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solar-ships · 4 months

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🎀 and 🌻for the OC F/O Ask game

Thank you so much for the ask!

🎀 - What kind of relationship do you and your F/O have? What's your overall dynamic within their universe?

Ianto and I are still kind of finding our feet. Ever since I created him, we've sort of had a... love-hate relationship, because I speak with utmost affection when I say that this man is a mess. He's done a lot of harm in his canon, and wasn't the easiest person to deal with as his writer, but something happened to me in March that led to me finding a lot of comfort in him, aaaand I think we've kind of been catching feelings since? We're not putting a label on it so far. For the general dynamic... we're pretty similar, personality-wise, which can lead to butting heads, but at this point, it's more playful bickering than anyone, and also makes me low-key melt because I know Ianto prefers to sweet-talk people unless he really likes them/feels like they're close. Romantic tension off the charts and lots of casual physical affection. Gods, he's so... *hides my face in my hands*

Ava and I are the sort of couple that finish each others' sentences. Despite being a few years older than me, it almost feels like your classic teenage romance - she's fun, she's just fun, excitable and adventurous in a way that I'm not, but I let her drag me along. I think we're probably menaces to the people around us, low-key enabling each others' chaos, with constant banter and PDA (she's a cat - if my lap is free, it's her seat now).

I would describe my relationship with Knows-The-Skies as queerplatonic, I think? We're definitely more than friends, but I wouldn't say we're romantic (though I wouldn't mind that, tbh...). Been very close for a very long time, and have managed to become very emotionally attuned to each other. We've got the same fascination with history and the natural world, so a lot of our bonding is through fact-sharing, showing off pretty rocks or interesting bugs we found, or exploring some new area together... and also, she's super touch starved and kind of uses me as a cure for that. It's very soft, patient and kind of understated. I really like it <3

🌻 - If you're in a romantic relationship, what type of partner is your F/O?

I mean... I have to be frank, Ianto is kind of a bad one? Just judging by how he treats his canon love interest. It's the main reason we haven't gotten together earlier. He rarely falls in love, but when he does, it's hard and fast, and it's hard for him to fall out of it again. However, he struggles to maintain them. No matter how much he may like a person, the thrill will eventually wear off, and he'll become distant, turning his focus more towards himself and his other flings (he doesn't do closed relationships). It's not something he likes about himself. However, when you do have him... oh, it's divine. It's like something out of a romance novel. He's almost worshipful towards his partners - red wine, chocolates and cherries, ballroom dancing in ancient palaces or slow dancing in dark kitchens, walks in gardens and rose bouquets, long mornings in bed where he insists that he doesn't care if he's late to work, the kingdom can crumble for all he cares, this is far more important. If I have to describe him as a partner in one word, it's passionate.

Ava tries so hard to be this hot, punk, queer heartbreaker whose attitude towards relationships is so very casual, and it's true that she does like flings and FWB relationships... but she's also got a tendency to fall so hard she can't sleep because she's too busy thinking about them and it's honestly kinda frustrating. If I have to describe her as a partner in one word, it's adventurous. She will climb a window at 5AM to wake her darling up and take them on an urban-ex date. She'll write their names in grafitti or push them to go swimming in the nearby lake after two drinks, just so she can see them in swimwear, all while teasing and complimenting them in the same breath, her love evident every time she looks at them. It can be a bit intense, but it can also be the time of your life.

Knows-The-Skies has some... issues with intimacy. First as a wanted woman, then as a vampire, always as a wanderer, she's very, very aware of how proximity to her could lead to other people getting into danger. Even though she's pretty social by nature, she likes to stay clear of others to try to keep them safe. She needs someone who's even more stubborn than she is, someone she can really feel like she can trust and rely on. If you manage to get her to that point, though? She's ride or die, she'll never let you go. Slowburn that will most likely end in a marriage. If I have to describe her as a partner in one word, it's devoted.

#oc f/os

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yihrae · 4 months

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2/1/24

I went to JB with a group of friends today. I had a BLAST this one is a solid contender for one of the best if not the best days of my life!! It started from me being unable to fall asleep until around 5am (we were meeting at 9am) and then sending a message begging someone to call me to make sure I awoke. Luckily I did. Honestly don't know I dragged myself out but I managed. Seven of us met at Toast Box at Hillview while the other three met at Causeway point. I had an Amy Yip pau for breakfast which is GARGANTUAN. You can't really see it in the picture but it's around the size of two palms placed together.

We rented a driver and a van for the day. The van picked the Hillview group first and then united all of us at Causeway point. Then we headed to the checkpoint! There was a slight jam so we were in the van for quite some time but god bless Zheng Long because he brought a speaker (and shades) so we had a small party. Even though I was on 2 hours and 45 minutes of sleep I think the music AWOKE me or something idk. I was very energetic for the songs I knew and liked at least. Setlist include Taylor swift and other 2000s throwbacks like Poker Face, I Gotta Feeling, On The Floor and various others.

We started off with the Mok Mok cafe. It was quite a pretty place and was honestly quite relaxing. I wasn't very hungry because of that pau I had earlier so I only ordered a drink. Celeste went off to take a couple pictures and Chris assisted her. Mostly small talk and trying food. My drink was okay. Zheng Long told me to eat the dried pineapple on the side of my drink. I'm going to be honest I'm not sure if it was edible nor if it was supposed to be eaten but whatever I just dipped it in my drink and had a go.

Afterwards we headed to Teppan place (was that what it was called?) We did a lil shopping and then headed to this theme park. It had all sorts of things. There was this slide that I burned my back going down because of the friction. There was also a little trampoline park. The highlight was probably the bumper bubble soccer section. Two people would be encased within these plastic bubbles and play football against each other. It was quite hilarious seeing everyone get knocked over. Sometimes it a male vs a female which wasn't really fair because the male is heavier but I suppose friendly bullying has its comedic value too HAHAHA.

We finished up, got Chagee and headed back into the van. Every time we went back to the van we played music. I'm not going to lie being in the van was probably my favourite part of the trip. Something about good music and good company in a van and listening and vibing together is something very, very special. We got off at Midvalley just as the best part of my song request "About You" was going to play :(

I spent the first half of Midvalley with Celeste, Zheng Long and Vann speed-walking around. Celeste and Vann did a bit of shopping while Zheng Long and I walked and talked about an assortment of things ranging from life to the shops we saw in the malls. Zheng Long had to eventually go off to find Eliora so I was left waiting for both of them. We shopped a bit more before linking up with everyone else where we eventually headed for hotpot.

Hotpot was pleasant. I sat with Celeste, Vann and Leon and the four of us shared various platters of Cod, pork, chicken, mushrooms and other assorted vegetables. It was great! I mean hotpot is always great but this one felt very relaxed and very natural.

There was one moment in particular that I shall now recount:

*Rapheal says he wants to go ask the waiter for something* Vann: "Ralph while you're at it could you ask the waiter for a new straw too? Mine is broken." *Rapheal glances at the Straw* Rapheal: "I think the straw is supposed to bend bro." *laughter erupts* Vann: "No as in it's got a HOLE in it." Leon: "Of course it's got a hole how else will you drink from the straw"

I'm sorry this moment was just so funny to me. Also Chris and Rapheal were having some romantic date I have no idea what that was about HAHAHA

There were several other highlights of the day: Bonding with Celeste over Taylor Swift and other music, having an insightful talk with Leon and Zheng Long over going to the U.S. and doing what makes me happy, getting to know everyone just a bit better in general. Oh YEAH WAIT lemme recap another moment:

For context: The van has 3 three rows of 3 seats. The 10th person sits in the front with the driver. Zheng Long and Eliora (a couple) sat at the back with one other person. Near the start of the trip it was me sitting with them but afterwards I said I don't want to anymore. So Sudikshaa took my place.

Sudikshaa: "Now I finally understand why Alex doesn't wanna sit at the back" (in the context of her being single and the Zheng Long and Eliora couple sitting next to her) Someone else: "It's okay Sudikshaa someday we will go on this trip and all of us will bring +1s" *moments later Cupid by FIFTY FIFTY plays* As the chorus plays, where the line "I'm feeling lonely" is sang. I shout the line, turn around my seat and point at Sudikshaa as I say the word "lonely" HAHAHAH DONT ASK ME WHY I DID THAT I swear I don't usually do it but it felt so apt at that moment that I just had to do it. Anyway Sudikshaa said afterwards I need to watch out or she'll become my #1 hater.

ANYWAY in summary it was an extremely enjoyable trip. I must thank Chris for settling and administrative side of things and everyone else for coming and making this very very memorable!! <3

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marcholasmoth · 10 months

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OSRR: 3261

i slept in today. it was really nice and also very much needed.

when i finally woke up around 1:30, i showered and i shaved my legs so i can feel okay wearing dresses this week. i also folded and sorted my laundry, and i packed together five outfits for work for the week. lots of pink and lots of flowers.

i talked to my momma for a bit, and i helped her clean up the entry a little before i left. i stopped at walmart on my way back to joel's so i could get the kind of deodorant i like, and i also got folders for joel and food for me for breakfast and lunches for as much of the week as i can manage. it was less to get it there than it is to get breakfast and lunch for two days; i spent a little under $30 for it when daily food runs me about $20 if i get it on the way. all i'll need is to get ice for my cup twice a day, which will be just fine since i have so much time anyway. i might just bring both of my insulated cups with me and fill them both with ice to start and put water in one at a time. i think that's an entertaining and good idea. i'll do it.

anyway, i stopped at the bank to deposit cash and i stopped at mcnaldos for dinner and i got back to joel's. joel and his parents arrived shortly after i did, so joel and i went downstairs. he painted and i played some games while we listened to an album, and once that was finished i turned on the tv and finished watching the legend of korra. i can't wait to read the comics. joel said he's got them - my hope is to begin reading them this week if i can.

anyway, it's bedtime now because 5am comes soon. also i have my car again and can drive myself places. it's nice. i was able to keep my right eye open almost all day yesterday and today, even though "open" is about half of what the other eye is. that kinda sucks, but i'm fine. i'm good, actually. happy, tired. can sleep on my left, though, so no more heartburn. i can't wait until i can get new glasses.

#molly rambles #operation srr #osrr #3000s #3200s #sunshine boy

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theilustrado · 3 years

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Hello Everyone. This is theilustrado, aka Franchesca, a Filipino study and personal blogger based in Texas. Today, I want to share something with everyone.

I finished my 1-year clinical pharmacy program in UIC-Davao. 6 years after passing the Pharmacy board exam and just entirely working in Texas, I was given the opportunity to study clinical pharmacy remotely. Which all of you here on tumblr world knows already.

Nandito parin ako sa Texas pero yung classes ko ay Philippine time. I go to school at 7PM-5AM and then pahinga konti then go to work at 9AM to 7PM as a pharmacy technician turned to Pharmacy Operations Manager (Since I got promoted 3 months ago). That is Including commute and prep time.

Let me just share with you the greatest things I learned working Full time & studying Full time at the same:

You are not alone in this battle. I also have classmates from the USA with full-time jobs, are full-time moms, and wives, and no doubt that there are a lot of ways to get yourself motivated and not fall behind. You share your struggles together. For me, One thing I did was to create a studygram (@studywithfranchesca on IG). That was a way for me to remind myself to do good both in school and work and be with people with the same goals

Going back to school made me realize I want to teach pharmacy. But of course, I know I can't. In some way, I feel like there is lacking. Not the passion, but the knowledge itself (or should I say, maybe I feel like I can’t deliver). I have posted a sample of my slides during my clinical pharmacy classes which you can see below. I think there's should be an easy way to discuss pathophysiology/pharmacology through visually pleasing presentations, perfect analogies, partnered with relevant animations, and confidence to deliver. I've never done it before pero na-enjoy ko talaga ito. This was an avenue for me to show my creativity (since I'm a frustrated artist Lol). The only problem is, it takes time to finish this. I guess it worked out in the end. But without having to go back to school most especially being with UIC, I won't be able to discover this passion and interest.

(My favorite subjects to create a presentation: Pathophysiology and also pharmacology). - Made a report on Lipid-lowering drugs (Ft. MOA of bile acid sequestrants) and the 2nd picture is the Patho of DM.

Don't be too hard on yourself and your SUPPORT SYSTEM will play a big role in your life's success. Yung frustration to be excellent in both aspects of my life (work and school) is always there. Pero you can only do so much. Ang daming expectations and sometimes I fall short in life (Which I feel allt the time). BUT, remember, our best isn't always consistent. And that’s OKAY!

I learned that you can create a strong bond despite the difference in time, distance, weather, and personal battles -- even if you met virtually. My classmates are from Davao, South and North Cotabato, Cagayan De Oro, Bukidnon, Albay, Manila to Las Vegas, California, New york, Hawaii, Indiana. Ang saya diba. Pwede na kami mag-tour sa iba't-ibang places. And because of that, we have also made a connection almost around the world. 1-year lang kami nagkasama-sama at nagkakilala pero I felt like you've known each other for so long. Section A, Hulog ng langit, the best.

Salamat UIC-DAVAO! Salamat sa mga professors, salamat sa aking support system (Tito Aboy, Mommy, and Franchette at siyempre kay Conor na sobrang nagtiis at talaga namang nakasuporta). I don't think I can finish this course without them.

I know I'm probably dramatic posting this 1 year lang naman tinapos ko.. But hey! we celebrate big or small victories in life. It's time to be proud of yourself. Online learning isn't easy. This is a special moment for me because I finished school 8,000 miles away from the Philippines, 14 hours time difference, during a pandemic while working in the front lines. This is something you overcome by being mentally, physically, and spiritually strong. Kaya naman, sa lahat din ng estudyanteng nawalan ng wifi, kuryente, self-motivation, or tiwala sa sarili na nakapagtapos ngayong taon while fighting pandemic, Congratulations!

Franchesca Grepo, RPh, CPhT BS Pharm major in Clinical Pharmacy Best in Pharmaceutical Care University of the Immaculate Conception Davao City

PS: Sorry, for now, I won't "break page". thank you for reading until the end. Hehe, thank you to everyone who supported me since the beginning of my clinical pharmacy journey You've seen how I struggled, adjusted, and am close to losing myself especially with stress and lack of sleep. Thank you for your kind words and words of encouragement.

#clinical #school

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itsjustmyfantasyroom · 4 years

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I’ am not my father

Warnings: Mad Barba, slight touch on smut.

Enjoy x

"SVU ever brings me a case like this again and you can find some other ADA to fight it" Rafael all but yelled at you and Liv as you walked into his office.

"Come on Rafael, it was air tight" Liv snapped back.

"Air tight? If this case was so air tight it wouldn't have ended in a not guilty. You both let your emotions get in the way and clouded your judgement. I am not putting my job on the line anymore" he snarled back

Liv threw her hands up and shock her head.

"You are out of line Rafi, that's not fair" you said back. He glared at you.

"What's not fair is me losing my job over this. That's not fair because you acted like the emotional little girl that you are"

Your eyes opened wide with shock. Rafael felt regret as soon as those words left his mouth but he couldn’t take them back now.

"Come on Rafael, that's not nice" Liv spoke back.

"You both need to get out, now" Liv turned and walked out, you stood there staring at him.

"Are you deaf as well now? Get out NOW" you turned on your heels walked out and slammed the door shut.

"Good luck with THAT this afternoon Carmen" she didn't know what to say and you left to catch up with Liv.

On your way back to the station in the car, it was silent. Rafael had never spoke to you like that before, ever. You felt so mad and you were trying to keep the tears from falling.

"Are you ok?" Liv asked as she turned off the car

"I will be, Thanks Liv" a small tight smile coming to your face.

You both walked into the bullpen to everyone at their desks. Their heads turned to look at you as soon as you walked through the doors.

"How did it go?" Fin asked leaning back in his car.

"Not guilty" you answered back

"No way" Nick threw his pen down on his desk.

"Ah yeah, Barba isn't happy with us at all" Liv sighed.

----

It was your day to go to your place to check on everything and get more cloths before going back to Rafael's. But after the way he spoke to you today, you decided to stay home and order in.

You hadn't heard from him so you didn't bother reaching out. You and Nick were working the night shift the next night so you didn't go to bed early, you stayed up to catch up on some shows you had recorded.

It was 12.30 am when your phone started to ring, it was Sonny,

"Hey Sonny everything ok?"

"Ah hey, no not really, Amanda is on her way to pick you up, she will be there in 5 minutes, meet her down stairs please"

"What's going on?"

“She will fill you in" and he hung up.

You jumped up, ran and changed your track pants to jeans, you left on the navy t shirt you had on, put on a strapless bra, tied your hair in a low lose pony, put on socks and runners. You put your phone in your back pocket, and your badge and key's in your front pocket grabbed your wallet and went down stairs. Just as you walked out on the street Amanda pulled up and you jumped in.

"What the hell is going on?" you looked over at her in the drivers seat.

"Sonny and I decided to have a drink after our midnight shift, we walked into Florini's and seen Barba at the bar. He has had a LOT to drink. He wouldn't leave with us, He just kept saying I'm not my father, so we called you"

"You should have left him there" you rolled your eyes looking forward to the road.

She looked at you funny raising one eye brow at you, so you told her what happened.

"I' am sure he didn't mean it" Amanda said softly.

"He meant it, don't you worry about that" you spat back.

Amanda managed to get a park outside the bar, and you got out and walked in with Amanda behind you. There weren't many people so you saw Sonny and Rafael sitting at the bar straight away. Sonny looked up and gave you a small half smile, he got off the bar stool and walked over to you and put his hand on your shoulder giving it a light squeeze,

"Go easy Y/N, he is really sorry"

"He's drunk, he doesn't know what he is"

You walked over to Rafael, he hadn’t notice you yet. The bar tender had just poured him another drink.

"Don't you think he's had enough? Can I have the bill please" he sculled down his drink not even looking at you.

"Give me your wallet" you snapped at him

He missed putting his hand in his pocket 3 times, then he got it and handed it to you. You pulled out his card and paid the tab. You grabbed his case and jacket and handed it to Amanda

"We are taking you home, let's go"

He still hadn’t spoken to you. Rafael stood up putting his arm around your shoulders, you put your arm around his waist and you walked him out to Amanda's car. Sonny opened the door and he got in, looking like Bambi on ice. You went around the other side and got in the car.

"Yours or His?" Amanda looked at you through the review mirror.

"His" You huffed back.

Before to long you were back at his place. Amanda and Sonny helped you take him upstairs. You took the keys from his pocket and unlocked the door. This was the most silent he had ever been.

"Thanks guys I got it from here. See you tomorrow" they both waved and left.

You lent him up against the wall just inside the door, you got on your knees and took his shoes off. He was so out of it you could control his body. You pulled him off the wall and walked him to the bed room and turned on the light. He stood in front of you still not saying a word. You undone his tie and took it off and then undone his vest and took that off too. You pulled his arm and led him to the bed, you pulled down the blankets and sat him down, and he laid down staring into space. You pulled the blankets up and turned to walk away, when he grabbed your hand.

"I'm not like my father"

You pulled your hand out of his, walked and turned the light off and shut the door. You slept on the couch.

Sleep was too far away all night. You messaged Carmen from your phone and told her Rafael would be in, in the afternoon, something came up. You didn't have to be at work till 4 that afternoon, so you tried and tried to fall asleep, but it wasn't happening. Finally at 5am you drifted off to sleep.

****

"Bang" you woke up with a fright, you sat up and looked around you and seen on the wall clock it was 9.30 am, you heard the water run so you turned towards the kitchen, there was Rafael looking like a mess, hair everywhere, still in the same cloths, having a drink of water.

You both didn't say anything. You sat up, folded up the blanket you used, put your shoes on and headed to the front door without a word. You had seen him awake, he was fine so you could leave.

"Wait, where are you going?"

"Home, your awake and fine I can leave now" he ran after you and grabbed your arm.

"No please don't go" you looked down at the floor. "Give me 10 minutes to shower, please. I have some explaining to do"

You pulled out of his grip and walked into the kitchen to make some toast and coffee for yourself while he had a shower.

You were sitting at the dining room table, with your coffee cup resting on your bottom lip looking into no where. You guys had been together for a while now, but this was the first really serious fight you guys had.

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Rafael stood in the shower and let the water run over him and flashes of what happened came running back. Yes he was upset about the case, the DA wasn't happy, but he didn't cop it has much as he thought. But to say what he said to you, what a horrible thing to say. Age never mattered to you, and you always put people in their place when it was brought up. So why did he say that. He sounded like his father, and that's what drove him to drink that much. He couldn't have that, acting like his Dad, he prided himself to act the complete opposite. What he said would have pushed you away, he knew that. But he loved you way too much to let you go.

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He walked out in a pair of dress pants and a white under shirt, his suspenders hanging down around him. He knew you messaged Camera, because when he woke up he had a message from her asking him what case files he needed when he came in that afternoon. He remembered you had over night that night, so he had time to try and make this better.

He seen you sitting at the table holding your coffee mug, with a tear rolling down your cheek.

"Please don't cry Hermosa" as he sat down on the chair opposite you. You wiped the tear away with the back of your hand.

"Say what you need to say, so I can go home" You looked down at the table

"I'm so sorry Mi Hermosa. I never should have said what I said. You’re not that at all, you’re an amazing person and I love you. And I'm sorry about last night. Treating you the way I did- I’m ashamed. I sounded like my father. I ran away and drank stupid instead of trying to fix it. I 'am not going to be like him"

You snapped your eyes off the table and looked at Rafael’s face, it was filled with sadness and his eyes were damp with tears.

"I didn't like what you said to me, I'm not some emotional little girl, I’ am a strong grown ass women. I understand you were mad, but if you’re going to start treating me like that and speaking to me like that after cases, I can't work with you anymore. I'll be off cases that involve you or we break up, we can't do both if it's going to be like this"

Tears ran down Rafael’s cheeks. He knew he over stepped.

"You are strong, one of the strongest I know. I love you and I love working with you. You’re an amazing detective, I don't want any of that to happen. I want to grow old with you"

"You can't walk around and say nasty things like that to me and not expect me to be upset or mad or react. You took your anger out on me in one of the nastiest way you could have. You knew saying that would push the right buttons, that's not you Rafi, you’re not that person"

You got up, walked into the kitchen and washed up your mug and plate so you could leave. You were washing up with tears running down your face and Rafael was sitting at the table with his head in his hands, his big tears landing on the table.

You finished quickly and headed to the front door, before you knew it Rafael grabbed you from behind wrapping his arms around your middle and pulled you into him, resting his head on your back.

"Please don't go" you could feel his wet face through your t shirt.

You spun around in his grip and faced him, his eyes were blood shot and filled with tears.

"I' am not my father"

"No you’re not. You are Rafael Barba, the most amazing ADA in Manhattan, if not New York. Your smart, kind, sassy, extremely sexy and have the best suspenders collection in the whole of the USA-"

You both giggled through your tears. You reached up to cup his face with both hands, rubbing your thumbs over his cheeks.

"And you’re my boyfriend. I love you Rafi. Couples fight and that's fine, but nasty things like that being said just to hurt the other person, we can't be doing that"

"I’ am so so sorry Hermosa, I never want to risk losing you. If I ever lost you I would be losing my soul mate, please forgive me?"

You pulled his face towards you and kissed him lightly on the lips. You could feel his tongue running along your bottom lip so you opened your mouth slightly and moved your head so he could deepen his kiss.

His hands were resting on your hips, he pushed you up against the wall. You wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him even closer. Rafael slid his hands up your shirt to your bra back and undone it, pulled it out and threw it on the floor, he grabbed the hem of your t shirt and pulled it up over your head. Only breaking the kiss when it slipped over your face. He landed back on your lips again, then started to kiss down your neck, you grabbed the hem of his under shirt and pulled it up over him.

He continued to kiss all over your neck and around your collar bone. He ran his hands down your sides to the waist of your jeans then around to the button and he undone it, he slid both of his hands down the back and grabbed your ass in each hand. You could feel him hardening up against you.

He pulled away and looked in yours eyes,

"I will love you as long as I live”

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