#its fun to read the times when theyre still friends in the past because that makes their dynamic in the present sadder <3

[bunniebi]

Seven @ the diner (+ my mc)

#this flashback story is soo cute i think! #its fun to read the times when theyre still friends in the past because that makes their dynamic in the present sadder <3 #sevens hair is shorter than i think its in the present bc theyre high schoolers... #infamous if #seven lawless #infamous #infamous art #digital art #infamous oc #oc - evan medina #look the perspective doesnt make sense everywhere so dont think about it <3

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops. #and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can! #and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here: #barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time. #barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done. #and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies. #and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them) #and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances'' #from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

[literalite]

mistki's the land is inhospitable and so are we (2023)!! as edits featuring mine and some of my friends ocs 😁 had a lot of fun with this project... rough explainer of how/why each song corresponds to each character/s under the cut because i love symbolism and talking! sorry it is long

bug like an angel - sapphire

without spoiling too much of her story and arc... sapphire's life is not easy. she's hurt by people she cares for and who care for her, although inadvertently, and in turn hurts people who she cares for and who cared for her, also not by her own volition. it's kind of a terrible truth that you will harm and be harmed by the people you love, even when you and they truly don't want to. it's up to you how much you're willing to take and deal. you can't keep every promise you make and you can't right every wrong. but you have to keep trying anyway. that's sapphire's strength, and the core of her goodness and why i personally consider her one of my favourite ocs. i chose to depict bug like an angel in mitski's more positive interpretation here and in that light i think it works best for saph

buffalo replaced - heiya

well first and foremost the vibes of the song fits heiya perfectly fhgjk but also lyricism and tone... yep. quick breakdown of heiya's background since i doubt i'll ever be able to do it properly she's an interesting character for me because she like a lot of my other characters has lost. everything. she had a wife and a child and they were both killed and she had to leave her home again and again and unlike how some of my others would have taken this she has never flagged in her unwavering dedication to preserving hope. for herself for her people for the future etc etc. which is a very fucking difficult thing to do! the world changes faster than you can keep up with it sometimes but for heiya she will not let herself tire and be swept away in it all. people rely on her. she's a guiding star as much as she is a woman. she's a lover and a fighter and thats what buffalo replaced means to me! so

heaven - vinny and caleb

i feel like of all my oc couples so far they have like. the sweetest most kind of simply mutually trusting dare i say straight forward love. they just love each other so much and thats all. the world could end around them when theyre together and it'd be okay truly. also yeah vinny is ostensibly in heaven now bye angel i feel like this one was pretty self explanatory. me and who WHEN

i don't like my mind - sunny

he just like me fr (said in denji voice) anyways wow ha. unstoppable unending guilt due to past actions that haunt your every waking moment? throwing yourself into any and all distraction just to take your mind off it, filling your time with other shit so that past sin doesnt for once echo in your awful and hollow brain? this song is perfect for sunny honestly just that sentiment also the "please don't take this job from me".... sometimes the coping is worse. you can be proud of something because you can do it better than anyone else even if that thing is terrible

the deal - wolfgang munch by @gunthermunch

Wolfgang Amadeus Munch. umm this will make more sense later on but it still kind of makes sense now i think. he doesn't want to be himself he keeps . leaving and moving and running away from his own memories his own self in reaction to others. if he could pawn it all off he would. if he could be better in an instant without having to feel every agonising second of change he would! but thats not how the world works. or is it. read munch by gunthermunch thats an order

when memories snow - lilian

i feel the older you get the more your past kind of swells up and trails behind you... at least for lilian that is shes very linked to the different versions of the girl/young woman she used to be. for her its a double edged blade, a lot of her own strength is drawn from who she was and what happened to her throughout her life. they haunt her but she's haunting it back in her own way

my love mine all mine - saige, bellona, ari

stares you down okay so usage of this song very much almost verges into spoiler territory but uhm. uhm. starts twitching basically the whole dynamic here is . sometimes when you love you will sacrifice. and while that is usually a good thing sometimes it is not but sometimes it still is. sometimes you pay your dues for love and sometimes someone else has to pay for your love as well. and whether that is worth it to them remains to be seen. but it's all about love still. whether that's a worthy cause is up to you i suppose

the frost - yoshiki and hikaru from hikaru ga shida natsu

fun fact (or not so fun fact since i had it listed as such) this slot was originally meant to be taken up by a gojo/geto edit and while it still works for them frighteningly well i swerved to do another black and white haired doomed gay pairing gfhjkl; i really recommend yall to read hikaru ga shinda natsu/the summer that hikaru died because honestly it speaks for itself! it's SO good i love it so bad

star - ari and luca by @anjitrait

wow these two did not deserve the horrors the narrative (me) slammed down onto their heads. they're kind of the most married of all time to me but like of course under pressure even the strongest most loving of bonds will warp. they've been together for roughly a decade and a half now. they know and love each other as totally as you could possibly imagine. despite it all i am yours, no matter. are we picking up what i'm putting down chat

i'm your man - nayef and sióar by @lucidicer

after the album dropped like at least 3 people swung into my dms with a ?this you?? about this song which. i mean the fucking dogs that start barking halfway through the song. are you kidding me. but anyways sioyef and devotion. sioyef and putting yourself in your lover's hands and looking to them like they are a god. this is super self explanatory. you know

i love me after you - redacted and ophelia

HM.... all i'll say here is that sometimes the homoerotic tension filled high school friendship where both parties have something very wrong with them but in totally different directions can be. scarring. bad. sometimes love just isn't enough when you don't know what you're meant to do with it and when you've lived in survival mode all your life. but that once the dust clears you can scrape yourself off the ground get up keep going and that isn't gonna be the end for you there. or for love, even. sometimes shit just ain't meant to be and thats ok

#ts4 #urghhgh idek how many hours this is cumulatively. dont wanna #ts4 edit #seph.txt #p

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I an asshole for making fun of someone’s name and interests but then apologizing? I (16M) recently became friends with some people in my lunch hour. They are Z (17NB), M (18NB) and K (17M). M is dating A (18FTM), who i have met twice and had maybe two brief convos with, and he seemed sweet at the time. However, A is friends with the whole group, so they all know him and talk about him. We have joked in the past about the fact that A has the same nickname as one of my other friends. For the sake of fake names, lets say the nickname is Alex. I refer to my friend as Alex and Z,M, and K all call their friend Alex too. However, one day i called my friend by his full name- again, fake name, but lets say- Alexander. M makes fun of my friends name, saying its a bad name. In retaliation I jokingly say ‘your partners name is worse!’. A’s full name is a different spelling of a rather nice name, for this lets say its Alexyus (like Alexis). I mention that i like the name alexis, just say “but who spells it with a y!”. I also add, “plus theyre literally a dsmp and homestuck fan!”. OKAY BEAR WITH ME! i will fully accept and admit that thus far i have been an asshole. It wasnt okay for M to make fun of my friends name, but it also wasnt okay for me to make fun of their partner.

Anyways- no one seemed too upset by it in the moment, but later when i got home i received messages from M, K, and A. M’s had some odd sort of long copy pasta which basically said i hope you suffer, but it felt like a joke to me so just responded withh “i aint reading all that”. K’s message was wild tho- he said “i was just hoping you would kill yourself, overdose, hang yourself, or even just cut ur wrists. what is wrong with you, you fing freak!”. which is… wow! After i read the message i saw him edit it to add a “/jay” (meaning joking) at the end, but the original message had no indication of it being a joke. However, i accepted it as a joke because…. Why would he tell me to kill myself lol…. Anyways, A’s message was polite and formal, asking to talk about something i said earlier at lunch (A isnt in our lunch, he wasnt there when i made the comment about his name, but i assume M or K told him). I respond equally politely and we had a good conversation about it, i realized that it wasnt at all my place to make thats jokes or poke fun at A in that way, and i apologized. A said it was all good and honestly i was impressed with their forgiveness and maturity. I hoped A and i could become potential friends in the future, even. I was still peeved that K literally told me to commit suicide, but whatever yknow. The next few days at lunch were awkward but my other friend, Z, and me mostly just didnt talk to M and K. At some point my other friend, who i told about this, mentioned to K kinda offhandedly like “yo it was kinda fucked up u told (me) to kill himself..” and K informed us that he actually didnt send the message, it was A on his phone. M corroborated this story and then we left, but i was honestly so shocked.

Now i dislike and feel uncomfortable around M, K and A (although not Z, who agreed that what the rest of them did was not okay), because to me it feels like they all were okay and agreement of the message. But ultimately i’m really conflicted- it was definitely wrong of me to make fun of A (even if it was not meant to be serious, i dont know A well enough to joke like that), but i feel like telling me to kms is unjustified. Maybe it all is stupid drama tho, and i should just let it go?

*** i forgot to add- if its worth noting, since A is trans, he chose his own name, and mentioned that was one of the reasons he was specifically upset. Should i have not made fun of his name because i know he chose it himself? (Idk if it matters but my friend alexander is also trans and chose his name too. Also i love him and his name to death so maybe thats why i was specifically defensive of it.) but anyways:

Am i the asshole? Are we all assholes?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[ge]

what do you like about rotmhs? like what draws you in?

GAHH IM SO GLAD YOU ASKEDDD at the top of my head thhe top three things i felt really drew me into and made me fall in love w rotmhs is the found family/bonds before blood narrative, the action/fight scenes, and the comedy..

rotmhs is not a romance and i feel like that really pushes people away from reading it, especially folks who were first introduced to east asian novels through bl (specifically mxtxs novels like mdzs tgcf etc etc) which i feel is incredibly disappointing because yallre missing out on a certain depth of writing and nuance you otherwise wouldnt get in a romance focused novel. (orv is another extremely popular knovel with no romance.. if you like orv PLEASE give rotmhs a shot)

rotmhs is about a dead man resurrected a hundred years into the future having to come to terms w the fact that everyone he loved is dead and that the only home he ever had was destroyed, its inhabitants and centuries worth of teachings burned to the ground, and that it was partially his fault these things happened, so in order to prevent a future catastrophe he knows is on the horizon, he trains the youth of this new generation and finds a new home surrounded by ghosts in the wreckage of his home of his past

⬆️…very dramatic but somewhat accurate barebones synopsis of rotmhs which is fairly faithful enough methinks.. rotmhs doesnt make a point of going ‘heyy these guys are family nowww theyre brothers and sisters and love each other like familyyy’ LOL the growth is very subtle and before u can really blink ur like ‘oh man.. chung myung would kill for these kids. obliviously though. i dont think he knows he even likes them’ all the while hes still aching w the loss of his loved ones before.. if we’re being really really honest chung myung, the mc, truly is the star of the show and a character i got attached to incredibly quickly.. hes so stupid but so smart he has so many issues i want to hit him with my car then nurse him back to health just to hit him again

chung myung himself is a whole other thing i could get into but he has so many layers.. so much depth.. on the surface ud look at him and think what a punk but look a little closer and then ud think oh this punk has depression ptsd survivors guilt hallucinations etc etc LIKE DAMN.. I THIUGHT HE WAS JUST A FUNNY LITTLE GUY WHYD I GET SUCKER PUNCHED

what was i even talking about. OH right romance. please please dont let the lack of romance dissuade you, imo it is soooo refreshing to read something that isnt focused on romance like i love yaoi like the next bl reading bitch but damn.. ive always been into found family and while the bl novels i have read did always have a little hint of it, i always wanted more and rotmhs fills that void

(that being said i cant stop yall from shipping if yall want LOL im guilty of shipping charas too despite everythiing i just said… if yall want yalls yaoiyuri fix may i direct yalls attention to the ‘doomed by the narrative, tragic best-friends-to-almost-lovers tangchung’ & ‘love at first sight sweethearts iseolsoso’ ….. :SMILES: I LOVE TANGCHUNG..!!!!!!)

NEXT, the action and fight scenes in rotmhs, even in written text form, are sublime to say the least.. my fail cis dudebro trait is that i love crazy insane adrenaline rushing heart pumping shounen-esque battles so much that i could typically care less for the rest of that specific piece of media as long as the fights are good.. FORTUNATELY FOR ME rotmhs is crazy good at balancing its comedy, action, and otherwise more ‘mundane’ scenes together so harmoniously that its such fun read even when theres no swords crossing or heads being beaten in

also important to note, despite being a knovel w korean naming of characters/places, rotmhs actually takes place in ancient china in a wuxia setting so jumping head first into it wont be all that confusing for first time readers/cmedia fans and u can use ur knowledge of cnovels to fill in the gaps.

theres not really much more i have to say on the topic of fighting, im just personally a huge fan of the crazy spectacles rotmhs brings to the table.

saved this for last but THE COMEDY…!!!!!!!! after being soo dramatic w all my previous points and comments ur probably thnkng rotmhs is heavy and somber w no breathing room.. WELL YOURE WRONG. ROTMHS IS FUNNY AS HELL quips and jokes and simple funny actions and scenes litter nearly every page. i mentioned this novel balances its action and comedy well and im NOT LYING youd think maybe the heavy action and light comedy would awkwardly clash but u cldnt be more further from the truth.. rotmhs wears action and comedy like a pair of twin gloves

rotmhs handles its action and comedy in equal doses and it all fits together like matching puzzle pieces, like i really cant stress enough how fun it is to read. not every fight scene is somber, most of the time its chung myung oneshotting someone by hitting them across the head so hard they pass out..

unfortunately im not really the best at listing instances so its be better for u to go read it for urself but this scene from one of the later chapters is soo funny every time i read it i start giggling

(LIGHT/MINOR SPOILERS FOR THE NOVEL it probably doesnt even matter u wont even remember this when u start reading)

right so i think thats most of it.. too lazy to read through everything i just wrote so if nothing makes sense… well. …well!

rotmhs deserves to have the same amount of fame as ORV and MDZS and TGCF have and it is my civil duty as one of the oldest mxtx novel outlets on tumblr to put yall on it..

my thumbs hurt from typing so im done now but if u have anymore questions PLEASE ASK IM SO DESPERATE TO TALK ABOUT ROTMHS ok byyyeeeeeeee

#rotmhs #rotbb #return of the blossoming blade #return of the mount hua sect

[firesofdainix]

Curious, do you think Lloyd would forgive Morro for what he did in canon?

Short Answer: It depends, but I like it if he doesn't because it's spicier that way

Long Answer: I've seen a LOT of Green Cousins fics, in which Lloyd and Morro have already buried the hatchet a long while, or are set in another alternate universe entirely. The 'green cousins set in a time past possession where Morro was forgiven is definitely not one of my favorite genre of ninjago fics (if you can call it that? Lol) because for me its just a lot of forced interaction and it barely is written naturally. (Except for @/peachyninjago 's fics theyre the best and only Green Cousins post-Possession fics I'd read 🙏🙏🙏) While I haven't dug deep into the fandom for actual in-depth Morro redemption fics (recommend me some because i wanna know how I'm doing), the duo, like I said, focuses on those things I've said before. It's fun to see them, but I also have this underlying problem (it's probably just me though) in which i internally have a lot of thoughts going through as I, well, properly read stuff instead of skimming over. For example, I wonder if Lloyd has forgiven Morro enough to the point he is seen willingly hanging out with him (and only him LMAOOO), but that's just me

In Splinter in the Blind Man's Eye, it's been implied, MANY TIMES, that being possessed by Morro was the WORST thing that happened to him. The feeling of now being able to control his body, how he felt so much guilt while Morro does a lot of immoral crimes with his own hands, and the traumatic moments in which he was caged in his own mind like a prison, forced to bear witness and become an audience member for Moro's own thoughts (implied that he also thought about murdering his friends in an explicit manner...). When he got out, he felt so weak and did nothing but watch as his friends suffer, and I KNOW he blames himself. He blames himself for being too weak to resist Morro, for letting him hurt his friends and family, for getting manipulated so he could involuntarily release the Preeminent from the Cursed Realm. He definitely holds a lot of guilt over Morro's actions, some of which he is not at fault for in the slightest. In short, he is both scared of Morro and feels like crap even thinking about him.

So, in a scenario in which he actually lives, after all the things he's done... I think Lloyd wouldn't cope with it. This man, ghost, had tormented him for what seems to be a few months, which left him so drained and exhausted. I have an inkling of a feeling Morro is able to show remorse and regret (his final scene in Possession tells us so, choosing death over being forgiven by his master with an accepting smile on his face) he's also bad at feelings and is heavily prideful. So, while Morro DOES try to show he's sorry, it'll take Lloyd a LONG time to forgive him, thanks to the memories he had made with him that were a lot unpleasant. There may even be a timeline where Lloyd *wouldn't* forgive him, cutting contact with him or being sort-of friends/acquaintances.

It's one of the things I've been juggling since the start of TAGOMJTR: how Lloyd and Morro’s relationship continues to grow, and how to develop it in a natural pace despite their grievances with one another. It'd be spoilers to say what actually happens... but Morro is still NOT even in the first step of making up to Lloyd.

#chel answers #ninjago #lego ninjago #lloyd garmadon #lloyd montgomery garmadon #ninjago morro #morro ninjago #sorry abt goin on a long tangent/talk i just wanna say this #and YOU gave me perfect opportunity to answer

[autumnfangirler]

Hi I’m LATE but— 7 12 20 for the couples ask and the character(s) of your choice??

i assure you it is never too late for me to talk about my little guys. i am always up for it

7. Do they (or would they) pursue the other character's affection, and if so, how? Do they tell the other character how they feel? Try to earn their admiration? Woo them with romantic gestures? Flirt with them, skillfully or otherwise?

Caine- for chen, they do indeed pursue him romantically! a bit of bluescreening here and there but hey, that kiss did happen so! caine only realized after he picked up on chens own emotions, but if they realized before, i doubt they would've done anything until chen did. hes content with what they have as friends, and they don't put much more importance to romantic relationships. no need to jeapordize anything when their friendship is fragile enough. with ortega its,,, a lot more complicated. for one thing, caine flirted with him as hark before he even realized he liked him. i have no idea whether that counts as pursuing him romantically when its technically???? not their own body????? nor was the flirting for the express purpose of wooing him. past that, caine also cant read ortegas mind. they have no way of knowing if ortega likes them back, and again, they dont want to rock the boat needlessly. thats not even beginning to mention how chen fits into this whole ordeal, because yes they still like him and i dont think theyre aware they can have both in the same body. all this to say; if at any point after the whole puppetstuck mess all three of them can have that talk about eachother, caine will be eternally grateful because this is the last thing he should be worrying about at the moment

Cyrus- again, complicated answer. back in his sidestep days, he would. he certainly proved that with the whole thing he had with ortega. back in the day, he stuck mostly to "joke" flirting. (un?)fortunately he was a lot more skilled at it than he thought, which he supposes he should thank the farm for. the problem with it nowadays is that hes trying to avoid relationships(romantic or platonic) at all costs. he doesn't want to fall back into the mistakes he made back when he was sidestep, so he'd probably avoid it like the plague 💀 if it werent for his belief that relationships are a hindrance and a danger though, he'd totally go for it. he values honesty in any relationship, so regardless of what the other person feels, he'd tell them. not to mention, he just became more confident and more skilled with flirting after the farm, so he can truly be a menace for a good enough cause

Cecilia- oh shes absolutely going for it. shes flirting(fighting), stealing chocolates and roses, getting the media in on it, the whole shebang. there really is no limit of what she'd go through for the bit. because that's what romance is to her– its just another way for her to have fun. she's here for a good time, and if it just so happens to also be a long one thats good too. maybe that'll change as time goes on, but for now, she's gonna fuck around and see what she finds out

Cynthia- cynthia would try to pursue the characters affection, just a lot less overtly than cecilia or cyrus would. i don't think she'd try to flirt?? she'd stick to acts of service and act more affectionate in general, hoping the other person would pick it up. unfortunately, her romantic interest is dense as fuck 😔 she's lucky that ortega is flirty, all she had to do was act responsive and sincere to get the point across

12. How much independence do they prefer in a relationship–do they want to share their lives as much as possible with their partner, or do they prefer to mostly do their own thing and let their partner do their own thing?

Caine- for caine, romantic relationships aren't much different than platonic ones, and with their friendships they tend to stay at their peripherals, always reliable, always there, but not necessarily always close. plus, their interests sometimes conflict (cough villainy cough), so he'd rather let everybody deal with it through their own thing

Cyrus- cyrus values independence and choice. he wants the assurance that he can live his life as he please and not be tied down to the other person. once he gets it though, he can be surprisingly clingy. he likes observing the people he loves, whether thats on a date, watching them work on a hobby, or just taking up space with them. knowing and being known in return is like, the sincerest form of love for him

Cecilia- she heavily enjoys spending time with other people, and that directly translates to trying to spend as much time as possible with her partner. she likes participating in other people's lives, and while she's willing to leave people be when they need it, she'd much rather spend her time hanging out and participating in the things they love. she's learning how to give people more space with argent, though, since she's very explicit in her need for boundaries and alone time

Cynthia- listen ok. she was already clingy back in her sidestep days. after heartbreak it got like. 10× worse 💀💀💀. she wants to spend as much time as possible with her partner because of an unconcious fear she'll lose them, and the fact that her romantic interest is ortega makes that fear so much worse because! ortegas also terrified of losing her! cynthias not an idiot! she can feel her worry! and it makes her worry in return! it is literally the worst possible feedback loop. their relationship is becoming unhealthy in increasingly interesting and concerning ways

20. When would they say "I love you?" Do they say it first? Do they say it often, or is it reserved for special moments?

Caine- they're the last one to actually say "i love you". caine is much more of a 'show don't tell' sort of guy. for him, loving the other person is a point of fact, not something that needs to be explicitly stated. as a result, the actual words don't come often. he only really says it when he thinks his partners need that assurance. that said, after everything is over, when they finally sort out their relationship and they get a quiet moment to finally breathe, they'd probably say "I love you" after getting kissed stupid by their boyfriends, just to marvel at the fact that they can choose without any secrets underneath

Cyrus- cyrus is canonically not the first one to say "i love you" because danny wears his heart on his sleeve. cyrus is desperately pretending he can't see it because he doesn't want to deal with the implications of all of that. "i love you" is far too real and far too dangerous, so in his head there are absolutely zero circumstances where he would willingly admit it. he is blatantly incorrect because he is just as much of a bleeding heart idiot as daniel is. he tries to reserve it for a special occasion, but at some point staying in herald's apartment, he gets so overwhelmed with the feeling of love and safety he can't stop himself from mumbling it into his neck. part of him hopes daniel didn't hear him; both of them know he did. maybe in the future he gets more comfortable admitting he loves him, but there's a lot of shit to work through before that happens

Cecilia- she says it often, both in romantic and platonic relationships! personally i hc her as the first one to say it to argent, buuut that's probably not going to canonically be the case rip :') she doesn't see any reason to hold back, especially when holding back clearly didn't interest argent. for her, "i love you" is a direct challenge to the universe and the farm, for daring to make her feel like she can't feel the way humans do, and for daring to take away the things she did care about. she's making sure they'll never be able to take anything away from her again. i'm sure this will not backfire on her in any way!

Cynthia- again, canonically not the first one to say i love you, but i think (when things settle down and she doesn't have to fear for her life and relationships) she's the one more comfortable with saying it. she says it often, in little moments and in big, and she means it every single time. if things just happened a little differently, if the story was a little kinder or cynthia a little stronger, she'd be able to live comfortable with the knowledge that she loves ortega. unfortunately the world is hellbent on making things as difficult as possible for them

#sidestep #fhr #caine lynzal #cyrus becker #cecilia rider #cynthia garcia #this took so long to answer im so sorry 😭😭 i lost several drafts in the process of making it #ask game

[tianhai03]

you've read visions of v, right?? what r your thoughts on it?

yeah i have, i have so many thoughts about it that im simply too dumb to put into words, but i'll try my best lmao. tl;dr, let's just say that i didnt think too much about v until i read the manga, and now i care about him very very much.

visions of v is just... it gave so much more depth and meaning behind v's character. i understand that in the game they didnt reveal too much about him bc they were trying desperately to keep the fact that hes vergil hidden (even though i and a lot of other people already guessed who he was long before the game even came out lmao), but after seeing his thought process and journey to understanding himself in such great detail is just so... it makes me so emotional. while in the game we only saw him as this sassy goth poetry reciting mystery guy, in visions of v we can see that he was constantly struggling with his past and trauma almost the whole time. i felt so bad to see him like this (in a good way if that makes sense. i dont have a lot of trauma myself, but i have a friend who does and they said the way v's trauma was portrayed was done really really well. its really easy to relate to his struggles.)

and dont even get me started on the ending. i literally read that ending at like 2am, in japanese, because i just couldnt wait for the eng translations. and thank god i managed to understand everything, bc i was literally sobbing to myself silently at midnight. it broke my fucking heart to see young vergil again, still refusing to acknowledge his own emotions, when all it did was bring him more pain. and then he fucking admits out loud that he does enjoy fighting his brother because, despite appearances, vergil is still just like dante. they just want to have fun. as siblings. theyre both the exact same.

this is literally everything i wanted and more. we finally have vergil admitting that hes okay with having emotions, he loves his brother and wants to play with him to make up for their lost childhood, and now it makes dmc5's ending even better, knowing that every single fucking time we saw vergil smiling, he was doing it from the bottom of his heart and not just out of sass and sarcasm. and now the twins have all the time in the world to hang out and be happy.

i probably have a lot more i can talk about but this is already getting very long so i'll stop here. can you see why i have tears in my eyes every time i talk about visions of v this shit makes me so fucking emotional

#now if you will please excuse me as i go sob in silence again #i legit cant tell if its bc im a dante kinnie but every time i talk about this i feel so so sad. i just want to give vergil a big hug #i want to tell him im sorry for a lot of things. and i know he is too. but i want to put everything behind us and just chill as bros #hes been through a lot of things i just want him to be okay with existing now #grh. im so emotional. i care so much for these two #ask #allyanswers #anonymous #also i dont want to say this but like. please dont make this about shipping. please.

[cartoonsaint]

you mentioned how hlvrai is an interesting form of storytelling and i think thats part of why it got big- same with taz and other dnd podcasts- people like the authenticity of it. theres no big writers rooms working to make it "perfect." its all very in the moment. the actors arent actors- theyre not reading off a script. everyone whose playing a part are equally a part of the storytelling process. everyone is making the script up in the moment, and things happen either to immediately make their friends laugh or make their friends go 'holy shit thats awesome' or (my personal favorite) to give their friends the opportunity to do something cool!

its an honest form of storytelling that we're kinda losing with the way media is so sanitized and washed out and forced to be marketable. like, i struggle explaining hlvrai or dnd podcasts to my friends when they ask what kind of content i watch, because theres really no comparison to it (unless they also engage with that type of content). its like people sitting around a campfire telling stories, just to pass the time and engage in creativity. and i think thats why people like them, theyre just fun and real.

i got a little rambley but overall: i think hlvrai and these types of media are popular because theyre honest

i think there's truth to this, yeah!!! :) there's a lot to be said for stories where the storytellers are present/visible, esp when they're all close-- it's like being invited into their warm, fun little friend group for a little bit, even if it's just to observe. it's a kind of antithesis to the wave of polished and soulless media that has become more and more of the stuff out there in the past ten years (spotless set design, everyone is beautiful and no one is horny, reliance on the Save the Cat method, i don't have enough links to sketch this whole thing out but yes: the number one word is marketability). these are lonely times; stories told by real people in real-time are a breath of fresh air, especially when there's the doubled wild cards of 1. wtf are my friends going to pull out of their asses next and how do i keep this balloon-story in the air oh god and 2. dice-rolling/weird g-mod stuff à la the helicopter heap, etc. it's great fun to see people up against these odds who manage to pull together a semi-cohesive story anyways :)

i don't think we're really losing this kind of story-telling, though it is becoming less visible in a marketability-lowest-common-denominator-blockbuster-content-production kind of way. but you're right that these kinds of practices trace back to telling stories around a fire, or while spinning thread or sharpening flint-- it's deep in our core as human beings. our lives are very different from those of our our ancestors 50k years ago but in the grand scheme of things, we've barely barely changed. we still want those stories. we still want to tell them, too. even as inhuman companies beyond our individual grasps manipulate things far above us, try to distract workers from too-long days at work with stripped-down marketable manipulative garbage, there will always be people making weird, niche art: friend groups who stream goofy improv together, people who write thousands upon thousands of words about their OCs even though only 3 people read it, toby fox in his basement, DnD podcasts with fewer than a fifty listeners, stick figure webcomics updating every day, pre-teens scribbling about sparklewolves in their composition notebooks and shyly sharing a little bit with the other weirdo in their class.

but yeah. especially for those of us who don't necessarily have the energy to create as much as we'd like, story-telling that has the foundations visible, that is honest about what it is and where it's coming from, that has at its core the desire to make one's friends laugh-- it's great! it's fun! it's a good antidote to the big polished crap :)

#i think ur smart n right anon i also just cannot stop talking. hope this makes sense i wrote it at 3am and am not less tired now #saint talks #ask saint #sorry this took me like a week to respond to i'm avoiding other things so i uh. well i got trapped in the televison tbh #here's some notes for anyone interested: #DO watch the first 1.5 seasons of twin peaks; interesting things to say about masculinity and trauma and community failures/success #DON'T watch season 1 of true detective; has boring incomplete things to say about masculinity and did NOTHING w the yellow king >:( #DO watch season 1 of severance it is excellent across the board; yes polished but v distinct w a very solid thoughtful core #thinking very vaguely about how a hlvrai au would slot nicely into it but only vaguely. do you hear me brain VAGUELY

[titstraction]

time after time with dreamers a yearish in the future. december 2022 perhaps.

okay so this is Fic-Specific Asks for Authors and this is my best mutual julia indulging all my fancies. for better context you gotta read dreamers my magnum opus on my ao3

Time After Time: Send me a timestamp sometime in the future after the end of [that fic], or sometime in the past before the story started, and I’ll tell you what happened then

okay so a yeahish in the future finds remus and sirius facing on new challenges as remus’ disability progresses. he loses some motor functions quick, he gets tired much more easily and would rather be at home sleeping than say at the park etc

remus has grown more comfortable with having sirius look after him and sirius does it well and feels good about it but it is still a sudden change and a sad situation and he sometimes feels scared and lonely, misses the energy remus had in the beginning

he is steadier on his feet though: he had a collection of poems published, made some nice money for them, got a car, and he loves himself fairly more a yearish into the future. a little bit more everyday

and they have community that supports them through it: marlene will sometimes drop warm dinner off, and dorcas will do remus’ university work for him on the harder weeks. and theres a new character thrown into the mix: morgana, regulus’ late wife, tracks sirius down and they become part of each others life. they become friends, matching sharp wits and soul dilemnas and its an assurance that regulus too wouldve liked him as a person

soooo sirius and remus become uncles to little sirius (now that hai is back with his mother they need another little kid to be in uncleship with) aaaand uncles do fun stuff!! uncles go to the movies!! and you know what movie is showing december 2022??? thats right. AVATAR 2. FULL CIRCLE MOMENT BABY

sirius drives to pick up morgana and little sirius from their house. and hes sweating buckets big nervous because remus is the only person he has driven around since. he was so nervous he had spent the morning driving from their house to the movies and back, to get familiar with the route. it all goes smoothly when morgana and little sirius are on the backseat and remus is riding shotgun, hand squeezing his forearm reassuringly

so they get to the movies and get four tickets to see avatar 2 tehehee. and sirius sits between remus and little sirius, both his hands being held tightly and he feels sooooooo loved and he loves them sooooo much

and its the part of the movie with the big beautiful whale, and remus is fast asleep because the movie is frankly too big and quite a bore, and little sirius is looking at the colors and the textures with eyes as wide as galaxies, clutching at sirius hand, and he feels like- fucking flooded with the love and his sheer dumb luck and how beautiful life turned out to be and morgana catches his eye and smiles knowingly

then (…2 hours later) its lights UP and he wakes remus UP and remoussy dude is upset he missed most of it. hes like. a little pouting frowning frustrated at himself but his man’s happiness is just so contagious he believes him when he tells him its fine, you didnt miss a thing, really, there was no plot, so he brushes it off for the moment and kisses him lightly and sirius looks even more like a kid on christmas morning. joy impersonated etc

whats going to the movies with no getting pizza after? they get a table at pizza hut where little sirius fills remus on every detail he missed and the nap is almost worth its money for the gentle way he listens and smiles and says little kindnesses. like a woww with his honey eyes blown wide. sirius is buzzzzzzzing he is hot and bothered remus is the best thing that has ever been his etc

and then they get little sirius some crayons while theyre waiting for the food and little sirius draws the four of them at the movies. and sirius is there, in the family portrait. ayyyyyyyyyyyy 😛

[harryshousesworld]

𝐼𝑇𝑆 𝑌𝑂𝑈 – ZAYN MALIK ONE SHOT

ZAYN MALIK + FEMALE CHARACTER

 

Olivia just a normal girl with dark brown hair and brown eyes who wanted to life her life as long as she could ,she was a huge fan of one direction and all of the members but the band disbanded afther five years at least she got the luck to go to theyre concert when she was a kid,but she still love theyre solo careers she still has her first 1D pillow and still love them all equally.

While on zayn’s side he was getting ready to go on tour,yes he left the band first but he still got all the memories he made, all his concert he played with the boys, all the fun they had when they were younger ,all the good things in life but afther he left he started dating gigi hadid the famous model they had a kid but gigi’s mother wouldnt let zayn saw his daugther because they created fake acusations about him so he left gigi’s house and go to his own house and he was alone all the time sometimes he checked his coments on his post and saw someone named olivia he remembered her he knew she was a fan of one direction because she used to go to theyre concerts all the time and at the end of the concert they ended up finding something in commun and decided to keep in contact but since zayn left 1D and the family problems he havent talk to any friends from his past , so since he trusted her he decided to texted her he holded his phone with his tan and beautiful finger and texted olivia .

“ your olivia rigth?” olivia was walking trougth tiktok and then she saw a message poping off her phone she opened instagram and saw it was zayn she tougth for a moment” could really be him, how does he still remember me its been ages”she asks to herself and smiles looking to her phone and texts zayn back “hey its me!” she asnwers happily and waits for zayn’s text zayn saw that she asnwer back and he smiled but since he wanted to make sure it was her he decided to ask if it was really her “are you that tiny little girl with barbie’s glasses girl?” olivia saw  and asnwered back “yup thats me.” She said taking a sip of her Camomille tea , zayn looked trougth the message and said “i missed you so much, im sorry i didnt talk to you in a while..i was going trougth some hard time” she looked worried at his message and said “its okay dont worry, you have your life!” zayn looked relived and said “maybe we could hangout some time?” olivia smiled back again and said “of course!” zayn smiled and texted her saying “ maybe at a cofee shop” olivia answered back saying “of course!” then zayn had to sleep because he had work the next day “look , i gotta go to sleep tomorrow is a big day , i got work to do but before i go i’ll text you” she looks at his messages and texts him back “sure! But take care of yourself zayn” zayn just read the message and turned his phone off and go to bed while olivia was holding her phone next to her chest while thinking about what just happened then she decided to get up get some pijamas take a shower and go to bed , she putted her phone charging and before go to sleep she pinned her hair up so her hair wont fall on her face while she sleeps , afther that she lays on bed and covers herself and falls asleep.

[koinvyokan]

dsmp fic recs!!!

ive narrowed the list down to only completed works so none of these will leave you hanging and you can binge to your hearts content.

* = most highly recommended

Rated T

for you, the stars *

By andthentheybow

Relationships: DNF, Karlnap, SBI as a family

Words: 115k

Why you should read it: this is an au of The Martian, with george being trapped on mars. its heartbreaking, raw, so poetic and still very much keeps the realistic and scientific tone of the original work. this fic broke my heart and put it back together slowly.

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how dare you love me like you’ve never known fear *

By andthentheybow (just read all their fics, theyre such a good writer)

Relationships: DNF, Karlnapity

Words: 11k

Why you should read it: immortal soulmates au??? do i need to say more?? its so filled with longing and cool worldbuilding its ridiculous. 

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We Must Have Good Pitch, ‘Cause Baby, You and Me are So In Tune!

By Quid_Pro_Cure

Relationships: Karlnapity, DNF (background)

Words: 73k

Why you should read it: probably my favourite karlnapity fic! its a small town rock band AU about dtqk trying to win a festival competition that features a very badass sapnap and a really lovely romance. the characters are vividly described and its just a nice, funny, light on the angst read. 

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I wish I were you, Optimism *

By valleyofthesun

Relationships: DNF, Georgebur (past dont let this make u not read it i beg), SBI as a family

Words: 62k

BIG TW FOR SUICIDE

Why you should read it: want to preface this by making it clear that this fic is about the c! versions of these characters. it follows george as he deals with the grief from his boyfriend, wilbur, committing suicide and shows how dream helps him start to recover from this. i read this at a time in which i needed to read something like this, after losing a friend to suicide myself, so believe me when i tell you that this fic’s depiction of grief is like nothing ive ever seen in fanfiction or in any type of media in it’s accuracy. the characterization is very true although the characters are in this very unlikely situation, the prose is absolutely beautiful, and it does have it’s funny and heartwarming moments to detract from all the angst and pain. this fic is really taxing to read, at least it was for me maybe that because i was too personally connected to it, but do consider that before you read as it deals with extremely triggering material. this fic changed me. read it right neeeooowww!

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The Night Window *

By backtopluto

Relationships: DNF

Words: 51k

Why you should read it: i could recommend all of backtopluto’s works, honestly they are one of if not my favourite dnf author. but my favourite of their works is definitely this one. this is a 1930s car racing au, which is something i never would have thought to look for, but now i wish there were a million vintage racing aus because i need more of this dynamic. there’s so much good angst and character study in this fic, i would describe it like one long race itself, there are so many ups and downs and by the end you feel like a different person. their writing puts you into the character’s head so well, and i have such massive respect for their ability to make a historical au so realistic, im surprised the author didnt live through this time period themself.

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Tender is the Night

By backtopluto

Relationships: DNF

Words: 18k

Why you should read it: dream dodging the vietnam draft au! another amazing historical au by backtopluto, this one is just really sweet and, well, tender. 

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lightning bug

By saintaches

Relationships: DNF

Words: 21k

Why you should read it: early 2000s emo warped tour band au. this is just super fun and cute and you feel like the author somehow knows what its like to spend a summer in a sweaty tour bus with your best friend and your maybe more than best friend

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head or heart

By effervescentlies

Relationships: DNF, Karlnap (background)

Words: 58k

Why you should read it: grey’s anatomy/doctor au! very fun, good angst, well done enemies to lovers, and dnf respecting and thirsting after each other’s intelligence as surgeons <3 love it

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take this compass, follow it home

By lightning_anon

Relationships: SBI as a family

Words: 49k

Why you should read it: obligatory SBI foster family au! usually i actually dont much like the SBI foster trope, but damn this one knocks it out of the park. a really brutally honest depiction of mental health issues. this actually helped me realize i have adhd and get help for that so uh. good representation matters! i would recommend the entire encompass series that this is the start of, especially wilbur’s section as a very interesting depiction of intersex and ftm trans issues.

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a moment apart

By fictionalparadises

Relationships: Karlnap

Words: 44k

Why you should read it: what?? a fic with actual asexual karl jacobs rep??? do my eyes deceive me? no, its real! its really fucking sweet and a realistic portrayal of asexuals in relationships! crazy, right? 

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a lifetime, my lifeline *

By wooowriter

Relationships: DNF

Words: 10k

Why you should read it: the perfect dnf meetup fic. soo full of longing and the pain of missing someone so bad, contrasted beautifully with the absolute awe of seeing them. if you’re gonna read a dnf meetup oneshot make it this one!!​

Rated M

Fit Like A Daydream *

By keepAPlaceForMe

Relationships: Foolish/Punz

Words: 37k

Why you should read it: i had never read Funz before BUt. this fic made me insane. its so good and im so invested in the Vegas lore thats developed in their Funz fics. mwah mwah mwah

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whatever you make me (wherever you are)

By squigly

Relationships: DNF

Words: 24k

Why you should read it: 500 days of summer au!! so angsty and that makes it great. does true love really exist or are we just making it up because we want it so bad?? read to find out

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Devil Town

By hooray

Relationships: SBI as a family, Karlnapity (background)

Words: 100k

Why you should read it: This one is for horror fans, its pretty creepy and atmospheric. Reminds me a lot of Stranger Things! If youre into SBI then I dont know what you’re doing if you havent read this

Rated E

thunder in vials *

By squigly

Relationships: DNF

Words: 8k

Why you should read it: punk band au! but like, not sanitized. very atmospheric. its just sex rocknroll and the harsh reality of drug addiction

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to burn with desire and keep quiet

By falsettodrop

Relationships: DNF

Words: 47k

Why you should read it: i feel like this is the seminal george moves to florida dnf fic. if you havent already read it then read it before you start anything else. its just so good. a lot of meetup fics blend together for me which is why there arent many on this list, but this one is very memorable and impactful

#i spent so long on this i think i managed to narrow it down to fics that have been super memorable and impacted me #if u end up reading these plss lmk lets talk about it!! #dsmp #dsmp fanfiction recs #dsmp fanfiction #dnf fanfic recs #praying all these links work

[livecharliereaction]

That went by so fast i havent even processed i already read the whole episode after parties included. What the fuck i need to read my own liveblogs

ange didnt actually do shit but its still perfect because just her PRESENCE is so great i just like having her around making her comments. i recall mentioning it at some point but a Sarcastic character as a personality trait is a little hard to pull off because its so easy to make it so unfunny and annoying even... but she is so witty somehow... and shes not really MEAN she is a great talker i do think this she gets along with people GREAT... Yet she has only enemies in this world. How cruel. Ange if i was in your time i would be crying in my bed at night over the fact we woudlnt be friends.

erikas another one whose screentime i aaaalways enjoy now that i got to know her last game shes sooo much fun seriously

i somehow understand beato even less now didnt know thats possible. not sure if i like the dual personality thing she has going on id have to know more

The way she looks just like you is what I really can't get over...! I can't stand it...

kanon n shannon are so Nice. Not mind blowing not life breaking but i did cry over them that one time in the other episode i think theyre very NICE. And maybe im wrong but i cant recall kanon smiling and laughing ever before like he did this episode... Theyre nice both of thme

THEY MADE HER SAY THAT TOO? the au au (i dont know what to make of it but they obviously want me to think of hanyuu with the last convo with bern but i dont know if its like. Crazy direct in that that IS hanyuu or less tangible of a connection u know. Remains to be seen)

again i dont understand beato at all how did she weave herself up just from kanons words they seemed quite normal to me... is it the additional part about observing the trial and all maybe she understood something when it was said that shannon and kanon have less than a whole human soul But beato its ok because i TRUST you to have an explanation for everything in the end...

Somehow very happy that georges past was explained up it feels like the story knows hes a total loser and leaves it up to me to decide if i think he ha somehow redeemed himself through the power of love or not (me i dont think so because his and shannons love doesnt speak to me aside from the scene where she breaks a mirror - and even that i mostly like from the perspective of shannons character and her trying to become human more than As a scene for the couple...) (but now i feel like the storys giving me room to think that instead of me having to actively hate it something something multiple truths yeah)

lol i was probab imagining some vague epilogue stuff nuh uh they married right on my screen just now in the tea party (this was about george n shannon but well battler n beato did too) (I dont know how to feel about it yet though it was just golden land so it might not carry over i mean it should in case battler n beato but it might now i dont really get the time physics still)

ange is so amazings

that EVA appearance... the womb stuff yeah that will get to me it will oh eva...

I did trust erika to deliver last episode too but this one stabilized it that girl is an ACTOR and a DETECTIVE and a NEAR PERFECT PLAYER IN THE GAME an ENTERTAINER and has a cute dress too. wow how amazing It feels too early to do some kind of rankings but i will say if she is someones favorite i Will understand

the tea party w the unions and all i do have to wonder if thatll carry over to the next game... Human kanon?.......But maybe probably not since bern game master

HONORARY SCENE MENTIONS: the intro with the wedding and closed room flashforwards (havent had a foreshadowing scene with unknown narrator for a while - higurashi loved to do that) + kanon admitting his feelings for jessica both first to shannon n then jessica aww + erika fiercely fights miss maria age 9 over nothing + battler showing up to the love trial yayyy + the little scene with dlanor where erika goes I love you. and dlanor goes What did you say? cos its so ooc. crumble of erika lore #cheating + doll jessica how cool will probably never happen again + erikas PERFORMANCE to get the packing tape ...I... Furudo Erika... haev packing tape...!! + beato erika duel near the end i forgot how fun her playstyle is that beato

AND THEN THE TOP 3

BATTLER REJECTS BEATOS COOKIES AND TALKS TO HIMSELF ABOUT IT! How heartbreaking! Wheres beato i was grieving TOO! Woww

Erika seals battler to the closed room special shoutout to the part where she reveals she "re-killed" everyone severed their heads and shit. Who does that? She is just so crazy crazy girl i loooove her.

The wedding of course... The penetrative description of her putting the cursed ring on him... the festivities... the erika dress... the knox crew argument about the windows with gaap... the overall feeling of a This is a cursed wedding. Someone is going to object and the fact that lambdabern was acknowledging this kinda too they were like Girl where is she... the letter addressed to lambdadelta... the beato gaming... Wowwww

IN CONCLUSION. Greatest episode ever did u notice i listed almost every scene literally. What the fuck. I hear it only gets better too. Ok goodnight. erika fan club

#charumi6

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

🫨 anon if u see this we can cry together when we see that theres no brie updates😭 and pls i am not getting enougb sleep somehow im sleeping less

'#SHUA STANS ARE EITHER COMPLETELY VANILLA OR ABSOLUTE FREAKS' i think its racist to judge me based on my man💔

OKAY BUT NO PLEASE HEAR ME OUT IM NOT KINKY LIKE THE ONLY REASON WHY I READ PATHETIC OR UR FANFICS IS BECAUSE THEYRE WELL WRITTEN BUT IM NOT KINKY

like the jeonghan fanfic u made recently w anal i literally acted like it wasnt anal while reading it bc i hate anal IM NOT KINKY I JS LIKE UR FANFICS BECAUSE YOURE GOOD AT WRITING

taking bdsm quiz while writing this bc i need to prove im not kinky

94% Switch 91% Brat 75% Submissive 71% Dominant 70% Masochist 65% Experimentalist 59% Degradee 50% Vanilla 49% Degrader 47% Brat tamer 38% Sadist 36% Master/Mistress (me personally i dont like this) 35% Slave 35% Primal (Prey) 26% Primal (Hunter) 25% Owner 18% Rigger (me personally i dont like this) 9% Pet 8% Daddy/Mommy (me personally i dont like this) 8% Rope bunny (me personally i dont like this)

i didnt paste the ones i got 0 on but i dont think these are kinky 😭 im gna make irl A do this test bc i have to prove shes kinky

okay but me personally i hate the terms daddy/mommy n the master/mistress shit i js hate it AND I HATE I MEAN HATE PET SHIT LIKE PLS IDK HOW THATS EVEN ON THERE and lowk i dont like bondage so rigger and rope bunny gotta be a nono for me

`#EXPERIMENTALISM = EVENTUAL KINKY BASTARD` TRUST ME ITS ONLY BC IM OKAY W TRYING THINGS BUT I USUALLY HATE THEM AND WONT DO IT AGAIN

PLS ALSO I HAD TO EXPLAIN MY RESULTS TO MY IRL😭 shes a little slow okay so i had to explain all of them but shes taking the test rn so ill write her results down here too pls shes taking so long so this ask is taking a lot longer than it should😭 she did the longer ver and i did the short one but here it finally is

95% Submissive 76% Masochist 71% Vanilla 66% Brat 56% Rope bunny 55% Boy/Girl 51% Experimentalist 44% Primal (Prey) 27% Slave 26% Master/Mistress 24% Degradee 19% Switch 19% Pet 14% Sadist 12% Rigger 10% Degrader 8% Dominant 7% Owner 6% Daddy/Mommy 4% Primal (Hunter) 2% Ageplayer she says that she thinks masochist should be lower, shes def not an experimentalist (i think she lowk is tho) and shes 100% not ageplayer, pet, rigger, or rope bunny and i can stand w her on that bc ik fs shes none of those 4

BUT LOWK IM DEF LESS KINKIER THAN HER SO 🔥🔥

- 🤤 anon pls this ask actually took an hour to do sincde i had to take the test then wait for my irl to do the test😭

I'm glad that at the very least... You two have each other :) AND PLEASE HOW ARE YOU SLEEPING LESS!!

Call me racist for judging you based on your man and I will wear that badge with pride. I will 100% of the time judge someone based on their bias IM SORRY BUT IF THE SHOE FITS-

UH HUH OKAY SUREEEE.... I will give you the anal thing too, I used to watch hella hentai with anal and I just smiled and pretended that wasn't what it was.... So.... I get it actually BUT I STILL THINK YOU ARE KINKY

There's something that should be studied about brats... Like... There's something about wanting to defy your partner for fun... There's SOMETHING THERE AND YOU AT 91% BRAT.... I gotta say. I GOTTA SAY these days I'm thinking about bdsm charts as if they're natal charts... what's wrong with me...

SOME PARTS OF THE TEST I FEEL DON'T WORK SUPER WELL BECAUSE OKAY YES HELLO makemegetonmykneesputmeinacollarandmakemebarkandcrawl BUT I don't want to eat food out of a bowl on the floor... uh yeah i stand by that

ILL BE CHECKING BACK WITH YOU ON THIS KINKY THING IN A FEW YEARS BECAUSE WHILE THIS WON'T BE EVERYONE'S EXPERIENCE MY BFF IN HIGH SCHOOL WENT FROM VANILLA ASS RESULTS TO FULL KINKY BASTARD AFTER HER FIRST BOYFRIEND...

What I think is funniest about you telling me your results is that you FULL BLASTED YOUR FRIENDS RESULTS TO ME AND THANK YOU FOR DOING SO I FEEL LIKE I AM ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS AND WE ARE AT A SLEEPOVER AND WE'RE SHOWING TEST RESULTS HAHA

and you know what, people often judge bdsm test results by the amount of green, yellow, and red, so like people tend to see like three green thinks and everything else is yellow and red and think that person is less kinky and lowkey.... those low percentages from your friend.... kinda seeming like you are the most kinky one IM SORRY TO SAY IT.

#b: 🤤 anon #IM SO SORRY THAT IT TOOK YOU AN HOUR BUT WHEN I SAY IT WAS WORTH IT FOR ME #IT WAS WORTH IT FOR ME

[hi-there-cake]

do u have anythingf u want to say about ghost eyes so farrrR????

hm!!! i think its very inch resting!! there are some parts i dont like (emilio is. Like That without pills + carmello’s whole deal seeming unrealistic like when he stops bullying rudy after rudy pleads and his crush gets a hold of him (though i still need to read more of it!!) but otherwise i like it a lot! it feels a bit like a case study almost both due to being “uncensored” as well as the either intentional or unintentional themes. i like how pobodys nerfect in this story, like lots of them are just kind of dicks but in the end theyre still good people. expectations are kind of toyed with like when yfirst meet luther you think hes going to be one of those . stereotypical abusive angry uncles(IM SO SORRY LUTHER) BUT HES NOT!!! despite or even because of the way he is hes one of the most positive influences in tobias’s life ever. or rudy seeming sweet (he is) but theres always that undercurrent of him being sharper than he seems to be. i say sharper not as an allegory for smartness but like in tobias’s analogy- a cupcake but with needles inside. sweet but it can hurt. rudy is also interesting just for how he plays with the idea of being kind? like hes kind and he cares for others but hes not a doormat. he has self respect and will stop being friends with someone if they continue to hurt him (at least thats what i think so far). part of the way he is being in part due to ben and his experiences is very smart like. that Seems like it should be character writing 101 past being important but like. i guess i dont see it much (<- guy who is a botw fan and does not often read other media, i guess it feels like the past of other characters besides the main characters isnt really developed. though rudy is technically a main character but not The main charscyer. i could be very wrong however. the detail about the horror movies is something i like to see (not for rudy but as a writing detail). tobias being naive and opening up more/caring for others the more hes at school is so nice to me. that feels #real, and tobias learning and growing is just fun to see. the advocacy for rebelling with luther is my favorite part i think like YES KING ROB A BANK!!! LIFE IS YOUR OYSTER!!! and the life is your oyster despite the circumstances also feels a bit like a theme, what with tobias breaking the cycle of being totally sheltered as well as possibly being able to save himself from the edburt cycle. also i do like how misunderstandings arent played so… dramatically i guess? like when edburt takes control of tobias and says Shit to rudy and tobias breaks free instead of like. acting betrayed and trying to run from tobias/whatever is common with misunderstandings hes still there for tobias, for worse and for better. he still invites him to go to halloween and tobias is able to explain why he talked to carmello. he didnt mention edburt which is. understandable but worries me for their friendship but they were still there for each other. this is all surface level stuff im sure but it feels impactful. like a well written psa about friendship and instead of the problem being something like. small like “i forgor it was their birthday” youre actually a dick but you can still make it up to them (tbf i do also like psas like that (pokemon) but this isnt targeted for kids. its trying to get a very real message out there). at the same time it also doesnt tolerate abuse and shows the side effects of said abuse, as well as showing abuse that doesnt Seem major but still affects the person all the same (ben and rudy to me). dissing christianity like that is so based. it also shows how abusers are people all the same but it doesnt excuse their actions (ben). edburt having lore and metatext Reasons is very cool to me, like edburt himself is a metaphor in my eyes for. well i would say suppressing yourself and the consequences thereof but i dont think thats Really It. idk that scene of toby and rudy together before edburt comes for him means Something i just dont know what yet. its also interesting how emilio calls toby “a perfect creature” despite tobias

being . Like That (though its not his fault). i also dont know what that means but it means something especially with the pobodys nerfect notion. i wish i could say more but i dunno what else to say. well simons theology is very based. yeah Man i really do wish i could say more…….

#HI DEX THANK UOU!!! #i wish i could do a deeper analysis but i!! dont have the capacity to do that methinks #anyways gjost eyes is cool

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yooo! im back!

i just wanna ramble on a bit about whats been going on; im gonna try to be a little more active again since im done moving and i really need that f/o loving rn. i NEED to look at my deranged little men before i leave my bed in the morning.

this is totally optional to read :')

ah yes. so many realisations these past 2 weeks.

i got into game design classes! im learning so much cool stuff!!

i made some cool new acquaintances/friends who like to hang out with me!

my social battery is empty and i really need a nap! :')

as for the beloved f/os (because my boys deserve an extra section):

i really, REALLY plan on proposing to 🎏. he is incredibly important to me, i just dont know how to propose :') his birthday is soon and i want to celebrate it of course, so im probably gonna wait until december. if anyone wants to tell me how their proposal went; i could really need some advice!! i am incredibly awkward and i do not want to ruin it.

my 🧸 and 💸 brainrot is slowly coming back. thinking about them makes my day go by easier; not only are they my sweet boyfies (they HATE this wording lol) but theyve also been long time comforts to me :) i hope they get stuck inside my thoughts more often. especially 🧸 since hes easily one of my main f/os if it werent for 🎏.

also on god? i think my stupid little crush on 📖 is gonna stay for a bit longer. i do NOT know how to talk to this man about my feelings it just wont work.

and maybe, after all, i AM in fact uncomfortable with sharing some f/os. i do block and move on but its still a little upsetting to look at when i come across it on accident.

its especially hurtful when theyre talking down to or make fun of people who are in live with the same characters :/ youre valid if you dont wanna share just dont be rude.

sorry for the rambling, but thank you if youve read until here! it means a lot to me and im happy to be back :)