#i. am. looking. really. deeply.

[lia-atreides]

Are we done with this psychiatry bullshit? LEONARDO DICAPRIO in THE DEPARTED (2006) dir. Martin Scorsese

#dilfgifs #filmgifs #fyeahmovies #filmedit #moviegifs #userbbelcher #chewieblog #cinemapix #cinematv #uservee #umaxine #userlindir #usersavana #underbetelgeuse #userairam #the departed #*gif #i. am. looking. really. deeply.

[snivyartjpeg]

and they were roommates

#rain code #raincode #mdarc #master detective archives: rain code #yuma kokohead #yakou furio #shinigami rain code #look i am. deeply in love with whatever tf they got goin on #i dont really buy much into the 'yakou fathero' headcanon im much more of a weird cringefail boss intern roomies kinda guy #i just think it's funnier #also ik yakou is an expert gamer but id imagine he's like. good at the arcade cabinet stuff #theyre both ass at smash bros. yuma is yuma and yakou is bewildered at the lack of button combos #yakou mains pac man and yuma plays kirby bc kirby is cute

[jessaerys]

"But I finished [Near and Mello] together as a set, and although they aren’t particularly laid out as such, I still feel a bit like they’re twins." —Obata Takeshi

whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same:

i. low sky, mahmoud darwish. ii. the world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire, ritika jyala. iii. kadan, 2008. iv. the dreamers, gilbert adair. v. @nathanielorion vi. nagiko, 2016. vii. elektra, sophokles (tr. anne carson). viii. wishbone, richard siken. ix. inbred, ethel cain. x. the boy who, tirol. xi. monster portraits, del samatar and sofia samatar. xii. in the field, @nathanielorion xiii. death note, "use" ch77. xiv. gut symmetries, jeanette winterson. xv. mystic union; fire and wine: poems, john gould fletcher. xvi. @inukai_0055, twitter. xvii. the carnivorous lamb, agustín gómez-arcos. xviii. my sister, the serial killer, oyinkan braithwaite. xix. the beatrice letters, lemony snicket (text); a quiet visitor, holly warburton (art); @unpardonablesins (edit). xx. ada, vladimir nabokov. xxi. this is how you lose the time war, amal el-mohtar. xxii. the borgias, s3e10, showtime. xxiii. @antaarf xxiv. @vilicity xxv. @boymiffy

#death note #comparatives #web weaving #meronia #near dn #mello dn #mihael keehl #nate river #wammy's house #the amount of time i spent thinking about this one and carefully curating it like a bonzai gardener is ridiculous #but i really really like how it turned out i think a lot about the webweave as a single streamlined piece of art not just a collage #anyway hi. tumblr user brothercrush posting about how near and mello are twins in spirit. who could have forseen this #[holds you by the shoulders looks deeply into your eyes] they are SO in love they are SO two parts of the same thing #[shakes you until you get shaken baby syndrome] I AM NORMAL ABOUT THEM <- lying #brothercrush.txt #mellonear

[impossibleclair]

I saw someone refer to Doric as a 'Vanilla Tiefling' and tbh that IS hilarious but also I'll have you know I happen to LOVE vanilla so Miss Doric of the Emerald Conclave if you're free Friday night-

#i have dnd movie brainrot and i am deeply in love with the druid help #looking forward to this post gaining traction in a week and a half when the movie actually drops #doric the druid #d&d: honour among thieves #dnd movie #honor among thieves #tiefling #i mean she IS a very basic tiefling but also she seems to be designed to reflect some of the original tiefling illustrations from 2e #and that's really cool #regardless #i love her #clair speaks #i found this in my notes app from last night labelled 'tumblr post for when you're not delirious' lmao

[foreverppl]

Moodboard for Jinnah Beatty (they/she), lead singer of ethereal goth band Mayday Malady.

@infamous-if

Playlist

#romancing august I think but we’ll see what oriana is saying when the updated demo comes out hehe #some quick facts: #they usually go by their last name #her goal with her style is to be constantly mistaken for a beautiful ghost #lots of long skirts/dresses + layers. gossamer looking fabric etc. only ever wears black or white #on stage she’s also usually wearing a mourning veil bc of course she is #half of her love of music comes from the spectacle of it. like being able to construct a persona and exist in it for a little while #like playing make believe #they make a lot of their own clothes. if they weren’t doing music they’d definitely be doing something in fashion. #she deeply deeply hates being misunderstood or having her words/actions be twisted so she’s like pulling her hair out rn lmao #the band’s songs are pretty high usually so she always secretly finds it funny when fans try to sing along and are off key or something lol #the only tattoo they have is seven’s initials and she doesn’t really plan on getting any others #they’re hesitant abt being a positioned as the leader bc sometimes she has issues with reeling in her emotions #and responding reasonably in the moment. #anyway she can’t relate to the loser mc allegations she’s the coolest mf on the scene tbh #but I am sorta… scared for them. #on account of the horrors that are yet to come #bc truthfully they don’t know any coping mechanisms that aren’t just ‘ignore it until it goes away’ lmao #one of the things she is currently ignoring to the best of their ability is seven #if: infamous #mb #mc: jinnah beatty (infamous)

[theminecraftbee]

listen. listen cubfan is a tumblr sexyman. because listen, he was ALWAYS like this, but you all started going ham on him only after he could be drawn as a more conventionally attractive dude instead of his old man skin. when you no longer had to consider him a gilf, but an eboy, then he became one of the guys you all are absurdly thirsty about. IS THAT NOT SEXYMAN. IS THAT NOT EXACTLY THE SEXYMAN ARCHETYPE. VOTE CUB!!!!

#mcytblr sexyman #cubfan135 #LIKE. AS I SAID. I WAS /NOT/ HERE FOR THE START OF SEASON EIGHT FOR YOU ALL TO VOTE LIZZIE OVER HIM!!! #i love lizzie to death i really do but LOOK AT WHAT THOSE CUB ARTISTS DO TO HIM. LOOK AT IT. (affectionate) #i am suddenly deeply invested.

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages. #or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it. #i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') - #- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action. #also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally) #u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not-- #--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of' #'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important' #bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and- #inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

[niobiumao3]

We were robbed of:

Hunter: Tech, we're ready for pickup.

Some Rando: Tech? Like, Riot Racer Tech?

Echo and Hunter: What?

Wrecker and Omega: <surreptitiously making themselves scarce>

Thus I demand:

<clone troopers tied up in a corner, the Batch are freeing Crosshair>

Crosshair: And just how are we getting out of here.

Hunter: Tech's going to free the zillo beast.

Tied up trooper: Tech? Riot Racer Tech?? Wrecker: Yeah!! One clone nudging another: RIOT RACER TECH IS HERE.

Hunter and Echo: <deep sighs>

Crosshair: ????????

#this was a really #fun episode and I am #deeply sad it doesn't #get more hilarious side #commentary about it #hunter and echo: you what #tech: I saved cid from a gambling debt #echo and hunter: by becoming a racing star #tech: I only won a single race it's hardly #<echo and hunter looking at a poster of him> #tech: a tolerable likeness but hardly my best profile #tbb tech #the bad batch #star wars

[anghraine]

I think it's interesting that when Gandalf describes Denethor's ability to "perceive, if he bends his will thither, much of what is passing in the minds of men," he ties it less to his wisdom or general insightfulness (though he possesses both) than to his difference from "other men of this time," his near total Númenóreanness, and as bolded here, the active exercise of his will.

Tolkien also attributes Denethor's resilience against Sauron (by contrast with Saruman) to not only his right to use the Anor-stone, but "great strength of will." He notes that Sauron had no servant with greater mental powers than Saruman or Denethor, and Gandalf remarks that Denethor was "too great" to be subdued to Sauron's will.

Denethor and Gandalf have a strange and unsettling silent confrontation, carried on by their gazes, yet it strikes Pippin as like "a line of smouldering fire" and "as if reading each other's mind." Gandalf afterwards says Pippin was stuck between two "terrible old men," lumping Denethor in with himself. Pippin also sees some kind of kinship between Denethor and Gandalf, as Sam saw between Faramir and Gandalf.

In his letters, Tolkien said that the ancient Númenóreans became barely distinguishable from Elves in appearance and in their powers of mind. In Unfinished Tales, he notes that they loved their horses, and when a Númenórean had a strong bond with a horse, it was said that the horse could be summoned "by thought alone."

In LOTR, Faramir—who has inherited Denethor's Númenóreanness/wizardliness—has a reputation for command over both animals and men. When everyone else is thrown by their horses upon being chased by five Nazgûl, he not only keeps his seat, but mysteriously gets his horse to ride back towards the Nazgûl. And during the retreat across the Pelennor, the soldiers in the city conclude that Faramir must be with the men who are managing to retreat in order, repeating Beregond's remark that he has some undefined command over both men and beasts.

Gandalf suggests that this is a result of Faramir pitting himself against the effects of the Nazgûl in some way, but his abilities (whatever they are) are outmatched. In the event, the effect of Faramir's Aura of Courage commanding abilities remains until he's shot and finally falls to the Black Breath.

Faramir also makes repeated references to perceiving or reading things in Gollum's mind. At one point, he describes Gollum's mind as dark and closed, yet unable to prevent Faramir from detecting that he's holding something back about Cirith Ungol specifically. Noticeably, this only happens when Faramir orders Gollum to look at him (which Gollum does "unwillingly"), and the light drains from his eyes as he meets Faramir's. It seems decidedly reminiscent of the later Gandalf vs Denethor duel-by-eye-contact.

Faramir's exact words about Gollum's secrecy are "That much I perceived clearly in his mind," in reference to his earlier questioning of him. He says that he can "read" previous murders in Gollum and Gollum cries out in pain when he tries to lie to him.

When Faramir gives staves to Frodo and Sam, he says that a "virtue" of finding and returning has been placed on them, with zero explanation of what he means by that. He adds a hope that the virtue will not altogether fail under Sauron's power in Mordor. He describes the people who did the woodwork but not who placed the virtues (it doesn't seem inherent to the wood itself, given his phrasing).

We do know that Dúnedain can potentially embed enchantments into items. The Barrow-daggers carried by Merry and Pippin are specifically enchanted against the Witch-king of Angmar by an unknown Dúnadan of the North, and when Merry stabs the Witch-king, the dagger breaks enough spells for Éowyn's ordinary sword to finish the job.

Meanwhile, Aragorn uses his healing powers to help the city, wishing for the presence of Elrond, because he is their eldest of their kind and more powerful. Aragorn, also, has at least some part of this ability to actively exercise his will and mental powers, perhaps an equal share, though he uses it less often.

In the book, he doesn't physically attack the Mouth of Sauron, but instead holds his gaze (again, eye contact is important!). There's another silent struggle that involves no weaponry or any other contact.

He prevails in some way over the Mouth of Sauron (not a warped creature of Sauron in the book, but a cruel Númenórean who has "learned great sorcery"). The Mouth indignantly says he has diplomatic immunity and can't be attacked like this.

But, I mean, maybe they're all just smart and perceptive, it's really unclear.

#eldritch dúnedain WHEN #because i am very aware that this could be deeply unsettling if presented just a bit differently! #but it is wild to me that tolkien can outright say 'this guy is a númenórean who learned sorcery' #and people are still like 'but can númenóreans use magic. i guess we'll never know.' #or have faramir give his whole speech about what gollum's mind looks like to him and what he can see clearly in it #fandom: idk it's just really unclear #gandalf: denethor can see what happens in other people's minds if he exercises his will #fandom: a great mystery ... maybe he's just very wise and insightful??? #tolkien: the dúnadan who enchanted the daggers would be happy to know his spells worked and helped defeat the witch-king #fandom: númenórean craftmanship is /skilled/ of course but how can we make this about elves #honestly it seems like people don't /want/ númenóreans to have supernatural abilities and i'm not sure why #humans who have elvish-style powers and appearance yet can never escape their humanity is SUCH a concept #(yes i will harp on this until the end of time) #anghraine babbles #legendarium fanwank #legendarium blogging #long post #húrinionath

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

writing hospital scenes my beloved...

#i dont know why i enjoy it so much but i do! i really do! #hospitals are such miserable sterile places and i deeply hated the few times ive been in them #and! yet! It's Writing Candy to me! #maybe its because i dislike them. i enjoy inflicting my own miseries on favorite characters #yes! walk through those too-white hallways where its always too bright and everything looks the same and restrictive!!! #uncomfortable seats and nothing to do! feeling deeply out of place the whole time! it smells Not Great! #absolutely unprompted #all this to say i am having Fun with the human au tonight-

[gwynbleiddyn]

oh, please, give me mercy no more // that's a kindness you can't afford

#bg3 tav #astarion #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #feeling really normal about them #x: coincide #hozier wrote the soundtrack for vampire x werewolf situationships i guess #this might not be anything but it is TO ME and that's all i'm here for #i have so many thoughts about dyn's lycanthropy in contention with astarion's vampirism #like the same but different hunger #dyn guards it like an exposed organ and astarion wields it like another fruity little dagger if it suits him #no matter which way you look at it tho they are so deeply unkind to themselves #and astarion turning to dyn and saying “i think i deserve better” is SO fucking groundbreaking #I AM CHEWING THE FURNITURE #IM SO UNWELL

[brother-emperors]

caelius sketch because the crassus-cicero tirocinium fori joint custody dynamic has captured my attention

also I've only had him for a day, but caelius Intrigues me

#thank u @hortensius for putting this on my radar. im going to dedicate the next week to reading everything i can on caelius #in other news. i will become deeply invested in literally anything and anyone if there's any connection to crassus at all #roman republic tag #drawing tag #it'll be REALLY funny if caelius is the guy who makes catiline actually stick in my mind for once #idk what it is about him but i just. cannot retain information about catiline no matter how hard i want to #but now. i am looking at catiline like. hm. HM

[riacte]

so hey guys i finished dungeon meshi yesterday and i'm still thinking about it

#ria.txt #i spoiled myself so at first i was like 'this is bonkers wtf are they doing in those last few chapters?????' #but then it was like. yeah. i see #love those ch when it's just clearly putting the squad into Situations #also. izutsumi #what i really liked was how tightly the protagonist and the deuteragonist were wound up in the overall themes #the plot the themes the conflict the characters it was very neatly connected #hence i am also now accidentally invested in whatever going on between laios and marcille #not just platonic not romantic not enemies i just think they work well tgt and deeply care for each other its great watching them develop #it's the leader + most trusted advisor / anxious girlfailure + the annoying freak she's somehow attached to vibes #haha that rabbit chapter with marcille. hahha i was like what the fuck man. it was funny and then boom whump [tears streaming down my face] #those shapeshifter chs were sooo much fun esp seeing other chara's perceptions of each other. stealing that #the changeling ones were great too elf senshi is the fucking funniest he looks sooooooo unserious #marcille's evolving perception with death starting with saving falin and saving the squad and her nightmares of outliving everyone- #-and her dad and her 'temper tantrum' and UGH when at the end she said she was fine with falin not coming back.... WAAA. OUGH. #i think dunmeshi handled the trope of 'prophecy of chosen one becoming king' pretty well and it makes sense why laios is the protag #the worldbuilding is so thoughtful as well i liked seeing different characters with different worldviews interact #very solid and well rounded series wooo #the main 4 has such a fun dynamic together #anyways. dunmeshi au..... #more like borrowing the worldbuilding bc charas are too nuanced for a one to one comparison #ren is like some prince of his own species but he's like 34th in line and no one cares about him so he fucks off to eat monsters #which is why he's both snobbish AND a total freak when it comes to his food taste #false is originally in for the money from ren and plans to scam him but unfortunately the cringefail swag captures her #martyn is Obnoxiously Clueless and thinks he's smart but he's not. he's resourceful but also pathetic and crazy #stress cant cook but she thinks she does so everyone goes (≖_≖ ) when she picks up a pot. they delegate her to killing and chopping duty #the mvp is iskall who keeps on saving everyone's asses and somehow has resources for everyone #i think ren is actually aware false is going to scam him but he has too much money to spend anyway and he thinks shes cool so he lets her?? #and somehow she doesnt take the money and run. and goes back to eating monsters w/ the party. everyone is crazy

[moe-broey]

Guy who doesn't check websites voice was anyone gonna tell me

ABOUT THIS FUCKING ANNIVERSARY ART!??????????????? OH MY GOD

This is. Actually an INFINITELY CHARMING PIECE............ UNBELIEVABLY FUCKING CHARMING........ Henriette is SO SMITTEN by Gustav. She loves him SO MUCH SO DEARLY. Gustav?????? Fucking loves his wife????????? AND HE JUST KILLED ALL THOSE GUYS

AND

AND

Wwwwwuuulghghhhhhhhhh........... micro organisms............................

#fire emblem #feh #I'M SO SORRY THE ASKR FAMILY DRIVES ME SO DEEPLY SICKO INSANE #like. ESPPPPPPP w the gustav developments. like. I STILL DON'T LIKE HIM #but MAN. MAN. he really is actually just the perfect rendition of 'yeah this guy sucks but he's my dad.' #like from the outside looking in i am so free to rag on him and blow him up w my mind and hunt him for sport #but like. man. sometimes. i can see so clearly why his loved ones did love him so dearly. it's portrayed almost painfully perfectly. #also just deeply forever fascinated by the dynamics of the askr family. they are all so perfect. they are all so fucked up. #and it is so shocking actually. to see how much gustav and henriette actually do love each other. like geniunely. it's insane #ESP GIVEN. EVERYTHING ABOUT GUSTAV. I'M GONNA LOSE MY MIND #i have been THIS 🤏 fucking close to revisiting fallen gustav's/henriette fbs but AAAUGH #i am thinking SO MANY THINGS AT ONCE TODAY I CAN'T KEEP ADDING THINGS #fe henriette #fe gustav #fe alfonse #sharena #official

[itspileofgoodthings]

I love the rhyming on ttpd. can only think of two examples currently but I know there’s more.

#the dancing phantoms on the terrace do they get second hand embarrassed #is e v e r y t h I n g #but also I can’t stop thinking about: #you. look. like. taylor swift. in this light—we’re lovin’ it #like just the flow. the cadence. not even just the rhyme but #her ease with language and playfulness with it and all the little pockets and corners of so many songs #even ones you think you don’t like. settle in with time! #like the thing about taylor is that she is VERY much a poet #in that some of her genius/way with words is innate #and the images and stuff she uses the turns of phrase can feel so garish and embarrassing on first listen #they JAR #but honestly I think it’s because she is truly …. new? she is doing something NEW #and the shock and outrage that always goes with new things is always present with a Taylor album #and I think she’s drawing on so much from the past to write but she is so deeply rooted in the present cultural moment #so it’s so easy to dismiss her writing on first glance as like. idk a college girl’s idea of poetry #as being too Stark or Melodramatic. #she loves OBVIOUS imagery and extremely dramatic ones too #but she isn’t actually just throwing stuff at the wall #because pretty much always. it starts to land and soften and settle #and the image she’s chosen has done its job of drawing you into a world #and/or communicating an emotion #and sometimes it’s so upsetting. like. get me out of the bedroom with Matty Healy taylor!!!!!!!!!! but. the art is art-ing! #I guess is what I’m saying. she’s good at this it isn’t just hype #but some of it really is that she’s taking us places we might not want to go or are so quick to pass judgment on #as being unworthy of a song or more importantly a poem. but present art HAS to do that #and does do it!!!!!! idk I am just. musing

[satans-knitwear]

How romantic ✨

Treat (lingerie wishlist) me (amazon wishlist) ~ Tip (pypl) me (cshpp)

#I made a really sexy cheesecake again and i am very attracted to myself about it. #I cant believe i havent been wifed yet. #I had a dream about getting my sister to try downloading tinder or something. Maybe it was a sign that i should get my own ass into gear 😂 #Satans knitwear #Anywhore this look is super pretty and i am grateful for filters #They do so much work. I am a little corpse-like today #Pretty lingerie #Floral lingerie set #Lace corset #Underbust corset #Floral applique #My gif to you #Any tips or treats would be be truly wonderful right now. January is rough and deeply uninspiring for me at the moment