#it’s me I’m the blind person

[ciderjacks]

I think my biggest issue is that I love talking. I love to yap. I love the sound of my own voice and I love my own opinions and I love how I construct words and I really just cannot get enough of listening to myself. I think I’m smart and funny and interesting. And u might be thinking hey why is self confidence a problem? Well it’s a problem bc my ass NEVER SHUTS THE FUCK UP.

#personal #It’s not like I’m ashamed of this trait #im not blind to my own faults and I think there are some people that are currently just objectively better than me #Therefore my self confidence isn’t like a negative trait #It’s just that I always need to have a vocal opinion on everything and in class it’s like I just animorph into this -> 🤓☝🏼

[theshadowrealmitself]

With their parents setting up bonding ceremonies, Vulcans probably don’t really think twice of blind dates, would they?

Only worry would be them misunderstanding the dates as they’re going to immediately bond if they’re compatible

#like ‘oh you think this person might be compatible with me and now you want me to meet up with them?’ #‘to see if your guess is correct?’ #they wouldn’t bat an eye at it #star trek #Vulcans #I’m gonna tag #Humans #because when I think blind dates I think Humans #but there’s probably versions of it in other species right?

[lvstharmony]

​beyond grateful for the people that are surrounding me in my life, just as i am grateful for the people i’ve parted ways with, for without them, i would not be the person i am today.

#i have left so many people throughout my life #and #if someone would ask me if i’d regret any choice i’ve made i would say no #i regret hurting people yet i wouldn’t change a thing if i could #without the suffering the sacrifices and the lessons i would not be the person i am today that i can finally say i’m proud of #whenever i read the question “would you want to be your friend if you’d meet yourself?” deep down my answer was no #i was a good friend and i always tried my best to be there for everyone #but i was so blinded and overwhelmed by my pain that i tried so hard not to project on others that it was exactly the thing i’ve done #i was extremely caring sensitive loving and selfless but my ”bad“ traits were just as extreme #my emotions were so overwhelming that they were scattered all over the place that it didn’t allow me to have any control over them #i used to be so terrified of being alone. all i’ve felt was a great loneliness that was residing within me #until i’ve gathered the strength to leave an entire friendgroup with people that meant the world for me #they weren’t good for me anymore just as i wasn’t for them #since that day i’ve grown a lot i became a better and healthier version of myself #i learned how to be alone and to find the peace in it and in myself #all i’ve had was Allah swt. and He is all i will ever need. #without the hardships in terms of friendship i wouldn’t have been able to learn how to be alone and love and enjoy it #without it i could not say that i could easily give up the people in my life #i could if i had to bc i have Allah swt. #but i’ve learned how to choose and to choose the right people #i don’t need you and never will but i choose you bc i want you in my life and i think that makes it so much more special #i can finally say that i love the person i am today and can’t wait to see myself grow even more as the cycle of growing is never ending #I still have so much to learn and I will let it come to me with open arms #an open mind and an open heart #above all the most precious gift i’ve earned is to learn how to have tawakkul. #everything that happens every trial that is afflicted upon us has meaning #and it’s beautiful. #being able to pick out the khair in everything is the biggest blessing #alhamdulillah for the things that bruised my soul alhamdulillah for the things that mended it #alhamdulillah for everything bc truly; Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear.

[pissfizz]

I have decided adam is actually a very good character but the fandom was too blinded by the uncomfortable interactions with Langa to realize this

#good person? never. a good character? absolutely #and he has an incredibly well done arc too #sk8 #i was also very blinded and interpreted him as a one dimensional villain first few times around #but now I’m actually looking at him and going oh. there was a lot of thought put into this man #if someone gave me a couple hours and some solid motivation I could write an essay on him

[milimeters-morales]

wanting to write jessica as the strong independent woman who gets shit done because i like seeing black women have power even in scary/uncertain times due to its comforting and familiar nature V.S. wanting to write her as a nervous first-time mom who needs a lot of attention/care, who isn’t perfect, and has a bunch of issues she should have sorted out before this because i don’t like the idea that black women have to always be strong/bold/harsh to be good characters VS only really enjoying writing when it’s about Miles anyway 😭

#like jessica is just my mom or nanny #and i see a person behind all that… however she was acting in atsv like i understood her completely!!!! of course i didn’t agree bc i was+ #a viewer and i knew what was gonna happen but god if i was in that situation i would side with her i’m sorry . no i’m not #and i just want to understand her so much better. i need to know her inside and out and blind and in death #atsv jessica lore i hope you get expanded upon #and then you have me relating to miles so much i don’t generally care to write about others that often 😭😭😭 help #not tagging

[faelapis]

whenever there’s discourse like some gay guy listed his fave queer movies and didn’t include enough wlw or whatever, all i can think is. holy shit you guys are cis.

#vent / rant #if i called out everyone who didn’t include trans media in their fave queer media the list would be ALL OF YOU #personal lists are subjective and expecting someone’s taste to perfectly match up with ideals of equal representation is #insane but also extremely revealing about what your blind spots are #catty arguments about whether cis gay men or cis lesbians have the most rep just unintentionally reveals the insane gap between #cis gays and trans people here #you are both very very very spoiled in comparison. i would know. i’m mlm myself and not once has it given me 10th the pain of being trans #yes this is technically oppression olympics but it’s also really fucking honest #so cope + accept cis privilege and stop arguing about catty dumb bs #and don’t ask me for trans rep recommendations either because the whole point is we have scraps of crumbs and most of it is bad #certainly not a lot of the happy fluffy safe and comforting media that we see more and more for the cissises #not su /

[quietwingsinthesky]

having. feelings about “wincesties dni” banners. (Feelings do expand more broadly than this specific ship/situation, but for reference, this is what we’ll work with)

On one level, I do understand the desire to not have your work perceived in a way that makes you uncomfortable or triggers you. That’s a valid boundary to have. I would feel weird if someone came onto one of my gen fics about. uh. who do I write gen for. Jack & Lucifer. And started talking about shipping them in the comments or wherever, when that was explicitly not the point of what I’d written and I did not want to be involved in that conversation, especially if it’s concerning my piece.

So, it does make sense to me to have a disclaimer of “hey, I made this art/fic/etc to portray this dynamic, please do not apply any other to it”. (Like, no, you can’t stop anyone from doing that anyway, but you can make that boundary and that makes whoever ignores it an asshole.)

But on another level, that’s not what the banners say, is it? It’s “wincesties dni”, not “hey this stuff is gen, do not talk about Sam/Dean on it”. It’s “if you are one of the Bad People, do Not touch my post.” Which feels. Idk. You can do whatever you want on the internet, but that does feel kind of presumptuous. Speaking as someone who has written wincest before, who has looked at the show through that lens, the fact that I have done that does not mean I am now unable to perceive it any other way.

Like, bluntly, just because I have dabbled in wincest (or michifer or hell, any ship actually?) does not mean I’ve suddenly lost the ability to look at gen works about the two characters and take it at that. I like gen Sam & Dean content, probably more than I like wincest, but at the same time, I do linger in the space from wincest-adjacent to shipper. so it’s always. Weird. To come across art or fic I adore and then to get slammed with a “wincesties dni” thing at the end. Like, am I too dirtied by association to be allowed to enjoy it? is my sin so great that everything i reblog shall be tainted? am I being a little fucking dramatic about fandom nonsense?

Sorry about all that. I’m just having some thoughts. I want to reblog cute art. That’s all.

#fandom wank #tw incest #for wincest mentions and such #look away dev #spn #when I say this applies to all ships what I mean is like #just because you ship something. that doesn’t mean every time you look at those characters you’re shipping them. right? #you are still capable of enjoying platonic content between those characters! just because you ship something doesn’t blind you #to alternative readings of their dynamic! idk. idk. #and on a personal level returning to my jack & Lucifer example like. okay again. personally. but if someone did ship them #and came to a gen fic I wrote about them. and enjoyed it as a gen fic. left a nice comment. #I’m not going to like. assume they have sinister incest shipper intentions in reading my fic. #like even if they do who gives a shit as long as they don’t blast that at me on a fic I didn’t want that on. but presumably they’re there #the same reason anyone else is. for the platonic aspect of it. #because if they wanted shipping wouldn’t they. you know. go to the ship tag. #but again that’s a personal take. #wincest

[badolmen]

Nothing like facilities closing half the bathrooms in the building to give me gender dysphoria

#ra speaks #personal #it’s fineeeee but also it’s like. the closest bathroom to me/the one I’ve been using now has these big WOMEN ONLY signs like. #like. I get it we have a lot of international students and that separation is important for some of them for cultural/religious purposes. #but ooooohhhhh boyyyyy are we having a gender crisis tonight lads #like bruhhhh I don’t REALLY care the door has always had a women’s plaque on it but like. I’m practically blind to it at this point. #and like I coulda asked to room on the gender neutral floor but also. #I am Physically Disabled and I cannot do lots of stairs if a) elevator is out or b) there’s a fire/emergency #so I choose the gendered first floor and it’s been Fine. #I’m just pitching a fit abt this and mad that it makes me uncomfortable

[imaginmatrix]

People seeing art portraying Annabeth as Black with blonde hair or gray eyes or both and immediately calling her “show Annabeth” is so annoying.

Annabeth being depicted as Black is WAY older than the show, and if she has blonde hair and gray eyes, she’s a book depiction regardless of skin color!!! It’s not that hard!!!!!!

Leah is a perfect Annabeth anyway, but not every depiction of Annabeth as a Black girl is a depiction of LEAH as Annabeth!!!

#morgan murmurs #I’m probably not the best person to talk about this #but I had to fight some people under some fanart that was clearly made before the show was even greenlit or cast #and people were like “show Annabeth bla bla #no that’s Annabeth! #there’s no show Annabeth or book Annabeth there’s just Annabeth #pjo #hell she doesn’t even need to have blonde hair or grary eyes to be Annabeth #or book Annabeth or whatever dumb thing people are calling her #canon is fake there’s no such thing as book Annabeth or show Annabeth or whatever they’re all just Annabeth #I don’t even call my cosplay book Annabeth #I call it “a version of Annabeth that’s appropriate for me to cosplay as a white woman #which granted is a lot wordier #but it’s also a lot more respectful than suggesting book Annabeth can’t look like Leah #begging people to just stop being terrible #I bet you people complaining are the ones who also claim to be color blind or race blind

[keep-her-wild]

#mind keep possessed #let my spirit speak freely #personal #it’s so embarrassing all of the love I seek living inside of me #i can’t see #I’m blind

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Anyone else feel like they’ve been walking around in a lucid dream since they were born?

#Everything always feels magical all the time… not even in a bad way. It feels good being dreamy much of the time #It all feels real but I’ve always felt like I’m floating through it all… like maybe I could wake up if I tried hard enough #Like the veil is thin but in an intriguing way; not a scary one #I could stare at the sky for hours entertained by the clouds and my own visual snow #Walking outside by myself in the rain absolutely does not feel real #But it’s simultaneously the most stimulating thing I can do #I see things like a gritty realism movie where the actors are slightly “off” in their interactions with each other #Like a first person POV in a video game #I know everything is real and I have no doubt I’m real or that everything is real… it’s just that everything always looks so beautiful #all the time #That it makes me feel like I’m high as a kite emotionally #very calm and in love with small details in the world around me #I did some research on psychedelics and how they affect your perceptions and I naturally can get to the level where #things are normal but seem like they’re moving a little when they’re not and feeling euphoric and seeing very vibrant colors #I used to be distressed by it but now everything is just very pretty to me and I kind of like it #I can stare at the blinds on a window and move my eyes over the straight lines and make them ripple

[morningfears]

The fact that I’m going to see 5sos soon doesn’t actually feel real. Like. This doesn’t feel like a thing that’s actually finally going to happen.

#i don’t know if i want to know the set list or go in blind #i wanna be prepared but i also just wanna feel it you know #……i feel like i’m 19 and freaking out over them again lol #(except i’m totally normal now and not nearly as like feral as 19 year old me would have been i’m a normal person who is stoked to see a #band i’ve loved for years finally in concert) #personal post

[dollsuguru]

“better love” by hozier is so suguru-coded omfg (i’m insane and liken everything to suguru no matter what)

#BLIND TO THE PURPOSE OF THE BRUTE DIVINE… #LIKE FIRE WEEPING FROM A CEDAR TREE… KNOW THAT MY LOVE WOULD BURN WITH ME. WE’LL LIVE ETERNALLY. #HOWWWWWWWW DOES ONE EVEN THINK OF THAT??? #i’m looking up song lyrics for a fic name so i’m doing Important Research (listening to songs) AND AHHHHHHHHH #vampire priest geto fic might be named ‘blind to the purpose of the brute divine’ #was gonna use ‘hold your head in deep devotion’ but… whew the other lyric might be better omfg #personal

[time-was-over]

everyone remind me to never try and reason with my mom again

#🕰️ #all she gives a fuck about is blind obedience #i try to say ‘hey i don’t need to do this’ and she proceeds to say ‘i’m going to scream!!! you’re gonna kill yourself because you get so st #essed about school!!!!!’ and i’m just like. okay here’s why i don’t need to. and then she goes ‘but you need to listen to me!!!!!!!!!’ #and then she refuses to speak to me after i give up #when is it my turn to be happy. why is that everyone else my age has friends and is liked by their peers #why am i the only person i fucking know who has parents who do nothing but complain about everything except for white young traditional cat #olics #whatever. whatever whatever whatever whatever #they’ll be sorry one day

[cipher-the-sidhe]

Actually, nothing will radicalize you towards the US health “care” industry quite like trying to navigate it on behalf of a deeply suffering loved one will.

Currently want to burn several buildings to the fucking ground.

#it took them 26 years to find the mass in my brain that’s cause me immense pain #and is blinding me? #fine #but this is making my blood boil #how can a person be expected to just??? #live through the level of pain I’m witnessing #for months at a time? #when the solution is known! and available! #for fucks sake #I’m livid

[ishipmutualrespect]

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#so I just need to scream into the void so please bear with me lol #I watched the short clip of Harry with Ellen when she asked him about Fine Line and about how it was supposedly a break up album #and he just answered OK #so ok if that was a break up album and the next album is Harry’s House #Harry’s House full of love pancakes for 2 love of my live keep driving #who could Harry’s House be about if it wasn’t about Olivia #because we know FOR SURE the songs were writte well before the stunt #so #break up album and right after an album about LOVE but not love for his supposedly girlfriend #so who could it be about? #??? #people are so blind #that’s the same person who wrote IICF at 19 #AT 19 #while he was being sold as the womanizer #people must be blind there’s no other explanation #ok #I’m sorry for this #skfjskfjskdfjskfjskfjskfjak