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beforeyougo-turnthebiglightoff · 3 months

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flashbacks to when i was like 8 i found a heart shaped leaf and thought I Must give this to my best friend who i Definitely don't have a crush on, then made my dad put it in resin and made it into a charm for her and gave it to her

#mm that was #an experience #THE experience #i still wonder if she kept it #i very much DID have a crush on her if that wasnt clear xx #blah blah!

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cinnamonsikwate · 4 months

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i'm really curious about what marcille's mother's deal is. seems like she's not too big on the rest of elven society. here's what we know about her so far:

mage at a human royal court (adventurer's bible)

courtship with marcille's father donato lasted 17 years (adventurer's bible)

specialty is roast pork, which was also donato's favorite (chapter 81)

had a cheerful personality up until the point donato got too sick to eat his favorite food. her extreme emotional reaction to this left a lasting impression on marcille (chapter 81)

remarried to a gnome and moved away from the city at some point after donato died (adventurer's bible)

several portraits of her appear in marcille's nightmare (chapter 42); this is the second time we see marcille dream of her (chapter 3)

preferred non-elven food and didn't introduce marcille to any traditional elven dishes (chapter 74)

from the canaries' reactions in chapter 74, it appears elven society looks down on elves who go to live among and work for short-lived races. they seemed especially put off that she would have a mixed-blood child. when they're talking about the lyrikmumare to get marcille to trip up, marcille envisions her mother saying that the food "here" (i.e., the northern continent) tastes so much better. so the picture we're getting here is of an elf who has removed herself from elven culture, but the question is, did she do it willingly or was she forced to?

keeping her other actions in mind, i'm leaning more towards the former. the most intriguing thing for me is that she eventually married a gnome, despite elves and gnomes having infamously waged war against each other over differences in the practice of magic and presently tending to discriminate against the other on sight. (one thing's for sure — marcille's mother is winning the idgaf war!)

marcille never talks about her gnome stepfather though, and it's unclear what she thinks of her mother's remarriage. the timing of the remarriage is also a mystery. donato married marcille's mother when he was 32 (after having courted her for 17 years) and died at 82, meaning they were married for 50 years. marcille is also currently 50 years old, but we know she wasn't born immediately after the marriage: in chapter 81, donato's doppelganger says marcille was born when he'd started "getting on in years." based on marcille's memories of him and the established fact that the average tall-man lifespan is 60 years, i'd hazard that he was in his 50s then. this gives him 30 years or less with marcille — definitely less than 35, which we know is the age at which she left for the magic academy.

we don't know if marcille's mother remarries before or after marcille leaves (if before, than that's definitely a shockingly short time), but it's interesting that she chose to marry someone from a long-lived race this time. maybe this is her way of ensuring she spares herself another heartbreak? or maybe she *is* still heartbroken and is trying to cover it up.

but. i can't help but kind of agree with chilchuck in chapter 81, that marcille's parents are not blameless for marcille becoming the dungeon lord. since it's apparently well-documented, they surely must have known — as well-educated people — that mixed-blood children face not just discrimination but also mental anguish that comes with their unstable aging (not to mention the sterility). so the way they raised marcille feels frankly irresponsible 😭

anyway. i'd love to get spin-off content where post-adventure marcille and her mother meet again. i feel like there's a lot of unresolved issues there (that can of course be hashed out over a good meal).

#dungeon meshi #marcille donato #what can i say i'm often drawn to mysterious mother characters (often dead)#the toudens' mom too — we know even less about her!#does marcille's mother hate being an elf??#oh and if i missed any points feel free to reply #marcille doesn't really seem to have strong feelings about elven society #although it appears she might not have interacted with that many other elves before the canaries #i wonder if marcille realized fionil was also a half-elf #i'd like to see them interact as well. get fionil's perspective on lifespan disparities. seems like her dad is the elf #oh wait wait i was also wondering if it's still possible for marcille's mother to get pregnant #what happens if a mixed-blood child is from two long-lived races?#imagine marcille with a baby sibling #speaking of babies everyone kept making digs at her sterility but she never expresses an active wish for children #i just think that's interesting #calemonsito notes

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lonely-night · 1 year

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#personal space? they don’t know her.

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eyesopentv · 22 days

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hey tumblrinas let me tell you about my current grievances in the tags <3

#miles thots #my ‘best friend’ stopped talking to me a few months ago and i kept trying to hang out with her for a while but eventually i gave i #*up bc it felt very one sided #and like. i told her a while ago that i was feeling very left out bc she’d been hanging out with a few other people and not me at all for #months #and she told me she wanted to hang out with ‘adult friends’ and that i was her ‘autistic bestie’ which like. i was almost 20 at the time #and more recently she still calls me her best friend but we haven’t hung out or even talked #and i found out earlier this week that her baby shower is tomorrow and i’m not invited #and i’m Really Hurt #and i keep wondering if i did something wrong or if she’s mad at me or something #and i want to talk to her about it but every time someone brings up something serious with her she goes #‘i cant do this right now i’m pregnant’#so. anyways.

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metanarrates · 7 months

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lee sookyung giving up 20 years of her life and trapping kim dokja in a way she knows he will hate her for is such a good parallel for the defining choice she made in the past. years in prison. an essay that will follow kim dokja wherever he goes. a bond permanently damaged. she'll always hurt him in the same ways, because it's the only way she knows how to protect him

#nic's great orv reread #AND HE WILL HURT OTHERS IN SIMILAR WAYS! FUCK!#also im really normal about her doing all this for his survival and he still couldn't figure our how to live.#he talked about the novel because it was the only thing he knew how to discuss with her. because it kept him alive when she couldn't #AND SHE REMEMBERED IT SO WELL IT KEPT HER ALIVE TOO!!!!!! man.#im really like. im rambling now (weed) but im so fascinated by her reaction to tswa #she says to his face that it's not a good book and she doesn't understand why he cares for it #but she named him 'reader.' she taught him to love books. and she listened to him when he loved this book #i do wonder if she does understand more than she thinks.#anyway im real normal about this woman

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good-beanswrites · 2 months

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Just wanted to plant an idea if you wanted a bit of fuel: Mahiru asking Yuno to come to her cell before everything goes down.

Edit: I forgot the ask didn't say it but this is part of Kyanako's incredible Order Of Attack AU!

Didn't mean for this to become a mini Mappi study but here we are ✨ Thank you for the request! I fully intended to write them hanging out, but it's more right before they hang out lol. Went a bit on-the-nose with foreshadowing, but isn't that the fun part? It has become Emotional Over Mahiru Hour...

I kept things vague, but TW for mentioning her boyfriend's state of potential self-harm

Mahiru tried not to act superstitious, she really did. As much as she loved the idea of little luck charms, or avoided easy signs of misfortune, it was easier to keep quiet about such ridiculous things.

Maybe catching a bride’s bouquet meant no guarantees; maybe there was no real harm in stepping underneath ladders, maybe a coin tossed into a fountain had no real magic to its wish. However, the one thing she knew for sure held power was a lucky presence. Being in the right place at the right time could alter everything. And today was the right time for something. There was this waiting in the air. The prison had been holding its breath. Mahiru knew it was time to release it all.

“You must be so lonely, why don’t you let big sis Mahiru keep you company?” She beamed at Amane.

She often recalled the good fortune that she and a certain young man had crossed paths on the university terrace. She used to laugh with him about the wonderful coincidence of bumping into each other outside of the bakery, then the convenience store.

Though she’d never spoken about it to him, she was also grateful for many occasions where she walked in on him at the precise moment to talk him out of something reckless. She always told him that they’d do everything together. He didn’t need to be alone anymore.

“I wish to be alone. I need peace of mind to think.” Amane turned away from the cell door.

It was a good thing, too. Mahiru’s smile wasn’t as convincing as she said, “o-oh. Of course.”

She made her way around the panopticon, hearing Fuuta pace his cell in anticipation. He must have felt it too, this holding of breath.

Or perhaps not. He turned down her offer for a bit of company, including a few more colorful words than Amane had. Mahiru just apologized for bothering him and headed back to her cell. She wasn’t sure where Mikoto was at this hour, but she didn’t feel like smiling through a third rejection.

She shook her head back and forth. She wished the motion could rattle the voices inside, she wished she could shake them all away. With her arms secured in place she could no longer cover her ears. She used to hum to keep them at bay, but lately they’d been too loud to stifle. They just kept on talking.

Their words told her the two were right. Nobody needed her company. No – nobody wanted it. Being together hadn’t helped her boyfriend. In fact, being together had been the very thing that got him killed. No wonder Amane and Fuuta wanted to avoid her.

So then, this was for the best. She would rather deal with the brief sting of refusal than stumble in one day to find them hurt… or worse. As much as she tried to avoid the superstition of it all, the voices reminded her that her very presence could mean life or death.

“Mappi, are you alright?” Mahiru hadn’t realized a tear had slipped down her cheek until she hurried to swipe it away in front of Yuno.

“Hah, I’m fine! Just fine.” It was impossible to fool her, Mahiru had learned, but that never stopped her from trying.

At least she always spoke tactfully. “Rough morning?”

Mahiru shifted her arms in her uniform, making a small sound of agreement.

“Can I do anything to help? What if I stay with you for a bit? I can do your hair, and…”

The voices were right. Amane and Fuuta knew it, too. Presences did hold power, and Mahiru’s was cursed.

But she would sound foolish admitting such a fear to Yuno. She'd heard plenty from the voices about how stupid and airheaded she was, there was no use in getting the same lecture from someone as grounded as her.

Mahiru managed a weak protest, unable to explain her real reasoning. Yuno was insistent. She didn’t give much of a choice. Could she feel the strangeness of the prison, as well?

At last, Mahiru allowed her shoulders to sag. Yuno was lucky. And kind. Having her nearby would do her good. Amane and Fuuta would be alright. Mahiru had tried spending more time with them after verdicts were announced. Now, she made a mental note to pull back. If her love couldn’t save anyone, at least she could spare them from her curse. They would be safe.

“Yes. Please stay. The truth is... I don't want to be alone.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #amane and fuuta mentioned #i dont know how well this all fits in with your vision of the au but i had a ton of fun with this lmao sorry 😂#oh hey if anyone knows any japanese superstitions like those in the beginning lmk #i was trying to research them but i kept getting lucky symbols/words - not necessarily actions like that #anyway thank you so much for this!! it was a really interesting moment to capture >:0 #drabbles that take me way too long to combine my three brain cells but im really pleased with the end result #i had a lot of Mahiru Thoughts but it took a bit of fiddling to make them fit together #the superstitiousness - the focus on one's presence - the parallels with his bf - what she's dealing with from the voices #im glad it came together semi-smoothly in the end asdfsd #i didnt mean for mahiru t break the fourth wall or anything --#i always saw her as a master at picking up on social changes/cues so she can tell when things are most tense/kotoko is fully prepared #but she doesnt consciously know it -- she just knows that things feel Off #not only do the attacks confirm mahirus fear that shes cursed - but yunos involvement confirms her belief that shes extra lucky #i wonder if shed still end up spending all her time with yuno now that she thought she was such a protective person...#i couldnt articulate it right since the end was wrapping up so nicely - but mahiru starts to wonder if most people are fine being left alon #and *shes* the odd one out for craving company #then she feels isolated because by getting what she wants shes dooming someone else #i mean... if everyone you try to get close to starts getting hurt... wouldnt you worry about the same...?#AHAHAHAHA hope you enjoyed 🙃#*posts this then retreats back into the void for a bit*#drabbles

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multifandom-traveler · 15 days

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Are my friend and I the only people who pack-bond with anything in Minecraft?? Like in one creative mode world we have a skeleton who spawned in my build one night and we gave him a nametag and full netherite armor. Shortly prior, she jokingly named him "sans." so he wouldn't despawn. It was kind of a joke at first but now the castle is his home.

Then in the same world after we fought the ender dragon, we gifted the Endermen a bunch of blocks (sand, grass, clay, tnt). My friend would get upset/worried when one would look angry after an endermite spawning in. That little group of Endermen now feels like a familiar friend group to me.

Oh, and in my From the Fog world on Java, I pack-bonded with Herobrine.

(edited to fix typos, i made this post at like 2am)

#minecraft #from the fog #minecraft herobrine #minecraft enderman #minecraft skeleton #we can't be the only ones right???#Oh and on our survival world a pigman came through my underground portal #I named him “Dave” and tried to keep him there caged so I could show him to my friend later without him going hostile #(I wasn't sure if she had golden armor on)#But next time I tried to go to bed I couldn't because he was right under my bed #So I spent the rest of the night trying to nudge him through the portal #I got really sad because he kept avoiding the portal and clearly didn't want to leave #He kept oinking at me when I'd ask him to leave politely #I still wonder if one day I'll find Dave again next time I visit the Nether #I miss Dave o7

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zaphiyy207 · 6 months

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"Cookies Ready! Anyone want some?"

Heya, a quick sketch because I haven't drawn anything at all today. I truly miss baking due to busy schedule so here's Theia baking chocolate chip cookies!! They're all irregular shaped because she had some helping hands from the waddle dees.

And every once in a while, the three would go out picnic. (Pretend there's more than a bowl of cookies). It's a time where they're not tied up by work and able to just relax for a bit. Kirby loved being sandwiched between the two because he'll get a lot of head pats and scratches from Theia. Meta Knight often received head pats and scratches from Theia (he loves it, even though he looked like he despised it) simply because she can't even stay still and often loved showing others she cared for them (via head pats and etc etc)

And not only them, the others would join them too and sometimes food fight ensued but only once.

#kirby #meta knight #theia #kirby oc #if you're wondering why I'm still up at 2:47am it's because i have assignment #this is just a stress relief #you'll be seeing a lot of stress relief post #kirby of the stars #hoshi no kaabii #hoshi no kirby #im going to take a nap before getting back up to calculate #sometimes i want to punch autocad so bad #the struggle here is not the assignment itself but the PROGRAM KEPT MESSING WITH ME #ah Theia here is like an eldest sister to the two #she's basically the first Astral to be in Popstar so she knows a lot and experience a lot #they both respect her lots and fight for her without any second though but also would fight her for small inconvenience #like any sibling would once in a while (a disagreement and bantering)#edit: i can tell I was fighting sleep from the many mistakes and also blaming the lag on my phone fr

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thatpurpledudetrey · 5 months

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if feyre isnt brainwashed

#neutral feyre #anti rhysand #anti acotar #feyre at the first book was peak tbh #i wish she kept her personality from book 1 throughout the entire series #its so fucking funny to know that the 3 sisters who are like 19 to 20 yr olds have a fucking hobby than the rest of the ic who is like 500+#like what the fuck do u even do in ur lives other than politics and wars?? or fucking ppl???#god imagine how god awful awkward would the ic be when there is no fucking or murder involved #like can u imagine them just wondering around velaris during their free time bcs they dont know shit to do??#absolutely pathetic #its even more embarrassing that tamlin has a fucking hobby #tbh im not even surprised bcs 1. u can compare the ic characters to a cardboard cutout and 2. sjm is a lazy writer #feyre wouldve been so cool if she got book 1 personality still #like she wouldve embarrassed the fuck out of ratshit #so much potential missed

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8rujaa · 7 months

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to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone…#i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly.#i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized…#when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function.#plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone…#i went thru all that for nothing…#and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

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bittertomato · 9 months

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Does anyone ever think about how the only other person besides Guda who affirms in text that Morgan's Britain was beautiful... is fucking Percival of all people?

Percival. A manufactured human of Faerie Britain who can't live more than 30 years, leader of the rebel army fighting against her, named after one of the Knights of the Round Table from Proper Human History, the human raised as a backup Child of Prophecy, the human who took up the spear Morgan discarded. Of all fucking people.

#tomato rambles #fate #fate grand order #lb6 #lostbelt 6 spoilers #morgan le fae #percival #i have feelings about morgan #but that means i have feelings about anything related to her #and that means thinking about percival #taking up her spear #which changed natures because she herself changed #percival who kept persevering even though morgan as aesc had given up #percival whose creation and existence in faerie britain sucks fuck #but he still gave his all to create a better future #your britain was beautiful your majesty #i wonder how morgan would feel if she heard him say that #woops why am i tag ranting on my own post

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miutonium · 9 months

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I can't believe I have been drawing for 10 years now wtf

#i was 15 10 years ago woahhhh #like i refuse to believe I was 15 10 years ago its impossible #i am such a slow learner i am still awful at art but like 15 yro me would be ecstatic to see how far my skills now #like she would be devastated if she finds oit i dont draw anime and like cartoon dads now #but she would not shut up about how good i am so that matters to me most dlfjdops #i am my own biggest hater and fan like nobody else can top me #if anyone's wondering yes i did kept my old art from 2013 i organized them all lol lmk if anyone wants to see my old art lol #asuka speaks

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deathsmallcaps · 1 year

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Ok I’m probably not the best person to say this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of (as of right now) accurate insults on how the CGI approach for the Live Action Little Mermaid movie, but please be mindful that you don’t take things too far, and *especially* don’t start going after Halle Bailey (Ariel’s actress) and to a lesser extent, Ariel the character.

Antiblackness is still an issue in a lot of fandom spaces, and it doesn’t just come out as using nasty slurs or stereotypes. It manifests as drawing Black characters lighter and/or with more white features, it comes out as removing Black partners from ships, and it starts out as plausibly deniable insults that get the door open to microaggressions and outright nasty comments.

I’m not saying that all discussion of the movie should be stalled, or even if it turns out to be an artistic failure, that it doesn’t merit discussion. I’m saying that you shouldn’t extend your vitriol to the characters and actors.

If you really feel the need to insult her, it might be worth a little introspection. Ask yourself, “Do I resent that they changed Ariel, or that they changed Ariel in this way?”. You’re not irredeemable if your personal answer isn’t kind. Just be more careful, try and observe how that sort of world view affects your behavior to others, and then course correct.

A lot of little kids would love to see another Black Princess. A lot of little kids would love to have a Black mermaid as a main character. Hell, a lot of adults would love those too. Black fantasy characters have long been excluded, transformed, killed, merely in the background, relegated to stereotypes, villainized and have hardly ever in the spotlight, especially in major productions.

Don’t make it harder for kids (and adults!) to see themselves on screen. Don’t ruin their wonder. So don’t make unkind comments. Keep it to yourself. Frankly, Halle looks beautiful, and I can’t wait to see the sparkles in her fans’ eyes as she swims across the screen.

#live action little mermaid #the little mermaid 2023 #Halle Bailey #I’m a white girl but the concept of a Black Ariel is near and dear to my heart #my best friend in elementary loved H20:Just add water and introduced it to me #and she dreamed (at least half then #we haven’t kept in touch) of ordering herself a mermaid tail to swim around in #and I really hope that she has. if she didn’t fuck up a year of college like I did (she was damn smart so I doubt it)#then she’s likely just about to graduate #M I hope you get a great paying job and can order yourself a beautiful quality tail and live out that little girl dream #you deserve it. I don’t think you had near enough #black girl Magic growing up. miss you #i doubt you’re on tumblr but just in case you’re wondering #‘is that me?’ I’ll give you a hint:#I used to say floober doober instead of cursing when we played Mario kart #I mean I did start cursing heavily later. but at first I said that #in any case idk if you’re still into mermaids but we both know you would’ve loved to watch this movie when you were little #this was both spurred on by all the flounder posts I’ve been seeing and ‘A Song Below Water’ by Bethany C. Morrow #one of the main characters Effie works as a Renaissance Faire mermaid and she talks a lot about #how people write fiction about her character but whitewash her or body swap her or would rather do self inserts #or the only comments made about her beauty are just about her tail and never about her Black skin or features #and how she (and her Mom before her death) were usually the only Black characters at the fair #and how she feels so beautiful and incredible being her mermaid self #also again I’m white so I don’t have personal experience but my younger brother is mixed #and he’s always been really lowkey about his feelings but #I took him to see Into the Spiderverse when it first came out #and he’s loved it since #here was this (adorable - don’t tell my brother I said that lol) lanky smart awkward hurting courageous Black boy on screen #and I can see in his heart how he’s been affected by it. he’s not a super fan or anything but I can just tell (big sister thing.) Anyways I #really hope that joy will happen more and more for everyone.

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todayisafridaynight · 7 months

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harvard a lame school i bet aoki never got woken up at 11PM because his roommates were blasting music cause everyone a square there

#snap chats #hi everyone.#i finished WMA3 :) still couldnt tell yoou what happened but it was still fun..#love the montage moment... theyre my fave in the WMA movies...#oh right. the post. //screams//#I WAS JUS LAYING IN BED THINKIN BOUT HOW IM GNNNA GO IN THE CITY TOMORROW #AND I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT THING I KNOW I HEAR MY ROOMMATE AND HER FRIEND IN THE LIVIN ROOM #BLASTING MUSIC AND IM JUST. UU 👁️👁️#scariest moment was when her friend rattled my door cause apparently she used to stay in my room last semester #BUT STILL MY GOD i thought someone fell so i go out and shes like Are We Too Loud <:)#and i. like any self respecting adult. said no <3 #honestly i probably could sleep through this. my sister used to have parties all the time in highschool and i slept through those #tho those were in the basement...... and theyre right outside my door ☠️#anyway i hope harvard DID have cool ass parties nd aoki never got invited to any of them and he just kept getting waken up eveyr night #yall think he dormed or did he just live in a house/apartment nearby.... ive always wondered that...#if sawashiro was there with him then i'd imagine a house/apartment #tho would there be a point in getting a dorm if he already lived close by ? prob not #im not thinking about it rn i just wanted to complain LOL

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sylvieserene · 6 months

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I wonder how Sho learnt of his father's apparent demise due to a landslide like...did he witness it first hand or was maybe told by his mother (Masumi) later? Because if it's the former, it must be very traumatising for a 5-8 year old child and even if it's the latter, it must have been extremely hard to explain to a child like him who was very young and very attached to his father. Like it's hard to explain the concept of death to someone so small-

I wonder how he moved on and I kinda also wonder how his mom allowed him to go back to the mountain since a lot of people won't actually let their child play in an area which is prone to landslides and where their spouse died due to it :(

It's something I can't help but wonder a lot of times.

@idaten-jump what are your thoughts on this?