gonna try to do things tonight #but no promises. #uughhg i've got so much to catch up on i'm sorry y'all #but THREE DAY WEEKENDS STARTING NEXT WEEK !!! AHHH #i can't wait to cry about david w u guys —

[kangals]

i miss my dog.

#when can i expect to go a full day without crying because we’re coming up on 6 weeks and it’s not looking good #I just want my fucking dog! #I love Stellina but she’s not him and we don’t have the same kind of relationship and it’s strained now by the sudden change #she’s insecure and im overbearing and I just. want my dog. #god sorry there’s constant fireworks and i can’t sleep and it’s not doing good things tonight

[tomfrogisblue]

WHY

DO MY SMPS

INSIST ON FUCKING

NUKING THEMSELVES

HOW DID THIS HAPPEN AGAINNNNN

#quackity plz i just want my kids #i dont care about purgatory im not coming back until then ill just leave the quackity studios notifs on and just move on with my life #im so tired. it had been a month and a half. then these two weeks. and now there is no timeframe at all. i cant do it anymore. #but lmao what a fantastic dramatic ending tho guys well done #and just like tubbo - i have no self control and i will be back tomorrow. lmao #i just need to cry for a bit first :) #qsmp #qsmp purgatory #dont let tubbo touch your smps because they will spontaneously combust in nuclear flames #IT WASNT FIREFLIES RIGHT RICHAS #ok imma sleep now

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

[girlscience]

i am so goddamn tired of every single fantasy story being about men. i am so goddamn tired of women being side characters and love interests and set dressing and an afterthought. i am so goddamn tired of women who are powerful but feminine. women who are "dressed to kill" and they are wearing eyeliner and a dress and heels. i am so goddamn tired of women always being healers and having water magic. i am so goddamn tired of men going on adventures and dying nobly. i am so goddamn tired of never being able to find a story about women that i can fall in love with. i am so goddamn tired of all fandom being about men.

#i have spent the past several weeks becoming increasingly upset about this #hannibal? men. lotr/the hobbit? men. stargate atlantis? men. dragon age inquistion? men. one piece? men. #the handful of superhero's i periodically read about? men. transformers? men. every goddamn anime i've ever loved? men. #the witcher? men. fantasy anachronism? men. literally every single fantasy adventurer series? men. #it's men and men and men and men and men and men and men and men #i just want ONE. one single goddamn story about women that is as well written and well made and as deep as everything else #i want ONE story about a women or women who are noble and honorable and fight in the face of impossible odds #and i don't want them to be pretty and small and feminine #make them hairy and fat and muscular and tall and wear steel toed boots and carry swords and fight monsters and sleep in the woods #and eat stew and carry heavy packs for long distances and be intelligent and sneaky and cowardly and fearful and brave #make them laugh and cry and scream and fall in love and write poetry and books and songs #make them wrestle and pick on each other and pull each others hair and sit around campfires #MAKE THEM GODDAMN PEOPLE #there are books out there about women going on adventures. they exist. i've read some #but they are not the majority and they never get big #and so many end up being poorly written or a romance or a combo of the two #i don't WANT to have to read genderbends just to read about women #i don't want to scroll tumblr and just see men on my dash #all i have ever wanted my whole life is to be a fantasy adventurer. and none of them. not ONE of them looks like me #i am tired of watching youtube critiques of fantasy shows/movies/stories and them just shitting on the women characters #i am just so tired of it

[aefensteorrra]

that four day weekend was lovely but I really started going through something and it's definitely necessary and very... transformative? and well that's why it's so painful christ

#it's been hard to sleep for a couple of weeks tbh #cause I keep having these fantasies where my ex becomes the person I basically know him to be without the depression #and I just feel like ahh what the fuck have I done why did I break up with him #the first time I saw him after he'd bought a BOOK? he had PLANTS? he'd framed ART??? #and I literally was on the floor crying because it felt so devastating to see a temporary glimpse of that #like it's not *him* it's the depression #and I just feel guilty like idk what I want anymore. my partner literally moves to this country on thursday #and I'm supposed to be over the moon but I don't have a lot of feelings about it :( happy for them but scared this isn't what I want #hm:(

[bruciemilf]

let me give you biiiig hug you look like you need it 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Tyyy

#just one of those days yk #i cant study i cant draw i cant watch YouTube i cant watch movies. no song is satisfying and just tires me out #everything tastes gross and i don't want to eat but ik i have to or ill be more irritable #its too hot its too cold i want to cry i cant cry #i want to sleep i wanna talk to ppl i dont want to talk to anyone bc im so mentally maxxed out #idk i think its seasonal burnout. sucks that it happened a week right before my exam but oh whale #only the 4th time i fail #i will tell you i dont have the nerve to off myself. but if i could hire someone to swiftly shoot me in the head #i would do it TODAY. fuck. like life is worth living but im just so grossed out #not dc #vent #depressive episodes fucking suck

[arsonist-chicken]

btw in absolutely unsurprising news I fucked up the exam of that class I'm taking for the third time badly again.

in very surprising news, apparently Something happened, idk if the dean said something to the professor or I looked like a distressed broken down wet rat enough or he just doesn't want to see me in his class again or idk, maybe it's not good for him if someone fails his class three times, but he actually offered that I could do a written exam on friday instead? which. is extremely surprising. good, because it gives me another afternoon to study and I can draw and go back to questions on a written exam, even if I have to shuffle around the other exams and papers now, just. very surprising.

#lol but next semester is the fucking seminar again with also the same professor #idk how you can teach such shitty classes regularly and never think hmmm maybe i should change something #with the amount of people having to take the classes at least twice #anyway good for me i'll keep crying over uni the rest of the week and the weekend too and then i'll do stuff next week #like i need to call my insurance and annoy them in person until they say yes to any therapist who will have me #and call the other thing #and oh i really need to find a different GP because i'm soundly back at the stage of where i can literally not think two sentences #after each other without trailing off or it taking up extremely much energy just to remember which store i wanted to go to #and i'm aware that stress and mental illness causes brain fog or whatever #but i've been stressed before but this only started last autumn and i need a different doctor to look at it #who won't just say oh it's just iron levels #there's something wrong with my brain and i need someone competent who actually cares to look at it and tell me #if therapy will fix this or if it's a physical problem #please let it be just brain fog htat therapy can fix i don't have time for this #i just want to sleep and cry until this bs is over but semester break starts next week but i still have exams then and a whle list of #stuff to do for uni still plus stuff otuside. like a doctor. and sleep a normal amount instead of in weird horu intervals on my desk and in #my clothes on my bed or floor or wherever i am at the moment my brain decides it's over now #also friends. i wanted to catch up. also a job. like. yeah i need a job even if idk how i'll do uni and a job with the way my brain is righ #now #huh. oh i have another exam in half an hour. send help i don't want to go to uni anymore #mine #still don't know what that class or the seminar next semester are about btw but we moce #*move #goddamn it I'm TIRED and not just in the physical sense #i'm so goddamn done with uni and insurances deciding about psychotherapy and the general state of the world and cost of living #and i miss my friends and i want to visit them but nither them nor me have time and travelling is expensive #and ijust want a goddamn fucking break but i don't see one comign anytime soon. not before summer #but probably not even then #and after that i'll start working so like #at least no goddamn seminars anymore but i still absolutely dread having to decide where i want to work a

[invinciblerodent]

((dear god i'm so tired))

#squirrel speaks #it sounds like walking. but it's MUCH too constant #and sometimes it's interrupted by a loud thud as if they had dropped something heavy #or slammed a cabinet door shut #dear god i have not had a full night's sleep because of them in weeks #i've gone up to complain to them. they're denying everything #i know they're lying. i KNOW they are. #i complained to the landlord. the superintendent. even our other neighbors can tell and feel it. #they too are complaining about it. #nothing is happening #how the fuck can someone be so equally bloody LOUD at 10 am 5 pm #AND ALL THE WAY THROUGH THE NIGHT #TILL 3 IN THE BLOODY MORNING #ONLY TO START AGAIN AT 6 AM #I have already started to sleep with earplugs in but i can FEEL THE BED VIBRATING #i want to cry i genuinely do #it JUST doesn't hit the decibel threshold for us to be able to submit an official noise complaint #i am never moving lower than the top floor of a building again #never ever ever ever

[intriga-hounds]

i love him but i also need him to go to his new home immediately

#jk i will cry when each one leaves #larkspur #8 weeks #but seriously he’s killin me #he’s not even all that demanding it’s just i have so much going on i really can’t give him all the individual attention he wants #if he was the one injured I’d probably even let him sleep in bed bc he’d just be glued to me #he and star are the two big rough housers tho so he’d be miserable even w the extra #love n attention

[stargazerdaisy]

Muz has Covid. On the literal anniversary of having it last year. The older two kids are symptomatic and presumed positive, even though they tested negative. Tonight, Ducky has an orchestra concert. And I am once again flying solo just before Christmas. I DO NOT LIKE THIS REPEAT OF LAST YEAR, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

#personal #daisy whines #i am getting past wanting to cry and now I am just mad #trying to balance all the things we're supposed to be doing this week with the uncertainty of if Ducky and I will get sick #oh and Muz is supposed to have a medical procedure next week #as long as his symptoms have improved he'll be out of isolation by then #but mothertrucker i don't want to sleep in the living room for days again #i hate that #I like my bed #and we need to so so much Christmas shopping still #i mean - it's pretty much all going to be online #but it's harder to coordinate when we're in different rooms