#im not at all normal about them im gonna be real

[likedrotten]

no, he doesn't look a thing like jesus, but he talks like a gentleman like you imagined when you were young

#UH I CAN EXPLAIN #no i cant #south park #damien thorn #damien south park #gary harrison #damien x gary #gaymien #im not at all normal about them im gonna be real #rotten art

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinking about Eddie & hyacinths again

#as you can surmise im Perfectly Normal about it #this man doesnt make me insane at all. nope. #trying out some new coloring and texture and background things... #on a side note. and i say this so lovingly bc theyre my favorite flowers #FUCK DRAWING HYACINTHS ALL MY HOMIES HATE DRAWING HYACINTHS #that was hell on earth. #ANYWAY THIS DUDE IS NEAT I HOPE HE DIES #nah im jesting im Jesting. am i tho #dead or alive i want him to experience unimaginable horrors and then die ten times and come back Normal #bc eddie strikes me as a 'dying would fix them' character #whether its a real death or a perceived death or Youve Been Dead The Whole Time death dont care dont care #i need him dead on the ground for at leeeaaaast five minutes #id be frothing at the fucking mouth. ragh #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #eddie dear #originally this was gonna be a Very bloody little piece #but then my brain went 'hey. symbolism. what if the blood was flower petals. from hyacinths' #and ohhhh i couldnt pass that up #i wish i did! i would have had a lot more fun drawing a gruesome injury rather than Those Damn Flowers! #i dont know why ive latched onto the hyacinths outside the post office but my brain wont let go #ITS JUST SO SPECIFIC. why why whyyyyyy put that specific flower by this specific guy #especially flowers with Those Meanings and That Myth #*violently shaking the site* WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNN #ok im getting myself too worked up i need to touch grass or poke the fire

[secretlythatsme]

anyway dc x dp is my new fixation hell and i've had so many ideas for aus but one that's really sticking with me is a classic "danny has to run away to gotham because his home is no longer safe" au where danny is explicitly looking for other ghosts or at the very least is pulled to gotham because there are so many of them there.

he flies around for a while and finds this manor and he can sense so many nice ghosts! so he just. goes there! and stays! and this can be human danny showing up at their door injured or it can be ghost danny just flying in but regardless, the waynes would never turn him away. bruce would get suspicious absolutely, but he's seen enough traumatized abused kids to know the signs. thomas and martha? they think this new ghost kid is adorable!!

there could be angst sure but idk i love the idea of danny getting hurt by his parents or the giw and being so wary of more humans, and this place full of friendly ghosts would be so enticing. ghosts that don't try to immediately wreck his shit? ghosts that get territorial but are also extremely welcoming and have a habit of letting new kids into their haunt? the batfam who've dealt with the paranormal before and wouldn't give a shit? that's a normal tuesday for them babes. like please, danny just found heaven and it's in gotham.

despite all the "batfam adopts danny" aus i've seen, i rarely see people mention the ghosts of dead family members who would absolutely still be there and would definitely want to help danny :(

#anyway unrelated but as much as i love the concept of the batpham i do hate how all of it is soo ooc for the bats #like bruce may think danny is a meta at first but he wouldn't discount ghosts or Not believe him #and cmon the whole 'this bat doesn't even believe in ghosts' like babes santa clause is real in the dcu #ghosts is normal actually #and usually it doesnt bother me that much like i get that most people arent here for the bats #but i do really hate seeing hurt danny aus where the bats are just so... callous and uncaring about danny #like i get that its for the angst but like. the blorbos would Not say that ajkdhg #like they are The Protectors of Gotham and you seriously think theyd ever act uncaring or rude to an injured kid? #i feel like people forget that that batkids fighting each other has everything to do with family sibling issues #and specifically not wanting said siblings to be their siblings #and not like. them just being assholes to random strangers #like i get them maybe being rude if its an adoption au or secretly related au but even then #danny is also very nice and likeable and he's not gonna fight for their roles or try to insert himself in their dynamics #he's like the best random kid bruce Could pick up #anyway very unrelated to the post im just feeling some kind of way :( #i love the bats and i wish the fandom cared about them more :( #ANYWAY i love this little idea im specifically thinking alfred would be the first to figure it out #he just does man. he just Knows that someone else has been added to the family #i think itd be fucking hilarious if a new random tombstone got added to the family grave #bruce visits and he's mourning his parents and then he just sees daniel fenton and he's like who the fuck #'do i have amnesia?? concussion?? dementia????? who the fuck is this ancestor???????' #danny is eating alfred's cookies in the background and sweat laughing #danny: do i tell him or nah? #alfred: if you don't you'll get to see master bruce's detective skills in action 👨🏼‍🦳 #.txt

[kiri-tired]

Ngl, that part of the library episode where Eugeo sneezed and was suggested to take a warm bath---I was screaming WHY COULDN'T KIRITO JOIN HIM?!? 😭🔥

They should've bathed together man. im just saying. 😤

#fanboi gasms #commentary #yujikiri #also funfact im writing/been writing a fic for this 20sec scene LOL😂 if the plot cant make them bathe together then I WILL👏🔥 #but yea i found it odd that Kiri didnt join--Our boi couldve used a healing spring i mean: he'd been arrow'd in the foot😬 #also tbh i get alot of my fic ideas from random 20sec scenes like this: such as Rulid Eug swinging his sword in the rain LMAO #I am definitely gonna release a roadmap of my fics someday cuz i got so many fic projects omg😂 #I have currently 3 main series in the works. 1: yjkr dating between their time in rulid 2: yjkr dating between breaking taboo/jailtime-- #and 3: them dating between their time at the garrison & academy #theyve got titles now too: 1. Cedar Seedling 2. Unbound by the Church 3. Zephyria Blooming #ive also fairly recently came up with a 4th series: yjkr dating in the Real world through RATH! its headcanons that spiralled into fics LOL #yes i am very normal for these two thank you for noticing.😂 also idk why im announcing all of this in the tags #making an organized posts about fic projects: ❌️ raving in the tags about my fic ideas: ✅️✅️✅️🔥👏😂

[bitchthefuck1]

Something tells me they're not gonna close the portal tonight

#succession finale in less than 24 hours and im being soooo normal about it #can't even make one of those 'haha isnt it funny how the show ended with the characters all relatively happy and okay and there was no c #climax or real ending?' jokes bc its been a nonstop death spiral for 9 episodes straight #like to be clear i want them to suffer its the natural conclusion of the choices they make from a thematic and character perspective #but i also know its gonna hurt to watch #good kind of hurt tho #succession season 4 #succession #kendall roy #roman roy #shiv roy #siobhan roy

[kkoct-ik]

i can def relate to having an abusive mother, the worst part is that people always assume mothers to be good people. thankfully my dad and mother don't live together so i chose to stay with my dad permanently but my dad's girlfriend is constantly talking about how i should make up with my mother because "you only get one mom" and she completely ignores me when i try to talk about how abusive my mother was

yeah. ugh. sorry about your situation anon. it sucks and im sending sympathies

#ask #i just dunno what to do with myself #as if complex trauma isnt enough im now dealing with a lot of complicated situations regarding what to do now #i dont live there anymore. but my siblings do. hi guys i have 4 younger siblings #and me as much as everybody else just wishes there was a nice family to help us develop stable and normal #so im doing my damn best. im trying to stay in contact with the kids. im hoping they have a better support system than i did #but family policy means the teens get no texting privacy no internet time. so as if i can fucking stay in touch and look out for them anywa #i dont think i can do anything. it feels inevitable that every kid is gonna get completely fractured like me #and the only other alternative risks making it worse and uncomfortable when its none of my business anymore #(taking up my therapist on calling cps. lol) #i cant talk about it with my siblings (no real access to them) and it makes me insane #i cant talk to my dad because he has enough shit and i dont want to drive the family to pieces #i cant talk to my mum because she has a habit of abusing the kids and then telling them its because *I* made her mad; blame me #what am i meant to do #as if the past isnt a lot to process right now. im also dealing with the present that this is probably ongoing and theres fuck all i can do #sorry for venting. im in hell. im trying to be normal and failing spectacularly #abuse #domestic abuse #for cw #i wish i didnt have to worry. i wish this was never a problem in the first place

[skyllion-uwu]

They should invent a me that feels real and doesn't self sabotage

#sky vents like amogus #im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo normal (lying) #legit i dont know what im supposed to do with myself. i dont see a future for me but i dont want to die. i just exist #i think about this one sci fi story a lot where the guy finds out everyone in the world is him and he is everyone in the world #reincarnated across timelines and bodies and every single person ever from good to evil has always. been. him. #i wonder if im that guy. why do i treat my current body and my past and future bodies so bad. do i even deserve to since so many of them #have the capacity to hurt themselves across history too. do i even try to break the cycle at this point. #or sometimes its like. im not real but everyone else is. i just inserted myself into this world and one day ill wake up and theyre all gone #if i found out that was true would i even do anything about it? could i get the courage to live knowing that it doesnt matter in the end #because i dont fucking exist. or would i just keep existing as i am now miserable because it doesnt matter in the end im not real #i feel like im gonna cry now. i thought too much #i dont wanna be needy and bothersome but. augh

[chelleisamazing]

You know that meme which goes "things that would send a victorian child into a coma" etc? Well, I'm a bayern fan til I die but sometimes I see the things we complain about in here and think some of ya'll would go into a coma if you supported any other 'normal' club

#like- im not gonna complain about not winning the league after doing so for 10 years straight! #because that's NOT normal #we ALWAYS win something at least #bayern is one of the few 5-6 clubs worldwide who's always gonna win no matter what #do ya'll really think we're in trouble just because we probably wont win even 1 thing this season? please- we'll be fine #im sorry if all this came out harsh btw lol #i hate losing too but-- idk #after going through this particular season with arsenal I've realized how privileged bayern is... #and how whiny we are sometimes lmaoo we REALLY do not know real suffering... #and give BVB a break i know some of ya'll hate them but face it-- they're 9/10 times harmless for bayern #and i think that's it for the rant #stuff #football

[faenaussa]

I've been watching bleach from the beginning so I could watch the new seasons, and I had a realization watching ep 11

#bleach spoilers #bleach #also unrelated but them showing the absolute tiniest shred of grimmjow's vicious v and hollow hole is so funny #bitches with mental illness are clocking that shit on sight #as someone that hasnt read the books everything is going off the rails and im ao fucking into it #all my favorite fucking boys are gearing up and its gonna be sick #FINALLY some real stakes #thousand year blood war spoilers #is it even spoilers anymore? #idd im really behind cause i had to rewatch all the old stuff cause i never consecutively watched it all #anyway i feel fucking feral and im being totally normal about it

[arthur-r]

same content warnings for not speaking well im not feeling well and i can’t speak well and im stressed out so in vent content warning but for same as im just continuing talking

and iodnt know anything abkut how people are supposed to work but i think when you’re and somebody is sitting on a bed together you’re supposed to be not talking about the freaking Peter mark roget talking about the thesaurus is not right and for being distracting. and nobody wants to be he wasn’t gonna be when i wasn’t feeling well but i feel bad for having ruined of where im as if i isn’t even don’t like him likenim not but im just not good for i do like him and i think he likes me and i just don’t want to be make everything weird make complicated im not good at being just being normal and somebody that anybody is able to like. i just want to be normal and be ATTRACTIVE but i am busy being sick and weird unloveable. i want for hanging out to be a good thing not where i feel sorry or where somebody had to be had been helping everything and i think i swear he likes me i swear and we were close together and i don’t think im just pretending but i think im gonna ruin it cause im not feeling well didnt being considerate i can’t when i can’t i get stuck distracted can’t think about anything im nkt feeling well but i just make everything turns into about me and it isn’t fair and I just want to be just have normal do anything right feel right have a conversation where i did it right and it didn’t turn around didn’t make all of it opposite where i just i don’t know how to do it im too much autistic and too much sick i can’t do it

came back from the end again im out of tags again im not going to keep doing this im sorry i just im not feeling well and im so frustrated from it’s not being sicks fault i don’t want to be sick because i don’t feel good being i don’t want to be ill because it hurts me. but it’s not sick’s fault for nobody can see me past it, it’s not somebody can still be important valuable im not trying to say i just i don’t want to live inside of nobody can see me anymore i want anybody to know for looking at me and seeing a real person

#im just im not i want to somebody think for who i am i dont want to be hiding but i want for who i am being different not so much hard #nobody can understand for too much complicated. j do t want to anybody doesn’t care all the way of all of it don’t want to know them but i #for me it’s harder to find somebody who does it’s harder for somebody cares about all of me cause all of me is too it’s not the right way #im just a cute little kid or a poor tragic im not a normal person im not i can’t just be an adult #i just want to be an adult make sense have people like me like a grownup not like im some little broken #i want to feel like i have autonomy!!!!! i want to show i do i want to show im a real person #and i can be more than just im not just #i feel like i take it away i take a way the special moment cause of being me #like i can only be a little kid or a martyr i can’t be special or beautiful i just have to be broken and oh poor baby #i just want to be a real person i just want to be a real person !!!!!! #and i just want to say sorry speak to somebody say hey i promise im a fucking i promise im a person i swear #and i feel so stupid saying any of it im right here sounding like for as if i don’t know anything like nothing is #i cant even grow up for complaining of growing up. i feel like i cant be a real person don’t count nobody is gonna think of me for #i dont know i need to call somebody but nobody my roommate is here i can’t #and i can’t i don’t want for somebody has to be has to help me has to save me for in order to love me #i dont want to be so broken anybody who wants to love me has to save me. it isn’t fair i don’t want to be sick iedint want to need help #i cant have help from somebody who doesn’t love me but i ruin the love if i made somebody help me it ruins it so i can’t have i have to pick #i cant have them both at the same time i have to pick and my body is picking for me im ruining everything i have because i can’t even walk #i cant even walk home i need help to walk me home how do you look at me and think im pretty when you’re helping me stay off the ground #i dont want to be fragile pretty either so pretty special needs saving i don’t want that #i want to be me i can’t be the perfect broken dainty it’s not like that. i just want to be me #i want somebody to care about me not be have to help me i just want to be me not a special i don’t want somebody to have to accommodate me #and it’s not i don’t think anybody should change their self i don’t think with other people i don’t think it’s i just i don’t believe #i don’t think somebody is going to look past it somebody who can walk easy talk easy verythjng is so easy and i just #if somebody doesn’t have it they don’t know they can’t look at me past anything else it’s k #im just the different parts i can’t be a person from i just it gets broken it’s not on purpose but i just i can’t i get broken into the same #i get turned into the same person i can’t be me and be sick everyone sees me and sees that im just sick and i wish that i hadn’t told #i wish that i didn’t say anything i just and i just i want to be normal i don’t want to be seen that way #and it’s okay to be sick it’s normal it doesn’t feel good but it doesn’t make me broken it doesn’t make me not be special valuable be myself #but nobody can see me anymore it takes away the rest of me because nobody cares to look i just want people to look

[crunchycrystals]

thinking about gorgug multiclassing and fully rewiring his phone to connect to a satellite just so he could call zelda and say "sorry i forgot about the generator :(( we can text now"

#im 100% normal about them im so normal #crunchyposts #i genuinely felt sick when he was in the nightmare king forest and he got that message from fucking. skrank was that his name #he did all that just to make up for forgetting the thing :(((( ill cry #he had NO spells and he paid ayda so much gold to do sending which he spent like 30 mins real time writing and took a level in- #ANOTHER CLASS just to say sorry again ill pass out and then they tell each other they love each other anyways gonna go rewatch that scene #d20 #fh

[orcelito]

So I found out upon checking my email this morning that the therapy appointment isn't in the health building like I thought, but rather in the basement of a boy's only dorm further north

Which brings up two problems: that's even further away than I'd accounted for, and I find it SUPREMELY uncomfortable to go to a boy's only dorm for therapy, even if the office is in one of the general areas.

I'd already been conceding on the matter of agreeing to talk to a man, since I'm generally uncomfortable with talking to men I don't know, but it was the soonest appointment I could get... so I agreed to it, but finding out it's in the boy's only dorm is just Too Much. Not only would it make it even harder to get there, but my skin just kinda crawls thinking about baring my fuckin heart in a place so thoroughly meant for guys. Like it's a place I don't belong, which REALLY does not help give the comfort kinda required of such an appointment.

I called the office asking if the appointment could be set up on zoom (bc it mentioned it in the email), but the therapist was staunch on it being in-person, so I rescheduled with a different person for the 13th. Bc if this dude isn't gonna be understanding with my discomfort with the location, like fuckin hell I'm gonna let myself be emotionally vulnerable with him. Bet he was thinking I was being too picky like "Oh it's a stupid Girl who can't handle being around Men" like sorry I have a healthy fear of guys I don't know 😋😋😋😋😋 if U have a problem with it then change society so talking to unknown men doesn't feel like walking in a minefield. Thanks.

#speculation nation #so. no appointment today. i asked the receptionist just to be Sure of the location for the one next week #and yeah it's not gonna be in a fucking boy's only dorm #genuinely why the hell did they schedule me with someone there. ugh. #bit of a bummer but i do feel like i dodged a bullet #bc if the dude isnt gonna be understanding about this. why would he be understanding about other things? #bc ultimately this comes down to an accomodation for anxiety. he may think it's senseless but it's real to me. #being around men i dont know is just so uncomfortable. makes me so nervous. and Especially at a boy's college dorm... #if the guy cant concede to that then i cant trust him to be understanding of my other Issues. so it's better like this. #really fuckin annoying though. but i cant say i'm disappointed to have the extra time in my morning. #so it's... fine. i'll manage. im just vaguely disgruntled by it all. #negative/ #Probs. im certainly complaining enough. #& pls dont come at me with the 'not all men' shtick. i Know majority of men are just normal people #but even among normal men i sometimes just feel like a hunk of meat to them #once i know a man & know hes not gonna try to hit on me or be creepy to me then i'm just fine #but unknown men. anything could happen. even an okay man could make me uncomfortable if he's overly friendly or hits on me #this is just basic self preservation ok. if youre a small 'girl' you learn very young to be careful with these things. ok. #anyways so that's My morning lol. ugh

[arytha]

poses

im gonna be normal today

#(lying) #mara's shit #i've been weirdly emotional about narratives lately (ik ik but like more than usual) #2 days ago i had a few hours long conversation with logan talking about #how much we love ciel nosurge and how it presents its story #and if tsuchiya is the head writer for any projects coming forward we'll get into it no matter what 100% #and yesterday i had a real normal one about sv. it was also late and i should have been asleep so yeah false feelings at 12am #but i do love it #and now i still want to. draw and create but im handicapped by not being able to draw how i want to yet #idk. i have feelings for novels and narratives and what could be and wont be #and im not gonna reread the sv extras when i get to them im gonna directly find another book #i might give myself more time before going back to tgcf bc i Know i will be #insufferable about it as i read #anyways all that to say im sorry if i ended up being annoying about it. it will continue #just ignore me honestly 👍 love u

[dangoulains-devotion]

every time I have to wade through inane ship wars where people are willfully ignorant to the depth and facets of cloud strife's character, circumstance, and story just so I can find some cool screenshots or fanart my 'cloud is ace' agenda simply grows more potent out of spite

#rebirth literally said in bold letters he has multiple feelings. like humans do #and yet in the year 2024 i am still forced to see 'this ship was canon since 1997 unlike the other one' #do you have a brain that you use #are you capable of actually delving into the details of a character #without reducing them to barbie dolls that get smacked off one another #i just want to look at cool fanart man #dont even get me STARTED on how zack slots into all this #my boy has not haunted the narrative for you to go and ignore character developments like this #this is all coming out more blunt than i would normally try to write things #but brother i am so tired #i could write a whole post on how it is very real and normal for humans to feel affection for more than 1 person #and how it manifests in cloud and the whys #if the game itself is somehow not clear enough to you then you are simply choosing to close your eyes at that point #trying to act superior and objective about your ship while ignoring the material you claim to have gotten your Objective Facts™ from... #good gravy. #shipping is supposed to be a fun thing secondary to enjoying the content #not a primary objective to use it to argue with people #i would say peace and love on planet gaia but im sure some people would read it as peace and you can only love one person at a time forever #on planet gaia. haha. #anyway...... now that that's out my system i can be at peace again #shout out 2 my fellow multishippers who take this bountiful wealth of content and have fun with it #i think im gonna replay rebirth's story soon #want to see how much more i can pick out about new/updated approaches to characterization #rocket town will be very interesting in part 3 i think #yuffie too with wutai supposedly becoming a much more fleshed out thing #if this post somehow breaches containment: #if your first thought is to um actually me and whip out 'evidence'. i am not going to give you rhe time of day #because my rambling clearly went over your head and im not interested in 1sided discussion where i am being talked at rather than to #anyway have fun stop wasting time arguing and pls look forward to remake part 3 where i lose my mind over vincents waist. again #look what you did you raised my blood pressure enough to hit the tag limit. anyway peace and love on planet g-

[viovio]

reevaluating my entire thing again

#do things look normal up there no not really. hate how my body looks again #speak iza #i might still be bigender though i cant be sure #im not. maybe im just gnc #cuz likeeee im bi right i love girls but im not sure im attracted to them #as like. a girl right? i dont feel wlw #it just doesnt sound right if im called an honest to god girl i feel strange about that still #like oh look at that you can still misgender irene #so..... idk #..! #i dont feel entirely boy either if that makes sense. i dont really care to figure out what demiboy is either #I'll just call myself transmasc thats the best description to be honestly #transmasc gay guy gay gay gay bi guy wants #big fan of when boys have traditionally feminine names which make me giggle since i came up with iza first #before isaiah. and yk izas now gonna be short for that #im also irene and kay which was a real fucking character in the original arthurian tales i think #not even short for anything..... damn. #maybe irene can be my drag name... ive ALWAYS wanted to do drag yk #well not always. just now. i wanna see a performance here i like watch some recorded from bars #i want that even if make-ups uncomfortable!! the exagerration the performance the style of it all

[quil12]

The summary for the last fic I posted is genuinely the best summary that I've ever written and I can't stop rereading it

#normally im so bad at writing them #like i can give a description of the story #but it never flows super well like a summary should #but this one just hit #idk #i just did it so well #and i actually reads like a real summary #its a p2 post canon fic #and its splitting the focus between the is and ep timelines #and im just enjoying it #i think the one with the ep timeline is gonna be slightly more interesting #but the is one should be fun too #its a tatsujun fic and the ep part of it is just about jun remembering #all while interacting with the version of tatsuya in that timeline #there may or may not be romance between the two of them too...