#i'm having a rough morning

[dredshirtroberts]

hey. hey universe. hey fucker universe.

no one said you could bring back the Wednesday Curse, bitch. fuck off with this shit i didn't need any of this first thing today.

#the Wednesday Curse is related to a span of about... almost 10 years of every single wednesday having something major go wrong #''major'' is a strong word but it would always feel big and afterwards would be when i would notice it was wednesday #it was a lot and i got very tired of it very quickly but it eventually stopped and i stopped noticing wednesdays #because they stopped being bad every single week #i would wake up on a wednesday bracing for whatever terrible news i would learn or whatever horrible thing would happen inevitably #and i stopped having to do that #my dreams lately have been absolutely horrific and last nights/this mornings was.... worse than usual in a way i wasn't anticipating that's #made me very very worried about a dear friend i can't easily reach out to and i'm doing my best at waiting patiently for a response #but it's hard and then the tire on the car exploded *again* so we're scrambling to figure out how to fix that and we've got a plan #and at least 3 butches on the job and it's going to be okay in the end but i have extreme car anxiety and tires going out is one of the mai #triggers for that and i'm just #i'm also still dealing with the tail end (hopefully) of an upper respiratory infection which makes all the crying i keep doing difficult #because i keep needing to hack my lungs out because breathing sucks rn even though i've had all my meds for it #and i'm just... it's just... anyway #i'm having a rough morning #but i am surrounded by people who are very lovely and care a lot and are willing and able to help with whatever they can #and that's helped a lot and it's just... i know i gotta wait patiently for resolution on things and i'm gonna do my best #to calm myself down and try to be less anxious but i'm only able to do that because of the love that surrounds me and it's a lot #it's all a lot and idk man #the spectre of my dad is doing his best to ruin it but he doesn't exist here in this space it's just a bad memory and no one is at fault

[softpine]

she's looking especially sacrificial lamb today 🥩

#we're so back baby #i think i'm finallyyyy through the worst of this awful depression i've been in for the past like. month and a half #i mean i woke up this morning and thought ''the sun is so beautiful'' so i think i'm good for now fjksjds #which is great because there's some heavy stuff coming up that i just couldn't handle in that mental state #so i'm hoping i'll be able to move things along a little quicker #but also i might be getting a job in retail against my better judgement so who knows #i've never actually worked in retail... i've done food service and i was a cashier at a pop up shop but nothing like an actual store #but i seriously can't find a job with my degree nor can i even find a desk job. so i'm. man. it's rough out here #i might have to move. but with what money?? lmao the eternal dilemma #SORRY this is a whole diary entry #i hope you guys are well 💖

[hajihiko]

Dude that actually really cool of an idea for Nagito to be getting scratched up as a part of paranormal activity

Honestly haven’t heard of that in ages haha /pos

the body parts are all ~symbolic~

#I'm sorry Mikan you're gonna have a real rough go at it #Sorry to detract from a Nagito ask but. I feel a bit wary about talking about Mikan #But to me. TO ME. Anything body horror related in the ovary/uterus system is extra horrifying #False pregnancy. Morning sickness. Irregular or constant periods. Cramps. Hormone imbalance. God damn #Nagito gets phantom limb pain and scratching and maybe more #Fuyuhiko gets migraines and visual hallucinations and eventually... brain stuff #Mikan gets WALLOPED.

[captainjonnitkessler]

I wrote out a long post about how exhausting it is to be online when everyone is so absolutely devoted to being negative about everything all the time. According to twitblr everything is the worst it's ever been, no victories have ever been achieved, and anyone who says otherwise or has any semblance of hope or joy in their lives is a naive idiot being manipulated by the vague yet menacing Ruling Class.

Then I didn't post it because I'm usually fine about receiving negative comments but I swear to fuck on this post in particular having someone try to dunk on me by telling me "actually everything IS the worst it's ever been and you're just a neoliberal cuck" WILL be the last fucking straw for me

#i'm not ready for the tumblr curse of 'post drawing the EXACT sort of person it was complaining about' to activate #i'll probably post it later though #maybe right before i go to bed. by the time i wake up in the morning negative comments on the internet will not affect me #because i'll remember i'm an adult with an actual job to do and the internet is a dumb fake place that doesn't matter #but yeah. being online has been pretty rough on me lately. have y'all ever considered just taking a W once in a while #without doomsaying about how it's actually nothing that will help no one and we all just have to die about it

[tklishbrwngrl]

Why don't I have a tickle lover, foot fetishist bf/gf who can't keep their hands off my feet and tickles me daily to the point that I don't even have to ever miss it, it's just ALWAYS. HAPPENING!! 🫠

What did Meredith Grey say? "Pick me, chose me, tickle me, love me" or something like that

#Lovely thoughts #why wasn't I woken up this morning to my feet being kissed and tickled? 😢 #why isn't there someone instantly available for cuddly tickles when I'm having a rough day? #why isn't someone kissing me through my giggles while they hold me close and tickle my sides? #*sigh* #when is it my turn #*creepy whisper* come to me #🌠🧞‍♀️🙏🏾 #I'm watching Grey's Anatomy for the first time #it's cheesy and they're all so toxic but it's good #i think the only person I don't love/hate is Callie I wish she had more self respect tho #ok Yang too she's not bad just self absorbed and overly ambitious and bad at love hashtag relatable

[sealrock]

me and a friend were talking about thetinne (tauvane) and the possibility of her being half-elezen and how that'll affect her storyline

I'm still on the fence about this but look at that sweet face. thetinne in her younger years maybe

#mypost. #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv oc #q. #baby girl. baby #idk ever since i made tauvane i was kinda stuck on how she looks. something about her gave me issues with visualization #and i don't have any other highlander oc save for chiron #i'm doing away with the sky pirate plot as i'm rebuilding her lore and this doesn't seem half-bad with the current plotline i have cooking #it just means every pic i took of her up until this point will be out of date :^) #rough draft i have is that she was born thetinne greystone and was the bastard daughter of baron ajax de euyevair and a midlander maid #her mom sent her off to a nunnery to be raised after being fired but she eventually came to live in her father's household #she did not have a good time at the nunnery and her relationship with her half-siblings was still volatile #her life in ishgard up until then was hell on earth. still working out the details of her takami and achille #if i go down this route it'll mean achille will be 1/4th elezen. it also partially explains why you can't see his ears. he's still tall tho #anyway i'm still on break i just made this quick set at 8:30 this morning lol #🎐

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I can go a little insane. as a treat

#>be me #>be having a rough morning at church bc warmups started late and everyone was rushing around #> be about thirty seconds from falling asleep while manning the computer and actively doing stuff on it #> turn around to figure out which middle schooler is talking in the back of the room #> it's one of the middle school boys #> he's talking to none other than the sound guy. yeah that one. the really cute and sweet and helpful one. #> is suddenly Awake #> (I forgot that Christmas breaks are a thing) #RIP me I guess #I'm at work now alas #Lu rambles #adulthood woes #I guess??

[hoardlikegoldenirises]

something a little silly

(he's not actually angry at the "drugs" thing, just busy trying not to die)

oh i almost forgot

transcript of my bad handwriting:

Page 1 Panel 1: 2013, 1:38 pm (sfx: DING DING DING)

Panel 2: 9th period, 1:40 pm

Peter's internal thought bubble: "Oh shit my meds"

Panel 3:

Student 1: Hi, Mr. Parker!

Peter: mm-hm

Panel 4:

Student 1: Mr. Parker? Hello?

(Student 2: Huh?)

Panel 5:

Peter: Hm?

Student 1: What are those, tic tacs?

Student 2: No, he's doing drugs!!! (In class!)

Text pointing to Peter's hand holding his pills says "PTSD medication"

Peter: HKFGH (choking noise)

Page 2:

Panel 1:

Student 1: Are you okay?!

(Student 2: oh fuck)

Peter: COUGH COUGH

Panel 2:

(sfx: WHEEZE)

Peter: It's not DRUGS!

Panel 3, Peter cont.: Well, I mean, it is drugs, but it's prescription—it's medication. OK?

#came in through the window last night #peter parker #nadiart #fanadiart #rough art #comics #spiderman #always feel weird tagging the au stuff just cause it's so specific but... well i won't pretend i look at the peter parker tag lol #a post arguably still about a somewhat serious topic but with a more lighthearted mood #bright blue capsules = 5mg generic prazosin just fyi #he takes it starting in early 2013 to prevent flashbacks and nightmares (technically it's a blood pressure medication tho) #he takes it in morning. afternoon (at work). and bedtime. otherwise he can barely leave the house. #i was picturing this in fall after he's a little more functional but still kinda fucked #In Retrospect I'm not sure that him getting a job in 2013 makes sense though like it's a miracle he graduated from his master's program #on the other hand he strikes me as the kind of guy who works himself harder when stressed... but a few months is a very quick turnaround #maybe i should have him doing full time classes instead of pt and finish his degree over fall 2012 or smth... idk #i'll figure all that stuff out Later #anyway my approach to peter's shirts is generally anything that looks thrifted where he saw it in all its hideousness and said #''i love it'' #also don't get it twisted the only reason peter even carries a water bottle is for his pills #accidentally pavlov'd himself into being hydrated but not into buying a reusable bottle lmao

[masgwi]

#I'm having a rough one this morning

[warlordfelwinter]

gale/durge is funny if just for the "am i the first mortal you've been with question"

i, at least, like to assume the durge is immortal or at least nigh immortal since bhaal seemingly intended them to be the last living soul. they'd need plenty of time to get all that murdering done. and who knows what being made of god flesh and blood does to a mfs lifespan. but even if they aren't they're still godspawn. gale just can't stop attracting gods and their ilk even when he's not trying

#gale finding out rain is/was immortal like: #wow rough so not only are you not the first mortal i've been with but now youre also not the first IMmortal i've been with #rain: keep talking like that and i'll be the last immortal you'll be with #gale getting down on one knee: jokes on you you already are #fel's bg3 #oc: rain #rain/gale #not specifically in the body of the post but you know that's the only durge i think about #this is a separate thought but i'm just thinking about gale now #i love that he enjoys tav's fucken. stinky unwashed musk #that's such a mortal thing like you know mystra always smells perfect and nice if she smells like anything at all #i just love the idea of gale being around tav and falling back in love with all the messy stinky imperfections of mortality #it reminds me of in early access when you could have sex w him after the tiefling party #and you could ask how you compared to mystra #and he said like 'you don't. and what a compliment that is.' #like tav's mortal and messy and imperfect and that's so much better #also him revealing his thing with mystra the morning after was the FUNNIEST fucking timing #like i'm glad he's more of a slowburn now it makes more sense and feels better for his character but that was so funny

[scattered-winter]

THIS SUCKS!!!!

#SORRY I HAD TO GET THIS OUT OF MY SYSTEM #she's not gone yet but. very soon. #if i had to guess i would say sometime during the night or tomorrow. very very soon. #ive already said all my goodbyes and we sang around her bedside one last time and i think im as ready for it as ill ever be #but that being said. how the fuck do u get ready for your mom to die. #but it's not all bad. #my aunt was sitting by me while we sat at my mom's bedside and just shared stories between singing #and she wiped the tears off my face and traced my veins and held my hand while we both cuddled my dog #and idk. im the black sheep of the family but that doesn't mean i'm not part of it. even when shit sucks. #and these last couple months have been rough because first i lost my friend suddenly and now the thing we've been waiting for #for 3 years is finally happening #and idk. in a way i'm glad it's happening because i won't have to watch her suffer anymore. and in a way i won't suffer either. #just kinda ripping the bandaid off yk. #anyway i am contemplative and mostly at peace this fine night. we'll see what the morning brings. #winter speaks #personal #grief tag

[vulpinesaint]

did 90 pages of my reading for three different classes is everyone proud of me :) finished the chapter on judaism for my sacred texts class, read "an apology for poetry" by sir philip sidney for my lit theory class, and did my two chapters of reading from the truth about stories by thomas king for my folklore and mythology class. and wrote a summary paper on that sacred texts chapter. and did my little writing assignment for my french class. all while sick. who is going to kiss me on the forehead and tell me i did a good job

#read an absolutely inordinate amount of hannibal fanfic in the time inbetween and it's frankly impressive that i got anything done #considering the sheer volume of words i consumed on ao3 today. but that's simply the way and nature of things #so tomorrow i have until 12:30 to do a journal assignment for folklore and mythology #and also to read billy budd by herman melville which the internet says should take an hour and a half. easy peasy. baby reading #hoping i feel better when i wake up tomorrow. called out of work for the morning so i just have to be well enough #to get through that like. six hour period of school between 1:30 and 6:45 :/ #masked up and hands sanitized and body dayquil'd. obviously. and i'm covid negative i think i just genuinely have stress sickness #felt this sore throat coming on for like two weeks before it actually hit yesterday the moment i got a good night's sleep. so. haha #shout out to the exhaustion sickness! sorry for being so rough on you body. i'll try not to schedule you for activities #from the moment you wake up to the moment you go to bed again. i don't make the best of decisions #valentine notes

[kris-mage-fics]

URL Music

Thanks for tagging me @bi-stander!

K: The Koi Story (锦鲤抄) performed by Jiaju and Zongli

R: Renn by :LOR3L3I:

I: In And Out Of Love by Armin van Buuren feat. Sharon Den Adel

S: Surrender by The Birthday Massacre (cw: lyrics about stalking)

M: Middle Of The Night by Elley Duhé

A: Arise by CLANN

G: Good Behavior by Plumb

E: Everytime We Touch or Evacuate The Dancefloor by Cascada (Sorry I can't choose!)

F: Flower Maiden by Dzivia

I: I Miss You by blink-182 (cw: flashing lights, disturbing imagery, depictions of drowning, and spiders)

C: Concomitance by Anton Belov (bandcamp link since I couldn't find it as a single on youtube)

S: Show Your Fangs by The Crane Wives

By the way, a lot of these videos have the lyrics in the CC, description box, or in one of the top comments. Though I know some of the lyrics for "Good Behavior" are wrong.

Tagging @yuuugay (three U's might be hard, but I believe in you, Yuki!), and @georgiedoesntfloat (I'm sure you'll find some awesome songs!), and anyone who'd like to do this too! (Sorry for not tagging anyone else, I actually did like 96% of this two days ago then my brain decided it couldn't think of more people who like music and it hasn't been cooperating with me since. :/ Did I go overboard with the colors? Idk, but I'm leaving it.)

#I'd say this list is a fairly good representation of my totally random music tastes lol #rip to “Angel” by First Aid Kit which got bumped off because I just found “Arise” this morning and I fucking love CLANN #(I say that as if I've been a fan for a long time when the truth is I found them - and 2/3 of the music on this list - less than a year ago #you can pry cheesy 2000's dance music out of my cold dead hands! it got me through some rough times and it's still fun #is it just me or does “I Miss You” hit harder now than when it came out 20 years ago? wait wtf it came out 20 years ago?!?! haha I'm old #I still have every song on Chaotic Resolve (the album “Good Behavior” is from) memorized I listened to it so much after it came out #if you do look up the other songs on it be aware that “Cut” is about self harm and my take is that “Damaged” is about CSA but it isn't clea #it's the least Christian album from a Christian musician I've ever heard #I have a pretty hard rule to not listen to Christian music from a certain time period ever again but that album is my one exception #(there are good reasons for both the rule and the exception but that's a whole damn post on it's own to explain) #tag game #music

[youraveragecatastrophe]

[Image description : a pencil-colored sketch of Carmen from the 2019 show Carmen Sandiego. She is drawn in the pose of the I want you for US army poster, pointing her finger and looking at the viewer with a smile. The text underneath reads I want you to vote for Carmen and Julia in the red & blue bracket. /End description]

Vote Carmen Sandiego and Julia Argent in the red and blue bracket...? I thought they'd been eliminated?

Yes they have, but they're in the revival round HERE!

#carmen sandiego #carmen sandiego 2019 #carulia #julethief #i did say i'd draw something else if there was another round and the revival round counts right? right?? #i didn't expect to have a reason to finish this tho (i only had a rough sketch when they were eliminated) but here we are!! #i RUSHED to finish it as soon as i heard the news. hence the general. rushiness. of everything #me in the middle of the week having to wake up early the next morning : omg! i'm gonna finish my barely-started drawing!! #sleep? i hardly know her! #my art

[aromanticbuck]

I was cranky but now Kit is giving me a run down of the single dad!Buck AU storyline and I'm writing Moustead accidentally adopting a teenager and life is good

#alex says things #kit tag #i've been dizzy all morning so like #i'm having a rough one #and that was even BEFORE the dog decided to take a shit in my room

[draconicace]

how to explain that hdb continuing to live improves own mental health wikihow

#aiden's monologuing #ailb #ailbde #'i'm pathetic and vulnerable' -> i'm like harry du bois #'i've wasted my life for years' -> i'm like harry du bois #'i continue to live in spite of everything' -> i'm like harry du bois #i have to remind myself that most people are kinder than i think. that the people i'm around are not a representative sample #it's been. a rough morning