#like if i came off rude or mean

[raccoonnutella13]

why are ppl always so mean about taz :(

#every time theres a new arc everyone who only liked balance is like 'oh if u dropped off after balance u have to listen to THIS arc bc its #JUST LIKE BALANCE' #every damn time. #it happened with ethersea a bit but especially w steeplechase and vs dracula #and u get ppl in the notes of these posts saying 'oh yeah i fucking hated everything after balance sooo glad theyre finally doing exactly #what i want them to!!' #like. its ok to have personal preference but dont be mean about it :( #and comparing every campaign to balance is rlly annoying sry #let them be their own thing #stop being so blinded by nostalgia ig #like not to be rude but. i think ppl think balance is the most Perfect Thing Ever but its rlly...not #all the campaigns have flaws but i aint canceling them for that #like what happened with grad #idk its like if balance came later ppl would probably be much more mean about it #bc they wouldnt be blinded by nostalgia as much or smthn #anyways #at the end of the day the mcelroys shouldnt be expected to make a replica of balance every campaign #and thats not what theyre trying to do. theyre doing what THEY personally want to do. like they clearly dont care abt what others think lol #theyre experimenting and having fun #its like. a free podcast with a bunch of silly dudes playing for funsies. they shouldnt have such high expectations or be demonized #in any way #my point being. if i see anyone being mean abt taz u get blocked #>:( #coon speaks #not tagging taz. i dont wanna see nasty ppl in my notifs ty

[bunnyb34r]

I really wasnt expecting that anti-apple post to get notes sgdgdgdg I feel so validated 😭💕

#marquilla #i mean androids could be better too but at least theres variety and you can customize it without 'jail breaking' #also we can have ad block on our phones 😎 get fucked 🤙 #teslas and iphones are two things tech bros (gender neutral) loooove to have and it's so funny in a cringey way like okay enjoy your death #trap on wheels and your gonna break in 3 years phone. you got me! im a broke bitch! 🙄 #BaldBastard has both as well as my aunts husband well he rents them when they rent cars but it's like yall are so lame agdgdgdgd #like im sorry but you could be the coolest person on the planet but the second you have either or god forbid both of those you turn into a #fucking loser sgdgdgdg (and again im mocking apple elitists not people who happen to own iphones and are normal ab it) #he didnt get to rent a Tesla last time they came in and he was SO MAD they gave him a hybrid car not a tesla bc he wanted 'the Tesla #experience' and i had to literally bite my tongue to keep myself from saying 'oh you mean burning to death or drowning bc the self driving #system crashed into a building or drove off a bridge?' SO HARD SGDGGDGDGDGD i was like 😐 agsgdggdgdgd #oh or did you want the tesla experience where you rearend someone on the highway and are thrown out the windshield bc theres no #crumple zones? that experience? #they ofc all have apple watches and are CONSTANTLY checking them for notifications its so fucking rude

[the-ark-awaits]

im well aware this is an irrational and stupid hill to die on, but again, i need to state, marble hornets is not creepypasta, at least in my opinion

this is what i think qualifies creepypasta ok? Written internet horror story. thats it. but the qualifier there is written. can there be a video series based on/to pair with a written creepypasta? hell yeah there can! can there be a larger story/arg elements around a creepypasta besides the main written story! hell the fuck yeah, just look at ben drowned! but i dont think marble hornets hits that qualifier, at least in my opinion

theres only really one written portion of the entire story, and well. you dont need it. its not a written story, its basically the exact same thing as the introduction video. i dont think it counts. marble hornets is something different, its a found footage horror and suspense series posted to youtube, its an arg, its what fans commonly refer to as ‘slenderverse’ (though i always thought that was a little funny considering its the only series with that term applied to it that isnt connected to any of the other series. im pretty sure multiple other slenderverse series have canonically stated that mh is a fictional series in their universes)

and heres another argument. ive never seen anyone argue that everymanhybrid is creepypasta. ive never seen anyone try and tell me that, idk, the walten files or mystery flesh pit national park are creepypasta. and heres why i think that is, and its just a theory but. back in 2009 and later when slenderman was new and marble hornets was new and creepypasta wasnt really a thing yet, the internet saw marble hornets clips out of context. fans of the series would post screencaps or clips of masky and hoodie, people would see them without knowing what it was from. in the nature of internet horror, someone saw a spooky image and ran with it, kind of like how jeff the killer happened. but marble hornets is its own horror story. so taking a character from that and just making them completely different from canon its like. well. if you took fucking, i dunno, spongebob, and were like ‘well i found out about this character from a story i read online which makes him the Internets Property!’ and someone else was like ‘hey just so you know, hes actually from an existing tv series, you should check it out if you like the character’ and then you were like ‘but hes my internet story character and i wanna keep him that way!’ like

like thats fine, i promise, but when yknow. its a character from something other people enjoy, theres like. a few common sense options to not be a dick here, yknow? either redeisgn the character enough that theres a clear difference between the original and the new version, or stop tagging the new version as the original. its not hard.

but yeah in conclusion, marble hornets isnt creepypasta imo, and once again id like to ask creepypasta artists to maybe please stop tagging your creepypasta posts as marble hornets, its a courtesy thing yknow? no ones asking you to stop using masky and hoodie, but we are literally begging you to stop tagging creepypasta posts with marble hornets. you know theres a difference, i know you do, and if you can look me in the eye and tell me a compelling argument for why there isnt and why you should be allowed to post about ticci toby and jeff in the mh tag ill eat my fucking hat

#marble hornets #and like. im not trying to be rude or target anyone here i wanna say #i am simply full of rage in general #i mean i am ppretty upset at this point that such a simply ask is ignored i mean'how you you all feel like the creepypasta tag got overrun #with like. idk. poppy playtime posts or somethingidk its just the first horror game that came to mind #it would suck wouldnt it! #oh on the topic of games im aware that thing slike slender the 8 pages and slender arrival inspired some creepypasta stuff too #but yknow there those games got their inspiration? marble fucking hornets. literally the pages you collect #and several locations your visit in 8 pages are mh locations #THERES A MARBLE HORNETS MODE FOR FUCKS SAKE #and arrival literally has the mh guys in the credits #anyways this went off track

[sun-marie]

Out of the original four champions, Revali is the best character specifically because he doesn't think highly of Link and isn't convinced by a shiny relic saying he's special

#and I'm tired of pretending otherwise lmao #off the heels of the last reblog bc it crops up in multiple games and multiple fandoms #people act like a character disliking the main character is somehow an offending the player #when it's literally just. conflict. which is a good thing in a story #“Oh I can't stand Revali bc he hates Link and he's rude and arrogant” you mean bc he has agency and character flaws?? #baffling take imo that I feel like I saw EVERYWHERE when the game first came out #to be clear I also love the other three champions and link and zelda #(the shiny relic isn't WRONG about Link) #but if Revali wasn't the way he is BotW would not be as engaging imo #marie speaks

[churchandstateofbeing]

instant kill shot

#misha collins #trans #nonbinary #spn #this was so unsettling to see in the wild #(Found it on a Pinterest comment) #From a WEEK ago #instant kill shot. #the way that they’re like “misha!!! after an actor” SO vaguely but you know EXACTLY who it’s about is actually so upsetting #to be fair. I’m not a spn fan but I have been On Tumblr enough to know who that is #Hot disclaimer: this is a joke about seeing tumblr shit off of tumblr #While I do think it’s a bit strange to do that #I wouldn’t want to be mean spirited towards someone so apologies if it came off rude #especially given that as an nb myself I have a lot of experience with the vulnerability of a name change #People can like and be who they want #seriously!!!! No hate toward this person at all!!! #misha collins however…… #that was a joke. i dont know who he is. please don’t doxx me

[luuxxart]

I'm a bit confused, do you actually like pilk?

I want to tell you I didn’t drink two cups of hospital fountain drink Mr. Pibb mixed with milk from cartons right in front of my nursing instructor and my clinical group but.

yeah ,,

#LMAO SORRY IF THAT CAME OFF AS RUDE I KNOW U MEAN WELL!!! #yes yes I do I really do #but I think regular Pepsi with milk is kind of tasteless #it has to be flavored pepsi or something pepsi adjacent that’s already flavored like Dr Pepper or mr pibb #there’s a science to it #I’m gonna have to start tagging pilk fr #pilk mention #ask

[eternal-reverie]

ok im actually feeling a bit crazy I need to interact with ppl beyond my immediate family and workplace

#i need to talk to with friends again #and actually go places #and be my authentic self like I feel I’ve been masking but then I’m scared I’ll come off as rude or self centered or strange #the anxiety!!! #click clack #really thought I grown out of it but nope #my 20’s are all about figuring out that I did not get over the ostracization I faced as an elementary schooler #snowballing into me learning how to be comfortable in solitude but oh no now I’m yearning #hahahaha :’) these feelings came out of nowhere but they’ve been building up slowly for the past year or so #or my whole life actually #im actually more upset that I’m not even doing much with my free time other than scrolling and reading. I wanna make things again!!! #which means if I’m not making things I would love to socialize but I feel so paralyzed #all my needs are met except my social interaction bar???? #and if it were to happen more I can’t keep up a conversation or scared to start one and the pressure of replying #*screams internally* #ok I let that out I just gotta practice talking to people again that’s all…right?

[cats-thoughts]

AJJ - Bad Things

#pretending like the lazy background actually has meaning part 5000 when will they stop? never. #I just. hate backgrounds #so this is actually inspired off of the arg Froglord wanted to make #there was a group of 4 of us and I. as like the only one with writing experience as far as i know. was tasked by the froglord - #- to basically write the story of the arg. like come up with the concepts in stuff #and i had a great time! came up with Lost Co (cause that's the 4 of us' group name) and a basic storyline and even a character #and then i am told 'Ok so now we are going to kill All Of Them' and 'its your fault for getting attached to the character' #(not by FL. FL wanted to kill off everyone which I HEAVILY DISAGREED WITH but other person in the group was just kinda rude?) #and I go HEY Killing all of the protags for shock value is Never a good idea No Body Likes That. #No Body Likes A Story Where The Good Guys Lose And Theres Nothing They Could Have Done About It #(okay well maybe SOME people do but personally it always felt so pessimistic and discouraging and quite frankly Lazy.) #and you know. no one was listening to me. they go Ok We Are Going To Kill Everyone and Your Character Is First #Because theyre likable and prepared which will make it twice as gut wrenching ^.^ #and I go You Know What. Fine. #AND I BACKED OUT OF THE PROJECT #I mean I just stopped messaging the group chat #never said 'im out' or anything just. stopped taking initiative and messaging #and wouldn't you know it. NOTHING HAPPENED AFTER I LEFT #no one messaged anything tried to plan anything nothing #I dont LIKE to take pride in spiteful shit like that but. Come On. Its a lil ironic. #look man you dont listen to the writer see how far you get #anyways Ive let Lost Co sit and broil in my mind for a while now and i still rlly like the idea #so this is what that is Semi based off of #okay that story makes me sound kind of like an ass. and I was. kinda an ass. but like its not That dramatic I'm serious i literally just #stopped saying 'ok here are concepts for the story here's a few ways we can pull it off what do u guys think any ideas/addons?' #and no one ever messaged the chat again #yeah after my last message- which was that my dad thought it sounded like a bunch of kids took too much lsd cause FL said the forest they #were trapped in was like 3 acres on the outside but 5 on the inside which is. A very very tiny patch of trees to get lost in- #the last message was a kinda uncomfortable mini vent of a friend faking 'the final ouch' as my teacher called it #I love my little guy Lost Co iPod from Kansas ^.^

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

im doing one for shinon too bc he deserves it

shinon radiant dawn vc: my mom never hugged me

shinon path of radiance and radiant dawn vc: -treats greil like a respectable father and never mentions his own father literally ever-

shinon radiant dawn death quote: (smiling portrait) “Ugh... This is...such a crock... What a... boring way to die... Co... Commander... Greil... I... I... I'm...” (is he implying “I’m coming to see you again”, based on the quote and smiling portrait?)

#DCB Comments #shinon is one of those characters where the fandom focuses on one single negative trait #and they blow it up completely and pretend it's the only trait he ever has had and ever will have #meanwhile there's a gold mine of information you can figure out just by reading his lines and thinking about why he acts like that #like the whole want for money to live well when they're clearly not super well off mercenaries #or when he takes weapons from dead enemies and gets scolded for it but like can they even afford new weapons regularly? #the way he acts implies he grew up poor and has always been poor and STILL IS but he's there bc he cares about greil #and eventually came to care about everyone else and cares a lot about kids which they had rolf who rly respected shinon #he does what he can to help them raise money when they need it but fact is they always need it #in his quote versus oscar in chapter 18 oscar asks him if promotion is so important and he says it's everything #he clearly has no ill will toward oscar but for shinon getting promoted and getting money in that promotion will help him live well #he's tired of being fucking poor. he doesn't see an issue with wanting to live like you know a normal person should #but ofc everyone sees that he argued with janaff in two supports (which btw janaff egged on HARD and talked shit abt greil #and he also used racist rhetoric back at shinon so like... that whole argument was a two way street #but the fandom ignores that and just calls shinon racist even tho in their A support shinon specifically catches himself #from using a racist term and changes the term he uses so he's not being rude bc he learned he was wrong abt laguz through janaff #and janaff learned he was wrong about beorc through shinon. it was a very development heavy support chain for both of them #the fandom hates on shinon for ''being racist'' even tho he's one of the few non-main characters to actually get full development #and has a complete story from beginning to end between both games and comes out better for it) #i mean that's only a couple examples of things that aren't even hard to read into but ppl like to reduce him to one trait #and one trait that actually gets better and develops through both games. oh no a flawed character who has to have a development journey AAAA #guess what he's perfect specifically bc he's not a boring already perfect and flawless character #he has to get angry and get annoyed and learn from others despite being a grown adult. he has to have negative interactions to grow #he doesn't get to cling to the ADORED main character and get a gay paired ending and be loved for it #which no offense to soren that's not his fault that's the fandom's fault for treating them both the way they do for stupid reasons #i.e. would soren rly be so loved by the fandom if he wasn't tunnel visioned at ike #yes i will take forever to write this out slowly with my injured arm JUST TO GET THIS POINT ACROSS! #HE IS A FANTASTIC CHARACTER EVEN WITHIN THE TELLIUS CAST AND I WILL FIGHT FOR HIM11!!111!!!1! #also i wrote this earlier between those asks no im not that speedy lel. much less with a bandaged arm l e l

[i-ate-a-purse]

yuor art makes me so insane can we maybe get the affogato-espresso lore from ur au PLEASE i need to know more /nf

I could just tell you now….. but where’s the fun with that?

I’m planning to make another few comics about it, maybe a timeline too! So you’ll have to wait and see ;)

#purse answers #btw it’s not really an au but a headcanon #<- I feel like that came off as rude #sorry if it did I didn’t mean it that way bdjdjdk

[rosicheeks]

Interests are music, walking, visiting new places, chilling in the house with a good movie and wine. 5’11 on the chubbier side, waist to neck in tattoos and full arm sleeves, bald but red hair and a beard. Hairy chest. Stocky build.My favourite things are deep conversations with friends and generally just good company. No pets as I’m not home often enough and wouldn’t be fair.

Bffs (that eventually turns into dating 🫣🥰)

✨Send me an ask anonymously describing yourself and I’ll say whether I’d date you, be bffs, or block you✨

#so so so so the reason why I said bffs first #is cause I can see us getting along SO WELL #we can talk about music #(cause I can literally talk about music for HOURS) #we can cuddle up and watch a movie #(cause tbh I like going out but I’m such a homebody) #((I’m trying to work on that but at the end of the day I’d much rather be home all comfy than out partying or something)) #and when you started describing yourself I went 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 #ngl don’t take this the wrong way I’m open to all body types….. but the next bf I have I wouldn’t mind him being chubby 🥺 #my ex is a STICK so it was kinda hard for me #again I’m not saying I wouldn’t date a stick again cause seriously I don’t care about body type…. but if you’re skinnier than me? #you better make me feel damn small 😤 #it always bothered me when my ex would say something and he wouldn’t mean to be rude but it came off bad & I would think about it for days #but enough about that…. I just wanted to say that chubby is a good thing around these parts 🥰🥰🥰 #but but but UHM YOU HAVE SO MANY TATOOOOOOOOS I LOVE IT SO MUCH #when I read that I went 👀🫣🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵 #I love love love tattoos #I’d want to see every single tattoo and hear the story behind them (if they have a story) #UGHHHH I WANT TATTOOOOOOOS #but I think the main thing that resonated with me #was deep conversations #that’s why I could see us becoming super close bffs and then eventually we fall for each other #cause friends that leads to a romantic relationship is the best in my opinion #I miss deep conversations with friends… I haven’t had one in ages #but one of my favorite memories was sitting in my car late at night having a super deep conversation with a friend #and trust me I get the no pet thing #if you could have a pet - would you??? #if we ended up dating? I’d be the best little pet you could ask for 🫣😇 #running out of space but thank you for sending me this! you’re so lovely 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #ask

[dredshirtroberts]

listen. I know my family is bad at communication and acknowledgement of receipt of Thing but when the one thing that consistently happens semi-annually is that I get fussed at for not confirming I received something, it irks me a smidge.

Like if I'm expected to always confirm "Hey I got your [communication/gift]" then why aren't they doing it back? Especially considering the communication in this instance has really actually very important information they will want to know if they want to stay in contact with me.

Like????

Even if I'd just gotten a "K" in response, like. at least it would have let me know they got the damn thing. I sent this email TWO WEEKS AGO and only one person responded - and it was practically immediate too. Like... i know folks are busy, i know shit's going on. I get it. But it would help me feel so much less like I'm suddenly a pariah in the family out of nowhere if like one of the people I'd sent this to had just responded in some way shape or form.

I'd have answered a phone call - i wouldn't have liked it, but i'd have done it. A letter in the mail to my current address even. a message in a bottle probably wouldn't get to me because i'm pretty far from the beaches of the great lakes, and also they're even farther, but like. something right?

my sister at least confirmed she got it and just forgot to respond. i imagine that's what happened with everyone else because we have the same mental illnesses and look. i do it too. but also? also?? i was hounded to respond quickly to things, i was told off every time i wasn't responding within a half hour of any communication. I was asked instantly the next time they saw me if I'd gotten it, even if i hadn't had a chance to see the thing yet.

So forgive me, family, if I'm a little peeved off that all y'all are allowed to "forget to respond" for two whole fucking weeks and then a few extra days (because it's been 2 weeks, 3 days exactly) when i can't let something sit in the mailbox for 2 days because i couldn't get to my mailbox easily while living on my own without getting a phone call or text or email that there should be something waiting in there for me.

*enraged screeching*

#literally the deadline i gave them for my address change was Monday #technically they have until the 8th but i didn't give them that room because i feared they'd use it #and my birthday is this upcoming week and like. idk i was kind of looking forward to maybe getting a card or two perhaps that's silly of me #to look forward to receiving specifically birthday correspondence for my birthday idk man #like i don't have a lot of space to judge i'm also really bad at keeping up lines of communication but when someone sends you #an update with a deadline about when they're moving and to where exactly #and also a big update on a health issue that like. they've mentioned MULTIPLE times #it's generally considered courteous to at least SAY YOU RECEIVED THE MESSAGE even if you didn't have a chance to read the whole thing yet #like???????? #angry i am so angry #like yay my sister responded to the text IT TOOK 2 WEEKS AND ME POKING HER ABOUT IT #again i know. i know people are busy and have other things going on #why did *I* have to be the one who came up with work arounds and ways to avoid doing this to other people when no one else does it for me? #why was *I* the one always getting fussed at and told off and lectured about how rude i was for not getting back to people in a timelymanne #but it's fine for them to IGNORE ME FOR 2 FUCKING WEEKS #like fuck *off* with that bullshit i'm so fucking......... #i mean it. about the others. if my grandparents i sent this to and my other aunt don't respond they don't get any more updates on me #i don't tell them when i move next or where i've gone. if i change my phone number again they don't get it. #like. if you're not going to do me the courtesy of saying ''i got your message you sent'' #AFTER I'VE SENT A FOLLOW UP TWO WEEKS LATER #then you don't get to stay in touch because you clearly do not care about it. #....i already feel like i'm extremely unwantable and like no one will ever desire to stick with me long term #having the family members i spent the majority of my life being around not respond to me does not help that #the SINGULAR person in a whole list of recipients who responded quickly (and also thoroughly but that was *wholly* unexpected) #was someone I barely got a chance to know when I was young because of weird family drama I don't care about #because it doesn't fucking matter y'all are adults now act like it #like. the most supportive member of my family is a woman i thought disliked me on principle because i was my father's child #and it turns out no it's my dad who's the fucked up one who judged her children just because they were hers #cause he hates his sister for some fucking reason. #when she's genuinely the nicest and kindest person i've ever met in my whole family like???

[ourlittlebitofnothinguniverse]

On that hyperspecific poll with the "visually impaired" option, the OP genuinely forgot about glasses and meant to be referring to things like "legally blind" or "only one functioning eye." But they welcome all the glasses wearers that they realized were included after the fact.

sdhgdskfjsdf ahh yeah that makes more sense because as somebody who knows more people who wear glasses irl and online than those that don't, including myself, i definitely wasn't trying to be rude or nit picky but my brain could not get past that perceived snag in common vs hyperspecific so that makes a lot more sense! Thank you for letting me know 83 !!

#i definitely didn't mean to be rude in the tags on it so i apologize if it came off as such!! #i know it came off kinda like nit-picking i just couldn't get my brain to like. ignore the discrepancy ig #that is super funny though i love that tbh #editing this as well now that i'm actually more awake #bc i saw the poll last night when i was half awake and this when i had just woken up so i worded myself not the best both times #because it's hard for me to figure out how to word what's in my brain #and sometimes the words that come are not what i'm actually trying to say #by discrepency i really meant that i was worried the broadness would skew the results and worded it very very badly #that was just the best string of words i could think of for what i meant at that moment

[homunculus-argument]

When it comes to high-context and low-context cultures, where one has the expectation of people understanding specific subtle nuances of what someone says, and the other has the expectation that everything needs to be explicitly said to be understood, I've heard plenty of people from low-context cultures ask "why not say what you mean and mean what you say then, why would you have to speak in riddles?" about high-context ones, like people of the latter type are just being cryptic and esoteric on purpose.

But culture does not consist of things you do on purpose, it is just the way things are done where you were raised. And when you were raised in a high-context culture, the thought of needing to explicitly state something instead of using some phrase or expression that you've learned to use comes as a culture shock, too. It's not "fuck you for not correctly understanding my riddles three", but "oh shit, I hadn't occurred to me that I would need to say that out loud."

The first time I went on a business trip to the US, my partner came with me, and we immediately discovered that he does not fare well on long flights. So when my publisher asked me about future trips, inquiring whether my partner would be coming with me, I asked him. He said that he would, if the flights weren't such a problem - he would need to travel in some way where he could get his feet up or lay down during flights, like business class or first class. Being also a finn, I understood what he meant and relayed the message as is to my publisher, not considering that they might not.

To both of our surprise, they started to actually look for first class tickets for us.

Finnish culture is a high-context one, people don't talk much and aren't very confrontational. Being demanding and putting someone else into a position where they're forced to be upfront or demanding is rude. And in finnish, saying "this would only be possible if these entirely absurd/completely impossible conditions were met" is a polite way of saying "no". You are simply explaining why something cannot be done, without either saying an explicit "no" or seeming like you're making up excuses. It offers the other party an opportunity to agree that these conditions cannot be met, so neither party will come off as confrontational or demanding.

Both me and my boyfriend considered it self-evident that the request was absurd, and could not be read as anything but a polite way to decline. It had not occurred to me that an american's natural response to "it would be impossible to do this" is to start figuring out how to do it anyway.

[lovsome]

venting :-) sorry

#sh tw !! #i am so tired of my mother #last time i saw my therapist i talked about how she drives me insane but still i feel so guilty for getting mad at her because i know she #has issues and literally can not reason but i get so frustrated and exhausted #she took like 9 days off of work to ‘take care of me’ (her words) after my surgery and i didnt ask her to do one thing all these days excep #help me make food and come up with stuff for me to eat bc of my diet rn and thats all #she has been doing her thing all these days like literally just sleeping on the couch and going out with her friends and going shopping and #only made me food herself once (1) in over a week #and i didnt say anything bc i know i cant say anything to her if i dont want to get her to start screaming but today i couldnt take it #i was painting all morning because i am extremely stressed and anxious to make a fucking portfolio to find some work and idk what they thin #i do in my room all day probably sleep but i dont !! im up until 1:30 am working every day even now despite having just had my jaw cut into #pieces and stitched back together #and she went out to the post office for me for a second and then spent the rest of the morning shopping and came back at 12 and had the #audacity to get mad because i hadnt made any food for myself or for anyone else yet #when i literally called her just minutes before to ask her instructions on how to prepare a certain soup for myself and she told me to wait #because she was gonna do it instead #like ??????? #and when i told her i had been busy working all morning and that the whole point of her being home from work was that she said she was gonn #make stuff for me she started screaming like an insane person that i was accusing her and it wasnt fair and i was mean and rude and that sh #does EVERYTHING for me and im ungrateful #and when i say my stomach sinks to the floor every time i hear her yelling #it is ingrained into my brain #i have nightmares about her tantrums and her yelling #im so tired #and it always ends with me getting the urge to hurt myself and i want to cry but i cant because my face hurts when i cry and i am not #allowed to blow my nose bc of my surgery so im just here. swallowing all of this once again

[neep-neep-neep]

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#it's so stupid but a friend's friend was cold and rude to me at a fucking halloween party #like i barely knew this woman #i tried to engage her in polite conversation since she and I were the first to arrive but she straight up ignored me #and then i said 'i don't know if we met i'm [name]' #because it's hard to remember people you've only met before the pandemic #and she was like 'we've met [name]' in this disgusted fucking voice #and the hosts specifically asked people to take their shoes off inside their house and this woman and her gf still wore their shoes #the only people still wearing their shoes in our friends' house after being asked not to #and since there was nowhere to sit and the place was full I rested on the floor and this woman literally stepped on my leg and muttered off #an apology she didn't fucking mean #and i am not bringing it up with my friend because i feel like it would be weird #but i literally don't know her and haven't spoken to her in years i have no idea why she acted this way toward me #like i will try to be polite and friendly to everyone just to make sure they feel welcome I will get along with people I don't even like an #this girl just came out the gate hating my guts #rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #negative