#im letting it run my life

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

not me immediately getting jude from this

who did you guys get? 👀

#idk any of them i just see jude around a lot so it made me chuckle #@/judejazza and their wonderful posts i often run into #victor is apparently my opposite from these options and elbert is my 2nd choice or smth #(friends and i usually do 'quizzes' 3x to get our main/secondary/opposite) #anyway im just snooping around now. still not sure how i feel abt it but was never too tempted for ikevil. #the less gacha in my life atp the better ngl ;;;;;;;; its why ive stayed away from most of the new games and tryna limit current ones #though if they ever do finally drop ikegen (unlikely asf) ..... count my ass in #i can't even be mad ikepri dropped bc ive enjoyed it so much more than i ever thought i would. easily my fav or 2nd fav bc ikerev #i still adore ikerev and magic and the world building and everything.. alice is just pretty dumb sometimes #which is why i adore b&tb-esque belle/emma so much. also why i like mai in some routes (ikesen humor op) #ikevamp has always just kinda been there tbh. usually the events feel more interesting than the routes ngl;;; charas are fun tho #anyway let's see how this bad boy goes #who did y'all get?? #ikevil #ikemen villains #my post 📫 #aerin.jpg #from the official ig acct btw

[crescentfool]

having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!

#persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #hc and au nonsense #lizzy speaks #happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳 #i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at- #him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know? #and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^ #something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls #you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations #and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4 #and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are... #that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!) #the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES #objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written #but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently #specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship #it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc #it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but #eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses! #regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself- #into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here. #the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go #“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons #anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍 #have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

waking up means starting the day's long battle of fighting to stay conscious

#ough im so sleepy.... eepy even.... #i already slept so much but the couch is calling to me #'maybe a lil nap wouldnt hurt' < thats the demons talking #but honestly. what WOULD it hurt? its not like i have literally Anything going on in my life! #there is nothing i need to be awake for! #why shouldn't i doze. why shouldn't i.... #IM LOSING THE BATTLE #absolutely unprompted #i would like to scribble but im so tired... so sleepy... my eyelids are so heavy #just... just one little nap. an hour! or two. or five. lets go for a coma actually that sounds festive #a month long sleep should fix me (lie) #ill scribble some laughingstock later i prommy.... #awww wait tangent #my cat letti has started up a new game #where she shoves a toy under a shelf and then runs to the other side to try and fish it out from underneath #and then she shoves it back under rinse and repeat #she's so enthusiastic about it... practically throwing herself around as she bats the toy back and forth #oh nope she got it out and now she's tossing it around & playing cat soccer with it <3 #and i am going to go Nap. ive lost the battle <3 im waving a white flag <3 i surrender to diet death

[hayaku14]

kuroba toichi you need to stay dead or im going to fucking kill you myself

#you sick son of a bitch #if you truly love your son you wouldnt be alive #it's bad enough that you basically left the mantle for your teenage son to take up but you actually being alive???????? #you just out there living your life while your son is destroying his relationships chasing after something that you started???????? #his very motivation is your death and it's not even real??? the utter fucking betrayal??? #and maybe being kid has kade him a better magician and has helped him find out more about himself #but he shouldve been able to have a choice if he even wanted to be kid at all it shouldnt have been a responsibility pushed upon him #AND IF YOU ARE FUCKING ALIVE AND YOU'RE JUST WATCHING YOUR SON RUNNING AWAY FROM THE POLICE WITH PRIDE INSTEAD OF GUILT YHEN YOU CAN #GO FUCK YOURSELF #Honestly the worst #also that theory that maybe chikage is travelling the world because she KNOWS toichi is alive and she's with her elevates this fuckery into #a whole different level #anyway go read cuethesun's tomorrow and the next day #good fucking food and bad parent chikage and toichi enjoyers will be pleased ;> #lol #dc prattles #as much as i want happy everybody is alive kuroba family #i need touichi and chikage if she knows too to feel the repercussions of their horrible parenting and i need kaito to be able to let himself #feel the hurt and betrayal that he is justified to feel even if he is happy that his dad is alive #but i dont trust gosho to handle that nicely if anything i think hes gonna just handwave it and wont address it properly #anyway my point is i just need more hurt and angry kaito also if shinichi is there im happy #sorry i sneaked in a kaishin i cant stop the brainrot unfortunately theres no cure 🤚😔 #ALSO DONT GET ME STARTED WITH BAD PARENT KUDOS OOOOOHHHH

[hamsternamedmarinette]

Hey you. Yes, you.

Do you like superheroes?

Of course you do. They're cool. They do stuff like leap across rooftops and kick bad guys in the face.

Do you want to leap across rooftops and kick bad guys in the face?

I'm not suggesting you do those things, of course. Well, it depends on the bad guy. But would you like to be fit enough to do those things?

Then join my new discord server Miraculous Fitness!

Hello! I've had the idea for this server for a while and finally decided to go through with it. Despite the intro I just gave, the intent here isn't to whip people into so much shape that they're able to do superheroey things (I certainly can't lmao); it's just to provide a motivating, comfortable, fun online fitness space for people who already know each other through this fandom. A lot of people in fandom/artist/writer communities have never vibed well with gym/athletic culture, but still want to maintain their health and fitness. If that sounds like you, this is your chance to help start a fitness community of like-minded people who already share a nerdy, silly interest with you!

Everyone is welcome, whether you're a star athlete or a complete beginner. Whether your goal is to run a 5k, do 10 pushups, plank for one minute, or to simply cheer others on as they train to do those things. My goal is just to create a fun, safe, fitness-oriented environment for this fandom community! (And to get better at push-ups/planks/running. I really need to get better at those things.)

I hope to see you there!

#мой пост #miraculous ladybug #ml #miraculous #also let me just say that i have never run a discord server before and am generally very inexperienced with discord #and i am also very busy in my life these days so like maybe i shouldnt start this buuuuut i really want to #i think it'll help me with my own fitness. lol #you caught me. i have an ulterior motive #but yeah fitness is fun the gym is fun running is fun when i dont feel like im dying doing it and i want you all to have fun with me

[tojisun]

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#i dont know what it is but i cant stop thinking about religious stories beyond the scriptures #how the first death in the bible is murder #what did abel think when his brother brought down his fists to him? #im a younger sister; my older sister is my beacon of light��the very person i try to emulate #i honour her in a way that is different. i am loyal to her more than i am to my mother #i wonder if abel was too. i wonder what he must have felt when his brother #who was so indifferent if not outright ignoring him #invited him out to the fields; did he think ‘‘my brother finally loves me?’’ #did he think ‘‘brother im so happy to be with you’’? #did he think ‘‘please let your kindness run forever’’? #‘​‘please keep inviting me to your fields’’ #‘​‘please let me be in your life’’? #sun rambles

[l48yr1nth]

OH THANK GOD YOURE PRO-MSPEC GAYS/ LESBIANS. youre one of my fave regretevator artists fr

-a lesboy :)

LOL I'm pro-whateverthefuck when it comes to gender/sexual identity. I know first-hand how COMPLICATED that stuff can get! so long as we're all having fun n not hurting anyone i literally could not give a hamsters 2 balls lmao

I think a skill all these folks need to learn is to accept even if you don't get it. this applies outside of queer spaces too! reacting to something we don't know a lot about/dont understand with fear and hatred helps no-one. in fact, it's pretty much exactly what spawns things like racism and homophobia! working past this mindset and actively maintaining an open mind (because it truly does require maintenance. catch yourself when you're thinking with a closed mind!) will solve most of these bizzare discourse fighting pits.

#labyanswering #ANDANDAND IM UR FAV??!!??!??!!??! grabs you in my hand... hahhehehahh.. hello.... #i want u and everyone else to feel nice n welcome :3c dont hide your strangeness my friend be free!!! #dont let the 13-15 y/os making up gay discourse hold you back!! run wild run free!!! this kind of argument literally doesnt even exist in-- #real-life gay communities!

[mayathexpsychic]

JUST. JUST GO HERE

#i should never be allowed to listen to this song ever for the rest of my entire life. im running face first into a wall right now #who let him say all this. there is not a line in this whole song that doesnt make me soooo insane #the brobecks

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

✨ THE GANG IS FINALLY BACK TOGETHER ✨

#mira’s screenshots ✨ #kaidan alenko #ashley williams #sophie shepard #shenko #i don’t think i’ve posted screenshots before #but i got WAYYYYY too excited to get ash and kaidan back #my f12 key is about to be EVEN MORE in shambles then it already is #it’s finally time for the ✨fashion extravaganza✨ with my favorite battle couple and their battle bestie #PV out here saving my life letting me do all the citadel side quests after the coup so i could speed run sur’kesh and tuchanka 🥰 #we’re min/max’ing the kaidan/ash content this playthrough #✨✨✨ #the amount of kaidan/ash/soph content im about to be posting is gonna be ridiculous

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[doodle17]

What if I wanted to remake an old comic I made with my sister when I was in my edgy wolf phase

What if I wanted to remake all of my old wolf OCs with names like "Sparrow" and "ShadowPelt" Huh?

What if I wanted to remake the entire story that we planned out for 16 novels 2 spinoff and animated movie but only managed to make 1 stabled up comic that roughly 34 pages long?

#Oh I'm totally gonna do this #Dude that was probably the best time of my life #That was so fun man #This would fix me #This would make my mental health so much better #Just let me indulge in the wolf stuff for a little bit longer please... #Let me pretend I'm running through the woods #Let me have them say the most edgy wolf stuff like: #“No Story. You can't fight Xavier. the alpha of the fabled death clan. He will tear you apart.” #“B-but Mortikeye! You don't understand! Im... the chosen one” #AAAUUGHH I MISS IT #doodles rants

[crucified-bloodhound]

being single for almost two years (not counting the gf i had in december, ill address that later) has made me learn a lot about love.

trigger warning - mentions of sa, eating disorders, and self harm

i've learned about how i want to love. how i want to be loved. what compromise is. what communication is. i have learned from the friends that i have made into family that love is not always easy. no one is perfect and no love is perfect.

i've learned what i'm not willing to take from someone. when i asked my ex to be my girlfriend, after months of talking, i drove 45 minutes for our first in person date. she commented on my body and what i ate at dinner. she made me do things when i clearly showed and said outright i didnt want to. we cuddled in my car in the dark parking lot of her hometown shopping mall and, just a few days after i told her i wasnt ready to do more than hug and lay together and hold hands, she pressed into me and told me she had a boner. just a few days after i confided in her about my recent lapse into my old habits of body dysmorphia and hitting the gym too hard and resting too little, she squeezed the fat on my hip and stomach. i learned that i don't have to say yes. that i dont have to pressure myself in my own head to lay and wait when i want to begin the long drive home north on 76 and through the lonely streets of my city square. i learned i dont have to be quiet and wait until i am calm to share my discomfort. i learned how to stand up for myself. i learned how to see the road through the tears.

i learned what is not worth doing because of pain. i learned i dont have to hurt on the outside to validate what's on the inside, to make it real. i learned how to talk to strangers kind enough to ask, with genuine fucking care, "are you okay?" and "what's going on?" i learned that no matter how many scars i have, no matter how stupid and small i feel watching them fade, that my pain has always been real. my pain is more than "big feelings" and "crying it out." i learned that there are people who care about that pain enough to let me sit in it, still and unharmed, for as long as i need, no matter how much they wish they could just make it go away. i learned that high beams dont work in the rain.

i learned that there are good people. not people that are inherently good or above me - people that want to be good. want to do good things for people who ask or need or neither. i learned that sometimes, people just care. there's no transaction in that. no expectation, no "owing you one," no long road of penance for being treated as both fragile and strong, both big and small. i learned the joy in letting someone pass me on the four lane busy streets and seeing the good old midwest wave through the back windshield.

i learned how to give. i learned that everyone else is in pain too. i learned that it is vulnerable in the most exalting of ways to offer up your soul for the family you choose. i learnes how to comfort my friends at college missing their parents two states over or halfway across the country, even if i dread coming home to mine each day. i learned to acknowledge how hard it must be to be someone else. i learned to opem my arms when a friend comes running. i learned how to warn my passenger before we hit a bump, brake fast, gas it hard, or turn sharp.

i learned that even on the shitty days, loving is the best thing for my soul. i learned that no matter how much ive bled or been hit or touched when i didnt ask for it or stared in the mirror for too long, that my skin is worth caressing, my body worth protecting, that i'm still a virgin if i say i am, that the reflection will always be worth smiling at. i learned of mirth. of pain. of how to feel good. that my body is still mine no matter how many people tried to take a piece of it with them and no matter how young and stupid i was when i let them. i learned that love is so much more than a peck on the cheek in the morning or water after sex. i learned when to pull over to breathe.

#queer #queer love #dyke #butch #butch dyke #gay #trans dyke #i learned how to love #jackie rants #life is so beautiful when you let it be #even when youre a queer teen in a red state #there is always hope #theres always the dream of running to maine #theres always the sun and the moon in the same sky at dawn #and there is always someone worth my love #and their love of which im worthy; too #long post

[samarecharm]

Cant believe they wont let me farm that fucking teddy bear

#chattin #strikers liveblog #8800 EXP AND U WONT LET ME FARM HIM. FUCKA YOU #CANT HAVE SHIT IN DETROIT !!!!!!! #anyway the fight was tedious. i was hoping for a big reward for beating this fucker #but i was too focused on the exp to see the item it may have dropped #wack #i had ryuji yusuke and haru on my team #i DISTINCTLY remember when i was running for my life leveled 18 that it had mapsio #but i didnt realized it drained psi. so haru was kinda like. useless. im sorry girl. #i wanted to do it again w morgana and sophia but he didnt respawn :( #wack… #i didnt finish the snow city yet; im still grinding bc im out of control #and i get a rush fusing new personas LMAO #i guess when i get tired of it; ill go fight this woman #so funny; the game can try all they might. but i do not think i will sympathize w a politician lol #well. i guess it depends on how they finish her story #but if u want this kind of idea to land well; it needs to be w relatable people. not. mayors….

[robotpussy]

this white woman is threatening to call the police on me after she fucking sprayed bathroom cleaner in my fucking face and lashed out and told her to fuck off

#i know she wont call the police because wtf are they gonna do? im not at home in literally going to class #and i wont get home until the evening but the fact that she's threatening me because she wanted me #to lash out is so evil im manifesting her death idgaf anymore!!! #incase ppl are wondering she was outside spraying the door for a hour and im like im not walking past her #incase she says i did something to her. but then im like nah im gonna be late if i dont leave now #incase she says i did something to her. so i close the door but because she has the front door open my door slams #so she screams 'dont slam the door' and im like it only slammed because of the wind #and then im waiting for her to move and she won't so i just tell her i need to get past and she's like fuck off you piece of shit #and i just get riled up like don't fucking talk to me all i did was tell you i need to get past but you called me names #so im gonna do it back cause im not letting that slide. and she fucking sprays the cleaner at me #and then when im like what the fuck is your problem shes like i can get you arrested for being violent #and im like.... call them cause i haven't touched you 🤷🏾‍♀️ shes been dying to say that to me i know it #that low life penny smelling pile of white flesh will get whats coming to her i say she drop dead soon! #the reason why she was claiming i was being violent was because i kicked the air as a reflex response.... #i didnt kick her. i kicked the air but shes going to run with that

[romansmartini]

now that ive finished my first hardcore playthrough i feel like i cant rest until im wearing the fuck the world and pissfaggot jackets with my best friend kim. but that involves all the work it takes to get the pissfaggot jacket. also almost got taken onto the moralintern ship the last time but i was doing an intellect playthrough and could not for the life of me pass the empathy check. also if i give the pissfaggot jacket to kim i want him to be wearing it through the mercenary tribunal so i can ask him why he took it off after. if i get him the pissfaggot jacket will he wear it onto the moralintern ship? i also want to play through the moralist ending Not on hardcore mode so the check is easier. which basically means i've got two more playthroughs ahead of me i want to do like immediately. can someone set me free from this prison of love and adoration for video game

#diary #disco elysium #had to type all that out so it's out of my brain and i wont start playing right now when it's bedtime. #i also want to do a himbo run but not for any reason just because so where does that come into play??? anyway PLEASE ADVISE #i have fallout 4 and horizon i want to play but i can't let her go ........ #im crazy. im the embodiment of that post thats like started playing monday tuesday woke up sweating from the most detailed #sex dream of my life or whatever. hold on let me rb that post again

[shadowglens]

i’ve taken the plunge and started brainstorming a novel idea 😳

#txt #writing diaries #I’m determined to write something! even if it ends up more novella length than novel #ive always felt intimidated in the past but now i just feel excited #excited to explore new characters and a new world and a new story #and romance of course #idk im trying so hard to let fear and shame run my life this year #and want to embrace writing again! since its been so so so long since i was doing it consistently #*not to let fear and shame 😭