#i say that like i wasnt already insane

[rillette]

i need a sleepers adaptation so bad you guys. comic or tv or movie idc just like a faithful visual adaptation i would go literally insane 

#in other news i read a couple more chapters of the third sleepers book today its sooooooo good u guys its driving me insane #hal is sooooo pathetic in it like sopping wet even #i really liked the adaptation of him getting the ring a lot. the way he just sits in the test sim and refuses to get out. babygirl u are #so relatable right now #coughing up blood i might do some test sketches bc i can like. see this book in my head so very clearly and im so bad at visualization guys #the way the author Gets It like the way Jack is described is exactly what people who havent read the older comics think hal is like #AND THEY DONT TREAT HAL LIKE AN IDIOT #like yeah hes a dipshit but hes sooo book smart you guys this book is driving me insane #i say that like i wasnt already insane #ly normal about hal ahahaa

[spaciebabie]

springtrap says the EVIL sex word because hes so so SCARY and evil and PURPLE AAAAA!!!!!! AAAAAA!!! SEX!!!!!!! MOUMMY!! HEEELP!!!!

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #springtrap #purple guy #william afton #springtrap fnaf #you all should listen ta the hit album 'sex in minecraft' by joel varg #a classic if i do say so myself #GRANDMA HAS DIED BUT I STIIIIIIIILLLL HAVE SEX IN MINECRAAAAAAAAAAAFT #what is up w/him and grandma first the ghostbusters album now this #glitchtrap #vanny fnaf #this has been stuck in my head for forever #this is what insanity looks like :\ #oh well already knew thattun #i wasnt supposed ta draw this taday. it was supposed ta be. something else. #weeeeeereeeerrrrghgh #bye #suggestive #i guess #spacie scribbles

[oatbugs]

she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!

#like have some shame omg . have some respect #shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her #not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was #like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig #anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so. #also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn #like genuinely does she have no sense of shame #also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that #no matter what i say i wont reject her #WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH. #I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT #also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao #also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine #lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo #INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc #i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she #said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant #believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off #UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE. #crushposting

[chanyoungies]

김준서 (KIM JUN SEO) 1st Mini Album [ECHOES of love] 2022.11.20 6PM (KST)

#kim junseo #wei #ouiai #DEAR GOD it's 10AM as i draft we have 6 hours to go until i post but oh my god im finally done i thought id never finish dear GOD #this is far from the best thing ive ever done. but it was an interesting experience #nd definitely took some time (not the most tho . nothing can beat paula's birthday set when it comes to that) but also .... surprisingly #less than i thought ? like longer but also shorter .? u know ? #this made me go insane i kept forgetting about my food and i also kept working in silence half of the time bc i would forget to put smth on #eri if i decide to do a second one next year PLEASE tell me to start sooner like if i start brainstorming into ur ear in like may pls accept #i say 'if' as if i wasnt already working on song choices for next year lmao #i was really excited for this and i think that made me not rlly think as much as i should have i think i can do better next year . if i star #if i start early enough #ANYWAYS #happy junseo birth <3 my prince <3 or smth idk #pls dont perceive the mcd thumbnail from up close i beg u #boy who's so important . . a boy so fox . . . nation's model (2) pretty boy with pretty voice . . whatever im not gonna start rambling more #but he's very important n i hope he knows that he is & that he's so very loved & i hope that he's happy today and always . etc #nd i love him or whatever . whatever whatever no one look everyone close your eyes #*mine #special thanks to eri as always my bewoved who has been hearing me talk about this for the past like month thank u for putting up with me #(re:this and also in general i love u)

[srkgirlblogger]

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#the day was going so well until my mom decided to be mean to me for no reason in a piblic space where i was already feeling scared and over #stimulated. i wanted to try out the skateboards in decathlon but there were too many people and i got scared. and my mom suddenly said that #the skateboard that she was going to buy for me after/on my birthday. she had decided to buy now. since we were alr in theshop and i said no #way bec i hadnt decided which one i wanted yet and i was soo panicked. and then after some time when id calmed down a bit and was gonna try #to skate anyways she started questioning me abt when i planned on peacticing and where i was gonna do it and i obviously just started saying #things that i thought she would approve of. and then she told me i didnt have the time management skills or resolve to make it work. and she #just kept on passive aggressively bullying me until i just couldnt do it anymore and i told her i wanted go leave the store bc she was #spoiling the mood. and then she started bullying me louder and she told me to stop blaming her bc she was only asking me a question and she #didn't want to waste any more money on things that i wasnt gonna do even though ive wanted a skateboard for years now and have been actively #asking her for months. and i just lost my emergy and my appetite and i wanted to leave the mall and go home but insteaf she gook us to a #bagel place that ive been trying to get her to take us even though i felt like throwing up before we even left the mall and i told her i #didnt want to go there. and my brother even told her that she was ruining things for everyone. and he still ended up blaming me in the end. #but whatever. i kept getting flashbacks to insanely traumatic moments where shed yelled at or bullied me or cornered me or tried to #embarass me in public. and this is most likely my last year at home. and my last year of childhood. and its all going to be remembered in my #brain as underwhelming and depressing and mostly horrible. and im going to leave home and never cone back and my last year at home is going #to be just as shitty as every other year and ill just have to deal with that and try to build something good and new and kind when i leave #she shouldnt speak to her own children like this. she shouldnt be looking for reasons to make things miserable for me all the time like this #i should study. my head hurts. my entire body hurts so bad #delete later

[flawedfemalecharacter]

yellowjackets be like we did terrible things we r bad ppl and im just like... girl every single thing u did waa either for survival or out of madness like i think the rules of comon decency do not apply when u r lost in the woods for 19 months ure good

#the only thing i cant forgive is trying to kill nat #like misty girl u shouldve told them where crystal was!!!! #or like if u were feeling rlly stabby stabby #lottie #like girl was 99 percent dead already #and i know its wrong to say it but like coach ben WANTED to die #but he conviniently wasnt there... #anyways u were insane so i can forgive it i guess #tbis time #yellowjackets

[skitskatdacat63]

Every time I go watch all the Seb edits in my tiktok folder, I just realize how much of a menace I'm going to be when I get to watching 2010. I really am not mentally prepared for the 2010-2013 seasons, I think I will actually explode from how much I love him 😭 I chose to go with 2009 to kinda lean in slowly to the Seb years, but I realized, he's DNFed in both races so far, so I've been spared from the inevitable combustion you guys will witness once he actually gets a podium sjdjkff

#i actually watched the next race China 2009 already but it was like...4 months ago so i might as well! #i vaguely remember being insane abt it but don't worry it can only get worse from here #but seriously watching edits of him im like thumping my chest w my fist cause i feel so !!!!! abt him #so i really cant imagine what its gonna be like to actually watch those races...god... #2010 is my favorite season in terms of narrative and general aesthetic(of rbr and seb yknow) #so like ik a lot abt it but hold myself back from watching it bcs i know im gonna be so deranged abt it #those gifposts are gonna be like 30 gifs i swear to you dhfkgkgl #but ah! china 2009! probably one of my fav races ever! #but i wasnt too experienced when i first watched it so itll be good to rewatch it #but its very emotionally important to me okay?? my emotional support race 🤧 #okay sry its quite late at night and im in such a !!!!!! mood abt tiktok edits #i think i just love him too much for my heart to contain sometimes.... #idk when ill be able to watch china 2009 tho cause this wk is finals wk 😬 #<- i say that but watch me do it by the end of the wk hahahaha #catie.rambling.txt

[dumbasswhatever]

at the beginning of the trial for 4-2, the judge makes it pretty clear that he hasnt seen klavier in court since the trial of seven years ago, and he even says that he worried klavier might still be upset about it. but klavier doesnt actually confirm or deny any of this

this dialogue drives me so insane. did he really stay away from all legal matters for seven years? did he prosecute cases and just happened to deal with other judges? did he work on cases that he didnt prosecute (like how edgeworth worked on sl-9 without being the prosecutor)??? he didnt even start prosecuting cases right after kristoph was arrested, there were about two months between 4-1 and 4-2, so it seems like he really did just start standing in court again to see if apollo was a good lawyer or not. im losing my mind i need to see klavier gavin again i need to know if he really did stop working as a prosecutor entirely for seven years and if he really did suspect that kristoph manipulated him all along

#gripping the sides of my laptop so tightly i crush it. so i've been thinking about aa4 recently #this is all questions but generally i think that um. theres no way he gave up being a prosecutor entirely #i mean klavier said that daryan was the very first detective he ever worked with. and the case seven years ago had gumshoe instead #so we know that before that case klavier had probably been working on other cases and just wasnt like the prosecutor in charge of em #so he very much could have been doing that #also. if he did stop standing in court. did he really believe that kristoph manipulated him??? like listen #yes in 4-4 he says that hes been wondering about the truth of that case for seven years #but. he could have been lying. bc earlier when apollo suggests that kristoph is the killer in 4-4 #klavier says. and i quote. 'there's no way my bro could do a thing like that!' #and the judge is like yeah he was in jail he couldnt have done that. but the wording of that sounds much more like klavier believes that #his bro is not an evil person. (yes kristoph was already arrested for murder once at this point. but if klavier watched that trial then #i think theres a good chance he noticed that the bloody ace was suspicious as shit. i think he could have still believed kris to be innocen #............................................who knows maybe he believed kristoph not to be a murderer but a guy who gave him wrong info #why did i put this in the tags if i was gonna write a whole essay. whatever. i have to put klavier in my brain and microwave him every #so often. i know so many klavier lines its insane also i know that some of these lines probably were not meant to be thought about too much #but what are htey gonna do? put me in ace attorney jail??? let me see klavier and franziska and kay and sebastian? ok go ahead

[borvooven]

I will never understand why the fuck people talk about stuff they don't know anything about. Especially if it's basic human intelligence, like how did you live on this earth in our society for 17 years and then say shit like "Trans people become a different person after they transition." Someone seriously said this in class this morning and I'm still in pure shock, this is easily the stupidest thing I have ever heard. Brother, how the fuck do you think this works?? Someone comes out as trans and just suddenly gets a whole different personality out of nowhere?? Please for the love of god, google is free. If you're going to discuss LGBTQ stuff in class fucking research basic info about it first. Just two minutes earlier someone said furries are part of "this LGBTQ+ nonsense" (as he called it). It's literally a whole different thing, what the fuck makes you think shit like that?! It's literally not that hard to understand, just fucking open google and research shit before you start attacking humans for existing. Jesus fucking christ.

#rant #i still cant believe he said that #he usually seems like a pretty smart guy and then he says trans people are a different person after transitioning #i just turned to my friend in disbelief and eas like 'he did not fucking say that' but he already lost hope in these idiots hours ago #so he wasnt surprised #i just hope i can have a normal discussion with them next friday and they will use basic human intelligence to understand what theyre #saying is absolute bullshit #and then they always want to start discussing that shit with me cause they know im queer #and they think im insanely 'woke' or whatever they call #dude im just a guy trying to get his abitur i stopped caring if youre homophobic or not three years ago cause youre stealing my last nerve #and apparently dont possess any trace of intelligence anyways #one more day with these guys and i will become a criminal istg

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#me @ birth control: u were supposed to bring balance to my moods not leave me in darkness! #whats worse? rocketing around with volatile moods feeling insane nearly all the time but sometimes in a fun way? or feeling level headed but #depressed enough at u dont give a fuck abt anything? #i say the latter so i should probably stop taking it. i cant handle the bloating or the depression. assuming i wasnt already on track to #feel like this bc it started before i was on the pill but it hasnt let up. but if u have a predisposition to mood issues or adhd u r more #likely to have depressive side effects. hod dammit. i need something that causes side effects in either ppl with bipolar or adhd so i can #disentangle myself from this mess. ugh. not that it even matter. im just treating this like an experiment with a sample size of 1 #the disadvantage of having an obsessive analytical mind: treating yourself like a test Subject #ugh. whatever ill see my counselor Monday and she'll tell me to chill the fuck out abt this. bc im being insane abt it #unrelated #genuinely tho im procrastinating rn for a class i have in an hour. that is very very very unlike me. im usually a: ill have it donr 2 days #ahead sort of person. bc im an anxious freak but now im just tired.

[castielsparkle]

literally being in therapy and my therapist asking/saying Pls we Need . to test for [X] disorder and im like??? LOL nope we dont bc i already gave myself the ocular patdown i do NOT have that disorder thank you though . i would know for sure bc i would remember experiencing something like that . and she was like straight up . hey. you know the number one criteria is like being unaware . of it. there. and i was like . ????? um??? no bc i would definitely Know if that happened to me and she was just like . bro the . you dont know thats the kicker and

anyways felt like this goodnight

#cas.txt #we went ten mins past ohr normal sessions which NEVER ever ever ever happens #even tho im her last patient of the day i am rlly on top of Not Extending #and like #ive been her patient for longer+consistently than . well. #any other therapist ive had #and she actually respects me and my symptoms and issues #Nd it was soo insane actually being respected to the point #where SHE Fully suggested this. not me!!! #re: i had already said i do NOT have this disorder in my brain so i def wasnt gonna bring it up in session i have other stuff to talk abt #and then she was like oh shit youre describing [X] real hardcore #anyyyways. umm #what else was i gonna . say #oh also yeah we r gonna try to shoot for two hour sessions #and i have one inbetween my next session so #all new stuff and i need it actually LOL

[carcarrot]

the delicate balance of intense rage while doing my job but also experiencing lust for that old man

#my internal monologue is insane in case it wasnt already obvious #5 minutes of road rage (silently yelling at stock traders to move out of the way of the cart of coffee i push) #followed by 5 minutes of ohhh my god the babygirl (nearly 75 year old man) #as they say in some like it hot nearly 3 quarters of a century. makes a person think #but i am not deterred and so the delicate balance goes on

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@raiden-metal-gear-rising sorry this is a gaypos for u but it mite be more of just a rant because i am fuming (not rly i am just frustrated bc . u know why <3)

#im sur u read my previous posts abt uhhh my mom goign to visit my brother bc shes on vacation rn right . shes off til next sunday i think #but uh. yeah thats not happening bc guess what!! she cant afford it!!! because wow who wuldve thought that having to pay twice as much #money for bills + groceries would make u poorer than u already are!!!!! we are struggling!!!!!!! #and what has robynne done? nothing but PARTIALLY pay for grocieries. emphasis on *partially* #idk man its just insane. even if mom wasnt rly thinking about coming to see u we still cant bc we cannot afford it at all....... #i even said if i need to get a job i will and then added 'bceause im more willing to get one than she is' n she just looked at me #and idk man its just frustrraing . pls moeve out of ur place soon so i can leave and move in with u KAJSKLBKKLJG #i dont mean to say that to like rush u or anything u can do whatever u awant at Whatever pace u want i donot minde . it is oke #i just !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! h #i have a very strong feeling im gonna be moving out before she does............................ #just saying #sorey i kno this is supposed 2 be positive bc is gaypos but . i am not in a good mood i want 2 scream and throw things i think #i just want my house back!!!! im tired!!!!!! im so fucking tired man!!!!!! i m going insane!!!!!!!! #and now i just feel horrible bc rob knows i talk shit about her in vc and i just feel like i cannot talk out loud at all rn bc what if shes #fuckin eavesdropping!!! thats another thing did she just overhear me or like completely listen in on our conversation #bc if she listened in on us then thats fucked and i hope she fucks off #but if she just overheard us then idk man guess ill just have to close my door and keep it closed all the time which is something i donot #want to do !! #i dont like having my door closewd bc 1. it gets humid and 2. kitty does not like it and also 3. i just like having it open #but i feel like i cant have it open anymore bceause what if shes listening to just everything i say now!!!!!! i feel unsafe!!!!!! #get me out of here bestie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #sory im just . H!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im going insane ill rb this with happier thoughts in a second i just #oh i am so mad . so mad

[arundolyn]

i love how i had just checked the page for the izayoi also bc it said on the uniform section of the NOL page that “tsubaki is allowed to wear the izayoi while on duty, despite it not being part of the standard uniform”, which led me to believe oh, maybe the izayoi is her WHOLE OUTFIT that would make sense as to why it looks like ayames

......come to find out no, they did just mean the hat. so like help girl are we ignoring tsubaki’s flagrant nigh uncharacteristic disregard for uniform rules for the sake of?? historical accuracy/homage to one of her ancestors? which is honestly sorta on brand for her

#crow.txt #blazblueposting #bc like there IS art of her in a proper wings of justice uniform. like official art. a few i think? #i remember this Specifically bc they say the wings of justice are supposed to have feathers on their sleeves and for some reason #all of them i can remember have little like.. cloth things? #and that bugged me hfjkdhkh #like they make it CLEAR its Only the hat #which is very very funny considering tsubaki is just straight up not wearing literally any of her proper uniform #despite being THE rule abiding goody two shoes to the woooooorst degree ever that is her whole brand #shes more focused on upholding the law and shit than the damn imperator (until the middle of cp and all but yknow) #izanami just kinda fucks around and then she sees tsubaki going absolutely HAM doing everything in her name to keep 'order' as she sees it #and shes like oh shit lol thats fucking hilarious. im going to mind control her now #(as if she wasnt pretty much doing that already honestly. but yeah take away the REST of her free will sure) #god i love remembering tsubaki is the funniest character in blazblue bc she seems like 'normal' but shes actually insane about it #literally every character is the funniest character judging by different metrics. this franchise is going to kill me. #i love just. on one hand: crazy that tsubaki would actually violate the strictures of her job like that in a way she normally wouldnt #BUT in the other: her being soooooo obsessed with larping ayame that she goes up to? idk the head of the wings of justice #and goes pleaaaase can i wear this instead of my uniform. pretty please. #and shes so pathetic about it they cant say no #not often do i get to call tsubaki pathetic but its always funny when i do

[our-lady-of-mcr]

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#anyways im still mad today but its not lingering in my head like it was yesterday #thank fucking god for that lmfao #the more i think about it the more i realize that theres really no reason to be that upset bc yeah it sucks to lose #someone so close to me like that but......she was not afraid to give me red flags even when we were in a good place #and tbh this felt like a huge neon sign screaming get out while you can #and if the other girls we were friends with want nothing to do with me after this i honestly really do not care #i didnt see them often anyways and the one is basically still a teenager who drove me nuts 95% of the time #and the other 2 dont get into drama at all so i doubt they feel any type of way about me considering neither of them are that kind of person #im more annoyed that she did this right before we had plans for one of the girls birthdays and i have a feeling thats not happening anymore #i keep wanting to ask if were still doing anything but i would actually rather die than see b so..........no thank you #even if they do say anything ive already made other plans for tomorrow so......oh well #i feel so much less insane when everyone says i didnt do anything and its scaring me that i keep thinking back to the time era she accused #me of saying shit during and im like ???? i dont remember saying that. did i say that?? did i say you shouldnt have had your kid and i just #dont remember??? did i say we hang out to escape him and i just dont remember???? and all i can think of is false memories and a situation #where someone else said those things to me in that same time period. anyways i dont know why anyone would remember that specific of wording #if it wasnt to just be used as ammo later. but i genuinely dont remember saying any of that shit esp not that recently????? #and b is ungodly great at gaslighting and she also takes shit at face value and doesnt seek further info if shes not doing okay #so im just.....yeah im taking this as my sign #and to eliza from february.....bitch did i say any of that because i do not fucking remember it #self

[titlishu]

my only wish in life is to be a fictional character

#its kinda insane but like. i already dont feel real. like i havent felt real since a long time and LISTEN #if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense. ykwim. #like im not Sad im nust. not anything atp. im nothing BUT if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense #also like??? imagine being percieved by people you have never met. imagine being written. imagine art being made of you. #like nit just the ego boost but ive been thinking about how like. if these characters were real it would defest the whole purpose of them #and all of this love we have for them will always be unknown to them #but like the thought of wanting to be a fictional character in someones story is so. like i #deep DEEP yearning to be a character. just not real. im not even kidding the whole of december and now january this is all #ive wanted #like at first i was like. i dont feel real then it pipelined to i wish i wasnt real to i wish i was a fictional character who's story has #been written already. ykwim? #i may sound crazy rn but i dont CARE i had to get this out #like im sick of being. an author and not the character. im sick of being the creator and not the creation. yk? #is this how god feels sometimes #man... #i also have Noticed that sometimes i talk about human beings as if I'm not one #like i think abiut how interesting humans are and i say it like im an alien that has just made contact w earth #LIKE most times i feel like im not real and it really is like. what the fuck. where am i supposed to be then. yk? #like i dont feel. misplaced but i also dont have a place here. i dont belong anywhere tbh #like. an unwritten future. author unknown. a letter without an address or purpose #this is so. like i dont know how else to say it and get it out there but i just had to cause i #cant just keep Thinking About it by myself ik noones gonna read this but atleast #like if its. written or typed out then it would be more real. more of a record of this. even though my existence (or lack thereof) is #already proif enough #sigh #titli tag #ishworry