#i might be ok but im not fine at all

[felizusnavidad]

lin wrote "when you're home" after one of his first dates with vanessa

#i might be ok but im not fine at all #i am thinking about this every single day #this song fucked me up so bad in so many ways i cant even explain #because i will never find this??? #shit i dont even have a home at this point i dont belong anywhere lol #brb gonna go cry in my bed #in the heights #but sincerely can you hear me?*

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

my brain likes to bounce between aus and lately the lottery is landing back on lights out. im having many thoughts and uhhhh am i changing some things Again? yeah

#well. perhaps not change so much as Add #and those additions tweak certain things methinks #im more confident in this au now that i Know its pretty canon divergent i think #i can get a little more funky with it #before i wasnt sure how aligned it was so i was hesitant to actually do anything with it #but now! now! i know #i can craft the main body of the 'plot' instead of defaulting to the aftermath #im changing around what happens when and If it happens at all #frank still bites it tho. he needs to. shhhh go to sleep frankie its ok you'll be fine #more confident in what to do with wally and where events go and just yeah everything in general #absolutely unprompted #might actually be able to whip up a concrete outline for that possible fic! #im also changing the aftermath so fucking much and im having Fun with it #new troubles for everyone! more distress in new ways for them! #and transformative experiences for certain others!

[ittybittybumblebee]

i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes

#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but #i feel like it does give good insight #i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough #to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense #gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh. #GUHHGGGHGH #it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself #than that #do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus #i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions #while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose #autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not #im just so conflicted. #do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence. #im so tired #i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta #Now do you get me #all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion #and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them #enjoy my indentity crisis lol #i Might delete some of these tags later

[lunathrix]

The greenpath shenanigans continue!

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#hollow knight #dr ghost #comic #little ghost #broken vessel #the hollow knight #hollie #(for friends) #greenie #hornet #sorry to all the hornet fans for straight up killing her in the first comic she appeared in #jk jk im sure she's fine #and if she isnt we always have necromancy as a backup plan #also I tried coloring traditionally for a change! #I thought it was gonna look horrible but I think its kinda ok actually #might do it again #who knows

[raven]

if you dont wear a mask when you're sick i hope you die. "oh its just a cold its not covid" i dont give a fuck i dont want to get a cold either. you disgust me. you sicken me. literally.

#i have a really really strong immune system but im still like. disabled to the point where if i got sick it would fuck me up bad #like my cousin has a 'cold' i offered her a mask bc my very disabled compromised Grandmother was there and she was like'well its not covid' #and my grandma was like i guess thats fine. which like ok but u should be getting MY permission too. as the second most disabled person #in the room. also for me its dire rn like i feel sooooooooo sooooooo bad rnnnnnn. if my nose gets stuffed up i might genuinely end it all

[crimeronan]

i'm always a polyshipper before anything else bc my own found/created family is a polycule & i base all my (healthy) written relationships off various irl dynamics of mine. i'm genuinely curious how opinions of my fave toh polyship skew amongst people here. answers to this poll will not change the way i post about them or how annoying i am about them though.

#please do not ask questions about whether the ship is hashtag problematic they are very very very tiring as a polyamorous person. #hunter and amity are typically metamours or qprs within this polycule; #hunter and luz can be either qprs or romantic depending on the author/artist; #them being romantic is not incest because they are not related did not grow up together and do not share a guardian. #ok questions Unrelated to these three things might be fine. i just know what the kneejerk discourse is and it is. So So So So So Tiring. #did my time in another fandom with a polycule involving a gay man and a woman as metamours and u would not BELIEVE #the level of viciousness hate discrimination and straight-up evil bigotry. i just Really Dont Wanna Do It For This Fandom #now that that soapbox is over. THEY #CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT THEM. IM DYING TO TALK ABOUT THEM I WANNA TALK ABOHT THEM ALL THE TIME #toh #lavender winter

[soldier-poet-king]

why did i decide my next crafting project was gonna be a kit for klimt's the kiss. why did i do this to myself. bitch u are PINING.

#WAHHHHHH #the duality of fran #literally ignore me #but idk man the past few weeks have just been. PINING. PINING. PINING. #WE HATE IT HERE. I HATE HOW MUCH I LOVE AND CRAVE ROMANCE. FUCK THIS #I LOVE LOVE AND IM MAD ABOUT IT #anyway cant finish the other piece until it dries. i had to rinse out all the water soluble marker bc i FUCKED UP the lettering #and cant try again til it dries. might go get a fine tip fabric marker and try with that instead #either way. current project is the kiss and im like. why the fuck did i buy this kit. why did i do this to myself #AND im playing a text based otome on steam??? ARE U FR GIRL???? ARE U STUPID?? (YES. YES I AM) #literally also play pathologic which is the LEAST romantic game of all time. its a horrible metanarrative tragedy #and YET. me and percy are both like. daniil??? daniil i love u????? sad russian man i love uuuuuu #anyway. brain is bad. i need to be buff and hot and just like. idk. loved. loved. loved. #love romance and im mad about it so im gonna go be emo abt thara celehar instead. #like. if im having a bad time u know who is also always having a bad time and usually in the exact same way as me??? #thara. it's always thara. we have the same problems ok. anyway. there's also...no. i shant say it. but iykyk.

[rose-lalondde]

pro tip: if you think you have adhd then don't start a master's program before you even get a diagnosis (also you need a stronger prescription, you have astigmatism, and reading glasses aren't gonna cut it)

#i can handle one class just fine but 2 classes??? im killing myself #im working too so its like i never have time for myself and its just a neverending well of assignments and work plus i hate the schedule #why is everything due at 10:59 and why is it due in the middle of the week but i have to come back the next 2 days and write responses #one of my classes will trade out a disucssion for the week with an assignment thats due at the end of the week and i like that sm better #the other class makes use do a discussion and an assignment in the same week #and usually they're all due at the same time so i go to work and then go home do my homework and then do more homework on the weekend #then go back to work do you understand my problem #anyway my mom casually confirmed that i have astigmatism recently which ??? #but my eyesight is fine but driving in the dark is hell and its not b/c of the dark! #any kind of bright light blinds me like it could be a sunny day and i won't be seeing shit for that entire drive omg #just realized that this might be the cause of an increase in headaches wait... #ok back on track: adhd consultation (maybe) in a month and a half! #i don't have a therapist so im hoping my doctor can help? or at least refer me to somebody that can help b/c looking is hard omg #where the therapists at omg #moon posts #long one today because i am procrastinating so i can give up <3

[blueskittlesart]

Hi! As someone who now kinda wants to check out Trigun because of the hype, do you recommend that I can start with Stampede? Or do I really need to watch the OG anime first to better understand/enjoy it? Thank you! 🙋🏻‍♀️

you can start with stampede! i'd say knowing the context of the original enhances the experience but isn't necessary to enjoy the show. I would consider stampede more viewer-friendly, especially for those of us who are used to modern storytelling conventions (the original suffers the consequences of general writing trends in anime at the time it was produced and of the fact that it was produced long before the manga was finished, so the story is somewhat disjointed and has a lot of filler which makes it REALLY hard to get into.) if you do end up liking stampede, however, I'd suggest trying out watching at least SOME of the original because it adds a lot of cool nuance and context to the story that stampede tells!

#your only REAL handicap is that you're missing out on references that clue you into the context of the story early on #and quite a few references in the finale. but none of those references are hugely necessary to understand the plot so you should be fine! #i didn't DISLIKE the origial and like i said im glad i watched it first but it was. REALLY hard to get into. #even as someone who understands writing trends & enjoys a lot of older anime trigun is. a product of its time. #there's almost no context given for the story you're witnessing until a good 20 episodes in. #the main villain isn't named at all until halfway through the runtime #and even TWO EPISODES BEFORE THE FINALE i still did not have enough information to fully understand what the hell was going on #vash was going into the final fucking battle and i still didn't know what knives WAS let alone what the fuck he WANTED #not to mention nick was FULLY DEAD and i still didnt know what his deal was. like ok go off king have ur moment bleeding out in the church #but can you EXPLAIN WHATS GOING ON BEFORE YOU SUCCUMB TO THE BLOOD LOSS PLEASEEEEEEEE GOD #stampede does that whole thing WAY better imo. it sprinkles the backstory more naturally throughout the show #again. part of this is 90s writing conventions. but there's only so much i can take fr #it was like comparable to evangelion in terms of LACK OF CONTEXT #anyways. this isnt supposed to be me complaining about the original. it had its moments. i watched 24 episodes of it like it was not BAD #but like. i think the story really benefits from the way that stampede chooses to lay everything out. is what im saying. #tldr watch them in whatever order but if you like stampede try the original #you might not like it more than stampede but you WILL feel cool when you realize how it all relates to stampede #asks #vash is also WAAAAAY sexier in stampede. HOWEVER. the women of the show are like 10 times sexier in the original. so. pick your poison ig

[nyupuun]

Won Top 4 at locals for the Age of Overlord Sneak Peek (this made me so happy I have to share it everywhere.)

Also, another person really liked the anime (specifically 5Ds) so now we're writing with one another and I don't think I've done anything harder than trying to act normal and allistic about Yugioh. Someone at Locals also said they liked how 'excited' I was about it, and I know it probably wasn't even meant in a mean way but I still felt a bit bad cause I don't even know how to be normal!!!!!

#i should make a locals tag #for when I go to locals and failflop (BUT JTS SO OK I LOVE YUGIOH) #Also i won like. all my matches EXCEPT THE LAST ONE. but its so fine and cool cause it was the person that liked the animes too #so it was really fun. also i was gonna win the second game and they said 'heart of the cards is gonna topdeck crazy' #and then they DID. (the horus spell forgot its name (fakefan)) #so i went 4-1 and im glad because it truly was my personal best so far :) #also not to rant in. tags BUT. we were talking about the anjme right? and then another person says they only like early yugioh #we talk and I say yugi is my favourite character from it (like. little yugi not yy) #and then they go 'cause hes a noob that cant do anything' #my smile dropped so hard. :( #someone should study the way yugioh players watch the anime because its not even the first time people think YUGI is bad at the game #like. ????????????????? ok #sorry small rant i love talking about yugioh and the anime and everything ruaaa #might delete later #random ramble #long tags #yugioh #sorry jm kinda embarrassing

[bonetrousledbones]

this undyne drawinhg is gonna fucking kill me actually

#trousled rambles #ok so i maybe might have possibly completely restarted the sketch. but shhhhh its fine its ok the new one got finished #well . im still gonna add a shit more bc i wanna make this an In Depth character sheet kinda thing bc she deserves that level of detail #BUT!!!the initial fucking-around-with-silhouette stage is done #all done with the power of homosexual hyperfixation 😌

[frenzymutt]

What Chima stuff have you done so far? It's cool to see new people join the Chima community!

Oh hello! :D

I’m somewhat new to tumblr, and this is my first time making a blog that is dedicated to one fandom. I haven’t done to much in the fandom yet, but I’m happy to be in a welcoming community!

And I’m excited! I have lots of fanart I wanna do, and I was pleasantly surprised to see how active this fandom is, despite being quite small.

I plan on rewatching the Chima show as a whole, and then indulging in fanworks after. I’ve treated myself to sneak peaks of your fanfic and I can’t wait to read it!

Chima holds so many memories, watching the show with my brother, building Lego sets, and getting excited with every new season. Let’s just say I was more than disappointed when it was cancelled.

Besides all of that, I’m really happy to enter the fandom again! I don’t really know how to start posting art, and I’m a bit nervous lol. Once I finish watching the series over again, I’ll hop right into reading fanfics, posting art and discussing the series. I admire your work, as you’re both an artist and author! I’m no author, but I love reading fanfics and books.

I’m hoping this fandom will also help me care less about how many likes my posts get. The fandom isn’t dead, but it is small, and I know my art won’t get much traction. It’ll teach me to not judge my art by the amount of likes or reblogs it has.

Anyway, sorry for rambling lol. And thanks for the ask, I’m so excited to join and it’s nice to know I’m welcome :)

#thx for the ask #uhhhhhhh don’t know if I should tag this with Lego chima and stuff #never mind I might as well #chima #legends of chima #lego chima #lego legends of chima #I think that’s all the main chima tags #ok thxs again moot IM EXCITED TO MAKE ART RAHHHHH I just gotta binge watch it over the weekend lol #I’m excited to be in this fandom again #but you can probably tell lol #I’m also a bit nervous but that’s just my internal monologue I’ll be fine #Terrified I would make a grammar error and I ended up rereading this post seven or eight time :P

[todayisafridaynight]

theres no better place for my ichi ringtone to go off than during my exam tbh

#snap chats #i DO NOT want to talk about my exam <- is gonna talk about it #i get bad physiological reactions to tests itd be hilarious if it wasnt annoying #i hate taking tests cause ill know the answers 100% but then i go to take the official test and i 👁️👁️ i forget literally everything #LIKE AS IM FILLING IN THE ANSWERS I KNOW ITS WRONG BUT MY BRAIN JUTS REFUSES TO PUT THE RIGHT ONE #I REMEMBER THE INFO I JUST CANT PUT THEM IN THE RIGHT SPOTS I GET SO NERVOUS AND FOR WHAT i hate tests. #theres nothing i can do tests have been my bane for years and ill just have to live with my educators thinking im stupid <- i am #anyway. during my exam yeah. quiet-ass room and then you hear my dork-ass ringtone go off like HELP I WAS JUST 👁️👁️ #now the whole classroom knows youre a dweeb. jk no one at my school knows rgg its fine #anyway im upset and im fighting every demon telling me to go to the bar and get a drink #NO. BAD SNAP. BAD COPING MECHANISM. YOU ALSO HAVE NO MONEY ENOUGH #i have my last class of the day in twenty minutes i wanna curl up in a ball instead but thats not how life works now is it so BYE #wait can i talk bout my morning cause it was goofy #i called up my doc to get my DRUGS refilled and she was lookin over my doc like #'my man you have too much testosterone' My Sister In Christ No The Fuck I Don't LMAO if i hear one more 'sorry ma'am' i just might lose it #funny world innit.. ok my class starting soon thats all i wanted to share LMAO BYE

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

My mom just sent a message to the family group chat suggesting that my siblings download the 'For the Strength of Youth' magazine on their Gospel Library app and talked about how much the youth magazines helped her testimony growing up and like, cool. Fine. Don't know why the 'sending random spiritual thoughts in the gc' thing started out of nowhere when it hadn't been a thing for a decade but this is just another one of those, and you're ofc allowed to talk about things that are significant in your life.

I don't think sending the 'What I Did When Someone Close to Me Challenged My Faith' article right afterwards was strictly necessary though 🙃

#hi bg mutuals 👋 i'm gonna vent about this from time to time. if any mutuals dont want to see it block the 'apostake' tag #trying not to read too much into it b/c I think I did last time something like this happened #and i dont want to make an ass of myself even if neither time would actually be in front of my parents #but like...i know that they know that one of my sisters is clearly PIMO #they went through her phone a couple weeks ago and i have no idea if they read my texts w/ her #but if they did they probably saw the conversation i had with her about some of the really common shelf-breakers #and telling her to take looking into it at her own pace b/c it's scary and overwhelming #(a conversation SHE started btw) #and when i talked to my parents about the larger context of that whole situation i talked about not having space to step back #and their response was that they give plenty of space b/c they dont make her go to seminary??? #that's not the same thing as letting her openly question & potentially leave the church idk what to tell you #like. besties i dont know for sure what caused it (which is NOT making things better. it just feels potentially passive aggressive) #but from my end? it sure looks like it might be a reaction to that. probably not JUST that (friends exist) but. #if you think I'm whispering anti-mormon rhetoric into my siblings' ears just ask me. i'm very much NOT doing that #i'm just. talking? to them? when and if they come to me with questions? #and not making my answer 'well there's a reason our parents raised us in the church! ☺️' #(an actual argument given in the article my mom sent) #hate it. thanks #apostake #jay rambles #ok to interact #im not challenging anyone's faith. my patience though? INCREDIBLY challenged #gotta figure out how to work my way around a 'hey please dont send spiritual thoughts to the gc *I'm in*' talk tactfully #they've been pretty chill about me leaving over-all?? at least to my face #haven't pushed me to go to church w/ them; was fine with me not visiting for easter; didnt try to convince me to not drink coffee; etc #it's just. frustrating that they're not giving my siblings that still live with them that same grace #my sister's 17 ffs #it's very possible im way overreacting to the article. but what is tumblr for if not screaming into the void #religion #mormonism

[deus-and-the-machina]

I havent really been into the current state of the JJK manga for a while, im at the point where its ending might hold some value for me as someone who was already invested in the characters but largely aside from seeing how a few things pan out I just really really couldn't care less. 

that being said I have to thank gege for every new chapter giving us more and more good looking Gojos. the more feral and covered in blood the better, and hoo boy am I getting that.

#god can he just kill sukuna already tho. like idc about this I want gojo v kenjaku #im of two minds on the megumi thing bc I do think its weird that gojo hasn't had any strong thoughts about potentially killing megumi #(tho i do think gege is like. holding them back rather than ignoring them) but I also think the fandom forgets their canon relationship #like yeah its nice to imagine them as a wholesome family but I dont think they even think of themselves as father and son at all lol #guardian and ward morelike. and I do think gojo was a decent guardian but I also dont think that recently traumatized and also annoying #teen gojo was ever like. very emotionally available or comforting. not to say it shouldn't be expected for gojo to be upset about this but #also I think people can get a little too wrapped up in their wholesome family pics. bc for one you can bet your ass gege doesnt care about #tsumiki enough to consider whether gojo was technically her guardian as well and how he'd care about her fate. or even nobaras it seems #holding out for gojo to be simply repressing his feelings and it biting him in the ass later but idk #he DID look strained when realizing megumis soul recognized ultimate void tho :(((( that does make me said :(((((( #anyways sukuna was a fine enough villain for me but ngl hes gotten a lil annoying likewhatevs dude idc. kenjaku is hells more cunty than you #normally I wouldn't mind his shallow motives and didnt bc he was a threat that contributed to the plot but now that hes out and running #loose hes just so boring idk. like you're just gonna fight stuff. ok. lame. kenjaku vs gojo might actually have some emotional weight to it #idc about this fight and idc about sukuna #like when gojo mentioned his students and they all grinned. that! that that that he cares about them ok gege! #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 230

[undermostcorgi]

the media which consumes your entire soul at age 12 will forever be a part of you. this is an unavoidable consequence of living and you have to accept this fact. no matter how old you get, no matter how long it has been since you last saw its smug face peeking out from the bushes as it follows you, no matter if you think you have outrun it for good and that you're finally finally safe and you hardly even remember it exists anymore and your brain knows a few brief moments of true peace, it WILL catch up to you in your moment of weakness. and listen you don't want to hear this but sometimes this is necessary for your mental health. you will on instinct want to reject it and run away again but sometimes. sometimes you just need to watch that old show or listen to that silly song or read that weird book again as an adult and it will hurt you a little bit in various little ways but it will also heal you a little bit. you can call it nostalgia you can call it connecting with your inner child or whatever you want but just listen to me it WILL HAPPEN TO YOU TOO AT SOME POINT AND YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR THIS (i am forcibly dragged off the stage by security)

#heed my warning boy #it seems i am not well today #recently made the reluctant decision to revisit what was probably my VERY FIRST real hyperfixation #something that i don't necessarily want to mention by name right now because. well #its pretty objectively bad LOL like i dont think i know of ANYONE still posting about it or really proud of having liked it back in the day #i dont think it is as well known to the general public so it wont get me hunted down for sport even if i did name it probably hopefully #but for those who know its. probably not the best thing to be revisiting lmao (even though i think it might still be being made?? wtf) #but i felt i had to because i was about to start my period and was going crazy insane like you do you know how it is #and i randomly remembered a fanfic i loved and then remembered my fav character and how much i loved him #my actual first ever blorbo oh my GOD he was everything to me #so i reluctantly decided to rewatch “just the first few episodes” just to see how much i remembered and also to prove to myself it sucks #but surprise surprise: nostalgia and hormones are making me actually kind of enjoy it #and now i am suffering from fucking Catholic-like Guilt for not hating it which i think is pretty silly lmao #so im kind of posting this in an attempt to convince myself that its like. FINE and cringe is dead and all that #and that sometimes i gotta be nice to my little mentally ill brain and give it the junk food (bad media) it craves #ESPECIALLY when im on my period LMAO #anyway completely unrelated: why the FUCK do i still remember almost every single fucking word to the delicious tomato song SDHJFKSAJF #i hope no one actually reads this far in the tags bc i know that reveal will probably deal psychological damage to some of you LMAO SORRYYY #ok yeah posting this and then immediately going to bed so that the Haters cant reach me LOL SEE YA