#im still fucking crying lol

[coolauntlilith]

S2e6 Truth/Dare, when Mr. Farouk said, "Well, when you don't figure out you're gay until your late 20s, you tend to miss out on those beautiful gay teenage experiences." I broke.

#im at that 7 minute or 8 minute mark and im literally bawling #its OFMD all over again lol #the way biphobia and bi erasure had me never talking to girls. literally was snapping a girl tonight about date plans #i dont think 14 yo's who *know* who they are could ever understand those of us who just dont realize it til way later lol #it really feels like a loss. a genuine loss lol #ive been growing to like Mr Farouk but now hes my favorite #he's me and I'm him in that way. that moment #im still fucking crying lol #a 5 min text post is about 15 mins in with me ugly crying lol #heartstopper spoilers #heartstopper s2 spoilers #heartstopper #heartstopper s2 #💖❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 #💖💜💙 #<me bi. not Farouk before any of yall who need validation thru internet discourse jump all up my ass about it #aunt posting

[bl00doodle]

DOODELS

#my art #tryignt o do sm shit help i wanma draw and finish things so baddd #the brown sketches r me crying @ the phrase 'to be loved is to be changed' i wanna make a sad emo angsty comic abt shadows loss and pain an #still endong up with a happy life bc. 🧍‍♂️ fuck i want that for myself too #THE 2NDD... MY SKY PIRATE GRANDMA MARIA AU 🫶🫶🫶🫶 basically shes super inspired by dola from castle in thsky lol #shes putting makeup on shad bc hes going on his first date ever.... #in his 50yr immortal ish ageless life hes going on a date and maria will damn sure make sure hes gonna have a nice one #ehehehe guess whos hes going on a date w....👁👁(obvious) #uhhhh the cat is just older blaze leik burnin blaze inspired by her concept art #one of her hair styles is like fire and im like. thats fuckin cool!! #sHE GETS STRIPED AND GETS FWUFFY WHEN SHES OLDER bc i think its kyut 🫶 #makes her related to big the cat ehehehe alt dimension shit or smhtn idk im not thinking anymore #oh fuck i forgot to tag the charas #sonic the hedgehog #maria robotnik #eggman #shadow the hedgehog #blaze the cat #amy rose #sonic chao #uhhh it uink thqts it #sowowiwjekwo #sowwy its a mess

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I feel like I'm losing my mind. Like this has to be a thing right? It's a thing I experience at least. Please please please tell me abt ur experience if u do 🙏

#all the literature i find is like yeah pmdd can be mistaken for bipolar but then they dont talk abt mania or hypomania #so im like ??? wtf is happening? #i mean i wasnt looking that hard but its still weird to me bc i tell my mum i possibly had a hypomanic episode and she instantly was like #hm could b hormones and she was 1000% percent right bc it happens mostly in the days before bleeding starts #so like i cant b the only one out there. and it doesnt happen all the time. and usually its not that extreme #like id say its mostly just elevated mood and it mostly just lasts like 3 days or so. so i dont think it counts as hypomania. but thats wha #ill select bc i had one time that felt so fucking crazy it felt like there was something seriously wrong with me. it was fun tho #before i crashed so hard i had to leave work in the middle of the day bc i couldnt stop crying lol #anyway. im curious #menstruation #pmdd #pms #its always depression this depression that. why the fuck do i wanna run around in circles screaming until i die? riddle me that batman

[sluttimetm]

Its nice to go back to basics, ties that are nice, simple, and cosy

#not quite the colors i was going for #but i like how it looks with my hoodie #id were this out if i was much more bold #mepost #shibari #im still wereing it just relazing #fucking trypid was going to make me cry lol #i kneed to get fucked im to wound up with stress

[birdricks]

birdrick withdrawals.

#someone put me on a drip #PLLLLEAAASSEEEEEE CAN WE GET THEM BACK AGAIN. FOR FUCKING REAL. #i dont ask for much just a few little moments. #TBFFFF tho we actually have been getting fed well this season. COMPARATIVELY #one episode w bp…. and a clip.. and rick mentioning him. Real #guys we can still win this #affirmations guys. manifest it with me #BTW i hate to sound like. annoying fan crying abt their ship not being in every ep lol #mostly when im like this im just joking like idgaf whatt hey do in the show #but im also just extreemmely autistic abt it lol #this shit plagues me daily. i have to say things abt it sometimes or i die

[doctorwormcore]

What i think i love the most about the live action is just how much love there is? Yeah its different from the anime, but honestly....kinda better. I love how kind they all are, the strawhats clearly just love each other already, their own little family

#opla #crying screaming throwing up #i hope we do get to see more of their og personalities shine through #i.e. sanji being a bit of a hotheaded dumbass and zoro being a bit of a moron and nami being a bit more a big sister hahaha #but i love the opla strawhats so much man #i love that they highlight that sanji is inherently soft or that usopp really is charismatic or that zoro really is a snarky gay bitch lmAO #and like i ADORE opla nami #im so excited for chopper man... im watching the anime atm and he still isnt here yet ;-; #boku wa doctor tony tony chopper if you even care #god if they made everyone else hot can you imagine how hot robin will be!?!?!? #ugh....can you imagine how theyd tackle whole cake island with soft!sanji ....feelsbadman.jpg #i mean we have a LONG way to go before we even tackle the time skip....very apprehensive as yo how sanjis will be tackled bc girl... #lbr that shit was insensitive and transphobic af.... #dont get me wrong....sanjis a fucking misogynist lmao....less so in the la...still there tho #god bless him...thinks hes just chilvalrous #anyway no notes on luffy he is literally perfect can do no wrong precious baby #if anything hes not as objectively stupid lol but like they only had 8 eps..you really can only squeeze in the most important shit #anyway i am screaming...dennis o'hare NEEDS to play eric the whirlwind if they utilise that shit #anywya thats my rambling for today lol

[mainfaggot]

literally getting choked up rn tears prickling my eyes we are so back i love you tomorrow by together. the parasocialisms got me good honestly theyve got me in a chokehold

#this is the longest I've ever ulted a boygroup #this may marks 4 years ... #the mv was so beautiful and the song was giving old school slash somewhat emo vibes it was really fucking good #i loved the layers in the instrumental and the visuals were like. so tumblr 2016 but tastefully so Lol #i want to cry that was so beautifully shot we really are so back. i love the txt lore being so crucial for this cb and the cinematography #in general went crazy to me like it wasn't anything overly complex but it was still so aesthetically cohesive #im jsut saying words atp yeah #but no its not even like ill praise anything txt puts out bc i qas so painfully underwhelmed by chasing this feeling and that mv in general #like the album was solid but i couldn't care less abt the music video or the title and the aesthetics were so mediocre #but this time. holy shit we r so back like this is the txt i started stanning when i was 16 #z.post

[actualsunflower]

hold on I just started crying because I stared at this pic of the Earth from the moon. The Earthrise photo from the Apollo 8 mission.

Not only was this pic taken in 1968 but it's from the fucking moon. There's so many people in this picture. And animals. And plants. And everything. Everything is right there all in one picture. There are people in this picture who've passed away and are forever immortalized from the moon. FROM SPACE. taken by a Human FROM that planet ..well I guess not every human is in that pic cause some of em are on the moon lol

#sorry i didnt feel like logging into my personal blog just bare with me ok #sunflower posts #im really crying im not just saying that. i can't handle looking at these photos or the pale blue dot. #i just can't handle it emotionally i ALWAYS start crying #i remember i watched the live stream sooooo excitedly when New Horizons passed Pluto and REVEALED PLUTO'S HEART #i was literally crying i was a fucking wreck it was so beautiful. Pluto has a HEART. A GIANT HESRT IM SO EMOTIONAL STILL #AND we learned it's volcanically active. and has or had salt water oceans. #geologically active not necessarily volcanic sorry #i started taking astronomy in college a little over a year later :) #again i am very sorry for posting this here i just really dont feel like logging in elsewhere lol #not fallout #astronomy #space

[graveyardmouth]

boys when the childhood trauma affects them as people

#like. my parents controlling food really fucked me up as a kid lol i was getting a bowl of cereal and my dad heard me and now im crying #bc when i was a kid if i got caught eating when i wasnt allowed to id get hit or yelled at or forcefed vinegar #and my subconscious still remembers that even though id done my best to block it out #bug shut up #delete later #eating disorders #<- not really? well they are involved in my whole mental clusterfuck about this but not this anecdote #i just dknt know what to tag so people can filter it

[cosmicrhetoric]

bon clay just did something so beautiful and true. ngl i was finding it wild how all of the streaming/fansub sites im on had comments from a decade ago like "i normally can't stand WOKE anime but bon clay is awesome" or "PROUD HOMOPHOBE and i still love bon clay" cause it's silly and stupid that it took a swan lake themed character for people to realize lgbt people deserve bare minimum respect but jesus fucking christ welcome to the woke piece

#wtf lol #im not inserting myself into the conversation re: lgbt characters in one piece when i havent even gotten to yamato but jfc #it is literally like what if someone tried to write something progressive but put zero work into it. and still came up with bon clay #if the way they drew/animated crying wasn't so fucking funny id be crying right now. went NO! out loud when i realized #it is really funny though #one piece #one piece lb

[layalu]

did u know that i spend. way too much time on inventory management </3

#can u also tell that i am. a compulsive looter #thing is that inventory management SUCKS in this game and it drives me nuts & i have to sort them bc else i wont find shit #i do also love making lists and sorting things. so . #lay rambles #bg3 #one thing that really annoys me it that sorting by type doesnt even fucking work properly #like game PLEASE im begging you just. put the same item type (or even just the same item) next to each other. ble as e #and. sometimes the same item wont even stack???? crying over here #(theyre still chillin in the camp supplies) #also i havent sorted the drinks in a while so there are way less variants in there than i have collected lol #i like having one of each kind of things ok........ #its fun to collect them

[todayisafridaynight]

ENTIRE PLAYLIST WORTH EXPERIENCING BUT THE IMPLICATIONS OF THIS ONE ARE DRIVING ME INSANE

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN ‘DOES THIS MEAN I LOST YOUR TRUST SOMETIME AGO YOUNG MASTER’ HEY WHAT IF I KILLED MYSELF

LIVE

#submission #spoilers #HELLO?????? #one day they'll pronounce yakuza in a way that doesnt make me say Lol but this aint bout that HELLO????? #IT HAS TO BE A FLASHBACK SEGMENT OF COURSE BUT STILL #LET ME SEEEEE NO OOOOO NO LET ME SEE #YO MOTHEFRFUCKER #knew jo shots tho.......... hi babes..... #did i manifest this Not Really but ill act like i did... #gonna throw up and cry over this for the next few weeks brb #watching this a million times brb #how the fuck am i supposed to take my spanish exam tomorrow. i simply cant Professor Im Sorry Can We Reschedule #Something Catastophic Happened To Me #anyway Rewatching This A Million Times BRB

[merry-harlowe]

Ben affleck Smoking dot jpeg

#theo rambles #showing up to my group project meeting in three minutes #after having spent the last hour losing my fucking mind crying bc im depressed and all the scary shit that comes w being depressed to the #point of where I am rn #and looking exactly like I’ve spent the last hour loosing my mind crying #am also eating something that isn’t shitty aw poutine or cookies I baked for the first time in a good thirty six hours. which. #not to be depressed but I simply do not have an appetite. #idk lol im still here so. I stay winning 😀

[applejongho]

that stupid post I rbed earlier (in the morning, when thoughts and feelings are valid) hit me bc I'm literally sitting here like what if I asked for ex bestie's forgiveness bc I'm the one that fucked up (I am going through it rn 🙂👍) and then I looked at the clock and my brain went aha you are invalid you're poisoned with Nighttime O'Clock. go drink a seven up

#apple lady words #i complain here a lot abt this and while ex bestie is nameless i still dont want to put their 'name' down here as evil and im a saint and #blameless. #like there is never a case where someone is blameless. i participated in the downfall of the friendship (that lasted months) #but i truly tried everything i could to salvage anything and those last few months were truly awful. i felt like shit all the time #and felt cast aside by them #and w them gone i STILL feel like shit lol! but it's bc im going through the motions. and i just have to get used to the drastic change of #them not being in my life anymore and not want to fall back into familiar and safe but toxic patterns w them #i need to brave this fucking storm and i am trying my best but [tiny and small cat. crying. lying on the floor face down] #dl #does any of this make sense who knows

[hollowfairybabybat]

1/2 a person time

#i think bein fucked rn would b fun or not fun either way it fun 4 someone tho prolly #like either itd b like watchin not me kinda get fucked i think like the kind where u notice rly specific things in the room(or truck :/) ot #or* theres a chance id just cry rn too lol but im willin 2 find out bc both could b fun or both could not b fun the more i think about it #still down tho #batbaby rambles

[kimmkitsuragi]

not my first reaction to this information as i learned it during the intermission of challengers (yes i finally went to see it) and i was having a lowkey breakdown through the intermission and the beginning of the second half a little bit but ummm: well of fucking course i literally dont deserve anything

#why did i even try this hard. i dont think i deserve anything tbh #dont mind me sounding dramatic im actually fine like lol #im sad but ok but also like. i got used to being a failure and a disappointment this last year so #i feel very tired now. it wasnt a bad day overall and im happy i decided against going alone today #bc i wouldve literally ended up crying in public if i was alone lmfao #ah. ahhhhh :/ i really really really was hoping for a better outcome #stupid girl as always #anyway i really am fine i just need to be dramatic for a moment. i truly do not deserve anything i get ever im sorry #if anyone read until this point and wondering what the fuck couldve happened that got me like this #well it's truly not that important in the grand scheme of things and im being stupid #got wait listed for another scholarship lmao </3 #truly stupid and foolish of me to even think from the start that i could do this lmao #what's even more stupid is im still like well. well 🤠 hey maybe 🤗 #i just know im going to be feeling extremely guilty for even existing even if i end up being able to go at this point lmao #and it's so stupid to even write all this. over something like this when people have real problems and stuff lmao #truly what did i think make me worthy of this chance im so not special and dont deserve this etc etc #all this negative self talk and i will still be sleeping like 😴😴😴 still hoping for the best dont worry #and that's because im stupid #🗒 #i will drink tea this day has been lacking tea so critically :/