#like its been months but wow........... much to think about

[holmsister]

Unpopular almost blasphemous labru opinion time: kabru would so be into getting flavour profiled actually hed be like. Oh citrus notes interesting. And then he'd have a small crisis about not being able to do the same for Laios BUT he can tell him how quickly he would die if he stabbed him in whatever part he's kissing and that's just as sexy

#labru #nsft text #so much fanfic in which laios is like 'oh you taste almost like..' and kabru is like NO and im sorry esteemed scholars i gotta disagree #its an interesting thing to know! #now if you dont want to go to the trouble of describing taste because its a pain in the ass i respect that #wow but ive been talking a lot about laios eating kabru out lately. it has been a very dry pride month over here what can i say #kabru *sucking a mark into laios' tigh* and you see youd think this is safe but actually an important artery passes here #*resting his ear on the spot* i can even hear your heartbeat!!! *big smile* you'd bleed out in ten minutes #laios *harder than hes ever been in his life* what if. what if you stabbed my dick #kabru *still smiling* not yet #laios: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEE

[roseboysstuff]

idk how to do requests its my first time doing this but could you do Shiro from voltron legendary defender x ftm reader?

Spoilers if ya havent watched it!!

Ok so like yk where that one episode Shiro disappeared and came back after a year and he just immediately went to reader and just fucks him.... soft dom Shiro brainrot... can be a mix of fluff and smut also u can do this req anytime u want no pressure (i have bad memory so i'll eventually forget this LMAO and i lovelovelove how u write i THRIVE with it)

You don't have to worry about spoiling the series to me, I've watched it all over and over Little note about the show : I actually enjoyed it all, even season 8. The only think I don't like is allura x lance, and that Lotor was a bad guy. Allura and lotor should have got together, and lance and keith should have got together. I would also accept keith and shiro.

And thanks for the compliment! I'm glad you like how I write honestly most of it is word vomit so I'm glad others like it too

He had been through hell. Being kidnapped by the Galra had made him mentally exhausted. But most of all. He had missed you.

You. You were his everything. The thought of you had gotten him through his imprisonment. He had almost given in plenty of times. But the memory of your smile, the way you would say his name, and the idea of one day seeing you again, it all kept him going.

And when he managed to escape? All he could think about was you. The ride back to earth in that escape pod was harsh, and he was drifting in and out of consciousness. But he could have sworn he whispered your name throughout the whole trip.

When Keith and the gang rescued him, he begged them to take him back to you. Which they happily obliged.

The reunion was tearful, and he whispered your name over and over like a prayer, holding you tightly until you were just both crying on the floor, embraced.

"I missed you. So much. I'm here, sweetheart, I'm alive. I'm with you."

He kept apologising, and you almost couldn't believe it was real. Takashi Shirogane, your Shiro, was back. You'd been led to believe he was dead. All of the military and all your friends had told you to give up. You'd grieved and cried for months.

And now he was back. You didn't blame him, of course, and so you shut up his apologies with a kiss. You were desperate to feel his lips on yours again, to feel his warmth, to confirm that he was really alive and here with you. He eagerly reciprocated the kiss, wrapping his arms around your waist. He pulled away, about to apologise for the coldness of his new arm, but you just kissed him again.

It was cold, yes, but you didn't care. You wanted your arms around you, no matter what they were made of.

It didn't take long until you were heavily making out, drinking in the taste of each other. He held the back of your head with one hand, with the other sliding down to grasp at your hip. He was unwilling to let go. Neither were you.

He barely managed to pull away enough to pick you up and carry you to the bed, pulling you onto his lap. And it was straight back to kissing again, tearing off each other's clothes, lost in a hazy fog of need, want, love and lust.

There was no need for more foreplay than this. You were completely soaked, and he was hard as a rock. You were ready. Ready to feel his big cock stretching you out. Which it did.

Before he was kidnapped, you were a little more accomodating, considering you were used to taking his cock. But this time, as you sank down, you could feel every vein on his cock, as it stretched you out for the first time in nearly a year.

"Gods... you're so tight, baby boy. Am i hurting you? If I am, we can stop and-"

Well you were having none of that. You sank yourself fully down on his cock, causing you to whimper and him to throw his head back in pleasure, a chesty moan leaving his throat.

"Oh, wow. You're just as voracious as I remember. That's my good little prince, bounce on my cock. Please, baby boy."

How could you refuse such a humble request? Your hips instantly got moving, bouncing and grinding and gyrating. No particular rhythmn, just the desperate need to be together as one. And it was heaven. For both of you.

He was seeing the person who had gotten him through the worst times of his life, bouncing and moaning on his cock. Seeing your hair bounce, your eyes shut, and your mouth wide in a silent O shape. It only fueled his lust, and he started to thrust back.

The rhythmn of your bodies meeting only got less steady as you both got close, and you found yourself clutching onto him for dear life. He was doing the same. Your bodies were impossibly close, not even an atom of space between you, as you both climaxed, crying out the other's name. His hot seed filled your cunt up, and your cunt in turn clenched and milked his cock. it was ecstacy.

As you came down from your orgasms, neither of you let go. How could you? You had both spent the past year begging the universe to give you one more chance, you weren't going to let go.

He kissed your neck and face, a big grin on his face.

"I missed you, missed this. Oh, baby boy, you have no idea."

#ftm reader #male reader #x reader #shiro x ftm reader #shiro x reader #shiro x male reader #shiro smut

[yume-fanfare]

tsukasa finally grew up ..........

#sob sob #he's finally become mature and reliable.......... it's sooo. waugh. he grew up. #i can really see how this personality of his will appear in knights climax...... augh i really like him #im still taking it in. confident mature and reliable tsukasa suou. woah.......... #like its been months but wow........... much to think about #mar's midnight rambles #last mission lb

[northern-passage]

i got my laptop back from repairs today and decided to do a big "what have i been up to" post :-)

things have been kinda all over the place with me lately since march/april. i took a break from working on tnp & wrote one day hike (about 13k words if i remember correctly)

then i was working on faith, my neotwiny jam submission, which wasn't a lot but took a lot of reworking on my part with the word count limit and it was a fun challenge

i also at the same time was working on the first draft of a private project (a novel, i guess.... 😱) which i finished earlier this month and came in at around 100k~ and is now marinating in my files until i find the strength to start editing and redrafting.

this leads me to blood choke which is what i have been working on since, and takes place in the same world as my novel (and is similar in some ways and different in others) which i'm hoping to release the first 2 chapters of soon.

i did some little mini "games" also that i'm not sure will ever see the light of day hahahaha but i have another short kinetic story potentially for another jam that i think is sitting at around 2.5k right now.... i feel a bit self-conscious about it so not sure if i'll publish but it's a sort of companion piece to faith so! we'll see. the other one is almost 5k but it's not at all where i want it to be coding/UI wise so im not sure what im doing with that one, either....

anyways i know it's been quiet here, i've just been working on other projects, and also with all of the computer problems i was having (computer crashes/bluescreening and files getting corrupted) i wasn't working on tnp as much out of fear of potentially losing stuff, especially since my tnp files are Massive compared to my other work. however that has now (hopefully) been fixed with a new hard drive so fingies crossed 🤞

hope you all are having a nice pride month and thanks for sticking around o7

#basically i have been going Insane and writing A Lot. but just not for tnp lmfao #i do think about her every day tho dont worry #blood choke is aiming to be about 4/5 chapters and is much shorter & contained than tnp #my original goal was to actually save it all to release on halloween but i dont think i have the patience for that hahaha #also i do like having the option for potential feedback while i work #my goal is still to hopefully finish it by halloween cus i think that would be fun. and i think/hope that's a good enough cushion 4 myself #wow this made me realize its actually only been like 2 months lmfao. what the hell is wrong with me #personal

[thebigqueer]

unrelated to that rb but im thinking about it and i dont think piper liking jason was ever a forced heteronormativity thing i think she genuinely liked him

#like i relate to her so much cuz like i also like guys and even though at this point in my life im more attracted to girls ive never #considered my guy crushes as 'not knowing i was queer' i think i genuinely liked them #but also the concept of piper not dealing with her internalized amatonormativity hits sooooo hard like i didnt even think of it like that #the fact she moved on from jason so quick too. not that she needs to always feel sad for him but it had to have been like at max 4 months #which isnt to say people cant move on its just for your ex bf dying that seems so quick to me #her turning to romance again to help her problems because its just what shes always been led to believe #especially as a daughter of aphrodite.... wow many thoughts. want to put her in the microwave #in other news i totally admit as cute as her and shel are it was definitely forced as a way to 'show' she was queer #but she didnt need a girl to show she was queer she could hvae just told it honestly. not everyone who finds out theyre queer is immediatel #in a relationship and you dont always need a relationship to realize youre queer #sorry that post got me thinking about other things lol #piper mclean #riordanverse

[lexithwrites]

such a random thought but god i miss kissing???

#ive been single for like six months or so and originally missed everything else about a relationship #but now i wanna make out like wow #didnt think id miss that so much but its so fun to kiss #rant

[daughterofsarenrae]

Do u ever have those days where u like. Look back at ur life and ur just like. U know im really happy with my character growth arc

#im that but like???? most days now???? #its really really wild what getting on the right medication can do #at least im like 90% sure this is my new med. my baseline is like...... sooooo much happier than it was before #ive only been on it for like... a month? so who knows what this looks like for me long term. but at least for now #wow #bel speaks #i could get really sappy in these notes but im not gonna lol #all i will say is that like. as someone who was super paranoid about being judged for their interests/nerdiness #it is so exhilarating to like. go to work and gush about my 4000 piece batman lego set. and everyone i told was like holy shit thats so cool #and none of these people really care about batman or legos. but i do! #and people think happiness and enthusiasm is exciting. and thell get excited with/for u #and like. holds little me's face in my hands. stop being afraid of people seeing ur excitement #me: im not gonna be sappy in the tags #me immediately after: gets sappy about legos #anyways #buy a cool lego set its good for u #and also find some meds to fix ur brain. really really good combo

[this-doesnt-endd]

I dont need these things but i wanna get those like finger pulse oxygen readers and the like blood pressure wrist cuffs. I dont need them i go to dr appts all the time and ive never had issues but like all of a sudden i feel like i really need them and i need to know these stats daily

#we technically have a blood pressure cuff my mom wanted one and then we kept it around before we knew i had sezuires cause we #were worried cause id just have episodes and nearly black out so my dad had me check it a lot #but its the arm one and i dont know how to use it #also ive been like worried a lot lately abt getting seziures which idk why cause theyve been very controlled for like year n half 2yrs now #so theres no reason i should be concerned but i am and i think taking my vitals everyday would make me feel much better #cause like nevermind the fact i havent had a deep breath in like 5 years and im constantly lifting like many many pounds of stuff #all at once all day long and like getting a workout essentially my slightly elevated heart rate means im just gonna like #drop to the floor n black out or like explode or something like theres no reason i need to be taking my pulse like 10 times a day #but it makes me feel better and i will give into that #much like spraying my house with lysol constantly or having to do my door lock routine like 3 times a night it makes me feel better #and i will totally give into that #like thats relatively normal i feel like #i wore a watch for like 2 months straight cause in my mind that was the only thing preventing nuclear war and like i dont wear watches #like that but alas i had to cause im built different (incorrectly) and it was my job to prevent nuclear war #wow im so normal about everything

[bobmckenzie]

ok i don't know WHAT kind of brain fart I had but I've been thinking today marks 6 months since I started shipping with Bob... IT'S NOT SIX DLSKJFKSF IT'S EIGHT 😳😳😳 8 MONTHS!!!

so today i learned i don't know how to count but idec bc it's my 8 month bobiversarry lol ❤️

#(sorry there's basically a freaking diary entry in these tags damn) (needed to get my thoughts out ig lol) #i really am so grateful for him and doug. which i get could sound really silly to ppl outside of this community lol #but they've helped me through the past 8 months and have made me smile even when in the worst moods :'3 #even putting the selfshipping aspect of it aside they just make me happy !! #i honestly CANNOT believe its been that long already though... time has freaking FLOWN by since sept #but actually thinking about it in that way makes me oddly motivated? like that post abt how #'the time will pass anyways.' like i could have done A LOT in those 8 months but... i didn't 🧍🏻‍♀️BUT #there's 8 more months right ahead of me to make use of. like i've been really wanting to learn music theory and production #and im scared bc of how much time it will take. but I started studying a few days ago... and in 8 months i'll have 8 months of experience #idk it's just a comforting thought #like maybe even just in 4 months on the one year bobiverssary (lol) i'll be able to look back on today #and be like WOW i learned SO much since then and made so much music etc. just need to manage my time better all around. #bc of course i also need to do my actual JOB aka finish my next novel and prep for selfpub #cause i'm excited but not nearly ready 4 when my current contract ends. idk if it'll get renewed or not but i'm cool w either outcome 🧘🏻‍♀ #UMMM. i didn't expect to ramble that much LMFAO sorry i was caught off guard by the passage of time ! 😳 #peanut butter and jelly donut #caitiechat

[flippedorbit]

guy who feels annoying All Of The Time for rambling gets told it’s fine to do so unapologetically…… sobs :’] <3 /pos

i shall dm you i guess????? i think that’s most comfy for Me lol??? <- is so bad at social interaction omg save me

(responding to tags again: you fucking GET IT!!!!! shakes you so much omfg dude RAHHHH!!!!!! /affectionate

your cat is so cute…… she is goals (i’m catkin lmao) she looks so cozy and warm and soft and yeah she’s just great. giving her a little kiss because what cat doesn’t deserve lil kissies?)

-gregarious anon

:D yeah i ramble constantly about whatever’s on my mind and am constantly worried about being annoying so when someone else feels that way about rambling to me i just go with it, no being annoying here, just fun and chatting about whatever comes to mind :3

and o7 looking forward to it, gregarious anon

#asks #Apollo answers #gregarious anon #do not be fooled by how cozy she looks. she can be a huge asshole when she wants to be #mostly she’s rather sweet but she has her moments. to be fair she was an outside cat for most of her life before we got her (she was my #aunt’s cat (mother’s full blood younger sister) before she moved and decided to give her to us instead of taking her on a long drive across #numerous state lines (about a 24 hour drive from here where she used to live to the state she lives in now) and Pickles already hated the #drive from my aunts old house to here. but she’s really adjusted well to now being an inside cat. we’ve had her since may i think? maybe #april at the earliest. i know we got her on my senior prom day (literally just an hour before. i was super worried about being late) so its #been about seven or eight months. she was at least relatively socialized with people before we got her thankfully so that wasn’t much of a #problem or thing to worry about. however the only like slight problem we have is that she wasn’t really raised around kittens and we #recently got two (Scamper and Eclipse) so we’re trying to train the kittens to not tear up stuff in the house and train Pickles to be nice #and be gentle with them and share toys and stuff. currently the kittens go up at night into an enclosed mesh playpen and Pickles sleeps in #my room with me like before the kittens came along. we supervise them playing most of the time. i think she’s getting a bit better at being #gentle and playing nice with them. its a slow process but we’re getting somewhere at the very least) #wow that was a lot more than i meant to type. anyway. free Pickles’ lore

[halforcdad]

really saw someone call lucy immature and compare lucy not telling kate she was looking for a new apartment to lucy getting upset at kate for not telling her why she made the move from DIA to FBI (to point out the hypocrisy of not communicating) like what is context

#ncis hawaii #i hesitate to call the discussion around the sneak peek discourse and blow it out of proportion but y'all LMAO #not every slip-up in communication is a huge problem thats just real life i thought we wanted imperfect characters #comparing lucy getting upset bc of the big reveal that kate cared enough abt her to stay in hawaii and turn down a big promotion #after a looong day of compounding emotional turmoil and thinking kate was gonna die #does not really compare to lucy doing this and not telling kate #and lucy wasnt mad at kate for not telling her she was moving to fbi she was mad bc kates whole thing was keeping secrets #and not being upfront abt feelings and how much their relationship meant to her until it was too late #looking for a new apt probably is a thing you would normally tell your SO to be fair but like #this is obviously supposed to be a feel-good ep for kacy and i feel like some of the talk around it and esp lucy has not been in good faith #its just one sneak peek but fandom is all about over speculating and discussing and theorizing and i love that #but some ppl are a little too quick to dogpile on lucy always lol #i also dont think lucy masterminded that as her way of telling kate to get a reaction #bc she seemed genuine when she said is everything okay and pleasantly surprised when kate brought up how often shes over #like lucy probably thought this was all nbd just another thing i have to do and wasn't even thinking abt moving in but obv im speculation #might delete this later i didnt expect to get so spirited over the discussion #I was focusing on lucy saying her life is just work gym and kate like wow thank u for my life #communication is always a work in progress whether youve been together for 5 months or 50 yrs

[sgt-celestial]

<3

#not to dump in the tags but friendship/valentines day has got me thinking about like. how much my mutuals and internet friends have #positively affected my life. its sounds so dumb but for real knowing im not alone and having people who are unconditionally nice to me is #something that means so much to me #and like. minor vent but the few months when i was made to cut off my friendship with one of my old mutuals (hi) were some of the worst #months ive had in a long time #and since we've been able to talk again via tumblr and discord for the past couple years ive felt so much better #and its not like i dont have irl friends! i do but having friends with whom i can talk to and be silly with means. so much to me #anyway. wow hello everyone happy destiel anniversary and peter tork birthday also #emi's meandering jotts

[blurglesmurfklaine]

work and life has been crazy but for anyone following stick season I plan on updating on Friday and finish the fic off by Sunday! 💞

#Klaine #glee #writing probs #stick season lb #for the uh. three people reading lmao #WHO I APPRECIATE SO FUCKIN MUCH #but also for ME bc I am 1) forgetful and 2) need to hold myself to a Real Deadline #that has Power #bc if I just TELL myself ‘yeah I’ll post on Friday’ #I know the bitch who set that deadline and she’s full of shit #but if I make it Real and Tangible #my successful procrastinator powers activate #ALSO LIKE #this has been so fun??? #so far the story as a whole is about 7-8k?? #and nothing was pre-written #so like. 8k in ten days may not seem like a lot but it is to me! #its like. a LOT a lot for me #and idk this whole thing has been so fun and kind of amazing to see what happens when I push myself creatively #like wow I didn’t think I could do this and this AU has been trapped in my mind for months #and I thought it would just live there forever bc I couldn’t do it Justice #but it didn’t! it’s real and out into the Ether! #WILD #okay I’m shutting up now

[fxrtunas]

WEALTH

Financial : wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty / verse dependent

Medical : fit / moderate / sickly / disabled  / disadvantaged / non applicable

Class or Caste : upper / middle / working / lower / destitute / unsure / verse dependent

Education : qualified / unqualified / studying / other

Criminal Record : yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no / has committed crimes, but has not been caught yet

FAMILY

Children : has a child or children / has no children / wants children / verse dependent

Relationship with Family : close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased / it’s complicated

Affiliation : orphaned / adopted / disowned / raised by birth parent / not applicable

TRAITS / TENDENCIES

extroverted / introverted / in between

disorganized / organized / in between

close-minded / open-minded / in between

calm / anxious / in between

disagreeable / agreeable / in between

cautious / reckless / in between

patient / impatient / in between

outspoken / reserved / in between

leader / follower / in between

empathetic / unempathetic / in between

optimistic / pessimistic / in between

traditional / modern / in between

hard-working / lazy / in between

cultured / uncultured / in between

loyal / disloyal / in between

faithful / unfaithful / in between

BELEIFS

Faith : monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic / it’s complicated

Belief in Ghosts or Spirits : yes / no / don’t know / don’t care

Belief in an Afterlife : yes / no / don’t know / don’t care

Belief in Reincarnation : yes / no / don’t know / don’t care

Religious : orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious

Philosophical : yes / no

SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION

Sexuality : heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual / demisexual

Sex : sex repulsed / sex neutral / sex favorable / naive and clueless

Romance: romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favorable / naive and clueless

Potential Sexual Partners : male / female / agender / other / none / all

Potential Romantic Partners : male / female / agender / other / none / all

ABILITIES

Combat Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none  

Literacy Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

Artistic Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

Technical Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

HABITS

Drinking Alcohol : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

Smoking : trying to quit / never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

Other Narcotics : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

Medicinal Drugs : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

Indulgent Food : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

Splurge Spending : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

Gambling : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

TAGGED BY: @veinblooded​​ THANK U <333

TAGGING: time to bother more ppl LKJAFKLAJSF totally ignore this if u guys want ALKSJFLKSAJF @reapcrbunny, @theblackestnlght, @confiteorims, @fourteenth-seat, @adenial, @azemana, @ritterblood, @seatedsacrifice, @blaackbiird​, and anyone that wants to do dis just tag me!! owowowowo

#i say not been caught yet but he did get caught; its just. v secret LKJASFLKASJKLF #kept a secret LKAJSFKLSJ #me bolding stuff in family like i've even thought about it yet lKJASFILJASLKFSALKJf #but u kno. viera culture. wheezes lKJASLKFJSAJf #honestly a lot of these are very verse dependent i feel #cuz allan is very much someone who was made to be swayed by a greater personality #FLKAJSFLKASJF is it time for me to go on another spiel of how allan's backstory and character is basically a blue sidequest WHEZEZES #VERY MISSABLE; WORLD DOESn'T COLLAPSE IF THINGS AREN'T SOLVED SO <333 #but also yeah he can be influenced T__T and honestly idk if i talk about it enough wheezes lJLKASJF #i got a little sidetracked. MY BRAIN IS GOPING EVERYWHERE BUT. YEAH V VERSE DEPENDENT. #if he has a friend or lover or what have u in an rp that is morally good/morally bad; he will absolutely get swayed towards that alignment #DEPENDING on their actions and what happens to them. alln very much can be a product of their interactions wheezes #HE'S AN IMPRESSIONABLE HO LKJALKSJF #but otherwise if the friend or lover is neutral then he just carries on as normal tbh LKJASLKJF #he does his thing; gets sick; gets better eventually; life goes on LKAJSFLKASJF #.... wow i really havent talked about it much i think i still have a post in my drafts from months ago i haven't published yet wheezes #about allan/wol OR allan & wol things bc god can a wol play such a huge factor in allan's life.......... T___T #ok i shut up now LKJSAFIOJQWLKFJ #why am i only inspired to write in the tags #;ooc #;about

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

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#girl i have so many teshes thoughts its INSANE #me starting with haha actually this ship has no basis i just want to Put Tesilid Through It #but over the past few months of brainrotting their dynamic is now like. #what if we were doomed from the start and there was never anything either of us could do to save the other #(not even talking about the regression but rather the stigma bearer thing and how they have no social power) #(but also the regression thing) #what if we loved each other throughout all the lifetimes but there could never be a happy ending. tragedy dogs our footsteps #what if we were 'guy who has a good head on his shoulders and recognises our low social positions and looks out for his friends in similar #predicaments' x 'guy who is way too giving and this is bad bc the world is out to get him and he loves ppl too much to care about #the danger to himself' #what if we were 'guy who is way too giving' x 'guy who wants to protect him but Cant' #doomed ships..... #swings hestio around i like you SO much. i need to put you under a microscope and in a fish tank #(statements that should not ever be viewed by people outside of tumblr) #some of my fic outlines has notes that are like 'wow if they had the transmigrators privilege this wouldnt even have been a problem' #and im suddenly very appreciative of canon #god bless canon tesilid may you be happy. not my fanfic tesilid though im making him miserable #anyway. the more i think about it the more interesting hestio's internal conflict could be #it's about being so acutely aware of how shit their lives already are that he knows having a r/s that is frowned upon would just #make things worse #also i am very much hooked by the fact that like. nowadays i keep seeing ship posts about 'killing myself in front of you to change the #trajectory of your life forever' #for teshes its the opposite. hestio is desperately trying to make sure tesilid doesnt off himself #and also its not hestio dying that changes the trajectory of tesilid's life forever it's hestio confessing #and somehow this inflicts more pain on tesilid in the long run #which is extremely funny bc for all the notes that ive written abt teshes hestio has only confessed like umm. checks notes. 3 times #1. drunk (tesilid is not in the room) 2. the world is ending #like if hestio had managed to take this to the grave like he had originally planned then this could have been avoided #but the tragedy is that tesilid lives thru this multiple times so at least ONE time hestio's going to blab and that forever changes things #crying in fic writing being stupidly hard

[exopelagic]

what WAS the normal child response to learning abt climate change actually. bc I’m pretty sure ‘depressed for at least 6 months and becoming deeply fascinated by apocalypses for ~3 years’ was prooooobably not it but who am I to say

#did NOT realise how much this has shaped me actually #also am not exaggerating when I say depressed I. cannot remmeber a lot of it but my parents were Worried about me #anyway I joke abt how I’m a biologist now bc of pokemon and that is very true but this is probably a pretty big chunk too #it’s just wild like that happened when I was 11 and I was DEEEEEP in the apocalypse trenches until I was at least 14 #I think I wrote my first longish story when I was? 13? about waking up after some massive chunk of time to a world with no people left #that concept rlly held onto me for some reason. just all the people suddenly disappearing #I’m saying all this like I’m not still rlly into apocalypse stories but it is a mere shadow of its former self #anyway I’m so grateful for the conservation module I took this year bc learning abt the state of everything + the way out of it #scientifically instead of piecemeal from the news and the shit I could read abt. has been rlly good for my everything honestly #didn’t properly sink in until two months ago I don’t think that year this is kiiinda what I would like to do with my life #bc I’d always been resistant to the idea of doing conservation or climate science or anything bc historically thinking abt it for too long #has been BAD for me and I didn’t think I could do that forever while keeping most of me #but now I’m at a point where like. okay very likely I’m gonna be an actual scientist. and while pure science is cool and worthwhile #and I still have feelings abt how there’s no funding or anything for studies without immediate practical applications #(THEY NORMALLY COME LATER AND EVEN IF THEY DONT ITS WORTH KNOWING EVERYTHING WE CAN KNOW SHUT UUUUPPP) #i do wanna do smth that’s gonna make a difference bc like I’m kinda in a position where that’s possible here #anyway my masters is gonna be ecology and hopefully with a microclimate focus which is cool as hell and will hopefully keep stuff open a bit #and I’m gonna try do as much as I can next year. there’s some very cool stuff happening I might be able to join #anyway wow this took a turn #climate crisis! woo!! #luke.txt