#idk what was going on during the process of this

[elllisaaa]

Hiiiiiiiiiii!! I love your work, and I get so excited whenever i see one of your posts pop up 💗💗

Idk if you'll be able to do anything with this, but this was just a random thought I had after a very real experience at the gym but

What about reader getting intimidated by a member bc of their muscles/height? Like maybe they're friends or in a relationship, and it's just like a cute sweet little moment (i can see this with anyone in svt tbh, but obv gym line would be best)

It's okay if you don't wanna do this! I just thought I'd throw it out there lol

Anyways, I hope you have a great day/night!!!!! 💖

you're so cute anonie !! thank you so much for reading my works, and i'm so glad to bring you joy with my silly posts ! but i totally get what you're saying, whenever i go to the gym without my friends, i'm so intimidated by the big guys so i get you ! plus i looove it whenever someone comes in my inbox to let out some random thoughts like that, keep doing that please !!

and to this screams MINGYU, who is so tall and big, but sometimes forgets how impressive it can be for other people. he sees you struggling to reach the bar of one of the machines because you're too short, and he runs to you to help you pull it down. you shyly thank him, and he goes back to his workout, but he cannot help stealing glances at you whenever you're at the gym at the same time as him. and sometimes, he catches you also looking at him but you always turn your eyes away and he doesn't understand why.

but mingyu doesn't want to annoy you during your workout, so he doesn't say anything. except that one day he sees you preparing to squat and he comes by quickly and asks you if you need someone to spot you. he's so cute with his cheeks all red that you cannot say no.

from this moment on, the two of you keep talking and you become his gym crush immediately. he already thought that you were insanely pretty, but now he's also aware that you're the sweetest human on earth and he's smitten by you. some weeks after you grew closer and started to workout together, he will start to wonder why you didn't approach him sooner.

"do i look like a bad guy ?" you giggled at his little joke, shaking your head. "not, that's not it. but you're… well, you're quite impressive." mingyu seemed so surprised you couldn't help but laugh again at how dumbfounded he was. "impressive ? me ?" - "don't play dumb gyu, you're so tall and big, it's a little intimidating at first."

mingyu tries to process the information for a moment, as he didn't think he could've impressed you just because of his size. but for some reasons, it fuels his ego and it feels good to know that he must also look dependable because he wants you to ask for his help everytime you need it.

"do you still find me impressive ?" he questioned, honestly curious about your answer, but he also had other thoughts in mind. "physically ? yes, don't think i didn't count how much you can bench press. but i also know that you're very sweet, and cute, and you take good care of me, so how could i be intimidated ?"

a soft smile takes over mingyu's face as he leans in, getting closer to you until your lips are only inches away. "does this intimidate you ?" - "no… not at all." this time, you take it upon yourself to make a move and kiss him softly. you can feel his lips stretching in a big, gummy smile against yours. and you can't help the giggle you let out when he looks you in the eyes, his forehead resting against yours, his eyes letting you know everything you needed to.

#gym crush mingyu has my heart now ! #eli answering your questions #eli's anonie #seventeen soft thoughts #seventeen soft hours #mingyu soft hours #mingyu soft thoughts #mingyu fluff #mingyu x reader

[emersonfreepress]

help i'm alive

So! Long time, no see. 2023 was a whole goddamn lot lol

I don't have a demo update to share yet, but that's because I had to scrap nearly everything I managed to write during a very, very, very bad stint of writer's block last year. I hadn't even realized it had been a block like that until I went over my work so far last month and realized it was bad -- like, trust me; a slog to read that didn't even sound like me. It's been extremely frustrating but I've finally broken free of that and it's been easy and actually fun to write again for the first time in actual years. I just hate giving updates that have no actual news in them. And I really had nothing to share other than: I deleted thousands of words and feel so much better now 😅

Anyway, little about my demo plans have changed: I'm still putting out the Chapter 3 demos in Choicescript/on Dashingdon and then will be going dark to move things over to Twine. Where I am in the process right now is... feeling like 35% done with the overhauled version of this chapter and 50% done for the next demo update.

As far as asks, I'm... not really sure what to do?? I believe I've read them all (I love you guys), but so much time has passed since getting most of them that I'm not sure if it's, like... still pertinent??? To go back and answer them?? I suppose some of them like character asks could be, but all the nice messages of support -- that feels weird since I've practically ghosted this blog since August! Idk. Y'all tell me what to do with 'em and I'll do it. Maybe I should make a poll.

Uh... that's really all there is to say regarding the game! I've added some personal stuff after the cut, but if you're done here: Thanks for reading and sticking around. It means the world, for real.

So what has occupied my time all this time? Doctor, therapy, money, and friends. And improv! But especially the first two. There was a lot of non-writing related stuff fucking up my ability to focus and write, so hopefully with my mind and body both feeling a lot better, I can get back to being present and active with the game. I didn't realize how physically unwell I was until last year and it's been like... life-long issues I've been treating. It turns out it's not normal to feel exhausted enough to sleep at any given time, at all times, for your whole life! wow!!

I also uninstalled Tumblr from my phone back in February, so you could say I'm sort of generally focused on offline life. (And what an interesting coincidence that my writer's block dissipated shortly after that...) I also just moved!! The last two weekends have been so expensive and stressful -_- But I can't even compare the old place to the new. We're basically paying the same price for idek how much more space. The cats are so happy; which means the house humans get to be happy.

My schedule is finally freed up from constant medical shit (there was a 3-month stretch this winter with multiple doctor appointments literally every fucking week 🙃🙃🙃). My mental health is doing a lot better -- literally incomparably better compared to where I was this time last year. There's live comedy now (which I dabble in, to be clear lol), but I've finally found myself able to like... balance it all. The physical and creative energy that goes into it all, anyway. The lovely thing about improv is that you kinda just show up and do your thing -- it doesn't cut into my writing time so much as it costs energy. Unless I end up in this comedy debate show thing next month, which I am very excited to give up writing time for

So like... Life is life-ing and I'm just vibing. Or something? I'll be around.

Thank you all again so much for your interest, support, patience, and readership <3

#oh and if anyone knows where i can stream mob wives uncensored without paying any extra money i'd love you forever lol #that is unimportant- unless y'all find it important that i have access to all of my most influential pieces of media at all times IJSAYING! #jk jk ofc <3 thank you for reading #conspiracy in emerson #if cie #progress #cie ch 3

[pumpkinrootbeer]

ogfoofodoxx thinking about how the most defining character trait of haymitch is how protective he is. not in the sense it's the most obvious, but how all of his actions are fueled by this desire to protect. how hard he works at keeping katniss alive in the first games, him fighting to keep them from augmenting katniss's body, him yelling at plutarch to keep finnick from having to share his trauma, him being so involved in peeta's recovery and being the one to bring katniss home. him holding mayslee's hand as she died, fighting for plutarch to stay and rescue peeta, being the one to find katniss and finnick when johanna had an episode, begging coin to believe peeta's warning. it being heavily implied or either outright stated that he was one of the people who fought to protect effie.

makes me physically ill because no one does that for him. everyone who would of, died.

#DIES EXPLODES COMBUSTS #thg #haymitch abernathy #:v #haymitch acting like he doesn't care about anyone when he actually cares about everyone #he's acting like he's winning the idgaf war but love has disarmed him completely. #Tbc katniss and peeta would but they are literally incapable of being that for him. bc they are infant #also thinking about how we get this sense that while he has some modicum of power with the revolution his sway only goes so far #which is to say not far at all #the times we actually see what the negotiating process is like for him he has to beg coin to listen to him #and he says Plutarch didn't listen to him between cf and mockingjay when he tried to get them to stay for peeta #I just get this sense that most of the time he's in the room but isn't really allowed to make decisions #and constantly has to fight to be heard #I mean again I will always circle back to this they literally locked him in a room to detox #and the descriptions we get in cf is his withdrawal symptoms are incredibly severe #so clearly they weren't dependent on his imput #idk idk I just get this sense they valued his input up until the point he reminded them all he still views people as people. #him coaching katniss was to say in mockingjay during her speech in two also makes me chew drywall #how much of that is what he thought she needed to say to stay alive and how much is what he had always wanted to say #also thinking about how he wasn't lying when he told Plutarch he couldn't go back to twelve sober. #bc he gets katniss home and then immediately gets blackout drunk #I am of the opinion that he genuinely can't get sober while living in 12 #I like to think he lets himself leave eventually never to the capitol of course but in my hc he goes to 11 #just bc of his fondness for chaff and seeder but that's just a self indulgent headcanon #ALSO ALSO. #thinking about how he's fighting a revolution that he doesn't even believe will bring chance #well. he thinks it'll change things but that change will be temporary and fighting will break out again #my perfect pessimist idiot. in my heart of hearts he gets a therapist moves and actually recovers

[landgraabbed]

they’re moving in together after claire got burglarized while she had food poisoning

#p #ts2 #sims 2 #going to post a few pics from this rotation #currently in the process of decorating their house #*apartment #idk what happened everyone had food poisoning during round 2 #sav: bloom valley #y01win

[dilfpassing]

I work at an alternative school for teen students who for many various reasons are unable to be functional in a traditional typical classroom setting - disciplinary reasons, anxiety, emotional disorders, trauma, etc. - and I assist with a lot of english classes. It makes me a little sad that the teacher I work the most closely with hates the catcher in the rye so much because I’ve been rereading it and I think my students would relate really closely to Holden Caulfield. Caulfield may be annoying and whiny and privileged and obnoxious but I think the narrative of a teenager who acts out and postures himself to be older than he actually is and is struggling to comprehend and process a lot of trauma in his life so he does things he can’t even explain to himself and acts self destructive and lashes out to other people and has emotional breakdowns for seemingly no reason would be REALLY relatable to a lot of my students and I wish I could teach it to them...

#we read books out loud in class instead of assigning readings too so like #i could stop in real time and ask them to think about WHY they think holden is doing specific things #why holden starts crying when the pimp asks him for money #why holden says he doesnt care much about his siblings but then knows every timestamp on their daily routines #why holden gets so upset over other boys his age sleeping with girls but holden doesnt do it himself #why holden gets himself into fights but doesnt like fighting back #why holden zones out while hes being lectured and thinks about the ducks in the pond and where they go during the winter #he's like a very well illustrated example of a kid who projects all of his own issues onto everyone else because he doesnt know how to #process whats going on in his life #and it makes me sad how much of a bad reputation the book gets #bc reading it reminds me so much of my students who i love very dearly #who are very misunderstood and struggle with so much that isnt their fault #idk i think my students might have a lot of empathy for holden #i wish i could teach it to them but i dont control what we do in class

[twomystdunstans]

um. hi. k&f/malevolent au anyone?

(THERES A COMIC NOW ♛)

#I'll do more explaining in the tags just hold on #kane and feels #brutus feels #lucifer kane #k&f #malevolent #malevolent podcast #john doe malevolent #john malevolent #podcast #podcast au #OK SO BASICALLY. LOL. #going off my assumption that Malevolent could end. tragically a la TMA #John basically gets trapped back in the book in a last ditch effort to make sure the King in Yellow can never reform #arthur probably dies in the process :( either from the King in Yellow or like. Idk but hes not around #So FAST FORWARD to modern-day. Kane and Feels stumble upon this book during an investigation #Brutus is like 'well this looks old and spooky maybe its important? If not Kane will think its cool :)' #And he PICKS IT UP AND OPENS IT (Oh shit!) #Brutus comes to w Kane shaking him awake and NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE (OH SHIT!!!) #meanwhile John's losing his mind trying to make sense of what happened and as SOON as he tries communicating w Feels #Lucifer SEES HIM. #(This comes from the fact that Luce had the Sight Stone in s1 and hes clairvoyant) #(Whilst Brutus had the Sound Stone and is clairaudiant (being able to hear Things)) #Anyway so Luce can SEE John and idk basically theyre then being hunted again and considering the fact that K&F r more used to this #it probably goes a lot smoother #Also obsessed w the like #*john voice* what ARE you #*Feels voice* Oh we're private investiga- #*john voice* NO like what ARE you youre clearly not. Human. Not all the wa- did you just say private investigator. oh my fucking god. #Anyway theyre all besties and I dont think Kane and John would like eachother at first

[magentagalaxies]

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#this might be both oversharing and being too vague rn but it's 2am and i'm emotionally exhausted #i can't believe during one of the most traumatic moments i've had in the past year i was lucky enough to have scott as my biggest supporter #the entire time as i was going through it he was so supportive giving me space to process shit and always having my back #and yet there are some people in my life who are always going to villainize him for one comment he said during that time out of context #or even if they're not ''villainizing'' him i now feel like i have to begin every sentence about scott with #''yeah we don't agree on everything but we're still friends and isn't that amazing!'' #which yeah that is true and i do genuinely enjoy when scott and i disagree and are respectful about it #BUT WHY DOES THAT HAVE TO BE THE FIRST THING I SAY ABOUT HIM???? #and honestly that whole experience made me agree with scott on way more than i started out with #i'm proud of how i was able to grow as a person and for the fact that it brought me and scott much closer together #but that shit i went through at my college was still traumatic. and it did change me as a person #it completely changed my relationship to activism in a way i'm not happy about bc i want to be more of an activist #but when i had someone use social justice language to justify horrible things against me it's hard not to be wary #of how hollow and performative a lot of conversations can be #and like i'll even say it. like people might get mad at me for admitting it #but that whole traumatic situation has irrevocably changed my relationship to gender as well #or at least how i label myself and how i move through these conversations #and in some ways i'm grateful for it bc i do feel like i know myself more and like i don't have to worry about what others' think #or even what other people understand #but it shouldn't have had to go down like that. and as much as the time i got to spend with scott during that time was so much fun #and such a great experience and he was truly the perfect support system during that time #he shouldn't have had to deal with that and neither should i #and the fact that scott somehow got villainized in some people's minds while the person who actually caused that trauma #is instead treated like ''yeah he was a bit misguided and made a mistake but he was probably anxious about it!! he's just a person!!'' #that's never going to stop being painful. especially the idea that with the importance people put on labels #i would supposedly have more ''community solidarity'' with that asshole than a cis gay man like scott #idk i think i'm past the timeframe of that traumatic experience bc it's not consuming every day like it used to a few weeks back #but something triggered it tonight so i just need to process it. anyway shoutout to scott for being there for me i really needed it

[atomicengineerdetective]

No one talk to me I just came back from a family vacation to find out my favorite youtuber ever is leaving the platform.

I am devastated.

(I am actually happy for him, he has given me so much happiness for like 8 years. He deserves to let the channel go an enjoy his life. It just hurts, but I'll get over it

I'm so thankful for MatPat and Steph. I Hope every future endeavour or project they take on is successful and that over all they have a happy and fulfilling life with Ollie.💚❤️💛💙)

#I leave to a place with no cellphone signal and come back to this? #may be the lord was protecting me idk #What do I call this? a personal rant? Im not really ranting more like letting my feelings out #venting if you #never done this on my blog before but I feel like I have to #I've been a Fan of game theory since I was like 13 or 14 #He was like the first youtuber I ever suscribed to #that spoke english cause my first language is spanish lol #His videos and overall community meant a lot to me. I dont know how could I possibly express that #Of course Im going to still watch the videos after he is gone with the new hosts but still it wont be the same #Hope this doesnt sound too like sad. I dont mean to be negative. I am legitemetly so proud and happy for him #I mean He had one of the classiest goodbyes of YouTube at least I can say my favorite youtuber was never cancelled thats a win haha #But seriously he has achieved so much and has over all been such a positive influencer how could I not be proud to call myself a Fan #so truly I am not sad He ended on the highest note you could ask for. I cannot ask for anything more from him. #I am not sad However I did cry like a Baby during the Video. Man I just. Im tearing up even thinking about it #but anyway #You bet I am going to watch every single one of his videos the second they upload until march 9. #And then I am going to dedicate the day to the celebration he supposedly plans for then #I will probably vent some more in a bigger post then too. like I did in this tags lol. #Right now... I just cant. I need to process a little more heh #MatPat #Matthew Patrick #The game Theorists #game theory #goodbye matpat

[hjemne]

I've been... Absolutely normal? After this breakup with the person that I really genuinely wanted to spend my life with.

It happened Friday night, I cried most of the night and a little on Saturday but then something just shifted and I've been like 99% fine and normally and happy since then? The only time the sadness has really hit me since has been thinking about how upset my (dying) grandma will be that she won't be able to know my partner. But otherwise? I got horrendously drunk on Saturday night, had tons of fun and was fine with a guy low-key flirting with me. Since I got thru the handover and sleepiness on Sunday I've been utterly normal, getting on with work, reading romance and enjoying it rather than being sad or jealous etc. The main stressor has been the number of deadlines I've had this week and trying to manage my parents' reaction and reassure them I'm fine.

It's not that I'm complaining I've not been truly and utterly crushed by the heartbreak, but I'm just weirded out by this reaction. I'm worried I'm bottling it all up and it'll explode later or that this is me sliding back into depression, but I'm still enjoying things and it doesn't feel like depression? Like have I actually reached that level of emotional maturity that I've dealt with everything (or most things) already?

He decided about a week ago that he didn't want to go through his early twenties having to factor someone else into his life plans. I understand it, I respect his decision, acknowledge that there's no use in trying to talk him out of it, appreciate the fact he told me as soon as he could in person so we ended the relationship still loving each other rather than growing apart and resentment building. I really can't stress how I've never loved or been loved by anyone like with him before and that he has been the most important person in my life for four years. Accepting that the life we were planning together has gone has seemed to happen so easily and it feels like something must therefore be wrong. It's helped that we haven't seen each other in person and haven't currently got plans to I guess because I think it's going to really hit when I can't be physically affectionate like before. But even with the distance I still just can't understand why I'm feeling so nothing about this. He brought up that he might want to break up in March and I cried far more than this. Have I been emotionally checked out of the relationship since then without realising? Am I just bottling stuff up without realising? I just wish I knew

#im very used to being alone #even during the relationship we were long distance for most of it and i was living by myself or with emotionally distant family #and last month i moved in with 3 friends and with uni starting I'm able to socialise more even though i still prefer to be alone a lot #so maybe its the fact that i dont feel so isolated that's helping? #even when we lived together i only really had my now ex around to turn to for friendship #also with university im so so overworked but it gives me structure #so im with friends and have a purpose #which is maybe whats holding me together #i think i did process a lot of this after we nearly broke up in march #i said to him months ago that I ultimately want him to be happy and if he decides that its not with me then ill hate it but accept it #i am also on a lot of adderall lmao #switched prescriptions today #anyway even if im slightly scared everything is going to explode out of me one day #i am still proud with how im handling this #i could have been so vindictive during the break up but i knew thatd only hurt him and that i dont want him to be upset #so i wasnt #there were a couple of times i said stuff that i could have left unsaid like how i had our anniversary card already written and in our desk #and i think part of me did want him to hurt at that but mostly because i wanted him to see how much i was? still petty I know #but also i think I'm allowed a bit of pettiness when im being dumped pretty much out of nowhere #idk man #its not bad necessarily its just weird #we said we'd talk on the weekend so the first convo post break up wouldnt become a Thing of who would blink first or whatever #and i want him to know im alright but i don't want it to seem like im bragging or that it means the relationship meant nothing to me #like hey I've lost the most precious thing we had together and actually it seems im fine without it #i really really hope hes feeling a similar way #our friend and my housemate went to visit him yesterday so hopefully hes let him know im coping fine so he doesnt have to feel guilty #i dont want him to be alone in a new house full of strangers and heartbroken #ive been telling our mutual friends to look after him and saying they really really really shouldnt take sides or anything in this #and i dont like thinking of him being sad and knowing there's absolutely nothing i can do rn to help other than giving him space #rambles

[ananas-pineapple-thing]

climbs back onto the stage to continue a two day old post. also people hating rachel bc she’s rich suck bro she’s 15 what do u want her to do 😭 rr likes writing rich people with helicopters it’s not her fault

#haha i tricked u by making a small little post. now i will continue the two day old post's tags >:] #rachel was: well within her rights to like percy. also to kiss him. he reciprocated and she backed off easily when he didnt #percy was: well with his rights to like both rachel and annabeth. also to kiss rachel. annabeth has zero ownership over him #even if she’s his best friend who likes him. percy’s communication skills or whatever idk #i haven’t read the books in 30 years are not awful. you could argue he’s leading them on but i disagree bc He doesn’t even know what he want #also rachel is in a unique position of being a mortal that understands him and can keep him company during the school year and #it’s not hard to see why percy would be drawn to that. sometimes love triangles go beyond the people it’s about the kind of life he wants. #also he's 15 lol 😭 #annabeth was: well within her rights to like percy and to be jealous that her crush is hanging out with a girl that likes him. #she was Not: within her rights to treat rachel badly. at all. she was very needlessly rude. #she also has deep set problems with abandonment that gives her behavior context but does not make it right. part of reading a series abt #teenagers is seeing them mess up and act immaturely. annabeth would not be a compelling character if she was born always right and flawless. #been growing up and becoming their best selves Together for years. a flawless annabeth with a flawed percy would suck for both #of them. her fatal flaw is literally hubris omg it’s not hashtag girlboss to make the female lead perfect 😭 #LISTEN. love triangles are so interesting when done right. what does it say about the character that they’re drawn to #these different people. what does it say about the life they want or the mindsets they value. what does it say about them when #they choose someone. beyond choosing a partner what kind of life are they choosing. what exactly are they committing to. #what made them realize this. and what does it say that they ever seriously considered the one who was rejected. romance is often written #as a tool for character development and there are specific themes surrounding the process and the conclusion. #best example for this is the hunger games (which obviously is not similar to pjo at all lol.) #percabeth is more compelling when u accept that percy Actually liked rachel and was considering a relationship with her and #by extension a life more tied to the mortal world. #also if you read all this [sicko meme voice] HAHA YES now u have to join my discussion circle. please answer my questions: #1. Do you think it’s more acceptable to be “the other girl” in media nowadays? #2. List an example of a love triangle you believe was handled well. What did it bring to the story #and what does it say about the themes and characters involved? #3. Is there a piece of media you wish had a different romantic pairing for a character that would’ve have deepened the themes #of the story more than the actual pairing? Does the canon pairing take away from the themes or do you just think it’s less effective? #4. if you have a sad cat picture please send it to me im running out

[waywardsalt]

When Tetra was petrified, she remained somewhat concious and could vaguely hear her surroundings, but, obviously, couldn't communicate back. Now, being a descendant of the royal bloodline and/or having a Triforce-induced superpowers, she'd usually be able to contact Link telepathically, but, after being turned to stone, Tetra's call is too quiet, and Link can't hear it, because he has his own innate and pretty potent wind magic, drowning any weak external signals, not to mention Ciela and her siblings adding their magic into the mix.

There is someone else who can hear her in that state, though, and that's Linebeck. He doesn't wield any magic (or nothing significant, at least), so he doesn't drown her out. Whenever Link and Ciela/other spirits leave his ship to go dungeon-crawling or stuff, if the engine's turned off, only then can Linebeck hear Tetra calling out. At first, he's naturally freaked out and thinks Link brougt a ghost from the Ghost Ship, but later they figure everything out and manage to communicate with Tetra and relay what she had to say to Link.

(Also, for a first couple of days Linebeck referred to Tetra as a "figuredeck", until realizing that the subject is too sensitive for Link).

That's a cool idea! Giving Tetra a sort of role, a new role for Linebeck, and some new group dynamic stuff, that's a neat concept.

#asks #goopi-e #loz #legend of zelda #phantom hourglass #this is a cool idea #giving tetra something to do during ph #giving her an actual role to some degree #i dont have a whole lot to say about this! since oyu kinda just phrased it as a statement rather than a question #so i can really process it as a point of discussion without more indication from you #but this is a really cool idea #ive personally just stuck to tetra being. frozen and like. asleep (i dont really. have an attachment to tetra so uh. idk) #also with how nebulous magic is in loz the idea of most characters having some amount of innate magic is cool #that idea has been cool to me #and ive personally leaned into linebeck having like. in rpg terms low mana high magical power. #like in my peus fic hes noted as having the ability to resurrect a dead person but only if certain conditions are met #the idea of him having to be the one tetra has to go through to talk to link also adds a bit of. tension? in my mind #since im set in viewing linebeck as low empathy and socially unsure and all of that so it evokes an idea of him. fucking it up a lot #or being highly uncomfortable or insensitive #what is a figuredeck im begging i looked it up and cant figure it out #sorry it took so long for me to write such a short answer my shitfucked brain forced me to spend 13 straight hours on legos #happy holidays btw hope things have been good with you #also again sorry if this is like. a letdown answer until i got the second ask i deadass thought this was a mistake sorry

[astrxealis]

sometimes i randomly remember the time i was swimming as a kid and it was by the big pool but near the edge and the uhh entrance of the pool anyways i almost drowned and so i grabbed lune to live and almost drowned her. good times

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #the adults... were not there..... i mean they kinda were but did they really just look at us and think 'oh nothing's happening' and look #away :(( mom had to save us and it broke her phone bcs she forgot to remove it from her pocket and she still took so long raghhh !! #anyways i think that's what caused my extreme fear of drowning. it's funny i love the water so much yet fear it too #WE HAD TO WRITE ONCE about an experience where God Saved Us sorry religious school (SOBBING... <//3) #i did this. when i almost drowned (my twin too). uh. what was i going to say about this i forgot anyway #idk i have always had a very yeah imagination... sometimes thought about a plane landing down in the middle of a flight over the ocean #and it would really scare me thinking about the process (i think it was bcs i was a curious kid. even now but yeah. and i liked looking #at the papers and all during planes! love plane rides tbh tho i have a deathly fear of dying there too WHAGBJSHDB) it also didn't help #btw that yeah vivid imagination so i'd imagine it and it was worse than it would actually be tbh... maybe bcs i only really had those pics #+ watching the titanic + kid imagination to imagine how it would be like. i doubt now a shark would come if ever that happened tbh #also yk i love sharks they're so cute actually i love marine animals sooo much and sorry i should eat and do homeowrk i keep gettin #SIDETRAcked uhh i REALLY don't want to do my homework sobbing but at 5-6 i'll be busy and i don't want to cram and god i have sm to do

[paralien]

... tfw you apply to a job as a 50-60% employee because you've got reduced health because of a intensive surgery you never truly healed from because of a birth defect that never got dealt with as a child so you had to deal with it as an adult and surprisingly the place you applied to says yes and gives you the job despite your history of health issues but surprise, boss has signed you up as a 100% employee and then goes on 2 weeks of vacation before you can sort out your work schedule and remind them that hey you only applied to a 60% position 😳

#just lmk how much u can work according to the welfare system and we'll try to stay within that #listen sure for anyone else that'd be gr8 dont get me wrong but. i work overtime every single day #and i have no rest days bc during the weekends i need to catch up on family related stuff #and im only supposed to work 60% bc if i work 100% the welfare system/office will drop me #and im in the middle of the process of getting assessed to see if i qualify for permanent disability benefits #bc i have a leg thatll never get 100% better and im gonna have to deal w it my entire life and 🙃 i can work but if i eork 100% #itll only take me so and so long before i crash abd end up bed bound #becsuse i get inflamation in my entire body 💕 and i need rest days to actually minimise the chabce of that happening 💕 #so i can be a reliable and dependable employee #boss even SAID #AND THEN SHE PREPARES TO GO ON VACAYION AND SHE HASNT EVEN ORDERED MY WORK UNIFORM YET #MAAAAAAA'AAAAAAM #also idk when i even get PAID ... #all i know is what i make per hour before taxes #fanya.txt #fanya yells abt work

[i-like-to-think-im-funny]

Got my Wisdom Teeth removed like a week ago and like... I've just realized how little I've heard about people's experiences with their wisdom teeth.

I also want to note that I was very much looking forward to seeing my behavior right after getting said wisdom teeth removed, but apparently I'm a fucking tank so I was just fully conscious and only had minor motor problems. Top 10 biggest anime dissappointments.

#Wisdom Teeth #Lowkey wanna read a story about someone who just got their wisdom teeth removed #Because I was conscious during my procedure and I have so many thoughts on any and everything thay happened #Both during said procedure AND the healing process #Like. The Dentists kept going 'Oh they're out!' and everytime. #Without fail. #I would go 'No I'm not'. #I had counted sheep in an attempt to sleep too. It didn't work clearlu #I had made it to 100 three times and like... Halfway through the second counting I game up on the sheep #'Cause despite being conscious I wasn't sober and it was hard to think properly #Especially with all the outside distractions #It's interesting 'cause the Dentists were actually talking. Like in one of thos emedical dramas #And every so often I would forget to count or just not focus on the sound in my mouth 'cause they were talking about Covid #Or something else along those lines lol #And when I didn't try focusing in the counting or any other of my thoughts I was focusing on the sounds the tools were making. #I remember at one point I had stopped counting 'cause I heard the like... What I assume was a drill? #Idk. I was too scared to open my eyes lol #But I remember hearing the tool and the sound it made and it was almost rymthmic #So I continued counting to the rythm and maybe 5 sheep layer the rythm stopped lol. #Honestly could go on for hours about this entire experience I have so many thoughts

[twomystdunstans]

um. hi. k&f/malevolent au anyone?

#I'll do more explaining in the tags just hold on #kane and feels #brutus feels #lucifer kane #k&f #malevolent #malevolent podcast #john doe malevolent #john malevolent #podcast #podcast au #OK SO BASICALLY. LOL. #going off my assumption that Malevolent could end. tragically a la TMA #John basically gets trapped back in the book in a last ditch effort to make sure the King in Yellow can never reform #arthur probably dies in the process :( either from the King in Yellow or like. Idk but hes not around #So FAST FORWARD to modern-day. Kane and Feels stumble upon this book during an investigation #Brutus is like 'well this looks old and spooky maybe its important? If not Kane will think its cool :)' #And he PICKS IT UP AND OPENS IT (Oh shit!) #Brutus comes to w Kane shaking him awake and NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE (OH SHIT!!!) #meanwhile John's losing his mind trying to make sense of what happened and as SOON as he tries communicating w Feels #Lucifer SEES HIM. #(This comes from the fact that Luce had the Sight Stone in s1 and hes clairvoyant) #(Whilst Brutus had the Sound Stone and is clairaudiant (being able to hear Things)) #Anyway so Luce can SEE John and idk basically theyre then being hunted again and considering the fact that K&F r more used to this #it probably goes a lot smoother #Also obsessed w the like #*john voice* what ARE you #*Feels voice* Oh we're private investiga- #*john voice* NO like what ARE you youre clearly not. Human. Not all the wa- did you just say private investigator. oh my fucking god. #Anyway theyre all besties and I dont think Kane and John would like eachother at first

[hgduo]

im gonna be real- i really thought there was gonna be a bait and switch moment with c!Eret being all "Im not letting you off that easily" to... idk... anything but that-

#I got an ad during that fucking moment so I missed what was said... #but that wasn't the direction i thouhgt it was gonna go #hm.... theres a lot to process rn #I liked some parts of that stream but.... well.......... #idk i need more time to get my thoughts sorted out im sure others can and will say it better #i really hope they aren't gonna keep on playing out Wilbur's confrontations like this like... #c!eret critical #tagging just in case #fuck man..... i hate not being able to find the right words #negative #Like there would good parts in that stream and good ideas in there.... but like... #I feel like not so good parts really weighed it down