#literally everyone i've met

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

[catoscloves]

the pipeline between coriolanus hating someone from district two (who considered him a friend) and katniss literally disliking almost everyone she ever met from district two

#snow: i hate him because he has the opportunity to dehumanize district children for his personal benefit/status and he doesn't want to #katniss: literally everyone i've ever met from district two has fucking tried to kill me #anna speaks #thg #tbosas #the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #katniss everdeen #coriolanus snow

[memoriamp4]

The TVDU K team

#tvdu #tvd universe #klaus mikaelson #kol mikaelson #katherine pierce #kai parker #the k team #tvdu villain supremacy #they're just better your honor #the mikaelsons #the vampire diaries #the originals #imagine being elena and knowing your the worse doppleganger #okay but the klaus gif? gag me and call me love #i can fix them #they're slightly psycho but i literally don't care #klaus could kill everyone i've ever met and i'd still swoon for him #kol tell me to relax darling #they're just misunderstood #god i love them #hater only hate them cause they aint them

[jasontoddssuper]

Someone:I hate Hinata and/or Sasuke

My autistic ass:🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

#literally everyone who's an///ti them i've met are just ableists who think autistic people are creepy weirdos who don't deserve friends #so block me if you're an///ti either of them thanks! #hinata hyuga #sasuke uchiha #pro hinata #pro sasuke #autistic hinata #autistic sasuke #pro naruhina #pro sasusaku #pro sasuhina #pro sakuhina #pro inohina #nart #autistic girl summer #actuallyautistic #ableism #letters from summer

[lanayrutower]

being a child of divorce will make you conscious of things like 'bird misogyny' and 'bird grounds for divorce'.

#making a post about it because i've reached rito village and i find it SO FUNNY how no one mentioned that the two most prominent rito women #(saki and amali) talk like they're being oppressed. saki is like 'my husband is teaching my toddler how to be a warrior even though i dont #want him to become one and also he's gone on some murderous revenge rampage that will likely get him killed and leave me a single mom. #could u help.' and it's like. girl im not sure ANYONE can help you now. leave him. meanwhile amali is juggling 5 kids while kass is off #doing... what /is/ he doing? fulfilling his teacher's wish? smtg like that? anyway they should both leave. it's not worth it. #freya talks loz #it's so funny. literally all i've ever heard about botw's rito is that they're warriors so i walked in assuming that meant everyone #and also the very many fanfics/art/comics talking about how teba would feel conflicted about leaving medoh to link because he's so young #like sorry babes i know he's hot but teba does /not/ feel conflicted about rearing child soldiers. he's creating one in his own house. #maybe he's different after the vah medoh quest or in totk but the whiplash of expecting that and warrior rito women and realising that's #not how it is at all is SO FUNNY. #rito women need to fly south to meet the town filled with hot muscular women to teach them about feminism. and bisexuality #i think i've met harth's wife too but i dont recall either her or him saying much about each other.

[jackhues]

there are two types of leafs fans in this world:

-those who are taking the playoffs series by series/game by game after that win, bcz they're traumatized and don't want to be crushed again

-and those who're like "IT'S TIME FOR THE CUP"

#there's literally no in between #the way everyone i've met is so hyped for this #i love this team #i love this city #toronto maple leafs #naqia rambles

[softshuji]

y'know it's a night when hal sits and eats cereal in the dark room at 1.30am.

#i was thinking abt it earlier #but i've been crying so much lately like so much. almost every second day if not every day and i dont know why #actually i do kinda know why. #i think im hitting my limit with a lot of things and one of them is my parent dumping their problems on me #earlier today my mom told me again abt the whole debacle with my dad cheating on her multiple times and everyone knows i find this subject #too much for me i dont tlike to think about it or anything and im so tired of hearing it and especially when i lived through it trust me i #was literally there the whole cheating subject is very raw to me for many reasons and im just tired of being the emotional dump so often #especially because she always comes to me for everything all the time and im so sos tire d #everyone always tells me i should consider my own needs as a person and its okay to have them and yk in theory i agree with this but i just #cant. i grew up not having any needs met so how can i let myself have them now it makes me feel absolutely awful with myself to even #consider having to ask for something off someone and yet i know how wrong this is iknow needa and desires and wants are natural #but mine have always been on the back burner for everyone else. so its' no surprise ive let myself think im something to be used for other #peoples sake. whether that be physically or emotionally and especially the latter. because thats how i see myself someitmes. something #something to make people feel betetr about themselves that has no use outside of how i make them feel - just something to use until they #move onto the next best thing. something more entertaining and better value whatever that might mean something with less feelings less #sensitive. it feels like sometimes thats what i am. the indestructible never breaking hal that somehow has a solution to everything and can #always be there to fix every issue and is there to make people feel better but needs nothing in response #and god it really does feel like my problems dont mean anything to anyone #it does feel like no one thinks theyre worth anything #not worth listening to not worth thr same attention etcetc and yknow what i hate hate hate asking for attention and yet i get upset when i #feel like im not actually being heard or listened to #and i find it happens so often. sometimes i wanna hear it just once for once i wanna hear 'hey its okay to be upset i wish i could hug you' #or something like that god i dont want to be strong and nursing my wounds in private anymore #god i want a hug so bad and someone to just let me cry on them just once i want to be held and told someones got me instead of me doing it #for everyone else all the time #is thisselfish? it feels selfish to say #this is why it affects me so deeply whenever anyone does validate me or tells me its ok to want things or that im loved or anything nice #god i cant handle niceness at all it feels like it knocks me so bad it takes me ages to recover #and yet somehow all i can tell myself is that theyre only saying nice things because theyre being obligated to and not becayuse they feel #like they actually like me

[screamsofanoutlawbrain]

I can describe my gender as being the way it is because I was built a girl, and I had to learn slowly over time that the changes to myself I have made have nothing to do with my gender or sex, but I feel like I got something a bit funky going on inside and I feel a bit like I'm not fully girl but not anything else. I identify as demi girl, and I am a demi girl in the way that a cupcake is a muffin but a muffin is not a cupcake.

Aka if being a girl was like our solar system, then I'm pluto. Technically I'm not supposed to be in there, but nobody wants nor cares to push me outta the party.

#gender identity #gender #demi girl #I knows this and the post about love in a platonic sense ain't what's to be expected of me #but I'm literally named “Screams of an outlaw brain” so why would I be expected to stay on track #I walk down these tracks cause I wanna #demigirl #i am demigirl #I've been pretty comfortable with this part of my identity #and I think I will be #I still use they/them pronouns online though #(tbh though it's probably cause I have a shit habit of calling everything and everyone by they/them pronouns #unless it's some certain things I'll just call her or he) #I need a business card for people I've met #It would probably help #SOTOB'S LETTERS

[rimouskis]

Your “just elope” post made me laugh out loud.

My wedding was five years ago, and I’m STILL mad I couldn’t convince my spouse to elope. It was sooooooo much money, and the pictures are lovely, but seriously, I tell everyone to just take a great trip instead, weddings are dumb.

Marriage is pretty great though.

I am very glad you're experiencing wedded bliss though I wish you were able to experience wedded bliss with an extra $10,000 in the bank lol

#love attending weddings #have yet to enjoy a friend planning one I'm ngl #like I'd feel differently if I met someone who was having a good time but so far it's been stressful dramatic messes #also watching my friends plan weddings has given me a great deal of appreciation for my family too... #like we all have our differences but I also know everyone can put them aside for a single day if need be #and also I know that no one is going to get so drunk they ruin the party #[cousin nick WILL get drunk but he'll just beg you to dance and be a good time lol we like him] #which. cannot be said for either wedding I've been part of lol #idk respectfully if I had a significant other with horrible parents or something I'd literally consider backing out of the relationship... #the amount of peace stolen from my friends because of it is criminal #like genuinely I think bad in-laws can ruin your life and I don't know if a romantic relationship is worth that #(though in one case my friend was the one with... complicated relationships with her parents. so) #idk I'm in a privileged place to say that + have never had to deal with very bad in-laws in a relationship so it's easy for me to say yknow

[cinna-bunnie]

people are so weird about astrology, like aggressively weird - go out of your way to find a post about astrology that has nothing to do with u and feel compelled to tear it down and shit on everyone involved kinda weird.

it's not some big evil force that's hurting anyone lol, if u don't like in then make your own posts - leave the astrology girlies alone!!

#also literally everyone I've ever met who hates astrology has put zero effort into understanding any of it and couldn't name their big 3 🧐 #just say u hate being judged by a rubric u don't get lol. no one's out here saying there's only 12 kinds of people #people who believe in astrology stay in their lane but people who don't need to hop on EVERY astrology post and make sure you know they hate #astrology and will never believe in it - or have actual rude and mean things to say about ppl that do. #(people who add something negative to this post r getting blocked immediately. astrology haters are so irrationally aggro about it) #🙄 I'm just rly annoyed and posting about it

[celestialtrolls-moved]

thinking about aelynn again

#sorry for not doing stuff today i'm drained orz #sometimes i just like to sit and reread her profile again #especially now the new relationships bit because it makes me happy how many people she knows #like... i've had aelynn for 10 years now and a lot of the time aelynn has been the reason i started talking to people OOC #and i just think that's really neat... #obviously her page doesn't have everyone she's met ever although i did consider it but that would literally scroll for miles #and some of those people left the ftc many years ago (although i did still include a couple from that long ago) #also i'm forgetful so i actually can't remember everyone she's met and has feelings about ever #ooc

[magentagalaxies]

happy birthday to the incredible paul bellini!!! may this be the best bellini day ever

(picture on the left is from the first mouth congress concert i went to last december and picture on the right is from my first ever zoom with paul bellini which is going to be exactly a year ago in a few weeks. so surreal how far our friendship has come since then, he's genuinely like family now)

#uncle paul <3 #i should make a ''top ten paul bellini moments'' thing some day. the chia pet story is number one #but also shoutout to literally the first thing he ever said to me on that zoom #i was like ''just so you know i'm feeling a little starstruck right now'' and he was deadpan like ''you'll get over it in 5 minutes.''' #and i did <3. but just because i'm not starstruck doesn't mean i've ever stopped being excited that he knows who i am #also i'm like 99% sure that i reminded the kith instagram to make a bellini post today lmao. i posted this exact thing on instagram #and the kith account liked it and then 5 minutes later posted happy birthday paul bellini like i'm out here reminding people it's bellinida #last thing. this is not a post about scott but can i just take a moment to appreciate how far my friendship with scott has come #just looking at the pics of us together??? #like the one on the left here. that's the first time i ever met scott so obviously he wasn't as familiar with me as paul #so he's just kind of posing doesn't look as excited (plus he was tired it was like 3 a.m. that's fine) #but look at the ''family photo'' i took with all three of my guys in june??? (the one where he's directly next to me) #he looks SO HAPPY by then it's such a difference! like over the course of those months he did get to know me better #and now any time i'm in town it's a whole Event with everyone trying to get their jess-time lmao #as i was falling asleep last night i was thinking about how different that new year's eve trip would be if i went up this year vs last year #just bc everyone knows me a lot better #and it just makes me so happy. character development all around

[holmesandwhatson]

when will people realize that it’s perfectly normal and natural to speak a foreign language with a foreign accent as long as you are understood

#talking about non-native speakers judging other non-native speakers by their english accent lol #it's funny bc I've never met a native speaker of English who would have a problem with that #but polish speakers judging other polish speakers by their english accents? yep I hear it all the time #as someone who spent a lot of time studying english and polish phonetics & phonology I hate it when people do that because #most of the time they have no idea how different our sound systems are #there are only two sounds that are pronounced exactly the same way in both languages! #so it's extremely difficult to 'get rid' of your native accent as an adult #pronunciation is one thing and it's super important to get it right but #accents are natural and literally everyone has an accent #sorry for my rant but I'm just so done with ppl assuming that someone has poor language skills because they don't have a 'native' accent #whatever that is really

[nexus-nebulae]

god i fucking hate the feeling of knowing exactly what you need to help you and telling people that clearly and loudly and asking for help in the most specific ways you know how and still being ignored or being told they don't know what to do for me

#negative #like i'm literally fucking explaining it to you in the clearest fucking words imaginable #and i'm still being told I'M WRONG or being seen as unimportant or not worth the energy #my entire life has been entirely built around changing everything about myself for others' comfort #i'm at my absolute limit #i've met everyone else halfway but they all expect me to do ALL of the work #i can't do any more i need support from SOMEONE PLEASE #im literally at a point where i'm fucking tempted to buy 'friends' off of fiverr just to have someone to TALK to i'm fucking dying #i just hate that the theme of my ENTIRE life has been 'you're too much to deal with go away' #when i don't even have a personality at this point because all i've ever been allowed to be is for other peoples' comfort #and my last friendship being me trying my absolute hardest and BEGGING for connection and just being met with a silent brick wall #and just ending with an unceremonious complete ghosting with no explanation #when literally the ONLY thing i was asking for was like. to maybe have a fun conversation once every few days #i just #i just want someone who wants to connect with me because they genuinely find me as a person fun to be around or interesting or SOMETHING #not someone who just talks to me to get me to stop crying so much because it's annoying when i whine

[kkujo]

this girl i know is literally so embarrassing she posts videos of herself vaping with trending tiktok songs playing it's so fucking cringe lord help me

#not even being mean but holy shit #literally everyone i've met who vapes & posts abt it is the cringest person ever like they're obviously doing it to seem cool and bragging😭 #like if ur gonna vape vape and stfu no one wants to see you dramatically blow smoke into the camera girl stop 😭😭😭

[jonathanrook]

okay but the problem is. and the reason i don't actually id as ace. is that i have. ya'know. been sexually attracted to people before. two. to be specific.

#okay so in hs i thought i was demi which ik is on the ace spectrum #but there were some flaws in that logic. those namely being. i had never actually been attracted to someone before. #in hs okay. you need to hear me out on this. in hs i was doing like. compulsive bisexuality?? #i figured out i was queer but didn't know how really so i was randomly picking all sorts of crushes. not just guys like anyone. #which is why fun fact to this day i still don't know how many people i've actually ever had a crush on lmao bc i'd even lie in my diaries #but i know some of them were real but it was just like. a little romantic attraction. #and everyone i had a crush on (real or fake for the most part) i was friends w so demi whatever. #BUT THEN. 2019. the unthinkable happens. dan howell comes out and i realize i'm a dyke. #it didn't actually happen exactly in that order but it's funnier to explain it that way. #anyway. like a week later i met the second hottest person i've ever seen in my life ever. #side note i'd already met the hottest but i have Sieve Brain and i genuinely don't remember how that went at all in the slightest #so the second hottest will have to do as my point of reference forgive me #anyway before i even knew her name. Salivating. insane. #and to this day i've still only been attracted to those two people. not even celebrities. #i don't know what “celebrity crush” means and at this point i'm too afraid to ask. #but i feel like i'm fairly old to have only wanted to. like. fuck two people. that seems like a low number. i don't know how this works. #and it's not demi if i didn't get to know them first right? #ace people explain y'all are smarter than me real #but it literally is still like i don't understand you people and your. sex. why are you like that. #rachel rants