#i still suck at it bad and im still at the start but it has a special place in my heart for being some sort of Gaming Titan that scared me

[candle-scm]

not thinking things through

#atla #avatar the last airbender #zukka #zuko #sokka #digital art #atla fanart #my art #artists on tumblr #i like to think sokka and zuko started sucking face at the western air temple #which is fun because it brings the angst of falling for somebody right before a life-or-death battle #and also sokka lamenting being fwb with the worst guy ever #even if he is recently reformed and maybe not so bad #hes still zuko #and sokkas rationality goes out the window #no matter how hard he tries #also obligatory rip toph #school has been kicking my ass but im still going to draw zukka dammit

[skylilac]

this book is acruakly soooo disappointing

#i was thinking like oh religion and queer angels and culty stuff that sounds fun but its actually SO BORING #every fifteen pages he started talking abt his ex like i still love him and also hes ENGAGED???? but he keeps saying betrothed like a weirdo #and like hes literally still in love w his ex but i KNOW thats not the real li but hes talked to the real li like six times maybe #like why put a love triangle if everythings lame and boring #and like the workd building fucking sucks its so bad all i know is global warming made it rlly rlly hot #and ok i get this kinda dystopian setting is hard to pull off but why is it SO fucking jarring i keep forgetting its dystopia #and like listen i get queer rep being important but this is SO BAD. #its like modern queerness + future dystopian apocalypse and it fucking sucks #like nothing abt queerness evolved over the last few decades?? are you fr?? we’re still having the exact same queer discourse?? #if youre gonna write a love letter to queer survival at least be fucking CREATIVE #im not buying that human culture stayed totally static except for global warming and a religious apocalypse #what abt race what abt sports what abt food what abt jewelry and clothes and ughhhh this is so boring #ok and the li also has no personality traits bc every time hes there alk the mc says is #wow! he has floppy hair! that he pushes back w bobby pins! #oh my i dont know how to use the bobby pins he gave me so im gonna dramatically throw them on the floor when we have our only fight! #ALL I KNOW IS. he has floppy hair it might be black #this book fucking sucksssss im so upset i hate gr reviews #avery rambles

[todayisafridaynight]

one day ill stop treating aoki like he was a guy i personally knew that died but todays not that day

#snap chats #if aoki WAS an actual guy i wouldve clicked my heels at his death but no he's a funny fictional guy so im allowed to be dramatic #feels like the first week after i saw aoki die in y7 like Man.. except now there's rage .... ok even more rage who am i kidding-- #IW just reopened the wounds i think JVLAKVJEALKV #reopened the wounds and put vinegar and salt in them but anyway. before i start that rant again. #when is ebay gonna start selling the funeral merch no one knows how bad i need the aoki one at this point #i was watching a y7 randomizer and </3 i started cackling cause aoki behaves the same #I.E. he has to be the last enemy standing before the fight ends AND he still summons enemies #so im just watching this poor guy realize this and then become horrified as aoki summons Another Aoki #and THAT ONE starts summoning more units and 💀 STOP HIM #then yk the stream ended but it was still playing the last bits of aoki's theme and. :miku: #god his boss theme is still so good i could cry thinking of it ..... his and tendos are such phenomenal tracks to end the game with #aoki you still suck but i didnt cherish you enough somehow im not sorry and you deserve to be dead but i also miss you #i should replay y7 .... sorry im mental... #liking aoki while knowing he sucks is so fun because i flip flop with saying i love him but also stressing he sucks #i need everyone to know he's not likable and shouldn't be liked but i had a tohru adachi phase in high school so im already a lost cause #ok bye im gonna drink a pot of tea and question where i went wrong as an individual

[elegyofthemoon]

question: is anyone having the trouble of tumblr eating your tags or is tumblr just being glitchy for me?

i wrote a post just a bit ago and wanted to ramble more on the post in the tags but when i went back to edit the tags, i saw half of the tags were GONE. so i tried to retag everything i remembered but even after i saved, the tags would still be eaten its kinda :/

#snow speaks #idk tumblrs been very glitchy for me as of late #whenever i try to retag things it winds up eating the post and then i lose it to the void #OR this situation where it loses half my tags #like yes i get that i ramble too much but seriously ? T _ T #i think what sucks more is that im about to lose it to the void because it refuses to save the organizing tag and it just has my rambles in #*instead #:/ sucks #its ok i dont need my rambles i have the questionable amount of posts saved in my draft to give myself pain instead but still ;; #its just annoying #like i also know tumblrs always been a faulty website thats basically standing on a stick in order to function #but i never felt like it was THIS bad until like these last few months #and this all started bc i was trying to find a ramble i did a bit ago about di//luc and I WAS PISSED THAT I COULDNT FIND IT AGAIN AND ITS #JUST LOST FOR ETERNITY ON MY BLOG... its annoying

[dazais-crab-addiction]

Guys I legit just had a dream where I read a bsd comic on here and it made me cry so much. And now im awake and its not real and I 100% do not have the artistic talent to recreate it (nor do i want to hurt myself that way, wow it made me cry so much)

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #crab says words #it was a soukoku comic and chuuya died and dazai freaked out and it was lowkey anesans fault #because it was a dream there were very casually homestuck trolls in the background that i didnt notice at first and idk why they were there #and like it was a modern au so they had to have been homestuck cosplayers?? like why were they there!! im so confused #in the comic dazai and chuuya use to be together and they did drugs and when dazai decided to get clean he tried to take chuuya with him #but anesan thought he was a bad influence as hes the reason they started in the first place and said she could take better care of chuuya #without dazai around so made dazai leave and not come back and idk why dazai did so but he did and he got clean and made new friends #but then he gets a call and is on a train and has to id chuuyas body cuz he overdosed and idk where anesan even is at that point #and i legit cried my heart out only to wake up and its not even real??? and i still wanna cry over it??? #this is not a very detailed retelling cuz i suck at doing that but like guys why is my brain doing this to meeeee

[moeblob]

This is really weird but like hello hi I like games that let you make a protag design then let you design someone else to be like. Your follower/ally. And you can make em different heights. I feel the need EVERY TIME to make a tiny protag and a tall secondary character.

I also am so weak for the secondary being non-human, too. Please let me love my weird companions.

#freedom wars #this is outta nowhere supposedly but like lmao i tried a different game and i was just reminded of fw #and im like dang i really liked my sinner who got the title accessory-obsessive and never changed it #weird fact of while i prefer to be called salmon myself very much so?? #i named my sinner in fw something different then named my accessory salmon #he was the love of my life #i still love him tbh #he hates me for spending my life running around not fighting abductors bc im too busy gathering #its true i drew a comic for it ages ago #im a useless wittle fella #my wonderful prison warden beloved salmon hello i love you all these years later #its like in dd:da where you have the arisen and pawn #there is something deep in me that has a profound love for my pawn my beloved weird humanoid pal #listen i just like having tiny trouble makers and tall rule abiders who are very done with my antics #bc tbh i suck at games i am so bad at playing games if my life depended on being good at games i would die #theres also a secret third game that i am very much not mentioning out of shame that i started last night where you can do this #and my only complaint is i made the mc a guy and the other guy a guy and i feel so sad #that the height gap isnt as big as it was in fw and ddda #im not gremlin enough in the secret third game

[bitchfitch]

I'm 20k words into that modern au fic. which means this fic is 1k short of matching the length of that Other fic I've been picking at for uhhhhhhhhhh almost a full year? and I've only been working on it for like a week tops.

and I can not stress this enough, I'm still in the prewritting phase. this fic is going to be fuck off massive by my standards of fic writing. like. this is the level of Condensed the prewritting is it's Just the raw plot points and absolutely no fluff

and idk. I'm sat in a literal closet at a family function rn and just. Need the distraction of being proud of myself for being excited to actually write this and see what the word count is when all is said and done bc like, I may be 20k into prewritting but I've yet to hit Varre with a car so I'd say I'm still only half way through planning out act 2.

and I'm having a lot of fun with it bc they're just like. snotty rich kids largely dealing with teenager woes instead of empyreans in a dog fight for who gets to be God. and it's Insanely funny to me and probably no one else.

I barely ever do Proper AUs when I write fanfic. it's just easier for me to stick to filling out canon stuff, or just doing canon but in a different hat. so being excited about this kind of idea is very new to me xbdbdbdb

#like idk. half the humor in the fic is that Miqy has an iphone now and the other half is that Mohg still runs a blood cult #there is no au in which its funnier for mohg to not run a blood cult #thats. Thats literally the funniest part of his character hes the worst and I adore him for it. #'oh my brother has fought tooth and nail to feel Worthy to Serve the people who dropped us down a sewer as babies and is Still treated as #subhuman. This sucks so bad and i hat this family. Im going to start a blood cult about it and marry our shitty little brother #so that when He is God King TM Ill be his second in command. Yes this plan makes Absolute sense.' #god what a bozo. i love him

[girlwiththegreenhat]

april please be kind to me. please

#liz blogs #i know i started the year on a bad foot and i was like 'aa haha this is not my year! the whole 2024 is bad! oopsie!' #but i was thinking it was just. yknow. a rough patch. my whole year isn't ACTUALLY going to suck! theres time for it to be Fine #yeah well we're almost done with march and guess what. the whole year has sucked so far. oh my god the torment does not end #i say that as a meme a lot but no this time i mean it. i cannot Stop having Problems. and Lots of them #i have yet to get to a point where i thought 'yknow i think the year is turning around' #I'M SURE ITS JUST A BAD... FIRST QUARTER OF THE YEAR. IT'LL CLEAR UP IT'LL BE FINE #STILL GOT UHHH NINE MONTHS LEFT RIGHT ??? THERE'S TIME. THERE'S TIME #GRITTING MY TEETH AND STAYING OPTIMISTIC BITCH !!!!!!!! #I'M GONNA COMPLAIN ABOUT IT THOUGH !!!!!!!!! IM GONNA FUCKING COMPLAIN BECAUSE IT KEEPS ME SANE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bobzora]

yeah femc has some really solid romance routes but i just cannot be assed to care too much because there are some crazy level yuri goings on in this game

#bobtalk #yeah i’ll max shinji and ryoji of course. ryoji especially he’s my bestfriend. akihiko…sorry lmao. #maxed saori and put my head in my hands. PEAK. i wonder what she’ll say in march. letter like temperance? #i feel like she’d really benefit from watching r/gu. by the way. she started talking about princes and princesses #p3pposting #anyway every girl you spoke more than 2 sentences to in male route was inexplicably madly in love with you. but femc has Charisma. #(still very funny how people line up outside your classroom to speak to you btw. lmao) #i want to do more junpei link cuz it’s been Very good but he’s occupied by the plot rn. sad! started shinji though (september) #anyway. every time i play portable i’m reminded how much girls rule. i love you girls. i finally got megido on my mothman. #i’m also reminded how sad i am about reload. WE DONT GET VOICED OR MODELLED SAORI……..THEY HATE WOMEN!!! #by the way yukari peak as fuck. shes so good. i’m trying 2 like mitsuru more because the student council type personality #never really appeals to me that much. <- im also trying to hack my brain to like makoto more. for feminism. i’m sorry women i’m working oni #she’s really pretty in arena btw. <3<3<3 #i also don’t especially care for akihiko i KNOW i’m SORRY. he’s fine. i like his dynamic with shinji and ken. sorry. lol #but yeah. i need aigis SL NOW!!!! #(theodore sucks btw. maybe that’s just because i don’t like men but i miss liz so bad. sigh.) #when my laptop works again maybe i’ll post some screenshots. <- playing on vita btw #good game. #(oh yeah i’ve maxed all social stats except i’m two from max on knowledge. whoops! at least it’s enough for Dying Young Man.)

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)

[rillette]

Any fun facts about kilowog? He is like an uncle to me

Kilowog is really fucking smart!! i feel like people tend to forget that bc he's pretty down to earth. He used to be a geneticist back on Bolovax Vik, before it exploded. Bolovax Vik was super populated and the Bolovaxians share a mind link, so Kilowog is a pretty social person. He's also super good with mechanics!! Kilowog hung around the JLI embassy for a bit and did some mechanics work. Him and Guy were pen pals back in the 80s, when Guy was with the JLI and Kilowog was at the GL hype house on earth. Kilowog and Guy are besties ^_^

#asks <3 #ty for the ask!! #i will be honest i kinda skim read the parts where kilowog happened to be introduced bc engelhart's run was physically painful to read #smth smth communism is the closest thing earth has to bolovax vik so kilowog ditched the hype house to go hang out with russians??? #and then that almost started ww3 or smth IDK man that run fucking sucked for a variety of reasons #sorry this took me like a week to get to LOL. id say i was busy but i was literally just bingewatching cw the flash #im on. season two now in case u guy were wondering. it's still really bad. why is jay there and why is he young. #this show is not good you guys should read the flash (not geoff's run) and then watch the show for like. maximum whiplash.

[technicalthinker]

woke up this morning having dreamed about a lot last night (including some very vivid stuff with a guy i dated so long ago which gave me a bit of a crisis) and felt a bit iffy, but it seemed like it was lessening over the day, surely no problem-

nope. sure is. it's time to sleep now and my body and brain is so unsettled. want to hide in my bed and never get out. googling 'spring depression' as we speak.

#personal stuff #heard someone mention ppl getting depressed when spring comes and im starting to THINK #last week has been bad and now sun is coming out and i should feel lighter abt it but im NOT #i feel like my brain is going at twice the speed but its physical capabilities cant keep up #throw in emotional dysregulation in there. #wanting to feel excited abt my projects and ideas and creative endeavours but also feeling rly stupid. #to clarify: no trauma with this dude. it's just complicated and like #dreaming abt reconnecting with him and feeling things abt it and then waking up and it didnt even happen? weird #I sometimes think i need to date just to reset my brain a bit i dont like having a rly old ex as my only baseline for dating #i dont have time for dating rn tho AND the girl i like and talk a lot to like #neither of us have time to meet and it's kinda turned a POTENTIAL thing into a stand-still. which sucks but is what it is #and i dont have the emotional space and time to try to date someone that lives closer/has easier time meeting. #with dog and job and hobby it aint mathing out

[mooodyblue]

tags again. ignore me 🥸

#hello venting again #i have not been doing very well #and i am very sad that i can't ever fully regress n have to just put it all into my writing #and i want a cg !!! i want to ramble abt my interests to someone n show off my pretty little pictures !!!! #and it also sucks because a few weeks ago i lost everything i used for my regression forever and starting over sucks so bad #all my plushies r gone and i only have a few now and i don't have many coloring books anymore which is the worst part of it #n i've been like ... considering joining that side of tumblr too but i rly can't be bothered to make another blog :( #i am just #vvvvvv sad #i always have to be big cuz i have to check on ppl or someone might need me for something i can never be fully tiny n i hate itttttt #n i know i need this badly right now cause my brain has not been treating me very well recently and i'm trying to not Do Bad Things #but i'm grateful for this blog cuz i can ramble abt elvie n my love for him without feeling like i'm annoying anyone but #i still feel so aloneeeee #nobody is gonna read this but if u do that's my bad #ty for listening to my vent #sometimes i have to wonder if being here is a curse or a blessing bc writing is what made me feel more comfy abt my regression but #now im sad bc i can't even be little majority of the time #ok i will stop talking now #lily.txt

[todayisafridaynight]

hi its "almost died as an infant" aoki stan anon again. im still thinkin about what to say medical wise BUT U GUYS HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD ABT HIS DEATH like im already frustrated with the "redemption by honorable death" thing that the game keeps doing (east asia has such high suicide rates i dont think its a very responsible narrative to continue telling in general tbh) but especially for a disabled character who had every right to feel vulnerable and betrayed and get a little evil. hes not Right but hes very Understandable and relatable. but then he still chose to live on and face the consequences (ARGUABLY HARDER AND MORE RESPONSIBLE. A GOOD EXAMPLE AND EXPECTATION TO SET especially for a POLITICIAN) and then they kill him anyway with some fuckin BULLSHIT EXCUSE and i feel like its partially because nobody can be bothered to put the effort into continuing a compelling and morally grey disabled narrative and it. hurts to be cast aside like that. especially after they made such a big deal about ichiban being a NEW protagonist/saga with a NEW identity and then. you still just gave me nishiki 2.0. you retold me the exact same story and used a blatant asspull to FORCE it to be the same story and give ichiban a dead brother figure to lament over for the next 5 games???? rgg i thought you wanted him to be different from kiryu???? sigh. it better be a fakeout and he resurfaces perfectly fine in a few games like kashiwagi or else i'm going to start scaling the walls of the rgg office and dismantling it piece by piece

hey howdy. can we call you MAS (medical aoki stan) ima call you mas cause i'd like to hear *mas from you haha gottem

BUT YEAH NO YOU'RE RIGHT. like i joke that ichi and aoki were kiryu and nishiki 2.0 but at least with nishiki, his death was like. .2% more valid while aoki's it's like..... rage. anger. death. i hate it here. this was so fucking stupid there was literally no need for this other than to fill a quota and try to make a "ichi really is the heir to kiryu's legacy" statement. LIKE ICHI IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE NEW FACE, GIVE HIM SOMETHING DIFFERENT- LET HIM KEEP HIS BROTHER SO THEY CAN PURSUE THE FUTURE TOGETHER THIS TIME

it's especially more upsetting regarding aoki as "being cast aside" because we can discern that was a huge thing for him and was a big reason why he turned out the way he did- being seen as useless or something that could easily be disposed off, so for the narrative to do just that right at the very end when it looked as though it was promising him a better future is just so...... rgg you're always so close but not close enough im going to strangle you

#snap chats #*means 'more' in spanish. i would like to hear more from you bestie :) #but yeah dont even get me started on the 'honor suicide' epidemic #my family's seasian in case we couldn't discern and while most of us try not to be self-sacrificing for 'redemption' #my brother has a really bad habit of doing it and being really self destructive whenever he wrongs someone #i had a bad tendency to do it too when i was younger but ive gotten better over the years #and listen in terms of rgg and yakuza i get it- makes sense for yakuza characters who are high on honor to want to abide by that #but aoki isnt yakuza- he hates yakuza LMAO so the fact he still falls victim to that narrative is so.... #UGH rgg you're gonna make me say 'aoki baby im so sorry' at this rate I WONT. BUT I AM VERY CLOSE TO IT #i just think he should have gotten a better ending when he was willing to pursue one #it just makes me angry... like cmon.... #someone said that aoki's death was a cruel irony since his choice was taken from him like how he took choice from others #and while that IS a sexy way to interpret the ending i wont even LIE i'm still pissed like rAGHGH #please say psyche @ the funeral please tell me the funeral was cap #please tell me he just went into a coma for the past five years idfk im not delusional tho. i know rgg sucks and killed him

[jarvis-cockhead]

i dont rlly have a big following here at all but i do appreciate anyone who interacts with my stuff immensely and suddenly felt the need to say it. ive been going through some stuffTM and its been a whole ass time and im still reeling tbh. it has been a hell of a time but tumblr still feels like such a cozy comfy place .. i forever long to connect more with people here but never know how. anyway idk where this post is going but haii hi im still here forever just a little funny in the head rn :3

#i havent rlly spoken publicly abt whats been going on but this place is so disconnected from p much everywhere else i exist so #i realised my ex was emotionally abusive and actually SAed me once. we havent been together since the start of this year but were #still trying to be friends. but surprise surprise it never worked and i am entirely scared of them #so a few weeks ago i actually cut them off for good. and its been such a time just processing all of That #never thought this would happen to me.. knew in my heart during that it was bad but never realised it was That Bad #weird mix of everything feeling raw and fresh while also so far away because most of the rlly bad stuff happened before about feb this year #but yeah i have good support systems im doing okay but ig this is smth ill have to deal with and recover from for the foreseeable future #sucks immensely but it is what it is. everyones been very kind to me and i feel cared for #but it has made me withdraw a lot from my online circles ive realised which is sad bc i miss being sillay #but yeah erm. that happened 😺 #realising about a year and a half of my life has been devoted to someone who has treated me so badly is nor fun #but anyways. i am really happy theyre gone from my life entirely #and i will heal. and i will be okay