#issue and bla bla bla bla bla

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

I need to explode actually <- is a lost cause academically

#night thoughts #im just so tired of school telling me how im worthless and not good enough and disappointing and not trying hard enough and a problem and an #issue and bla bla bla bla bla #and how i Used To Be Such A Bright Student What Happened #and then also turn around and be like We care abt mental health ^_^ your feelings are important :P #Just make sure to be a normal student :D #Make sure to not be Too depressed :^) #Just choose to be the Normal amt xD its so easy ^_^ have a positive mindset :) #Wake up and decide its going to be a good day :) work hard! :) #Do this breathing exercise :) work hard! :) #Focus on your education as well as your health :) #work hard! :) #A good student is a busy student :) work hard! :) #Stop playing video games start studying for your exams :) work hard! :) #come in no matter what so you never miss a lesson :) work hard! :) #these fuckers will slap a smiley face on anything #and act like you should be grateful

[sleepsucks]

hai haii i'm also trans and living in france, your comics are super cute and relatable and me and my french trans friends love them 💜

haw hell yeahhhh glad u enjoy them

#thanks for existin #french trans people are so elusive 2 me #( <- has never had a transfem friend irl ) #( <- <- has like one transmasc *acquaintance* i guess bc friend's flatmate (who's moving away i think) ) #it's a (social) skill issue bc i never meet or see anyone but. idk i'll figure it out eventually dw #bla bla bla

[queerofthedagger]

i was doing so well keeping my queue somewhat controlled around 850-900 posts but i had a bunch of slow days at work and alas. here we fucking go again

#mona rambles #I'm not even that permanently online i just have a well curated dash #and refuse to set it to post more often than 25 x day #like. just #the queue limit used to be 300 and YEAH i had the same issues but how did i even deal #half my drafts are posts waiting to go into the queue too like 🫠🫠🫠 #I'm very normal about things bla bla bla

[jxgi]

notable medical / health - physical

he needs this like heid needs this; i wanted to make a little write up of jagi's physical health and things that may be referenced in threads etc.

head scar / trauma / brain damage -

the most obvious is his head scar / face scar. for anybody who doesn't know; after a fight with his brother, his brother used a technique to essentially swell jagi's brain and kill him. this WOULD have killed him but jag, being the stubborn bastard he is - decided to nail metal into his head to stop the swelling / injury. on the right side of head, he has this metal scar with wires that pump blood and keep him alive.

he also suffered some brain damage from this injury.

he is ALWAYS in pain with this injury. it's pure agony; not much distracts him from it. but he will welcome any kind of relief. if your muse wants to control jag in some way, perhaps they can offer him pain relief - he might just be there friend :eyes:

here is an image of what this looks like; the depiction varies dependent on which manga, anime, game etc you see so i'm going to use this reference as it's most clear / my favourite.

regarding jagi's brain damage - i like to think that he has odd mannerisms spotted when with him for a long time; he blinks unequally, his pupils are always tiny, he twitches and can sometimes appear as if under the influence of drugs ( he isn't ).

he also sees a demonic figure from time to time ( the one his mask is inspired by, as seen in the gaiden manga ) and it also speaks to him. this is purely as a result of his brain damage. when alone, he will sometimes talk to himself or mumble - his mumbles border on an almost indecipherable rambling, but to jag, he can see / hear something that nobody else can. this is purely his head playing tricks on him.

old leg injury -

his leg injury is inspired by ken's rage, as i noticed he has a bandage around his right leg - i like to think that he once badly broke his leg whilst in the dojo as a teen and the injury never quite settled. even with toki's healing and ryuken's orders to 'take it easy', jagi just couldn't and insisted on using it, thus damaging it further.

ever since, it's given him slight discomfort / pain but nothing unbearable. his attention when it comes to pain is entirely distracted by the throbbing pain in his skull, so he isn't too bothered by his old leg wound. it is something that can be sensitive, mind you, and is another reason for him using his motorbike to get around everywhere.

scars on torso / self-harm -

the scars on his torso are supposed to imitate kenshiro's as to impersonate him - they are real. jag gave them to himself; he stabbed himself multiple times with a knife, digging the circular scars into his torso. he did this in a fit of madness shortly after receiving his head injury.

on this note, jag is no stranger to self harm. he has stabbed himself with a pipe through the hip before during a suicide attempt and when younger, would regularly cut into his thighs.

if asked of these wounds - he'll play them off as being wounds caused while training / fighting in battle. only toki knows their true origin.

#.headcanon #you can tell me jag wouldnt self-harm bla bla but we've literally seen him in canon stab himself multiple times #you cant tell me this man doesnt have some serious issues #tw; self harm #tw; mutiliation #tw; blood #tw; wounds #tw; suicide mention

[belovedblabber]

Actually, thinking about that post about how it’s easier to hate nazis then to love Jews etc., and it did make me think about a similar (in terms of sentiment, I don’t want to imply that I’m saying these things are the exact same and can just be swapped in terms of how they function) situation I see a lot with how so many cis people who are trying to be good allies focus like 90 or so percent of their time on hating terfs and being like “punch a terf!” “fuck terfs lol!” etc. and so little time on trying to listen to trans people, uplift trans people etc. It’s very easy to jump on the wagon in terms of shouting those sentiments, often with good intentions (and very often, let’s be real, for clout as well), but then a lot of the time so little of that energy is turned to actually trying to do any work on your own internalized transphobia, and to trying to support, listen to, and uplift trans people. I see a lot of cis people shouting “fuck terfs” but then turning around and refusing to learn from and engage with actual trans issues past the surface level performance of anti-terf rhetoric. I’m not saying that saying like ‘fuck terfs!’ is a bad thing, obviously. But it does often seem that people will engage in that aspect of rhetoric without making any attempts to be actual by allies and uplifters of the people they claim to be supporting. 

And to be clear, I’m cis. And this isn’t me trying to be like “well unlike OTHER cis people I GET it” because no, I have many times had harmful shit I’ve had to unlearn, and I am sure I will continue to learn things and fuck up and need to self examine. This habit of talking the talk without walking the walk is just something I’ve noticed, and something I myself have done in the past. It’s a lot easier to say a trendy (within you know, many leftist circles etc.) slogan than to do actual work, and I think that this is something cis people, including myself, need to keep in mind

#i hope i am not out of line with this post #like don't hesitate to call me out over smth i've said here if i'm saying anything in ignorance #this is just something i've noticed a lot among leftist cis people #i think there's also something to be said for how just spouting these slogans leaves people open for indoctrination #BY terfs to be clear #because if you spout a slogan without ever examining the why behind it #and without engaging with the issues it represents #it leaves you open to being taken in by terf rhetoric if someone over on twitter or whatever comes in to say #'oh well you know ACTUALLY being gender critical us-' bla bla bla #etc. #if that makes any sense #like obvi one would hope that people have the critical thinking skills to intuit why terfs are bad without having to do a lot of work #and thinking on it #but a lot of people to lack those skills #and i have seen people who have previously had 'fuck terfs' blaring out #shift over into being like 'oh actually maybe terfs have a point' or whatever #and it's wild #and kind of speaks to how surface level and performative a lot of purported allyship is #you know? #again if I'm saying anything in ignorance here please feel free to say so but this is just something that I've noticed #in my own personal experience

[o-nik]

My autistic brain after I've been at the hairdressers all fucking morning and having to mask and laugh at every joke I didn't even understand

This is gonna be my face for the rest of the day:

#autistic issues #autistic humor #autistic #autistic community #autism™ #autism #autistic adult #autism experiences #autism ramblings #autism things #autism tag #autism thoughts #bla bla bla imagine here all the little autistic tags #like idk #autistic life #autistic problems #i am fucking exhausted #uuugghhgh

[prettyperfectdoll]

Not that I expect anything from a cunt with daddy issues, but not only did you not answer the question you unsurprisingly regurgitated one of the laziest leftist talking points by accusing the electoral college of "favoring white counties." I'm convinced radfems become this stupid because daddy told you 'no.' Not everything is about racism, you vermin.

huh

see, I don't have daddy issues though...

#I actually have mommy issues and older sister issues #and you just know that when the person has to make it a point to say bla bla not everything is about racism... theyre a racist #anyway the statian voting system is stupid <3

[134340am]

there was once i was feeling very awful and anxious about this thing so i went out and watched a movie and bought a little plushie to try and make my day better… like i didn’t want to stay home and marinate in my worry and everything… well it Did Not Work because now every time i hear the movie’s soundtrack or hug my plushie i m reminded of how people out there are evil and bad and gross

#yes there is good in this world bla bla bla prove it then #the good-ish news is that my plushie is tolerable now #after many months of being 🤨 about it #the movie… not so much #it was a good movie but i couldn’t stop thinking about the stupid issue the entire time #which made watching it unbearable and distracting 🤨🤨🤨 #anyways just wanted to share <3 heh #the lesson learnt here is that people can preach all they want about kindness but still be the most unkind #actually no the lesson learnt here is. don’t spend money when stressed. #yea that’s it 🤨 #tmi tuna

[caruliaa]

bad decision maker (me)

#this IDIOT decided to start an event for a fandom even though two relativly popular ships make them feel deeply uncomforatable !! #uugh its fine. its 2023 like three ppl ship carmen and gray and/or julia and chase in 2023. weve moved on where better as a society #UGHH THE THING ISS THO !!! like i dont want to be mean those ships genuinly make me feel like being sick maybe and i didnt realize #that my reaction to it was THAT intense before so i tohught it wld b fine if i had to occasionaly rb stuff for it. #i made my bed so i must lie in it i guess !!! alnd like no ones posted stuff YET but still. im nervous #also worried that bc ihave those ships tags banned i wont even see content for it and then the ppl posting content for it will like. #accuse me of being biased and say im a bad person and bla bla bla which i am biased but ill try not to be and uugh. #society if ppl didnt see a female character and a male character who she very clearly sees as her older brother #and a female character and a male character who repeatedly demeans her and went 'what if i shipped them' so this was never an issue for me #sorry thats mean. idk im trying to be impartial and balalnced and fair but i also am not ig. #its more just like! please dont kill me if i seem biased against redcr.ackle i am but i dont deserve u telling everyone to block me over it #someone actually did that once. cleary didnt work in the long run but you can see now why im so damm nervous #ig i can say that if i seem biased towards certain ships thats bc thats whats in the csweekly tags. and babes i wont be wrong !!! #bc i do rb based purely on those tags so ig im fine !! #flappy rambles

[hermeticbridgetroll]

At 31 years old I finally learned how to braid things. I have struggled with this my entire life. TAKE THAT ROPE!

#I have trouble with anything that requires complex sequencing & I blame dyslexia #my brain just...does not work that way #I couldn't tie my shoes until I was 10 but that was more of an issue with my parents blocking my view with their hands & me guessing #since I've been on my neuro meds I've noticed a massive uptick in cognitive processing which is awesome. #I always felt so stupid as a kid & now I realize it was not my fault my brain was just malfunctioning from all the trauma & stress. #and an undiagnosed learning disorder #bla bla bla #about my day

[chikaoofka]

ok now im thinking about pokemon and like. the new 3d models in the new (? would i still call it that) gen are like. theyre fine but the colours look So Bad everything looks So Bad in this game i think. one of their biggest mistakes is using this weird yellow palette

like who thought those two yellows would ever ever ever ever look good WHO??? also not to mention from what ive seen a lot of the models (or art? I havent seen a lot of the art proper so im mostly going off of models) have weird weird colour choices I could never like. imagine looking good

the use of weird greys and blacks and weirdly desaturated greens juxtaposed over a very very pale green or maybe even something like a lack of well-done gradients or very jarring markings makes a lot of pokemon in this gen feel so weird to me

also the very specific yellow they use everywhere WHY DID THEY USE THAT YELLOW AND PUT IT ON LIKE PALE PINKS AND YELLOWS????????????????????????? i cough and die tl;dr: i dont like the colour choices for this game very much

#bla bla not all pokemon bla bla #SOME ARE ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD but also those seem to be the like..... regional variants? like kingambit or the new wooper line #the pink hammer lassie line is also really nice (though still feel like... TOO pink? as it only has pinks it its design + the purple hammer #though scrolling through the pokedex it kinda does feel like it's a problem with this gen specifically #the older pokemon dont really have this issue as much? #like the british pokemon have nice colours. hatrene and the sandstorm snake are very nice #also sorry if this is like unintelligible #im really abd at saying what i think #also i forgot to mention the textures are so weird and for what #ikea checkout section

[lawlightbrainrot]

Do you also feel like a lot of Lawlight fics bash Misa even tho they might not mean to? Or just kinda toss her aside? I want to write one she is in but I'm wondering how I can make it clear I have no intention of bashing her, honestly, bc I love her lol. You're the first person I've come across who loves both Lawlight and Misa so I thought i'd ask for your thoughts on it, I'd love to hear...

OMG I TOTALLY AGREE! but sometimes i feel like it's intentional for writers to push her aside/bash her, I've read some fics where they just straight up write her so weird to purposely make her unlikeable but that's literally only really because they actually hate her.

but you are right in some cases it can be completely unintentional, and i feel like it all links to how to write light's misogyny and how he views her. some writers really portray his misogyny in the wrong way i feel, because although yes he is misogynistic he's not explicitly misogynistic towards her - he's more subtle with his misogyny. and i feel like when people write his misogyny as really strong that's why it seems like they're genuinely bashing her, and makes her seem very unlikeable and different to how she actually is in canon. going off on a tangent a bit here but it also doesn't help when the fic writers themselves have very weird views towards women as well as they just end up completely mischaracterizing her even more.

another thing i feel like misa can be really important when it comes to lawlight, like she is dating light in canon after all - i feel like that should be addressed more in canon based fics. i know their relationship never consisted of any communication because its so awkward and uncomfortable but tbh i would love to see them having a mutual break up communication kind - of - thing. i think it would be interesting for them to eventually come to a moment of realisation that there's no point to the relationship anymore, and that they're both tired of pretending it's something they can keep doing. and i know this would hurt misa because of her attachment to light but i also think it would be good for her! so she can heal and move on from the attachment :) tbh it would be good for light too.

#i have many misa lawlight thoughts so sorry if this just sounded like I'm going on a complete bla bla bla gibberish brainstorm... #but basically im trying to say if you want to make it seem like ur not bashing her you could think about how to write lights misogyny in - #- a more canon like way #and if you don't want to make it look like ur pushing her aside you could focus a bit more on her feelings towards lawlight and how she - #- handles it and the breakup. kinda thing #and who knows maybe they could somewhat be friends afterwards :) unrealistic ik i always like the idea #or maybe not friends () but like. awkward acquaintances #also like to think that maaaybe misa and light would come to understand each other slightly. considering they kind of have similar issues #- (misa comphet and light gay both having hard time accepting themselves) kinda thing #sorry sorry.... going off on one again....... #death note #lawlight #light yagami #misa amane #l lawliet #ask #thanks for the ask i love talking about misa

[pointsfortrying]

woe to feel nostalgia for a culture that had never been your own yet you had participated in for years,,,,,

#rye rambles #saw some photos of italy and mention of santa lucia.... #we'd leave out grains for her donkey once in elementary school the class set up a lil place for santa lucia #and the next day the grains were scattered on the floor bc of the teachers ofc but our tiny kids minds were blown!! #head in hands #italy had Several issues but god i miss miss the vibes #never rly got to explore the town i lived in (bla bla mental health stuff) and i regret it constantly! #my memory is So shot bc of repression etc but the few things i do remember that are good are just... holds gently #library and parks my beloveds #that one underground furniture store that had the Tiniest arm chair #the one store out of the way that only had 1 display window and it was filled with katanas #christmas market and also thursday(?) markets that guy who gave me an apple for free but i didnt like apples so i gave it to my sister #running around the fountain in the duomo and getting splashed by stray droplets #the pizzeria store and the food trucks that sold french fries #it rly just is that isnt it you'll always miss the things you don't have anymore #always regret not having cherished the good things more #and thats okay #i cherish the few positive memories i have and i try to cherish what i got now more as well even if its hard #sdfjklsdlk #ignore me i am just having Thoughts #been in a vibe recently contemplating just how #different my life is #things change #and its weird #but it doesnt have to be all bad #simply... thinks...

[psychedelic-ink]

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#I’m so fucking sick of weight still being talked to me #I’m at my grandparent hence why I haven’t been that active #and I don’t have my routine I don’t eat that much #I don’t even binge anymore which I’m proud of #but when I’m here I can’t cook my own meals and when they cook the things I don’t like #I have to eat junk food #then they start say oh you’re a picky eater you only eat junk food that makes you fat bla bla #like I don’t wanna be mad because they’re very old and I do love them #but like #it still fucking hurts when I’m still struggling with image issues still #anyways sorry for rambling #just period brain #and I’m just sick of it like let me be free and do what I want I’m not unhealthy #ghh okay I’m stopping #tw weight #tw eating issues #I guess #delete later

[gisdotnet]

....I came up with another au uh uh writing in the tags because spoilers possibly for the people in chat that haven't played/gotten caught up in CROB lore

#bla bla bla Mango Hydrena and Rat get turned 2 stone by those eye thingys #BUT they get unturned to stone because ofc they do. and now all three of them have to adjust to life again u know the drill #also. they all have survivors guilt because they think their only alive again because the dragons were playing favorites #y'know. who would I be if I didn't give my favs issues. but also making it work at the same time #kris.stfu

[trinrose3]

Tired if women basically being forced to wear the skimpiest of outfits on like red carpets and shit while men can just Be Normal

#Bla blah blah rich people problems blah blah blah #It’s the rooted misogyny in it tho that’s the issue