#i worked on this from 3 am to 6 am

[fawfulydoo]

i survived job orientation 👍

#fawfuldraws #sketchbook #dexter's laboratory #dexter #mandark #dee dee #cartoon network #gendy tartakovsky #i had to drive like 40 minutes to and from this place for 3 days 8:30-4 while running on 5 hours of sleep at most i am so happy i work 10-6 #tomorrow so i can actually get some sleep tonight brah ohh my god #let's hope this new job is a lot better for me

[murderandcoffee]

me, a horror podcast enjoyer, giggling and kicking my feet as the wet tearing and crunching sounds of someone being brutally dismembered play directly into my ears

#I laugh every goddamn time there's something absolutely horrifying going on in malevolent #I don't know what's wrong with me #but I'm sure it makes me look like a madman at work #yes I listen to horror podcasts from 6 to 9 am most days yes I'm mentally well <3 #horror podcast #bs.txt

[fishyartist]

#valerie gray #danny fenton #danny phantom #grayghost #gray ghost #my art #fan art #taking that ''you have to draw horribly" advice to HEART and then slapping like 6 gradients over the mess to make it appear competent #idk i wanna revisit the concept of contact+their relationship evolving #like pinky swear->shaking hands->holding eachother i guess? #like despite the setbacks+hurt they both cause #it also has like joy+value. like the idea of knowing and trusting others depite lies and betrayal is worth the pain for the good or somethi #also i wanted 2 try the idea of the suit val gets from vlad looking like his. idk might b too on the nose tho... ill overthink it l8er #idk man its 4 am. my brain stopped being able to draw how i wanna weeks ago. (meds stoped working yippie! this wil b fixed soon <3) #wanna revisit this once i get my shit together but UNTIL THEN... #im going to bed and posting this and ur gonna looka t it and understand my vision through it all ok? ty!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Actually, now I think about it, Barnaby will put his face in Howdy's fluff whether or not he's unhappy.

SO true. maybe im just very tired but im getting the mental image of him like... tugging on Howdy's apron like "hey c'monnn im so unhappy rn im seriously so angry, just gimme the fluff itll fix me right up-" In The Middle Of The 'Busy' Store. and im finding it extremely funny

#absolutely no shame smh #frank starts herding julie and wally out of the store #howdy shoves barnaby out asap and quickly creates a No Dogs Allowed sign #cue barnaby staring through the window with the biggest shiny puppy eyes while everyone shops and howdy tries to ignore him #he's literally at his job... so unprofessional... having the fluff out is NOT work attire... #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #adding this to that tag cause like. well you all know lmao i dont have to explain Jack #oh god its 10 am? its 10 am. i need to go to bed #OR DO I #yeah i do.... #i have to make a tiring phone call at 6 im gonna need all the energy and mental fortitude i can get #i will fall asleep picturing these shenanigans

[mumpsetc]

Its Soooooo Fucking Over

#Ive Captioned Like 3 Things That #The Perfect Object Show #Tpos #Neon Sign Tpos #Tpos Neon Sign #Supercomputer #Super Computer #Super Computer Tpos #Supercomputer Tpos #Uuuuuuh I Watched the New DHMIS TV Show It Made Me Cry and Then The Edibles Hit Like and Truck and Now Its #Almost 6 am Im Seeing if I Can Stay Up Till Its Light Out to Go On a Walk #Lyrics are From Beep Beep By Raycoalfaxx Tho Thats Not the Song I Associate Wit This #The Song I Was Specifically Working With Was Fine By Midnight Which Dont Have Lyrics Online #No One Listens to Ray Xoalfaxx But Me #I Fuckin LOOOOOOOOOVE Tpos I Love Tpos #One of My Top 5 Shows Honestly I Fucking Love You Tpos #Dreamy Art #Oh Yeah I Tried 3d On This Cuz Ive Been Talkin With Dez Awseriously and Nio Schoolunxhtray and They Both Do #Really Cool 3d Art Stuff a s Ive Been Meaning to Try it For a While and I Was Like Damn Take a Bite Outta It Nkw or Never

[humanmorph]

a parting gift (millie & leap sometime during ep 28)

#it is 3am i do not have a better caption in me i truly do not #partizan #friends at the table #fatt #millie #million blue #vermillion blue #exeter leap #god i gaf about them. i do. #comic #<--- HA! #this took like 5 or 6 hours btw it is 3am <3 #rosa art #i made a sketch on paper this morning at work. and went crazy when i got back from eating sushi #i need you. to know. i have a short bonus comic for this comic in mind like 6 panels max but i am not. doing that right now #the idea i wrote down (pretty much this as a script) is from 2 days ago and i was like . i dont want to draw that many rings #so i wont do this soon but at work sketching i was like wait. wait. pngs

[applestorms]

clawed my way through (some of) the epilogues and hs^2 again for dirkjake crumbs and i think there is a Genuine place for ultimate jake to fit into canon (or at the very least, lord jake english) since meat timeline jake never actually shows up visually in hs^2 and his final appearance in that timeline (minus a phone call or something w/ roxy? or was it kanaya fuck) is giving ult. dirk his spaceship and then proclaiming his undying love while desperately trying to get dirk to let him join him, to which dirk responds that he’ll “never let [jake] break [his] heart again” (ch39). agony.

two interesting things about the end of his arc in meat actually: for one thing, it’s kinda implied that along with giving dirk a spaceship, he also gave dave/karkat/roxy/kanaya/etc a spaceship to chase after him, so he’s at least taken some action to try to stop him. again though, we never see him after that point so like. the idea that he could just hope himself into becoming an ultimate self in the background is actually kind of a possibility?? like while the others try to chase dirk down, jake is figuring out how to brute force himself into ascension as a backup plan. second thing, dirk is very snarky in the narration about the fact that this dramatic goodbye he’s giving jake is the last time he’ll ever get to see him (jake see dirk, i mean) but ult. dirk also seems to lack power against alt. calliope when they fight over the narrative so jake ascending would actually pose a serious threat and might be able to override that, assuming dirk’s power over the narrative extends that far in the first place (thinking about that post talking about how narration is also a reflection of characters’ thoughts…)

candy timeline jake is also pretty interesting since he very notably starts being advised by BGD to be a kind of spy on the inside against jane’s. whole thing in that timeline. i actually completely cannot remember what jane does in the meat timeline, i think also some presidency bullshit, right?? that’s what the davekat thing was about??? but anyway BGD sounds pretty normal in all his dialogue, or normal for BGD at least, and is aware of both the game over timeline and ult. dirk’s bullshit enough to make fun of it so. idk maybe i’m just misunderstanding how ultimate selves work, but the fact that BGD wasn’t really “integrated” into ult. dirk feels significant to me, especially considering the fact that we can see caliborn/LE’s influence on ult. dirk so much (his narration in ch39 gives AR too, frankly, like the epilogues are obvs way more openly horny than hs proper but AR was always kinda like that too, especially about jake). hs^2 also ends super abruptly with some lore shit i skimmed half heartedly between calliope, roxy, and john again talking about his initial decision between candy and meat. that whole conversation pretty deliberately frames the decision between meat and candy as being parallel to terezi’s coin flip about whether or not to kill vriska, and roxycallie even tell john straight up that he needs to get vriska again to fix the story, perhaps assuming that’ll work again since it did when he was retconning the timeline? but imo, though maybe i’m biased cause i didn’t really review what vriska does post-canon again, it seems more fitting to me that jake would be the one to fix the bullshit timelines, considering 1. dirk is the one going bananas out of his fucking mind w/ control of the narrative, 2. thematically, pumpkins are the most logical, healthy alternative to meat and candy, fitting since caliborn explicitly aligns dirk and jake’s color scheme with them in the smut-drawing conversation and since (in the same breath) he establishes that he hates them and prefers meat/candy. but that’s getting into sherlock secret final episode levels of conspiracy, and i’m not sure i’m ready for that one

#hs #astronaut rambles #i really hate the concept of an ultimate self actually have i mentioned that before #it kind of just feels Bad like #ok weird parallel but you know how it kind of sucks major ass that all of those *other* sons of dio are introduced in jojo pt 6? #cause it takes away from giorno’s significant kinda #it’s like that this idea of an “ultimate” self just kinda #implies that the true version we’ve been following isn’t actually the truly authentic one #which idk i just dislike that #like it works for davepeta (ish) but. for dirk? #when his whole thing is that the true dirk is different from his splinters? #how’s that joke go again? #‘oh shit it sucks that we have all this organizations. we need to make one to unite them all!’ total organizations: +1 #how tf did i write actual quotes in the tags earlier jesus #okay 3 am i need to sleep now nobody read this ok promise kisses #dirkjake

[kayvsworld]

i always forget i have Healthcare System Anxiety until i have to interact with The Healthcare System and immediately just start screaming internally for days

#my mom obliterated her bones and the pre-surgery surgery post-surgery experience. the ER situation. moving 2 the woods #this is a vent post i forget my complaining tag #waited 30 mins for an ambulance & when we called back they were like ''yeah it hasnt been assigned to anyone & might be hours'' #so i drove her to the ER with a migraine & ran over some pylons (cool). #stuck in the ER for 9 hours. took 4 hours for anyone to give her any kind of pain management. i caught covid #was supposed to get a call when she was out of her 2 hrs max surgery. was told i could call if i hadn't heard anything #5 hours later i called and was transferred 6 times - told she had been discharged - told she had never been registered at that hospital - #yelled at by a nurse for asking for patient information - eventually got the right department and was told oh yeah sorry she's in recovery #was supposed to find out if she could come home or not in 30 mins. 3 hours later theyre like OK come get her #i show up and the doors to that wing are. locked? and no one's there to unlock them? #apparently i was supposed to pick up the wall phone? and call a code they hadn't given me? spent 30 mins getting help from other department #to GET THEM TO OPEN THE DOORS. FREE HER RELEASE HER #finally i get in and she's OK SHES FINE except morphine doesn't work on her so that's. fine. bodies are good to have #we have reached shrimp colours levels of anxiety i am a walking talking stress migraine but she's doing ok. but holy fuck #kayvswords #also like she's black and all of her nurses and doctors have been white so feeling normal about all of it all around

[kethabali]

i seriously can't comprehend not having a summer or winter break when u get a job. what do u mean i have to work all year around

#no i need my three month reset #ideally i dont need a vacation to recover from daily life #but thats capitalism <3 #at least school is fun #what if work is just stress and no fun #thats why i wanna work at the nonprofit i am a member of i like going there and i like the staff and i already do that work #as a volunteer and in internships so i could enjoy it maybe how i enjoy school #as long as the job is mentally and emotionally stimulating and not physically strenous #i can work for like 8 months of a year #same as how i go to school #ideally i only work 6 months of the year and 6 months i do something else #but once again <3 capitalism #actually audhd #actually autistic #actually adhd #🧃 #see the reason im thinking ab this is bc i realized working means regular paychecks so less financial paranoia #and stability.. which i like and am always desiring with school i get a big sum of money every few months and then pennies rest of theyear #except last semester when i got my work study and now i realize i like being paid more regularly it helps with my financial trauma #so now i am thinking i wouldnt mind working (if i wasnt in school bc two at once is too much for me) #i could work 10 hours without being burnt out i think 15 max but that is pushing it. this is why i need my diagnosis lmao #at least i have affordable housing and benefits for food and utilities so i actually could work 10 hours and have enough to pay for things #but like adult jobs are usually full time idk like to be a staff member at a nonprofit like i want to be #idk im sure theres a way to do it how i want #or i could get a semi boring remote job thats early hours and i have the rest of the day to myself like summer 2022 #i barely remember work from that summer bc early hours and i did what i wanted for the rest of the day that was a very good summer.. mMM #i want my whole life to be like that summer thats my picture board #but not broke ahah

[redgoldblue]

Fuck It Friday (also on saturday bc fuck it)

tagged by @itwoodbeprefect ❤️ ❤️ 

I’ve been doing a lot of rereading of the 23k of state of disrepair that’s already written and very little writing of it so here. y’all can join me in that.

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“Again, I understand why you had to go on this little Eat Pray Love trip.”

Steve looks up, slightly startled, but doesn’t get a chance to say anything before Danny continues.

“And I’m not mad at you about it. But if you ever leave me again, Steven, I will kill you myself.” It doesn’t come out quite as rock-hard as Danny might have liked, softened by a miniscule waver in his voice at the end. Most people wouldn’t even pick it up, but he hears it, so he’s sure Steve does too.

“No vacations without Danny. I’ll write it down.” When Danny looks over at him, he’s looking back, quiet and heavy, solemn enough that Danny knows he understood.

“Exactly,” he replies. “Don’t start taking too long at the store either, or I’ll be heading for the kitchen knives.”

Steve shakes his head. “Of course your murder weapon of choice would be a butcher blade.”

“Don’t demean the classics,” Danny chides. “They got many a housewife out of a bad marriage.”

“You know, I don’t think I like the turn this conversation is taking.”

Danny stops, considers, and frowns. “Me neither. I think I just called myself a housewife.”

“And this a bad marriage,” Steve adds, gesturing between them, an offended emphasis on ‘bad’.

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tagging @faorism @bookwhimses @osointricate @thomtrebond if any of y’all care to *to the tune of Devo’s Whip It* fuck it

#my writing #itwoodbeprefect #Hawaii Five 0 #McDanno #state of disrepair #once again am i ever not thinking about aloha? doubtful #this is from chapter 2 and i did figure out last week what my chapter beats were #1 is setup (premise + fic vibes); 2 is working out lingering Aloha feelings/tension; 3 is fake-married reveal + first kiss; #4 is Crisis. Escalation. y'know that little peak on the story structure diagram; 5 is diagnosis (of both Steve's medical issue #and the reason they keep kissing each other) (spoilers they're in love); 6 is resolution + actual getting together #6.5 is going home epilogue if i decide to keep that #(to be clear when i say 3 is fake-married reveal. reveal to Steve and Cath bc prior to that only Danny knows he's created that Situation) #(the medical staff remain under the impression they're married the entire time bc well. they kinda are) #mine

[jeonqkooks]

why is so embarrassing to ask for time off work bc you're sick lol

#i've been off for almost a week now #technically i went into the office yesterday and then had to ask if i could work from home in the afternoon bc i was dying there #then i thought i'd be well enough to endure 3 hours in the office this morning before my doctor's appointment #but then i was tossing and turning unti 4am and woke up at 6 not being able to get even a word out lol #anywhomst... i am deteriorating #jen rambles

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[silverselfshippingchaos]

what's up, gamers?

#ash rambles 💚 #i. am. so. fucking. sleepy. #i hate finals. i've been working pretty much all day and.. eepy... im gonna stay up and do some more work #so yeah if i'm like not here the next few days #thats why! anywaways yeah your f/os love yoy and all that jazz hehe!!! <3 #oh jeez rhats a lit of typis #lit oftopoes #LOT OF TYPOS #updated mt phone and theres a new UI and im still getting used to the new keyboard #my bad my bad. but also. um....... what if i said i had a new crush? #i dont even know him... havent played his game but um.... he's like. super handsome #i'll give you a hint: he's from a f.inal f.antasy game #actually no that's not very specific #he's from one of the first 6 f.f games! #anyways yeah i'm gonna go study now hehe! then i'll clean my room and study some more! ... and then go to sleep (finally!!!!)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I am fucking eating your modern human welcome home AU, everything about it makes me smile, the way you think of each character, keeping parts of them from Welcome home, but still having them make sense in a human world

Its beautiful

I am shaking your hand and squeezing it my friend!

!!! thank you!!! im very happy i'm succeeding in my endeavor to make it somehow Accurate as possible at least a little! and im even more happy you're eating it!

#i hope its tasty <3 #its very fun to think about.... #it helps me study the characters In A Sense! #but yes! i hope to share More! i have many thoughts always #never hesitate to shoot me an ask about it #or anything! specifics. non-specifics. idk! its 2 am! i need to get up at 6! that has nothing to do with anything! #but yeah ty ty ty <3<3<3 #rambles from the bog #character analysis is my passion! it always has been! #ive fallen out of practice and my brain Has Not Been Working The Way It Should #but this au is helping get back into the swing of things! #i love all of the neighbors so so much...

[yohankang]

i really need to pack but i'm in the 'tee hee i'm going on a trip :D' mode and i can't focus at all ahjdfjsjs

#i'm seeing my friends tomorrow!!!! first i need to spent 4 hours on a train but hey. it's a trip!!! #we're gonna grab breakfast at my fav place and then go grocery shopping cook at home and then go out in the evening #it will be my first time getting drunk in a while lmao i hope my alcohol tolerance is still high .. #i'll be staying there until monday so i also hope to visit my fav botanical garden and explore the city more #and eat as much delicious food as i can lol #i'm taking monday and tuesday off <3 #i'll be back home monday evening but i still need tuesday off because i want to bake a cake and muffins to share them at work on wednesday #because people in the office already know it's my bday 😭 so i need fo prepare something... #and then on friday a friend from my hometown will visit me <3 i will literally be celebrating my bday for a whole week lmaoo #it's what i deserve 😌 #SO ANYWAY guess who's still not packed #my train is at 6:50 am [*] #i still have time to pack and take a shower and iron my clothes and paint my nails. right #k.txt #(it's almost 10pm)

[infinite---hyperdeath]

finally made an ultrakill blog

ultrakill yayyy woooo woohooo hoorayyyy yippiee wooo yeahhhh pumps fists in air wooooooo

#im gonna try to maintain a tagging system #vp.texts #? for text posts like this ?/?? #vp only because that the name of my 1st ultrakill oc v-p i love him very much #named the blog after act 1 bc i couldn’t think of a creative name #i spent so long trying to edit the theme for this blog #like the custom profile yk 😭 #im tired it 3 am #why did i start making this blog late at night waaahhh #anyways trying to get the music to work was the hardest part i have a small brain #this blog will get exactly 6 posts before i forget i need to keep posting about things #on the blog theme i put a drawing of v-p this makes me go yippieee !!!!!!!! yipppoipieeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thumbs up emoji #i still need to fix the blog theme so i’ll be doing that.. to the best of my ability #need to say that this whole time from creation of this blog to now i’ve been fighting against the effects of melatonin #raaaagh