#im not bad im actually good look at me arent i good! < you do not HAVE TO BE GOOD girls. it's going to be ok.

[strangerhands]

ohmygodddddd i am a fucking genius...👁️ the fic idea i just came up with. the Specific Line i thought up. its such a random idea but its so so cute and sweet and ugh its gonna plague me forever. kinda proud of myself to be honest so lets just hope i can Actually write it soon🧎

#mmm brain isnt always bad sometimes i guess. #its some unapologetic jake fluff btw #bc he deserves it #also i forgot i cant really spend time on tumblr today bc ill be busy again lol so tomorrow it is (hopefully) #but its gonna be a good day bc me and my bestie are going to see love lies bleeding And immaculate together😋😋 #and probably get some lunch and maybe ice cream too #excited #have been looking forward to today #and then after today im looking forward to finally crawling back into my little tumblr cave #hopefully i can Actually Read. #and yk. writing would be nice too. #also im goin back on sertraline today and apparently it can be used for ocd too so i will try to see if any of That feels different as well #raaaaaa #still havent fully researched ocd tho🧎ive been procrastinating🧎as i do🧎 #anyways goodnight its 5am. #shouldnt have had that 8pm iced capp #i downed that shit fr #ok bye bye love yall #talkin shit #FUCK YES THIS POSTED LIKE ON THE VERY SECOND 5:15 WAS ENDING YESSS #sorry i actually like am distressed when the minute(s) of my posts arent posted on a 0 or 5 or like the same as the previous number #and when it is i feel like actual relief and joy #and when it isnt i contemplate deleting and waiting until the desired minute to post again. #anddd sometimes i actually do. #i also will just wait several minutes to post something when its not the exact minute i want yet #or ill queue it for like. literally a couple minutes in the future. #yeah i have many issues #okay gn thank you for reading if you read🧍🫶 #i always either suck my own dick or beat my own ass. #rarely ever is there an in between

[nyanspirals]

hm for the record i am still very much a communist and still very much support countries like the old USSR and the DPRK and i am 100% against NATO in 100% of the cases because NATO is nothing but a tool of imperialism that is always working for its own self interest no exceptions, no matter what that might mean for innocent civilians caught up in the crossfire. but like you CAN be against something while also being against what theyre against yk. idk where this idea that im a russia supporter comes from lol ive never said anything of the sorts. being willingly provoked into retaliation by NATO doesnt make russia a good guy it just makes NATO a bad guy who was working out of self interest

#neon.txt #i dont bother to make posts about my political views because its impossible to discuss with people who refuse to debate out of good faith #like no matter what i say the moment they hear 'the USSR was not evil actually' all liberals will understand is #'communism is flawless and i love putin and stalin did nothing wrong ever and there were no mistakes in the old USSR' #its just 🤷‍♂️ pointless. ive gotten facts wrong in the past thats for sure but like everytime i end up correcting myself in the end #but people never wanna bring up those cases 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ #im saying this because grape asked me to explain myself and i think its a fair request 🫶 #TLDR modern russia very bad NATO bad as well #USSR was not flawless obviously but half of what you know of it is propaganda or things extremely lacking in context #i am always willing to debate these things but i ignore and block anybody who wants to debate out of bad faith #i am a communist. and i look up to real communist experiences for guidance and inspiration. both for their flaws AND their hits. #because there is absolutely no point to being a communist or being against capitalism if you arent willing to actually Do something about it #and Doing Something means there will be mistakes eventually. as is discussing politics. as much as i wish that was the case i cant #get my facts right 100% of the time lol sorry about that but like i am ALWAYS willing to listen to people who arent being bitches about it

[bunnyb34r]

I know I should just block (and not OPEN) tags and posts ab '24 but my brain is stupid and likes to be informed even if it makes me worse

#marquilla #im not even joking when i say this next election makes me wanna kms so bad. im fucking terrified and i feel like we already know what's #gonna happen. not bc people arent voting or organizing i mean bc of how far the right has gotten and how angry they are that a #dem won so theyre gonna show up in droves and it's like god i wish we could idk have some safegaurds in place??? like oh idk you #incite an insurrection you Can't run for president?? but also that wouldnt fully stop shit bc florida has its own neo nazi running and #theres more behind him in the wings. but like idk man i just get so fucking suicidal thinking ab the future #and my drs. are like well then dont look at the news??? 'i sure dont' mkay thats great (not) but um i CAN'T not watch bc i need to #be informed i need to know. and they're like well then stop worrying ab it til election day?? LIKE THAT HELPS #so i just dont bring it up. and i just spiral and have breakdowns in the shower and think ab making a will and shit yknow normal stuff #bc this is fine! just dont engage! stop worrying it's like a year away! it MIGHT get better! idk Join in your community then?? #like yes yes thats a start but with what fucking energy when im bedbound most of the time im not working and that doesnt stop these fascist #s like me helping the community garden would be good for the community and probably my mental health in general BUT that doesnt deal with #the actual fear that makes me wanna Kermit #like it really fucking feels like all i can do is pray and hope god somehow intervenes (rapture anyone?) and that things do go well and #that the outright outspoken nzis don't win but like I really just wanna die man #i know the outcome more than likely will not directly affect my life bc im white. cis passing. and can go back in the closet regretfully #but like that doesnt reassure me any bc i have friends and loved ones and generally just give a shit ab other people and how this WILL #affect them directly and that terrifies me. it really feels like we cant ever have a moment to just exist yknow?? #idk man i just wanna die bc im so scared haha how fun (: how normal (: this is fine. everything is fine.

[snekdood]

Quite honestly, i think people just dont like to acknowledge how many times i have been victimized bc it doesnt work for their narrative of the Scary Bad Trans Guy With No Regard For Others And Likes To Kick Puppies And Doesnt Know Real Pain Or Trauma

#bc otherwise yall would have to feel bad about putting me through way more additional unnecessary trauma on here #and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me #of and theyre just this pure uwu innocent pewson who doews no wongg umu #yall dont wanna except ive been through hell bc then you gotta accept youve put me through additional unnecessary hell that only warped my #perception worse of a community i thought i was fuckin part of and accepted in but apparently tf not #like you only have yourselves to blame for that shit. for why i hate online queer spaces now. #man it would just suck so so hard for your narrative if i was actually abused as much as i say and my abusive x was actually lying about me #bc otherwise how will you pretend trans men never ever experience any issues ever? #like i dont need to look. ik im one of the main blogs yall like to target and put on blast for transandrophobia stuff bc im super fuckin #outspoken about my shit (nevermind that yall never directly confront me). i already know thats how it is bc theres ppl on here who have a #apparently deep interest in constantly hating me and trying to find reasons im wrong. so when i say something is bad they habe to act like #its good actually somehow. and ik it all roots back to my abuser. there is literally no other reason i can think of that would mame ppl #that invested in hating me unless they believe everything my ex says. so undoubtedly theres ppl in my exs spaces who believe #transandrophobia is fake men arent oppressed ever etc etc. i digress. but ik its yall who've propped this whole shit up #ik its yall who put me on blast for this first and triwled to spread it that i was one of the Big Bad Names in the transandrophobia spaces #so ik yall use me as an example. ik you tell people i lie about everything. ik you tell people i exaggerate. ik you tell people im crazy #ik you tell ppl they cant trust me or rely on me and spread all the bs my ex says about me and even spreads their abuse toward me further #by even doing that shit. yall NEED to keep believing that im the Big Bad Trans Guy that you think i am bc otherwise your whole worldview #falls tf apart. everything you've been standing on online about how trans mascs who believe in transandrophobia are bad would fall apart. #if i am really as fuckin abused and victimized as i say. suddenly you dont get to use me as the example for Bad Transandrophobia Believer #and I KNOW thats the only reason yall choose not to listen or believe us. its LITERALLY just because you're choosing a side in a personal #relationship situation. ik it has nothing to do with politics for plenty of you. you're taking a side and shitting out reasons for why you #did after the fact. #if you really care about politics n shit you should listen to ALL THE OTHER TRANS MEN TALKING ABOUT THIS #besides using one person as your example for why you shouldnt believe people who believe this is a thing. #i mean. even aside the fucking fact that its all bs. if yall dont wanna believe me. whatever. you can get traumatized by them if you want #idefc at this point. if you actually care about politics as much as you say you gotta engage w people in good faith and uh maybe try n #listen to the SWATHES of other trans guys who also talk about this shit and thinks its real.

[idunnoausersname]

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#ugh my brain is being so mean to me today. and for what?? #(i know. its because i dont have any long term plans.) #(and my Brain No Work Syndrome is fucking up my ability to do anything about it.) #my whole 'situationship' is the first thing to spring a leak when im anxious/stressed lol #its like a canary. #''hey he only likes you for how you look. also youre ugly and he actually hates you'' #hmm. hmmmm. those arent Good Brain Day thoughts lmfao #and sure enough here i am. feeling needy and not liking myself much. #and i would rather swallow a cactus then contact my friends with this. because im already ugly and stupid (/paraphrasing myself) #i shouldn't be annoying as well #and dw im not going to do anything unsafe or whatever. #last thing i want is people to be worried. #but uh yeah. screaming into the void it is. #god forbid i keep a thought to myself. #god forbid i dont beg people to affirm my self esteem that's made of cardboard lol #ugh. yeah anyway bad brain day. sorry

[catboyfurina]

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#sui ment #beeep #nothing gets ye olde suicidal ideation going like the reminder that im a burden emotionally AND financially #if i die NOW it will save my family money and that will be good for everyone #if i keep living ill just be expensive and inconvenient until i die #do you ever feel like a horrible person for not killing urself cus um teehee. giggle. #and my therapist is on vacation so i cannot be like. hey. we um forgot to do coping mechanisms for when the future looks miserable and doom #and every way to get anything better is rejecting you and also expensive #because im increasing the number of daily Um No You Arent Cool Enough To Leech Money From and thaaat was #already getting to me so bad when it was bad news every few days ! #so um basically im doing not good and im about to get worse. so now. i shall reblog things to hide this so #that its buried and people get used to scrolling past my posts really fast unless theyre actually investeddddd B)

[mummer]

hate to post a gawker article but this felt v pointed and interesting...

#i almost wish it were even more direct and to the point with this kinda stuff #and by stuff i mean Popular online Rhetoric #where every human suffering and ill becomes subsumed under the same thing which is capitalism. #and i think im more of a doomer than most people where i just dont think like. Any real 'revolution' is going to happen in NA #so like what are we really doing w that rhetoric except setting ourselves up for further misery ukno #and then every action u take is simultaneously either a tiny revolution against the state! or the consequences of the evil of the state! #and i feel like... in ur brain.... treating everything u do like that..... is simply not going to be helpful to u #we're back to the ethics of negative responsibility... if ur not Doing Good at all times then u are making the world worse #and hence people attempt to treat every thing as self care! which is now a radical act and a movement! #im not bad im actually good look at me arent i good! < you do not HAVE TO BE GOOD girls. it's going to be ok. #ok i said i didnt have thoughts but clearly i do have thoughts. #if YOU have thoughts. lmk. bc i think theres something this article is missing/not getting at. but idk what it is lol

[dashiellqvverty]

ugh if i was a tv/entertainment writer right now i would be tearing into apple tee vee plus i truly was like maybe if i enjoy the finale it will soften how much this season sucked but it was WORSE than all of it put together. i cant even explain why i hate it so viscerally it just made me feel bad and angry

#and it DID make me laugh a lot and tear up a little at points #well only when isaac kicked the goal actually #but none of the emotion was EARNED through good writing it was all reliant on callbacks #and 'look we're doing a moment arent you moved' #'hey isnt this funny because its just like that other thing' #and it got me SOMETIMES but it was just so frustrating #like at the end of the day the reason i enjoyed the show from the start is because i LIKE the comedy #idk man im just like. you really couldnt do anything better? #god the rebecca moment at the end made me FURIOUS #WHAT was that fucking for. #god. #bad. #r.txt #might finally get around to making myself a tv blog #so i can write a big ol essay on this show. its just. such a mess.

[damianogender]

"why don't you go and actually watch scorsese/de palma/some other 70s popular director just because they're white guys doesn't mean they can't make deep films how can you say you like cinema and film analysis with this mindset" well you see it's because i don't like them. hope this helps

#goncharov #jokes aside there are some 70s directors i havent seen at all or very little (like scorsese) #and there are some i have developed a pretty good idea of (like de palma) #and the reason i choose not to watch them is not because i dont know they exist or think they're problematic just bc theyre white guys #(+its really annoying when ppl act like de palma or godard or kubrick or polanski or whatever are unknown theyre as popular as it gets) #but it's true i don't think their films are deep enough bc i have seen them and i dont think they understand what they're rly talking abt #i dont think they arent deep bc theyre white guys with big awards but i do think that is one of the reasons that their art doesnt get to me #and im not talking about their ability as a director when it comes to technical things like cinematography editing etc #i couldnt say anything bad about the prom queen scene of carrie by de palma #but i simply do not think de palma actually understands what carrie represents (nor does stephen king tbh) #and yes i think that is because he is a cis straight white guy who i also think is a weirdo just by looking at his directing choices #like im not saying he isnt deserving of the attention he got/gets bc he is a white guy #but i do think he isnt deserving of the attention he gets and he also happens to be a rich white guy #and like even if that wasnt the case i dont think it's an unreasonable thing to assume a rich white guy can understand teenage girl psyche #i wouldnt dismiss anyone based on their race gender level of nepotism etc #in fact despite the pure nepotism (with certain criticisms ofc) i love the work of the new gen coppolas (sofia is one of my all time favs) #im not judging anyone who likes de palma i dont give a shit but dont act like your taste is superior u sound like a 1800s cambridge brat #do you understand what im saying??? basically stop being annoying about goncharov we're trying to have fun

[fregget-frou]

I had a good day!!!!!!

#my friends coerced me into dressing like SpongeBob today #it was nice #then I had a anxiety attack because I remembered I had form #god I’m so fat man #yknow I try to preach that all bodies are beautiful but #apparently to my ever dumber mind mine SPECIFICALLY sucks ass #do you know how sucky it is to be mentally ill and aware of it??? #i don’t know why I hate it #people I care about look like me #and they act like me and people like them #I have friends!!! do you know how much of a deal that is from someone whose only had actual friends for only a couple years??? #I’ve never had a friend before that!! #but I still think they hate me and are just waiting to drop me!!! #fuck you brain!! the meds are supposed to help!!! thEY ARENT DOING SHIT #IT ACTUALLY FEELS LIKE IM JUST BREAKING DOWM NORE #BUT IM HAVING GOOD DAYS #NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY #IT WAS ACTUALLY A REALLY ABOVE AVERAGE DAY #WHY AM I LIKE THIS #I HAD FUN #I FELT GOOD!!! I ACTUALLY FELT GOOD #I just want to scrub my existence out but I like it now #it’s not even the fucking ”””seasonal depression””” #I have depression all th time!!!! #WHY FANT I ALLOW MYSELFT TO FEEL GOOD GODDDJDDKDJDKDK

[borderlinegerard]

more zoloft please

#personal #my posts #suicide and sh tw probably... #commenting on my posts all he wants but not just manning up and dming me or something... ok #honestly its whatever. besides when ive made these posts ive barely thought about him #if he wants anything to happen he can dm me instead of just waiting for me to do something #things have gotten. better and worse at the same time? #i relapsed like A Lot this week #but im making new friends and things are kinda just looking generally brighter #dont know if that says anything about me not talking to Him anymore.. but im happier #but like if im happier whats with the scars on my shoulders? #i feel a lot different now? #i guess im actually living. but its weird because a lot of the time i still want to die So Bad #so like whats this weird mix of All The Emotions #honestly one of my friends said he isnt picking sides and it kinda makes me feel like shit #because if you arent with me then youre against me. you know... #idk that part is kinda petty and Not a big deal #guess theres just a lot happenijg right mow and i dont know how to deal with it #i think things are generally better but im still in a space of. the world is good but i want to die #idk... good luck charlie

[be-good-to-bugs]

why havent i been talking to the much much cooler and better older sister who is a furry and super nice and fun to talk to and cares about my opinions and feelings instead of the one who cant respect boundaries and makes me feel like a mistake and doesnt care abt how i feel

#the bin #shes also the only normal person in my family #and when i say normal i mean it in a treats other people with respect way not in a societally normal way #cause she the least 'normal' of my family in that way. which is a good thing. be a freak. autism makes u cooler by default #idk. she sthe only person who i feel like actually cares about me and my opinion and wants to hear what i have to say and views me right #i wish we talked more when i was younger. shes so nice. i hope when i move we can houngout together more and maybe watch some movies #and talk abt stuff or smth. we r probably gonna play some games together soon which is nice #i miss her. i think i can also talk to her abt how our other sister kinda sucks. i know she views her pretty highly or at least used to but #i still think i can. i dont think itll make her uncomfortable. #ive been looking over the past years with my other sister and they havent really been any good mostly #ive just been so isolated and sad that it was better than nothing but its past that point now #if id had other people to talk to then i wouodnt have soent so much time with someone making me feel worse #i also think shes just made me a worse person overall. more judgemental. the past year ive become very against that trying hard to not #and she gets very upset with me when im like hey. yknow. id rather assume the best of random strangers not doing anything that bad #i dont wanna assume everyone is an inconsiderate asshole because they arent. life circumstances we dont know about could be #the reason for this honestly pretty mild inconvenience. if u wanna think otherwise then thats fine but dont day it around me #idk. im tired of it. im still super sad but ive become a much more bright and hopeful person because im trying to be #it actually sucks to view the whole world as horrible and everyone around you ass horrible #idk. maybe i can get my other sister to do the fun stuff with me i dont like doing alone #cause it makes me unbelievably sad to realize i dont have anyone to ask anymore at all. period. but maybe it doesnt have to be that way

[snekdood]

Vaush almost seems manipulative in the way he talks about religion, like i feel very strongly that he doesn't actually think religion is *quite* as bad as something like toxic masculinity but he wants his audience to feel that way, so he keeps drawing comparisons between religion and all these other fucked up things like antisemities or whatever, to give the impression to his audience that he genuinely thinks its that serious, and knowing how a lot of ppl can be in his audience, whatever vaush thinks they decide to take as like the best most intellectually and well thought out take ever, no self analyzing, no questions asked, and i feel like hes manipulating that fact to his advantage, he literally said in his debate w oceankeltoi (which i wasnt gonna watch but did eventually bc i heard vaush kinda sucked in it (and he did)) that hes okay with using peer pressure to try to discourage people from being religious. It seems like hes going to try whatever he can socially to like. Shun anyone whos religious or any of their beliefs and is probably even totally okay with ppl bullying religious ppl so long as the social pressure gets people to stop. Which. Uh. I feel like i shouldnt have to say is a pretty fucked up philosophy

#you are already putting too much work to control ppl just existing #social. political. systemic. wherever you're putting this energy to control it will only end badly. #anyways this whole stuff kinda made me look at him in an entirely different light. #i think hes become too convinced hes always right and has got really into his ass. idk if hes changed since that debate tho bc #i stopped watching him for a while even before it #the problem w that debate is that vaush is doing the thing where hes actually debating the beliefs of certain audience members #whereas ocean is actually just trying to debate him specifically w/o changing the audiences mind quite as much #oceans here trying to understand vaush and vaush is just here to try to make ocean look stupid. not actually understand or come to a #mutual understanding or literally anything. idk. but its pretty frustrating how he devolved to JUST doing that in debates. #hes decided religious ppl are evil or whatever and thus refuses to meet ocean on an equal and respectful level. theres so much lack #of respect here. #i also sorta feel like vaushs 'what about those ppl who think their gods are always in the right' thing was bc perhaps one of his audience #members decided to screenshot one of my posts where i said 'ppl need to accept that their gods arent inherently good' but accidently #typed are instead of arent and idk. maybe its a reach to decide thats why he brought that up but yknow. i do sometimes feel like yall #(hi vaushs community whos probably stalking me online bc i used to be in the community and you think im cringe bc i love #my main boy shiv) #well. ig obviously i feel like some of yall stalk me to poke fun at me and prolly posted that in his discord or smthn #idk but. its gotta stop if its happening bc im literally just some guy #I WANT TO MAKE CLEAR THAT I DONT THINK VAUSH IS ABUSIVE BC IDK HIM LIKE THAT AND CANT MAKE THAT CLAIM #just bc someones being manipulative does not make them ABUSIVE which is a whole different and bigger step towards Bad

[pa-pa-plasma]

has anyone else noticed that people who aren't writers & know nothing about writing are acting like an authority on storytelling or is it just me

#like i keep seeing people being like ''this is bad dont do it ever'' & it's a vital part of certain genres or tropes #& also ''do this all the time or else'' & it's something that is actually a bad writing tip with basically no exceptions #& when i'm like ''actually no'' i get dogpiled by people going ''uhh uhh i've written 1000 books i know what im talking about'' #& then i look at their profile & they're 20. & complaining about their 25yo boyfriend publicly #& their work is. not good. to say the least #or maybe these people are just the loudest & people who arent shitheads are just minding their own business #i guess what im saying is if you dont understand why something is the way it is just fucking ask someone who knows #instead of putting your misunderstanding of it out there like you're an authority figure on something you either #arent involved in the creation of or just arent very good at #& that isnt an insult. youre allowed to admit you arent good at stuff #i'm not good at stuff & because of that i wouldnt act like an authority figure on like. idfk. painting #i CAN paint. am i good at it? no (this isn't counting spray paint but i still wouldnt act like an authority on that either) #the reason i act like an authority on writing is because i study writing & writing styles #i write! i practice different types of writing all the time! i read a lot of different books! writing is a HYPERFIXATION of mine literally! #i can literally predict entire movies & books & shows because i can SEE the thought process behind it #so like. dont come @ me being like ''you dont understand'' because i DO understand. which is WHY it annoys me so much #anyway i blame all of this on people acting like art is supposed to be consumed #this obviously isnt a thought out essay just a rant so like. assume i know whatever youre going to ''um actually'' me about

[mysicklove]

CW: reader sucking nanamis dick lol, me playing up nanamis old manness bc i am picturing him as a middle aged man, no power dynamics, nanami cums on your face n realizes he may have a kink, reader is ":3" coded, unedited for now bc i need sleep

a/n: wrote this cause im down bad. not written well tho LOL

"Are you sure you like this? I dont want your jaw to hurt..." Nanami questions, furrowed browed as he gently traces the skin near your temple.

You were kneeling in front of him, hands placed on his thighs and grinning at him. "I want to. I really, really want to. Been thinking about it all day."

"You are quite eager."

"Arent you?" Your eyes trail to cock in your hand, completely hard and flushing a shade of red. His work attire was still on, and you just unbuttoned his pants enough so that only his dick was free. You had a thing for the work attire - you couldnt help it, he looked incredibly good in a suit.

In return, Nanami just rubs at his mouth, not denying it. Then he pets your hair, settling in his chair. "Okay, but I wont be mad if you grow uncomfortable."

You rolls your eyes at him, pressing your cheek against his cock. "You coddle me too much. I will not die from sucking dick, Kento."

He stays quiet at this, just silently brushing your hair back into his palms, holding it away from your face. It was polite, all things considering. You smile at him, while your tongue drags from the base of his cock to the tip.

You continue to prep yourself, licking and gently kissing the shaft, while Nanami watches in silence. Then, you put your mouth over him and begin to suckle the tip. A sigh is let out from the man, and he resists the urge to shut his eyes, wanting to watch the lewd sight.

Your head find a steady motion - bobbing up and down until you gag and pull off. He pretends that the sound doesnt turn him on, feeling bad that something uncomfortable for you sends blood rushing to his groin.

When you pull away, slightly panting, he rubs at your lips, now coated in saliva. "Are you okay?"

"You're doing it again, Kento. I am not a child - I've sucked other mens dick before."

He blinks at this, before frowning and forcing you back on his cock by your hair. But, when he heard your giggles from below, he realized quickly that you only said that to tease him. He sighs at that, shaking his head. "Do you like making me upset?"

You hum around his cock, letting drool purposefully fall from your mouth and down till it reached his balls - it was always bettter when it was sloppier, or so you have heard. But, you pull away quickly to answer him, tilting your head to the side so that you can continue to lick his shaft.

"Kinda fun to - you get this look in your eyes. Its weirdly sexy seeing you mad."

His non dominant hand goes back to caressing the skin on your face and his eyes soften. "I would never actually be mad at you."

You make eyecontact with him as you stick your tongue out and swirl it around the redden tip, ignoring the salty taste of pre. Then you give the head another kiss, pressing your nose against it. "I know. You're too soft around me. Its cute, I dont mind it."

"I'm glad," he breathes, and then he pauses, gulping, and looking away, "Then if you dont mind, can you go a little farther down? If its not too uncomfortable, of course."

You obey with little hesistation, mouth coming closer to the dark patch of hair on his lower abdomen. This time he groans out, and cant help but shut his eyes at the warm feeling of your throat. You try your best to focus, but seeing your lovers face contort with pleasure was too pretty to not watch.

His hips move from his chair, slightly bucking into your mouth like he couldnt control them. It makes a lewd noise in the back of your throat, and he groans hearing it. You continue your movements, and with each moment, his cock gets wetter from the amount of saliva coated on it.

Large, callused finger tips run over your neck, feeling the way his dick creates a small bulge, and he lets out a shaky breathe. "Fuck. Wow, you are something. Doing so well, thank you, thank you, fuck."

Tears are beggining to prick at your eyes from the lack of air, but still you try your best to nod at him, even if the action sends him groaning out again.

He was growing overheated from the whole thing, and you watch as he removes his tie and unbuttons the top part of his shirt. The sight makes you slightly moan, and it sends a vibration up Nanami's spine.

When you pull away for another breathe, he lets out a noise close to a whine, and you hold back a chuckle. "Looks whose the one eager now." You tease, and his cheeks pinken slightly as he looks away.

"You really treat me so well."

"You think I am good at sucking dick?"

A lewd way to put it, and Nanami wouldnt phrase it like that, but alas, he nods his head, before guiding you back onto his cock. You in return laugh, and immediately go back to work.

With each bob of your head, he gets more into it, now slightly pushing you down farther by your hair. You don't mind it, and Nanami begins to pant from the pleasure, deep and breathlessly. The sound only spurs you on.

It doesnt take much longer for his abdomen to tighten up, and the feeling of his orgasm to approach. You could tell he was close to coming, even without a warning from the way his grunts seem to grow louder. So you continue your pace, trying your best to hold out without a breathe until he cums down your throat.

But, to much of your suprise, he pulls you off from him by your hair. You try to protest, wanting him to cum in your mouth, but he simply grabs at his cock with his other hand and pumps it a couple of times before aiming it at your face.

Cum shoots out of the wet head, and you are forced to shut one of your eyes as the white liquid lands on your upper cheek and eyelid. The rest lands on a multitude of places on your face, causing you to squint your one opened eye. He groans the entirity of it, and so you let him cum all over your face, finding the noise cute.

But when he is done, you simply wipe off your eyes, leaving the rest for now, and blink up at him with a small frown. "You know it would be alot cleaner if you would have came down my throat."

Nanami just stares at you, eyes scanning your face. Then, you notice the tint of red that danced on his cheeks and ears. Your face lights up at the realization. "I knew you had some sort of kink. You're not as vanilla as I thought, Kento! Who would have thought cumming on my face would do it for you."

"You just look...so pretty like this." A laugh falls from your lips, as your eyes travel back to his cock that was beginning to harden again. Now, it was time for the real deal - you almost squeal in excitement as you drag him to the bedroom.

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[bi-buck-coded]

I'm really sorry to hear that you're having a crappy time. ❤ its going to be okay.

<3 so ive been told (the tags get angsty u can ignore them)

#thank you for reaching out #it actually does mean a lot to me #i know it like should? #but also like things arent going bad #my therapist told me legit that from the outside it looks like im really doing great #growing as a person and trying to make friends and like idk just that things r going really well #and i had to just look at him and b like then why do i feel so empty and bad all the time? #and like obv there r times im happy or at least not feeling bad / empty #but as soon as something good ends like hanging with a friend or something the feeling comes right back? #like idk it feels like this weird thing where nothings wrong so i dont know how itll get better #i feel like the ajr song karma