#i keep trying to be optimistic yknow

[optimisticlucio]

So, about 5 days back YouGov released poll results for a very comprehensive public opinion poll they did for the US, which you can see here: https://d3nkl3psvxxpe9.cloudfront.net/documents/econTabReport_tT4jyzG.pdf The poll itself asks about a lot of different topics, but the section I wanna focus on here is the section between pages 96 to 112, which focuses on Antisemitism and Israel. Most polls with questions like these tended to only survey around 100~200 people, and had really depressing results, so I was really hoping going into this study that we'd see some more cheerful statistics. Maybe those small sample sizes caused some bias, I dunno. Maybe the numbers were off.

I kept being disappointed by how many people denied the holocaust in those studies. I didn't want to believe those numbers were real, quite frankly.

Well.

Of a poll of 1500 people, give or take, 7% say the holocaust is a myth, with another 16% saying they "don't know" whether it is or isn't, with people in the 18-29 age group having even more alarming numbers than that: 20% think the holocaust is a myth, and 30% that they don't know. Conversely, in the 65+ age group, not a single responder denies the holocaust.

If you take this poll as being representative, then out of 331.9 million people living in the US, that gives us about 23.2 million people (rounded down) in the US alone who think the holocaust did not happen.

For reference, there are only 16.2 million jews in the entire world, with 7.1~ million of them in Israel.

Turns out the numbers I saw previously were representative.

Fuck, dude.

#judaism #jumblr #antisemitism #politics #this is. #this is fucked #i legitimately have no idea how to process it #i keep trying to be optimistic yknow #trying to think “nah it's not all bad” #I still refuse to give in to the rhetoric that we are only safe in israel #only safe in a gilded cage onto our own #but what the fuck can i do here dude #you can read the numbers as well as I do #this is #fuck. #ישראבלר

[nabaath-areng]

Lazy rushed coloring, but a while I said I was gonna do a redraw of an image that was so painfully Ieeha that it was almost unreal.

That was July last year and only got around to doing it now so yknow... behold my boy...

The image:

#ffxiv #ffxiv art #midlander #hyur #ieeha de verral #ieeha #my art #I MISS MY SONNNNN im still unsubbed btw #... also since july! #alas i need a new pc and my tech illiterate ass has decided to try and build one myself #no idea how thats gonna work out but im nothing if not ambitious and optimistic #for good and bad #anyway i havent yet settled on how i wanna draw his face #i keep leaning into different traits #but also i havent drawn him since last year #cause i suck at drawing my own characters #so yknow what who cares hes cute!!!! #my darling boy...........

[dadbots]

August… time to get spooky.

#dadbots.txt #this has been in my draft for... almost a month. Yikes. #I’ve been dissociating hella hard these past months or something. swear I don’t remember time moving this fast. maybe it’s just me tbh. #idk what to say about July other than… boring? not much happened and I don’t really remember it if I’m honest. just. mm. shrugs. #best way to describe it LOL #been sleeping a LOT lately and I think it’s fatigue again. was it like anything before? no. not at that rate (yet) but just. #where you wanna sleep and sleep and sleep type of fatigue. you never feel rested and just gotta sleep it off kinda. #just one of those moments yknow. #it sucks. all I’m doing is letting the days pass me by and ‘missing out’ on living life when I could be enjoying it. but I lost interest - #- in doing so for months - years now due to personal health matters. And whaddya know - it came back again. after months of healing. #I'm pretty pissed as it does feel like a slap in the face. but you win some - you lose some. Gonna try and fight through it. #I wrote something at the beginning of august but that got deleted. Had a breakdown and thought huh. what a great way to start the month - #and now it's almost september. Just like that. What a month it's been. Stuck on what else to say but that really. #don't want to keep talking about depressing stuff as that's what i used to do and realized hey. maybe you should stop doing that so often #and not use it so casually in humor and/or stuff. Even though I reblog vents here n' all. but yknow. #maybe it is hypocritical. but that's not the point. Just want to reflect and see if i've changed since coming back to the web after a year. #not like it's going bad. just wished this year was a bit more optimistic. Last year was rough & i'm afraid this year will be another repeat #though I did come out to a family member this month and that was like a punch to the gut. Considering my status with them and all. #won't get into that. for now let's just say i'm not too close with them. An impulsive choice on my end but hey. it went well. #and that's what matters tbh. My younger self would've thought i was actually insane. like to even DO that? really? #shocking. I'm still not over that moment. Probably one of my biggest achievements this year. #I'll update this if anything else comes to mind. none of this make sense and that's ok. clearing my mind right now. #let's see what september has in store for me. Hopefully it'll get better as things slow down w/ winter on its way. #hope y'all enjoyed your summer. 🖤🤘🏽

[truthundressing]

this song feels perfect for a british new years eve party u know

#dont know how to explain this but when they play all the big classics but try and keep them optimistic going into the new year ? #like yknow the mr brightside i gotta feeling hey ya! ive had the time of my life kinda songs #does that make sense idk i just wanna go crazy on a dancefloor to this song and have everyone around me singing along !!!!

[hauntedfalcon]

Yknow, my only beef wit Spenser - and its not even really a criticism of how he GMs cuz this is a limited series so we have only so much time - is that he keeps trying to cut away from the funny/good moments! Almost immediately, without letting it breathe. I know we're pressed for time and they had to get through 2 assignments rather than one since this chapter will only be 3 episodes loud but let the table laugh Spenser, it's okay! (Sean calling Nathaniel out on not riding his family's own train). Let them respond to the larger moments (Marion screaming there's nothing wrong with him). I'm hoping with the remaining episodes having only one assignment - the guide to the game says theres 4 assignments/commissions - that things slow down jus a bit so that we dont have to jump-cut so much.

yes exactly!!! I really enjoy Spenser but he did get too clippy with the scene cuts for the sake of pacing and cinematic atmosphere.

fortunately four of the players have already gelled in Calamity and everybody wants so much to play off each other, so they went out of their way to make time for that. Brennan hit Liam O’Brien levels of “hey before we end the episode, I must do something full of Yearning™️,” and Marisha got me on the verge of tears when she set Zehra up for her last line. this table is SO GOOD. I’m optimistic that in the future Spenser will leave them a little more breathing room.

unpopular opinion actually, but the more times I watch “there’s nothing wrong with me! there’s nothing wrong with me” the more I like that Spenser pulled back from there so quickly. I feel like the narration and the bleakness let that moment soak in better. without that break, and starting to talk about mechanics, and letting Luis pop up with tears still in his eyes and go “that was AWESOME :D,” we would have ended up with something much more grave. it wouldn’t have been bad by any means because all these people think so fast and they’re so good, but I doubt it would have been “you want me to pee on it?” and I wouldn’t trade that for anything

#Candela Obscura

[aeternallis]

such an interesting meta with kim, even if i have a bit of a hard time swallowing that he would ever pose a threat to chay. he's never been aggressive towards him, and he protected him at the warehouse even if chay didn't know until later. so i feel like on the contrary, they're the healthiest of the three

Heyya nonnie~ 

It took me some time with this response, apologies for that. 

You're the nicest of all the anon asks I got in response to what I presume to be this meta that expressed the same sentiments, so I don't mind entertaining you. Hehe! 

I agree, Kim has never been physically aggressive towards Chay, but the way I see it, it doesn't mean the potential isn't there. My own sentiments on this have not changed; the potential and the breadth of what this entails is what holds my attention for this couple. Now, up to where you choose to go with that is entirely up to you; I myself don't know up to what point the idea of physical aggression from Kim towards Chay can go (if it even goes anywhere), because we don't have a KP S2, all we can do is speculate on the crumbs we got.

And we in the Kimchay fandom speculate, don’t we? Every fic author who’s written a Kimchay reconciliation fic with smut involved has played with this potential, even if the potential is zero. XD For my own reconciliation fic though, I dialed it up to a 6 at least, ahahahaha. Besides that, my belief with this is in keeping with the overall themes of the show, yknow?

After all, the show asks their audience a vital question within its narrative: what consequences and hardships do Porsche, Pete, and Porchay endure, to be loved by these Theerapanyakul men?

In my defense it's not as if I pulled that aforementioned meta outta my ass, I do have an explanation for it. Lolol

It's not something I mentioned in my original meta because I know most people on here have issues with the novel, but there is a noticeable change to Chay's characterization in the adaptation. From my own experience and understanding, seeing the changes from book to show is able to provide more clarity on BOC's intent with their changes and overall presentation of the drama, which I think is a good thing, overall.

In the book, Chay is a lot more like Porsche, both in his personality and his way of thinking. For example, take a look at this scene from when Tawan kidnaps Chay, and how much Chay mouths off to him:

In the adaptation however, Chay is knocked out during that scene, so the framing of that situation is very different; he’s portrayed to be a lot more helpless and weak, because of the fact that he was knocked out. I go into the consequences of these changes on a different meta, mostly talking about Porsche and Chay's relationship, if you're interested.

Another example I can think of right off the bat: when the reader first sees Chay and Kim meet (again, as it's implied that there is bad history between them) in the book, Kim pretty much kabedons Chay against the wall, and Chay retaliates by kicking him in the groin. Lol

These are just two examples, but by bringing these scenes up, I want to highlight the change from book to show: in the show, Chay's personality is framed to be milder than Porsche, as someone who’s not a fighter, as someone who's more optimistic, and as someone whose instinct it is is more to call for help than try to fight off an enemy. Barcode's take on this character is a lot more docile (in the beginning, at least), naively bold when compared to the book character, and he doesn't have much of the spunkiness that Porsche has, yknow?

Again, on paper not that big of a change in the long run, but a noticeable one nonetheless.

In episode 5 when Chay talks of his admiration to Kim, he states that he wants to be more like Porsche, and one of Porsche's most defining characteristics is his fighting skills. It's due partly to his fighting prowess that he's able to better enforce his boundaries with Kinn. It's an added asset for him, as it is for Pete to Vegas, but it’s not necessarily the only thing they both have going for them.  

And yet, why doesn't Chay know how to fight? Why doesn't he seem to have the disposition for it? Was he never provided or had an opportunity to learn? Perhaps Porsche kept him from having to learn; this matches up with how overprotective he is of Chay, one could argue.

Again, because of how Chay's character is framed in the show, he doesn't have the brazen attitude that he shares with Porsche in the book (in fact, a few times Porsche even mentions how much Chay is like him); on the contrary, he's a lot more self-reflective in the show and quite thoughtful. This manifests itself in his natural talent when it comes to writing music, especially how he was able to write the 1st version of WDYS in Kim's studio.

Because of this notable change in Chay’s character in the show, the physical power imbalance between Kim and Chay is a lot more noticeable, hence why Kim’s potential aggression towards Chay is more keenly felt in the show (case in point: their bar scenes, lol), at least the way I see it. 

For reals, I still question why they altered this part of the book characterization when they chose to adapt this IP. Lol

Imo, BOC discards Chay’s penchant for impulsiveness and brazenness (similar to Porsche when fighting an enemy off) in the book, but in turn, elevates his mental fortitude when he’s wronged. In the show, it’s definitely more a showcase of his inner strength and self-respect that he in particular was able to draw his boundaries against Kim (aka blocking his number, not picking up his call, etc), without ever having to physically fight him off, as opposed to Porsche and Pete.

#kimchay #anon ask #meta #kpts #kinnporsche the series

[campyvillain]

i apologize if this isn't my place as i am a stranger but i'm sorry to hear today has been so awful and i really hope things look up for you soon. please take care of yourself

thank you so much. i don’t normally get to do this but im gonna use this as a venue to vent for a sec. probably will delete this later who knows

i know this sounds ungrateful but honestly sometimes i wish i had a much smaller following. im so endlessly appreciative for all the feedback and love my work receives, don’t get me wrong, but its startling to know just how many eyes are on me.

there are some aspects about my identity that would save me a lot of hassle if i just made public, yknow. clear things up a lot, make things make a lot more sense. but i cant do that. i can never do that. at least i wont work up the courage for a very long time to state anything. ive known for years now what specifically im talking about, but i’ll never say. you can probably guess if you put the pieces together but im not blabbering, not anytime soon. theres so much stigmatization and misinfo surrounding any and all conversations of it that id rather just keep it private for the time being.

something happened today that made me just wanna retract into my shell more. i cant say what, but it took a toll on me. a very heavy toll. its still very fresh and still very scary to me. it just reiterated in my mind that this is something i have to keep repressing and repressing until the day i die, for as dramatic as that sounds. that’s just what i think. its scary to think like that.

i wish i just had a handful people who knew about my existence instead of thousands. so i could just state whats my freakin problem, have them say “oh cool, we understand” and get on with it. i can never do that because id get ridiculed and mocked and so on. it makes me feel defeated.

i usually try to stay optimistic but being optimistic is a losing battle sometimes. but i know, somehow, someway, i’m gonna win the war. no matter what it takes.

[gunsatthaphan]

hi doreen! not trying to start an argument with you or anybody that dislikes new as a director because i have issues with him myself but in instances where the director isn’t amazing, i often feel like they can be the middle-men between the writing room and actors and still deliver a pretty good end result. so i wouldn’t mind seeing a FK romcom if it means they have a very strong writing room because i believe that FK on their end is going to deliver. i’d like to be optimistic and think FK would have another project simply because as much as they enjoy fanmeets, and meeting fans, their passion clearly lies in acting and they work so well together and seem to enjoy it sm. i just felt really bad when first talked about how he basically had a breakdown in the street with khao because the company kept requiring that he sang at these concerts. even if i dislike new as a director i wouldn’t wish a whole year full of tiring and repetitive fanmeets on FK tbh.

hi anon!

directors can be middlemen; in fact that's their job lol. writing and directing are 2 different things though, a good script can suffer from bad directing and vice versa. the director has a heavy influence on the feel of the show, they're present in the editing room and have the final say in how the show is put together. That being said even if they hire the best writers for that FK romcom and have a strong sidecast, I don't see a way this could be watchable. Dangerous Romance is a prime example and sorry for crapping on it again but P&C are excellent actors who got thrown into a pool of bad writers + directors and the outcome is atrocious even though they're doing a good job with what they're given.

In New's case he seems to be working with the same writer for a lot of his series which is probably why you can tell they're his shows lol. So yeah bottom line, not to talk down on a show that doesn't exist but I just don't see a way this collaboration wouldn't be a bad idea lol.

About the concerts - I completely agree with you, everyone who follows me knows how I feel about these ludicrous events but they're gonna keep happening and there's nothing we can do about it. idk what else to say lol I just want them to keep doing what they love in the following year which is clearly acting and yknow if they get along with New or find joy in whatever that production might be then who am I to judge. I trust them to make the best choices for themselves and if they're happy then so am I. that's all that matters anyway 🧡

xxx

#firstkhao #firstkhaotung #gmmtv #gmmtv2024 #gmmtv 2024 #this is my last comment on this before the event so peace out ✌🏻 #see yall on the other side lol #bingo card coming later lol

[shuro]

like. i had my friendly outgoing retail face on all weekend. my social batteries are shot.

i wasnt even all that successful at the craft fair? ive been trying to keep optimistic about that bc it was a learning experience, but it still kinda feels bad yknow?

and i've been sleeping AWFULLY the past few nights bc i had to share a bed with her

like i tried to explain i am just physically, mentally and emotionally drained and seriously overstimulated too but she just says "well, I'M exhausted too" like it's some sort of gotcha???? and that'll make this all go away

#hey who gives a digit?

[beemers-hell]

I know you said EB verse is very similar to ours but like …. Can magical girls exists ? With the whole cursed eyes and all as some see it , would there be people who try and put a positive spin on it despite all the shit they’ve been through they will put a smile on , also how bad can their fate be ? Does it vary on how strong the powers are? Or it’s just pure random on what exactly happens to the person

With each of your posts I keep getting more questions (the first anon who asked about ebing their Ocs and all hiiii)

If they got powers like magical girls then yeah totally! Just gotta keep it scaled back a little yknow lmao

And yeah if course! Despite the fact that you're in for a rough one when you've got powers n shit, a lot of powered people take it in stride and see the good in em. The powers are there to protect them aftwrall!

id say older generations of powered folk (ie the first generation to be born with them) see it as a curse because of the hardships they faced and blamed it on their powers, but younger generations are more optimistic about their situations. Generally speaking, most people in Raina's age range [18-24 y/os] are very chill about their powers, its just another aspect of life for them.

The severity of ones bad fate is just dependent on what you wanna write. Generally speaking, a bad fat entails a person will be inflicted with lifelong trauma, the point of having the powers or ghost is to minimize the damage that trauma does. So, it can be anything that can leave an impact on someone in that way. And the strength of the persons powers has nothing to do with how bad their trauma hurts them, thats just its own thing!

#beemer asks #beemers lore #ebverse

[goremet-chef]

vent. mind the tags

grieving with bpd is so... i wont say its worse or anything cuz im really not about that shit, anyone and almost everyone can and has felt this pain before, its a constant of life, but.. when im not actively sobbing and depressed and my mood switches up, it makes me feel so guilty. i should be spending that time in misery, i should be wailing and wiping more snot from my nose and my head should hurt worse like it was a few minutes ago, but yknow. emotional permanence n all that

its so funny, they keep trying to get me to believe in god, she says he'll show himself to me and ill find him my own way. i respect that she at least respects im not there yet (i dont think ill ever be truthfully but we can agree to disagree), but i just keep losing more and more, and any faith i had gets ripped away in an instant. there is no god worth worshipping, because someone worth worshipping would not put me through this pain again and again and again

3 pets dead within a YEAR. riley died june 29, 2022, talcum died in october of 2022, and now artemis, today. may 24. it hasnt even been a full year since riley died. i cant keep doing this man

i find myself less hopelessly despaired and choking on my spit wailing sad like the last two, only because im started to.. lose faith in everything. i feel cynical, it makes me MAD

because i did everything right this time. with riley, i made the mistake of even THINKING that it couldve been cancer, and then it was. i know that wasnt my fault, he had the tumor before i even came to visit and before we took him to the vet, but its still incredibly hard not to blame myself for that. talcum died of stress, because bruce kept jumping on his bird cage. i was so ashamed with myself that my MOM (who doesnt even view our pets as family, more like accessories) noticed talcum wasnt singing like he used to. i didnt even notice until the day after when my sibling was on the phone with every vet he could call to see if they took birds

i was optimistic this time, because it looked hopeful! it seemed like she would be okay, i told myself itll be fine and that we'll fix her up and she'll live longer because she deserves to. obviously that was completely useless because shes dead now, so none of that mattered. i didnt even get to say goodbye to her. i said bye when i left my grandmas house a few days ago, but.. its not the same.

i did everything right this time and obviously it didnt fucking matter because theres no fixing that. theres nothing you can do, death is the worst part of life and it never goes away. never gets easier, you can never outrun it. it makes me so sad that the ones who dont deserve it get it first. i know they were old cats but artemis wasnt THAT old. she probably wouldve lived happily for quite some time after, if everything turned out good. ive known them since i was 7. theyve been in my life forever, and now theyre both gone

god it hurts so much, it never gets easier. i just feel so hopeless right now. i wish i could freeze time, and we could just exist as we are forever. but i cant do that

#pet death #tw pet death #pet loss #tw pet loss #vent

[thotsforvillainrights]

Real world issues below the cut, apologies. Literally do not read if you don't want a bummer mood.

With the recent update on Student Loan forgiveness basically being blocked, how in the fuck am I supposed to remain hopeful that things will ever get better in my country...

As a black woman I'm sorry, but I feel tired every day. Constantly I stress over reproductive rights, racism, the fear of public shootings happening literally everywhere while nothing is being done to help stop a lot of issues. A lot of the higher ups don't even care about us. Everything costs too fucking much and rent keeps going up and I'm expected to not only find a job (which I haven't landed yet in 6 months of searching) but also to work off a wage that leaves no room to save money for fucking anything.

There's just so much going on that I sometimes can't take it. Just that weird feeling of hopelessness yknow? And although I try to push my anxiety aside and be an optimistic person, it only lasts so long before I fall back into this pit.

#rants and ramblings #my apologies!!! #i think i should genuinely see a therapist

[mackjlee9]

I do have to admit that at one point the flirting was too far, but to ignore someone just because you didn’t like their flirting was a bit too much. I remember Seokie making an entire post about going through something like that. Except they weren’t flirting with the person and that person blocked them for no reason. I totally understand what you mean.

I would like to think im just over reacting, but it kinda hurts, yknow.

I haven't been able to send a message to the second moot, and im scared to ask the first one if they are actually ignoring me. I try to keep a positive, optimistic mindset of "maybe tumblr ate my asks" or "I may have not been important in their lives at all and that's okay", I really try to not beat myself over it, but... it's hard.

#.~chatting w/leon~.

[akumajoaurora]

In regards to this excellent post, I’d also like to make a post on how I designed my own logo. Zenith’s post gives an excellent breakdown of what elements go into a VTuber logo and things to keep in mind, but not so much how one gets from an idea to a finished logo. So I wanted to share my process, which goes through most of the basic process I learned while studying graphic design in community college.

Before doing anything else, I had to do research. I knew the general style I was going for; I wanted to evoke the y2k aesthetic, or at least somewhere in the late 90s/early 2000s. In particular I wanted to evoke the bright, optimistic aesthetic of certain games I played as a kid (DDR, late 90s to early 2000s Sonic games, Kirby Air Ride, etc.), as well as the Eurobeat music genre, which I’m a big fan of and is part of my overall “theme”. 

(Granted, I mostly find myself streaming gothic horror-esque games, but... A bitch can contain multitudes)

So with these ideas in mind, I spent a lot of time looking at y2k graphic design, researching different logos (for example, I looked at some racing logos as well), and eventually I put together an inspiration sheet with logos I wanted to evoke. Not all of these are from the same period, but they have a lot of similar vibes

Do you see some of the common elements? Text in dense blocks, lots of bold outlines, often a sense of motion, blobby geometric shapes, sans-serif fonts, bright colors. These were some of the things I wanted to keep in mind for my logo.

With my research done, it was time to design the emblem. I really like motorcycles, and they’re... technically supposed to be part of my theme even though I always forget to post about them... So I wanted my emblem to be a motorcycle helmet. (This also fits in with the eurobeat theme, since racing and driving fast is a common theme of eurobeat lyrics, albeit usually about cars and not motorcycles lol.) I sketched out a few variations on what I had in mind.

I incorporated my horns into the design, since they’re a big part of yknow, me. I also tried a few different decorative elements; The shooting stars are a motif sometimes seen in y2k graphic design, and the fangs are meant to emphasize the demon thing. As for the triangle stripe with the star, it’s meant to evoke the flag of Puerto Rico, but also has a classic racing flair.

After examining the various options and getting input from my friends and family, I settled on the design on the lower right. Next step was doing the black and white lineart.

This is a really important step. A good logo should, ideally, work in plain black and white. Even if you’re limited to just one color, your logo should be readable; This can be useful for things such as printing, stickers and T-shirts, things like that. Ideally you should be able to slap your logo on anything regardless of technical limitations. Am I, or you, necessarily going to do these things? No, but it’s good to be prepared anyway. You never know! So it’s always good to have a black and white variant of your logo.

This is the design I ended up with. In keeping with the y2k/late 90s/early 2000s style, I used bold lines with heavy weight variation, rounded corners, and a double outline. Now if I were really trying to be professional about it, I would have done it in a vector program rather than Medibang Paint, but I fucking hate vector programs and the only person who needs the files here is me, so I can afford to be sloppy. There’s programs out there that’ll let you vectorize black and white images anyway, so eh.

Next, it was time to add color to the emblem. Again, I had a bunch of different options, so I made several variations and asked for input from my friends and family. (I also put the BW version in the corner for reference.)

I already had some standard colors I use in my model and my graphics, so it was really just a matter of deciding how to arrange them. By the way, you can really see in the shading just how much inspiration I took from 2000s Sonic the Hedgehog art! Don’t be afraid to take inspiration from things that mean a lot to you, or... Well, inspire you, lol.

Once again, I ended up choosing the last variation as my winning design. With the emblem done, the next step was choosing a font. Zenith’s post already has some great notes on choosing fonts, so I won’t go into too much detail there, but once again I chose several options and asked for input. Getting feedback from others is a really important part of the graphic design process. It helps you to learn what works and what doesn’t, especially when other people may have different backgrounds than you (Is one of your friends colorblind? Does your art effectively convey its message to someone who doesn’t have the same knowledge of design history? Etc).

I actually chose 15 different font options, but for the sake of brevity I’ll just show four of them.

In general it’s good practice to do variants in regular caps, no caps, and all caps, but I didn’t do that because uh... I don’t remember why. Anyway, I largely looked for y2k or racing fonts. Admittedly Excelorate is super cute, but I ended up going with Hemi Head, because it’s nice and readable. I believe it’s a popular font in the Eurobeat world as well? I know Odyssey uses it in her graphics sometimes, at least. In any case, it looks nice, it’s not too generic, and it’s really easy to read.

After choosing both an emblem and a typeface, it was time to combine them both into a logo. Again, I started with black and white, both because it’s useful to have and it’s also just easiest to add color later on.

I spent quite a lot of time fiddling with spacing and such to get it to look neat and tidy. I added a line at the bottom to add balance to an empty space, as well as a sense of motion. To tie it all together, I encapsulated it all in that big chunky outline we’ve seen so much of.

Finally, color. Since I already had a colored version of the emblem, it was pretty easy to build the rest of the logo’s colors from there. I incorporated the purple and pink gradient I’ve used for header text in a lot of my existing graphics, and again I added a fun outline, and... That was it! The logo was finally finished!

Now, I’m not claiming it’s the most perfect logo in the world. I’m sure there’s things to criticize about it, and plenty of people who just won’t find it appealing. But I think it looks alright, and above all else, I hope this breakdown of how I went from square one to a finished logo is helpful to those of you who may be looking to design your own. I encourage you to do other research as well, and again, to check out Zenith’s excellent post on VTuber logos. (It’s worth noting as well that VTuber logos often have a particular look to them that I personally chose not to go for, but Zenith’s tutorial does a good job of explaining how to achieve that look.)

As a bonus, here’s this thing I made while messing around and trying out different techniques that ended up looking hilariously like the iCarly logo, lmao.

#VTuber #ENVTuber #Graphic design #I hope this is helpful idk if it is but I tried anyway #Good luck everyone!!!

[tu-es-gegg]

lmao i dont think i have the balls to be a hater and think the worst and have some sort of vitriolic hatred towards a thing because sometimes i love loving shit.

i wasted a lot of time before being bitter abt minor things and complaining over everything and i just felt awful the whole time, joining the hater bus and dogpiling on any and every single thing and i just felt so depressed so now I'm growing up having the opposite effect just kinda seeing all the good parts and having faith in others, and like whenever people spout up over something and going like "this thing fucking sucks it is horrible and you should hate it" when i experienced it and gone like "no i kinda like it" i keep my mouth shut but i kinda genuinely appreciate and enjoy a lot of stuff people have this abashed hatred towards, im not even saying im based ijsut have my own dumb preferences and think maybe some people should slow their roll and yeah its tiring to be so optimistic over things, to think the best in people then to have that trust be broken, like i have good faith in even some like really hated people not because i agree with whatever fuck they have but because i try to see what things they mean well behind, i dont want to immediately go "they're a horrible person" or go "this thing is horrible" but like i don't feel like an asshole 99% of the time, i just am experiencing life rn yknow, seeing consequences of my judgements and then let bygones be bygones

result of this is that i really cant get behind like a lot of hot takes that really have strong ass ig opinioned hate and sometimes idk whats good or bad writing in a movie, idk what's supposed to be considered masterpieces or dogshit stuff that people piled symbolic purple prose on top of it, so like i kinda feel stupid in that way lol, ill just sit here with my Minecraft blorbos and play doll with em, i wanna draw some dresses later

#lol random shit #txt post

[z0mbiefrank]

you should be able to communicate with ur gf! if you feel comfortable enough to explain please do and if you’re even meant to be together she should understand. maybe y’all can compromise on her at least helping you thru it / doing only one

yes ive explained it to her a few times, but shes a very excitable person (helloooo adhd) and always has an optimistic outlook on things, so can get a bit carried away <33 i call her puppy for a reason (well several reasons but yknow ALKSDJ)

she did help a lot because she assured me its okay for me to be sad in december. she knows i get very worried about not being happy enough and bringing everyone down, so that did ease my anxiety. but the other day someone asked us if we were having a seperate private christmas together and she was immediately like "oh wow that would be amazing we should do that with a special dinner and presents and music and and and-" and then everyone else leapt in like "oh i can give you some christmas crackers and pies!" and i was just stood there feeling ill because i didnt wanna break her heart infront of a whole group of people and then have to explain i have ptsd.

im gonna talk to her about it again after that because i havent had a chance yet (ive been mute a few days after the big group social). it's just difficult because whenever i try to discuss christmas plans my mind just evacuates the building, my brain refuses to remember anything, and i go nonverbal 😭

i also go back and forth like well maybe i CAN do all of that. maybe i will do it. for her. i want her to have a wonderful christmas maybe i can keep it together this year. but i am famously shit at respecting my boundaries and pushing my disabled ass too far to make people happy because "normal people can do it"

#ask #anonymous #i feel a bit better now ive written all that out so thanks for being my journal lol #it will be okay i just got in a panic and needed a vent #she is very loving and understanding of my disabilities #more than i am to myself sometimes