#it’s probably unhealthy tbh

[figonas]

Am I your dream girl? You think of me in bed but you could never hold me and like me better in your head

Dream Girl Evil by Florence + The Machine

#I don’t think you understand how obsessed I am with this song #it’s probably unhealthy tbh #but do I care?? #no #dream girl evil #dance fever #florence + the machine #florence + the machine edit #dance fever edit #lyric edit

[clingyduoapologist]

On Annabeth Chase and Devotion

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Text credit: Percy Jackson and the Olympians, book and show; Pjo wiki; Peter Xiao - The Role of Athena in the Odyssey; Annabeth - Wikipedia

Art credit: @/viria; @/natyourmuse; Yori Narpati

#pls reblog #oh Annabeth… #gonna vomit tbh I started thinking about Annabeth too much and now my #homework is probably going overdue #BUT YOU JNOW WHAT anything for her #she deserves it #also I love unhealthy devotion btw it’s so hot fr #pjo #Annabeth chase #web weaving #Percy Jackson web weaving #clings writes

[blaqcats-fics]

(He’s) Just a Phase — Part 0

Part 1

It was 1989 when they broke up.

It was quiet. It was quick. It was devastating.

Most of all, Steve knew it was all because of him. If it had been another timeline with drastically different events, Steve was sure that his apartment wouldn’t feel so cold, so empty. In another life, Steve wouldn’t have made the same mistakes, and Steve would be in an apartment that actually felt like home.

That was not a wish that Steve could dream of anymore.

Steve was stuck in an apartment that felt too much like his parents’ house in Hawkins. Nothing in the apartment was his. The apartment held no memories or no warmth. Besides the furniture, one wouldn’t believe that anyone lived there. The apartment was clean — too clean. Cleaning meant that there wouldn’t be a reminder that there used to be something, or rather someone, that caused his heart to beat out of his chest or that caused him to feel safe.

Cleaning merely helped on the surface because underneath it all, Steve knew the truth.

Eddie was gone all because Steve hadn’t been ready.

Steve, now, wasn’t sure he would ever be ready. Even if the breakup left a giant black hole in his chest, the terrifying reality of being out scared the living shit out of him, but despite the terror that courses through his veins at the thought of telling someone, Steve hadn’t been strong enough to tell those closest to them or be proud of their relationship in safe places.

There were things Steve could blame for his hesitation. He surely could blame his parents, specifically his father, but it didn't matter. Steve made Eddie a victim of his insecurities. It didn't matter how patient Eddie had been; Steve would never have been ready for what Eddie wanted.

It wasn't until October of 1993, four years after Eddie left his life, that Steve did an unspeakable act, at least in the eyes of the Party.

Steve signed on to his walkie-talkie, newly bought months prior when his old one started to fall apart, and said his goodbyes. Not forever, but for now.

Robin had tried to show up at his apartment but was met with the sight of the landlord giving a tour of an empty apartment with a door that had an engraving of ‘E+S’ in Eddie’s shaky handwriting.

No one knew where Steve had gone. He had fallen off the grid.

He, however, was just under their noses. It was easy to hide in plain sight when no one had actually seen you in a long time. Sure, phone calls occurred, but life had gone on, and being spread out across the country made it difficult to meet, especially when everyone was an adult working some sort of 9-to-5. At first, not seeing any more made dread curl in Steve’s gut, but now, it was a safety net.

It was best that no one recognized Steve Harrington because he was about to ruin himself to the world, all in order to show Eddie Munson that he loved him more than the universe itself, and he was going to do in the only way that Eddie would listen, and that was with a busted guitar from the thrift store and mediocre voice.

All that Steve had to worry about was how Eddie was going to hear him from the top. After all, just a year after their break up, Corroded Coffin made it big.

#Steve fucked up but he's trying even know it's in an unhealthy and self destructive way #Steve would ruin his life for Eddie #and he attempts to #Theres probably going to be a lot of angst ngl #it gets worse before it gets better #Steve needs a hug more than Eddie does tbh #I have no idea where I'm going with this so bare with me #blaqcats fics #stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley #st4 #steve x eddie #steveddie #steddie fic #steddie ficlet #musician steve harrington #rockstar eddie munson #this is just like a prologue #it's gonna be a lot of words

[but-the-library-of-alexandria]

in 2024 I wanna stop hearing about betterhelp

#elise's posts #SO many youtubers etc I like are promoting this shit #fyi for those who don't know it's a REALLY unethical business trying to take advantage of the mentally ill #and before you say 'but how else am I meant to find a therapist that does online sessions' #post-pandemic most therapists offer this #and if you want the whole 'I can text my therapist for therapy anytime 24/7' thing... #sorry I know it might sound useful but it's SUPER bad for both your own mental health and your therapist's #sorry but therapists are not meant to be there for you 24/7 #that's not their job and it's really unhelpful for YOU to become dependant on a 24/7 therapist #betterhelp do not vet their therapists thoroughly #and some people say they have been evangelised to on betterhelp by preachers who ask the algorithm to assign them queer and atheist clients #many reputable therapists state that it's a terrible business model promoting unhealthy practices to patients #it claims to be the cheapest option but it's more expensive than the most expensive therapist I've ever had (I'm in the UK) #and significantly more expensive than the cheapest who was still good and probably more qualified than some people on betterhelp #you pay extra for the middleman #(being allocated a therapist you didn't choose and vet yourself isn't great anyway imo surely you want agency in this huge decision?) #and I'm sorry but pride counselling is a branch of the same company #please just look for therapists that specialise in your needs through a regulatory model and get in touch with them directly #not all of them have waitlists and tbh if every therapist on betterhelp is available whenever what does that say about them

[cosmobrain00]

fics tht feel like they need a fandom of their own >>>>

#heartbreaking when u just have to scream abt it in the confines of ur own head tho</3 #all I know is tht im gonna be so depressed when I finish this series AGAIN like wht do I do now. no other series in the [REDACTED] fandom- #-scratches my brain as much as this one #evrything is just SOOOO. god. evrything I want n love in a fic #is stuffed into this series I mean this so srsly the amount of love I have for it is probably unhealthy tbh

[ghostbeam]

I have a question: do u guys have any fics that u feel like the reader and whatever character u were writing for don’t end up together after the fic is over🎤🎤🎤

#and like not as in the fic ends with the implication that they’re unhappy/on the verge of a break up/already broken up #I mean like they got the happily ever after/the confession #but after that u feel like maybe things could go south #does that make sense?? is this a stupid question?? #I know everyone’s probably gonna be like ummmm no no one breaks up #WJJSJSJSJSSJSJJD #but I was just thinking about sicfyttw #and I feel like Dabi and reader break up later #I think it gets real toxic and unhealthy #and both of them realize they only really liked the idea of each other #and they’re not actually compatible and then they break up #but idk later on if I say they are in love forever and ever then ignore this post #but that’s how I feel right NOW #anyways sorry for asking dumb questions I am just curious tbh #ghost thoughts

[parisonlygirl]

silly moustache man

help i can’t stop thinking about this idiot with a moustache

#peter wyngarde #jason king #department s #60s tv shows #60s #60s tv #70s #70s tv #i actually love peter wyngarde so much it’s so unhealthy and like no one knows who he is and i URGHHH #like i like him being my little underground boy but if i could scream and shout about him with someone that would be nice #and he deserves recognition #but like everything you read about him online is wrong tbh so anyone who has “researched” him is probably wrong lol #silly little guy #my silly little moustache man

[rainswept]

working on something that will probably never see the light of day.. BUT IT LOOKS SO NICE i’m so sad.

#HSR is such a comfort for me i’m going to be honest #especially with huohuo being added? #like idk it’s just. giving me nostalgia to when i first started really getting into genshin #because the first character i ever wanted was hu tao #and they’re both.. spooky yk #augh.. i am so sad tonight for like no reason #i think i should just go to bed tbh that’s probably the issue #if anyone’s curious it’s a HSR network. because. i can’t help myself. but i am trying to help myself bc i already have st pavlov foundation #and the steambird (which isn’t a network but still) and i really… do not….. need to make another network…….. but i really want to #it’s something almost innate for me. every time i’d ever play a game with like #groups or guilds or clubs or whatever #any sort of thing like that #i would aaaaaalways make one. and i would have so much fun w it too. #it’s bled over into my tumblr life helppp #it was always a little bit unhealthy though. #like i would get SO invested into it that it would like. cause me stress. #which like.. isn’t good. #but i haven’t seen any purely HSR networks except for like 2 inactive ones and… #someone stop me actually. it’s the middle of the night. the sun is gonna come up soon. i need to sleep. not make choices. #i’m just gonna embarrass myself bye #especially if i keep rambling in the fucking TAGS ok i’m shutting up now #sorry followers/moots #byebye #me talking to myself like “see .. u literally have this in ur drafts rn.. u could just delete it” but then i go “but i already spent #x amount of time rambling and ppl could just like.. skip over this if they want to so why does it matter” #haha x amount of time. like x from the game reverse 1999 #stop i’m so tired goodbye I’M SO SORRY

[stamour]

love (unintentionally) views sex as transactional but the only thing they get out of it is (perceived) validation for making their partners feel good lol

#usfw / #︵ ♡ 𝗠𝗨𝗦 ﹕ headcanons ꒱ .ᐟ #i say perceived bc it's like. very shallow. like bby ur self worth should nawt be measured by how good u are in bed #sadly what love learned from being in the entertainment industry for so long is that sex is the fastest way to get someone to like u #yet it's usually very surface level. they've had a lot of fwb type situations bc they're lonely n like #'give them the best sex of their life n they'll want to be around me more' #ofc this is a sex positive household!! but love's approach is very unhealthy and that needs to be acknowledged as well #most of her self esteem relies on her own objectification #random hc i have is that the number of times love's made someone else finish vs the number of times they have is... very imbalanced #bc they dont really care about their own pleasure they get that from tallying up the other person's organism lmaooo #i also half joke that love's one flaw is that he'd cry after sex but it's also partly true IF #he has an emotional connection with the other person first. and comes to the realization that it's about that connection n unity #and suddenly it's different than all the other experience love has had. it'd be overwhelming #and may take a bit for them to get comfortable tbh #idk why i started rambling about this LOL it's just been in my head for the past couple of days #love makes me sad. she's surrounded by love and yet feels like there's a huge part missing #bc sure fans love her. her family loves her. but she DOES want romantic connection as well #and i think that's valid and okay #will i let it happen tho? probably not ehehe

[nyxi-pixie]

mike wheeler the type of bitch to cry if someone tells him to eat an unsliced apple

will byers the type of bitch to cry.

#SORRY WILL💀💀💀 #anyway i am mike picky eater truther. #this man refused to eat waffles unless they were cut into fun shapes until the age of 10 #will would bring it up to bully him but then mike would pull out his ammo of will #that ammo being the time will cried bc he only has one toy dinsosaur and what if it gets lonely #they have an unsteady treaty of dont bring embarrassing shit up from childhood bc it will end in humiliation for both of them #alliance by mutually assured destruction so true #anyway the fact that they do probably have so much blackmail material over each other #bc theyve known each other so long #byler #im just constantly thinking abt them tbh it might be unhealthy

[tdalejandro]

they gave heather and sierra sooo much yuri potential in the first few episodes of world tour and then they ruined it because the writers hate to see socially inept girl bosses winning. they gave us the girlfriends scene but at what cost…

NO BC THEY LITERALLY DID!!!!!! Episode 1 Heather WILLINGLY teams up with Sierra in the first challenge and everything literally falls from there. But the writers KNEW they would be too powerful if they stayed together like that so literally in the middle of the season they barely interact and it sucks BOOTY! It doesn't start picking back up until like the Australia episode I think and tbh, that's like the best part. They literally gave us Rapa Fruity... But yes they has so much potential to be a powerful duo in early tdwt but THEY DIDNT!!! BOOO!!! THIS SHOW IS YURIPHOBIC!!!!

#ask #anon #i love heatherra so fucking much its probably unhealthy tbh #but also i have an unhealthy relationship with td

[disastercit]

idk what even happened with cc because i was so obsessed with it around summer 2019, i was screaming crying throwing up (not literally) every time an episode came out, staying up until 7 am reading dadvid fanfiction, buying merch, talking pretty much only about camp camp every day. once that was over i figured “aw babys first hyperfixation” but NO because that literally never happened again and i have been comparatively VERY normal about every show i watched afterwards

#i would get sad thinking about how i wasnt my camp camp oc it was probably unhealthy tbh #would the brainrot come back if another season dropped or was i just 14 and bored #literally wanted to go to a summer camp bc of the show but then several years passed and im not even an eligible age anymore lmao

[resignedseraph]

If I ever get a perception of my mom that’s stable and not conflicting with another very different perception of her, that’ll be the day

#Like. She’s a good woman. She’s definitely a good woman. She’s also got a problem with sharing her personal fears which may or may not #actually line up with the facts of things (she’s not delusional this is just regular but serious misunderstandings) #and those map onto *me* and make it hard for *me* to tell the severity and seriousness of things #She’s willing to do a lot to try to be a good mom but sometimes that’s been to an unhealthy extent and I still end up triggered by that #but in the end of the day I end up reconciling with her (not in an unhealthy way just in a very complicated way) #Yet I still get impacted by her issues affecting me and my issues (partially caused by her) affecting her (which then affects me again) #something something cycle of anxiety idfk #It’s a fucking mess #and compartmentalization is how I get by. Is it the dissociative disorder? Probably tbh #so if I ever get a stable concept of her…. That’ll be the day. That’s what I mean #esrah talks #mother mention #family chronicles

[mira--mira]

Life lessons I have not learned but know I need to: Not everyone obsesses over agreements and responsibilities like I do to the point of ‘forgetting I agreed to something’ has only been something I’ve done a handful of times in my life. This is extremely exacerbated when it comes to agreeing to do things for other people even for the most mundane things. Most people in fact just forget things.

#it's bordering on unhealthy for me tbh #like even if I don't have a hard deadline the things I've agreed to do for other people haunt me until I complete them #I cannot forget nor give up on them #so when others who've agreed to do things for me laugh it off with 'I forgot' I just stare at them like 😐 #I know this is probably the truth but I am so physically incapable of it I think they're saying 'fuck you I just don't want to do it' #when that is most likely not the case #but I want to scream because how can you forget??? #you agreed! #and I just end up anxious and debating whether or not to keep sending emails and messaging like... #deadlines passed why don't I have the thing #the thing you agreed to do for me #if you're not going to do it TELL ME #this is about work stuff #but you can imagine it also made me looove group projects in school #I was a perfectionist overachiever who did everyone's work because I knew they would disappoint me #went to school say no one had done anything they'd said they'd do so just pulled out my folder so I wouldn't get fucked over bc of them #both in primary and uni: which is sadder I ask?

[videnoirs]

maybe i should stop doubting myself all the fucking time.

#growing up with a learning disability + failing school as a whole (i have a Fake Diploma) creates this unhealthy cycle #of boxing myself in for my own safety #failure burns so bad and it almost kills me every time i try something and realize i can’t do it #i’m so scared and exhausted all the time. #the difference though? school holds you to a specific standard- so does capitalism #you can’t learn at your own pace. ever #i’m free to do that now. it’s so hard to remember that tbh #this should probably go on my nonexistent internal dialogue blog. it’s not though lol #my blog will be my personal diary on occasion and y’all can cope /affectionate

[near-seth-experience]

Thinking about how my ideal dynamic for a relationship is one in which we are of the same standing from a social perspective. Like, I have no IRL friends, and I'm trying to break away from some toxic family. I have nobody I want to introduce a partner to, and likewise I wouldn't want to end up getting awkwardly thrust into a partner's family or group of friends because it'd just make me anxious and raise my guard the entire time. It might be cold to say out loud, but I just doubt I'd be able to bring myself to care for those extra people. I'd rather have a partner who is in a similar situation to me where we can just support each other in an "us against the world" kinda thing. I hated being on the receiving end of this next thing, but in all honesty, I would probably be the "he hasn't talked to me ever since he got a relationship" person. I feel like I'm just built in such a way that I want to devote myself solely to one special person, and once I find that person, I feel like others are gonna matter significantly less to me. Idk. Sounds harsh, but idk.

#sethposting #this is probably considered unhealthy tbh #maybe even something like obsessive or yandere even #or just otherwise red-flaggy #oh well