#im not ready for a relationship just yet

[venulus-reblogs]

I just told the guy I like that I like him... oh gawd 🙈🙈🙈 *is giddy*

#i hope this helps me clear my head a bit #cause i really need to start writing fics again #i miss it so bad #hnnnn #venus talks #i feel too old for this hahahahah #what has come over me #and he's taking his time replying oof #anxiety rising #but whatever the outcome it'll be fine #im not ready for a relationship just yet #i told him cause i want him to know... cause i want to get to know him better #silly little post about me #feel free to filter tag venus talks #or just unfollow #thats fine too #ehe #i just need an outlet to express my feelings #and writing seems to be a no go for now ;;;;; #oof anxiety is getting to me #wait i think its just my nerves #this is prolly the first time i confess and are blunt about it #it actually feels nice #im scared out of my mind but i feel fulfilled #i wonder what he'll say #anyway... its 5.24am shit i should go to sleep

[jade-len]

you know it's bad when i read svsss and tgcf, stories about just two guys falling in love and getting together, and think, "god i wish i were in between them."

gay little domestic cottage core life with binghe and qingqiu? please and thank you. being sandwiched by hua cheng and xie lian, two pretty men who are hundreds of years old? i am blushing, kicking my feet and giggling

and again, it's not even that i would want only one of them. like in both of the relationships, the two love each other too much to the point it'd feel wrong if they were separated! it wouldn't feel complete, so you gotta be with both of them!

but that's the thing; i just?? i feel so incredibly guilty whenever i think about being loved by these mxtx couples??? like it's so stupid but i feel like i'm intruding in on something and it's like, everyone else seems to just want them together only, not wanna be with them. like it's fuckin taboo or whatever

i feel like with any other character from any other media it'd be fine to simp for and write/read x readers of them, but when it comes to these books, it's off limits! no way, what are you, crazy? yes, yes i'm unhinged and desperately want their love and affection simultaneously. i want to be in a happy little poly relationship with these overpowered beautiful men with long hair.

i can't be the only guy or whoever to feel this way?? to wanna be kissed by these characters? sandwiched?? i have two hands for christ sake and they all look so happy together and im just like "lord i wanna be with them so much". someone tell me i'm not alone cmon <\3

#okay i havent read mdzs yet but i'll probably feel the same way #god i just wanna be in between shen qingqiu and binghe or hua cheng and xie lian please please #im sad im queer and im ready for a gay poly relationship with these mfs #i love them all #i remember seeing some post where it was like 'hua cheng x fem reader headcanons' #and i was like 'huh thats interesting. not fem but i'll check it out bc ive never rlly seen anything like that' #and then it was like 'he'd leave you for xie lian' and it was fucking hilarious actually #but then i saw the comments on that post and they were all like 'omg i was about to unfollow and block you' 'thank god' etc #and i was just like #'damn?? do people really not like this type of stuff when it comes to danmei novels or smth?' #i don't know if it was just bc it said fem reader or bc yk it's danmei and hua cheng and xie lian are very much in love and happy #but it lowkey kinda got me self conscious lmao and i was hella feeling bad #also no hate to that poster or those commenters im just a lonely queer man #'he would leave you for xie lian' was fucking brutal though i laughed my ass off at thag KAHSNZJ #please i swear i wont stand out too much i can fit in i have long luxurious hair too let me show you my hair care routine guys </3 #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #bingqiu #tgcf #heavens official blessing #mxtx tgcf #mxtx novels #mxtx characters #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #shen qingqiu #the scum villain's self saving system

[jabberwockprince]

A arcanist’s work. Exhibited in the 1990s for 24 years. Completed in Summer, on September 13. The exhibition was first held in Manila, Philippines, and after 10 years the exhibit later traveled to Spain, before going all over the world.

◆ Medium: Hunger ◆ Afflatus: Banquet of Concrete [Mineral] Everlasting True Love ◆ Fragrance note: Fruity - Raspberry, Apple, Coconut. Meat, copper. ◆ Size: 175cm / 5’7’’

new six stars character yall <3 here's Venison's insight II illustration and their role garment menu (i built that template from SCRATCH bro, i'll drop the psd later) they're my lil mercenary, local cannibal guy, former manus member <3

here's their fullbody sprite under the cut, i got too lazy to actually render it lmfao

#reverse: 1999 #reverse 1999 #re1999 #re1999 oc #reverse 1999 oc #digital art #purinsu art #venison beloved venison #i dont have their doc ready yet so teehee i suck at filling my own templates #yes theyre yandere or whatever. theyre extremely obsessive in general #does familial yandere exist? instead of like. ooo you gotta be my bf its ooo you gotta be my family #anyway. manus adopts a stray that vertin overlooked. it goes badly for everyone #thats their target wall in their insight II illust btw <3 mf is forming parasocial relationships with every person theyre sent to kill #love justifies the cannibalism and all #their arcanum is also bone and cartilage related! <3 #which fits soooooo good with the manus and arcana's aesthetics #they just have. to get to the bone. clear access to it. to properly use their arcanum. which means they get to EAT/RIP THE FLESH CLEAN FIRS #do you see my vision do you see where im going with this. the game deserves truly deranged guys #i saw the fucking manus garment for diggers. guys. we need to talk bout it

[boschlowtxt]

Every boschlow shipper agrees they had a situationship at some point.

#boschlowtxt #boschlow #and if not then do U Really Know them #Personally I subscribe to the belief that they had a 9-month situationship before actually dating post winter break up #just because willow wasn't ready yet and had a lot of conflicting feelings #OH BUT THE FUNNY THING IS I ALSO THINK WINTER HAD A SITUATIONSHIP?? #willow cannot get into a serious relationship unless they had a situationship #at this point im inclined to believe its her way of just ''practicing'' #hey bro can u come over to help me practice? #yeah bro its totally important. no u don't need to know what it is- #willow will flirt w u but then faint at the thought of actually confessing

[spock-smokes-weed]

I'm at the Sanji and Zoro Davy Back Fight!!! let's see if my ZoSan stonks investment is gonna pay off

#lu reads one piece #there hasn't been much in the way of them as a duo yet #there's been a lot of back ground moments #and their fight together at arlong park #their bickering just kicked into high gear during skypia im so ready to see them attempt to work together #i was shown a lot of zosan propaganda by the fanbase so let's see if I actually like their relationship in canon lmao

[teddy-feathers]

the thing about me is like. i know im ace. but theres a part of me that thinks maybe if it keep trying or try new things with it ill like it because i feel like i should like it.

its like. its like a food where you like everything that goes into it but not the thing itself.

i should like this. maybe if i try it again or change it up i will like it. i ahould like it theres so much about it that i do like - but i dont like it.

hell its like tea. theres 100s of varieties surely i can find one i like? no?

#i am so fucking tired #im going to sleep #i just needed to ramble #idk if this makes sense #but its annoying #i want to like it but i dont #1) too much like work/sports #2) as soon as my body has done its thing it loses intrest #and its gross annoying and tiresome #and boring #3) it really is like a sport and im just not entertained though i tried #4) while the idea of it is cool people looking at me that way #gives me the heebies #eh relationships actually are cloying too which is ehy im aro too #5) i have yet to meet see or be entertained by a person #in way that made my body sit up and take notice #i do not look at someone and go yes must fuck #unless i am already ready to go #and even then they're just a warm body #6) i look back at my experiences and think #dont fucking touch me #so yeah #i might think of more later but im ace #but the idea and sub cultures of sex are cool

[puppyleash]

at least I feel better knowing you can only fuck me and no one else. (you might break that boundary eventually too though and then what do I have?)

#just figured out i probably have bpd and its killing me my aromantic partner isn't exclusive except for this #im so in love with him but i can't stand the thought of him having similar feelings that he has for me for anyone else #and like. i said please don't do [this] with a person who makes me uncomfortable and they said they aren't going to give it up so #im just trying so hard to be normal about it but im very mentally ill with relationships. im not going to tell him that #not ready to ruin everything and all my future plans i had yet

[skrunksthatwunk]

god goromi really fucked my gender didn't she

#anyway i painted the world's shittiest stubble on myself today and wore the fanciest most hostess-esque dresses i have and GRGXZGRGRHZZGZXX #if i wasnt living in one of the US' finest transphobic hell states i would go out and i would get so many bitches like that i look SO GOOD #and it's so gender. god. t4t relationship WHEN!!!!! SOON I HOPE #someone come dote on this gnc emo boy please she's withering away without his proper care like a sickly tomodachi gf #when i get to college i could do little dorm dates n shit. maybe host drag practice nights or smth <33 #that's the dream baby #god. goromi wasnt my genderfluid awakening character but she came right after i figured it out and i latched on SO HARD #shes literally THE pillar of my gender representation. load bearing one-off gag 80% of the fandom KNOWS is More Than A Gag (me included) #god she's so genderrrrr. i need to be her STAT #when i say thats the dream the dream is actually getting to present like that openly and unafraid regularly but uh (: not. not now #but someday. and i am confident in that #if not me then someone like me #but i still hope i can wrangle up some college queers to be funny and gay with yknow. tis only a few months away!! #i gotta take it off before i go downstairs again bc frankly im not ready for my family to realize Oh It's For Real. Like You'll Act On It #she's a fragile baby bird atm and frankly i dont want them to know yet #(they know im gfluid just. i dont talk about it with my mom and she still uses she/her only. i dont think ive had the pronoun talk with her #yet though so thats not even her fault really. but i didnt wanna come out to her when i did!!! so im taking my sweet time with this) #so im stalling a bit even though i REALLY need to do work and it's gotta be downstairs </3 #anyway if people could just univerally decide to use he/she for majima interchangeably all the time so i could do that unchallenged thatd #be so cool thanks #like i know theres merit in other interpretations and i love them but what about ME #anyway. mwah i love gender sure hope nothing bad happens to it #i need to be someone's girlfriend boyfriend so badly you dont understand. ggrgrgrgrggrgrgrggrgrdbzvxzvzvzhsdhf #sorry for yearning. I'll hold it off as long as i can

[vogelmeister]

sometimes im shocked with my genius

#ok so i decided i wanted to write another play but i wasn’t ready to let go of merel’s world yet #after all its only been a year and honestly i think I want to really flesh out merel’s amsterdam which is very hard #bc i see her as a lonely character where liesbeth is truly her rock #so I decided to start exploring the anne fleur relationship bc its quite prominent to merel as its her first real relationship #anyways i was watching emily in paris (i know) and i was thinking about AF meeting Dirk Jan after Belgium and what it would be like #and its canon in WOL that he knows about Merel but not really. he thinks they’re friends #and so im writing the forst meeting and i was almost going to make anne fleur confess abt merel #THEN I REMEMBERED that in my de diepte piece Merel confesses she met DJ at a party #so im like why not make that a scene #then I realised AF could withold the truth about Merel #in the first meeting #and dutch doesn’t have a seperate word for girlfriend and just a girl friend #so when Merel meets DJ I could potentially use that as a double meaning or something where AF is like #‘oh merel is een vriendin’ and everyone somehow skips over that she said een instead of mijn and so DJ reads it as a friend #or AF is completely planning to stay loyal and is drunk and the fact she uses een is foreshadowing #idk i think im onto something #my issue is as both a native speaker and an ex aspiring dutch teacher i feel merel would pick up on this #like its definitely not something she’d miss #you could also make merel a whole ass metaphor #like merel is a metaphor for my love for the netherlands #dutch language found dead

[luckyagain]

YES exactly, same for me 😭 it hits me sooooo hard i want to eat this song i want it to be physically under my skin i'm JWXNSJZJAAAAAAA

how satellite goes to sleep at night knowing she's the best song on the album

#yessss!!! it just makes me so emotional because we have how many songs from harry lamenting a lack of communication #(mostly from his end) in their relationship?? and to have this song start with him actually trying #(rather than just being sad about it) to initiate that conversation is just everything to me. like the ✨growth✨ #and sure maybe harry needs some liquid courage to get the ball rolling and sure maybe louis isn't ready to talk just yet #but the focus of the song isn't about that #it's about how harry's all in #about how he's devoted to louis and their relationship #he desperately wants to be there for louis #and rather than panic or worry that they aren't talking enough #he understands that louis needs time and space to figure things out #showing that he trusts louis to pull him in when he's ready to talk #but until then harry is happy to wait for him #orbiting around him like the sun #and idk if it's because i've seen harry grow up these past ten years or what but it makes me so emotional this kind of writing come from #him #he went from 'it feels like these days i'm watching you from afar...don't let me go' to 'i'm spinning out waiting for ya to pull me in' #anyway im gonna go cry myself to sleep now lmao

[train-inthedistance]

yea :/

#spent the literally Most Intense 2nd date with the guy on sunday it was very very sweet #and hed told me he’d just gotten out of a really long relationship and that he didn’t know if he was ok already and I said it’s fine by me #as long as we communicate. so far so good we proceed to hang out at his’ and like GOD like truly there is something between #us…which ig is partly responsible for him to freak out a lil inwardly at one point??and he told me nd i asked him if he wanted me to #leave and i think he unnecessarily felt very bad abt it but said maybe yeah and i said that’s fine and he brought be to the bus stop and we #talked a bit abt what this means now and he said he had to sort his head and his thoughts a little and that he loved being w me and would #love to see me again but that he’d let me know if he had the emotional energy for that #and he texted me today that he doesn’t think hes ready for this yet :( like im not mad im just rly sad like guys…….the way we were already #looking at each other… told him that if it’s only time he needs he can take it and get back to me when hes better let’s see.. :/ #like it’s hardly ever felt so easy….to show affection to be open……he’s such a cutie :((( #j #me

[borathae]

bruh. 

magnus venatio is going to be end of my heart fuCK 

#i really said i will explore so many relationships #and i will give all of them so much meaning #that all of them just feel so right and yet special #i just want to fadsfnadsn #my heart cant handle it #and i cant even say many details because the relationship i am currently working on is laced in spoilers and afjsdjfah #besties i am so ready to publish this story #im already at 95k words so its coming along splendidly ohooh #rambling #magnus venatio rambling

[funshape]

white 44 year old twitter user with a03 addict in their bio: omg the dad from cocomelon is actually kind of a litty dilf? and his relationship with the mailman is kind of enemies to lovers villaincore let me know if i should make them both pee on eachother

worlds youngest and yet most verbose baby online: can you seriously like knock if off man im trying to learn about the rhombus

white 44 year old twitter user with a03 addict in their bio: fuck off worlds youngest and yet most verbose baby. just another puriteen minor inserting themselves into adult spaces. go play in the sandbox Also heres ur dox: 123 Circle Road ..... yea i have that....if someone shows up to your house and shoots you and kills you then thats deserved 🤷‍♂️ know your fucking place and get the hell out of the cocomelon fandom if youre not ready to see dark topics

a scientist at mit about to change the world forever: i just made my own centipede by sewing all the dead flies in my room together with all the dead ants in my room 😃☝️

the first man made centipede: kill me again

[chlopieno]

.

vent ahead, sorry

#hey woo look it's missing my ex boyfriend hours!... #i was happy from breaking up for a minute and now im just so sad. i miss him he was my best friend since childhood and now #we havent spoken for month and half so far #it sucks so much i hate it here. i keep hoping hed reach out to me one day. not to date again but just not to pretend were strangers anymore #i wish i could tell him about my work. about dumb things my cat does. about dumb things i do. #i wish i could listen to him telling me whatever as long as its not hurtful. i wish i was better and didnt expect too much. #i wish my self esteem was higher so i wouldnt regret things i did that i was sure were best in the situation we faced. #i wish i were able to be more helpful and supportive. i thought i was and turns out it was received in an opposite way. #i wish i could send him memes or tell jokes or send uquiz links or picrews #i dont know when it all went wrong man i thought everything was good and everything was falling apart while i didnt even notice. #i hate how short it took to end 15 years of being friends. i hate how i cant even relate to his situation because mine is so similar yet #yet it affected us in such different ways. i hate i wasnt able to do more. i hate that he didnt do more. #i hate that im blaming him for things he has no say in. im angry at being helpless and unable to change anything. #i hate that he told me he loved me amd that he wanted to live with me and then broke up with me less than a month later. #i hate that i made him break up with me. i hate that i put so much hope and emotions and work in it and that he told me he cared #but it was me who was ready to go anywhere for him and do anything for him and it wasnt the other way. #i want to say so much and yell and cry and apologise and yell again but at myself this time and bash my head against the wall #i want to know that someone cares about me as much as i care about them. but it wasnt this relationship but he was my best friend #and i wish i could say that i wish we never dated but i dont because i was happy and i hoped we were happy together. #and every time i asked it was okay and fine and good until suddenly it hasnt been for months and i never knew because he never told me #and i know i cant read minds but i wish i was able to tell the signs. i wish i was less selfish. i thought he wanted what i want #but telling stories about living together and setting up furniture or having pets together was what i thought was for us but was for me only #and i didnt even know #i thought wed be friends forever. yes i thought wed live together as partners too but he was my best friend and i lost him and all i can do #is to cry about it.

[cushblunticoot]

sorry dint mind me basically just thinking very normcore about how fuckingeh syckk it woukd be. For crezia to be a good guy for most of their relationship w astarion and helping him out until her hardship inevitably catches back up with her for the 60billionth time and just retconning everything and them both deciding like. Actually fine. Lets make us both worse. Its where we were always going why not just let it be what it may

#SORRY i know its bad and in a perfect world it would a) never happen or at least b) they would end up never speaking again #but ive just been so caught up thinking about howww much he would remind her of mystria #and how ultimately that relationship failed because she was EVILLL #and here comes someone with a spark of light still left #augh #listen i was changed by an experience in my late teens and early 20s and it will haunt me forever OKAY its just one of those thangs #iiii just cant get it out of my head lol. in my head im thinking they recognize it and work it out for the better #and i will likely create my own versions of these characters to fit the story #but for right NOW. gortash is the first love that was always ready to betray her yet his feelings still were real #and astarion is the unfortunate left in the right and wrong place in the right and wrong time #WAHOO ORIGINAL CHARACTERS WAHOO PERSONAL STORY CREATION

[knightcallie]

Baldur's Bounties: Nicknames

At any point in life, one was given a nickname. It may be a shortening of a name, or perhaps it described something. That something could be of anything: circumstances, personalities, a moment in time, the body, favorites... Weichei contemplated the ones he has accrued over his lifetime and ones for his companions.

Weichei has been compared to a star before. He was not like the sun, something gentler. But he was not like the moon, something not so melancholic. The bright freckles on his cheeks had earned him the nickname of Starcheeks by Einar Cadmus, the paladin who gave it all up for music. His penchant for cannons and explosions earned him the name Starburst by Relentless Makatza, the gunslinger grandpa. 

His partners don’t really use the star nicknames from their own language (stellino, sternchen), using his love of cherries and his family nickname. ‘Cheri’ was typically called sweetly, fondly; but he could remember the calls of exasperation and shrill shrieks. ‘Mauschen’, the little mouse of his family. He was so small compared to his absolute giants of his family, and his ever moving inquisitive ears.

But for some reason, ‘Starlight’ slips out of his lips terribly easy for the vampire spawn of the camp. Astarion, little star in elven. Star was an obvious nickname, but for some reason, Starlight, was the one that left his lips. Wyll can take calling Astarion ‘Star’ or ‘my star’.

He can remember when he first called Astarion that, it earned quite an inquisitive look. It was like seeing the stages of grief on that pale face, but not those exact emotions. Then, a bit of a forceful bark of a laugh. “That’s cute darling.”

Then he kept calling him that throughout the adventure, earning some teasing queries from the other companions. He honest to gods don’t know why it came to him so easily, but nicknames were just also a 2nd nature to him. Damon was Dage (his big brother), Dalmond, Macadamon. Lor was just lengthening it and making the names just as ridiculous. Asperitas was Peri, Pear. Volna was Voli, Vol, Spines. Beaulieu was Beau, Bear. Damiano was Dame (either sayings), ex-husband/exie/my mistake (an extremely funny explanation), dancer. Vierna was Vie, Vienna. Yasdia was Ya-ya, Yazzy. Temerity was Mer, always Mer.

His new companions also had nicknames, though some may be kept to himself. 

Lae’zel was Lae, Zel, Lae’bel. Though, he’s not sure she’d be too keen with the nickname Toad being said familiarly. Suddenly, his heart ached at the memory of sharing custody of a frog and toad with Voli. They named them Missile and Toad respectively, especially fitting when Vetleviola came along.

Shadowheart was Orchid, Doe, Heart. He does shorten it to Shart from time to time in his journal. He’s sure she’d be appalled and punch his arm for it.

Wyll… bill… Duck, he landed with duck, and it stuck. The warlock hearing his reasoning admitted it was silly, but then when he explained that it also meant “dear” or “darling”, he softened. 

Karlach was harder to pin, having drawled out Karl. Lackey could be seen crossed out heavily in his journals. Fireball could be used, or perhaps comet. He’s working on it, maybe Chath (drow elvish for fire) would work.

Gale took some doing. They have been calling each other bookie, for their love learning and infodumping when allowed. He could see the wizard be an Eres-blessed, majorly at that. He could’ve been Eres’ Passion, and perhaps that’s why he called him Iris.

Halsin was Hal or Bear. He did remind him of Beau, he has seen large elves before. He married Beau, and his Vaddy was built like a tank. Though in his sleepy state, he has called the wood elf Sisi.

Jaheira reminded him of a grandmother, Oma slipping easily from him. She could complain and argue she was not that old, but she holds Joma close. She was probably around his parent’s age, maybe a little older. He’s also called her Heira, she doesn’t make as much fuss.

He’s told the group the whole splattering of names he’s been given. Weichei had become Weich, Cher, Cheri, Cherry, Cherries, T’puuli, Cher bear, Little Whistle, Silver Silence, maus, mauschen, little maus, triel, little triel, starcheeks, starburst, son, Batty, pup, puppy, little bat. And more he couldn’t quite recall. He’s lived 250 years, made so many friends across the trade, taught so many. 

He wondered, if the others were jealous of the type of life he’s lead. Out of everyone, he didn’t have a terribly tragic past, an abuser in his life. He’s grown up poor and constantly moved in a trade considered dangerous, but those were circumstances. His deity was quite different from the others, well the pantheon overall from his home was vastly different. They actually listened, but some do have iffy times with responses. As Eres’ passion, he was granted the blessing to be able to talk with his goddex often. Though, because the pantheon was different here, he needed a magic source to even be strong enough to get a signal.

He’s been called “my passion, passion” before, but that’s because he was chosen to be that. But hearing it fall from Gale’s lips did leave a warmth in his chest, a twinkle in his eye. Wyll took the various forms of Cheri, the familiarity just felt comforting as he leaned into the man. Astarion kept using “darling”, but that was kinda for everyone. But, he has taken to calling him mouse, finding it quite amusing especially after learning why.

#bg3 writing #writing #bg3 #bg3 tav #baldur's gate 3 #weichei zauviir #bg3 companions #i have such a backlog of writing now oh gods #weichei my beloved #nicknames can be so personal #I have a love hate with Weichei about his love life #bc he’s poly and I just KNOW he’d have crushes on the men of the party #‘WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS’ I scream #him sobbing: I DONT KNOW IM SORRY #Astarion is kinda of a whole can of worms #but ultimately I’d think it’s the friends to lovers burn #bc lord knows astarion ain’t ready for a romantic relationship yet #gale is so like him fr #also fastest way to his heart is also being a nerd #wyll fuckin unexpectedly rizzed him hard #his denseness came in so hard he would’ve squeaked in surprise when wyll goes to kiss him #he’s embarrassed of himself and could hear beau laughing thousands of miles away #it was so obvious but Weichei is KNOWN to be fucking dense #ik gale and wyll are monogamous in game BUT #this is for me anyways 😂 #tbh I can see lae’zel being crushed on too bc WOW she is just an arsenal of new knowledge #but her intenseness would jar him kinda bad #ngl he probably did see a bit of his sisters in her #karach and him are besties tho #he missed that kinda enthusiasm and gives his braincells a break